#ed my gma

[irlplasticlamb]

i know the real you.

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#vic.txt #my ig mutual reminded me it’s the batman month and now i can’t stop thinking about Him #the riddler #the batman #the batman 2022 #edward nashton #riddle at #ed my gma #ed nashton #edward nygma #paul dano #robert pattinson #riddler x batman #my art #fav #art #fanart #illustration #artists on tumblr #digital art #character art #dc #dc comics

[mrs-monaghan]

Re: the pronouns. I think people also don't realize that the big corporations can make JK sing whatever pronouns they want, regardless of what he wants. Jim Morrison (of The Doors) was blacklisted from Ed Sullivan for singing "girl, we couldn't get much higher" when Sullivan asked them to change it to "girl we couldn't get much better". A show like GMA probably diverted to the female pronouns and that's that, but truthfully my Jikook belief is so strong that the pronouns don't bug me lol

#ask shaz #bts ask #jikook #kookmin #minkook #jikook is real

[koisurubeam]

anyways im such a fatass i hate myself so much. i have NO self control and no willpower to do tbh ANYTHING good with my life, but especially dieting and weightloss rn. i fucking suck at it. i was near tears like 10mins ago for no good reason and then it got worse when i remembered that somebody bought me hummus at the grocery store the other day and i havent even touched it because i keep running out of calories for the day. and i dont want to seem UNGRATEFUL and i also dont want it to be tossed or eaten by somebody else because i DO want some like i really like hummus…………… but im stupid and the problem is i cant say no when Other people feed me like i ate a bigass plate of dinner yesterday because my mom gave it to me and then sat w me while i ate it and then today my gma took me for pho and i ate the entire goddamn bowl and the broth……… like why????? skinny people dont eat the entire plate lmfaoo something is so wrong with me but it didnt even OCCUR to me to not eat the whole thing….. because im disgusting…. and now im at my calorie limit for the day AGAIN and all i had was the giant bowl of soup and an iced coffee(that my mom also bought for me). like come on. i could have HAD hummus and like cucumbers but noooooooo i wasted my cals on soup…. because i couldnt eat half and take the leftovers like a normal person……

and im so embarrassed too because i know some of YOU have eds like REAL ones and im failing sooooooo abysmally at even doing normal person levels of eating. im so embarassed. i dont have any of the cool or relateable or edgy mental illnesses lmaooooo i just have the fat weeb neckbeard kind… not the skinny girls with boyfriends kind</3333333 omg im such a loser too i sound like a 13yo using tumblr for the first time. sorry. i dont mean to romanticize or trivialize ur mental illnesses its just im fucking defective and i feel like i have to compete with other mentally ill people and also that im failing miserably at it

#p

[inspiredrawaw]

Wanted to first say thank you to everyone whose been liking my Fullspeed alchemist au!! I’m very happy so many people like my drawings of the boys :D

But this has made me think more on how the other characters would fit into this au! Some FMA characters are still just who they were originally but if they looked a mobian because there is more GMA characters then there is sonic characters

So first is the elrics and Hoenheim.

There’s Sonic as Ed and Tails as Al. For Father I’m having him as Dr. Eggman but for that to work I’m having Mr.Tinker (from IDW comics) as Hoenheim while Trisha Elric is Longclaw. In this story longclaw adopts Sonic and Tails when they were toddlers. And Mr Tinker was sometimes there.

For the Rockwells- Amy is Winry! They both have construction tools they use to fight Sonic/Ed. But also this kind, strong, stubborn, loving character that Winry is fits perfectly with how I see Amy. Pinako Rockwell is still who she is.

As for Teacher I think I might make her be Aleena the Hedgehog.

For Team Mustang you have Knuckles as Roy, Rouge as Hawkeye and the the Chaotix and Mighty the armadillo takes up Knuckles Mustangs team! Knuckles being Roy just fit into place. I was debating if I should do Rouge or Whisper for Hawkeye and then have Rouge as Lust. I decided with Rouge for The fact that just like how Roy and Hawkeye have history so does Knuckles and Rouge!

