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kpostedsum · 3 years

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high | d.m

summary: you find an unhealthy way of coping after draco cheats on you

warnings: drug use (marijuana) angsty¿, cheating, illusions to sex

song: habits - tove lo

a/n: this fic isn’t meant to romanticize drug use in any way. i also know nothing abt weed so LOL and very rushed & not edited

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I eat my dinner in my bathtub

Then I go to sexclubs

Watching freaky people gettin' it on

It doesn't make me nervous

If anything I'm restless

Yeah, I've been around and I've seen it all

you had a few minutes left of your charms class which was your last class before the weekend. you wanted nothing more than to get out of here and cuddle up with your boyfriend— who was enjoying his free period right now.

draco was one of the best boyfriends you could ask for, the frequent dates, gifts, and attention— it was more than you could wish for.

“you’re excused. you essays are due at the beginning of next week” snapes monotone voice dragged on as you quickly packed up your things and made your way to the slytherin common room.

I get home, I got the munchies

Binge on all my Twinkies

Throw up in the tub

Then I go to sleep

And I drank up all my money

Days get kinda lonely

entering the slytherin common room your eyes immediately searched for a certain blond boy, yet he was nowhere to be found. you made your way to the boys dorms in hopes of finding him there but you’re quickly interrupted by two familiar voices.

“why hello y/n, marvellous weather we’re having today aren’t we?” theo asked looking towards the ceiling and smiling as if he were outside, blaise blocking your path as he did so.

“i’m not sure what weather you’re talking about since we’re inside but i am okay thank you” you responded with a chuckle, trying to make your way past blaise.

“wait y/n” he stopped you. “can i borrow the astronomy notes? i would ask luna but i can’t find her anywhere” blaise continued.

they both seemed awfully on edge and anxious, you figured it was just quidditch nerves getting to them since there was an upcoming game this week.

“i have yet to finish my astronomy notes, but i did see luna in the great hall if you want her notes. now if you’d excuse me i’d like to see draco” you said trying to push past the two boys who still wouldn’t let you through.

“forget malfoy! let’s do something instead, we’re so much more fun than him, right blaise?” theo said giving blaise a pointed look as he threw his arm around your shoulder.

“right you are nott, let’s go!” blaise continued also throwing his arm around your shoulder and leading you away from the boys dorm.

“what? no, i have plans with draco. now excuse me” you said pushing them both off and heading towards dracos door.

as you get closer to his door you can hear heavy breathing, pants and skin slapping on skin. you’re confused, you figured draco would be taking a nap or running over drills for quidditch practice. the closer you get, the louder the noises become.

“pans, you feel so good”

you recognize that voice anywhere.

You're gone and I gotta stay

High all the time

To keep you off my mind

Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

High all the time

To keep you off my mind

Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

quickly you turned your head towards blaise and theo who had their heads lowered in shame, refusing to meet your gaze. “is this some kind of sick joke, are you guys pulling a prank or something because this isn’t funny” you said seriously not wanting to believe what you’re hearing from inside of your boyfriends dorm.

“we’re sorry, we tried to convince him not too but he wouldn’t listen” theo muttered silently.

it felt like your world was breaking apart slowly. just not too long ago you were excited to spend a weekend with your boyfriend who you loved so dearly, the same boyfriend who you’ve been dating for years, the same boyfriend who gets jealous about how much time you spend with his mum rather than him.

with shaky fingers you put your hand on the door knob and quickly pushed the door open, already preparing for the worst.

there he was, wrapped up with parkinson in the same bed you two shared not even twenty-four hours ago. her body straddling his naked, just like yours was doing the night before. you stood there frozen, mouth agape— not even knowing what to do with yourself.

“baby, i can explain, just please— y/n please don’t leave” draco said pushing pansy off of him, shuffling on his pants and reaching out towards you.

