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watchyourbluesturngolden · 3 years

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songs that make me think of vampy and why

this is for drea and leyla ONLY thank u

daylight- taylor swift "i don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you, i don't wanna think of anything else now that i thought of you" bc vampy loves her so much he only wants her 😔 midnight love- girl in red "I know I'm the last one you try to call but I always give in to give you it all" "your silver is my gold" bc miss chiropractor treated him terribly but he loved her with everything and would have gone back to her no matter what watch you sleep- girl in red this one is obvious: bc vampy watches bloodbag sleep :) also "the scar on your spine, you fell off a roof when you were nine" is all appreciating the tiny details about someone and that is definitely something vampy would do :( paper rings: taylor swift "i hate accidents except when we went from friends to this" line without a hook- ricky montgomery "oh baby i am a wreck when i'm without you" bc vampy loves bloodbag so much he just wants to be with her always 😔 dead girl in the pool- girl in red this one is kinda weird but i feel like bloodbag is gonna die at some point and then vampy will just be like "theres a dead girl in the pool (or wherever her corpse is laying slfjskldfjkldsj) i don't know what to do" and then he's gonna make this face

bad habits- ed sheeran bc he was just slutting around before he met bloodbag demons- imagine dragons dont make fun of me for this I KNOW but fr it's vampy renegade- taylor swift "you wouldn't be the first renegade to need somebody" he needs bloodbag 😔 starting line- luke hemmings i can't really explain this one but it's like how you always talk about how his happiness is overshadowed by the fact that he's a monster or whatever million dollar bills - lorde "theres nothing i want but money and time" and vampy has literally all the money and time :) solar power- lorde this is harrys hot girl anthem idk happiness- taylor swift "there'll be happiness after you, but there was happiness because of you" this is him reminiscing on miss chiropractor i wanna get better-bleachers "i didn't know i was lonely til i saw your face" "I didn't know i was broken til i wanted to change" come on 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 good 4 u - olivia rodrigo this is his fuck u song for miss chiropractor my tears ricochet- taylor swift "if i'm dead to you why are you at the wake" it's ironic innit 😌 what a feeling- one direction "what a feeling to be right here beside you now, holding you in my arms" please 😔 "everybody needs someone around" 😔😔😔 "but i can't hold you too close now" bc he has severe attachment and commitment issues :) all you had to do was stay- taylor swift "had me in the palm of your hand, then, why'd you have to go and lock me out when i let you in" omg miss chiropractor really hurt him 😔 king of my heart- taylor swift "and all at once you are the one i have been waiting for" bloodbag @ vampy 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 cruel summer- taylor swift "I love you ain't that the worst thing you ever heard" bc he knows getting close to bloodbag will ultimately only lead to pain for everyone involved "i don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you" bc he can't tell bloodbag everything about him even tho he probably wants to :( thank u next- arianna grande this is weird BUT if miss chiropractor hadn't fucked him up so much he never would have met bloodbag tear in my heart- 21 pilots again don't make fun of me for this I HAVE AN EXPLANATION "you fell asleep in my car i drove the whole time but that's okay i'll just avoid the holes so you sleep fine" if bloodbag fell asleep in his car he would definitely do this :( shape of you-ed sheeran "now my bedsheets smell like you" his room probably smells like honey and lavender all the time now and he's probably foaming at the mouth constantly cowboy in LA "let's skip the club, lets skip the crowd, i wanna take you on a date" bc they both hate clubs!!!!! "I'll hold your hand I'll hold the door bc that's how i was raised" he's a gentleman 😔😔😔😔 & burn- billie eilish "i'll sit and watch your car burn with the fire that you started in me, but you never came back to ask it out" idk for some reason this has vampy and miss chiropractor vibes take me to church- hozier religious trauma babes 🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼 speechless- dan+shay "i'm speechless, staring at you standing there in that dress" love 😔 yours- russel dickerson "i came to life when i first kissed you, the best me has his arms around you, you make me better than i was before, thank god i'm yours" SCREAMING AND CRYING AND SHAKING tolerate it- taylor swift "i know my love should be celebrated, but you tolerate it" MISS ******** DIDN"T APPRECIATE OR CELEBRATE HIS LOVE MIA- anarbor "thinking about my life and everything i did wrong along the way"😔 lay low- josh turner for when bloodbag and vampy go to a cabin in the woods for a week and just love each other 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 who can save me now- anarbor "you stabbed me in the back" this one is pretty literal LSKFJLKSJFLKDSJ "you could have at least been kind enough to let me turn around" ouch 😔 dopamine- anarbor "i'm hooked on your dopamine" vampy and bloodbag ugh lie to me- 5sos this give me vampy and ******** vibes "i wish we never met, cause you're too hard to forget" "while i'm cleaning up your mess i know he's taking