Which then lead me to the humonculous! For Lust I went with Infinite. Infinite seems the kinda guy whose able to take charge in a group setting like how Lust is (to me at least) there’s also how both have claws. For Greed originally I went with Shadow as greed and then pride as Maria but changed both of those to something else. So now Greed is Mecha! And pride as Sage! Both Pride and Sage are little Victorian children who like to murder 🖤. Envy is Metal Sonic. Someone who was made to be the perfect equivalent to Sonic but can’t quiet get there. And then Sloth as Omega and no idea who Gluttony will be as of right now.

From there let’s do Shadow. Since I scratched the idea of him being Greed I decided to go for Scar for him. After he lost his sister Maria who studied alchemy yet lost her to it along with all of the Ishvalans he is now on a revenge spree. Also in the anime Scar is the first “bad guy” we see Ed really struggling to win against. Which felt similar to Sonic and Shadow. Along Shadows journey of revenge he meets a young little princess from Xing. And Mei is Cream and Cheese! Might have Yoki as Cluth the Opossum. And as for Ling, Fu, and Lan I’m having as the rouge Babylons! Jet as Ling, wave is Lan, and Storm is fu

And 180 into the Hughes family which I think it makes sense for it to be the Wachowski family. So Tom as Maes Hughes, mrs Hughes as Maddie and then probably personify Ozzy and have him be there kid that calls Sonic little brother.

But these are the characters I have for this au so far!! I’m very excited about this au :D I love FMA and alchemy. If people have questions I’ll be happy to answer and talk about this au 👀

#sonic the fullspeed alchemist au #sonic the hedgehog #tails #sonic and tails #au #sfsa:au

[danepopfrippery]

Some stupid cartoon my gma has on for the cats (yeah) used the term ‘pillow pirate’ and if thats not ed i dunno what is

#ofmd #our flag means death

[gracefulvenus]

March 29th. Day 1: 550 cal limit

breakfast: cup of frozen blueberries (80)

lunch: lil salad (137) - one mini bell pepper, 1/4 cup chickpeas, 6 cherry tomatos, one mini cucumber, half a teaspoon olive oil, salt and pepper.

snack: 1/2 cup krave cereal dry (85)

snack #2: watermelon monster (10) gum (5)

dinner: cup of frozen blueberries (80), hard boiled egg (63)

total: 465 :)

how i felt today: since im on my period i felt weaker than usual. this was my first day restricting in a while bc im falling back into my ed. i felt a little lightheaded throughout the day til i had lunch. have been shaky but thats okay. didnt have any cravings cuz i spent like all day on tumblr lol. good day:)

also im only following the cal restriction and water. idk if i drank enough water but i drank more than usual. i don’t exercise much rn cuz i live with my bf and that would be awkward i think. i did go on a little walk tho and took some cute pics. ill do a weigh in tomorrow when im at my gmas cuz my scales at her house still

#tw ana diary #tw disordered eating #tw ed diet #tw ana shit

[iguessricciardo]

@nattasha-romanoff first of thank you for putting my ask into numbers (pie graphs) bcz that shit finally made me think none of us were crazy when we said there is an imbalance in how they treat their drivers . Secondly zachary can fuck right off with the favoritism . Actually their whole team can .

I just saw mercedes promoted lewis’s GMA appearance which was a separate individual commitment lewis had for those trying to defend mclaren’s behavior. If you think mclaren fumbled this bag with daniel ricciardo think again because these people michael phelps(ed) it . They can cover their asses all they want and brag but they will always remain a mid team that’s gonna get shown up this year just watch . Good day .

!!!!!!!!