“dont touch me, malfoy!” you yelled and everyone froze. “you lost the right to touch me the minute you even thought of touching her” you continued sending both him and pansy a glare with tears threatening to slip from your eyes.

“darling please, i can explain—”

“no draco, we’re done just leave me alone, please” your voice cracking at the end as you pushed past blaise and theo rushing towards the girls dormitory.

Spend my days locked in a haze

Trying to forget you babe

I fall back down

Gotta stay high all my life

To forget I'm missing you

Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

it’s been days since you last left your room, days since you last saw draco. daphne would come by and check on you but you’d always dismiss her, wanting to be alone. regret is one word to describe how you’ve been feeling— you gave him everything and he threw it away so carelessly for a quick hook up.

you missed waking up against his smooth skin in his embrace, tracing the lines and scars across his porcelain skin as you waited for him to wake up, the way he’d try to kiss you in the morning without brushing his teeth and you wouldn’t let him because of morning breath— but he’d still do it anyways.

you missed him, but he didn’t want you anymore.

maybe it was something you’ve done, you’ve been quite busy with work recently so you haven’t been spending as much time with him as normal. he was probably lonely and trying to seek the attention you lacked to give him.

getting up, you stared at yourself in the mirror picking yourself apart. you were pretty, it was a well known fact around hogwarts, maybe he thought she was prettier. she was the life of the party and always up for some mischief whereas you preferred to do stuff in silence and would rather be with a small group of people. maybe he liked how exciting she was in comparison to you, she probably brought a spark of excitement to his life that you couldn’t.

dreading to feel something you quickly showered and got ready to leave your room hoping to run into a specific set of twins.

Pick up daddies at the playground

How I spend my daytime

Loosen up the frown,

Make them feel alive

I'll make it fast and greasy

I'm on my way to easy

“well what can we do for you today” fred said to you with a cheeky smile plastered across his face.

“do you have any muggle herb left?” you asked in a low voice making sure no one heard you.

“maybe we do, maybe we don’t” george said. “how much are you offering in exchange though” he continued.

“ten galleons for three ounces, is that enough” you said pulling the galleons out of your pockets and placing them in george’s palm.

“it was a pleasure doing business with you” they said in unison as fred placed the tiny baggie in your pocket so no one would see.

once you returned to your dormitory you quickly pulled out the pre-rolled muggle herb, lit it and let yourself forget.

You're gone and I gotta stay

High all the time

To keep you off my mind

Spend my days locked in a haze

Trying to forget you babe

I fall back down

Gotta stay high all my life

To forget I'm missing you

you started showing up to class late with red tired eyes, not caring about the looks you got. at this point every one knew what had happened but you couldn’t bring yourself to care.

the muggle herb brought you a sense of bliss and freedom, a new feeling you haven’t felt before but something that you now craved.

“are you high right now?” draco said as he sat himself in the seat beside you.

“since when do you care about what i’m doing” you said sharply, not wanting to talk with him.

“love, you don’t smoke. who gave that stuff to you, i’ll kill them—”

“no you won’t.” you said turning towards him. “you won’t do any of that because you don’t own me and i’m not your girlfriend anymore. so mind your business malfoy, i’m sure parkinson’s waiting for you”

the rest of the class you both sat in silence working on potions that draco did most of since you weren’t in the correct mind state and he wasn’t willing to let his mark falter over your slip up.

you find it amazing how even when you’re on drugs he still looks amazing. the way his nose curves perfectly with a slight bump, and the way his hands move with caution as he pours the potion into the waste bucket.

“look, i’m sorry for what happened with pansy. it didn’t mean anything i swear, i don’t know why i did it but i regret it with my life” draco said breaking your thoughts, he looked older than normal and had dark circles underneath his under eyes. you wondered why he looked so distraught when he wasn’t the one who got cheated on.

“a sorry isn’t going to fix this draco” you told him. he knew you were right but he didn’t want to admit it. he hadn’t talked to pansy since the day you walked in on them, the guilt has been eating him up inside. he stayed silent and didn’t bother respond to you, he knew anything he said would have made the situation worst than it already is— but how he wished you were still his sweet y/n.

