#crow is being shit with feelings

[gayleafpool]

i think a big thing people get wrong w leafpool’s character is thinking her passivity comes from like fear or insecurity or being shy or something when really it comes from like. defeat. she’s been burned so many times so now she just accepts it there’s no point in fighting back

#learned helplessness #in tnp she’s very much like a rulebreaker and kind of a little shit lol #she likes going out on her own and making friends with cats from other clans and getting involved in things cuz she’s bored #she’s rebellious and craves having deep connections with others which is why being a medicine cat starts to weight on her and makes her #impulsively decide to run away with crow #esp because she’s also watching her best friend sorreltail grow up and move on. and she’s watching her sister grow up and move on #AND SHE FEELS STUCK SHES LIKE OH. BUT THIS IS IT FOR ME ISNT IT? #so she just reacts she needs to get away!! and then everything comes crashing down and she spends the rest of her life getting punished for #that choice #which slowly crushes her fire and teaches her that her desire for something ‘more’ was never going to work out #and she’s too tired to keep fighting so she accepts that #but she’s miserable about it and this misery makes her even more exhausted #so then she just kinda ends up numb #there’s no point! #SHES SO INTERESTING TO ME AAAAAUUUUGHHHHHHH it’s been so long since i’ve rambled about leafpool….. my girl……

[demiwizardsoul]

Nina Zenik went from being captured by Fjerdans because they hate people of her kind, to becoming the princess and the future queen of the same people that wanted her dead.

Idk guys, it's a clear exemple of upward mobility to me.

#Not mentioning the fact that they want to kill grisha and end up being ruled by to of them #Plus that they treat women like shit and end being ruled by two people that know what it feels like to be disregarded for your gender #Even though Hanne is not a women he knows what women are going through #shadow and bone #six of crows #nina zenik #shadow and bone season 2 #hanne brum #hannina #rule of wolves #save shadow and bone #we never stop fighting #six of crows spin off #fjerda

[leezuhh]

"beef" on netflix is so fucking good. i love a show about a small event that turns into something insane that nobody involved could have possibly predicted. also i like steven yeun. spoilers in tags

#amy and danny constantly trying to ruin each other's lives only to constantly get into deeper and deeper shit themselves is. peak. #spoilers follow: #literally like half the main cast dying in a gunfight with cops is Also something i could not have predicted. #rip jordan my favorite toxic lesbian queen. she was only there to start shit. stealing her brothers gf. her constant gay tension w amy #and then she GOT BISECTED???? girls it turned into a horror movie straight up so fast... poor naomi she was just there to fuck bitches..... #liza post #beef netflix #live liza reaction. if they reconcile over paul dying horribly i will have . feelings #anyways RIP paul he was like my favorite character. i love a stupid ass himbo #everyone in this show is a terrible person and it's extremely entertaining #'I AM NOT HELPING YOU UNLESS YOU USE NICE WORDS' you both just crashed your cars off a cliff after chasing each other down. ok #'i see your life' 'you poor thing' #it's such a good show at being funny and dark and poetic and Good. also crow motif xoxo #update PAUL ALIVE SWAG

[squuote]

I was thinking bout having my office worker sona thing like know who stanley is but just never really knew him, just knew that he worked there. but I think it is objectively so much funnier having it separate from the game entirely and just having no clue who tf stanley is

#crow thoughts #employee 404 #<- so yall can block it if you want I feel like being annoying rn lolol #I feel so weird referring to a self insert as anything other than just like. me #but for the sake of making things understandable I think I will refer to them as not me #anyway. the narrator makes first contact and introduces his game and he’s all proud n shit #and they just stand there and are like ‘who’s stanley ….’

[bitchthefuck1]

We always talk about how Kaz in some ways sees Wylan as a younger version of himself, but I feel like we never really acknowledge that he basically ends up looking after Wylan the way he wished Jordie had protected him.

#i feel like the 'kaz is wylans dad' takes are kind of a huge reduction of their relationship #like id you really look at how they treat and interact with each other it looks way more like an older brother keeping an eye out for his #sibling based on his own experience than anything even remotely paternal #kas treats wylan like an equal who just knows less than him and wylan treats kaz like an annoying older brother who he cares about but #won't pass up an opportunity to bicker with or talk back to #i also think from a psychological standpoint this is in part what helps kaz to see jordie in an honest light and start to heal from being #let down by him as a kid. he can acknowledge that jordie was very flawed and failed to protect him while also realizing that his brother #was a kid like him doing his best #that and getting over some of his shit with jesper #there's literally so much to unpick with these relationship dynamics leigh bardugo went the fuck off #theres just so much here #kaz brekker #wylan van eck #six of crows #soc #crooked kingdom #image description in alt

[iceddrinks]

"-if I’m kindling for a little while at least I’d feel of use."

How are we feeling after Techno's interlude? I am in pain because I relate.

I AM IN MY FEELS.

