#but the stream has been very ??? today

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

There's nothing he can't do. Yet.

(Thank you to everyone who participated in the poll!)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #bonus comic #This whole poll and comic is very inspired by a convo I had with qourmet in one of their art streams. #namely that the Art Of Grilling is a powerful skill separate from cooking. #I've also been inspired by said convo to try and learn how to grill. What's the point of having a garden if I can't grill my summer squash? #Anyways. I hope this appeases the crowd that has been in arms about the prev prev poll. #I don't think teenji can cook. I think lan wangji is just very good at dedicating himself to whatever craft he needs to pick up. #give him a day and he will be a grill dad #the most powerful beast of the summer lawn biome. #Until then he will lie awake at night. Haunted by this inadequacy. He's just like me for real (chronic perfectionist). #I think this is the first domestic wangxian post i've made. God I'm so sorry wangxian fans. #wwx could not care *less* abt lwj having flaws. I think thats the beauty of this relationship. they *know* about each other's flaws FIRST. #Love each people *because* of the flaws - not despite them (thats my unsolicited advice for the day). #also if you noticed my medium gray marker slowly giving out...today it finally died on me....

[autisticlalna]

outside context problem

#leo.txt #leo.png #twitch smp #rubyco #vikingpilot #tsmp #today has been very up-and-down bc of Dealing With Issues I Can't Fix so . ueh #drew blorbos to help me feel better before ruby stream #this didnt fully turn out the way i wanted it to but its close enough i think. #something about ruby and viking both being pawns. something about being meddled with by entities from outside their reality. #bell noises! #clock noises! #<- i keep forgetting ruby actually reads tags lmao. im used to viking not knowing how tumblr works

[wildflowercryptid]

i just found out about ryota kanai thanks to an artist i follow on insta collaborating with him for a mv and oh my god his music is so good....

#he has such a lovely voice and i love the instrumentation in his songs #his music kinda feels like a mix between kenshi yonezu & the pillows to me i really like it #i'm shocked that he doesn't have a larger following on his accounts please check out his stuff if you're into jrock #also sorry i haven't really been on today i slept a lot bc my schedule was messed up & i didn't feel very good #i'm gonna have to head to bed soon tho bc i took benadryl and it's starting to knock me out i'll have to get to stuff tomorrow 😭 #i was actually drawing something that could've worked well for miku day but there's no way i'll get it done today rip #anyways stream dogma or deception sounds of the summer right there #mj.txt

[lys-jeorge]

#Why is there some random upsidedown man's leg in my Wunzork? #i wanted the part where it looked like razork was gonna hold wunder's face #but the stream has been very ??? today #and i can't be fucked with it #it keeps freezing and reloading and the chat keeps reopening when i close it #and i'm not doing it anymore #i survived watching the games and the between game odo stuff #i'm not pissing about with it anymore #i just let the rest play out with whatever random bug shit which turns up #no more replaying #wunder #razork #wunzork

[tmlxsn]

BIGGER THAN ME (2022) louis tomlinson

#louis tomlinson #louis gifs #mvs: bigger than me #louisprojectstracks #tomlinsonedits #tracksintheam #today has been a very busy week for me 🙃 #STREAM BIGGER THAN ME 🔪

[gibbyslounge]

things im still not over (as someone who was mostly inactive since mid 2021):

mask and change my clothes!! i dont think i was active on tumblr when change my clothes was released, but the way i ascended when i heard his soft sweet singing voice <33 mask is my favorite song of his and it still makes me emotional to think about what the song meant to him. his creativity is one of his greatest strengths and i am endlessly happy that he found a way to share more of himself in a way that he really enjoys

DREAM TEAM MEETUP tbh i really did not know if these days would ever come. its so so so crazy to think that florida man dream texas cowboy sapnap and british george are really all living together and existing in the same space. seeing them be THEM irl is still very surreal and makes me pause for a second without fail. so so much of the community centered around them not having met each other irl