“now if you excuse me, i have some fun to attend too” you said leaving him alone as you made your way back to your dorm.

Staying in my play pretend

Where the fun, it got no end

Can't go home alone again

Need someone to numb the pain

You're gone and I gotta stay

High all the time

To keep you off my mind

over the last few weeks, you couldn’t remember the last time you were sober. you started skipping classes to smoke and avoiding your friends so they’d stop questioning your habits.

you were forgetting and that’s all that mattered, you didn’t care how it was affecting your health— it made you feel better. sometimes you wished there was another way, another way to forget how he held you at night pressing soft kisses to your skin, another way to forget the way he took pansy the same way he took you. you wonder if he feels as sorry as he looks, he’s the one who cheated so he can’t possibly care that much.

you hear two knocks at your door which quickly break you from your state making you more attentive, cleaning yourself up and opening the door. there stood draco— his eyes red as well, like hes been crying.

“y/n listen, i know what i did was wrong and that i tried to pretend it wasn’t me but please. i didn’t mean too, you mean the world to me. i miss you so much love.” he pleaded with you.

“y’know draco, i miss you too” you admitted. “but i’ve found a way to forget about you, maybe you should do the same”.

Gotta stay high all my life

To forget I'm missing you

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everafterkeiji · 3 years

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Song: La La Lost You by Niki

Summary: With him being the pro hero he is, time slips away while distance grows.

Pairings: Katsuki Bakugo x fem! reader

Word count: 4.8k

Warning: angst, cursing

Quirk: You can read minds and portray them in real life. Example: If they thought about a gun, you create the image of the gun and use the gun. Same goes for you, if you think about a bomb, a bomb is already in your hands ready to use.

Symbols: Italic= flashbacks

A/n: can you pls let me know if you'd like a part 2 fnejdn

While I'm on Sunset, are you on the subway?

While I drive, are you gettin' on the L-train?

Bakugo can feel the longing in his heart as he watches a couple pick out engagement rings. His fists tighten at the sight as he feels an ache in his heart while he longs for an embrace his body misses, a body he missed to cherished, pair of lips he missed to place upon his. He lowers his head as he does his nightly patrols. Winter coming in closer than he realized, another year passing by. He thought he wanted this year to end as fast as it could yet here he is, sorrow and regret on his shoulders. Half of his heart gone, nearly falling apart as he stares at every happy couple his eyes fall upon. Even if his fans came to him, no matter how loud the praises and compliments were thrown at him, he felt nothing.

All he wanted to feel was her.

He wanted to feel how warm she was pressed against him, he wanted to feel her lips on his once again, he wanted to hear her voice again. Not the voice he last heard that was full of sadness but the voice he loved to listen to whenever he had his nightmares, his insecure nights. The softness in her tone, the way every laugh of hers would sound ethereal to him, the feist in her words whenever they had their battles. Now all those sounds seem to grow deaf to him. It's been a year, a year without her. A rather long year for him. Everyday he had to wake up to a cold bed, no arms wrapped around him, no view for him to enjoy when he opens his eyes. The way your moments were held in the walls surrounding him, every milestone of your relationship cherished in one household. He felt as if it was mocking him, making him remember the happiness your relationship brought him.

Hope that eases the pain

So you remember to miss me

Before, your house was filled with pictures of you two. Now it was empty, a house for one man when it was supposed to be a house for his ever after with her. Where was his savior? Where are the soft melodies she'd sing to him whenever he had his insecurities drag him down? All these moments he can only replay in his mind.

As he opens the door, he remembers the smile that falls on his lips no matter how exhausted he was, ready to see his girlfriend safe and sound in their own house. He'd catch her asleep on the couch with her favorite blanket cuddled up to a stuff toy he won her in a game.

