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lizbot · 1 year

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I’m sorry this is a bother to you. I don’t know if you’re into angst or not, you can delete this if you wish. I was curious of if PK had regrets of making Lurien into a Dreamer then realizing his plan failed and by proxy failing Lurien as well. I just think it would add to the list of failures. I don’t know where you’d position WL leaving but after losing two partner because of your own mistakes, do you believe that would push him to just disappear?

Again I’m sorry if you don’t take angst asks or if I’m being too bothersome. Your Royal Spork art is beautiful to look at and your Lurien art is amazing. I think he’s the best designed Dreamer to be honest.

Yeah, I think he ended up regretting a lot of his decisions, and obviously, he didn't expect his plan to go so horrifyingly wrong, but then it's easy to judge him when you got all the hindsight...

Honestly, I think that regretted the loss of the 3 Dreamers, I mean, he had to believe that they were strong-willed enough to resist the radiance, so he obviously respected them, and he also needed to trust and have complete confidence in them, and that they would not betray him. (btw I dislike the headcanon of PK and Herrah hating each other. I don't think that they liked each other, but they at least respected each other)

I headcanon that Lurien volunteered to be a dreamer himself. He was close to PK and saw himself as the protector of the city, so when he learned about the Pale King's plan, he saw himself as an obvious option to become a dreamer. I think that Lurien's devotion to his city was even greater than his feeling towards the Pale King.

Also, I like to imagine that a secondary objective of PKs plan was to bring them back eventually, but he knew that it was a really long shot. He had to find a way to completely seal the radiance away or to find a cure for the infection, and he knew that both of those objectives were extremely hard to achieve. (I think you can beat the game without the Dreamers, but I don't know how canon friendly that would be)

I think that most of this is kinda the point of PKs "no cost too great" thing. It wasn't just about the vessels, but it was about everything he lost.

I don't think WL left him tho. He sent her away to keep her safe, and she also seems to miss him, it's just that PK is probably not coming back. PK's dead was left somewhat ambiguous, (leaning heavily towards him beating dead), so who knows, he and other higher beings had been known to resurrect somehow.

I dunno, if I get to headcanon PK surviving somehow, I also need to headcanon Lurien making it through and If Lurien doesn't die as a dreamer he's gonna die happy of natural causes at a really old age with PK taking care of him, but that's just me, haha.

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mysterylover123 · 5 years

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BNHA Rewatch: Season 1, Episode 1: Izuku Midoriya Origin

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First episode! I love this episode (well, the two-parter, anyway, as a whole. First chapter I guess). One of my favorite intros to a series ever.

First scene! My ship! And their terrible, awful, rocky starting line. I hope the final scene of the series is some kind of callback to this, with an ironic twist on it. But yeah, this is Deku and Kacchan at the start of the series, at their most flawed. Deku being all hero with no super, Kacchan being all super with no heroism. But that’s about to change!

(why are they so cute?!)

I think this scene is what cemented to me that I liked this series right off the bat. I love how they introduce the concept of what it’s like to live in a world where superhero battles are kind of mundane, with this guy on the phone telling his boss he’ll be late for work. Because of a super villain battle.

Deku! Precious smile that cures me of all my ills. I love his design, BTW - I’m not sure what it is, but the freckles, the green hair and huge eyes, he’s just so unique looking. I can’t think of another character who I think he looks like.

(First impressions were basically: I love this guy, he’s totally like me. No wonder I relate to a geeky kid who takes too many notes on comic book heroes)

So Deku’s class full of weirdos. How many pre-UA fanfics have these folks featured in, I wonder?

Ah, Kacchan. First impressions: Apparently, I think like Tomura, because I totally thought this kid was being set up as a villain first time around. And I loved him. I love villains who are cool and charismatic and loved by all! (I started changing my tune by the end of episode 2). Yes, I like Bakugo. So if that’s a deal-breaker, just a warning (he’ll always be second to Deku though. Sorry.)

Ooh, this ugly scene. I don’t remember what I thought of it at first, I just know that the fandom never stops bickering about it. Horikoshi has flat-out admitted that he didn’t mean Bakugo to come across this bad in the first chapter and feels he wrote him too evil though.

(BTW I think Horikoshi is the most “literally me” Mangaka of them all. I relate to him painfully hard. Ever commentary I hear from him about his experiences sounds like there’s some older Japanese male clone of me wandering around making manga.)

Better informed BKG meta writers than me have meta’d about this scene to death, and there’s about 50 billion fanfics out there where Deku tries it and turns into Yusuke Urameshi or something. I do wonder if this scene in particular will ever get a callback; I kinda doubt it.

Baby Deku doing the headbang while watching All Might vids. Meanwhile I headbang while watching this scene. Headbang-ception.

Sad Baby Deku’s backstory. Rips my heart out every goddamn time they replay it. And they replay it a lot.

