#done better than when i was younger

[loving-jack-kelly]

i think spot admires jack very deeply and looks up to him a lot but would rather be stabbed to death than ever say that out loud. btw. i think jack respects spot and everything that he's done more than almost anybody else in the world but would rather be set on fire than admit it. also.

#i think race is long suffering and good at convincing both of them to be more normal around each other #i think spot worries that jack looks down on him because he's younger #and jack worries that spot doesn't respect his leadership because his approach is so different #when really spot sees jack and understands that jack is doing exactly what he does but in a different way #and jack sees spot and sees a young person who stepped up and did better than he feels like he could have ever done at that age #they both know there's mutual respect there. they refuse to acknowledge it because it's hard. it's scary. #why admit there's more than raw nerves and an understanding to be left alone when they can stay as they were and not have to change anythin #race is like guys be best friends you'd be so good at it. #and spot is like no i need to be distant and aloof so he sees past my age and respects me as I am (he already does) #and jack is like no i need to be tough and unsocial so he understands I'm not just a friendly niceguy leader (he already does) #anyway a personal fave hc of mine that at least used to be fanon if it isn't still #is that jack and spot knew each other in the refuge and spot is several years younger than jack #i think like. 3-5 years younger. #newsies #spot conlon #jack kelly

[softietrait]

also...

#i just want to talk about how it is being in my first ever #healthy and loving relationship in my whole entire life. #i'm 30 and i'm close to 31. my bf is 2 years younger than me... #it's really hard when you're so used to toxicity and having something happy and healthy. #my boyfriend is so incredibly patient with me #and he talks everything out with me anytime i'm upset. #if we aren't together he will literally ask to call so we can talk it out and not text it out. #he's looked up and started researching BPD so he can understand some of the things i deal with better. #like i'm not used to this but i haven't run and i don't plan on it. #i adore him so freaking bad. #also hinge success story right here lmfao #okay im done.

[voidthecryptid]

THE NEW VIDEO THAT JOEY DREW STUDIOS UPLOADED?? NEVER HAS AN APRIL FOOLS JOKE GIVEN ME SO MUCH PAIN BEFORE

#batim #batdr #bendy and the dark revival #bendy and the ink machine #WHY DID THEY DO THEM ALL LIKE THAT #SAMMY LOOKED FINE I GUESS BUT HE STILL REMAINS BALD #AND NOW WE ALL KNOW WHAT HENRY LOOKED LIKE WHEN HE WAS YOUNGER PROBABLY?? #THEY YASSIFIED THE BACON SOUP TOO #ALSO DEAR GOD WHAT HAVE THEY DONE TO BENDY/INK DEMON #THE BENDY IS A BABY/CHILD ENTHUSIASTS ARE GONNA GO EVEN MORE WILD #BUT THEN AGAIN THE WHOLE POINT OF THE VIDEO IS FOR IT TO BE A DATING SIM I THINK SO WHAT... #I'M STILL KEEPING THE HEADCANON THAT BENDY IS AGELESS NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS #ALSO WHAT DID THEY DO TO WILSON #LOOK AT HIS BALD ASS HEAD IT LOOKS LIKE AN EGG #ALSO I KNOW ITS AN APRIL FOOLS JOKE OBVIOUSLY BUT THE PAIN IT GAVE ME IS UNBEARABLE #BENDY ROYALE AND THE INK CHRONICLES WAS BETTER THAN WHATEVER THIS IS