He lets out a tired sigh before stepping in the shower. He closes his eyes, trying to surpass the way his eyes wanted to shed tears at the sight of her without his side. The more he tries to ignore it, the farther she gets from his view. He only remembers the way he raised his voice at her, the tears that ran down her cheek. The hurtful things that left his mouth, he never meant to say.

Unsaid things only to be said to a wall as his chances were slimming down as time passes. The words he wanted to say only being said when he was intoxicated but the person he badly wanted to say it to wasn't there to listen.

Does the trick for all of the things left unsaid

He didn't dare to face his friends, knowing questions and reactions are the only things he's gonna get from them. They'd be the ones to mention your name when they notice your disappearance. Kirishima knows about the split and has made many attempts to get the blonde back on his feet like he used to but every attempt would just end in bottles on the floor and carrying Bakugos intoxicated body back in your old couch.

Kirishimas heart wanted to cry for him.

Whenever your name was mentioned in missions or groups, he'd noticed the sadness that sets in his eyes and expression while he tries to hide it by being his aggressive self. Even as his best friend, there's nothing that he could do when the only solution to Bakugos heart was you.

You tried to ignore the fact that every night for a year you drowned out your emotions by overworking yourself and thinking that by being surrounded by lights and alcohol brought you contentment while you had no clue of what your other half was doing. Like him, you craved nothing more than to be with him.

Some have tried to contact you, you tried to sound believable as possible. Trying to sound like the boy you love was still around you pulling pranks behind you or him randomly wrapping his arms around you.

But you're on the other side of the country.

An offer you couldn't possibly lose, not even letting him know where you were. Him only knowing when the news had caught you fighting off villains in a city he can't just run to when he missed you. You knew that distance never fixed anything but at this point is there anything to be fixed? When laid out in front of you two are broken pieces of your own hearts. Scatted in cities where he remembers you by, scattered in his clothes that fit like a dress on you, scattered in streets making a path for you two to retrace your steps and fix what's happened. Hanging onto memories day by day. Trying to grasp a reality that was too good to be true.

All my demons have your smile

Unlike him, your surroundings were new.

Everything was new. You weren't stuck to suffer in the place where your love blossomed, the new environment insisting you to change but the way you saw couples and kids ticked you off to the very least.

December hasn't been this cold than you remember it. You shed a tear or two whenever you overheard one of the heroes ramble on how excited she was that she was engaged. It would've been 6 years with him by next month and a ring should've been placed in your very hands by now knowing the shared conversations you two had about marriage.

Saddened by the thought of it, you head home changing out of your hero clothes. You sat in the train, your exhaustion getting the best of you as you opened your eyes to see Bakugo sitting in front of you but as you blink he was gone. As the train goes under a tunnel, you look at the window as your memories play like some movie scene. You turn to look at the couples that surrounded you and your mind betrays you thinking of a girl that can make Bakugo happy like you did.

The darkness of the train enabled you to cry. You covered your face in your hands as you let out a sob. As a hero you couldn't care if people saw you like this, everyone had a breaking point. You've had enough of today. You continue to cry as you tighten the grip on your sweater and on the necklace that you wore.

"Who knew you could do things like this?" You teased as he taps your nose. You were set on his lap as he brings out a box. His hand caresses your cheek as he looks at you with love, love and nothing more.

"Shut it, dumbass. Now turn around." You rolled your eyes as you turned around, your back facing his chest. He sits up properly, gently moving your h/c aside as a cold piece of jewelry was placed around your neck. Once it was attached, Bakugo pressed light kisses on your shoulder as he whispers for you to face him. When you did, he smiled.

"You look amazing, Y/N." He says with pink painted cheeks. You blushed at his words your hand playing with the necklace.

"What's this for, Katsuki?" You asked as you intertwined your hands with his. He kisses the back of your hand as he looks at you.

"So you'll always have me."