To get kinda serious, Deku being quirkless is sometimes interpreted as allegorical to being aneurotypical - I still remember how things were when my mom told me I had Asperger’s, and it was a lot like this scene (with less tears, because I was like 12 and 12 year olds don’t cry) - and I can totally see it. That’s one of the things I love about BNHA, btw - other superhero verses make having powers be analagous to being differently abled/LGBT/not-white/whatever, different in some way, not part of the privileged group, which just doesn’t make sense. Being gay does not equal shooting laser beams from your eyes. But being non powered in a world where most people have powers? That analogy works.

Sorry to get ya’ll down. Back to cuteness!

Deku being so considerate of Bakugo! (ilovehimhaveimentioned) And still keeping up hope, in the face of all this sadness.

Thought in hindsight, it’s interesting how this still reflects Izuku’s character flaws. I mean, he’s not perfect. He likes to talk about how he could do this, but until the Sludge Villain Incident he never really does anything to make it happen. He’s a dreamer, but that’s also a problem. Shoto points this out later on “You need to back up your words with actions”.

Deku gets attacked by the sludge villain. I love how they animated this, now having read the manga as well - his blurry vision really puts you in the scene.

This next bit is perfect. Deku is more excited about meeting All Might than nearly dying. He has to get his autograph - but he’s already got it! (All Might you treasure).

The final scene on the roof is really interesting, it’s an odd place to cut the first chapter. But it does set up the big WTF twist at the start of ep 2. Episode 2 is one of my favorites of the whole series and I can’t wait to get to it tomorrow. As for Episode 1, it’s a solid setup and I’m so glad it hooked me in right away.

BKDK Corner:

So since, like, every episode has a little BKDK and I love it, I just figured I’d shove it in a section at the end of each recap.

Episode 1, where they start off on terrible terms with each other. Bakugo is introduced as a stereotypical bully, Deku as your typical lovable hero. You don’t really get into their layers until Episode 2 (though it’s all the same chapter in the manga). I like how the anime added a small look of “huh?” to Baby Kacchan’s face in the first scene, where he’s like ‘WTF why is Deku suddenly acting tough’ for a minute. Deku also gets protective towards him, even protecting Kacchan from himself. I didn’t start shipping them until episode 2, and I didn’t want to at first because they argue so much, but I fell in love with it anyway.

BEST GIRL OF THE EP: Mt Lady/Yu Takayama!

Check this link for info on her: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OOWPH4kLQ58&t=399s . Did ya know she was almost the MC?

RANKER: MY RANKING OF THE OPS

5. OP3 (S2OP2) SORA NI UTAEBA

4. OP5 (S3OP2) MAKE MY STORY

3. OP1 (S1OP) THE DAY

2. OP2 (S2OP1) PEACE SIGN

1. OP4 (S3OP1) ODD FUTURE

Tomorrow: Episode 2 “What it Takes to be a Hero”

#my hero academia #Izuku Midoriya Origin #midoriya izuku #katsuki bakugou #mt lady #yu takayama #All Might #bakudeku #katsudeku #episode recap #i love this ep #probably top 20 #for the series #it's actually kinda dark #it looks all light and fluffy on the surface #but there's the angst and the suggested suicide and the upcoming Am reveal #plus that creepy af sludge villain #but i like that about it

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felassan · 5 years

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Was playing DAI again, is it possible that Felassan could be like Mythal? his death was only physical and he could technically "crawl his way back" to another body?

oooh. thanku for the ask! I’ll preface this by saying that I am 16847% on-board with and here for any theory or idea that would provide for Felassan to come back, even ridiculous ones, shaky grounds, asspulls or handwave/retcons like if Leliana or Anders died prior to DA:I and DA2 - such is my love for best elf. (guess this makes me biased)

that said, I think Mythal’s ability to crawl her way through time to another physical body and possess/merge with it and that person, and her Horcruxing abilities, are due to the quality[ies] that make the Evanuris .. well, Evanuris (“the first of my people do not die so easily” and all), and would not be available to a regular ancient elf. Felassan’s situation is more Abelas-adjacent, minus any geas deal or personal compulsion to legit servitude. 8′(

were I one of the writers I’d instead go with: Felassan was killed in the Fade -> ‘killed’ -> like how killing Feynriel, also a Dreamer, in the Fade renders him Tranquil in DA2, Felassan was instead just made Tranquil -> the PC in DA4 hears rumors of a strange Tranquil elf whose knowledge might be useful in the fight against the Dread Wolf -> you can go and recruit Felassan and cure him from Tranquility. (an aside: a Tranquil or formerly-Tranquil companion is so interesting to me, a heightened emotional state side effect of the cure like Pharamond’s provides a lot of interesting interaction opportunities. to add, Cassandra knows about the cure and is shown allied with the remnants of the people who are opposing Solas in the table-stabbing scene in Trespasser).

