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If there is anything the captain has learned over the years, it is that developing patience is a skill. One that is as useful as any other, though it is often underrated. It is said that with time comes wisdom. The most important things are worth waiting for — even if that means exercising restraint over one’s impulses. So much can be achieved with the right amount of patience. So much pain and mistakes can be avoided, too.

Ever since they parted ways, Kaeya invested much of his time thoroughly reflecting on all that had happened on that rainy, ice-cutting cold night. Perhaps to a rather exaggerating extent, with daily doses of self-deprecating thoughts that kept on spiraling, if only because he willingly fed them. No matter. What truly matters is that he had the chance to analyze not only the circumstances surrounding them both, but also how his behavior had only fortified a foreseeable, disastrous climax.

Diluc’s reaction to the skeletons in Kaeya’s closet had always been a sensitive matter to the knight. He had known that there was a high chance of his secrets not being well received, and yet… Yet, he had still chosen to ignore that reasonable voice that echoed deep within his mind.

If only he had known how to wait, how to respect the redhead’s grief and timing, how to correctly read the situation… Maybe then that conversation would not have blossomed into the cruel memory that it is today.

His intentions had come from a good place, his actions far from wicked. To trust the other and rely on him had been his sole aim. Perhaps innocence had been at play. A certain enchantment with the world, that young soul under the impression that they could, would come out stronger from any challenge or ordeal that dared cross their paths, if only they had each other.

But what do intentions matter in the grand scheme of things?

A most cherished lesson. One he plans on applying today. Thus, he waits, allowing the redhead to come to terms with his feelings and decide whether or not he wishes to have this delicate conversation. Kaeya does not force him to do anything: his initial request had been purposefully ambiguous.

“Talk to me”, the knight had said.

If Diluc wanted, he could talk about something so silly as the weather and Kaeya would add his two cents to that mundane discussion.

… But he cannot describe the relief he feels when Diluc decides to confide in him. He almost has to stop himself from sighing, because that is how thankful he feels to have regained his old role as Diluc’s confidante.

«… … …» He does not say much, opting to let Diluc reveal all that he wants, needs. The topic of his nightmare does not come as a surprise to the knight. In response to the redhead’s movements, his thumb softly caresses his locks of hair again, providing reassurance. I’m here.

When sorrowful blue meets regretful ruby red, there is little to be said. Even Kaeya seems to get a bit emotional from this exchange alone. Good. Allow him to share Diluc’s pain, as it was always intended. To dismiss the other’s apology would be futile. Dishonest. Even if this topic is not the most pleasant to discuss given the month they are in, it is also one that cannot be avoided. Should not be avoided. Like it has been for so many years.

So, Kaeya does not avoid it. For a moment, he pauses, the only noise that can be heard is the clock ticking. A comforting sound, to some strange extent. His gaze does not leave Diluc’s. Instead, it states “I’m the one who broke that promise to you first”.

«I don’t need your protection». His voice is small, perhaps because this moment is so intimate that its nature is transferred to his composure. Or perhaps because it is the truth. There is nothing to make up for, Diluc. As hard as getting that to this head may be, Diluc does not have to go through any extra lengths to make things right. Things are not broken. Not anymore.

Softly, his lips draw a smiling line. Lithe fingers pull Diluc's bangs away from his pretty face, eye heavy with tenderness. A hand cups his cheek before the knight leans in and kisses his forehead, a deep sigh escaping his nose as he does so. His heart is heavy, but at the same time so light. A dichotomy of emotions clashes — sadness and calmness, relief and worry, thankfulness and guilt. It is hard to describe.

Then, their stares meet again.

«But I do need you. And… you’re allowed to need me, too». Just in case Diluc forgets, because he tends to always shoulder everything on his own. Such a stance in life does not lead one anywhere. It only leads to a path of solitude. And even if Diluc has reassured him that he does not feel lonely, the captain cannot help but worry. That is what one does when you love another. You want them happy. You want to see them thrive.