[shroomierambles]

why’s it so embarrassing when u start catching feelings for someone aaaaaahhhhhh

#he’s simply a Silly Goofy Guy #not beating the Goofy Bi Guy stereotype lol #I do feel quite silly waitin for his ig notifs since he started dming me tho #unfortunately I do be Experiencing Feelings 😔 #but also fun vibes cause it’s been awhile since I Started Talking To someone irl (like not including dating app chats) #not that we’re Talking™. idk if we are. idk. social interactions are confusing lol #maybe we are maybe not ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #we messaged a bit yesterday when he messaged first #then today I sent him a meme & we’ve been messaging for awhile #he’s working on a play & we we’re chatting before the show started & I thought that might’ve been it #but he messaged again after it finished & we’ve been talking a lil while now too :) #he’s rly friendly tho & we were kinda just becoming friends so it could well be just Next Stage Of Friendship #cause it’s not like either of us have said anything flirty or anything. just talkin & joking #plus he’s a few years younger than me- not in a creepy way. both legal adults in college- #I just usually have a weird thing with age gaps over like 2 years because of a personal negative experience #so it would just make me feel better if I don’t initiate anything first #I’ll let him do that if he wants to & then ask if he had any thoughts about the bit of age difference #if anything were to get that far. who’s to say. he’s a v chill platonic friend too if that’s where things go :) #need more funny goofy friends in my life :) #ok I’m done lmao #shroomie rambles #shroomie long tags

[smallhatlogan]

Telling someone that you use pronouns other than what they assumed can be so scary and then cis people CAN and WILL forget, thus making you choose between coming out to them a second time or just living with the misgendering

#every cis person other than my younger sister has done this to me #like it’s not mistakes it’s outright completely forgetting? which I don’t understand? #I understand mistakes I’m fine with that but like #when someone tells me their pronouns I file it away in vital information #I’m better at remembering pronouns than names of ppl I just met

[morethanonepage]

not to be a booktok youth but fairest by gail carson levine is one of the best fiction books i've read all year

#i know its a kids book/YA at best but #honestly in terms of writing skill and complex and flawed characters and messaging #it was just *chef's kiss* #i saw it recommended in a youtube video breaking down the movie adaptation changes for ella enchanted #and after rereading ella enchanted as well i was in the mood for more #and genuinely. i think it's better or at least more complex in terms of characters than ella enchanted #i wish i'd read it when i was younger tbh but i think i hated the two princesses of baramore or w/e that one was called i was kind of done #w gail carson levine #should've stuck it out tho #side note i also LOATHE the ella enchanted movie #if they wanted to make live action shrek they should've #just done that #the book is so well done as a loving subversion #the movie is just a mess

[crowned-ladybug]

Finally drew this guy! Ignore the fact that I had to take a week-long break in the middle bc my mouse decided that sometimes it just doesn't wanna scroll anymore

This is Hako, technically a boring normal human who nonetheless keeps sticking his hands into Inadvisable Void Bullshit non-fuckin-stop. Over time he becomes a big brother to my Tenno, Kohlrabi

#he has like no goddamn impulse control but thats somehow still more than most of the ppl he usually hangs out with #so by process of elimination hes half a voice of reason which is kinda hilarious #starts thinking of kohlrabi as a younger sibling figure sooometime after the war within but represses about it SO HARD #kohlrabi also has their own truckload of issues so. they take a while to figure out their lil found family situation. they get there tho #he wields a lex prime and a bo which was originally supposed to be a bo prime #but bo prime is HELL to draw and also regular bo looks so much better #(he deals in void relics which is why he has access to prime weapons technically) #(also bc i think the fact that baro Doesnt wield prime guns is hilarious and i wanted to clown on him) #(and he and hako technically know each other. eventually even become friends but i did Not know that back when i made hako) #digital art #original art #original character #oc: hako #warframe #sorry main tag if this gets in there but im trying to keep things organised #done entirely in krita again bc i kinda. forgot? that im supposed to only use it for doodling? #its just so convenient

