#but so far I'm handling it!

[spielzeugkaiser]

Flowers for you, I hope you’re feeling better these days!

Thank you, ahhhh, this is sooo sweet that you thought of me 🥺🥺 It means a lot! Also I love those flowers, they are so nice, and I'm just a sucker for everything pastel pink 💖 I had this in my askbox for quite a while, just looking at it and being-

THANK YOU STINA. That's so lovely!!

#spielzeugkaiser talks #to be completely honest - there is not much difference #my body is deteriorating #migraine is baddd #but so far I'm handling it! #I'm a bit worried because I'll be working full time again from next week on and that means drastically less time to rest #as long as I'm always one step ahead (organization wise) I'm still capable of acting and don't go into simple reaction mode #like doing prep now writing papers now getting stuff now done so I can pull them out of my desk in autum and winter when I need them #but I also need good grades and think about if I want to do a doctorate and study and publish and start to design a study #and decide on a topic and finish the things that are already running and go on congresses and juggle all three jobs without dropping one #and why is it all so expensiveee I'm a fool #but also do the MAIN job right #uff uff #also I really should do more sport to help with the migraines and the overall pain level #oh well #so far I'm doing good! stressed but I'm currently managing it #I would enjoy a break - I fought for it on all fronts and got one in October but maybe I can take three days off in August to go hiking #or something like that! that would be nice #sorry for the rant 😅 #I used this to organize my thoughts for a moment; now that it's written down it's better and out of the head! #my body is bad overall but my mood not - I do believe that I can do it :) It just won't be nice at times 😂😅🙈

[dontletyourguarddown]

Hi...

#critical role #laura bailey #marisha ray #imogen temult #laudna #laudna cr #imodna #imogen x laudna #soooo imodna nation what do we know about suffering so far? #this is just a bit too much don't you think? #i'm not even strong enough to handle all of this

[fandomfrolics]

1x10 || 3x01

#ted lasso #ted lasso edit #ted lasso s3 spoilers #finally gathered the courage to watch this episode a second time #it turns out there's more than just sad ted??? #(sad HOT ted) #anyway these guys are too obsessed with parallels they need to chill #not pictured: nate's reaction to Jamie's comments when he's showing the team #how things change!! #I feel like 3x01 Nate is an amalgam of all these different things from s1 #ted's first presser almost panic attack and Nate's first presser almost panic attack #Rebecca's eat this wear that and Rupert upgrading Nate's car #Jamie's this team got relegated without me and Nate's Richmond would be nowhere without me #(wait that's 2x12) #anyway!!! #I'm soooooo happy with how s3 Nate is being handled so far #jamie tartt #nathan shelley #my edit

[manglechanbluh]

Come on, he is wearing gaiters I couldn't resist + End of the Line speeding bullet

#tf2 #tf2 fanart #team fortress 2 #tf2 sniper #tf2 scout #speeding bullet #end of the line #Scout is totally making it worse with his cold ass hands #ALSO I've seen someone say that it mades no sens to hc sniper as someone who can't handle cold weather #because he certainly has been dealing with very cold nights in australian deserts #And fair ! but I'm sure there is a difference btw how cold feels in a dry windy desert and at the top of a snowy mountain #but I didn't find anything to back up this statement #and I only have the wet winters of northwest france as a reference #so this is as far as this statement goes

[sysig]

whoops i asked in the wrong place. would you be willing to do a request of the vargas boys in a SAW trap? thank you in advance <3

