#but oh my GOD its always so hard

[bonetrousledbones]

update to the Playing Undertale With Roommate Whose Only Social Media is Pinterest situation: we only just got to waterfall and so far it has been a fucking trip

they have No Idea the significance of Flowey yet. not even a hint. they thought the sans echo flower conversation was about echo flowers

during the papyrus date and especially when they got to his room they kept looking at me and saying "THIS is your man????" which they stopped asking after the date. they have read some of my fics. i do not think i am any less insane to them now

they gave papyrus a valley girl voice btw. mostly because i had to beg them not to give him a mickey mouse voice instead

they didn't fucking know what skeletor sounds like

bc i know The Efficient Ways to do Things and they don't they've been reminding me of a buncha details & lines of dialogue I don't actually have embedded in my memory. particularly "PAPYRUS IS HUNGRY, TOO! HUNGRY FOR JUSTICE!"

they got the "Can I speak to G..." phone call. i have never once gotten that in any of my playthroughs, probably because i don't usually go up to that area but still. ik its not REALLY rare but i have never actually seen it Organically before so it was crazy to ME

Dogsong is my morning alarm ok. so when it showed up in the game and they realized they recognized it on a subconscious level they looked physically pained

Undyne's first chase scene scared the shit out of them

#trousled rambles #somehow i always forget how much i love this game until i see someone play it for the first time and go Oh Right I Fucking Love This Game #i'll also add i thought i was chill and cool with not backseating & stuff but oh my god its so hard. oh im one of those fans holy shit #watching them figure out some of the puzzles hurt so bad man. oh my god #physically holding back nearly 9 years of brainrot as i watch them fall off the slippery ice x & o puzzle 48 times

[plulp]

heres yalls science teacher. have fun go crazy

#my art #dol #sirris the science teacher #sydney the faithful #i hope i drew him okay im a little weemp womp about the design but maybe its just my brain. playing tricks on me #but its so cute how sweet sirris is to sydney. so funny to me #i love to read FACTS on the wiki #oh also not intended to be ship esque but if youre into that feel free to interpret it that way i dont mind #anyways now that we have that out of the way the rest of the tags im just rambling as always #GOD its so hard to design. guys you dont understand im not a character designer #soon while we all watch me descend into the 'characters who dont actually have specific outfits' #youre going to see how bad my fashion sense is. legitimately horrible. i wear the same clothing formula every day #shirt. pants. done. #once we arrive in the They Can Wear Whatever They Want section of the characters #youre all going to be like hey. what the hell is that guy wearing #but its fine. its whatever. hopefully thisll all make me better at drawing. eventually.

[beescake]

@heydevi bro...... fellow understander...... still not over ur gmod solkat theyre so hrhgrbhggfngh 🥺🤲

#fhgghg i love infecting spreading the disease #slkt literally makes me so ill i'd randomly bolt up in bed like #oh my god......... its. so crazy raw to be abruptly left silent in a room full of your formerly loud and chaotic friends #now reduced to a litter of mere corpses. freshly killed and still bleeding they'd died for such trivial reasons #and all you can do is cling to the only other warm figure in the room who's wounded and unconscious but thankfully breathing #the other lone survivor...... mind blank with panic you drag him with you and fucking run #they're insane. i think abt them every day and still shock myself w how insane this ship is #slkt's relationship around fatalism and mortality is unlike any other hs pair it's actually funny they get dunked on so much by the story #bcs when shit starts hitting the fan they're always trying so damn hard to make their deaths count

[xxinkyshadowxx]

Little reminder for the people who forgot Kieran is 14 years old FOURTEEN meaning that any suggestive content of him automatically makes the poster of it weird as fuck ESPECIALLY if they are an adult but even if they are a minor posting suggestive stuff of a fourteen year old is still super weird so maybe don't do that