#you said what needed to be said #and yes thanks to @nattasha-romanoff for giving us the stats!! #ask.txt

[squibll]

CW: personal, talking abt food and weight issues

had a convo w my gma abt my weight and about how im losing a lot of weight even when i think im eating a lot bc im not actually eating that much

i think this has to do a lot with my eating habits living away from family or even from college changed drastically, and due to living with others i naturally have to be more cautious about my food intake of shared foods which is most of the foods in the house. my additude towards food and my weight has always been very turbulent, im not gonna say it never was and im definitely not gonna say it hasn't contributed to my current eating habits/weight loss, it definitely has. but i have a lot of trouble admitting this internally?

i think its really difficult for a person with food issues in any capacity (whether that be via disordered eating or just internal struggles with ones relationship to food) to admit that to themselves, and when they do, its really hard for them to see much actual issue with it. i think this is caused a lot by the world and modern society putting a lot of value on thinness and weighing as little as possible while mocking and vilifying fat people because of a perceived laziness and lack of care for oneself for the sole crime of... being fat.

i often find myself putting myself down for my weight now and before i started losing so much. I don't even know how much i weigh atm and i dont think i want to because it would only further motivate my destructive eating (or lack thereof) habits. i got a lot heavier even before i started t, and then kept getting heavier after because the t increased my hunger by a lot when i first started out. it wasnt really until i started living in an apartment and walking to and from work (which was usually when id have my only meal of the day) often that i started losing weight, but when i did i was estatic.

I wanted, and still want, nothing more than to be thinner. in a world where ones value is based on how attractive they are and how attractive someone is is based inherently in part on how thin they are, its really fucking hard not to want to be thinner. every artistic rendition of myself has been thin, because i want to be thin, because i want to be attractive to others, and. that's just not a healthy mindset to be having, frankly. you shouldnt feel like you arent attractive because of how big or how heavy you are. it also makes you harbor unpleasant mindsets about other fat and chubby people.

ALSO it doesnt help how rampant ed culture runs through trans circles. definitely also with transfems but i see it amplified like tenfold with transmascs because of the white transmasc ideal being a thin white diseased looking boy with "fluffy black hair" and whatnot. even among like, gymbro tmascs, and especially in circles like /ftmg/ on 4chan's /lgbt/ board or truscum circles of tumblr's hayday. it really doesn't help fat transmascs when all the passing advice you give them is for skinny transmascs, kai.

tldr: i have eating problems and a horrible relationship with food and my weight, and its a harmful mindset to have. ed circles practically being hand in hand with trans ones doesnt help.

#johnny.txt #personal #long post! whoops #yes it kinda went nowhere #thats ok #i just wanted to ramble about this bc its been on my mind for way longer than just the convo i had 2day

[hymenpolice]

i forever get 2nd hand embarrassment for my fellow adults who say shit like "oh kids y'all should go outside and play with other kids instead of being online! looking at inappropriate stuff online as a teen messed me up so baad!" like... way to be patronising and also that sounds like a you problem, full offense. well, probably partially "adults in your life" problem for not teaching you to manage your media consumption to your maturity level but ultimately a you problem.

i mean i am concerned for the kids as well specifically bc apparently adults are leaving them high key to their own devices online because "the kids know about the internets better than we adults do now, loool" but growing up around social media really doesn't prime you to know healthy boundaries online etc. but being whiny and patronising isnt gonna help ffs.

(i'm also concerned in the sense that it kinda seems like kids are trying to be so much more mature at a younger age now, and it's kinda sad. but to be honest those of us who got to be kids well into their teens might have been outliers on a global scale and on the wider time scale of humanity. the lucky ones.)

one thing that does rly get on my nerves abt the kids tho is them not keeping to themselves about consuming content not aimed at them. i for sure read 17+ fanfic at age 13 but did i feel the need to tell the author this? NO! If i read smth not meant for me and it confused me, that was my own problem. i didn't go around making myself the online adults' problem... nor did i shove myself into 18+ spaces. but kids nowadays sure do. as if it's the whole internet's job to be their parents instead of just their actual parents' job. adults online by default haven't consented to parenting other people's kids. and if you can't manage your consumption of stuff to your own maturity level, you should ask your actual parents for help. maybe ask them to install some apps that limit what kinda stuff you can look at, if you can't trust your own judgement.

although tbh that isn't really just a kids issue. i know that a lot of people can't manage their consumption of content online to match their own ability to cope, even as adults. some even seek things out on purpose, either as a method of emotional self-harm, or for the addictive feeling of justified outrage. or both. maybe they should ask their parents to monitor their internet usage, too............