«I might also need your little sophisticated friend’s help. I need to reach Jean, write her a letter telling her I’m not going to the office. I am staying with you today». Non-negotiable, Master Diluc. Besides, it is not like Jean will oppose — Kaeya rarely took days off. And even if she did, he would not clock in, anyway.

Suddenly, he chuckles, tugging a strand of hair behind Diluc’s ear.

«… I was going to invite you to a small walk, but, clearly, you have gotten ahead of me. So, since you had your morning stroll, shall we stay in all day? I’ll keep you company. Listen to you. Tell you what you want to know. We’ll call it…»

He looks to the side, humming as he thinks.

«An honesty-themed day. How’s that sound?» Maybe some matters could be difficult to talk about, but whether they dive into them or not... Diluc needs this. He needs Kaeya. He only needs to let Kaeya in, now.

Oh, Diluc knows. Kaeya has told him so on occasion, but he enjoys asking him.

The look he gets in return any time he gets close and requests or begs with his eyes brings a smile to his lips. The way his gaze softens till the redhead can see depths of affection in it makes his heart patter with delight. After all that has happened, being able to receive such from the other was an indulgence, to think he would one day be laying on his lap getting pets.

Diluc gives a pleased hum as his request is granted, closing his eyes to enjoy it to the fullest. With how long he had spent outdoors, his body had cooled considerably. So Kaeya's hand feels warm on his head, the gliding motion pressing on his scalp soothing. He tilts his head in a way that makes it easier for Kaeya to guide his hand to where it feels good, a gentle touch he wants to keep forever, fall asleep to it so he can make up for the time lost wandering outside.

He knows. Guessed from his worry that Kaeya must be curious as to why he was in such a disheveled shape. Diluc almost expects him to ask right away, waiting for a confrontation that didn't come.

Instead, red eyes blink open, long lashes fluttering as his lids part enough for him to see through them at the surprising sound. A song. A tune he could swear he'd heard before, but too far in the edges of his memories he can't remember.

With a breath he didn't realize he was holding, Diluc relaxes into the other's lap properly, closing his eyes again and letting himself be indulgent. Diluc can tell from his voice he is doing it for him, and it makes it all the more endearing. A caress that lulls him to dreams, a hum that pulls him back before he sinks too low, chest rising and falling in the same beat. Kaeya's voice has always been nice, a deep tone that reaches his heart and stays, calming. He wished time would stop for them, right at this moment.

Kaeya's voice is soft enough that Diluc doesn't stir, but he hears him.

There are a million thoughts that pass through his mind-- things he wants to say, and mostly words he wants covered, hidden deep in his heart so he doesn't lose the peace he has now. Red eyes open to look, but immediately his head turns away, looking out at the mansion with disdain. For a while, the redhead stays quiet, eyes unfocused as he weighs his options. Kaeya is frighteningly sharp and few things can leave Diluc agitated and sleepless. If he so desired, he could say it was nothing and let it be dealt with another day... but he's already worried the other enough. Empty words were not his forte, either.

Kaeya deserves an explanation, at the least.

"I just had a bad dream," he admits, staring out towards the far cupboards at the other end of the hall. "Around this time, it comes back to bother me. Everything from the night I..." Goosebumps form on his skin as the vivid sensations of his dreams come back to him as he speaks. Humid, dark, sticky, and eerily warm; Diluc is unable to stop himself from wiping his hands clean on his clothes. He fills his lungs with air till his head clears, and closes his eyes again, sinking his head into Kaeya's legs with an arm over his face.

Kaeya is still here.

But would he be, if he found out the truth?

He never had a chance to explain everything back then, nor did he tell Kaeya about the conversation he had with Father before they were attacked. The words and actions that left him doubtful for years, had fueled his anger and despair. A gift unsent that he stole in hopes of figuring out the truth. Things had gone south before any stories could be shared. Another contender for his nightmares. But now, he rolls his head back and his hand moves away, red eyes making sure to inspect every inch of the other's face, carving it into memory.