#kieran pokemon #pokemon indigo disk #rival kieran #pokemon dlc #pokemon teal mask #kieran sv #trainer kieran #pokemon kieran #IVE FUCKING HAD IT WITH THE R34 AND SUGGESTIVE SHIT OH MY GOD IM SO DONE STOP IT EVERY DAMN SITE I GO ONTO ITS ALWAYS HEY LETS GO LOOK AT #KIERAN FANART THAT SHOULD BE FUN! and OH DEAR GOD THATS R34 OKAY! HOW ABOUT WE GO LOOK ELSEWHERE AND OH! HAHA THATS AN ADULT SHIPPING #THEMSELF WITH KIERAN A FOURTEEN YEAR OLD OKAY WELL HOW ABOUT I GO LOOK AT FANFICS AND HCS? AND OH OKAY WELL THATS SUPER SUGGESTIVE EVEN THO #HE IS FOURTEEN HAHA! FUNNY GUYS SO FUNNY SO HAPPY FUN TIMES LETS SEXUALIZE THE FOURTEEN YEAR OLD!!!!!! #Like duh no shit it's the internet I can't stop it but at the same time fucking knock it off? It's not that hard and as long as it's there #You will see me ranting about it because it's not okay it's just not Im just so done with seeing it please leave him alone

[lunarharp]

into the deep end - 30k T orufrey fic, focusing on memory trauma, disability, and romance.

the sweet oblivion of the victim, the poisoned freedom of the other.

for one moment - it had felt like two parts returned - the needed reunion of two disparate halves. no more secrets, no more pain.

the moment you get to give back what you never wanted to take. that moment, under the night-blooming flowers, when they had both let out the same single broken sigh of relief.

but they were never whole to begin with, were they?

qifrey swore he wouldn't say 'sorry' to this man any more if he could help it - sorry is cheap now. he didn't want to be in a position ever again where you only have 'sorry' left. so he just looks down into the threads of his blanket, strains his eye until it hurts, feeling his insides - his throat, heart and head - burn with pain. he expects more, but olly says nothing.

olly says nothing.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #sorry i wanted to make a new post for my fic since the first illustration is new. #*stands in the middle of a desolate field in the pouring rain* Please Read My Tale...Blease..Oh god please..*collapses to the ground* #someone asked if there's spoilers in it. Um...yes. Sorry...it's about everything #maybe i should describe it more? it's about qifrey becoming more and more disabled - as i feel is his canon trajectory #and both of them processing the choices that have been made. it was necessary for me to explore this in order to fully understand orufrey #and for them to have the cathartic conclusion-that's why this is important to me for my witch hat fanwork making life. this connects it all #and having dived into qifrey's mind and lived through oru's feelings i was able to get to a place that is possible for them. #the hit/kudos ratio is so pathetic idek what happened. ppl opening it realising its long and saving it for later or just bailing lmfao #idek any more i hate advertising my writing i hate trying to get more ppl to read my long fics it's so hard 🥲 #i'm so much prouder of this than my art...i was able to sink deeply into the orufrey feelings i had always wanted to fully explore #so. it's there lol.........i reread the date/kiss segment today after trying to forget about it thinking maybe the fic is just BAD lol #and like.....nope! i like it very much and this is what i was trying to get across. and it's always there to be read by anyone who wants to #and i will always remember the bliss i felt while writing when i was just lost in their world and living as them. dear GOD i love them. #i'm grateful to myself that i put in the work and love to make this so that i can always come back to it. i wanna illustrate scenes properly #but i'm never satisfied with drawing things i've written because i just can't capture the vivid experience in my mind. maybe one day.

[skunkes]

from memory

#a doodley #im already getting into the cheye's playthru lore but also not #my link's always a crier #also god. you draw nonstop and its hard and you take a break for a few days and its still hard #drawing so hawrd :( its just straight up never gonna get easy or look good huh #oh well gonna journal and play more totk bye

[milkovski]

“show me what you’ve got tough guy ;)”

#its well. i drew something!!! and i think the face is cute!!! #dont look too hard at everything else!!! #art #gallavich #shameless #mickey milkovich #the thing about me is i will never draw something cleanly #that 7x10 art was an outlier hope that clears things up #mickeys floppy bit of hair my beloved #i will draw it always #not just because its easier for me to draw than his neat hair!!! (read: yeah thats why) #im looking at this and thinking *** **** *** *** ***** #its censored cuz if i say it thats all anyone will see sgasdfsdgwefdsf #spongebob holding hands up meme wait #that wasnt n/sfw. its abt a mistake i made in the drawing #oh my god typo #this is why i should draft things first #ok i had to edit im so sorry #after all the rbs too sgsafsfdsdf well. well. well.