[wtf-amiru]

oh my soft little heart

#ja;sdgjvs;daorfgi FEELINGS #he finally said things and now she can leave him to be reckless knowing he's himself again #she doesn't need to kick his ass someone else is gonna and he's gonna get wrecked but she's confident he'll make it through #now that she's seen him act like himself for once #i think he's probably done similar for her when she was younger and got herself in trouble #to a much less serious degree but this #this is normal thancred behavior #finally #i don't think he's been arrested because of her like lianhua has #he's too good for that and just enough years older than them to know better #but i do think he's gotten his ass handed to him on several occasions because of her running her mouth or other such stupid things #anyway i'm incredibly emotional #a'miru's just relieved #uhhh #ffxiv #tales from ng+ #a'miru #thancred #the au ra experiment #a'miru headcanons

[kenobihater]

graciously gifting R a politically minded younger sister who's ten million times cooler than him in the fic i'm currently outlining. she's going to put his head on a pike for the crimes of cynicism nihilism and fucking off to paris for years and i'm going to watch on with popcorn as she does

#léonie is so cool i've had her in my head for less than a day and i'm already obsessed #anyways she falls head over heels for é who lives in this fic and they're becoming SO important to me #oh god i cannot WAIT to write her discussing theory with enj. imma have to brush up on 19th c fr politics but it'll be SOOO worth it #i think R will simply wish to pass away after realizing his mistake of bringing enj home and introducing them #i don't want to write R as suddenly becoming political or anything btw but i want him to be forced out of his comfort zone by his sis #complacency is harder when you realize your younger sis has taken up the cause in your stead ykwim? #and that she's done so out of necessity bc she faces so much sexism despite undoubtedly being a better heir than R #len speaks #jeanne-léonie

[ablednt]

I think everyone needs at least one unassuming media they read way too much into and like it only counts if you sound absolutely insane talking about it like you Cannot Be Normal about it, mentally you’ve got all the characters and plot points pinned up on a wall and your putting all these strings around and it’s largely incoherent but makes sense To You.

#that's the tism media babey #mine is the mbs and dear god do i have os many thoughts about it #TLS wrote this cool kids book and probably was not trying to craft an anarchist epic about hashtag society but like how else am i supposed #to read it like take it at face value? not hype it up like it's 1000 times deeper than it probably actually is? hideous do not even jest #about such a thing/lh #i really am so autistic about this book though #I have mutliple copies and i can and will buy more eventually #my original copy i got when i was like 11 is literally missing its cover and its spine is deterioating #because i used it so much #this book literally raised me better than my parents ever did y'all don't UNDERSTAND #also i will say that I am almost CERTAIN the author is some level of not singlet #because well over 10 years after finishing the series #he came back and wrote a 4th book that's less of a standalone piece and more of an extended epilogue #and he was asked why now and he basically said "Kate would not leave me alone until I continued the story'' #(for context kate is one of the mcs) so it's like wow ok thank you the kate fictive in the authors brain #same vibes as that 'we'll be done with this sonic game when the sonic in my brain approves' #also in said epilogue one of the characters when discussing aging is like #'your younger selves are still there inside you and you can talk to them when you want' adn i'm just HIOHADIFOG S I R #wait oh no im infodumping again in the tags when will it end/lh /pos #OH YEAH not only do I own multiple copies but I've bought and also gifted friends copies too #i am so fucking desperate to have someone to talk to who Gets It bc i dont rlly connect much with the fandom tbh #it's not bad or anything but most of them are just having a regular time which is fine but #im so fuckign autistic about this media besties i need it to be someone else's SI too so bad

[samuraisharkie]

girl help I’m experiencing that common yet elusive late night motivation to get my life together knowing it will fall apart in the morning </3 girl fucking help me