off your dress" bc she probably cheated on him while they were together 😔 and he would have stayed with her if she told him she loved him, even if he knew it was a lie 😔 cotton candy- yungblud it's just a happy song with good vibes like bloodbag and vampy currently have :) small talk- niall horan i don't even have to say anything here pillowtalk- zayn "so we'll piss off the neighbors" chappy 9 vibes dancing with our hands tied- taylor swift "i loved you in spite of deep fears that the world would divide us" vampy rn 😔 once in a lifetime- one direction vampy will live a million lifetimes but he will only ever have one bloodbag 😔 holy ground- taylor swift "tonight i'm gonna dance for all that we've been through but I don't wanna dance if i'm not dancing with you" they've come so far omg 😔 since we're alone- niall horan "you can show me your heart, if you put it all in my hands no i swear no i won't break it apart" crying if i could fly- one direction "for your eyes only i'll show you my heart" rollercoaster- bleachers again i can't explain it but it makes me think of him 😔 so long- niall horan "so if we knew all along why did it take so long" good question bestie current location- LANY "i need your current location to be my current location" they're idiots in love and want to be together all the time 😔 why dont we go there- one direction "hey i don't want you to be the one that got away i wanna get addicted to you you're rushing through my mind i wanna feel the high i wanna be addicted" well hes already addicted to her blood so might as well like you lots- LANY bc they both have issues and can't say love lmao too much to ask- niall horan vampy though wanting love was too much to ask of miss chiropractor 😔 walking in the wind- one direction this one just has his vibes man 😔 heartbeat- carrie underwood "dancing to the rhythm of your heartbeat" bc vampy is obsessed with listening to bloodbag's heart (fan behavior if you ask me) idfc- blackbear this is vampy and ******** bc "tell me that you love me even if it's fake" city of angels- 24kgoldn "i sold my soul to the devil for designer" yes this made me laugh the woods- olivver the kid "waking up in the middle of the woods" "don't you wanna get out of here, out of the woods" flashback to when he was dead in the woods oop "you brought me down to the river, and you pushed me in, hoping that the white rapids would challenge my ability to swim" bc... she's a murderer omg this verse is talking about leaves and i'm freaking out it fits 100% this is crazy "You pick up two handfuls You tell me they're all dried up & dead You know that's nothing like us We'll live forever instead" just a little bit of your heart- ariana grande vampy bc he loves so deeply and completely that he will give all of himself to someone even if they won't do the same my strange addiction- billie eilish bc he is addicted to her blood :) cross your mind- niall horan this is vampy and ******** "love the way you hurt me and it doesn't even cross your mind" "leaving me in pieces (literally lmao) but i swear it's worth it every time" everywhere- niall horan that scene where vampy smelled some perfume or soap or something and it made him think of bloodbag 😔 everything makes him think of her now 😔 "swear it's hard to think it's hard to breathe when you're in the air" put a little love on me- niall horan "you're the only one i need" 😔 bend the rules- niall horan VAMPY AND ******** ALL THE WAY "i'm not saying that you're lying but you're leaving out the truth" heartbreak weather- niall horan "all of my life i've been sleepwalk living, running around the same bars i've been in, it can be so lonely in this city, but it feels different when you're with me" bloodbag and vampy 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 mr loverman- ricky montgomery "i miss my lover man" vampy is probably dramatic like this all the time now that they're official 😔 bad blood- taylor swift again, just for the irony 😌 vapor- 5sos "i want to breathe you in like a vapor i want to be the one you remember i want to feel