(on the other hand, there's a lot to say about 'is this for my comfort, or yours?' a lot of stuff adults want to protect kids from is more for the adults' comfort. protecting kids from gayness. transness. cussing?? how babies are made? the correct words for genitals? some giants of intellect are going around calling genitals "front-butt"…........ i was in a way lucky that i grew up in a family that bred animals, so even tho i didnt get basic sex ed until whenever they give it at school, i had an idea of how babies were made because of how they were made with dogs and horses. the most traumatic single thing from my childhood was my hyperreligious grandma freaking out about me going to sauna with my dad at 12, saying i was too old to do so, which in turn freaked out me. idk all i'm saying is. the odds are that it's the excessive "protecting" from everything, and the adults freaking out about you being exposed to stuff, that has hurt you. it probably isn't that you read some explicit gay fanfic at age 13 that fucked you up. or your same-age cousins lending you porn comics in your early teens. or your cousin showing you 2 girls 1 cup a couple of years later. my gma freaking out about the bathing was infinitely more traumatic.)

(this is obviously not about actual traumatic stuff like someone experiencing csa. this is about of your own volition looking at stuff not geared for your age group.)

[coghive]

Capitol Christian Music Group Honored With 22 GMA Dove Awards

Capitol Christian Music Group (Capitol CMG) earned 22 Dove Award wins for the 53rd Annual GMA Dove Awards, representing honorees in 15 different categories, including breakout star Anne Wilson’s two wins for New Artist of the Year and Pop Contemporary Song of the Year (“My Jesus”), and Jeff Pardo’s win for Producer of the Year.  Winners represent all of Capitol CMG’s entities including Capitol CMG Label Group, Commercial Partnerships, & Capitol CMG Publishing. “Congratulations to our writers, artists and partners on their success at this year’s Dove Awards,” said Capitol Christian Music Group Co-President Brad O’Donnell. “We are so proud to represent every one of them and are excited to see them recognized for their efforts.” “We’re very honored to see our artists and writers recognized by the GMA voters,” echoed O’Donnell’s Co-President, Hudson Plachy. “We’re so inspired by the impact their music is making. Our congratulations to all of the winners and nominees.” Co-hosted by Capitol CMG Label Group artist Chris Tomlin, the GMA Dove Awards were taped live and in person in Nashville, TN, on October 18th, 2022 and aired exclusively on TBN and the TBN app, tonight.  An encore presentation will air on October 28th, 2022 at 8:00p.m. ET and 10:00p.m. ET. Capitol Christian Music Group GMA Dove Award nominations: New Artist of the Year Anne Wilson – Publishing & Label Group Producer of the Year Jeff Pardo – Publishing Rock/Contemporary Recorded Song of the Year “Higher Power,” Crowder ft. Hulvey (Writers David Crowder, Ben Glover, Jeff Sojka) – Publishing & Label Group Pop/Contemporary Recorded Song of the Year “My Jesus,” Anne Wilson (writers Jeff Pardo, Anne Wilson) – Publishing & Label Group Contemporary Gospel Recorded Song of the Year “Gotta Believe,” Tasha Cobbs Leonard (writer Tasha Cobbs Leonard) – Publishing & Label Group Inspirational Recorded Song of the Year “God Is Good,” Francesca Battistelli (writers Ben Glover, Jeff Pardo) – Publishing Southern Gospel Recorded Song of the Year “My Feet Are On The Rock,” Gaither Vocal Band – Commercial Partnership Gospel Worship Recorded Song of the Year “Breathe,” Maverick City Music (writer Pat Barrett) – Publishing Spanish Language Recorded Song of the Year Danzando,” Gateway Worship Español, ft. Daniel Calveti, Becky Collazos, Christine D’Clario, Travy Joe, Josh Morales (writer Christine D’Clario) – Publishing Worship Recorded Song of the Year “Hymn of Heaven,” Phil Wickham (writer Chris Davenport) – Publishing Traditional Gospel Album of the Year  Breakthrough: The Exodus, Ricky Dillard – Label Group Children’s Album of the Year Getty Kids Hymnal – Hymns from Home, Keith & Kristyn Getty ft. The Getty Girls – Commercial Partnerships Christmas/Special Event Album of the Year Emmanuel: Christmas Songs of Worship, Chris Tomlin (Producer Ed Cash) – Publishing & Label Group Recorded Music Packaging of the Year Canyon, Ellie Holcomb – Publishing & Label Group Short Form Video (Performance) “Fake It,” Tauren Wells ft. Aaron Cole – Publishing & Label Group Read the full article

