#cant remember if ive reblogged this old post before

[ufoend]

∆ please help us

we can not afford any of our basic needs

i usually try to keep this as light as possible, but i have put this off for long enough that i have to post this. me and my partner desperately need help. we are just two gay people trying to make it alone here with absolutely no support system.

who we are: im j (or jet), im 24 year old trans guy whose had this account since 2014. i married my partner in 2018, we even met on tumblr when we were younger, we've been together for years. my partner is disabled (diagnosed with autism and seizure disorder and others)

what we need: our cat had an emergency surgery two years ago that means he needs to be on a prescription diet (hills urinary food) for his entire life. the vet suddenly said we need to bring him in again to get his prescription renewed and we cant order any more food for him until then, which he will not survive without, and he is not allowed to eat any alternative food without risking his life. we have less than half of a 8 lb bag of it which will not last him through the next month. with the vet, food, and ubers to get to the vet and to the only place they sell the food = 200

to try to summarize our situation, we were kicked out by family and made officially homeless for the first time last year. this is right after we moved across states (wa to az) to support my partners family upon their request, only to be subjected to abuse and kicked out directly due to homophobia in an unfamiliar state after a few months. this left both of us and all of our animals entirely homeless. we luckily have an apartment now but our situation is still not okay. we lost all of our belongings at this time, everything, and have not been able to replace them as we have fixed income. my partner is especially affected by this situation, as it was traumatizing, and they have just had to power through trauma after trauma because of poverty, more than i can say.

i also have severe dental problems that are not covered by medicaid in az and i have no way to afford. this includes wisdom teeth, root canals, and many cavities that will turn into that crazy expensive treatment if i don't fix it. some may remember this (+this). i was only able to have a little bit of work done before we were homeless and one root canal failed. i cant keep ignoring it, because they are worried about two of the cavities becoming root canals, and i want to prevent another infection, but thats at least 250 each.

we are still not going to be able to afford rent in future months because our EBT was delayed last month and i had to spend money we don't have to afford anything, and now we are in serious jeopardy even affording rent, let alone bills. our pets (2 cats 1 small dog) also desperately need vaccinations, which is dangerous to keep going this overdue without with their health problems. our dog has also been limping for the past week and he needs to be seen when that is ever possible.

any donations would go first to the vet appointment and cat food, then the other needs in order of priority. will keep updating this, i know its a lot and i really don't expect anything, i am begging for help with any of this

we are both students, we are trying to work towards stability, while being stuck here. i do everything i can to bring in money to support us on my own. we make 200 less than rent is monthly. i am in school to become a caseworker so i am aware of a lot of resources in my area, and have applied for everything, but we can not do this alone which is why i have to ask for help. i am so sorry for having to do this but i appreciate any support that i do have because of this website. you guys literally save my life. helping out other poor people and getting helped out on here has been the most compassion ive ever been a part of. dollars, even pennies, worth of donations has kept my cat safe, has affected me in real ways. it actually matters to us, no matter the amount.

thank you anyone who reblogs, donates anything, or reaches out.

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p*ypal email (best): [email protected]

v*nmo: @tobler707

c*shapp: $tobler707

#date: 11/3/22 #signal boost #please reblog #please help #please read #please boost #i may have to make a tldr of this and just link to it since there is no way i can explain all of this in any shorter way #so hard to make this shit #i hate having to beg for my life forever #so sorry to my mutuals #thank you if you always boost me #cats #dogs #vet care #vet costs

[ink-the-artist]

at some point you made a post about how ai was good for unreality art or something? like it included a pic of like. a Thing on some stairs. i cant find it anywhere ;w; could you reblog it? is it gone forever? tyy :]

right here!

Ive made a few other ai inspired drawings too, you should be able to find them by searching "creature" or "unreality" on my blog, but ill go ahead and link them here too since tumblr search can be weird sometimes

childhood pets

They Smell Like Old Carpet and Long Lost Stuffed Animals

Company of Myself

You’ve been here before, you just don’t remember. It’s been a while.

please be patient I’m still growing

Back to School Shopping

bone broth (that’s his name)

Favorite Animal

livingroom

Hypnagogic Kitchenroom

You got home from school and fell asleep, you wake up and it’s dark in the house, it’s 9 PM and you exist in an in-between day that isn’t completely real where time isn’t moving but Nickelodeon is on

I hurt to look at and I’m hard to love but I am myself

Inktober day 23 “Ancient”

#ill edit the post to add more links if i remember more posts like this #this is art thats pretty directly influenced by ai but its influenced my other stuff in less direct ways #my horror art in general but also many of my creature sculptures #like Sweet Cream esp I remember was inspired by fucked up ai animals lol

[slimeylee]

tw//dream situation, grooming, swearing. added a trigger warning since i know a lot of people are finding themselves turning against dream which is totally fine and your choice. you dont have to believe me or any of the tweets i attached to this message. thank you and read on if you'd like.

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alright. i may not have all the information that i found, but ive found a decent amount of stuff that proves these claims incorrect

first, the way he texts-- look at the way dream talks to his BEST FRIEND versus a random stranger. like bitch what? no way those are real text messages. and dream hardly ever calls anyone other than george 'bb' and uses emojis nearly never. when dream texts he is often very dry and in that screenshot of dream talking to a COMPLETE STRANGER is nothing like what he normally is!

look at this and look at this. you see how different the background colour is from the colour around dreams profile picture, 'dream' and 'from your contacts'? it looks edited, right? if it were really true, the whole background would be the same colour dont you think?? more on the twitter dms; look at this post basically, depending on how many white dots the photo has can determine whether or not its fake exactly. it may not be the best proof that the messages were fake, but then another thing; aman-duh said that dream face revealed to her. who in the world is gonna believe that--the only people that knew dreams face before he started face revealing to his friends and people he knows were sapnap, and any relatives probably.

'aman-duh' said that she was going to stream and show more evidence on the whole grooming situation. however, both her and dream said they were going to take legal actions on the situation. you cant show proof/evidence of anything when you take the path of legal action. so how would aman-duh be able to show anything that may come off as proof? dream could not be sharing any further information about the situation BECAUSE he is going to pursue legal action.

also-- why did aman-duh lie about her age? she said that she was twenty years old. and now shes saying that shes a minor and is 18? where is the logic behind this? i dont understand. why is she livestreaming on twitch proofing more evidence instead of taking it to the fucking police? and more importantly--she still likes dreams tweets and is FOLLOWING HIM STILL. why would you want to still be in/able to contact someone who groomed you? personally i would have already blocked the person

she wouldnt lose any of the evidence she had if she SCREENSHOTTED IT and saved it to her camera roll. plus, it happened on instagram and snapchat, not on twitter. so why is she still following dream and liking his tweets? what is the logic behind that?!

alongside that, oxeclean who also stated that dream groomed them, they deleted everything they said, privated their twitter, and they even SAID that everything was fake and they were NOT LITERALLY GROOMED!! all this does it hurt REAL VICTIMS!!

if you are a victim of grooming, DONT BRING SOCIAL MEDIA INTO IT!! GO TO THE POLICE WITH THE EVIDENCE IMMEDIATELY PLEASE!! TALKING ABOUT YOUR PERSONAL LIFE PROBLEMS ON SOCIAL MEDIA SUCH AS TWITTER WON'T HELP YOU, IT'LL CAUSE BIGGER PROBLEMS!

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if i find anything else i will reblog this post and share it however this is all ive got at the moment. ive said this two times and ill say it again; my heart goes out to any victims of grooming. your voice deserves to be heard and your body is not a toy. remember that i love you and care abt u so much even if i have never talked to you or i dont know you personally.