your love like the weather all over me" they're so in love like this 😔 catch fire- 5sos "all my life i've been waiting for moments to come" he's been waiting for bloodbag his entire life 😔 beside you-5sos "i wish i was beside you" they want to be together all the time 😔 black and white- niall horan "that first night i was standing at your door fumbling for your keys then i kissed you" ARE YOU KIDDING ME not in the same way- 5sos this is vampy and ******** just bc they were so toxic lkfjskldfjsdlkjf lonely heart-5sos "and i haven't slept in days" lmao ghost of you-5sos "my feet dont dance like they did with you" thinking about when vampy danced for bloodbag and what if they break up 👁️👁️ why wont you love me- 5sos vampy at ******** 😔 he just wanted to be loved 😔😔😔😔😔 fool's gold- one direction "i let you use me from the day that we first met" "i know your love's not real, but that's not the way it feels" STOP IM SAD last first kiss- one direction "let me be your last first kiss" i want them to be together forever 😔 truly madly deeply- one direction "foolishly completely falling and somehow you kicked all my walls in" bloodbag really snuck into his heart huh 😔 fireproof -one direction "nobody saves me baby the way you do" ugh 😔 long story short-taylor swift "clung to the nearest lips long story short it was the wrong guy" (or in vampy's case the wrong vampire) gold rush-taylor swift "and the coastal town we run around has never seen a love as pure as it" bloodbag and vampy are all i want 😔 no judgement- niall horan bc vampy would never judge bloodbag 😔 daddy issues- the neighborhood again im not even gonna say anything here new angel- niall horan "the touch of someone else to save me from myself" this is vampy 😔 god is a woman- ariana grande vampy after he brought bloodbag home the first time something like this- the chainsmokers "just something i can turn to, somebody i can kiss" ALL VAMPY WANTS IS LOVE sweater weather- the neighborhood idk this song makes me think of him all of me- john legend "all of me loves all of you all your curves and all your edges all your perfect imperfections" KSFLKSDJFKLDJSFLJSDKLFJDSKL i like me better- lauv "i like me better when i'm with you" she makes him a better person 😔 sex- eden "oh no, i think i'm catching feelings" vampy when bloodbag went on a date with someone else half a heart- one direction bc bloodbag completes him 😔 theyre so disgusting 😔 only angel- harry styles "turns out she's a devil in between the sheets" woman- harry styles vampy when she was on a date with someone else bc hes a jealous moron temporary fix- one direction this has chappy 1-2 vibes a.m.-one direction when they first started falling in love and he wanted to be with her more often 😔 something great- one direction "i want you here with me like how i pictured it so i don't have to keep imagining" through the dark- one direction just all of this song 😔 happily- one direction "you know i wanna be the one who holds you when you sleep i just want it to be you and i forever" 😔 electric love- borns "i can't let you go now that i got it" canyon moon- harry styles they're just happy like this rn 😔 sunflower vol. 6- harry styles "kiss in the kitchen like it's a dancefloor" "mouth full of toothpaste" when they brushed their teeth together 😔 adore you- harry styles obviously

#music #og post

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sineshion · 4 years

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NEZUSHI PLAYLIST

• Scary Love - The Neighborhood

Your love is scaring me, no one has ever cared for me as much as you do.

• Only Love (Acoustic) - PVRIS

Don’t you shut this down, dont you give this up. Before you came around, I was lost and out of place. You’re the only love I’ve found, and I’m hoping that you’ll stay.

• River Flows In You - Yiruma

• Wild - Troye Sivan

‘Cause there’s still too long till the weekend. Too long till I drown in your hands. Too long since I’ve been a fool.

• Waking Up Slow (Piano Version) - Gabrielle Aplin

You know I’ve never been so lonely on my own. And it shows, cause I don’t see you like I used to. Oh, I’m going back on the things that I know.

• Crossfire - Stephen

Heaven if you sent us down, so we could build a play go round for the sinners to play as saints, you’d be so proud of what we’ve made. I hope you’ve got some beds around, cause you’re the only refuge now. For every mother, and every child, every brother who’s caught in the crossfire.

• I’ll Be Good - Jaymes Young

My past has tasted bitter for years now, so I wield an iron first. Grace is just weakness, or so I’ve been told. I’ve been cold, I’ve been merciless. But the blood on my hands scares me to death. Maybe I’m waking up today.

• Enchanted - Taylor Swift

Your eyes whispered have we met? Across the room, your silhouette starts to make its way to me. The playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks, like passing notes in secrecy.

• Everybody Wants To Rule the World - Lorde

Welcome to your life. There’s no turning back. Even while we sleep. They will find you acting on your best behavior. Turn your back on Mother Nature. Everybody wants to rule the world.

• Fragments - Jaymes Young

You were looking for another way out. Tried to fix these broken things. All we had were fragments. You were stumbling a new way down. Falling on your broken wings. All we had were fragments.

• Two Men In Love - The Irrepressibles

If I asked you now, would you be my prince? Would you lay down your armor, and be with me forever? When you open me, all the power in me moves. How you want to see all the depths of me real. When you open me, all the power in me moves. I feel real. I love you. I love you. I love you.

• Team - Lorde

We live in cities you’ll never see on a screen. Not very pretty, but we sure know how to run things. Livin’ in ruins of a palace within my dreams. And you know, we’re on each other’s team.

• Someone Who Cares - Three Days Grace

Every street in this city is the same to me. Everyone’s got a place to be, but there’s no room for me. Am I to blame when the guilt and the shame hang over me like a dark cloud that chases you down in the pouring rain? It’s so hard to find someone who cares about you. But it’s easy enough to find someone who looks down on you.

• Over and Over - Three Days Grace

I feel it every day, it’s all the same. It brings me down, but I’m the one to blame. I’ve tried everything to get away. So here I go again, chasing you down again. Why do I do this? Over and over, over and over I fall for you. Over and over, over and over I try not to.

• Without You - Three Days Grace

What if I walked without you? What if I ran without you? What if I stand without you? I could not go on. What if I lived without you? What if I loved without you? What if I died without you? I could not go on. You left my side tonight. And I, I just don’t feel right. But I, I can’t let you out of sight. Without you, I’m no one. I’m nothing at all.