#I hate ittt #I’m always like ‘I’m gonna start doing this’ or ‘I’m gonna finally try and get myself in a place where I can maybe take college classes’ #and ‘I’m really gonna try and fix my sleep schedule and stop getting distracted instead of getting something accomplished’ #and then in the morning evil me is back and they hate me and everything else #and would sell the world to hell for five more minutes of sleep #and my executive dysfunction has its claws in me again #man it sucks being so behind. I don’t want to like complain and make it sound like I’m worthless bc I’m not but man it’s hard #it’s hard watching ppl younger than you achieve your dreams of learning and getting better and breaking through that mental fog #they’re not always much younger either just like. two years is enough to make me wonder what would have happened if I was there #I know it’s not all in my control why I’m here either— there’s a lot of factors at play #but one of them IS that growing up I couldn’t never beat that executive dysfunction plus mental fog and procrastination #and then I shot myself in the foot by saying I waited to long and shouldn’t even try #and now I’m realizing I could but the years I spent fighting with myself weigh me down now and then #I can’t let it get to me because if I let myself get weighed down by it all I pull others down with me #but sometimes it does make me sad. and frustrated. when I feel this motivation when im lying in bed tired at some ungodly hour #suddenly struck with wanting to change my life and not having the daylight nor the physical/mental ability to get it done right then #not to mention the privacy. if I chose to get up at the buttcheeks of midnight and morning I would be not only destroying my own schedule #but disturbing a bunch of others too #anyway this wasn’t supposed to turn into a rant sorry #I haven’t talked a lot lately so it’s all bubbling inside I guess

[misty-wisp]

friendly reminder to not write anything dark or violent purely for the shock value. if it adds nothing to a story, or could very easily be replaced with a less dark alternative...don't throw it in. it'd be jarring for readers, yes, but not exactly a good idea in a narrative sense, most of the time.

grimdark fics suffer from this a lot, going from being interesting, darker narratives to just angstfests that become just a bore to see.

#this happens pretty often with some fics i've read #just...unnecessarily grimdark stuff #typically younger writers go for it bc they're in their 'ooh edgy stuff' phase and all. i've done the same when i was a young'un #terrible writing advice explains it better than i can #fanfic #writing #misty says things

[artemislosthunter]

why is it so hard for an almost 53 year old man to understand that, sometimes in life you will be wrong about things and that it is completely okay?

You can’t be up to date in everything, but if you refuse to hear out others, because you think it is a personal attack, you kind of suck

#he has a habit of hating it when people explain stuff to him ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY'RE YOUNGER THAN HIM #bcs yes he has said that before 'young people know nothing yet they're too young they haven't lived that much' ... okay and? they can still #know more about a topic than you do if that topic is something you don't bother to keep up to date with? #I'd never claim to know more about like the 20s to 60s than him because that is his field of interest and he is very well informed in that #aspect! but then he refuses to listen to my mom or me when it comes to psychology or pedagogy ... 'I know better I read this article once' #which he often tells us about our own mental illnesses? 'I know people who are on meds and have depression and they don't act like you two' #buddy ... they're on antidepressant ... first of all that's the point second of all maybe listen to us when we tell you that mental illness #is never exactly the same (also we're not just suffering from depression but he also refuses to acknowledge that bcs he doesn't think so #has he ever done research on anything mental health related? no absolutely not he also thinks therapists are useless) #I've kind of lost my point here sorry I have been pissed off about this for a long time but yeah anyways you can't always know everything #and sometimes the people that know more stuff about something than you do are younger than you and that's okay and that happens #and no they're not just arrogant little know it alls who have no life experience

[spaceradars]

why does it feel so weird to me to be in a position of "authority" as an assistant for this class 😫😫

#like. i love doing this. i love having the chance to do cool stuff and ocassionally prepare classes for the students #i like being a teacher's assistant i really do. HOWEVER #i find it extremely hard to see myself as some sort of (and this is between TOO MANY brackets) #´´´´´´authority´´´´ #because i just can't see myself telling students who are basically three years younger than me what to do or don't #and it's really hard when im alone with them like. im getting better at it (certainly much better than a few months ago) but i still #struggle so much and its very frustrating because i love doing this and maybe (just maybe) i could see myself teaching (not for my entire #life of course but for some time maybe??????) #so it's just very very frustrating because idk what i'm doing wrong or how to do it right or what 😫😫 #(and these are my appreciations because i've never been told anything by anyone really but....... it just feels strange you know) #also this is a class that teaches movies and filmmaking. something i love something i want to do for a living and something i know about #and what's even better -im passionate about. but still idk it just feels so weird #maybe it has to do with the fact i started it after two years of online classes (for me and these students and everyone) so... it's weird #being in front of a class again. especially after never having done it before. but i know it's not the only factor

[traitormithos]

So my new dentist continously narrates what he is doing as he is doing it.