#CapitolChristianMusic

[skin-n-coq]

um chile so anyway..

i decided to stop masking guys, coming out the ed closet and getting serious about my disorder 🥴😇🤩🤡

i'm starting a new diet, a new plan, and a new tracker. i went up a pound and my gma said (multiple times) "in those little tops you could go up to a medium" (i wear a xs-s) so thanks for that grammy 🤭🤪 new diet plan coming within new few posts lovelies

[skinnybabe33]

heres some things i like to do to help me get away with my habits. ofc i do not promote my ed habits and i 100% support recovery. but i know im not getting better anytime soon so i thought id share some things ive learned along the way.

things to do when u feel like bingeing

sleep

workout! exercise is an appetite suppressant. but dont do cardio (at least for me) it always triggers binges. i like to do simple strength training and toning. lily sabri has great ab workout videos and i love april hans slim arms and inner thigh workouts.

school! i love the school months because it gives me a huge distraction. do ur homework, study, or work on something thats not due for a while. ive learned that there is always something due and why not get ahead while u can.

watch videos/look at pics of gross food. this usually helps me.

watch mukbangs. maybe. sometimes they make me hungry, but only if i watch ones with dessert and food i love. but if i watch something with meat (im veggie) or something that sounds bad, it helps me. also imaging how many cal are in the food helps. i like stephanie soo because she talks about true crime

shower/pamper urself. self explanatory, do what makes u feel good.

tips ive learned that help me

take vitamins! i dont take multi vitamins bc the cal scare me, but i take a bunch of individual vitamins. do some research, most of mine have been recommended to me by dr or my gma (lol)

yoga! i love yoga. so many benefits mentally and physically. yoga with adriene has always been my fav. she has yoga for literally everything (even overeating) its a good workout and also helps me calm down.

shower every day!! good hygiene is super important. i usually shower at night, and then in the morning before school j out lotion on to help me smell good. i have a weird thing with being clean and i hate the thought of dirt on my body. but u should prob shower once a day bc no one wants to talk to u if u stink and look musty.

i only wash my hair 2, maybe 3 times a week. it depends on what im doing. but after a while ur hair gets used to it and stops producing so much oil. i swear my hair has grown so much.

counting cals. this is tricky topic. its totally 100% personal. sometimes i love counting cal as it helps me make sure im not eating much. keeps my mind at peace. other times, its really stressful if i dont know the exact cal in something and it gets me all worked up. so sometimes its better to just take a step back and not count cal.

save ur cal for when ur around people. they get suspicious.

dont tell anybody if u dont want to get better. they will just make u eat. i made the mistake of telling my bsf ab it and now at lunch she always bugs me and gives me her food. i am so thankful to have her, but im not ready for recovery so im starting to resent her for trying to force me to eat.

thats all i have now stay safe <3

[danepopfrippery]

#valentinesday sucks. Im dying alone even the #pan girlies dont want this. Only trumpers w 5 kids and a record that look like bobby hill. No thank you.

But fuck it even 5 months ago id rather die than show my stomach. Thanks @mahalia for the #plussize inspo (she barely counts!) well maybe somebody will like it or be inspired. And fwiw i bought this @torrid lingerie for the internet. Trumpers arent worthy.

(Hilariously my gma’s comment is she always thinks my stomach is fabric cuz its so pale. #eds babes unite!)