-spookyslime

#slimey-thinks #dreamwastaken #dream allegations

[wraithdolll]

What happened to your old account and your old art ? I remember the Mudwings ocs with purple-ish eyes, gosh they were so beautiful, also I think there was a Cobra Lily x Tsunami fanart too ?

lots of text incoming bc its kinda complicated lol

u can find my deviantart, toyhouse, and art fight btw im trying to be active again

this is my linktree for all art related stuff

hi! i deleted them in a moment of existential dread and rage and emptiness bc of situations that had happened while i was in the fandom and i regret it! the lesson learned is never delete your old art or accounts no matter what! for seriouslies!!

anyways, i still have art of the mudwing with purple eyes (lamb) and ill post it here for ya, and she had an animus sister namedddddd ,,,, violet ? there was a lot of siblings in that oc group lol but those two were mudwings w ourple eyes

if any of yall ever find good quality versions of my old art floating around you can send them my way, im basically on a scavenger hunt for them and have only been able to recover a few :((( a lot of it i managed to find bc the wof fanon wiki page still had my oc pages/redbubble/or reblogs on other blogs from my no longer existant one

i dont think i ever did cobra lily x tsunami fanart, but i did do a cobra lily design, was working on a carnelian x peril thing and had kinkajou x moonwatcher art all of which ill post

i plan on sticking around this time and making more art--if yall want you can send me some requests of canon characters to draw so i can shake some of that rust off

i drew bi pride kinkajou art for a pride month awhile back cant remember which one

the moonjou art which ill probably repost seperately w their seperate headshots cuz i still luv my kinkajou design

and then this is the only time ive drawn cobra lily lol ive actually never drawn tsunami before

but yeah

im back i cant guarantee alllll my arts gonna be wof bc im insanely fixated on fist of the north star n jojos rn and BUT i still want to do wof art again bc it doesnt make me feel icky anymore

tldr: all art/accts were deleted, regret it, bringing all my ocs back, doing wof art again, taking requests to draw canon characters for a short period of time

#ill be putting up these pieces seperately again bc i didnt realize ppl still wanted to see them/have them around my b #wings of fire #wof #my ocs #wof ocs #my art #my designs #this is my im rejoining the fandom kinda thing #i miss making adopts/designs and drawing my ocs #cuz they were the only characters ive ever rlly developed #non of my non wof ocs get developed bc im too lazy to build a world for them #i missedu guys a lil maybe a lot #some other pieces i remember are kinkajou in the strawberry dress #anubis fanart #uhhhhh a lot of my mudwing oc sibling art is kinda gone #high quality versions of my sonas ref are gone #all of my adopt grids are gone but a lot of the headshot pngs are floating around

[the-empress-7]

So I’ve been digging through a blog on here, @valentinoqueen - it’s a bit of a mess and crazy, obviously not just a royal blog but also fanfics so must be a teen or something 🤣

But they’ve got impeccable records and reblogs from 2021 backwards on the Harkles.

Here’s some links I found before tumblr threw me out

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/the-bully-who-had-her-young-female-employees-in/ypvpyrg42ryd

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/boob-job-alert-it-could-just-be-the-baby/y6ybxjukdtdb

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/not-to-be-that-person-but-does-anyone-really-care/80g7withilmv

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/deniseandthefandoms-duchessofostergotlands-she/9kcxq1kfzc5o

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/i-think-the-window-for-lil-d-is-now-closed-i/ewbhd1rv7hda

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/future-smackdowns-list-additions-bullying/s93jrn31jr7u

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/the-royal-foundations-financial-report-pg-14/5g6cyy6mj3vq

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/meghan-thought-nottingham-cottage-wasnt-good/t7adowm3gpx9

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/omg-youre-so-right-about-the-blooper-reel/8a9cce5evqd5

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/i-still-cant-tell-what-the-eff-she-is-wearing-i/4cwkdwvxxhnv

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/i-dont-think-rose-flirting-with-harry-is-truth/lghwxyyajcuy

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/sassyfrassboss-the-empress-7-march-7th-2021/v042elmset28

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/the-empress-7/p32fyvwpr7ui

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/rumors-going-around-that-sunshine-sachs-is/swq2ee9hi5t9

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/their-separationdivorce-isnt-coming-anytime/ntylfn53hxlb

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/the-walk-in-the-woods-was-an-exact-recreation-of/cqhlonmut08v

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/it-amuses-me-when-their-sugars-go-on-and-on-about/konafqsr8noa

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/i-remember-in-that-orpah-interview-where-meghan/qm725xaoudwm

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/harry-and-meghan-are-going-to-solve-afghanistan/z0besydab4ys

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/662510339074719744/mt0l86cnm7oe

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/i-mean-when-you-hit-40-years-old-and-apparently/54xf8qwt5pzw

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/but-theyve-never-stood-up-for-her-ever-yep/3vf4sra2t0jh

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/he-is-100-the-reason-there-were-no-uniforms-at/pj03k1iulai6

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/jh-is-exactly-like-my-narcissistic-parents/wariibwbiq2m

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/hi-cc-so-this-was-posted-to-instagram-apparently/t9znklezxggl

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/unless-its-harry-doing-the-im-a-prince-my/w1l7x2nb7zll

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/she-cant-even-cry-authentically-or-at-least-look/jf3xdm6szt5y

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/hi-empress-ive-been-sitting-on-this-all-day-but/c4y5728ccvl0

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/hi-empress-is-this-the-only-tea-that-wimbledon/cxx88okljmfn

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/663207072407715840/ah3lh49qdiv5

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/wimbledon-anon-here-i-had-a-meeting-if-i-may/04e0vdfhwp7e

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/royals-have-lost-the-plot/0y5axf7u52ag

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/i-get-that-we-dont-like-mm-but-the-shes-fat-and/yzpos8qe7jy2

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/663251687471038464/wrwuy1o6b4ph

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/ive-heard-that-meghan-hates-aliz%25C3%25A9e-and-sees-her/v9ahrnd87sju

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/its-reassuring-to-read-and-hear-that-those-in-the/j9fw0vwn61vt

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/all-i-can-see-from-those-photos-is-she-can-not/2okybw7lkapp

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/so-what-is-this-documentary-going-to-be-about/bra54cdb3h0f

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/its-not-a-pack-of-cigarettes-in-hs-pocket-but-a/kwix0egr34m2

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/663420224303939584/ly2wd02csiho

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/hi-empress-im-not-sure-if-you-can-publish-this/rcrw2mse7f50

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/so-where-does-she-go-from-here-well-shes/i55xlbvll4rd

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/the-teachers-are-the-school-they-visited-in/becomjs9s2gx

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/the-reason-michelle-obama-or-beyonce-get-broad/awj1bxvveiez

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/meghan-is-stuck-in-the-90s-we-existed-in-a-time/6s81jydtfx20

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/she-wore-extremely-expensive-designer-clothes-but/ectczwiwk57c

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/regarding-mm-removing-her-jewelry-in-poor/kuk3mko0j9w6

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/so-every-time-she-is-in-predominantly-black/53171hl7ak2q

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/wait-a-minute-did-she-really-remove-her-pinky/tdjur7ahr1qo

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/i-worked-in-dc-in-the-2000s-angelina-was/2fz7afslptv3

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/perez-hilton-is-focusing-on-the-hypocrisy-of-the/c2uc4rhcw0a7

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/richard-palmer-continues-dealing-with-sugars/c5q2d8ms79og

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/imo-meghan-she-does-not-have-positive-views-of/qphvep4cwr6y

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/empress-did-you-notice-that-meghan-didnt-wear/jb41gsddtzfz