Which I suppose is a lot better than when they're trying to ask you questions.

Or when they're holding some random conversation with their tech.

I feel educated. I know all about the bonding and now I know the blue stuff in that syringe is soap (that's why it tastes so bad)

#its not that i hate when they hold conversations with their tech nor do i think its rude or anything #its just awkward to me #also everytime the tech was like tooth extraction i was like what tooth??? #bro its just a root extraction. #the tooth (crown) has been in my wallet for 4 years #anyway it hurts #and i guess one of the roots was starting to get infected so thats nice #anyway im glad its done and hopefully ill feel better and get more confidence in my smile again #i mean i have such a small mouth that the tooth isnt much to miss anyway #plus its not my fault. the tooth was botched by a dentist when i was younger so... #thats just to keep making myself feel better omg #other than that im cavity free which is amazing! #and my teeth are healthy minus my grinding

[bmpmp3]

speaking of genbu's "serious" sounding tone in his voicebank, i think that might be why he was such a dead ringer for teto pre-synthv-bank-release with just a couple little gender parameter tweaks. wait do my followers know this. sorry i know most of my vocal synthesizer talk is genuinely gibberish to my beloved and loyal long time followers but do you guys know this. for a few years, people had discovered that since utau teto and genbu have this similar strong enunciation and dark sounding tone plus teto can have a bit of a tomboyish edge to her voice anyway -> if u mess with some parameters and phonemes he'll sound close enough to her, so it became a bit of running gag in the community, along with just being a genuine and novel use case for his voicebank. actually recently i found out about someone who made a couple of synthv scripts to set genbus voice to his falsetto pitch and set the tension to drop during each syllable automatically to make him sound like the utau sora amaha. genbu's purpose is to impersonate other vocal synthesizers

#i wasnt familiar with sora until i found that video. apparently she's voiced by lon? like that lon? like the utaite? #which is really neat! every day i find out about another utaite or seiyuu or someone who is involved with vocal synths in some fashion #im still reeling from anju inami providing the voice for a cevio bank! oh and the other day #i learned that the utaite kano was involved with the japanese version of luo tianyi #only to clear up some pronunciations - most of the bank is apparently the original provider. but its really interesting! #also jk jk genbu i love you. you are youre own vocal synth. you dont have to be her (teto). be yourself!!!!!! #i do love when people make teto and genbu have beef though. its so funny to me #tbh ive never been a teto user. shes not bad or anything i just never had any desire to use her utau bank. i keep her sv lite around tho #just in case i feel like making her bully genbu or something. bully that grown ass man #wait is she older or younger. i forgot how her fucked up chimera age worked again. oh well. whether ur 30 or 16 u can still bully him <3 #its a family activity. fun for all ages! anyway yeah i was never much of a teto user. tbh i think its just because like #if i want to hear a teto cover someone else probably has already done it far better than i could even think to LOL #i like when other people use her! sasuke haraguchi's use of her in hitomania and igaku has been magnifique #but i think with vsynths i prefer to use voices i like that no one uses much LOL #gives me much more drive to make covers if i know im one of the few doing it HJKDSLJ #whenever i get tired to pitchbending fast syllables (my least favourite part LOL) i think to myself.... i must.... i must.... #do it for him (genbu)..... hes not very popular since hes not the only male japanese voice anymore..... i must do it for HIM!!!!!! #(tunes one phoneme and explodes on impact)