there are problems with this idea as well like 1) Solas wouldn’t make someone Tranquil imo, he’d rather straight up kill them, such is his aversion to it, and he’s not stupid enough to think he’s killing someone but accidentally just make them Tranquil 2) the passage where Felassan dies does not rly have reasonable wiggle-room, it’s written from his POV and explicitly says “the blow that killed him”, and Cole is explicit also with “his friend had to die” 3) does the Tranquil cure even work on people who weren’t made Tranquil via the usual rite of tranquility that the Circles use? 4) isn’t it the case that if it’s a Dreamer who kills someone in the Fade, the someone dies? I think about the stories of ancient Tevinter magisters that were able to deal with their rivals by offing them in their dreams [tho you could say that offing them in their dreams and so, making them tranquil, would still constitute dealing with your rivals because a tranquil isn’t going to have political designs or ambitions..]

anyway, dear bioware, I am ready and willing to handwave all of the above points tho btw lmao.. pls. maybe the explicit text/words is twisted to be metaphorical death.. idk but like I said I’m willing to accept/handwave literally any convoluted or weird writing explanation lol :D

Update: (I usually prefer dead characters to stay dead but 1. when I say this I’m usually referring to characters who were killed by the player as a result of player choice 2. imo Felassan’s death or ‘death’ is kinda weird in that it could go either way because of the Fade and Tranquil stuff. and it seems from this interview that that was kind of intentional or at least the writers are aware how they could write around it.)

#dragon age 4 #the dread wolf rises #dragon age #bioware #felassan #video games #mj replies #anonymous #cassandra pentaghast #my lady paladin #Best Elf

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deepestblazeperson-blog · 6 years

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“I’ve always been crazy, but it’s kept me from going insane.”

Anthony Bourdain, Kate Spade, and Robin Williams all suffered from chronic depression and so do I. All these actors/personalities tried to commit suicide and so have I. The difference? I survived, they did not. I'm going public with this and starting a blog to talk about depression as an illness, just like cancer (which I also survived, btw), or diabetes. Why do we suddenly sit up and take notice when celebrities commit suicide, but sit silent when the guy next door, or the kid down the block, does? I think it’s a symptom of today’s society to focus on the bad, there is so much of it. But why do we ignore the crisis when it is closer to home? Within our own family, or community? I think that’s where the rubber should meet the road.

I personally was moved to share my story after Anthony Bourdain’s death. I am not a cooking groupie, nor was I aware of who he was before his death; but I read up about him after the news hit the social media sites. Bourdain was considered one of the most influential chefs in the world and took us on adventure after adventure with food and cultures across the globe. He was more than just a chef, he was a philosopher, a dreamer, a lover of life. It is hard to understand how someone with so much to live for could throw it all away. Or is it?

It is my purpose in writing this blog to let you inside the mind of a person suffering from severe chronic depression. This is not to be a negative blog, but an informative one and hopefully one that will give the average person a little insight into how to help those of us that suffer.

I think I first noticed that I struggled with depression when I was around 16 and participating in rodeo. My mom recognized the signs of depression and took me to a primary care doctor (not a psychiatrist), this was probably her first mistake, because not much was known about depression in 1978 as there is now. He prescribed B-12 shots, which I thought was funny at the time, because it was also a common practice in the rodeo world to give your horse B-12 shots to “boost” their performance potential, so of course I fell for it. I’m not sure that it helped my depression, but it did make me feel more “bonded” to my barrel horse. I think the “bonding” with my barrel horse was more important than the actual shot, so in a way the doctor helped me.

I was actually quite happy in high school as I look back now, of course it came with it’s trials like it does for most teenagers; but I had good parents and good friends that loved me. So why was I depressed? Well, one might look at my family history of depression for that answer. Unknown to me at the time, I had a great uncle who suffered from severe depression and was institutionalized for a time. This all happened before I was born. Archie was my grandfather’s brother, and shunned by his other six brothers. He was taken in by my grandfather and grandmother for a time and I now have his Bible that he used. This told me a lot about my grandparents character and gave me some background into who I was... a caretaker at heart.

Although I did not grow up in an alcoholic home, I started marrying alcoholics. I married my first alcoholic at 19. My first husband was a shy boy who kept to himself. There was a hit disco song by the Pointer Sisters out at the time called “He’s so shy.” It became our theme song. I was drawn to him like a fly to honey, or bees to honeysuckle... he became “my drug”. I have since learned there is a name for this behavior, it’s called co-dependency. It took me years of heartache and abuse to end this marriage to my first alcoholic. And so my journey into the world of enabling began, which was my way (or my addiction) that kept me from dealing with MY problem, depression. Of course this only deepened my disease, not cured it. There is no way to “save” an alcoholic as Al-Anon and other co-dependency groups will tell you, they can only save themselves, but I was not to learn this lesson for about another 10 years.

So what were some of my “depression” symptoms in this first marriage? Suicidal ideation, isolation, experimenting with drinking myself (not alcoholically, but close) promiscuity (an affair) which of course led to quilt and shame and self-flagellation... not physically (that will come later) but emotionally. I engaged in self-hate talk, calling myself stupid, ugly, ignorant, etc. Believing lies that he would tell me like, “You’ll never be happy”, “No one will ever be able to please you”, “you’re a bitch” (actually at this point in my life I was not, that came later).

“Be careful of something that’s just what you want it to be.” Waylon Jennings