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/hold-on-a-minute-is-catherine-wearing-her/jbiqhi77jjpt

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/663687876666703872/lnm4s0znd8bi

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/when-do-you-think-well-see-lilibets-photo/3ymu8croeno8

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/i-sincerely-want-to-understand-how-people-think/804lnyieq4hu

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/katie-couric-her-new-book-she-recalled-that-the/2pzyp7x4hglj

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/katie-couric-is-out-here-really-confirming-harry/9wg00n8bfmo8

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/uuuweee-just-wait-for-the-netflix-show-the/n3gefe09bot8

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/i-have-a-crazy-idea-i-think-harkles-had-vaguely/smvrbhm99qcl

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/have-you-seen-what-katie-couric-is-saying-about/6duy8ndglurs

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/oh-that-will-be-against-harry-her-drunk-of-a/661kcfhv8faw

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/netflix-is-their-last-hope-and-even-then-comments/et53cjccmhu6

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/this-is-the-first-time-that-i-seriously-feel/9vkueusr09e4

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/it-should-be-harrys-problem-but-he-isnt-capable/qw8f8w6ui1n2

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/forget-about-ff-and-angry-camera-videos-she-has-on/gfzvfrp6xg5i

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/i-truly-think-one-of-the-most-nonsensical-thing/ik4x1biv31dk

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/the-world-knows-that-m-wants-money-for-the/9ipm1umtj29x

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/megan-wearing-thousands-of-dollars-worth-of/glurvlvn56br

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/this-is-how-desperate-he-is-he-is-spending-all/wt2ql1heombp

https://at.tumblr.com/valentinoqueen/the-fact-more-than-one-official-hash-tagged-in/p1k02u7ye4lw

Thank you for finding these. Odd but helpful in hindsight.

[mikiruma]

actually wtf is going on in the replies of the breaking bad post we reblogged earlier???? do people think breaking bad is a show about our good buddy walter white who was thrust into an unfair situation and was rewarded for killing people????? sorry to drop spoilers for a show that ended 9 years ago but

heres just a short list of things i can remember he did off the top of my head

rejected payment for his treatment out of pride/resentment for the old friend offering (who was a BILLIONAIRE)

got into meth without really any prompting (yes he was desperate but you could argue he could have done literally anything else in his position instead of stew quietly and fuck around in the desert)

kills/severely injures 2 people the second time cooking ever

(throughout the show) manipulating/gaslighting his wife, his lab partner, anyone he thinks he has an inkling of power over

when his meth empire as he knows it crumbles he starts working with actual white supremacists

one of which shoots/kills a child in front of him, which he defends

literally nearly every scene of him and jesse interacting

indirectly caused the universe's "9/11 two" (by watching/letting the daughter of the air traffic controller who took responsibility die) (the daughter happening to be jesse's gf at the time)

at a school assembly addressing this he essentially told the student body & faculty (many of which were directly affected by the tragedy ie property damage via plane/body parts or severe emotional trauma from witnessing) to "get over it"

poison's jesse's new gf's son to manipulate jesse into killing their boss, who they don't like admittedly but jesse isn't an overzealous idiot

literally every scene where he tells skyler "you dont know WHAT ive done for this family... to protect us..." literally nobody asked you to start cooking meth and terrorizing people

ok on god this show is designed to make you sympathize with him early on bc hes sad and desperate and trying to be a strong brave man but he gets so gradually unlikeable and is continuously punished and doesnt understand WHY bc he was BADASS and BUSINESS IS BOOMING and honestly i cant give you a specific point when i personally stopped rooting for walt bc i've been rewatching slowly and just always knew he was a shithead but i WILL say it is extremely apparent when, in the beginning, he cries abt how he does it to secure a future for his family & keep them out of medical debt and even originally has a set dollar amount goal! but in early s5 he calls $5mil 'pennies' and even before then its extremely obvious it hasnt been about the family for a long ass time, hes no longer interested in securing a future, hes trying to flex his wealth (NOT EVEN BOTHERING WITH MONEY LAUNDERING UNTIL S4?????) and "prove" how much of a hero he can be to his family who never asked him to do any of this.

this show is awesome bc you get to watch a guys joker arc set in over the course of a year or so and he sucks SO BAD. it literally shows how the nightmare medical industry drives people to desperate measures. it shows toxic masculinity and the problems with the nuclear family mindset/image and a wonderfully awful demonstration of how pride can rot you. seeing ppl say they wont watch the show because it touches on those themes at all, being completely dismissive of how theyre examined or what the point in all of it is, is really fucking weird. i dont mean to sound like a married middle-class white man in a mid-life crisis who thinks he's walter white and would kin him if i knew what that meant (and was simultaneously too cool for comic books so i cant relate to the joker at all) but this show is fucking cool and i have just witnessed the other side of the fanbase revival, which is 'people who have never seen it who think they know what its about posting their opinions online and it hurts my little autistic brain'

#talking #all this to say......... i miss jane margolis

[risfics]

hii hello u don’t have to post this on ur page or anything but i wanted to let u know i rlly love ur writing sm. ive been reading ur works for a while, way before i even started writing on tumblr and i really am in love with the way u write. i cant even tell u how many times i’ve reread ur one hange fic it’s so amazing i love it soso much. i remember discovering u on my old blog and i was so excited to go thru ur entire masterlist. ive had so many old blogs but my most recent one is pakulvr idk if u remember me but yea!!! big big fan of ur works and im glad you’re posting ur writing again bc i missed it sm. i’m trying to make this blog strictly sapphic so i cant exactly reblog it but i do love ur recent sm!! you’re one of my fav writers

oh god I'm so sorry for not answering 😭😭🫶🏽 I rarely check my inbox, this message is so so so sweet. i deeply appreciate it this and all your love!! I'm really struggling to write bc I am not as into anime or manga as I used to be, and smut itself is really not as enticing to me lately either ☹️.

but now that I'm slowly falling back in love with DC comics, I have hopes I'll maybe write things for certain characters in that universe!! and possibly some sapphic stuff bc im super in love w starfire still, so hopefully I'll be able to keep writing more in the future!! 😭

Ty so much for this message, this means a lot to me!!!! 💗💗

#haiixo #fav #ari answers #ty so so much for this omfg 😭😭

[actuallyunreal]

(personal post, not really ew-related :O )

i LOVE that tumblr shows you reblog tags now - i remember going through individual posts with like, maybe 40 notes absolute tops and getting frustrated years ago, very much appreciate the change. makes it a lot more fun to engage with fandom :D (im generally too shy to say anything directly to people so thats why its usually just tags haha)

also i wonder if i should ball all my daily posts into one dump a day or something? i cant imagine its super exciting for half the posts in shipsworld to be from the same artist every time, especially because my style is pretty inconsistent in terms of completion; (sketch/lines/colours/etc)

ive been operating on the “holy shit! two cakes!” analogy in terms of producing eddsworld content - started too embarrassed to post stuff because i never made “finished” stuff but then figured someone out there would like it  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ esp because i dont technically consider myself an artist, per se, and i never had any success with it.

anyway i think i said it somewhere before but im really enjoying ew as a comfort media - i last watched it when i was like, idk, 18 or 20 or something? so its really interesting that theres still an active fandom of varying ages i think! (also heres ur regular reminder im a 27 year old adult 👌)

also sorry if i try to do something new when im drawing and it looks a little silly - im trying to convince myself to expand my pose repertoire by trying new things even if im not sure theyll look good haha

[thesadboisguidetolife]

19 Questions and a Selfie

I got tagged by the sweet, kind, gorgeous @vidibit so here we go!!!

