#chronic illness sucks

[bamsara]

I *may* have to take like a week or so away from online because (1) body recovery and not doing well and (2) patreon envalopes and monty pins the focus when im not in pain but i get like a handful done before i have to sit down and breath for 20 minutes and it takes so much longer i have like no time to write or art stream

but i dont want to >:( i wanna draw and write

#also a little why im not as active per usual #I HAVENT LOST INTEREST i am simply Hurting lmao #sara shush #chronic illness sucks

[booksflowersmoonwings]

you ever get sick and tired of thinking about how sick and tired you are of being sick and tired?

anyone have cute art of asra (the arcana), shino (naruto), or john doe (uncanny valley game) they feel like sharing?

or gush about something cool they just finished creating?

I dunno could use some. goodness.

#chronic illness sucks #chronic pain sucks #chronic fatigue SUCKS #how am I supposed to take care of my spouse and my home and my critters if all i ever want to do is sleep? #how am i supposed to actually put in the requisite effort to my mfa #and writing in general? #how am i supposed to work out and get stronger or eat well #or work on other projects I've committed to? #head hurts every day #ibs acts up most days #never feel rested no matter how much i sleep #back pain joints muscles bones etc #and I've been so depressed and listless for so long #my partner works as a nurse full time and is also getting her masters degree because she is a badass #she has reason to be exhausted #technically i do too but it doesn't feel like it because i barely have done anything today and everything i have done came with struggle #but I'm still exhausted #perpetually #for as long as i can remember #and i don't know how to fix it #and I'm tired #and it's not fair #by which i mean #it's not fair to everyone else who works at hard as they do #that i DON'T anymore and still feel like shit and am allowed to not work a regular job anymore #it's not fair #I'm so tired

[underhanded-lamb]

What's up art demons, it's me

ya boi

Y'all I can't tell you how many times I said I'd join Art Fight just to wuss out, this year I'm making the jump and just doing it because cringe is dead live your dreams kids.

I included a little brief description of of my OC's in their Art Fight profiles so you can get more context (except Mede just know they are a bastard)

come fight me nerds

#art fight #art fight 2023 #team vampire #lambs art #FUCK IT WAS SO HARD TO GET ALL OF THESE CLEAN AND POSTED BEFORE JULY 1st #Chronic illness sucks #But we did it bruh #If anyone JUST HAPPENED to think they adding my mageAU Sun and Moon to my roster I WOULD HOPE THEYD TELL ME #BECAUSE I TOTALLY WOULD IF THERE WAS AN INTEREST

[asnakewithwingsisadragon]

Very depressed because we had to miss Pride due to medical reasons. Legit want to cry right now.

#personal i guess #can't even stress shop because we have no money until Wednesday #I hate it here #chronic illness sucks

[phenakistoskope]

i love how i can't afford to attend the universities i write A+ papers for every week

#physically mentally or monetarily #chronic illness sucks #at least i learn a lot about subjects i never studied in college #phenakistoskope.txt

[robinsnest2111]

alice cooper and mick mars have stoked my gender/outfit envy so much that I want to see if i cannot find one or two pairs of skintight leggings or something with risqué lacing details once I'm near the goth shop again...

#they just gotta have something comfortable and in my size this time!!! #still mourning the fact i only got to wear the snake print leggings my aunt bought for me 2 times before i lost too much weight orz #chronic illness SUCKS #anyway i am ready to be hurt again lol it's been 11 months I've mostly gotten over the expensive and sexy killstar snake print pants

[jewelmania21]

One of my many chronic conditions involves eye issues, I literally just did a “Field of Vision” test,, the eye that’s currently blurry and difficult is soooo stressful because I could feel the panic building in me. I think I flunked lmao

I felt similarly when I was tested for ADHD and everything with that, where I was so sad and stressed because I KNEW I was getting the right answers for me… But I also know that I didn’t perform as if my eye was actively working…

Geezums… the machine LITERALLY makes a noise right when the little light will flash in your peripheral vision and I fucking could SEE ANYTHING.

#I’m so sad #and stressed man #my lil rambles #chronic illness #the freaking nurse asked me how long I’ve been on my humira injections too #IMMEDIATELY AFTER THE —supposed— flunking #ya know #the casual drug that makes it so my joints don’t make my life an actively living hell #the only injection that consistently helps with the pain #the only injection we avoided for so long because it miiiight have adverse reactions on my eyes #god I’m going to cry in this parking lot again #just a casual half an hour drive home it’s whatever #chronic illness sucks #jiera #as #anklyosing spondylitis

[authorstellarainbow]

i need a friend who understands what it feels like to do one task in the morning and then feel tired AF from it for the rest of the day

#chronic illness sucks #chronic illness #because terminal illness sucks #no spoons

[echothelover]

funny how you can go years being lonely and be perfectly fine until you let yourself think the words "I am lonely" and it suddenly becomes an unbearable weight pressing down on you at all times

#xanders personal rambles #chronic illness sucks

[the-crimson]

Waaa I’m so tired and in pain but I wanna stay until the end of bbh’s stream send help waaaaaaa

#live blorging #chronic illness sucks #do not recommend

[nocinovae]

I keep longing after my creativity aimlessly with no inspiration. I feel so lost and numb

#personal #creativity #artist #I miss making art #chronic illness sucks #disability

[anotherobsessedfangirl]

Everywhere they are saying this weekend is gonna be the last warm summer weekend of the year and I am stuck in bed having to rest - thanks for nothing 😔

#chronic illness sucks #I am missing so much all the time #sad #my post

[derpkind]

I've been really sad about a lot of my plants getting damaged and ill, and I was gonna say I'm lucky to be mourning only my succulents poor health , but then I remembered I legitimately am chronically ill with hardly any viable insurance, mourning my healthy adult life, my favorite hobbies have been taken from me, my grounding has often felt nonexistent, I am distanced from friends, family, and coworkers- I have been losing my sense of self like- and yes I am grateful that very little folks in my wheelhouse have died- but I still have had a fuckin rough one, pardon me if I'm a little extra sad and project my own health battle onto my plants a little

#derpkind speaks #health shit #chronic illness sucks

[watercooler-raptors]

Bad fibro flare up today, working from home because my mobility is low and pain high.

On the flip side, had a lovely dream in which I was going to a movie premiere with Oscar Isaac.

The universe giveth and the universe taketh

#meg rambles #fibromyalgia #chronic illness sucks #oscar isaac does not

[bishiglomper]

Ugh I'm LOW again 😩

I already FED YOU today! Wtf else do you want from me you stupid pos tamagachi sonnuva bish of a body. u suck

also I'm itchy all over. But trying to scratch, even as lightly as flippin' possible feels like fire

Another reason my body sucks

#diabetes sucks #i think this itchiness what they would refer to as fibro fleas lol #fibro sucks #chronic illness sucks #its completely overrated dont recommend at all

[vaguelyhauntedcornfield]

Something I don’t think my healthy friends will ever understand is the fear of having a flare up around an SO for the first time. Esp like once you start living together.

The fear of how having to cancel plans constantly will make them feel or think of you.

The fear of how the times you won’t be able to help out around the house or even keep yourself clean will make them feel or think.

And i know, i know, if someone doesn’t get it or reacts badly, they shouldn’t be in your life. Easy to say. Not easy to experience. And the number of people out there who won’t at some point get upset or think you’re lazy or take your health personally is surprisingly low.

Just thoughts idk.

#chronic illness sucks #i have to cancel things so often and i feel like an ass bc i know it disappoints people