• Wrecking Ball - Miley Cyrus

I never meant to start a war. I just wanted you to let me in. And instead of using force, I guess I should have let you win. Don’t you ever say I just walked away. I will always want you. I came in like a wrecking ball. I never hit so hard in love. All I wanted was to break your walls. All you ever did was wreck me.

• I Found - Amber Run

And I’ll use you as a warning sign, that if you talk enough sense then you’ll lose your mind. And I’ll use you as a focal point, so I don’t lose sight of what I want. And I’ve moved further than I thought I could, but I missed you more than I thought I would. And I’ll use as a warning sign, that if you talk enough sense then you’ll lose your mind. Oh, and I found love where it wasn’t supposed to be. Right in front of me. Talk some sense to me.

#no.6 #nezushi #no. 6 #nezumi #shion #playlist #music #personal #ok to reblog!#nezushi playlist #no.6 playlist #inukashi #safu #text

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e8luhs · 5 years

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LIBRA.

LISTEN ON SPOTIFY.

tracklist/annotations under the cut! and make sure you check out my other astro playilsts for your moon/rising if you like this one

I. HEART ATTACK / LOONA

pounding more and more i’ll give it all, take my heart surely you’re my destiny it shines fully in my heart this must be what thrill feels like, darling eventually i fall into you you attack my heart!

II. FLAMINGO / KERO KERO BONITO

black, white, green or blue show off your natural hue! flamingo, if you're multicouloured that's cool too you dont need to change, it's boring being the same flamingo, you're pretty either way

III. FROOT / MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS

living la dolce vita, life couldn't get much sweeter don't you give me a reason that it's not the right season babe, i love you a lot, i'll give you all i've got yeah, you know that it's true i've been saving all my summers for you i've been saving all my summers for you like froot, like froot

IV. VENUS AS A BOY / BJORK

he believes in a beauty he's venus as a boy he believes in a beauty, he believes in a beauty he's venus as a boy

V. FRUIT / ABRA

tell me what you did last night did you close your eyes and think about me like i think about you? tell me why you always fight waiting on you, get with it whats with the resistance baby?

VI. EVERYBODY WANTS TO RULE THE WORLD / TEARS FOR FEARS

it's my own desire, it's my own remorse help me to decide help me make the most of freedom, and of pleasure nothing ever lasts forever everybody wants to rule the world

VII. TUTTIFRUTTI / PHOENIX

smash the castle down, delete it tuttifrutti, it's all on me wreck the spectacle you live in broken glass and porcelain

VIII. THE CULT OF DIONYSUS / THE ORION EXPERIENCE

i'm feeling devious, you're looking glamorous let's get mischievous and polyamorous wine and women and wonderful vices welcome to the cult of dionysus!

IX. REVOLUTION LOVER / LEFT AT LONDON

you know, i know that your hope's been missing i know we both could've almost died i know it's harder everyday to provide but it's gonna change, i can feel it coming and when it's here, we'll be side-by-side i know we'll make it out of this one alive

X. THE LOVE CLUB / LORDE

i joined the club and it's all on there are fights for being my best friend, and the girls get their claws out there's somethin' about hanging out with the wicked kids take the pill, make it too ill the other day i forgot my old address i'm sittin' pretty on the throne, there's nothing more i want except to be alone

XI. MY TYPE / SAINT MOTEL

when there's loving in the air don't fight it, just keep breathing i can't help myself but stare double check for double meanings i'm a man who's got very specific taste

XII. I MISS YOU / BJORK

and if you believe in dreams or what is more important that a dream can come true i will meet you

XIII. LOVER’S ROCK / TV GIRL

while the others talk, we were listening to lovers rock in her bedroom, in her bedroom and if you start to kiss, and the record skips flip it over and sit a little closer

XIV. SHAMPAIN / MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS

lay dagger-dead inside a lonely bed trying to hide the hole inside my head watching the stars slide down to reach the end 'cause sleep is not my friend

XV. & / TALLY HALL

came back again to make it clear that he never said it would meet demand shame on a martyr claiming friends from either perspective of &

XVI. I CAN CHANGE / LCD SOUNDSYSTEM

but i can change, i can change, i can change, i can change i can change, i can change, i can change if it helps you fall in love (fall in love)

XVII. RIBS / LORDE

the drink you spilt all over me "lover's spit" left on repeat my mom and dad let me stay home it drives you crazy, getting old

XVIII. RUN THE HEART / SLEIGH BELLS

you wanna, wanna, hang a name on me you wanna, wanna, hang a name on me you wanna know what's good for me you wanna know what's good for me

XIX. THE STATE OF DREAMING / MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS

all i really want is to be wonderful people in this town they, they can be so cruel i live my life inside a dream only waking when i sleep if i could sell my sorry soul, i would have it all

XX. I WANNA GET BETTER / THE BLEACHERS

i go up to my room and there's girls on the ceiling cut out their pictures and i chase that feeling of an eighteen year old who didn't know what loss was now i'm a stranger and i miss the days of a life still permanent mourn the years before i got carried away

#astro #plylsts #for all you love core ers out there.