What do you prefer to be called? Haha so i actually dont have a preference. I kinda just leave it to whoever im talking to. That and a lot of Latinos just use nicknames for friends and ive had tons of those.

When is your Birthday? July 12. ♋ 😊

Where do you live? Haha ok but youre not getting my credit card number. I live in a suburb of Los Angeles, California.

Thing youre doing right now? I was working on some music and had The Birdcage playing as background noise when i first started on this but i put it in my drafts to finish later and now im at work lol

Four Fandoms that have piqued your interest? The Last Airbender for sure, Steven Universe is good, love me some Batman, Lord of The Rings too.

How has the Pandemic been treating you? I mean its been up and down. Got to spend a lot of time at home which was really really nice. Lost a lot of people, which......wasnt so nice. Also not doing that thing anymore where i put off hobbies that i love for "some other time."

A Song you cant stop listening to? Currently? Empire Ants by Gorillaz ft Little Dragon

Recommend A Movie? Oooohhh well im rewatching The Birdcage and its so good 😭 that scene with Armand and Albert on the bus stop always gets to me.

How old are you? 31 omggggg i feel so freaking old!!!!

School, University, Occupation? I am a cook 😊

Do you prefer to be hot or cold? Oh 100% cold. Haha without question. I can wear layers. And i can cuddle on the couch with a blanket on. Hot tea. Cold all the way.

Name a fact others may not know about you. I have Poland Syndrome. 🤷‍♂️ haha its like a minor case but i was born without my right pectoral muscle and its definitely caused body image issues lol.

Are you shy? Haha absolutely. But ive had to come out of my shell because of work. You cant exactly be shy and shout orders around a kitchen.

Pronouns? He, him, they, them mostly but she, her on occasion. Im all over the place. Lol

Biggest Pet Peeve? Mean people. People who enjoy being assholes to others in any way shape or form. Like, it cost you nothing, literally not a single cent, to be a decent person and you choose otherwise!?!? Unless you're one of those people that want me and my friends and family dead because of who we are. Y'all can drop dead. And you know exactly who i mean.

Rate your life from 1-10. 7 is a pretty safe number haha like im very grateful for all the stuff i have in life. My immediate family is still healthy. I have a job. And the amount of amazingly beautiful, kind, sweet people who I've gotten a great chance meet here. Seriously though. You guys are amazing and i love you guys 😊

Whats your main blog? Haha definitely this one.

List all of your side blogs and what theyre for. I may or may not have a side blog thats more for........adult stuff. But its literally all reblogs from other peoples side blogs lol

Is there anything people should know about you before becoming friends with you? Haha none comes to mind. I mean id like to think that I'm a pretty chill guy who you can talk to about anything 🤷‍♂️

Heres me in and out of uniform (showing maybe a little too much bulge lol)

Only if you guys want to btw, im gonna tag @campcrow @dropitlowbandit @catgifsinthesenate @c0smoggy @cubone-attack @zelmoe @vulnerary-prince @aegisblaze @dangerghost20 for now even though i know i will post this and remember a couple of beautiful mutuals i havent tagged in a while. 😊

[unlocktxt]

hi 😄 i saw your reblog and i want to ask the same thing: what was your first impression of your moots?

First i want to say that I may of gotten a littleeeee carried away. I wanted to include as many people as possible, but some I don’t have enough to say. Despite this I might add more. I’ve met so many various people on this app and I’ve loved interacting with them all or just seeing them around. So much so that I can’t list everybody. I really love all my moots and there are so many of them that I’ll forever be grateful for. (yes i added a keep reading because this was so long and please excuse my gramtical errors)

@hoes4hoseok - our first impression was playing among us WHICH WAS SO FUN. I don’t remember much about talking to her in the game BUT I do remember that she was the first one to ever make the group chat filled with those who played with us. honestly I’m so grateful that she did that because I wouldn’t have been able to become friends with her and many others. I remember thinking that she was beyond kind and that she was good with trying to include everyone. After that I just remember hearing her voice and then DYING because she has a wonderful voice. I felt as though I related to you just a bit. Now I’ve gotten to see different aspects of her and really value her as a person and friend. She keeps things real and is so helpful. Sometimes I wish I could see what goes on inside her head because sometimes I think she reserves herself or overthinks and I’d like to give her a big hug.

@binniebutter - amie... oh amie 🙄 just kidding 😂 amie well... I also met her while playing among us in that same group. we played a lot with each other and I find that nice BECAUSE I CANT REMEMBER WHAT WE TALKED ABOUT DURING THE FIRST TIME WE PLAYED. I think I do remember laughing about her and gen tho. In our first gc I remember thinking that she had a bright personality and could keep the conversation going. I also find out we live about an hour away so I was able to connect with her about that (I also was so excited just because IVE NEVER MET AN ONLINE FRIEND IN THE SAME STATE) After that we played among us a lot together and I just remember thinking amie was EVIL. She was funny though and I felt comfortable around her. Now... I honestly think I’m pretty close to amie emotionally. It’s very rare that I put down my guard and talk to someone about certain things (I don’t really think I’ve talked to her about certain things tho) I still feel as though I can talk to her or that I can cry or rant to her without feeling judged. I don’t know how much she’s come to me about, but anytime I try to comfort her i feel like I get to know her better. I usually don’t start joking with my friends and being “rude” to them unless I know that they know I love them, which is why I’m starting to show amie sarcasm at times ☺️ I may of written too much 😅

@hyukaite I ACTUALLY REMEMBER MY FIRST IMPRESSIONS OF KAT. oml we’d send asks every now and then and I remember thinking she was a crack head. From the videos I’d see her post to that one drawing. Man if only I could go all the way back to it, but it was monthssss ago. I also remember relating to her about having to help our sisters with math 💀. I wanted to be her friend after seeing her interact with some of my other moots, but I was too shy to actually message her so I stuck with sending in asks every now and then 😂 then we started playing among us together. I remember thinking “NOOOO SHE STOLE YELLOW” which led to me falling in love with the dark green among us color JFKAJFLW. After that I remember getting betrayed by her in the game SO MANY TIMES. she killed me during the Simon says task... to tell you what grudge I hold... I still remember it. ITS SUCH A HARD TASK AND SHE DIDNT LET ME FINISH IT. She also killed me in electrical when I thought she was INNOCENT. Now... kat I don’t even know how to describe her. She has many aspects to her that I love. She also is able to help me think straight whenever I let my anger get to me.

@yawnjunie - I thought she was shy at first because when I first met her she didn’t talk much, so I felt bad because I thought she didn’t feel all that welcomed by us (no specific reason we were just introduced to blu so abruptly 😂) After that I think I was intimidated by her at first JFJAKFJERI. We also compared our schools and our grade mindset which I think really opened my eyes a little bit more. I still believe she’s really smart Zknfaltn. She makes me laugh though and she also started the network moacabinet. She’s really sweet with so many ideas, but I feel bad because sometimes I think she gets stressed easily. She’s not on much, but everytime she’s online I’m blessed with her presence.

@kkuming - gigiiiii! my first impression of gigi was fairly simple. We met on the au group chat and she seemed really sweet. I wanted to try and give gigi a warm welcome and make sure she felt comfortable. I wish I remembered more about our first meeting. I DO HOWEVER remember thinking she was v v innocent. I sat back and watched gigi get thrown into the group and laughed my ass off at how she interacted with kat. I was worried that because the others were already so comfortable with her and joking around about things that she may actually think that the “divorce” or whatever it was that kat and her had would make her upset, so I wanted to remind her that I appreciated her Zofnakfjeof. She also was taking a lot of stressful classes so I could only hope this girl didn’t die underneath all that stress. Now I- she’s crazy guys. Just kidding 😂 she’s still really sweet and jokes around with all of us. I’m glad she’s online a lot more now. she’s also really funny.