#butterfly reign #brtechno i am so sorry #you didn't deserve this shit #get behind me #Chat is a crow and I am cawing #E #the feeling of being abandoned and unwanted hurts #of being a burden #i am not doing okay #this is still br phil's fault #kinda not really #really #I blame those stupid kids #Honestly fuck kids #this is also brwilbur's fault

[caramelmochacrow]

i finiahed rondo side origin and man i cried trhe whole time, from the first episode to the last.

this hit harder than i thought for me, may or may not know some of the feelings aoi felt.

aoi is loved. forever has and forever will be.

#crow talks #d4dj #d4dj groovy mix #i wept. #i bawled #i lied down on the floor for a monet. #moment. #yeah i cant. #hmm. #rondo am irght? #i. i want to say so much. but i cant. #so much is in my mind. #the way that it parallels tsubaki and nagisa in the past #tsubaki being afraid of reaching out and being left alone and nagisa leaving them only to return stronger than ever before. #also hiiro in some way? aoi finally asking for help being like how hiiro finally opened up and asked for her in the relation story? #ALSO YES I KNEW AOI'S HOW WOULD BE EMPTY I WAS CORRECT IN LOST NIRVANA! #the only “wrong” thing abt it is that. well. i made aoi dislike her mother and shit..... #i just feel so much for aoi. #wait i need to make a new post for this point im gonna make

[crowfonder]

I wish my conpression gloves would show up faster. Its getting hard to draw lol

#the cold n shit really messes with all my joints #wake up? pain. go to school? pain. come home? pain. i dont get a break #and with my jaw being locked i just need some form of ease #crow feels awful #vent

[draculasbane]

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#being forced to be around my aunt for thr next week is going to make me lose my shit like shes already pissing me off so bad tonight #im so glad im gonna be not here. for two days but i already feel feel violent excuse me jumping out of a fuckinf window rn #shes drunk and being stupid i hate being around ppl like that GOD can i move already fucking hell #crow rants

[angelxxreaper]

I’m about to start crossbanning chatters. Bruh. Let the hog live🎗

Does he seem a bit nervous tonight?

#a moment with the crow father [asks] #🎗 anon #something feels weird #i hope the voices aren’t being too shit lol

[yourbleedingh3art]

Sometimes I just really don’t want to be spoken to and somebody speaks to me and I’m like

#and then I usually snap on them verbally w unnecessary venom in proportion to what was actually said #I hate when I succumb to this. the shame that follows is immediate #I know I want to be better #do better #all the time I am telling myself improve improve improve You have to #you have to Be better #sometimes I think I am being too harsh on myself and I think I should stop. then I worry I will never accomplish anything and I will get #lazy again. #the I realize negative reinforcement should be done away with entirely #in place of Positive reinforcement #but I’m like is that true? mahbe tough love is necessary sometimes Bc lessons learned w pain behind them usually sear you and internalize #maybe it’s like #a masochistic #self-torturing thought process #idk is it right to beat urself up Everytime u fuck up I feel like i have to cuz I’m like ohhh u just FUCKDD up get ready to eat crow #and I make myself eat the crow #that’s why when I’m already on my plate of crow and somebody tries to serve me up a second plate of crow I get so intensely angry like #u don’t even realize I’m already beating my own self up so bad and overthinking so much #don’t add to my pile of shit bruh #Ok I’m getting it all out I’m getting all my little angry hurt thoughts out it feels good #uploads #blog post

[fettery-fetterie]

What we were born for

I've been left asking that question with each start

To be in the spotlight, to fight for internal light, to see the sun

To be seen by big white eyes, and to be managed by hands who have no direction nor order

Birth, life. Fall, thread-spin. Rinse repeat

Not like I had any choice in the matter, not like any of us did. And yet...

Ah, I can't help it, to let go of the past...I suppose that will never be my style.

#perceptive little crow #ok hi actual interpretations and serious discussion #like first and foremost - WOW. it caught me so off guard the very first few notes. i was not expecting this at all. AND FOR THE BEST #holy shit. like outside the legacy instruments. the stuff used for this specific version is *chef's kiss* #classy and mysterious. casual but y'know something's going on beneath #and don't get me started on the fucking architect motif. oh my god #like outside it being used MASTERFULLY across the entire song (not too much nor too direct but still keeping it alive by spirit) #it just. hurts so much #so much #it's a past desperately asking to not be left out. to be allowed to be given the light it was never able to #the way it was used specifically sounds like a funeral. mournful of itself. afraid of the brighter future #yet...there's glimpses of hope in its cry. clinging to net 0 hope #yet being listened to #listened on and on. it does not know. probably never will. but its voice and sorrow will be what brings it to life #and for its hope to bloom into the brightest‚ most beautiful flower beneath the warming sun #(probably doesn't convey my feelings about this well + first impressions. will 100% change over time. but fucking christ oh my god)

[squuote]

honest to god I’m so glad I stayed in my own small mutual corner of the fandom, the shit going down in the rest of it is like. all over the place holy fuck

#crow thoughts #i feel like a bug under a rock that occasionally gets lifted and I get to hear what insane shit is going on #and I’m just like woah alright. well back to being a bug

