#but someday. and i am confident in that

[skrunksthatwunk]

god goromi really fucked my gender didn't she

#anyway i painted the world's shittiest stubble on myself today and wore the fanciest most hostess-esque dresses i have and GRGXZGRGRHZZGZXX #if i wasnt living in one of the US' finest transphobic hell states i would go out and i would get so many bitches like that i look SO GOOD #and it's so gender. god. t4t relationship WHEN!!!!! SOON I HOPE #someone come dote on this gnc emo boy please she's withering away without his proper care like a sickly tomodachi gf #when i get to college i could do little dorm dates n shit. maybe host drag practice nights or smth <33 #that's the dream baby #god. goromi wasnt my genderfluid awakening character but she came right after i figured it out and i latched on SO HARD #shes literally THE pillar of my gender representation. load bearing one-off gag 80% of the fandom KNOWS is More Than A Gag (me included) #god she's so genderrrrr. i need to be her STAT #when i say thats the dream the dream is actually getting to present like that openly and unafraid regularly but uh (: not. not now #but someday. and i am confident in that #if not me then someone like me #but i still hope i can wrangle up some college queers to be funny and gay with yknow. tis only a few months away!! #i gotta take it off before i go downstairs again bc frankly im not ready for my family to realize Oh It's For Real. Like You'll Act On It #she's a fragile baby bird atm and frankly i dont want them to know yet #(they know im gfluid just. i dont talk about it with my mom and she still uses she/her only. i dont think ive had the pronoun talk with her #yet though so thats not even her fault really. but i didnt wanna come out to her when i did!!! so im taking my sweet time with this) #so im stalling a bit even though i REALLY need to do work and it's gotta be downstairs </3 #anyway if people could just univerally decide to use he/she for majima interchangeably all the time so i could do that unchallenged thatd #be so cool thanks #like i know theres merit in other interpretations and i love them but what about ME #anyway. mwah i love gender sure hope nothing bad happens to it #i need to be someone's girlfriend boyfriend so badly you dont understand. ggrgrgrgrggrgrgrggrgrdbzvxzvzvzhsdhf #sorry for yearning. I'll hold it off as long as i can

[sleepsucks]

#23.04.22 #2967 #i am btw sorry to say that i am absolutely not a fulltime goth i made an effort that one time to try it out #but i do not have enough clothes or the confidence or the motivation to do that regularly i am Extremely Bland #but. maybe. someday

[ashenburst]

A Not So Brief Analysis Of Dracule Mihawk

Wondering if Mihawk's distrust of others correlates with the fact he is basically a one-man crew. Wondering just how self-reliable he must've become in order to be self-sufficient. Wondering what is the cause behind it all.

I wonder if, similarly, he has trouble being vulnerable around others. There is an undeniably stoic attribute to his character, but there is a common pitfall practitioners of stoicism (or those who lean towards it) are susceptible to: emotional disregard under the guise of control of emotions, or even worse, reprimanding empathy.

Therefore, could it be the case Mihawk is emotionally detached? It would be easy to draw such a conclusion with what little we’ve been shown of him. While an individualist, he accepts those who come to/at him (Zoro and Perona), and he reaches out to others (Shanks); it might be true that he’d lost interest in Shanks after his injury, but he still committed the sweet act of showing him Luffy’s bounty and apologizing to him upon testing Luffy. There’s also the moment where he tells Perona to take care, upon her departure. So, while aloof, Mihawk is not reserved to the point of stoic cold. He wouldn’t sacrifice company in order to be alone (even if in the case of his pact with Crocodile, there was an utilitarian aspect to the choice; in keeping Perona and Zoro, and in visiting Shanks, there was none other than being nice). One could attribute these acts to an emotional attachment because it does take a drive to complete these very active feats. For Shanks, it could be respect, too. I don’t believe the detached attitude Mihawk possesses would let him take care of those two for two years, especially since he values peace so much; something had to override this desire for peace. I say, the reason could be empathetic in its roots.

Perhaps his self-reliance is misread as distrust? To distrust someone would imply that one is uncertain of their motivations/actions. Mihawk, as someone with Observation Haki, someone who views his enemies with curiosity, who allies himself with whoever is willing to offer him the most peaceful residence… would he be so distrusting? In the little glimpses of his internal monologue we get, there is no distrust and no hesitation. In general, he is confident in his judgement.