@lipbeom - I’m like 99.9% sure rynn was the first person I ever really talked to on tumblr. I thought she was a really good writer and saw that she was a senior as well, so I was glad that I wasn’t the only one on tumblr that was going to suffer through the last year of school. I was so glad when she messaged me first like Y’ALL HAVE NO IDEA. When I first met her I remember thinking she was really sweet AND BEYOND SMART. I’m really grateful for rynn and I actually miss her a lot because I feel like I don’t interact with her as much as I should. She was very supportive and still is. It’s only been a few months since I first talked with her but I’m reminiscing 😂 She also got me hooked on selling sunset WHICH WAS AMAZING but I was talking like the girls on the show for WEEKSSSSSSS.

@bbhyeoliskooks - I don’t really remember how I came across her, but I realized she was a new moa writer and wanted to check her out. My first impression... hmmm I guess you could say that I believed she was very grateful even when she didn’t have to be. Sometimes she makes me feel old 💀 but she’s reminds me a little bit of my sister... just way sweeter. She’s very loyal and anytime you tell her you’ve posted something oml she’s wonderful. She’s the type of person who is really supportive and I appreciate that, but sometimes I feel like I don’t give her enough of ittttt. I really need to go stalk her blog now as for some reason I don’t see her notifs half the time. I’m really proud of her and think she’s one of the sweetest people on tumblr NOT TO MENTION SHE SINGS BEAUTIFULLY.

@txthearteu - oml cj 😂 she is also one of the first people I talked to on tumblr. I don’t really remember our first impression tho :/. I DO REMEMBER I READ ONE OF HER STORIES THO and i sent an ask about it because she deserved the recognition for it. Hmmm at first I believe I was intimidated because she is older than me 😂 however she was so extremely sweet and I loved talking to her. I tried talking about various different things with her because I wanted our conversation to continue hehe. She stays feeding me 😌 and even if I can’t physically eat del taco I get full off of the love and support cj gives me. My eyes light up when I see her in my notifs. I think she deserves the world and I always want to be there for her. I don’t think I can ever repay her for the love she’s given me.

@sung4oon - SAM I SWEAR IF YOU CHANGE UR URL BEFORE I HAVE A CHANCE TO POST THIS! I met her when her url was... 👁👄👁 lixxie sumtin. I think it was lixieebear. I truly don’t remember her first impression 💀 the only thing I remember was thinking that she was also a crack head. She was really funny and sweet and DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE WHOLE BRAINCELL THING. I should’ve given her my brain cells for christmas. I still think she’s really fun to talk to and I literally try to remind myself as much as possible that I need to go stop by and send an ask every now and then. Even so she still says hi to me ☺️

@beomiebear5 - R A I N A. hehehehehehe I actually love this first impression for me. At the time I saw her anon asks to rynn. I saw that she was going to start posting stuff on her blog soon and she gave a hint about how to find her. Ofc I let rynn do that herself BUT I went searching KFJSIFIWFKW I couldn’t help it I saw it as a challenge. My first impression was rlly just that she was sweet. Then after a while KFJAOFJWOF I really love interacting with her and seeing her rants. Gosh she’s so funny and ✨inspires✨ me. I’m always down to talk to her because she’s amazing and sweet.

@magicisland9-34 - lillie ☺️ I honestly don’t remember our first impression? I do however remember when she first sent an ask! I would always get so excited when I got an ask from her 😂 I loved talking to her and she let me ramble on and on. Whether that be about gymnastics or ballet. Once again even lillie is sweet, but she’s betrayed me for siding with amie about Christmas 😤. She’s also one of the people that I try to remind myself to go and visit their blog and see what they’ve posted.

@spookybias - if I remember correctly gen was the first one who reblogged my about me post, which ended up allowing others on this app to see that I was a new writing blog. She was also one of the first people I followed and one of the first who followed me, so I was really grateful and thought she was beyond helpful and nice. I also really believe she’s a great writer and i admired how she would tell things how they are. She’s always been sweet to me even if she’s threatened to shoot me a while back 😤. OH YEAH we also played among us together in that group as well and I always suspected her at one point. IT WAS BECAUSE THE ONE TIME I TRUSTED HER SHE KILLED ME.

@bffsoobin - My first impression of Sara was pretty simple like I found her blog and fell in love. she writes so well and I’ve loved everything I’ve read from her. I thought she was really pretty and pretty funny too. When she’d talk about some of her stories revolving school it honestly made my day as well. I admire her especially because she’s such a good writer and LET ME TELL YOU when she followed me back I think I did a little cheer. I was reading her fics before I even started writing on tumblr.

@soobcxre - I saw Sara around because we had a lot of moots in common and when I saw them interact I would just think about how I wanted to befriend her 😂. When she texted me I got so excited, but I WAS SO CAUGHT UP IN SCHOOL TOO. She’s also really sweet ajfjwkfjw and I’m glad to have met her.

@lovesickchoi - MADDIE 🤩 I.... I don’t remember my first impression of her 🥲. It may of revolved around asks? I think I ended up trying to get to know her more at the time I was trying to get to know yoonie. I say this because I remember always seeming to get their urls mixed up... I think it’s because the h at the beginning. I LITERALLY DONT REMEMBER HOW WE STARTED INTERACTING. She’s also an amazing writer tho! Now I still think she’s sweet and we’ve talked about yeonbin together 😂.

@sunoo-luvs - 🥺 zaara JFJAJRKSKF literally my first impression was “cute.” That still stands btw. She’s absolutely the sweetest and is really considerate of others IM SCARED BECAUSE SHE MAY APOLOGIZE FOR THINGS THERES NO NEED TO APOLOGIZE FOR. Even so she can easily add happiness to people’s day with just a hi and a hug.

@i2gyu - I- first impression: scary. IM KIDDING wait... actually even though that was a joke because she used to stop by and say “boo” I MAY OF ACTUALLY FELT INTIMIDATED BY HER AT FIRST. I think one of the first times we interacted was about a network and at the time I was ready to join a network SO I FELT SO BAD FOR SAYING NO. Afterwards tho I realized how nice she was and I always end up getting a little energetic once I see she’s sent in an ask. One day I’m scared I won’t see her change her url or blog, but that’s if she does again.

@fairycore-gyu - I haven’t interacted with anyone new recently and when I saw kira that obviously changed 😂. I related to her with music taste and stuff. LET ME TELL YOU when someone seems to have the same music taste I JUST my eyes light up. She was really welcoming and I instantly felt like I could message her anytime. I also just realized she’s a pisces 🥺.

@yoonjunie - I just remember thinking ooooo new moa writer! I think anyone who comes across her can say she’s very welcoming and sweet + she deserves everything she has. I really just wanted to support her 😂 I need to interact with her more and read more from her blog.

@hyeyoonwrites - yoonie 🥺 AHHHH okay 😂 first impression: LITERALLY THE SWEETEST. I know I’ve said that so many people here are sweet but yoonie is a different kind of sweet. I don’t know every single time I’ve interacted with her has felt like a soft hug. She’s supported me a lot and I really need to check up on her more frequently I feel guilty about it aifoshf.

@txtextme - gon I- even though we haven’t talked much she’s extremely funny and relatable. she just has this vibe that I love about her. I know I don’t have much to say, but I had to add her because she’s left an impact.

@yeonbins - VIVI HAS WONDERFUL GIFS. Every now and then I’ll see her post some stuff just talking and akfjskf. I mainly remember (I think) Starbucks getting her name wrong. Her names so pretty tho. I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE HOW MUCH OLDER SHE WAS THAN ME. I also played among us with her for a lil... I was scared she was gonna murder me 😂.