[todayisafridaynight]

tattoo truth prequel lmao

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #jo sawashiro #masumi arakawa #snap sketches #this is just a silly unserious comic but i couldve made it serious if i thought hard about it probably #wait what was i saying i forget #oh wait i remember. anyway this is my truth from henceforth until rgg gives me the confirmation i want #its funnier this way.. lol #OH WAIT BUT I WAS SO ENGROSSED DOODLNG THIS I DIDNT DISCLOSE MY TERRIBLE MORNING #so i had a class at 8am right. thats what i and twenty other students thought #i was gonna say kids but... we're all in our twenties..... im gonna throw up ANYWAY #so firstly i accidentally fell back asleep after my morning routine so i woke up at 7:30 and like . i had to speedrun a shower right #and i didnt have time to eat and im just like 'oh god im gonna be late its so bad' and im running to the building #and this building sucks i always get lost in it but i turn the corner and i just see. A Hallway Of Students just waiting #and so i join them and like ten minutes pass so i just start rewatching WotH until by like 8:30 some genius is like #'hey it says the professor's not on campus....' SO WE ALL JUST LEAVE. LIKE THANKS FOR THE NOTICE ASSHOLE i cant wait to drop your class #oh but the best part my id card still doesnt work so as im getting back to my building i see the door like. 25% on its way to closing #so MY unnecessary ass runs across the street to grab the door right before it closes and then i just gotta awkwardly look at the door woman #like <:) hi i live here i promise the universe is just out to get me <:) #anyway.. i have one more class like three hours from now. its spanish so hopefully no biggie #and then after that... i hope my id card works and then ill prob call the bank..... great.... #after that... who knows... maybe ill explode.. ok im done bye LMAO I JUST REALLY WANTED TO TALK BOUT MY DAY #thats the real reason why i mustered the will to finish this sketch i hoarded for weeks. i needed to rant LMAO OK BYE

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i guess Eddie is just a gay as fuck name. who would'a thunk

#1st we have eddie diaz from 911 #then eddie munson from stranger things #and now eddie dear from welcome home #the only reason im not including nygma from gotham(fox) is because he went by ed. #but. oh my fucking god its four isnt it. four queer-coded eddies. a queer quartet. FUCK LMFAO- #(and yes. yes i know eddie is canon not coded. However he technically fits and the others arent canon so Sh. shshshshs hush) #stg next time a character is named 'eddie' in whatever i watch/read #im Immediately gonna be side-eyeing them. I Know What You Are. #scribble salad #absolutely unprompted #im getting way too attached to eddie dear tho #i just know something bad is gonna happen to him #if it Hasnt Already yk #and after what happened to munson... idk if i can take it #(jk i can. my favorites always die so i go into enjoying a character Expecting Their Death) #its just... dear is just like me fr (blatantly lying) #i just sympathize with him real hard. having memory issues sucks ass!!! #and i lowkey hope that plays into a big part of his personal horror! bc it Is scary! very fuckin scary! #anyway three queer-coded eddies. lets goooooo #*four. fuck. sorry. #i cant believe its four eds....

[dwtdog]

i’m writing dnf a couple years into the future 😭 so they will obviously be a bit different but i’m making sure to make it feel like it’s still them, yknow? when i tell you the hardest is coming up with jokes george would make cause im NOT as funny as him

oooo i love reading future fics :D it's so fun to see different writers interpretation of how things are going to go and when something feels so right it's like omg!!!!

#cq.asks #but oh my god the george thing is so real #like dream i can usually get he's a goofy guy his jokes will always #make george and george alone laugh most of the time #if i write a dream joke and i cant imagine sapnap scoffing and george giggling for no reason then #its gotta go #but GEORGE #his is all about like association #which is hard as fuck sometimes #but its so satisfying when u do write a joke that feels so perfectly george aaaa

[boxwinebaddie]

omg, so re: a sad sweet anon in my box who was worried that i divorced the boys forever; they're FINE, baby!!!! i promise </3333 it was just a really bad, fucked up month and they're Fine after that (unless i create some other problems, but for now i will spare you)

BUT THEY ARE FINE, MY LOVE!!! SWEARSIES!!!!