Day 2 - Was it not obvious enough

#My art #Requestober #Vargas #Edgar #Scriabin #Blood #SAW #So fun fact about me: I have never seen any of the SAW movies and I have exactly zero interest in changing that lol #I'm actually a huge wimp when it comes to live action horror - I can handle just about any other kind of horror! #I love horror video games and animation and comics and stories but I just get really super uncomfortable by live action horror #Especially slashers - I top out around ''Get Out'' as far as on-screen blood and injuries and the like :( #Which sucks because as I said! I love horror! I want to watch Nightmare on Elm Street so badly but I can't! ;o; #And there's something funny about just how violent JtHM and Vargas and everything is but I'm just like #''SAW :( No I can't :('' lol #So I actually had to outsource from a friend lol she's a big slasher buff and knows I can't handle this stuff #So she briefly described a trap from SAW II and I extrapolated from there #Do I have context for you? No #Do I have blood for you? Yes >:) #Poor Edgar D: I dunno if I read correct from glancing around all the scary imagery but there was something about this trap? #About how like if they didn't put both hands they might've been able to get out? :0 I don't actually know #And anyway he has Scriabin there with him! Help! #He's no help at all lol he's just jostling the trap that'll just hurt him more! #I just like to imagine there's a semi-happy ending :') Still a lot of bloodloss tho haha #Anyway I probably wouldn't do one of these live action horror crossovers again :'D Once is more than enough for me

[mod2amaryllis]

really so fulfilling to service reactive dogs. checked in a patient that was nonstop barking and lunging while i calmly shout-asked for history from the clearly exhausted owner. she says the e.r. vet wouldn't touch him and made her feel horrible, like he's a bad dog and she's a bad owner (not making a read on that vet, she was just feeling judged), and i just really really love being able to offer reassurance now that I'm at a place where reactive dogs don't scare me. i KNOW this dude is your baby at home ma'am, i will treat him as such. love seeing owners stop being embarrassed and start feeling relief.

#it's not that I'm not careful I'm just not scared. handling reactive dogs for 9 years with no bad bites. #SO FAR.... knock on wood #i enjoy it. unique client experience you only get with reactive dogs. #m2a #work stuff #so much of this comes from experience with Joanie having leash reactivity. reactive does not equal bad mean evil!!!!

[eerna]

shoutout to Nicasia for being the only one who figured out Jude was the mastermind behind the coup. Orlagh, Madoc, and Balekin, the Big Brained Centuries Old Antagonists, as well as the rest of Elfhame, all convinced her she was wrong so she gave up on trying to prove it after a while but the way she made Jude sweat was soooo girlbosses supporting girlbosses

#k calling balekin big brained is a stretch but he is supposed to know more about the entire thing than NICASIA #everyone else was like ''oh poor little jude tangled in a situation she isn't capable of handling all because she was useful that one time' #while nicasia was foaming at the mouth screaming ''NO YOU DON'T GET IT IT WAS HER IT WASN'T CARDAN SHE DID SOMETHING TO FORCE HIM INTO IT'' #man i love twk. by far the best of the trilogy. what a cool book #tfota liveblog #now i could keep going and monologue about how repeatedly across books cardan and nicasia know each other so well and know how each is gonn #act or react in a situation and how the reason she was the only one who knew the truth was because she was the only one who got to see his #vulnerabilities and wishes but i'm not gonna do that bc it's 2 am <3<3<3<3<3

[screwpinecaprice]

Got my first display tab! And the first thing I tested it with is an anime Connie sketch lol.

HUGE thank you to my supporters at Ko-fi, as that's where I got the funds. 😊😊🤗💕

Seems needed time to get used to, and I use more shortcut keys than the number of shortcut buttons on the tab; but I am already loving the it so far! My laptop, on the other hand, is not handling it too well. 😅

#I did kind of expect the laptop to act like it is right now. Which was another reason for buying a cheaper display tab to save up more on #a new laptop. #I got an Xp Pen 13 by the way! #It's looking great so far #The screen is much more closer to my face now tho. Lol #The colors come out different than both my laptop screen and cellphone. 🤔 #But I think the xp pen has too much red tint? #Anyway. I have to tuck the XP pen for the moment. Not just because I needed a better laptop. I'm in the middle of doing commissions and #can't do those while still getting used to the laptop ...while also dealing with the lag. #The laptop's power drains even faster with the display tab and it lags even quicker the more layers I add. ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #Laptop can't handle it very well. #Connie Maheswaran #SU #my shiz #Xp Pen #Thank you to my ko-fi supporters!!!!!!!💕💕💕 #This was a screenshot redraw by the way. Or at least a screenshot redraw of a scene by memory. #You know the scene. #I wish I was able to make Connie look more pissed off tho. Lol #I also used the tab for a some of the sketches of my current commissions and I am so sad that I can't use it throughout the process. #It's so much easier doing the sketches with it than on the screenless tab! But it also lags. Orz