"I'm sorry I broke my promise that night." I'm sorry I couldn't protect father. You must be distraught too. I can't keep crying like this. We're going to be alright. I'm here, Kaeya. ... I'm sorry. He remembers these exact words he'd said to him years ago, soaked with rain and mud, eyes filled with tears as he hugged the younger boy tight, hoping to share comfort with each other. Honestly, how innocent-- confidently, he swore to protect his loved ones when he was helpless in saving his own father when it mattered most.

Instead, his blade had turned on them.

"But even so... I want to protect you."

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hey guess whose bright idea it was to animate genshin characters cause hoyo won't let these two fucking MEET

Youtube link below vvv

#{{ this was so cute actually }} #captivemuses

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@captivemuses

Smothers with kisses? Smothers with kisses. PS: He will hold you accountable on saturday.

#【 ic | fool you once; fool you twice. 】 #{{ your honor; he just gained 3 extra life years from a ten-minute interaction alone }} #{{ when a person does you this good; you marry them. yes. }} #captivemuses

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Anonymous asked:

Hey mun! Would Kaeya oppose to adopting a cat made of alchemy?

Ooc; Hi there! I must admit that the thought of Kaeya having his own little feline friend has crossed my mind multiple times before! Kaeya is very independent but he enjoys company, and that includes animals. If we were to deeply and thoroughly analyze facts, Kaeya himself is also very... cat-like.

I mean it. He is the type to mind his own business, to come and go as he pleases, depending on how interesting he finds his surroundings. But he also is a bit mischievous, playful, and curious. He both embodies the "somewhat distant, will only let you approach him or be affectionate towards him when or if he feels like it" and the "You are nice to me? And you just arrived home? Okay, let me be the first to greet you and affectionately rub my head against your leg because I adore you" cat archetypes at the same time.

But we are not here to discuss how much cat-coded he is so I'll answer your question! TLDR; He shares a few traits that one could associate with cats, so if he ever were to have a pet, a cat would be a better fit for him than a dog, for example (dogs require more time and investment, and sometimes Kaeya can be very, very busy).

I am not so certain about the actual process of adoption, however. I find it more likely that Kaeya would come across a stray and befriend it with time than actually have the intention of adopting a little fellow. Not to say that the cat would not eventually move in with Kaeya if they got along and it felt right (coming home to someone or a pet is a comfy feeling...), but I think that adopting a cat out of nowhere and taking it home is not Kaeya's style.

As for the cat's alchemical nature, well... Kaeya would be curious about it! How does it differ from normal cats? Is it a different type of experience altogether (meals, routines, level of intelligence, etc) or is the level of alchemy so perfected that one can barely tell the difference between a cat made of alchemy and a normal one? He would like to find out!

TLDR --- I think the captain deserves a nice little friend, and he would not mind at all if that friend was made from alchemy!

#{{ me writing an entire thesis on kaeya being cat-coded.......... }} #{{ pavo ocellus my beloved. but also. highly cat coded. you can't change my mind }} #{{ besides; how cool would a cat made from khemia be! }} #【 let me tell you a story | thoughts to be shared. 】

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Ooc; Thank you so much for the sweet message! I really appreciate it. Hope you have a great day! <3

#【 out of cryo 】 #blindfoldcd #{{ sends good vibes your way!! }}

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The good news: my job is going great and I'm really excited. The bad news: I barely have any energy to write.

#【 out of cryo 】 #{{ I am once again apologizing to all my partners for being as slow as a snail }} #{{ hoping to dive deep into drafts tomorrow and this weekend... hopefully. fingers crossed }}

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The Grown-up with fake smile.

#{{ forever stuck in my mind }} #【 visage. 】 #【 isms | heart of the abyss. 】

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«... ... ...» As seasons change and summer slowly approaches, days seem to be getting longer. There is much to admire during quiet, introspective moments. Like the pretty tangerine sunset, blessed with shades of rose and purple.

Mesmerizing.