But on a more personal level, does he fear his more delicate feelings would be betrayed, if shown too much? There is a possibility for that. We haven’t seen him in such state, as he does rely on himself only. Perhaps Crocodile knows of it. On the flipside, this would imply that Mihawk has a deep, unburied emotional core, one he nurtures and protects – and perhaps one that was taken advantage of. Observation Haki can’t save him from heartbreak, can it? It can sense the emotions of others. It can’t predict his own.

In either case, there very likely is a softer core to the world’s strongest swordsman. Establishing that he isn’t emotionally exempt, but knowing that there’s still a strong individualist quality to him, I wish to look at more of Mihawk’s internal processing.

For an arguably isolated character, he isn't close-minded at all. He possesses curiosity towards his foes; he asks, and he indulges, and he encourages. Think of the entirety of his fight with Zoro.

Then, later on, he is more than anything amused at Zoro’s request. But he obliges. Have the rare panel where he laughs.

When he assesses the strengths of his opponents, he doesn’t do so with any negativity in his mind. Oddly, he goes great lengths to assess them (thinking of his encounter with Luffy). Imagine, it was worth disturbing his peace! Linked here are several reasons why he might’ve done so.

One thing all of these cases have in common is ease. One could argue that it stems from absolute confidence that he is unbeatable, therefore he acts out of boredom, but then again… he trains Zoro because he recognizes valiant traits in him, not because he has nothing better to do. While, yes, there might be some boredom in his life...

Could boredom be Mihawk’s internal motivator? Can we classify his actions as so random/pointless that they serve a sort of entertainment to his otherwise dull living? Personally, I don’t gravitate towards that take. He actively works to preserve his ‘boring’ way of life. For a man so unimpressed, he isn’t trying to change himself at all – nor his routine, not much – in order to appease any need for excitement. The only time he expresses he feels excitement is when trouble heads his way. He does not seek it. Therefore, I presume he is content with the way things are. Quiet.

How does one pinpoint and rationalize these very complex stances? It could be summarized as the opposite of what Mihawk told Zoro.

Could it be that the world’s strongest swordsman became one for he hasn’t developed himself merely in swordsmanship, but in wisdom of living as well? For his domain extends beyond the puddle. There’s an excellent post on Reddit that details the reference this entire phrase comes from, related to Zen.

In addition, I like that during training, Mihawk hasn’t pushed any ideologies or mantras on Zoro, beyond that of basic swordsmanship honor and shame. As far as we know, of course, but I argue such a lesson would be explicitly stated due to its importance. Anyway, these two do not have that moment. Mihawk gets closest to it with his ‘frog’ comment.

It could be assumed that, in not pushing any creed on Zoro (but that to expand his views), Mihawk is leaving room for Zoro to know himself beyond swordsmanship, while also respecting his dream.

Taking into account this ideological emptiness, the ‘frog’ comment, and Mihawk’s general disposition: confidence, ease, peace, I argue that they all stem from the fact Mihawk has found his place in life and has achieved his dream, doing it his way. Now, his current goal of sorts is to be outbested in terms of swordsmanship, a goal he is willing to help Zoro with.

And there is such honor and beauty to it! To sacrifice the goal of his life to help another person achieve theirs. Just how much at peace with themself would one have to be, to be able to give away so much of themself? It's mindblowing. Being able to dynamically balance so many internal and external factors (achieving a dream certainly isn't enough to teach or in any way emulate that; it takes vast wisdom to do so) to finally reach that stage of contentment: to let another have it, at the cost of your own, on a basis entirely factual and wholly fulfilling. It's once again reminiscent of stoicism, and its postulate that a life well-lived is one lived in accordance to nature. One lived in moderation. Now, Mihawk doesn't seem to be very emotionally expressive, does he?

In the aggressive tug-of-war that is the One Piece world, he remains steady, firm on his feet. He knows where he stands, and he’s where he wants to be.

Deeply in tune with himself like that, it could be interpreted that Mihawk has reached a state akin to ataraxia (Greek, meaning freedom of trouble or anxiety; tranquility of mind dependent on the mind), a viable path to one’s happiness as regarded in stoicism. Related, I find it very enjoyable that he is a character who has achieved his dream. Because one must ask: what comes after the dream is achieved? For Mihawk, there is simple contentment. Nothing ‘great’ after he’s reached his grand dream. Farming, napping, cooking, drinking wine, reading? How humble! Not much to indulge in, but he is fulfilled.

And so, his trail continues, he is aware of that, but he doesn’t chase happiness down it. And even if it gets rough and he has to deviate a little, he is on the right path. He knows it, and feels it. That's all that matters.