As you wipe your tears, you felt a buzz in the pocket of your jeans. Picking it up the name "kiri<3" flashes before you. Sniffling a bit, you decided to answer.

"Kirishima? Is everything okay?"

Meanwhile on the other line, Bakugos breath hitched at the sound of you. It was another night where he dragged Kirishima to another bar and drown his feelings. He begged Kirishima to dial your number, just to hear it even if it wasn't meant for him.

"Hey Y/N! Sorry if I called a little later than expected, you doing okay? This is really random and unmanly-"

"Kiri it's fine! I'm fine yeah just heading home. How are you by the way?" Bakugo stays silent as he hears your voice. He missed it so much. He hadn't felt this desperate since you left.

"Well I'm doing fine too, Y/N. Guess I kinda just miss my partner in crime." You smiled at his words, finally feeling relieved after your session of crying.

"I miss you too, Eiji. How-"

"Y/N!" A familiar voice suddenly rushing to your ears as you sit up. It's him. Bakugo tries to steal the phone from Kirishima but Kirishima won't give it to him, thinking it was wrong for Bakugo to talk to you in a state like this.

"Bakugo-" The call ends before you can even say anything else. Kirishima sighs as Bakugo notices the call has ended.

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT FOR SHIT HEAD?!"

"WHY CAN'T YOU CALL HER ON YOUR OWN, BAKUGO!" Kirishima shouts. Bakugo is taken aback by his sudden burst of words. Bakugo stays silent as Kirishima puts his phone in the pocket of his jeans.

"If you love her why don't you call her yourself? Make some fucking plans with her, talk it out. You're suffering because you're weak enough to reach out to her. This would've been simple from the beginning when you actually had the balls to talk to her and apologize!"

"If you feels so shitty about Y/N leaving, we're her friends too you know. We also lost her. I always have your back Bakugo, but this time this is your problem." Kirishima leaves your apartment with a sigh of defeat as he glides over your phone number, texting a sorry before he went home. Bakugo had his head hung low, taking in every word he heard.

He's right. He thought.

You had a hand placed on your heart when you heard him. You figured that it didn't end well for Kirishima when the call ended. Your screen flashes before reading the message.

kiri<3: I'm really sorry about that Y/N, but I do miss you. we all do. especially bakugo.

When you were home, your hand traces over the blocked contact of your other half. You smile as you reread your past conversations. But as you hug your pillow shutting the device off, you felt your eyes close remembering the warmth you used to have when he slept beside you.

He came home from a patrol, promising to save as many as he can but ended up saving only half of what he intended to. The cries of people ringing in his ears. He felt low, unworthy, selfish, weak. He couldn't save them, he could've been better. Now he realizes the fear that grows on him that he can't always save you.

"What the fuck did you say, Katsuki?! You don't get to say shit like I'm not a hero like you! We're both fucking exhausted. I'm asking you for one, one day." You shout.

He wasn't as strong as you. He utters words that mean the complete opposite of what he wanted to say, even denying love when he first experienced it. So scared of feeling emotions since the only thing he relied on was himself. He is strong in battles, the thrill giving him life, excitement. This is what he wanted. To live the life of his idols, to surpass them and show them he meant every word when said he wanted to be #1. What he didn't want was a girl who held his heart with strings. Playing with his emotions, discovering the branches of love. Discovering how his world changed when he fell for the girl he could never reach. He didn't want his heart to be fragile. He wanted it to be tough and unbreakable, a barrier around it where no one can see through his sharp demeanor. But there she was. Breaking every barrier with ease. In this moment, his heart made barriers once again.

"I fucking meant it when I said I don't have any time to be with you anymore. I need to work, Y/N! Why cant you get that through your fucking skull" He shouts back, a finger to your forehead pushing you back. Your cheeks were from the anger that sprung to your spirits. Every part of you was aching with anger. Tears spilling from your eyes as he watches you.