#【 ic | fool you once; fool you twice. 】 #【 past verse | a burden too great for an age so tender. 】 #{{ throws a bebe kae appreciating a sunset at the dash bc i can }} #{{ i think he appreciated small moments like these a lot. Still does. }} #{{ because his father used to tell him that his nation was underground }} #{{ and everything out here seems so vivid and alive }} #{{ there is this sense of peace that is quite indescribable }}

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Am I a fool crying VALUE, VALUE.

Inspired by Ado's Value, translation by Trickle. (Check both of them out!)

#【 memories of days past. 】 #【 isms | heart of the abyss. 】 #【 visage. 】

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continued. | @inardescere

Perhaps Kaeya has grown too attached to the redhead's presence. Perhaps he follows his guiding light as if his life depends on it, just like sunflowers follow the sun's rays. It is comforting, in a way, but oh so very fragile, in another. Being left behind to tend to the quarters is not the reason that renders him anxious ( at least, not fully ). Parting ways with Diluc is not what bothers him ( too much ).

Simply put: part of him feels like he has to fly higher.

The role Kaeya has carries importance. Without it, operations would be difficult to plan and manage, supplies and resources would disperse, and disorder would reign. But one cannot deny the significance of being on the front lines, defending a common cause. The young man has never aimed to fight. He has never reveled in the thought of battle and imminent victory. Part of him detested conflict with a passion. If it could be avoided, he would.

However, the world was not made of vivid colors or pleasant pastel shades. Sometimes, one had to make difficult decisions. Sometimes, one had to do what one did not necessarily like.

There is a voice that keeps nagging him with each passing day, stating that physical skill can only lead one to a certain extent. Objectively, it very much is correct. Although he does not share the same sentiment towards the Gods as his fellow colleagues do, part of him wishes he could be bestowed with a greater power.

«...» A vision... A strange, powerful apparatus. A means of power. But what does one exactly pay in exchange for owning it? Has one such question ever been posed before, or do people, even scholars, take it for granted...?

The young man grows immersed in this internal monologue, entertaining his train of thought. When Diluc leans in to confide in him, he suddenly is pulled back to reality, growing conscious of his habit. At that, he blinks, but lessens the distance between them, lending an ear to receive whispered words.

«... ... ...»

A pause. And then... Laughter. Kaeya covers his mouth, similar to a child who has just heard something they were not supposed to hear. The effort is in vain, for he giggles wholeheartedly. What a silly suggestion.

«Well --- », he starts, mid chuckle. « --- I can't exactly fit into those crates anymore. It was uncomfortable back then, so imagine how that would feel nowadays! Traveling inside such a tiny compartment during such a long, long journey...? Although the offer seems tempting, I think I'll pass~». Diluc's attempt to cheer him up does not go unnoticed, though it fails to receive any direct commentary. Deep down, Kaeya feels thankful for the redhead's tactfulness.

«Though... You do realize that the seniors would roll their eyes at your suggestion alone, right? They would frown upon it in these circumstances. "Throw pebbles at their heads!?"» The young one's voice imitates a much older tone, scandalized at the suggestion. Mimicking one of their proudest teachers, probably. He places a hand on top of his chest for the sake of drama.

«"Ragnvindr, you dare jest with the Knights of Favonius!? How would such a scene benefit our rightful organization!? ----" Or something like that». A chuckle and a shrug.

«But who knows? Perhaps under different circumstances, it would be something they would be willing to consider. We could even implement that sort of training in our monthly assessments. It would help the team grow more cautious and alert».

For now...

«I'll stay where I can provide the most help. The Knights can only remain effective if everyone dedicates themselves to their rightful post. But, Diluc...?»

A certain hesitation, gaze suddenly downcast as he ponders what to say next. A moment passes before azure and vermillion reunite.

«Promise to write me?»

#inardescere #【 ic | fool you once; fool you twice. 】 #【 past verse | a burden too great for an age so tender. 】 #{{ you: i only have long things to reply to... }} #{{ me; taking your door down with my foot and barging in: SURPRISE SURPRISE HAVE ANOTHER LONG THING }} #{{ mwah <3 }}

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one of the most ship dynamics of all time

#captivemuses #{{ jokes on u; i'm still going to call you out. }} #{{ but at least childe brought flowers bhethbuerhbu }}

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Open.