As Seneca said, “It is not that virtue is chosen because it pleases, but that, if chosen, it also pleases.” Mihawk delved into the wisdom of living, then chose his spot back in his own puddle, still occasionally gazing beyond it.

How exactly did Mihawk come to this mindset? Now that is mental work I reckon he deserves rest from.

#I am not too confident because I’ve known him for little over a week now #I’m also under the influence of alcohol a tad #so excuse my possibly wrong takes #I simply needed to yell about this man… #if I get him right #and if I get Shanks right one day #maybe I’ll write mishanks someday HAHA #dracule mihawk #mihawk #one piece #op #one piece live action #opla #zoro #dracule mihawk analysis #mihawk analysis

[luderailing]

Lat 🖋️

#I feel like the panels don’t really go together #and I realize some of the dialogue doesn’t make sense #but yknow….I’m just kinda proud to get something out #I feel like I had a long day haha #glad I was still able to draw something #and this wasn’t really related to anything. I just like doing these with characters #random comic strips/writing scenes #helps me get to know them better I think #I realize my blog isn’t really centered around any few characters? #I mean there’s definitely some characters I draw more than others #but I wanna develop my ideas about them #who am I kidding ive been trying to do this forever haha #at least you guys like the art so slow n steady I guess #I’ll get to wherever I wanna be someday. I’m still young ig #faith is key! #if ur reading this rn (u a real one if you actually read allat???) have some confidence in your future #that sounds very cheesy and overused but it’s true. I believe in u<3 #hetalia #aph baltics #art #aph latvia #my art

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Fanwork creators self rec! When you get this, reply with your five favorite fics/art/podfics/etc. that you've made, then pass on to others. Let’s spread the self-love 🌼

(No pressure if you don't want to though!)

Hope you have a good day! ✨

ah damn ok uhhhh i'm still very happy with This Rojade piece, My Murder Boy, this Flight Rising thing, this Julie one, and my DC fantasy fic copper & gold <3

#thank you for the ask! i've never done one of these! #you have a good day as well <3 #rambles from the bog #going through my archive has made me confront the fact #that ive drawn more welcome home in the past few months #than i have drawn literally anything else ever #i am Exaggerating a little but also. am i #damn. the fixation is real... #anyway can't say that these are my Favorites since i don't really have any! #unfortunately i either dislike or am at best just Satisfied with everything i make/post #im trying to change that mindset but yk #its tough! i still have a ways to go! i have to work to reach the level i want to achieve! #or at least reach a level where i can look at my creations and feel pride #but im confident ill get there someday #its easier to be content with my writing than my art #i mean i have a ways to go with both but i still think im at present a Better Writer #despite enjoying art far more! #or maybe not at present... my writing skills have atrophied a bit... there is Much i need to practice

[keebydeeby]

nobody makes the kind of nahyuta fan content that i want to see, forcing me to break out the ol creative impulses and make it myself

#not tagging i hate fandom #maybe someone out there is as starved for yuta stuff as i am tho ... #someday i'll be confident enough to actually post somethin #maybe #don't hold your breath

[lilac-vode]

hey! this is a long shot but seeing as i have some ppl following here, i wanted to ask if anyone at all has links to mental health resources that could be helpful for repulsed aroace ppl constantly struggling with feelings of alienation. or like, any mental health resources at all geared toward aroace ppl!! there is just. not that much out there for us and i don't have a place to start trying to make my brain less miserable. i would appreciate so much if anyone is familiar with stuff like this that they could share

#thanks for reading #ultimately im sad at the prospect of spending my entire life feeling outcast and miserable just bc of the way i am #especially when it used to be a part of myself that gave me confidence and joy #there are no aroace elders i can look to for help and guidance. or if there are - they are invisible. like i am #right now i'm in lie down & give up mode and i want to hope for something more someday #i don't want to be like everyone else. i just want to stop feeling like im a problem for being how i am #anyway i fully expect im just tossing this into the void so dont feel bad if you have nothing to contribute #all the aroace positivity blogs are just a mix of ace/arophobia discussion and other ppl saying they feel as sad as i do #which is not really helpful even tho those feelings are real and relatable #i dont have examples of how someone like me could live a happy life without removing themself 100% from society. #i want so badly to be a light for younger ppl who are like i am & to show them it's possible to live a happy life #but that is not possible at the moment

[dufrau]

in major boot news for me, personally, i have finally talked andrei into buying me my dream boots. the 8 inch nick's heritage tanker pro.

im getting them in this same leather (black chromexel) but in the 55 last (more toe spring) and with a logger heel (because i like a chonky heel on a chonky boot)

now i just have to wait 6-8 MONTHS for them to be made 😭🙏 worst case scenario i should have them by my birthday at least?

anyway love is not a lie.