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the-gneech · 5 years

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(Image Source: https://www.themarysue.com/riverdale-netflix-meme-video/)

One of my writing pals contacted me yesterday: he was trying to write a story for The Reclamation Project but wasn’t happy with the results he was coming up with. In an effort to get his creative juices flowing, I sent him a link to a Pinterest board I had created to help me get into the right frame of mind.

“Maybe I’ve been going around this wrong,” he replied. “I’ve been trying to pull story ideas out of thin air, but that’s proving hard. I used to go looking at pictures, but it felt like a crutch…”

I’m here to tell you, when it comes to creating story ideas, there’s no such thing as a crutch. There are only tools!

Inspiration is a Fickle Mistress

Sometimes a story will leap nearly fully-formed into your head, and the biggest obstacle is making sure to get it all written down before you forget it. And those times when the Muse Burns Within You are amazing!

…But unreliable.

If you want to get somewhere as a professional writer, you need to be able to create stories on demand. While “writer’s block” is a very personal experience, in my own case it’s often a matter of “perfect being the enemy of good.” Writing as a deliberate craft is less like dictating the voice of the muse, and more like slopping a giant blob of clay onto the wheel and spinning it into a useful shape — and since the final product is going to be vastly different from that original lump of clay anyhow, you can use whatever you need to get it started. Write about your cat. Take a story out of the news, flip the gender of all parties involved, and set it on a space station or in ancient Babylon. All you need is a starting point!

Here are some starting points I like to use…

Image Boards

A picture can be worth a lot more than a thousand words. Looking at an evocative image and asking yourself, “What’s happening here? Who are these people? How did this come to pass?” might be all you need to get the ball rolling.

I’ve already mentioned Pinterest. It’s not the best for all applications (it’s terrible about original sources, just for starters), but just in terms of finding neat pictures to look at it’s a good start. Tumblr is another source that’s easy to search by keyword. Want to write steampunk? Check out Steampunk Tendencies. Need a very specific “anime + elves” vibe? Do a keyword search for “anime elves.” If you can think of something, there’s probably at least one and possibly several blogs devoted to it.

The point of these boards is not to give you “the thing” you’re going to write; just lifting someone else’s creative work and repackaging it as your own would be a crutch, and worse. The point of these boards is to give you suggestions for moments, or ideas, or possibilities, that you will then weave into your own stories. An old pulp sci-fi painting I found on Pinterest gave me an arresting visual image; when I combined that with my own characters and plot it became a 15,000-word story.

Story Prompts

Story prompts are everywhere, from games like Rory’s Story Cubes or Storymatic, to NaNoWriMo Word Wars, to Writer’s Digest. One friend of mine sometimes uses Tarot readings to create story outlines.

I generally find prompts to be very hit-or-miss; if I don’t have a single notion in my head, the phrase “When you come to a fork in the road, take it!” is not going to be enough by itself. However, a prompt combined with something else — a character idea, for instance, or a relationship dynamic I want to explore — can sometimes be just enough to prod me into the right direction.

Fanfic

Here’s my secret, Cap: almost all my fic is fanfic.

Everybody knows about 50 Shades by now, right? My novel Sky Pirates of Calypsitania began its life as a notion for an AU fic about “Rainbow Dash, Airship Pirate,” even if the final story doesn’t have a little pony in sight.

Fanfic is a massive creative energy generator (well deserving of a Hugo award). One of its most powerful features is that, by piggy-backing onto established properties, it allows writers to cut to the chase in their story creation. The characters are already established and the rules of the universe are already written, so all the writer has to do is figure out what happens and write that.

Remember, however, that we’re talking about tools to get you started here, not finished stories. If all you do is shave the names and serial numbers off of a fanfic and repackage it as a new story, people are gonna notice. Fanfic can give you the bones of an outline, but you still have to go back and do the work of establishing your characters, and building your world, before you can truly call the work your own.

Genre-Mashing

This is a long-established practice, and a great one. Take two very different things you love, mash ’em together, and see what sparks fly. Put Casablanca in space and you get Babylon 5. Put a roaming samurai in the old west and you get A Fistful of Dollars. Put British snark and a touch of sentimental romance into The Book of Revelation and you get Good Omens.

There’s a lot of crossover between this category and fanfic — “alternate universe,” “fix-fic,” and “X but Y” are all well-traveled fanfic paths. You could make a cogent argument that Lord of the Rings is “Macbeth Meets Der Rings Des Nibelungen,” and Tolkien did all right for himself.