[tricoufamily]

tried to make my middle school ocs as sims to heal my inner child and completely overhauled them. so here they are, before and after The Events

lore time! trigger warning for like. everything like just go ahead and block their name tags if you have basically any triggers at all sorry

facts about hinnry (right)!

born into an incredibly isolated cult that's existed on a commune completely detached from the world since the 1890s. no one knows they exist, and it would be incredibly difficult to even find the commune.

that's why his name is spelled that way. they've been isolated for so long that their spelling and dialect have almost developed into their own language. like hinnry morphed from henry, jime morphed from james, merthy morphed from martha, etc.

everyone on the commune has the last name skrinniwk. none of the historians who studied the remains of the commune could determine what this used to mean.

you can spell it henry or hinnry. ilya (left) spells it henry. whatever

he has like 17 siblings (his father has multiple wives)

his father is the leader of the cult. they believe that their leader has been the same person since the 1890s, and he transfers his soul to one of his children when his physical body dies

on the commune there are bunkhouses for sleeping, a chapel for worship and school ('school') for the kids, a mess hall/kitchen kinda thing where they all eat, and then all their farming and livestock stuff

hinnry's job is slaughtering the animals

he's 18, almost 19, and has no wives or children yet. the men basically conceive children until they can't anymore (his father is an old man), but it's still strange that he hasn't done it yet at his age.

none of them besides his father and his father's brother have ever left the commune (he has a secret car. the rest of them don't even know what a car is, they think he has divine abilities and that's where they get things from)

a plague has been killing them like crazy. they've been locking bodies in the barn and burning them at night. this is not a good sign for their religion.

they believe all the death means it's time to leave their physical bodies. a mass suicide is coming. this isn't why hinnry runs away though. he would have had no hesitations about it.

facts about ilya (left)!

r̵e̷d̵a̷c̴t̴e̴d̶

r̵̅͜é̶͉ḍ̷̉a̵̲͝c̴͎͊t̵͓́e̵̤͆d̸̰̚

r̶̛̟̞͉̝̪͇͇̳͇̫̖͓̥͍̼̬̪̠̻̝̜͎̙̙̫͉̩͕͇̦͑͑̊̇̓̆̅̽̀̌̈̑͋̊̈́̌̈́͗̆͛̐̀̄̏̂̌̇̊̕͜ë̶͚̲͈͚͉̘̞̉̀̈́́̓́͗͐͌̃̌̌̂̈̄ḑ̵̨̟͓̣̲͎̤͔̑̑́̊̎́̉̉͌̋̓͒̅̀͂́̐̃͛̉̂̊̉̃̈́̋̑̀̈̕͝͝ã̸̧̛̪̼̩̦̜̙̳̦͊͛̄̓̔̈́̃̏̅̊̅́̾̔̆͗̈́̇̾̆͊̎͆̍̓͂̕̕̕͝͝ͅc̵̛̛̰͈̩̥̩̭̹̤̙̟͔̬͖͔̗̰̙̹̎̿̑̀̏͋͆̒̔̎̄̐͛͘̕͜t̸̡̰̖̥̱͈͎͍̙͙̤͍̟͈̦͈̻̺̮̳̗̱̫͋̑̏ė̴̢̡̛̥̱͔͉̩̱̬͇͇̪̖̰̻͉̞͈̩̭̪͚̮̞̠̰̩̦̝̽͆̆̔̄̊̑̑͆̎͌̍̀̈́̔̈́̌͘̚͠ḑ̴̨̪̖̞̙̭̖͔̠̯͙̭̺͔͖̖͙̪̐͛̄̉͛͜͝͝