#boot posting #in 6 to 8 months its over for you clowns #my power level is about to skyrocket #i feel like these boots might be what finally pushes me over the edge into being able to confidently wear kilian dark lord perfume #someday i am going to get a nicks boot in the 11067 last but it feels like overkill on this already hefty boot #i would rather have that toe on like a 6 inch brown boot

[tibli]

i try to keep the kirby stuff on my blog relatively tame, so if you sent me an anon thats a bit suggestive pls know i appreciate the compliment!! but i just have hangups abt posting that stuff! 😭 (and this is not directed at a single person, i've gotten more than one so i just wanted to make this for posterity.)

im not upset AT ALL btw!! i just dont want anyone to feel bad if i dont answer an ask.

#tibtalks #i usually just find them funny and appreciate the compliment #maybe someday i will have the confidence to post the asks. but today is not that day lol #edit: when i say kirby stuff i am specificslly referring to like. the adult characters. namely ddd lmao #obvs if someone is sending suggestive stuff about child characters thats gross #but that hasnt happened so i didnt really think to mention it until just now

[frozenambiguity]

Kaeya 🤝 Furina

playing their role in a never-ending performance.

#genshin spoilers #{{ i so desperately need them to interact }} #{{ i won't mention my thoughts in complete detail in the tags but i do have a little bit i wanna share }} #{{ so this is your chance to stop and avoid my tags now! If you've read thus far; i hope you're having a good day! }} #{{ should be safe now; so onwards !!! }} #{{ but the coinciding themes of having to feign everything; of putting up a persona; of being scared and alone; of wanting to be free. }} #{{ even of wanting to be adored but still not being capable of being their complete true selves because of complex reasons... }} #{{ of carrying a heavy burden on their shoulders alone whilst hoping to defy fate and rewrite the script of their play and its finale }} #{{ of wanting to confide in someone; but being aware of the risks... }} #{{ oh gosh i knew she would become my favorite girlie and i was so right }} #{{ also their interactions and dynamics would be SO INTERESTING precisely because initially Kaeya would think she is an archon too }} #{{ SO IMAGINE. If he finds out. that. huh. So archons can have the same predicament as I do...? be in the exact same place as I am? }} #{{ feel the exact same things as I do; although the circumstances and reasons are different...? }} #{{ my brain is exploding right now gheughuerg i just. need them to have a chat someday. }} #{{ bc kaeya and archon interactions never fail to amuse me. but with FURINA? that's. that's on an entirely different level }}

[abyssembraced]

Okay, so! I have:

Changed the url of the blog (scale-tippers -> abyssembraced)

Changed the colour scheme of the blog (though it's still somewhat subject to change)

Updated the avatar to reflect the new colour scheme (though it's still temporary until I draw a nicer one)

Removed my old promo as my pinned post due to it being outdated (a temporary pinned post with links and stuff will be up in a sec; a new promo will come eventually, probably once I finish writing Rouxls' bio page)

Archived (dropped) Ryunosuke and Robin as muses for the time being.

#ooc #((plus side to making a poll about the url change and not just dming my mutuals directly:)) #((the anonymity and indirectness makes people less pressured to say 'yes' and thus will answer 'no' if they don't want me to change it!)) #((the down side to not talking to people directly:)) #((i do not know who i now need to apologize to for changing my url)) #((and the reason the blog colours are still subject to change are because everything is very ghost-centric right now)) #(( (oh btw tumblr stop trying to correct me on my spelling of ''colours'' i am Right) )) #((''abyssembraced'' is still a lot more fitting for ghost than it is for rouxls even though the new url was supposed to suit both muses)) #((but i chose to go for that name specifically instead of something like ''darkembraced'')) #((so i'm thinking i might change the blog's colours to be black/dark grey and blue/cyan to reference castle town)) #((so that rouxls feels more included given that he's Also a primary muse)) #((also i do still love ryuu and robin but i just. don't have the confidence to write them right now)) #((maybe they'll come back someday! but i'm not gonna promise anything and i wouldn't count on it unless i decide to replay their games)) #((but i don't really like dealing in absolutes so i'm calling them ''archived'' and not dropped)) #((their bios are still available on a separate ''archived muses'' page i just made that can be accessed from the regular muse list))

[brother-emperors]

... please share some bernardino lonati info crumbs with us? Please 🥺 ascanio too if you want to

(PS. your art is so beautiful aaa💗)

YES (also thank you! 💗) oh my god okay so

They were!!! friends!!