Lashes: @ashlashofficial

Hair: @ardawigs

#plussizefashion #plussizebeauty #plussizemodel #plussizeburlesque #fatgirls #fatgirlfashion #fatgirl #fatgirlsbly #lingeriemodel #vday #antivalentinesday #galentinesday #galentine #valentine #lgbtq #pansexual #agender #stout #stoutstyle #disabled #disability #disabledfashion #disabledandcute #disabledmodel #disabledpeoplearehot #disabledlingerie

#plus size #disabled #lingerie #fat girls #fat pride

[gavinstrick]

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#ed mention #wow this whole time ive been w my gma she's been harassing me nonstop about my w*ght loss #and she just asked me if i have an eating disorder and it was so condescending now im freaking out #bc now she's gonna lose it if im not constantly eating in front of her and i cant! do ! that

[mreugenekrabs]

im pretty sure all my followers are porn bots but this is for whoever sees it and needs it

i have no idea what the fuck im talking about virtually ever; in this case, however, listen the fuck up. if you or someone you care about is/has been struggling with an ED due to diet culture / family comments etc etc. please stop using a scale. please reassess your relationships with food. please. i’m going to start w my story and end with what i can say that might help. TW talk of bulimia anorexia and binge ED.

growing up, i had overweight parents. they were always dieting. i ate weightwatchers food growing up. and jenny craig. did juice cleanses. did tummy teas. did adkins. followed along the whole time because my parents made it very clear my metabolism would be shot very soon and i’d “look like them.” when i was 12 was the first time i ever really fell into a physical eating disorder beyond binging on the weekends. i was puking my meals as a fucking 12 year old child. i would only net about 900 calories a day max but usually would do 500/400/300 alternating. the thinspo movement was full fuckin force in 2011 so i followed nothing but extreme calorie drop diets all throughout said movement. one day, a friend and i stole diet pills from kmart around age 13. i would take one only on eating days. these worked for awhile until i no longer knew what hunger was. i still don’t have a healthy relationship with food 10 years later and have no concept of what hunger in my body feels like. rumbling can be anything. digestion, thirst. beats me. as i got out of middle school and a bit further away from thinspo and wanting a thigh gap; i started to only desire to be pretty for those around me. thin was becoming less important in terms of thighs and ass, so my only issue was my belly and my “gma arms” and of course eventually my large tits. (against my will i grew honkers that hang. and trust me my whole life small boobed girls make sure u know how lucky they are to not deal w this.) in high school, especially early on i started to completely restrict food. i think this is because it’s a time period where comparing yourself gets way too easy. i justified starving myself by eating a cookie a day. im eating whatever i want so of course 500-900 calories is just fine paired with a 1000 calorie volleyball workout. i had senior girls (who i later found out also were dealing with EDs) tell me i looked so skinny and they would ask how. the praise is always never ending when you look thin through an ED. now imagine my surprise when i drop out of volleyball and go through a depressive episode and develop a heavy binge ED (the one im still struggling and stuck with) and can do nothing but put on weight even if not eating most of your day. adult bodies work a lot differently. learning this has been really hard. hell, stretch marks and thoughts of loose skin are even harder. unfortunately though there’s only one true and sure way to lose and keep off unwanted weight and it’s to be mindful of your calories. end of the day, log them all. if that triggers you, just stick to three meals a day, no leftovers. snack on fruits, veggies. 2000 cals a day is pretty standard but check online to see what deficit is right for you. you have to have a HEALTHY CALORIE DEFECIT to see progress in your body. your body needs carbs and fats for energy. keto is not sustainable and neither are any diets restricting an entire macro. even intermittent fasting is just fancy talk for starving yourself. fasting everyday literally means starve yourself. except for 6 hours a day does not mean your body isn’t being starved. of course i am no where close to being a doctor, but as an ED veteran, please forget about the scale during your journey. whether you want to maintain your weight or lose weight; do what is healthy for your mindset. i personally only weigh myself once a month in the morning only. i don’t restrict any food but buy any food that may trigger a binge in small portions. sucks to have tiny packages of something you could buy in bulk, but if it helps it helps. lastly, please be gentle on yourself. your body will NEVER be what it was in high school and even if you can reach that place, it will be hard to stay there and any deviation from that “goal weight” is gonna hurt like a kick in the face. as afore mentioned i am still in recovery and am working away from this 10 year old burden. just don’t be like me and put it off until your body hurts. your skin is all you really have.

#personal #eating disorder #eating disorders #binge eating disorder #anorexia #bulimia #body image issues