DREAM FACE REVEAL!!!! this one i REALLY HONESTLY didnt know if it would ever come, just because the courage it takes to face reveal after building one of the largest audiences is fucking crazy. i thought that even if they did end up living together, dream might’ve found that he is happy to just be with them and not want to face reveal anymore. ig never doubt dream- he’s such a “go big or go home” type of person. i love him regardless but now he is also a big bear who wears cat beanies and has the prettiest eyes and im emotionally attached

dream pics before his face reveal with a big emphasis on suit pics, swt halloween, and strawberry dream. his white hoodie posey pose and the ones with the blanket and patches have a permanent home in my heart but these had me convulsing and i didnt get to gush about them here </3

#long tagsss #why does it feel like no time has passed yet SO MUCH has changed #i feel very very late to everything i think in some ways i am still kinda stuck in the past #it was just today where i officially really matched dream to his voice and that was rlly cool #he has always been very cute and dorky kind generous and open hearted #and you can see that when he interacts with people in irl streams too #ik i kinda left wo saying anything and sometimes i wish i had still been active to freak out abt everything w everyone #but basically it just got more stressful than fun bc my hpfx became unhealthy and i had to move for college and learn to be on my own #im back home now after transferring and my mental health is a lot better #sm has changed in my life too!! #being active here still makes me feel nostalgic abt all the old times though #however it really is just the beginning and i keep thinking abt how dream spoke abt things speeding up and im v v happy that i get to tunein #dreamblr

[ceruleanfuckup]

So I had a fantastic date tonight.

#it was a gym date and the first time we were meeting each other so i was nervous about it but it turned out to be really really nice #he's new to the poly stuff and the way that he spoke about it told of an emotional and intellectual intelligence that was so fuckin hot #he's really cute and we have a kind of shocking amounts of crazy passions that are exactly the same #he can quote scott pilgrim as much as me #he has dice tattoos #he got really excited when i gave him the origami ball i made while bored in a meeting today and wouldn't stop fidgeting with it #we got dinner afterwards and talked a lot about a lot of different things about each other and it was just really nice #and he told me i have the prettiest brown eyes 🥺 #he also said that he showed his husband my pictures and he was like 'damn he looks like he has a strong stomach.not abs but like a strongmn #and i got SO EXCITED #i pointed out my gym crushes to him because i wanted to test the jealousy waters and he reacted very well #he answered my questions with a level of thoughtfulness and contemplation that i felt deeply attracted to #i just think I'm going to fall for him really hard and I'm very very excited about it #my love life has been... lackluster recently for a lot of different reasons #and I'm so fucking excited to have someone that i can be excited about who is just as excited about me #I've been craving that for so long #I'm just thrilled and looking forward to the next date #we're going to be talking a lot #I'm gonna be a little sad for a second. the person who i thought was my stream of consciousness has shown me that he doesn't really care #and that's been hard for me to come to terms with. we haven't even had a conversation about it #but he's been the only person that I can tell things to when i get excited about something #and i don't feel like i have that. so I'm writing in a Tumblr post about this because I don't feel like i have anyone #to get excited with me about things #hopefully that will change soon. I'm very hopeful about him. #just please. whatever deity is out there. please let me find some happiness here. i have been craving and wishing for way too long #personal #edit: another very very good sign is that he's much smaller than me and a trans man who is getting back into the gym #but he didn't seem intimidated by my size and was even comfortable taking flexing selfies with me after. #if existing around me or in that setting triggered any physical insecurities #he didn't show it. which was a big change from the ball of anxiety i saw when walking into the gym. I'm just impressed in a few ways

[curiosity-killed]

on the bright side, i got the work done i needed to get done post-teaching AND finished the scene i was noodling on in the plant fic i accidentally restarted and my single glass of wine post-dinner is having the intended soporific effect

on the downside. i so so so so so so badly don't want to have a meeting at 8 AM with a client who i am mostly neutral towards but about a project that is the bane of my existence atm