Bernardino Lonati was from Pavia, and Ascanio spent a lot of time in Pavia in the earlier parts of his life and was also the apostolic administrator of Pavia, so it's very likely they knew each other as teenagers (Ascanio refers to Bernardino as his "cardinal from home")

Ascanio Maria Sforza: la parabola politica di un cardinale-principe del Rinascimento, Marco Pellegrini

and they were only a couple of years apart in age (Lonati was born in 1452, Ascanio was 1455)

Lonati was one of the cardinals that Ascanio had "made," (Sanseverino is another). Before that, though, he was Ascanio's secretary!

Popes, Cardinals and War, D.S. Chambers

in 1497, Ascanio fell seriously ill, like a lot of Rome thought he had died despite being alive because of how bad his condition was. Lonati was someone Ludovico Sforza got in contact with to try to navigate the situation, and Lonati and Sanseverino were part of a group that banded together to prevent Rodrigo Borgia (Pope Alexander VI) from seizing Ascanio's assets in the event of his death.

Ascanio Maria Sforza: la parabola politica di un cardinale-principe del Rinascimento, Marco Pellegrini

Every time Ascanio would go against the Vatican for one reason or another/in conflict with the pope (the reason is that Ascanio's loyalty went to Milan first and always), Lonati was one of the cardinals that always sided with him :)

So when Lonati fell ill and it was clear things weren't going to get better

Ascanio Maria Sforza: la parabola politica di un cardinale-principe del Rinascimento, Marco Pellegrini

Ascanio rushed to be with him in his final hours and was so grief stricken over it that he had to be physically pulled away from Lonati's bedside because they were concerned that Ascanio would become ill as well (this was later in 1497). After Lonati died, Ascanio took care of the finances: Lonati wanted to pass the beneficiaries on to family members, but could not do this without Ascanio signing off on it since Ascanio was the apostolic administrator of Pavia.

Asanio did him one better: He wrote to his brother, knowing that he could ensure Lonati's last wishes, and had the income from S. Savino and a third of the income from S. Antonio go to the son, and the minor benefits go to the nephew, and the remaining 2/3rds of the income Ascanio had donated to charitable works in honor of Lonati's soul.

and he was in charge of the funeral arrangements and monument :')

Ascanio Maria Sforza: la parabola politica di un cardinale-principe del Rinascimento, Marco Pellegrini

Lonati was buried in Santa Maria del Popolo, a church associated with Ascanio, and later Giuliano della Rovere (Pope Julius II) would have a tomb commissioned for Ascanio there too, which I feel so so so normal about.

Also, Lonati was considered a "poor cardinal" while he was alive, Ascanio was the driving force behind getting Lonati additional incomes.

Ascanio Maria Sforza: la parabola politica di un cardinale-principe del Rinascimento, Marco Pellegrini

and for some Ascanio trivia: he was gambled (literally) with Rodrigo Borgia on occasion, and was apparently an amateur musician on top of the Everything Else He Did 🎵

A Companion to Late Medieval and Early Modern Milan, edited by Andrea Gamberini

#i feel normal™ about whatever was going on with ascanio and lonati #other things ascanio enjoyed doing: horseback riding apparently. also hunting #ascanio juggling lucrezia's marriage arrangements and cesare's french affair and rodrigo trying to kick him out of vatican politics like #'cardinal sforza went to cardinal colonna's estates to relax his mind by hunting' BRO YOU'RE 43 TAKE A NAP OR SOMETHING #like. do you sleep. DO YOU SLEEP. YOU'VE EARNED A BREAK. << me saying this because chapter 13 of the ascanio biography is killing me #Events Do Not Stop Happening And I Am Just An Artist Who Is Trying So Hard To Keep Up With this #anyway i was up at 5am for reasons and was going to go back to bed for a bit but then i saw this ask and was immediately AWAKE #thank u anon this was more effective than any alarm clock followed by coffee #bernardino lonati #ask tag #rec tag #i wish i could provide you with primary (letter) sources but alas. i Do Not Live In Milan otherwise i'd live in the archives forever #i have. pictures of both ascanio and lonati's tombs? the monument/sculpture part. i think #im confident in ascanio's and less so about lonati since. again. never been to italy. would love to go someday! #and im relying on this one person's photography to not be lying to me with lonati hshdfhghg #(im confident about ascanio tho bc we got museums to confirm and also art history books. della rovere did interesting things with him) #long post #thanks for the ask anon!!! i love Every Opportunity I Get To Talk About The House Sforza (what i call ascanio and his friends lmao) #renaissance papacy tag