Writing to Market

And of course, there’s always just finding out what an editor wants, and writing that. For The Perfect Warrior, I was given the title and back cover blurb, and told to write an adventure that matched it.

In some ways, this is just a leveled-up version of a writing prompt. Cruising sites like Manuscript Wishlist, or checking out upcoming anthologies in your favorite genres, can not only spark cool story ideas, but has the added bonus of giving you a target market and a deadline!

Don’t Be Precious

Whatever method you use to get words flowing, the important thing to remember is that writing any story is a process and a journey. Give yourself permission to create something rough, and get writing! In the words of Tim Powers, “The first draft is supposed to be crap.” Where would the skill of the sculptor come in, if the blob of clay was perfect when it was first plopped down?

#writing #ideas #JohnRRobey #blog

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lieutenant-selar · 6 years

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tagged by @deannaboi !!!!!!! THANKS eliza

Nicknames: spooky, after my number one kin, my biggest man out there Fox Mold

Gender: f, but funny story i have friends that call me a he too so its ? they all just kind of assumed back them and it stuck wt me so some people may @ me with he/him,, tho it’s mostly just old online friends and i dont have any of them over here

Sign: virgo

Height: around 5′6

Time: inescapble

Fave Band:

i like everything everything , and lord huron, bad suns! i have a lot here, bite this onions everything everything: the wheel is turning now,,, only as good as my god

lord huron!!!!! lonesome dreams, time to run

bad suns: salt, daft pretty boys

Fave Artist: i have so many!? if you ask me what my fave something, anything, is its safe to asume im going to have 20

Song stuck in my head: uhhhh faith of the heart because im watching enterprise for the first time and im not a bastard so i never skip the intro

Last movie I saw: i was watching a scary one with my brother this afternoon but i fell asleep, it had a guy with a mask? i really wasnt paying attention

Last show I watched: friends because im feeling despair atm and its a Comfort Show

When did I create my blog: SO long ago, it went without using for So Long, until i started using it for st recently

What do I post: star trek mostly, this might be the worst blog out here

Last thing I googled: dan schneider

Do I have any other blogs: that i use? only a sideblog where i post screen caps i want to save but not on my computer

Do I get asks: sometimes, people are nice!

Why did I choose my url: i like suzie plakson’s lesbian vulcan doctor

Following and followed by: we all catholic here

Average hours of sleep: ????? around 7 or 6 im always tired

Lucky number: 5, 7, 25, 75 but NOT 57

Instruments: what

What am I wearing: just sports shorts and a loose shirt

Dream Job: i dont know milf. have you seen that video where the guy is like ‘’enjoy freezing’’ and then he starts dancing?

Dream Trip: i love roadtrips, i dont even care where we going as long as it’s far far away and we have an aux cord. romantic

Fave food: cheesy pasta :(

Fav song: elton john’s rocket man firstt of all, everybody wants to rule the world by tears for fears, pantomime by imagine dragons, the wheel is turning now by everything everything

Last book I read: 1984

Top 3 fictional universes I wanna join: hmm well the star trek universe, marvel if i get to be an x men,, and i know its going to sound dumb but probably the friends universe too because everything always turns out alright for them so im tagging hmmm @starboysisko @elissastillstands @spockolesbian @captaincrusher @gabriellorca @parmachkais @xenolnguistics @cardassiian

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buoyantsaturn · 7 years

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tagged by: @motivatedcryptidtamer

the last:

1. drink: water

2. phone call: idk my mom probably

3. text message: ((a very long text explaining that my grandpa is dying))

4. song you listened to: Everybody Wants to Rule the World by Lorde

5. time you cried: last night at like 1am

have you ever: 6. dated someone twice: No 7. kissed someone and regretted it: No 8. been cheated on: No 9. lost someone special: yes 10. been depressed: 24/7 11. gotten drunk & thrown up: no

Favorite colors:

12. turquoise

13. teal

14. royal purple

in the last year have you: 15. made new friends: yes 16. fallen out of love: No 17. laughed until you cried: also last night about 1am but for a different reason 18. found out someone was talking about you: lol dont even get me started 19. met someone who changed you: i mean probably 20. found out who your friends are: i guess???