i promise you that that on the night jerseykyle gets in that nasty bar fight defending ravenstan's honor (in his absence) against a band of idiot incel transphobes and shows up on their old apartment door step all broken and bloodied before he gets reluctantly tended to and patched up by punk rock nurse ravenstan via several hello kitty bandids...at the end of that exchange, they get back together. c':

kyle also says i love you. <3333

it's kind of a lot for me to speed run entire scenes because they take so long, but just for you, petal, i'm gonna try and get you the sparknotes on the ravesey reunion asap. and please know that as emotional compensation, in lieu of the jersey can't say i love you ask that i was never able to finish/threw into other answers...

i will instead be writing you...

the jersey CAN say i love you ask!!!!! eeee!!!

it's very cute; i'm excited about it.

tldr; ravesey is fine, i'm sorry for scaring you. :'c i promise!!!! i am a hurt comfort writer even though no one believes me!!!! i'm just so much better at the hurt part than the comfort, but i'll comfort you!!

so please hold darlings, and rest easy knowing that.

-mean nasty evil sea witch neen

#nina speaks #oh my god i promise i didnt permanently break them up #i kno its hard to tell bc of all the hurt but IF I HURT THE BOYS ILLL ALWAYS FIX THEM THERES ALWAYS A HAPPY ENDING #like i will never leave them broken or sad or miserable #i know i ended pep like that bc i couldnt finish writing it but it ends very happy and the boys start dating i promise #i am going to start spoiling it to you via voice message soon #i'm sorry for hurting them so often i just like...i am not good at fluff im a crazy dramatic bisexual girlie its too mundane for me #i need action and drama and hell like thats where i like to live which i'm so sorry if yall are sick to death of me #its just the most fun for me to write im sorry ill fix em #also ravenstans hair post them back together is pink bc the red slowly starts washing out and he looks SOOOO CUTE #I LOVE YOU PINK HAIR RAVEN LITERALLY SO CUTE JERSEY CALLED HIM PEPTO ABYSMAL BUT #HES BEING A HATER HE THINKS ITS CUTE #kuromi emo boy king #but guys guys guys i would never leave the boys broken i would neve rleave you with no hope never ever EVER #there is always a light at the end of the tunnel for as much as you hurt i will always heal you im sorry ily ily ily #i got asked to post the drama post makeout mv fight dialogue but i dont want to stress yall out anymore so ill wait #idk why this genuinely created concern for me but i want yall to know that i am like not torturing the boys endlessly and write hurt/comfor #its just hard to task manage all my asks and...anyways ill try to answer some nice asks so we can breathe easy

[bangcakes]

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#personal #i think that like... the dam's broken. for lack of a better term #or i guess the ice ???? idk man #either way. been messaging back n forth with him like crazy for the past few days #i just decided that like.... whatever. if i feel like saying something i should just say it to him !!! #and i think me being open has led to him being open.... #god its so hard when both ppl only really talk when they have something to say JFJDJDJDJDJDJDJDJJD #like... i cant even make up a reason to talk to him. i cant pretend to be dumb n not understand anything. he'll know its bullshit NDJDJDJDN #n e way...... defs met my match here lmao. but really its been so nice just being able to talk to him when i want. bc waiting until being i #person was getting so !!@@@ long !!! like god. i didnt know i could miss someone so bad...... its so !!@@@@@@ #gah !!!!!!!!!!!! #n e way. things are goin in the right direction #and hahaha !!!!!!@ i have a game plan to make sure we stay in touch too !!!!! me n one of my other friends promised to keep in touch with #each other and i was like oh should we invite everyone else. and she was like oh !! maybe ____ so i was like !!!!!!!! #so true !!!!!!!!!!@ #gosh im so excited i really like them both so much we're all similar temperaments so ya..... ive wanted to make sure i keep them JFJFJFJD #n e way. we still havent asked him but hopefully he says yes !!!! bc he always sits behind us n im just like !!!! ik you wanna sit with us #so just sit beside us istg !!!! but ah ... i think hes shy #god hes so cute #and shes like not competition btw. like..... she has a bf. she knows i like this guy now (i spilled. i couldnt hold it in 💀💀💀). and ya !! #hopefully exciting things coming!!!