[emoticonheart]

Do you yourself burp a lot?

great question!!

the answer is yes and no. yes in the sense that i do burp a lot imo (not anything impressive most of the time though, just some smaller ones), but no in the sense that i don't usually open my mouth as i'm doing so. i'm just too shy and i get easily embarrassed, so the thought of people hearing me burp is nothing short of mortifying for me.

although, i am trying to be better at letting myself relax more. i still close my mouth as i burp (haven't really gotten over that just yet), but i'm slowly getting better at letting the burps be louder in my mouth. maybe one day i'll finally be comfortable enough to actually let them out. we'll see.

#burping #reblog #tundrakyle #maybe someday when i reach that point of comfort and confidence i could actually record some of my burps and post them here #but then ofc that raises the concern of people somehow discovering who i am #...as you can see i'm a pretty anxious person hahaha

[littledeadling]

The name August always makes me think of that 2000s freddy highmore movie but I think you could pull it off and make it yours

Depends on the vibe you want tbh-- voidbird is cool but very much feels like indie EDM dj kinda genre of music name from what I'd assume seeing it somewhere

August Ambrose is like, guy who could do country/blues/pop/upbeat rock and feels like a Person I Would Be Seeing Live

Hey!! Thank u for ur insights!!

I’m not familiar w that movie or guy haha! But thank u :)

This is a bit silly, but August always in part makes me think of the beginning of Charmed Life by Diana Wynne Jones (extremely special book to me) where Chrestomanci is described as an “august personage,” meaning he is very dignified and alluring… I know it’s a phrase, but that was the first time I encountered it, & Chrestomanci is my favourite character of all time lol

Interesting to hear ur takes on the genres!! That’s really helpful, I appreciate it! 💛

#I could never perform live I’m extremely shy singing in front of ppl. my throat like closed up lol #asks #bz bz #honestly I wish I could tho it could be so fun!!! #maybe after I transition & am more self confident haha #unrelated but someday I WILL commit to drawing every single character from the Chrestomanci books or so help me

[birbhouse-doodles]

Sometimes, dead is better. The person you put up there ain't the person that comes back.

Quick one today so I can catch up- a movie that genuinely, deeply disturbed me much more than I expected it to: Pet Sematary.

(Scary movie artober #4/10)

#mine #tober 22 #pet sematary #the heeby-jeeby levels are off the charts for this one. it absolutely got me #which means of course this movie made it into this project. strong emotional responses deserve to be celebrated that's a sign of good art #messin' with death is a thing that can always really creep me out (in a good way) when it's done well and then #zombie toddler just pushed it over the edge #this is an objectively good movie don't get me wrong. but at the same time #I do not feel the need to watch it all the way thru again any time soon lol #I do dig how this piece turned out even if it was quick #(and very squarely within my comfort zone unlike anything else in this project so far so. I appreciate the confidence boost) #makes me want to do an all-traditional black and white comic someday #maybe one of these inktober pieces can be a little comic... I am looking at the movie list and thinking about it........

[transcredwaters]

guh sorry for my being more quiet as of late. . . I've been wanting to interact and settle in a bit better with this community in general but I'm very anxious when it comes to it, and have also become. super busy with work as of late, which is leading me to forget to check tumblr when I'm free enough to do so lol;;

#Like i am trying but I'm not doing well LMAO #I'm just super bad at talking to people ! I wish i had access to discord because it's so much easier for me to talk there for some reason #But even then I'm so quiet in new servers so I'd feel guilty for not interacting enough all over again #Hopefully soon I'll. . . Actually be able to interact more. Come out of my shell #a peek into the wol's journal #Also sorry for babbling at 3am my brain is. Buzzing #Maybe. Someday. I'll even be confident enough to rp. But i never knew how that works here. I rp on discord too aha #I mean i guess 'more quiet' is a low bar I've always been quiet here but #I've just been scared to crawl out my shell i guess #anyways no more . Babbling