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: no

general: 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: literally all of them 23. do you have any pets: a cat named jack who is my sister’s and a dog named douglas oliver gouldman who lives with my friend now

24. do you want to change your name: nah like i’ll just settle for nicknames

25. what did you do for your last birthday: went shopping with my aunt for a prom dress ((she coupons and we got a $180 dress for $40 fricken wild right))

26. what time did you wake up: 10:30am with my alarm 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: talking to my mom and my sister

28. name something you can’t wait for: being settled into college 31. what are you listening to right now: that 70′s show on in the background

32. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: eugh my aunt’s boyfriend, also i have a cousin named tommy

33. something that is getting on your nerves: my best friend acting like she hates me sometimes but the next day pretending that nothings wrong

34. most visited website: does google drive count as a website 35. hair color: naturally brown, rn its blonde with like 0.01% pink tint

36. long or short hair: short like shoulder-length max 39. piercings: ears, but i’m allergic to like,,,, every metal ever made,,,, 40. blood type: O+ 41. nicknames: catie, c.j., cate, julie, comrade joseph stalin, p.j., ceej, celeste, cecil jones

42. relationship status: Single

43. zodiac: aries 44. pronouns: she/her 45. favorite tv show: currently mtv’s catfish 46. tattoos: none maybe one soonish 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: no 49. piercing: didnt we already do this 50. sport: i played soccer for 6 years, baseball for 2 i think and softball for 2 or 3 and i hated all of them

51. vacation: a whole lot of them, i think my dad wants us to go North™ for the weekend 52. pair of trainers: ive got some like blue/grey vans and for graduation i got some teal converse but bro i have so many pairs of shoes dont limit this to tennis shoes

more general

53. eating: i had a clif bar this morning 54. fav drink: apple juice

55. what you’re up to: im,,,,, filling this out,,,,,,, 57. want: i whole lot of things,,,, idk,,,, 58. get married: eh 59. career: idk something comedy/theatre/acting related which is better:

60. hugs or kisses: hugs 61. lips or eyes: ??? 62. shorter or taller: taller

63. older or younger: ???? 64. nice arms or nice stomach: ???

65. hook up or relationship: relationship

66. troublemaker or hesitant: ???? guys im ace

have you ever: 67. kissed a stranger: No 68. drank hard liquor: no 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: hard to lose them when u dont wear them 70. turned someone down: yes bc they thought it was a joke

71. sex on the first date: no 72. broken someone’s heart: no 73. had your heart broken: no 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: Yes 76. fallen for a friend: no

do you believe in 77. yourself: whos to say 78. miracles: sure 79. love at first sight: idk

80. santa claus: nah 81. kiss on the first date: eh 82. angels: sure

other

83. current best friend’s name: danielle

84. eye colour: blue

85. favorite movie: oh boy how should i know

#mine #the only person i wouldve tagged tagged me

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inheritor-rebellious · 6 years