#WHY did i offer an early meeting #i KNOW its bc i feel bad for folks outside of eastern time zone always getting shafted with shitty meeting times #but for fucks sake #8 AM #and i have another client meeting immediately after!!! #i will be SO useless tomorrow #and i have not been particularly. sparkling. for the last week #that isn't totally true i am in fact really fucking good at my job #to the point that no one notices when i slack off and spend an entire tuesday afternoon doodling #BUT STILL #i have to fill out my timesheets! i'm so behind in expense reports!! hnnnnnnnnnnnnnn #personal #anyway. #my current wips are tcp revisions + trigun girlies terrible road trip #and APPARENTLY tristamp plant fic (but with the rotisserie chicken heart bodies and wings bc. i have taste) #and i am actually slowly chipping away at all of them #which is a mild but pleasant surprise #i read so much fic today #god i do not have the motivation to fight the gravity drawing me deeply into my very thin couch cushions #this futon really has not held up well considering its. only 2 years old #if u sit in the middle it literally is painful #no thanks to baloo aggressively deforming the cleft between cushions #okay. enough stream of consciousness tags. it is time. i am Going to Get Up #hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnmdsfgkhad

[sourkitsch]

Do you ever think you’re not meant for this world and would fit so much more easily into the depraved sex horror mutilation novels you’re so fond of

#I’ve been through so much fucked up shit and now I’m just supposed to go to work? #sometimes I feel like I’m on a different plane of reality that only people who have been exposed to horrific things can access #and that’s why it’s so hard to get along with people. like they don’t know what it’s like to suffer #there’s a degree of pain where you turn into an animal . and someone needs to have known that #it’s like we’re entirely different organism like Neanderthals and Homosapiens. same ecological niche but fundamentally not the same #that metaphor will break down if you squint too hard at it #this is very stream of consciousness #but genuinely a lot of my closest relationships throughout my life have been with cult survivors and people who’s parents are murderers #or have survived similar shit that I have. I dated a guy in high school who’s dad shot his grandma while he was asleep in the house #(for those who keep track he’s the one who left his literal nazi fiancé for me . he was a nice enough guy just in a complicated situation) #it’s like we can all speak the same language without sounding like gibberish #I love not phasing people it’s so humiliating when my life is the most horrific thing someone has ever heard of #anyway the novel I finished today was very comforting . to me <3 it felt like a world I’d like to sink into and live in #give it up for auto-amputation

[slimeciclecock]

Forgive me for the person I'll become when Missa releases all his new music <- delusional

#been on a missa kick lately which I've never really shared #been getting reeeeally into some of his music and lowkey getting a crush on him 😳🥰 #and like. who cares if its been a month or smth. im still very obsessed with that stream he did where he showed off music he was working on #like his voice is insanely good and im going crazy like. to this day i still dont know if he plans to release all that or if that was just- #-scrapped music. with how excited he was when showing music i dont think its scrapped? but idk #dont wanna get my hopes up but. gah #also im just gonna come right out and say it. missa sinfonia is fucking hot as hell #he's so insanely hot and attractive and the music makes him hotter and he's so funny and grhgrgjfrh #ive been a little bit a lot obsessed lately. oh my god how are you so damn attractive #ive kinda told myself that if i ever get a partner the first thing i would do is show him missa and make them fall for him like i did #he's like. handsome like a guy from my culture. does that make sense #missa sinfonia has malay guy swag #i think i can say that here yeah. ive spoken my mother tongue language here #sorry im reaching he just reminds me of someone irl. but also. missa is hot asf i need someone to shake hands with me #frickin. schoolgirl crush on a funny mexican youtuber #ive watched more missa videos than i thought i would and its embarrassing how giddy i would get watching like #i am in my 20s but i am resting my chin on my hand like 🥰 #brother I've fallen someone pull me back up i cant do this today

[dare-g]

Tbh this design was wasted on being in The Ink Thief and not something (anything) else

#like it shouldve been in some avant garde production or something surreal idk #the way the ears are made and the color fades idk its interesting #also hes supposed to be dog like but the show has another dog character that looks like a very normal dog costume like???? #also watched this on Stuart's stream and i don't recommend it #but most of what gets played there the point is that its not gonna be good #anyway i meant to post these when i watched it and forgot till i was looking in my phptos today and i still think it #talks