ṛ̸̑̚͝e̸͉͒d̴̮͚̗͑́a̴͖͎̥̾ć̶̦͈t̶̰͇͚̾̉̕e̷͈̰̾͗̎d̵̾͜

r̷̡̛̻̹͙͈̖̺͛̾̇̋͂̊̑͂̈́̓̎̄̍̆͐̕e̴̡̨̝̜̻̞͍͔͍̲̯͕̹̭̱̩̘̝̳̅̉̈́̇̉͋̑̅͂̋̅̆̿̀̄̉̌̂͑̕͜͝͝ͅͅd̴̥̖̖̗̮̯̦̖͖̄͆̍̊̂̔͆͌̒͘á̸̡̨̠̺͓̠̯̼͚̬̘̪̻̜̠͍̱̿͒̃̌̆̅͊̃̈́͑͑͑̽̈͒̂̓̍͌̿̀͊̃͘͠č̴̺͇̒͑̑̈́̉t̴̨̧̨̡̖̩͕̙̪̰̠̳̬͔͈̬̞̝͈̠̮̭̍̏͛͋͊̊̑è̸̡̧̡̨̛̫̪͔̘̞̜͙̥̝̙͎͙̺͉̭̭̱͍̺̓ͅd̶͖̄̂̈

ṟ̴̟̫͊ë̴̠͇̟́̅͠d̸̼̬̘̕͘ą̴̱̜̈́͒͝c̸̺̫̑̓̕ţ̶̣̅̋̈́é̵̛͍͍͝d̸͖̥̬͗̓

oh yeah he'll have all the hair colors in the poll at some point he dyes it a lot

r̸̢̨̢̛̤̘̪͉̘̥̦͍̙̫̖̣̼̟͖̦̪̯̼͓̙̮̬̞̳̞̺̭͈̥̮̪̝͎̻̩̩̣̬̿̍͐̐̓̔̊̂͂̐́̎̊̍́͑̾̓́̊̒͋̇̐͑̈́͒͐̕͝͝ͅͅe̶̡̧̢̡̥͍̭̪͖̟̘̮̬̤͚͚̤̗̯͚̱̻̜͔͈̞̻̫̙̪̜̬̘̼̦̣͖͔̪̝̣͖͕͚͐̽̍͜͜ͅͅd̵̢̧̨̟̝̦̜̹͎̜̻̬̤̝̣̣̭̤̣̪͙̖͉̼̼̜̻̮̬͕͕̤͓̭͍̹̥͉͚̥͆͋̆͗̆̂̑̍̑̒͗̾͂͗̆͗̒̐̈̈̃́̔͊́́̿́̎̿̕͘̚͘͠͝͝ͅͅa̸̢̨̛͔̰̺̙̖̪̟͎͎̬̹̪̭͙̗͕̬̞͍͍̠͚̩̺͓͍͙̋̍̒̑̊͐̍̈̆̊͊̂̂̋̎̈́͗͆͋́͌̏ͅc̵̖̟̦̺̼͈̀̐̓̒̃͆̌̑̽̈́̃̓̎͛̎̅̏̈́̿̃̔͋̓͝͠͝͝͝͝͝t̵̨̢̼̹̜̹͚͖̫̤̫̺̳̞̣̗͚̫̬͉̤̠̫̫̘͔̫͓̠̙͉̲̠͙͈̭̗̻̎͛̑̊͊͒̎͋͗͜ͅę̴͈̟̖̜̄̇̃͌̉̈̆̍͗͒̿̆̀́͑́͋͌̃̈́́d̵̡̧̢̛͙̝̲̗̼͕̟̱̼͍̦̤̙̹̼̯̹͍̭̟̖̠̣̝̝̳̣̣̥̫̰̖̎̓͛̂́̓͋͗͋̾̎́̎̓̿̿̌̓͛́̓̈́̓̚̕̚͘͜͜͠