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I'm slowly growing towards my breaking point. I hate talking about matters like this, but it matters now because I don't give a fuck at the moment. At times, I don't mind being the good guy and that's a good thing. It's always good to do the right thing. Sometimes they're even right wrongs as they are wrong rights. After these past few months, it's been making me believe I don't want to be the good guy anymore........ I don't want to be nice. I don't want to be causal. I don't want to feel concern, bothered, show sympathy, be merciful, I don't want to be someone's escape or outlet anymore because I DO NOT CARE. Ok? (I am in the heat of the moment, so to those who read this who know me personally, please don't target yourselves from own current misery.) I'm just like shit. Everything's going fine for everyone else, yet I'm still trying to swim through this ocean of everybody else's perils. The fucked up thing about it is that I don't have a problem, but the problems of those around create those problems and those problems grip grab stab attack decimate and just rip me apart, even though, I'm minding my own fuckin business and I'm doing what I see to be right as well as always doing the right thing, but it's never enough and I don't understand. What does it take? Does it really take me out of the picture just to have some moment of happiness or are their hidden emotions? What do they really feel about me that I don't know? What is wrong with me that I have a problem that I'm oblivious to? Is what I do not good enough? Do my words really mean nothing and just based off the present moment of they view me, I will never matter meet some imaginary standards do the right thing just follow the rules listen somehow I'm wrong though out this situation or situations despite that I'm the victim that no one shows empathy or empathizes with. It's always ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME MY PROBLEMS ARE MORE SERIOUS THEN YOURS GROW UP THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU YOU NEED TO SEE YOUR THERAPIST IM SICK OF YOU YOUR PROBLEMS ARENT AS IMPORTANT AS MINE YOU NEED TO GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER GET A LIFE A GF GET A JOB WHY DONT YOU PAY FOR ANYTHING WHATS WRONG WITH YOU. Ok. Oooooooooooooooooook. I always question myself with how I just deal with these things, how I put it with it, how I don't off the deep end and just let off everything inside of me. So it's wrong of me not to pay for anything but I must keep giving more and more and more until I have no more and that's the right thing????? Is that really how people are about things like this even family? All of you, people, associates, friends, family, loved ones, you are all SELFISH. Just pure emotion, no logic or even type of understanding. It just makes me want to you know what? Don't even worry about it.......... I just wanted simple shit out of this year that was going good for me: a job longer then 2 months. An apartment and a car. Working on my dream like I always do and care. Especially what I think about all the time, I just want to fall in love. There. That's it. I could less if I was famous and well appreciated, but I wish I was that well appreciated right now but I'm not and never had been. It's like people never tell me these things like I've done a good job I love you you did good I'm proud of you you mean so much to me you are wonderful, I NEVER RECEIVE THESE THINGS AND THESE ARE JUST MERE WORDS THAT I HAVE BEEN FOR FOR YEARS NOW AND EVEN RIGHT NOW. I do soooooooooooooooooo much for the ones I love and it never gets what it deserves. Hell, I hardly receive rewards nor am I congratulated. I'm surprised I haven't gotten an award for not being acknowledged at all or known about this subject to other people. I will never stop loving who I love. I want and wish for great things to happen to them and even everyone I never even fuckin met right now. I always wish I had someone to check in on me, see how I'm doing, actually show the regard and feelings and the consideration instead of their selfish needs or can I have money can you do this why don't pay for this you need to start eating more. I just want to be loved. I want to date. I want to fuck. I want to have a big family with no regrets and just an honest dream fulfilled future just to make up for the things I don't have right now when I really needed now or growing up. That's what more important to me then being famous. I'm not greedy. Money ain't shit to me but I will never trade friends family or the one I love for anything else. That's the grandest treasure and my life changed 7 years ago. Even if I don't have the current person I'm talking to right now, I can accept it as it is and not a loss because the thought alone is but a beautiful life if we were together or not. It just wasn't meant to be. It's crazy because I'm taking my old love about my new love. I can't wait for the days when I hear I love you shon. I can't fuckin wait. I go through so so so so much bullshit with everyone and everything and I complain bitch moan groan die but I never quit on shit or people. I can't wait until I mean that much to someone. I can't wait until I hear and feel those words for real and it's not just hollow. I always lose but you lose something to gain something. But that day will end I can actually put a stop to it by my own terms and I will never doubt how I will do these things because I know my flaws. I know when I'm wrong, I know I'm an idiot, I know I'm probably a lot of things that you hate love resent pity empathic just can't believe it can you? Mom I love you but you can be the worlds number 1 bitch that really makes me want to flip the world or apartment upside down. I love you but if you cross lines that I wouldn't I will start fires that Travis couldn't stop. Dad you will always be grade one supreme lord man whore of all dumbass whack stupid motherfuckers dads on this fuckin planet. Tyrae always breaks boundaries and the laws of physics but you take the cake because you were before you fuckin dumbass. I honestly love my parents enough to say this crazy shit. You only love someone so much to the point where you want to kill them but you know it's real and you're not really out for blood. To my old best friend Byron. WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BROTHERS WE'RE SUPPOSED TO FRIENDS NOT ENEMIES WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO US TO YOU TO ME THIS IS NOT THE PERSON THE MAN THE FRIEND THE BROTHER THAT I MET WHO CHANED MY FUCKIN LIFE 7 YEARS AGO DO NOT I REPEAT DO NOT MAKE ME REGRET THAT SHIT I LIVE A LIFE WITH NO FUCKIN REGRETS NOW AND IVE BEEN ON A FUCKIN ROLL DESPITE ALL THE BULLSHIT THATS STILL BEING THROWN OUT AT ME EVEN THE SHIT YOU THREW YOU FUCKIN IDIOT YOU DUMBASS WHY WOULD YOU EVER DO THAT SHIT TO ROB YOUR ACTUAL BROTHER YOUR OWN MOTHER AND THE REST OF YOUR FAMILY WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TO ABANDON WHAT YOU USED TO BELIEVE IN HOW DARE YOU DO THIS TO US TO TRAVIS TO ME YOUR SISTER MORE IMPORTANTLY YOUR BROTHER DO THESE WORDS SOUND VIOLENT OR LIKE FIGHTING WORDS TO YOU DO YOU REALLY THINK I WANT TO HURT YOU OR ANYTHING THAT YOU THOUGHT OF I ONLY WANT ONE THING AND THATS MY BEST FRIEND BACK BUT THATS TOO MUCH ITS ALWAYS TOO MUCH WHEN I ASKED FOR SHIT. Rose I love you but I can hold on until the year is over and after that, I will make the journey to see who else is like you or someone more otherworldly. I can't go any further with these feelings because there isn't much to feel anymore and we both only know half the battle. When we talk, it's like we're already married and we're trying to fix things but I only sound much more insane because I only dream and think of these nice things together when in reality we're our own people and we know who we are. But it's time you finish what you started. I hate being angry. Sometimes by my expression I can't tell if I'm positive but I know I'm friendly honest cheerful and happy with myself because throughout all that I've written out just now you know I went and I'm going through a lot just to be like this and this calm. If I shatter if I break if I fall I will put myself back together build myself kill myself to be different then what I was before. (Not literally kill myself but figuratively.) "sighs" If anyone reads this, all I have to say is thank you for understanding or I gave you a show I hope you enjoyed it.

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