I love how casually crying over Billy Batson is just how some of my days are now.
I thought about him and the Bromfield family, how he had struggled for years to find a place where he belonged and had to suffer through horrible living conditions because of terrible people. I thought about how after his parent's deaths, no one took care of him. No one let him grieve. No one let him cry on their shoulders and told him everything was going to be okay. Just looks of discontent and frustration, thinking that he was just an inconvenience to the foster system. He must have thought he was too hard to love. Not enough.
His uncle Ebeneezer was your classic narcissistic abuser who didn't care about others. All he cared about was money. He didn't care about taking care of Billy when he was supposed to.
I saw a video before where the narcissistic behavior of a parent/guardian was replicated, and the person said, "Have you thought that maybe you're just not easy to love?" And I imagine Ebeneezer saying that to a little Billy Batson, who just wants to be held and is being refused emotional support and help. Billy was made to feel small and inferior to all the adults around him, who said he wasn't special for his parents dying and that he needed to grow up and stop being so immature.
"Your feelings don't matter."
"Are you talking to me? Did anyone ask you to talk? Be quiet."
"You need to stop asking for so much. You live under my roof, that's more than what others would do."
"I don't care about your feelings. Stop being so emotional."
"You're being dramatic. You made me hit you. This is your own fault for talking back."
Billy has gone through so much over the years since his parents' deaths, and I can't imagine how relieving it must have been for him to meet the Bromfields. I think about Nick listening to Billy and taking the time to hear him and focus on what he wants and needs. Going on car rides and eating big belly burgers to their hearts content. Baking cookies and cakes at home (because Nora Bromfeild should not be trusted with a kitchen) and just enjoying life. Eating fresh cookies with milk, talking about their hobbies and personal lives. How Billy doesn't have to hide any secrets from them, and they give him all the privacy he wants, respecting his space and choices.
Billy would finally find hobbies for himself! He could take the time to let himself be happy and enjoy wasting time. I think it was either stamp or coin collecting that was his old hobby in the older comics. With the Bromfields, he can start living life as Billy Batson without worry of being neglected or shamed for being present. He doesn't have to deal with narcissistic abuse anymore (except for when fighting his villains).
I don't know what the point of this post was, I just wanted to talk about Billy and how he made me cry after eating a mango and thinking too hard.
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YOU LIKE HOLLOW KNIGHT!?!? AWAWAWW YES YESSSS
anyway do you have a favorite character 👀
I've been a fan since 2018-ish heueuueue Just took a lil break bc other interests go brrr
Got pulled nack into it bc the Vocalized mod had me on my knees it's so good ouggh,,, and also its almost been a year since the last Silksong announcement so I'm preparing my gamer hands akhfskg
My heart belongs to Hornet 🙏 and I have a soft spot for Grimmchild wahhhh he's just a babie
Gonna ramble abt the game in the tags don't mind me wahhh
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Someone’s probably asked you this question before, but what do you plan to do when silksong does come out? Will you make drawing Zoteboat gets released :P
I’ll probably still post doodles occasionally (definitely not daily), maybe more finished/rendered artworks, massive rb sprees of people’s Silksong arts, and generally just vibe. Basically I’ll still be active just not posting daily. Maybe I’ll post my experience playing Silksong.
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I wanted to see your LCSYS take on the differences in the prisoners' uniforms in the Milgram Hallucination event:
The outfits all zip in the front, even those that wouldn't in the art. Shugo wears a coat instead of a cape. Ryota doesn't have half of his uniform tucked in. Minami is wearing a skirt under her costume. (Hi Nott!) Maybe I missed some.
Hmm, that's a neat detail! Because presumably they'd have their uniforms on hand, and they should just wear those. The fact that they had to create new ones leads to a few possibilities: 1. Milgram didn't realize what a hit the songs would be, and figured they wouldn't need these random straightjackets anymore. They got rid of them after the experiment, 2. Milgram gave the prisoners their uniforms to keep and they're the ones that threw them out, not caring to remember their life of restraints, or 3. Milgram does actually face some real-world consequences for being incredibly shady, and all their possessions are currently being investigated by the government. I personally think option 3 is funniest, and enjoy picturing Jackalope planning a live concert and selling merch while simultaneously trying to cover up a huge potential scandal/legal battle behind the scenes asdfsdf.
Amane's case is slightly different, since hers has to do with her own clothes. I like to think it'd be a sign of her leaving her old life behind and starting over. When Mahiru takes her in, (with Amane's permission,) she completely replaces her wardrobe to remove any painful memories that may be attached. There are a few things she liked too much to part with, maybe including her purple hat :) When it's time to perform, Jackalope offers to find her a skirt just like her original, but she prefers to do without it.
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i was on a long flight and was sleeping while listening to a playlist full of chill music from video game soundtracks and at some point i fell asleep. so i woke up at some point, it was pitch black out the window and everyone else was asleep and apparently the music had automatically turned off or my headphones died because nothing was playing. WRONG got jumpscared by End Times from outer wilds and thought the loop was ending
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I have been re-attempting Enot, and I've actually managed to get to Chimney Canopy!
It is actually one of the easier places to be, as you have infinite yeeks as either food or lizard bait, though it sucks that you kinda have to use them to do anything (if you don't have a yeek you get exhausted after a single jump, which makes moving around miserable. Luckily, they spawn every time you leave a pipe. Except when they randomly don't. It is very inconsistent).
I have not managed to get to the echo tower spawn yet though. The combination of unfair creature spawns, and guaranteed pre-cycles (which forces you to move to a new shelter every cycle in the rain, in a region full of open spaces and bottomless pits. It is totally super fun.) has made consistently staying at max karma very difficult.
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got a new nvme from my uncle to use as my c drive (very nice can’t wait to see how this will alter performance), got that all nice and installed earlier but djfjfkf someone kill me I think I’m probably transferring files in The most inefficient way possible but I need to have all my fucking. File paths in order so shit Works between my storage drives properly & you will never guess what changing the c drive will do to that process
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