#they're overtaking my brain like oh man this is bad #i love them sm but i genuinely find hinnry's face unsettling to look at jdksjjfjds he is a bit creepy!!! #um. considering this is a highly isolated cult. do not think about why he might look a bit strange. #and if you do. to answer your question uhh. yes. somewhere in there certainly. but not as much as some of the others....? #some of the elders have extreme methemoglobinemia they're literally 100% blue skinned ok. that was like in the 60s in think? #and hinnry's grandfather said this is getting bad we need to bring some new recruits in for the first time. they've done that a few times #hinnry's mom was a new recruit. so. you know. it's pretty far back in his line #anyway!!!!!!!!!!! #they're the most fucked up characters i've ever made i think i'm like. can simblr handle this....idk #ts4 #ts4 cas #the sims 4 #ilya #hinnry #two-headed lamb

[anastacialy]

i do not know how to explain to people that "transmisogyny" is the specific transphobia that trans women + transfems face (often but not exclusively at the hands of cis people), and "transandrophobia" is the specific transphobia that trans men + mascs face (often but not exclusively at the hands of cis people), and that they all come together under the umbrella of "transphobia." these are not opposing concepts nor are they mutually exclusive, to believe in one does not mean non-belief in the other. is there a simpler way of phrasing this. can i be clearer.

#i can't handle that post that's going around accusing everyone who acknowledges the existence of transadrophobia of being a transmisogynist #i want to scream i want to peel my skin off thats not how this works that's not how any of this works #in fact one might imagine that understanding the nuances of all different types of transphobia might make you a better ally to trans women! #what a shock! #to understand that bioessentialism can harm trans women and trans men and nonbinary people and and and #im so tired. the hate campaigns are horrifying and the blatant and aggressive removal of trans women + transfems blogs is AWFUL and specifi #this falls under transmisogyny! we can acknowledge and understand that #right? right! #but that in no way just makes it trans men + mascs fault?? they are NOT the (only - there are cruel people in every demographic) people #who are mass reporting innocent transfem's blogs #it's TERFs and transmisogynists #if we have the nuance to understand that not every transmisogynist is a TERF then we can understand that not everyone who #acknowledges that transandrophobia is real is. a transmisogynist?! hello?? am i alive right now. am i currently living and breathing?? #genuinely reading that post doesn't feel real. that is so far from reality i'm nauseated. #txtly #i genuinely don't know how this can be made any clearer. #i'm tired. idk

[purrassicjet]

Wilson deadass tried to break into House's apartment. They deserve each other because nobody else could handle their insanity

#Cuddy is handling well so far but I'm 99% sure she doesn't last #house md #gregory house #james wilson #hilson

[elytrafemme]

and obviously this is by far the least important part of ANY of this, but i'm going to pretty strongly dissociate myself from anything relating to that smp-- mostly for my own mental health (again, not to center myself here). as for CS, i would like to continue it, though obviously the disclaimers again will be heavy. it is a story i wrote to cope with abuse, and if fanworks like that are called to be stopped then i will obviously rethink things. but i will give it a lot of time to figure out how to meaningfully create something from a piece of media created by unfathomably shitty people, and i'd like to be able to continue writing for the message that CS was set to convey.

again, this is not the focus of the conversation, but i just wanted to say that since i am online for once and i figure i may get an ask or two about it.

#nightmare.personal #nightmare.cough-syrup #as an update for folks since i do typically discuss my own personal life on this blog #i'm currently in the stages of questioning whether or not i have CPTSD #and after a few conversations occurring the last couple of months i've been keenly in touch with the various- #-abusive relationships/situations i've had in my life that i did not ever recognize consciously. #people seem to be handling this situation far better than past occurrences in this general sphere. #but i cannot emphasize enough how fucking difficult it is to speak out about these things. #those in my life were very selective about what abuse they let be shown publicly versus what i could never speak about #and i again am so in awe of shubble's strength in acknowledging something like this given how public of a figure her abuser is. #i hope he rots and i hope she heals. that's about where i'm at as i hope everyone is. #(and also if i post a bit about my mental health in coming days note that that is not an attempt to detract from- #-another victim's story. i want to make it very clear that while there are parallels in stories of abuse- #every abuse victim's story is theirs and is not to be trivialized or collapsed in any broader way.)