[kristhekrispy]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH

#I GOT IN I GOT IN I GOY INF IGT GINTUGIVGU aaaAaAAAAA A A. A #A #AAAAAA #I just had to make SO many phone calls bro #im so happpyyyyyyyyy #I got into one of the best schools in my state! #WOO #brooooooooo #I thought they was gonna reject me #I had to take a test for it and I came out crying so hard my stomach ached #but today? ive been smiling so much that my cheeks hurt #my fav teachers WILL be hearing abt this #oh my god.....its insane to think how limited my time is #I only have three or so more months to wander the halls that have been like a second home #this is wildddddd #one of my friends got accepted to a really nearby school! #im honestly so scared for all this. that being sad im always a little scared #im also really excited oh my god #this is such a ramble im sorry im just really excited

[goldiipond]

i will literally never understand when a character gets hate for being ‘overdramatic’ or highly emotional because like. i live for that shit. i fucking love when a character has a strong emotional response to a relatively ‘minor’ thing i love when characters cry easily and frequently i love when characters are loud and ‘annoying’ i live for drama. if a character is frequently hated on by fans for being annoying there is a 9/10 chance that character is one of my faves. no i dont think my neurodivergence has anything to do with this

#skye's ramblings #ihave been the number one annoying character defender my whole life and i dont intend to stop. dont worry little guy i get you take my hand #the 'emotionally distant traumatized emo' is almost never a character i get majorly attached to even if i alost always like them #but when t/pn said yeah we got one of those except he fucking sucks at hiding his emotions and has explosive anger issues iwas like #oh you. you are mine. my specialest little guy forever. i will kill anything for you. its been over a year and a half w no signs of fading #he has sooo much fierce love in his heart and its not negated by his ptsd or the less socially accepted symptoms. i fucking LOVE RAY!!!!!!!! #also the way don is sooo emotionally vulnerable and has a hard time regulating them. the way he loses the most important person in his life #and the fucking flood of emotions is so much that he doesnt even know how to process it and just starts LAUGHING?? god i love him. ilove him #yes its mostly the Comfort Characters but soo many emotional characters resonate w me deeply. everyone in this series is deeply autistic

[charlespecco]

CHARLES & PECCO

2019 Italian GP // 2021 Emilia Romagna GP // x // x // Italian GP winning helmets: Monza 2019, Mugello 2022 // Charles Leclerc's qualifying crash means he is unable to start the 2021 Monaco GP after taking pole // Pecco Bagnaia crashes out of the lead in the 2021 Emilia Romagna GP, ending his championship hopes // "Child in Red" by Rainer Maria Rilke // Charles and Arthur Leclerc, 2021 Le Castellet Formula 3 Race II // Pecco and Carola Bagnaia, 2021 Aragon GP // Charles Leclerc and Mattia Binotto, 2022 Bahrain GP // Pecco Bagnaia and Gigi Dall'Igna, 2022 Spanish GP // little red wristbands // "Late Fragment" by Raymond Carver // Charles Leclerc and Ferrari celebrate his first F1 win, 2019 Belgian GP // Pecco Bagnaia is embraced by the Ducati team after his first MotoGP win, 2021 Aragon GP

#oh god i have never been mentally ill on main quite like this before. #charles leclerc #pecco bagnaia #thats right im tagging this. its hard work being this insane #LOVE IS STORED IN THE DEEPLY MEDIOCRE WEB WEAVING. #i hope the photos are from where i think they're from LOL. if not oh well im a loser #i KNOW its loose at best and i could have done SO much better w this but. babys first web weave? #its about the red italian team whose last major success was in 2007 and now all the hopes and dreams of these institutions rest on you #and you're young still (they're both 97 babies!!!) but somehow its always felt a little like time is running out #mostly its about the babywabyism. #pecco #motogp #f1 #they are my sweet little baby blorbos :( #save #most self-indulgent shit i've ever done in all my too many years on this website!!!! #also first remotely creative impulse i've felt in a VERY long time LMAO #ducati #ferrari

[puppydogsys]

starting to think that this might actually be real trauma memories popping up & not just awful intrusive thoughts like i was hoping it was 😬😔 i feel sick

#not going super into detail bc its heavy & i dont rly want y’all to have to read all that #but like #god idk what im gonna do if its true #my world is shattering around me #i thought he’d been so good to me & had always had my best interests in mind #i thought he was safe #but he wasnt & thats becoming more and more clear #im spiraling so hard #what do i even do like #im still so close to him i spent so long rebuilding this relationship #only to realize this #oh god im so upset #if anyone has tips on handling the fact that someone u trust turned out to be one of ur main abusers & probably the reason u have did lmk 🙃 #cutievents