[headofocs-inklesspen]

Incredibly frustrating when someone is causing problems and then claims “if there’s a problem just talk to me” like doing so won’t at best get you passive excuses about how their behavior isn’t their fault and most likely will get you ignored/make the problems worse

#crow rambles #crow rants #I just #I feel like I’m bashing my head against a fucking wall #trying to be civil about shit #only to basically be told that I’m being too nice #actually. I think people deserve to be treated with human fucking decency #and I’m trying really fucking hard to have empathy because it’s not something I’m good at but also people should be allowed to learn

[the-little-crow]

Love that my body is fucking falling apart constantly, yet I still have to get up and go to work and do shit. I’ve been having this really shitty pain in my sternum the last few days, and it’s WAY worse today. Plus I can’t catch my fucking breath. Like at this point someone needs to take me out back and shoot me. It would be more preferable

#crow rambles #rant but not really #I’m just so fucking tired of being in pain all the time #because I can’t properly explain it to people who don’t deal with this shit 24/7 #and I usually shy away from painkillers because I don’t want to become reliant on them or get so used to them that they don’t work right #plus with a family history of addiction I’m really iffy about anything even remotely in that area #idk it just sucks and I’m angry because a diagnosis takes forever and even then treatment is probably just gonna be MORE meds and I’m tired #I just want a working body #it feels like I’m in a sinking boat and all I have to help me is a roll of duck tape and a mug #and no matter how hard I try to get rid of the water and patch up the holes it just keeps getting worse #and I keep on having less and less energy to deal with it #bonus would be someone on the phone telling you it isn’t that hard and you’re just not putting in enough effort to fix the boat #like I promise you doing the thing that causes me pain isn’t gonna STOP the pain #it’s gonna make it slightly more tolerable at best #or give me a little longer to do the thing before I start hurting #but it won’t just stop it

[medicinemane]

You can't just be like "well my chart here says" or "well science says" or "well this thing agrees with my biases so therefore it's true"

Like man, I bet I could find something agreeing with any position I wanted to take. If I couldn't it wouldn't be hard for me to make a semi professional looking graph that makes it look like whatever I want is true

Also like... who's the source man, cause on any given issue there's some I'm probably gonna toss out because of their blatant bias. Like I'm not even gonna entertain anything 'autism speaks' has to say on autism because I'm not wading through a bunch of trash to see if there's a glimmer of truth buried somewhere in it. They've blown all their credibility with me, I don't admit them as evidence anymore and nor should I

So who's your source and do they have any credibility or are they extremely biased (cause... this happens a lot)?

What's this so called study? What's this so called science? I am not really the person who can sit through a whole paper, but I can at least sometimes give them a sniff and see if the stuff they're saying seems to add up or if I'm spotting anything instantly off (cause sometimes you straight up look and go "wait a minute... you didn't even account for this")

I'm not perfect, but at least I actually think about the problems with ideas I care about. Like with nuclear I know that the lack of economies of scale means infrastructure is going to be more expensive, but I can also at least point to solar and point out that it was the same with it, but once we got wider adoption prices started to really drop

At least I can think about my point and make actual reasonable inferences and conclusions rather than just blindly screaming at everyone to agree with me or they're immoral

#I'm just honestly kind of annoyed at people for acting like children about really really really important topics #that I often actually do care about and am even on their side... just not their behavior and black and white world view #and I really really really don't want to actually say what's stuck in my craw #cause people 100% can't behave like adults about it and have a civil conversation #and it's just an invitation for people to drop all illusions of humanity and sling whatever nastiness they feel like #cause they know they're justified in it #and heaven forbid they apologize later #did I ever mention that I do in fact hold long grudges; I just also know how to put stuff aside to cooperate? #but I do remember this stuff; and the behavior is not forgiven because no apology for the rudeness was ever offered #anyway... I'm not touching it; and the annoying part is nominally I'm actually on the same side #it's just I'm not a damn child about it; and I'm more worried about 'how do I get the results I want' instead of crowing my virtue #and I'm more worried about if certain measures actually treat the issue or don't do shit while just causing new problems #(guess what I think the case is) #I can instantly list you one simple step that would massively improve the situation #can't tell you how to make it happen (though I have thoughts); but I can tell you for a fact it'll help #concretely; undeniably I think it might be the number one step to slash instances of this problem massively #...but uh... doesn't seem like it's a popular answer despite it being an objectively good thing #much better to bring the cops in to it; a group we can certainly trust not to turn on us and misuse any new powers given #that's the way people would prefer to do it rather than getting to the root #so yeah... I'm just annoyed by this; I probably will be for a while cause people won't stop fucking crowing about it #(and if you knew what it was you'd know they never fucking will) #blah blah blah morals or whatever #ok vegan who hates bees and uses plastic wool level of stubborn fool #and how much have you done to actually fix the problem compared to how much you've done patting yourself on the back? #just damn annoying; the number of people I trust to behave like adults with this... #I might literally be able to count it on two hands