#asks 💌 #wonderful anon ✨ #first impressions #not me forgetting to tag people

[eternallyhyucks]

♧♧♧♧♧♧♧♧♧♧♧♧♧♧ did i send this or did i not send this????? HELP I CANT REMEMBER MY SLEEP DEPRIVED BRAIN IS SHUTTING DOWN LFMOAMGORIG

U DIDNT LMAOAOAO

you’re my: FIRST MOOT THAT I DIDNT KNOW BEFORE USING THIS APP <3

how i met u: i reblogged one of ur posts on ur old blog and then u sent me an ask saying u were honored,, mf i was honored that i was getting an ask LOL

why i follow u: UR WORKS ARE SO MF GOOD. I LITERALLY LOVE THEM SM UR MIND IS JUST😩😩😩🙌🙌🙌🙌

ur blog is: SO GOOD. i love ur themes sm man,, idk how u have the patience for changing them all the time. ive changed mine once and never again LOLOLOL

ur URL is: fun to say,, tyunni‼️

ur icon is: funny bc i have no idea what it is HELP

a random fact ik about u: ur bald😍 or im making this up and i actually dk anything ab u

general opinion: UR THE BEST MAN I LOVE TALKING TO U AND UR SO FUNNY AND YEAH‼️

a random thought i have: u should stan golden child. it would be good for u and everyone else🙄 this is for everyone: stan golden child or ill haunt u in ur dreams

mutuals send me a ♧

#this was all over the place LMFAO #moots — may <3 #࿔₊° . inbox #࿔₊° . play

[katachell]

portal 2 project???

portal 2 has an AMAZING narrative. AMAZING. but if you want to rewatch the story... you cant. your two options are to watch let’s plays and randomly skip around to hopefully hear all the dialogue, or to read the quotes on the wiki... which are seperated by character, not scene, and dont give environmental details. this makes it impossible for people who dont want to put in a massive amount of time in to experience the story of the game in one definitive place. so, i propose:

THE PORTAL 2 PROJECT

the end product of this project would be a video, posted to YouTube, that has all of the relevant scenes and dialogue in order. it would play out like a movie, so people who haven't or don't want to play the game can still enjoy and understand the story in its entirety. it would use screen recordings of the game, so you can see whats happening and hear it.

what would be included in the video:

-any moment where there is dialogue (exceptions listed below)

-plot relevant details: for some examples, getting the portal gun, finding a rattman den, introducing a new puzzle element, when cave says that portals can be placed on the moon. (this is to better help people who aren't familiar with the franchise understand what the things they're seeing on the screen are.) (most of these would be short clips: for example, when hard light bridges are introduced, the clip would show chell walking up to it and standing on it, and then the video would move on.)

-major scenes, obviously. an example is when chell falls into the pit or unlocks old aperture.

-small, funny details. (without lingering for too long.) it wouldn’t be portal 2 if you dont show the little details! examples include the borealis dock, the elevator room screens, or when wheatly is monologuing and you can go back and he’ll keep monologuing (”you’re at my mercy! wait- come back! (chell goes back) FOOL! you’re at my mercy, and i dont have any!”

-exploring the enviroment: for example, the screen recorder would stop to look at the awards in old aperture, zoom in on chell’s name for the potato experiment, listen to the optional/hidden cave experiment dialogue, as well as look at old posters and signs that tell you about the dangers of old ap. just so the audience is grounded.

-ive touched on this in other bullet points, but not everyone has the time or willpower to look for the little hidden things in the game. this would make sure that you get a very full, portal 2 experience.

what would NOT be included:

-puzzle solving. some chambers take a few minutes to solve, and there is no dialogue. this interrupts the story. unless the puzzle solving is relevant to the plot, like quickly introducing new mechanics to the audience, it wont be included.

-unimportant dialogue. for example, in the neurotoxin generator area, whealtly will ramble for - i think i lasted 4 or 5 minutes before i left - a while, just trying to convince the neurotoxin generator to shut itself off or something. while entertaining, it takes away from the focus of the project.

an example of the formatting:

i imagine the format to look something like this: (im using chapter 1 as an example)

-full, uncut opening with the wheately escape. the cameraman waits at the door before opening it so you get his full dialogue. ~5 minutes

-chell goes into her old relaxation vault, listens to the announcer, puts a button on the pressure pad, then enters the elevator. this introduces the button/cube mechanic. (this scene comes directly after the last, with no cuts). since there is announcer dialogue and new mechanics, this stays relatively uncut. ~1 minute

-chell exits elevator, hears funny announcer dialogue. the camera looks at the room for 5 seconds so the audience understands the setting for the scene, as well as the act. ~15-20 seconds

-chell presses a button to open a portal. this is the first time a portal is seen. she walks through the portal. this introduces the core mechanic of the game. (~30 seconds) (once the mechanic has been used once or twice, the rest of the puzzle is cut)

that would be the basic format. for things like multiple uneventful test chambers in a row, it would show slow fading shots of the test chamber number so you understand that time is passing. this would be intercut with shots of the setting.

HOW CAN I GET HELP / THIS PROJECT STARTED??

getting all of this footage is too much for one person. editing it... is too much for one person. ALL OF THE FOOTAGE HAS TO COME FROM PEOPLE WORKING ON THIS PROJECT. IT CANT COME FROM OTHER PEOPLES YOUTUBE VIDEOS. For this project, I’ll need people to record the footage, people to help edit the footage, and 1-3 people who know the story well and are willing to go over the game’s plot and determine what scenes and details we need, so the records know what to record and what to focus on. 

Do you want to help capture footage? if so, youll need:

-access to the PC version of the game with LOW LAG gameplay

-a screen recorder program. it CANNOT have a watermark on the finished product. needs to be high resolution footage.

-(the recordings will NOT feature your voice or a face cam.)

-(you do not need mods and please leave the portal gun with its base texture)

-(id be comfortable with each screen recorder person to cover around 1-2 chapters... so maybe 4-5 people, unless i can find more. youd be following some directions on what to record. you do not need to edit, just get the footage.)

Can’t do that? Can you EDIT video footage? you’ll need:

-a video editor. high quality. i dont know the editing industry, i dont know what software exists.

-MUST be able to export it without a watermark and in high quality.

-(each editor will be responsible for a chapter or chapters. then render your final product. one editor will put all of the finished chapters together. this means you can use different software from the other editors, and will have a good amount of control over your assigned part. i dont have a number for how many editors there will be. id like more than one.)

Can’t do that? What about choosing the important scenes and details and acting as a sort of ‘writer’ for the plot? You’ll need:

-a good knowlege of the game and its history and fun facts. if youre obsessed with this game and franchise... yeah same. but as long as youre interested and know it well, thats fine

-be able to browse the wiki

-time to review the game by watching lets plays or playing it yourself

-be able to choose the right details and communicate that to the screen recorders and editors. remember my example about chapter one earlier? youd have to lay it out in a similarly comprehensive way.

-take constructive criticism

-must be older than 14 for this. youve gotta make a lot of decisions in this role. ive seen some really creative and talented high schoolers, so thats where im drawing the age line.

-(im hoping for 1-4 of these people, including myself.)

IF YOU’RE INTERESTED IN HELPING, SEND ME A DM. IF YOU’RE CHOSEN TO WORK ON THE PROJECT, I’LL SET UP A DISCORD FOR THOSE INVOLVED. IF THIS GETS SOME SORT OF MASS SUPPORT, I’LL SET UP A DISCORD FOR ANYONE INTERESTED IN UPDATES.