[stillflight]

I used to get bent out of shape about it but I think we (Jews) just have to take the L and accept that there are Golems (mythological figure) and then there are golems (pop culture fantasy monster) but that being said, I should still be able to leverage my Jewish privilege and give a stamp of approval to the golems in Dungeon Meshi while condemning the ones in Minecraft to antisemitism hell forever

#jewish tag #swift enjoys media #thoughts #ironically i'm really protective over golem folklore #i could talk about the ways i like how dungeon meshi is handling them so far

[akimojo]

ok ok i finished act 1 of opera omnia and i'm about to start act 2 but first of all i gotta gush real quick about how!! fucking!! good!! the characterization is in this game!!! especially considering how many characters there are like idk how they manage to be so accurate but i love it so so much

#both for the protags and antags #SO good #i'm really loving this for the same reason that i loved 012 #there's so much love and attention put into every character and they're all given their own motivations and opinions and everything #rather than just acting as a collective for their respective gods (cough like in nt cough) #and opera omnia is even more impressive than 012 in that regard bc DAMN there's a LOT of characters #and i haven't been the least bit disappointed in how any of them have been handled so far #like?? how?!?!? it's so GOOD #dissidia final fantasy opera omnia

[tskva-happens]

seems like so far the #1 enemy of the bg3 modding community has been... *checks note* age. just like... any signs of age whatsoever.

#bg3 #bg3 mods #fandom critical(?) #modder critical #when i started seeing these i tried to give people the benefit of the doubt #because i remember when i was in my late teens and early 20s the concept of being past my 30s/40s/etc felt so far away #and therefore people in those other age ranges seemed to exist in a different world from mine with different life experiences #and back then i would have created ocs that felt and looked as young as i was #and maybe would have felt uneasy romancing a character who seemed to have a large age gap with my oc since that's not my personal preferenc #and maybe SOME of the modders doing this are young and have similar reasons? #so i Sorta. Kinda. understand that thought process. #but i'm skeptical and would bet most of them are actually just adults who cannot handle age. period. #not to mention we're at the point where mods try to de-age npcs for no reason or straight-up ''''yassify'''' companions #or deprive them of their unique physical traits #and that's just. so frustrating and borderline gross. #let the characters in this game exist as they are. they have LIVED and they look like it!!!! that is good and their world is richer for it! #btw i'm talking about age and cosmetic changes exclusively. i'm not even including the racist whitewashing mods in this discussion because #those can go fuck themselves and i hope it goes without saying they deserve no benefit of the doubt. like zero #anyway. rant over for now #auri rambles

[dimension-20-every-introduction]

Everyone Introduced in Dimension 20′s Neverafter episode 4

#dimension 20 spoilers #dimension 20 #d20 introductions #neverafter #neverafter spoilers #finally got around to after a real busy week leading up to the holidays- even got to watch this on christmas! what a treat #weirdly enough i don't really feel too bothered by the..... horror or anything this episode i guess? it feels right up my alley i think #the multiverse hopping with consequences thing feels pretty neat too imo; it's tuesday breakfast for me but i'm still interested in how #how they'll handle it and if it'll be different from the ways i usually see it when i consume content like that #i LOVED all their different ways of sort of crossing over too #i feel most unsettled by pinocchio's whole deal with stepmother; and i LOVE the deal with zac's character and the animal spirits #those are my favorite characters so far and for those reasons #my best wishes go out to ylfa..... who i could swear didn't have an intro card this ep but maybe i just missed it #oh well