Ever since the captain traveled to Sumerian lands, new tastes have been acquired. Others, already existing ones, simply refined and broadened. It is a pity that Mondstadt's bars and taverns usually stick to the alcohol culture and common practices of its nation. Kaeya could really use a nice glass of Arak.

If one cannot find what one seeks, however, one shall simply take matters into their own hands and delve further into the sea of creation. A genuine smile appears on the captain's features as he tries to recall the description bestowed by a local Sumerian bartender.

«Now... What was the recipe for Arak again...?» He muses aloud, unaware of any passerby.

#【 ic | fool you once; fool you twice. 】 #【 open starter | come closer. 】 #{{ kaeya is really turning into a bartending//mixer apprentice huh wwwwww }} #{{ practice makes perfect! }}

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PROMPTS FOR THINGS FRIENDS SAY TO EACH OTHER *  assorted dialogue for a multitude of friendly and platonic conversations and situations ranging from soft to dramatic, adjust as necessary

of course i love you. you're my best friend.

i really couldn't do this without you.

did you just call me your best friend?

that's what friends are for.

if you know me so well, what's my favorite color?

remember when they mistook us for siblings?

you're the only person i've ever trusted.

i know i can count on you for anything.

do you approve of them?

there's nothing i wouldn't do for you.

if something was wrong, i would tell you.

i can tell when you're lying.

okay, now tell me the truth this time.

i'm not leaving you behind.

i don't know what i'd do if i lost you.

let's not fight like that again.

i always knew you would accomplish amazing things.

that wasn't fair of me to say to you.

i'm sorry i upset you.

i know everything about you.

maybe we should go someplace fun.

will you be in my wedding?

we've been friends for years. you think i didn't know?

i figured you'd tell me when you were ready.

you called me your best friend.

if it matters that much to you, we'll do it.

i just want you to be happy above all else.

you deserve a whole lot better, you know.

i wish you could see yourself the way i see you.

you've always been there for me, no matter what.

i'd risk my life to save you.

we need a girls trip.

i know you better than you know yourself.

you don't think i can tell when you're lying?

you can't get anything past me.

as your best friend, i have to step in.

that's wrong, and you know it.

i love you, but not in that way.

we need to get out of here. just us.

you mean the world to me.

you deserve better than the way they treat you.

i think i have a right to express my honest opinion when it comes to my best friend.

the only way we survive this is if we work together.

you trust me, don't you?

we could sit for hours in silence, and i'd still love the time we spent together because it was with you.

i can tell you anything, and you won't judge me.

maybe we should take a trip together, just us.

i'm so happy for you and the life you've created.

you know me so well.

one day we'll end up in rocking chairs on a porch together, complaining about everything.

you're like a sister to me.

you're like a brother to me.

you're practically family at this point.

if you asked me to help you hide a body, i would.

no one messes with my best friend.

excuse me, but i'm your best friend. i think i have a right to know.

i've known you all my life.

i hate it when we fight.

#【 memes | let's play a game. 】

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Sometimes, all a silly captain secretely wants is to be pampered... Just sometimes.

#{{ someone baby this affection & love starved little creature }} #{{ what is funny and ironic is that he will reject most attempts }} #{{ as he often feels undeserving and unworthy }} #{{ he has trouble receiving affection but boy does he crave it }}

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&. 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬.

( this is basically just a very self indulgent list of various fluff, angst, and suggestive themed dialogue sentence starters. )