The purpose of this project is to make it so you can relive the portal 2 plot without having to replay the full game. Other methods do not exist. No one video shows the plot in order with ‘filler’ removed. Voice lines exist in text form, but do not capture the visual aspect of the game, or give context, and are not a full experience. This story is a masterpiece and deserves to be edited so it is comprehensive and all in one place. No one will claim credit for owning portal 2 or writing the story - the video is showing gameplay, and just so happens to be the relevant gameplay. However, screen capture, editing, and direction credits will be given to everyone who participates. This project will allow you to introduce friends and family to the game without sending them a video where only 5 minutes out of the 1 hour video is relevant. I have wanted this project for a while, but I’ve realized that I can’t do it alone. Even if you can’t help directly, please spread the word and reblog.

#portal #Portal 2 #wheatley #Chell #glados #cave johnson

[dammithawke]

Once every like six months, outside of new hyperfixations, i hit post limit like i used to do daily. And then i casually mention it to a friend. And im reminded that this isnt a THING everyone has encountered.

I casually sigh and mention it to my wife, only for them to give me that look that definitely means they still dont fully understand how i manage to do it.

I bite my tongue. My past is dark. I remember hitting post limit before 10 am. And then hitting it again on my backup account before 2 pm. And then cutting it close to the wire on my third account when i hit it at 10:30 pm, or 11:45 pm -- so close to when the limit counter resets at midnight.

"How do you have so much to say?" Someone asks me.

"i dont," i reply. "The reblogs just give me so much seratonin."

I remember before post limit. But i cant find when it began. Sometime between 2010 and 2012, right? Google wont tell me. I have to rely on vague memories of being in highschool and being annoyed that its suddenly harder or impossible to liveblog my reactions to new episodes of glee AND reblog 7 different versions of every gif and screen cap after. Back when tumblr was also a weird stream of consciousness where suddenly you had inside jokes with mutuals who would reliably respond to everything you posted.

It seemed like followers meant something then, because we didnt realize how removed it all really was. I thought it was impressive ever time i hit another milestone. 10. 50. 100. 200. Then make a new account, because everything is too static but not static at all and my brain needs MORE and DIFFERENT. 50. 100. 200. 275.

I dont look anymore. 2000 followers? 2006? A relic of when this was a legend of korra rp blog, plus the abundance of pornbots.

I follow more then that. My dash can never be at a stand still. Every new hyperfixation, i have to follow more, to outweigh old interest in favor of what makes my brain whirr NOW.

This blog isnt young. But ive been around here longer then it. Its seen my insomnia and my insomnia has taken advantage if it.

I left for a bit. But i returned. Its a habit, a comfort. Its a site that barely works, but no one really can find me here.

Im fine with that.

#this is melodramatic ok #i just couldnt sleep

[spartalabouche]

additionally only slightly related but ive been thinking about one of those past relationships. ive surely talked about it before but i dont think ti was any time recently and definitely not this specific thing recently because uh i didnt remember it happened until recently. i was looking through a tag on my blog trying to find something specific (tag for an old friend/past relationship/’it was complicated’ person) and i found a post they had reblogged and i assume tagged me, their old blog is long gone so i cant see if they put any like commentary in the tags but i had. basically the post was like ‘if youre my friend you have to understand that sometimes i cant do conversations and its not because i dont want to talk to you’ and like whatever else and like i mean i get that and having that tagged for me i think you would assume i was probably like getting a little clingy or something and the thing is like i understand that whole concept, i really do. and i respect that concept also. if you dont want to talk to me one day i wont talk to you! except the ‘conversations’ that they thought i was trying to start too much was ‘hey are you okay? havent talked in a few days’ every once in a while because our friendship/relationship/’it was complicated’ rapidly devolved from talking every single day the moment i got home from school to ‘sorry i dont feel like calling today’ for like a week straight. i just wanted confirmation they were okay and alive and not i dunno, having some sort of mental breakdown that they might need to talk about. i just thought it was a little... i dunno what word im looking for. mean maybe? it was love

but they never did the same for me  even though i was in a much darker place than they were. maybe once or twice. i guess i dont remember a lot from that period of my life. but i remember almost killing myself and they didnt bother to ask me if... i dunno. if i could be helped at all. i dont remember a lot about that period either but i have posts on here. its like a time machine and i can see myself being that scared little kid, hurting and feeling so unloved, and wondering why they didnt try to save me when i couldve died. 

i dont want to say they never loved me. it feels mean. they definitely didnt love me as much as i loved them but i want to believe they loved me as a friend. but i dont think it ever felt that way

#gekkering #dont rb #txt #like if you read? #i think im the only person who says that anymore but what can i say i like to be acknowledged when im sad #maybe you can figure why

[mrswhozeewhatsis]

2019 Jason Manns FanFic FanArt Project

This project is finished!

See the completed book online HERE.

Jason was sweet about the book, as always, and was sad that this will be the last one. I think he’s finally gotten into the idea, but he understands that we can’t keep doing these forever. No matter what, though, I’m proud of what we’ve done! We rock!

Rules for the project, and links to the original posts with the stories and art are below the cut!

As I’ve done for Louden Swain in the past, so shall I do for Jason Manns! But only with your help!

Jason Manns has been an adjacent part of our show for over a decade, now. His music has been featured on the show, and he’s close friends with many of the cast, as well as a frequent collaborator with them, which has brought us so many projects with our favorites! In order to thank him for everything he does for us, I want us to do for him what we’ve done for Louden Swain.

If you’re new to this type of thing, check out previous Louden Swain projects:

2016 - Masterpost - Finished book

2017 - Masterpost - Finished book

2018 - Masterpost - Finished book

This is just like the Louden Swain Projects of the past, so if you’re familiar with them, this will be old hat for you.

This will NOT include any of his covers albums! This is for his original music, only!

I’m looking for BOTH writers and artists for this! For the Louden Swain projects, we’ve had art/aesthetics/edits for every story and I’d love to do the same with this. Whether you’re drawing or making aesthetics or doing something else, WE WANT YOU. All art and stories will be put together, printed, put in a snazzy binder, and presented to Jason in DC!

Everything you need to know is below the cut!

Here’s the schedule:

6/22/19 5:00PM EDT - I will post the rules and regs and open the projects up so you guys can start claiming songs. Only one song request at a time (though you can list a backup song or two if your first request is already taken). Once you have finished and posted your first request, then you may make a second request. (Note: Due to a mistake on my part last year, the fic for She Waits has already been written, so this song is not available this year.)

9/2/19 Midnight EDT - Deadline for writers. This gives writers 10 weeks, plus the US Labor Day holiday.

9/29/19 Midnight EDT - Deadline for artists. This give artists 4 extra weeks after the writing is done.

This schedule then gives me about three weeks to put everything together and prep for the con.

Here are the rules (below the cut):

Deadlines are final. NO LATE ENTRIES! If you find you need more time, let me know and we can try to work something out. I’m not going to make a deadline to sign up, but if you sign up the week before the end, you will only have a week to complete your part. If you want to do two, you must finish your first before you will be allowed to reserve a second song.