[bi-panic-at-the-disco]

shotgunning a tube of strawberry mentos right now

#disco speaks! #if you even care #i forgot how much of a problem I have with these #THEY HAVE A GOOD CRUNCH AND A GOOD CHEW OKAY LEAVE ME ALONE #i also took both of my medications for the first time in a while (I have to make an appt before my Dr will refill it (eye roll)) #and spent two or three hours on tiktok learning about marine animals so my attention span is both very short and needs to be entertained #like a toddler who is teething except the mentos are my teething rings and I’m down to three left and I show no sign of stopping #which is a bit concerning considering there has to be like 12 or 15 a pack and so it’s been less than ten minutes #since I started consuming them. can’t go outside cause it’s cold as fuck and snowy and bad water texture bleghh #and bad anxiety feeling about doing my responsibilities and actually figuring out when to go on a date with my bf #we are now down to two strawberry mentos I repeat we are down to two strawberry mentos this is not a joke #awww my dog looks so baby right now #so anyway I think that my adhd medicine is making me focus but since I immediately started focusing on something that shortens my attention #span then I am mimicking that and I haven’t eaten anything today besides candy because I don’t want to make things because textures #and temperatures UGHHH #and I don’t want to put on gaming streams like usual because then I will not do anything else #and like I want to work on my nutcracker au piece but UGHH art school has made me so used to traditional art that #now digital art feels wrong and bad textures and it’s not the same and art feels bad but I like art??? i don’t know I don’t know #i need to chaos or like general stimulation but then I get too overstimulated and overwhelmed #i might need an anxiety medication cause uhhh well fuck my dudes I have both adhd and anxiety and it’s fucking me up a bit

[raychromatic]

i WAS pretty confident that i'd be able to stream this sunday (tomorrow), but stuff happened today, today's plans got pushed to tomorrow, and now i will NOT be streaming tomorrow!!!

BUT monday is a holiday so i won't have work so maybe i will stream on monday :3c

#ray streams #yeah so i was gonna go shopping w my mom today but first she had some Work Stress and THEN we ALL got shaken up because - #- my sister got in a car accident lol!!! (she's fine & it was 100% not her fault so that's all good. but it has been a VERY stressful day) #so we're taking it easy today & we're gonna do stuff tomorrow afternoon instead. which means that i won't stream tomorrow afternoon

[sage-is-in-fact-very-tired]

I feel like it's all gonna hit me in a few hours, and. Yeah.

#realizing how bad my copying skills are when it comes to death while watching sherbs stream #its uh. #it kinda hit me early this week that this was today #but it has yet to *hit hit* #i watched Tommy's video and almost cried in the car #and it kinda hit then #but i think in a few hours itll properly hit. #yeah. this has been. a very weird week. #its. been a year already and thats so. #its a funky thought /pos #a tag to help find my own posts

[racefortheironthrone]

Nobody is making anyone go into scriptwriting. No one is born in a Netflix company town where their dad takes them into the script mines at age 12. Fuck writers who want to get paid more than once for the same job. They should only get residuals AFTER all the people who do REAL WORK, like construction, grips, costume, makeup & animators etc. Most of them are much better at their jobs than writers especially for streaming services, and they are what screenwriters can lean on & novelists can't.

People need to realize that the unions for white collar people like WGA or SIEU or NEA (public sector unions are why cops who kill the people they were supposed to serve & protect remain employed get pensions) is not the AFL-CIO or any other historical union fighting for the lives of the people who built the country's industry and made it run, any more than the NRA are the Minutemen of 1775 New England.

First, go fuck yourself, you fucking scab. No, seriously - you don't come to my blog and spout off about what workers deserve unions and decent pay and what ones don't, like it's your fucking decision. The intellectual labor that writers perform is just as real as any other work done on a film set - "all who labor by hand or brain" is the inherent logic of industrial unionism for a reason.

Second, writers aren't asking to get paid more than once: residuals are deferred pay, you absolute moron. In Hollywood, whether it's writers or actors or voice talent or whatever, you get a small fraction up front - it's usually an ok check, depending on the union's day rates and so forth, but you can't make a living off stitching these together - and then most of your pay comes from monthly royalty checks that provide you with the income you need to live off when you're between jobs.