❛ i could keep you safe. they’re all afraid of me. ❜

❛ i’m trying to fix your hair, so hold still. ❜

❛ your heart is beating so fast right now. ❜

❛ promise me you’ll still be here when i wake up. ❜

❛ you’re not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜

❛ i thought you’d like some company. ❜ 

❛ clean yourself up. you're getting blood all over the place. ❜

❛ here, give this a try and tell me what you think. ❜

❛ you can kiss me, you know. ❜

❛ come back to bed. ❜

❛ you look good like this. ❜

❛ working together again, it’s just like old times. ❜

❛ how is it you always know what i need, huh? ❜

❛ you’re lucky you got away with only a scratch. ❜ 

❛ i can’t imagine losing someone like that. i’m sorry. ❜

❛ you know you can always talk to me. ❜

❛ the only one who gets to kill you, is me. ❜

❛ so, what do i owe this pleasure? ❜

❛ ah, so you aren’t heartless after all. ❜

❛ may i have this dance? ❜ 

❛ it’s okay, you can touch me. i won't break. ❜

❛ enemies make the best lovers, you know. ❜

❛ hold still. this might sting a little. ❜

❛ we can't keep doing this. ❜ 

❛ you look like you've got something to say. ❜

❛ just relax and let me take care of you. ❜

❛ thought you’d be lighter without all that blood. ❜

❛ i had it under control. you didn’t need to do that. ❜

❛ everything looks so beautiful from up here. ❜

❛ you treat all your ladies like this? ❜

❛ well? how do i look? ❜

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

❛ do you mind if i smoke? ❜

❛ i’m scared of ending up alone. ❜

❛ i don’t think i’ve ever seen you smile. ❜

❛ how long has it been since you've slept? ❜

❛ you are losing my interest, and that’s very dangerous. ❜

❛ i’d suffer hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight. ❜

❛ you look really pretty right now. ❜

❛ i’ve never cared for anyone the way i care for you. ❜

❛ i’m not wearing any underwear. thought you’d like to know. ❜

❛ just a few more stitches and you’ll be as good as new. ❜

❛ i’d say we make a pretty good team. ❜

❛ i want you to forget this ever happened. ❜

❛ i'm here for business — not pleasure. ❜

❛ if i didn't know any better, i'd say you were jealous. ❜

❛ you'd look better down on your knees. ❜

❛ fine, keep acting like you hate me. ❜

❛ kiss me again. ❜

❛ are you asking me out on a date? ❜

❛ just sit there and look pretty and let me handle this. ❜

❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space again. ❜

❛ well, i do feel better now that you're here. ❜

❛ i'm not drunk enough for this. ❜ 

❛ why is it whenever we see each other, you’re covered in blood? ❜

❛ i was wrong about you. ❜ 

❛ the first time i met you, i had no idea you'd mean this much. ❜

❛ you gonna be a good girl / boy for me? ❜

❛ i’m not afraid of you. ❜

❛ books mean more to me than people anyway. ❜

❛ i just wanted to say thank you for protecting me. ❜

❛ how about a kiss goodnight? ❜

❛ i don’t have time for distractions right now. ❜

❛ you shouldn’t be out here by yourself. ❜ 

❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜

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No thoughts. Just Modern Au Kaeya as a police officer // special agent // crime scene investigator. source.

#{{ I AM WRITING OP A FORMAL EMAIL THO BC I WAS ROBBED }} #{{ OF THE KAE BOOTY ON THOSE ALMOST LATEX LIKE PANTS!!!!!!!!! !!!!! !!!! }} #【 visage. 】

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@inardescere | unprompted bc Kaeya said so.

«I've been thinking...» Usually, this is not a good sign for others around him, mischievous as the knight can be. But, this time around, his heart carries good intentions.

«We should join forces next time Mondstadt throws a charity event. I could tend to the shop logistics while you worked the drinks. Or, if we aim for a true alliance, we could bartend together for a day or two. It would be quite the publicity stunt, don't you think?~ We would be sure to secure a hefty sum of funds». In other words, let's bartend together when the opportunity comes.

Kaeya does not mind hanging out with his favorite person while they enjoy one of their treasured hobbies. He likes seeing how creative and immersed Diluc can get when presented with an engaging challenge. 

«How does taking in an apprentice sound, Master Diluc? I promise to be diligent.~ I'll even behave and make sure to think about a few virgin mixtures so that everyone feels included».

#【 ic | fool you once; fool you twice. 】 #inardescere #{{ listen... he leads. i just type. }}