Artists: - You will be expected to work with writers so the art reflects the story. Whether you pick a song you like and get together with the writer, or pick a writer you like and get together on a song, it doesn’t matter to me. - If you’d like me to pair you with a writer, let me know, and I will match you up with someone. Most times, I have more writers than artists. If you are willing to work for multiple writers, I would be most grateful!!! In the past, I’ve had a pool of artists, and I tried to divvy up assignments as fairly as possible so no one artist gets all the work. -  SEND ME AN ASK or an IM or whatever and let me know what you want to do. Whether you’re working with a writer on one, or willing to be part of a pool that works on multiple, just let me know! - When you’re making your art, keep in mind that it will be pasted into a Word document, printed on letter-sized paper, and put into a sheet protector in a binder. You might want to print out what you make to see how it looks on the page. (You can check out the finished projects above for reference.) - You can post your art in your own post and tag me and #2019 Jason Manns FanFic FanArt Project or submit it to me through my blog or send it to me via carrier pigeon (please don’t send it via carrier pigeon, they poop a lot and I have cats) or drop me a line and I’ll give you an email address to send it to. - I would love some original cover art! If you are an artist and are interested in doing something, send me a message and we can talk concepts!!

Writers: - Can be any pairing or ship, reader-insert or OC, or even no pairing, whatever floats your boat. Please no RPF. - Please no smut. Anything else is up for grabs. Or maybe just a headcanon kind of thing. - Pick a song and SEND ME AN ASK with the song you have picked to sign up. I will update a masterpost on my blog with the songs taken. Songs will be assigned on a first come, first serve basis. - You can’t write for the same song you wrote about in previous projects. This is to ensure variety in the stories from project to project. - Tag me in your fic, plus use the tag #2019 Jason Manns FanFic FanArt Project. You can also submit your fic to me through my blog, or send me a message and we can discuss the pigeon and email options. (Really prefer no pigeons.) - You must use a Keep Reading feature if your fic is posted to Tumblr and over 500 words. - Your fic can either be a story based on the song or just have it somehow highlight the song. Since Jason will get to read these, I’d rather the fics be more relevant than just a song playing on the radio in the background, but do what you can. - Your fic can also be a part of another challenge, BUT make your fic relevant to the song you choose, please! (Basically, please do more for this challenge than having a Jason Manns song playing in the background.) - If I haven’t liked or reblogged your post within a couple days, let me know I missed it!  - I will give your work a basic grammar/spelling proofreading before adding it to the project. If you would like, I can beta read your story for you before you post it, too. Just let me know!

Everyone: - If you would like to include a short summary of why you like the song you picked, especially if the song has some special meaning to you, I will add that to your submission in the final project. If you look at the previous projects (links are at the top of this post), you can see the kind of thing I’m talking about at the top of some of the stories. Please keep these brief, though.

And now, for something completely different: If you are interested in doing something completely different than a Supernatural-related story or art/edit, talk to me about it, and I’ll figure out a way to include it. Letters to the band or stories that are not SPN-related can be printed out and presented separately, and a list of links to posted audio or video submissions can be added.

I’m so excited to see what everyone does!! As songs are claimed, this list will be updated!

Song List:

Album - Jason Manns Vision  Another Number Perfect Spot Journey I Remember Your Song The Same Reminders All I Ask Without You - @andromytta (fic)  @brothersinsync​ (art)

Album - Soul Soul Never Let You Go Hold On Me Real World Rooftop Rendevous - @wingedcatninja (fic and art)  Vagabond Blues You Take My Blues Away - @winchestergirl-13 (fic)  (art) He’ll Walk Away Breathe In Two Pictures

Album - Move Move Down Never Let You Leave Me (Again) Weary Man  Let Loose Need My Muse To Dance Put the Past Behind - @robbenedictandco (fic)  @espada-iv​ (art) The One Who Lifts Me Up - @winchestergirl-13 (fic)  (art) Let It Go

Single - When Did I Stop Believing 

Cover art by @alaskanartist​ 

Tagging past participants and other possibly interested people:  @a-winchester-fairtytale @adriellej @alangel1895 @andromytta @anotherwinchesterfangirl @archangel-with-a-shotgun @archangelsanonymous @atc74 @brothersinsync @castiels-forbidden-angel @crashdevlin @curliesallovertheplace @deansleather @dont-hate-relate-pls @ellen-reincarnated1967 @enchantedstarfleet @take-my-crookedwheel @growningupgeek @hideyourdemoneyes @i-cant-believe-its-not-satan @i-dont-understand-that-url @icecream-and-gadreel @iwantthedean @jelly-beans-and-gstrings @jpadjackles-mishamark @leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid @lifeonsarz @littlegreenplasticsoldier @loudenswainfangirl @manawhaat @mandilion76 @multi-fan-dom-madness @mysupernaturalfics @narrettwist @notnaturalanahi @oriona75 @padamooseandgrasshopper @pastelspn @personal-boogeyman @purgatoan @robbenedictandco @roxy-davenport @samanddeanwinchester67 @sams-little-toy @samsexualdeancurious @saritaa-chan @scorpiongirl1 @sinceriouslyamellpadalecki @smmywinchester45 @stunt-idjit-number-two @thing-you-do-with-that-thing @toastiel @tricia-16 @trollhunter94 @waywardnerd67 @wideawakeandwriting @winchestergirl-13 @writingfromkitchenator @ilostmyshoe-79 @wingedcatninja @desiraelovesdestiel @impala-dreamer

#incoherent babbling by mrswhozeewhatsis #2019 jason manns fanfic fanart project #Jason Manns #the station breaks

[wingdingle]

hey i know ur heart was in the right place and yeah the guy deserved it but you probably shouldnt admit to doxxing people

i didnt dox anyone. i literally have never doxxed anyone. like if youre talking about dashcon that wasnt even me who pulled that guys name and that wasnt even doxxing no one put his address and phone number out? like i am sorry to be so rude but youre literally talking down to me about something i have never done. also i was like 14 when all of dashcon happened and im 19 now! its been five years! i have never doxxed anyone, i never Will dox anyone, and ive certainly not admitted to anything of the sort, or god, if i have, then send me a screenshot of it because i clearly dont remember. 

and like if i have done it and you can show me proof then im sorry i forgot and youre probably right. but until then i hold firmly the position that this is a kind of rude and accusatory ask irregardless of how its been phrased. even if it has good intent behind it. itll only be not those things if you have proof that youre right about the fact that i did what you are accusing me of doing.

actually you know what, if this IS about dashcon, i just went back to double check everything i posted at the time. the only thing i can find that this could be referring to is like two posts, one i reblogged that gave him a name, a face, and a link to his blog for proof that he did it. he even admitted himself that he did it, he put that info out there. and thats not even what doxxing is, and even still it was Not Made By Me. and the other post is a link i gave someone leading to his blog which is again not doxxing. look, i even have the post links!

http://wingdingle.tumblr.com/post/91666159354/i-need-to-know-if-the-pissy-ball-pit-thing-is

http://wingdingle.tumblr.com/post/91667449059/nonbonerary-the-person-who-peed-into-the

im also attaching a clearer definition of doxxing because it really feels like a lot of this comes from people not understanding what it is

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/dox

“ … “doxxing”—the term used for the troll harassment technique of finding and then posting a user's sensitive personal information, including addresses, phone numbers, and even Social Security numbers.”

the only things posted by anyone was this mans blog where he self identified as the dude who pissed in the ballpit and his possible name and face so people could avoid him at the con. nobody found or put out his address or phone number or email or social security or ANYTHING, not anywhere on my blog at least. seriously! seriously!!!!!!

at this point i was goign to just erase this post and not respond to this ask but i get so many asks telling me i doxxed someone and im bad for doing it when i literally never did it in the first place and by god if that post is doxxing i was Foured Teen Years Old And Didnt Even Make It so im publishing this to link back to next time i get one of these. 

as a bonus im also going to add a link to the tag where i keep aaaalll the dashcon posts because people have said they cant find it before and i think they were just typing the link in wrong or the website broke or something bc its there

http://wingdingle.tumblr.com/tagged/dashcon

#dashcon #Anonymous