The problem is that, historically in Hollywood, residuals have been structured with a very long "tail" - the payments start out relatively low and then get more generous over time as the show has more seasons and (presumably) goes into syndication. This doesn't work with streaming's new business model, where increasingly shows are getting 2-3 seasons max and streaming services have become increasingly quick to not just cancel shows but yank them off their servers in order to avoid paying residuals.

So what WGA writers are fighting for is a system that ensures writers (but also actors and other creative workers, because the unions pattern bargain) get a fair share of the show's revenue, even if the show is only given 2-3 seasons.

Third, the U.S labor movement would not exist today if it wasn't for white collar workers and public sector workers. About half of the U.S labor movement - 7 million workers - is public sector, and those workers are overwhelmingly women of color, mostly working as either teachers or postal workers. Likewise, about half the U.S labor movement is made up of white collar workers, and we're graduate students and adjuncts and lab researchers, teachers and social workers, administrators and IT departments.

I'm both public sector and white collar, and I'm a member of an NEA union. I'm an adjunct professor who earns $6,000 a course and it's my job to get working adults with jobs and families who've never gone to college or who've been out of higher ed for a decade to graduate with a bachelor's or a master's. If you don't think that's real work, you're free to research and write all the lectures and powerpoints, deliver those in an entertaining and educational fashion, answer a flood of questions from students who need help navigating academia, and then grade all the midterms and finals and research papers.

#labor #wga strike #unions

[gaspshichat]

extremely long pearl appreciation post except this time i'm maintagging bc i want her to see this. she deserves to see this

she is the kindest soul ever. every bit message, every sub message, every gifted sub, and as many chat messages as possible are read. she genuinely doesn't want anyone to be left out

pearl had a rough start to stream today with a bunch of bots saying really weird things and someone revealing private information of hers which is weird. i have choice words for them but i'll keep myself pg for this post

it resulted in her having to turn on sub only mode which she said upset her. what did chat do?

they gifted probably around 200-500 subs to the community

pearl kept saying how bad she felt that she was practically forced into turning on sub only mode but she also said she didn't want her community gifting so many subs bc of an awful situation. they still did

i will always say that pearl is the nicest person ever. anytime smth bad happens to someone in chat, she's sympathetic and kind and gives them a message. anytime smth good happens to someone in chat, she's very excited and happy for them

it takes someone who is genuinely kind and selfless to do that. pearl does not have to read every bit message and sub message. but she does

her community reflects this kindness. i got broken up with two hours before valentine's day and told chat [bc streams for me are 6am-10am]. chat was so kind and gave me ideas on what to do with the flowers [which i did what they suggested!]

i've been in fandom communities for almost ten years now. pearl's is the kindest. there are so many people in chat i recognize [secret agent, sapphicwhimsy, kawaiitron, voxkeys, cardmoney, etc] that i look forward to seeing in chat. usually i dread seeing what happens in twitch chat's

not hers. hers are so full of kindness bc she is full of kindness and it just radiates and spreads to her community. yes it's fairly no nonsense, her deleting any weird messages, but that's to make sure it's a good place to be

i've been having nightmares and flashbacks recently due to reasons i wish to keep private. very few youtubers/streamers are able to help me sleep without those issues. pearl is one of them. her community is genuinely safe

i tell everyone interested in mcyt to watch pearl. i've been spreading pearl propaganda [/silly]. she deserves so much more than she has. pearl deserves the world

this is an extremely long post but i need to get my point across to her and anyone else, whether they're a pearl fan or not [yet]

pearl, we all love you and are proud to be part of the community. you are such a genuinely sweet person who deserves all the kindness in the world. i'm so sorry you had to deal with that bullshit [pardon my language]. it does genuinely suck but i hope the ~300 subs helped make you feel better hehe 🫶🫶

#pearlescentmoon #pearlescentmoon pos #maintagging like she is a vampire and my tumblr is my house #aka inviting her in #everyone say smth positive in notes #<- threat [/hj] #we all love pearl here