"That's all you ever fucking do Katsuki! Do you just purposely forget that I also work hard and here I am asking for one night with my boyfriend and you're pushing me aside like I'm nothing to you!"

"Nothing?! Maybe you just don't fucking understand what I'm saying! I have my own shit to deal with and I can't always drop everything for your needy ass. Do you need me to pat you on the back for being a good hero? You shouldn't even call yourself a hero when I'm the reason you even made it this far, princess." You closed your eyes as your hands turned white from how much you were tightening them.

Y/N, don't believe it. Please. I'm begging you-

"OF COURSE YOU GOT ME HERE! Call me anything you want. Weak, laid back, unworthy, low, insecure, stupid, worthless, have at it but I'm fucking drowning in my own stress, shitty paper work and patrols. I am a hero. You don't get to fucking remove that title from me. While you got me here, you're forgetting all the shit I did for you!"

"The things you did for me? What, like love? That's nothing to me."

Love.

All the smiles you've given him. The moments where you made him realize that if he wasn't the #1 hero, the only thing that mattered him was you. The memories of you with your head on his shoulder enjoying the sunset while he talks about how much he loves you. The feeling of his hands intertwining with yours as you danced in your living room. The moment where he said he'd catch you no matter what. The moments where you would wake up to his kisses on your face. The feeling when you see him safe and sound as you hug him enjoying life when his love surrounded you. The feeling when you imagined yourself marrying the perfect man for you.The promises. Future plans. The kisses. Never ending hugs. 5 years with the person who made you the happiest, who made you determined, who made you feel like you can conquer anything, who made you believe in love even in the toughest ways.

It was all nothing.

You bite your lip as your head hung low. He hears your sobs and it wasn't enough for him to wake up from all this anger. He needed you just as much as you did, but in this moment he didn't realize it. He thought he needed a break, some silence to drown out the cries of the people he had left behind but now he can only hear his heart shattering. Piece by piece. Torn. With every word he says. With every glance he gives you, seeing you so hurt because of him. He bared no meaning to his words and he hopes you can see that he too needed saving but he notices the drop in your tone. Dull eyes, tear stained cheeks, unsteady breathing.

"I just w-wanted to be with you.. t-to be saved. To be saved from this asshole of a man claiming he loves but me pushes me away like dirt. A man who tells me an empty promise of always being there to catch me. Katsuki, was it all really nothing y-you?" He bites his lip before taking a step forward but you step back, life drained out of you. Every color saturated to liveliness was nothing but black and white now. Storms and heavy weather. Tears and broken hearts.

I can't do this.

"I just can't save you anymore." He whispers but you heard it clear as day. You let out the most painful sob as your knees give in, a thud to the floor as you cover your face in your hands. Now the fear in his head of him never saving you, he only faces the truth that he can't save everyone, even you. Your sobs echoed through the house as he turns around to wipe away his tears, a hand to his pained chest. As his back was turned to you, you left to go to your room. He notices your disappearance as he only sits on the couch, knowing the events that were to happen next. You grabbed a bag stuffing in whatever you could as you continued to release your sorrows. When you were finished you took a last good look on your room. The room where every nightmare was comforted with love, the room where secrets were shared, deep fears, everything. You take a deep breath before opening the door. You see him sitting on the couch with his head in his hands.

You both wake up with tears in your eyes as your head weighed a ton, making you grip your pillow with such force, completely unhappy you were greeted this way. You looked up at the mirror to see bags under your eyes, puff cheeks, and a version of you that you despised to see everyday.

Not a single glow of happiness.

You weren't ready to face another tiresome day at the agency but your limbs forced you to knowing it'd be another patrol then by the night some paperwork and then patrolling once again. His words replayed in your mind, still affecting you with how he belittled you as a hero. Sure, you couldn't save millions but you saved hundreds, even if you were on brim of your quirk affecting your mental state, you would still save thousands.

And it pains you that he doesn't even notice how your quirk affects your mental being.

It takes immense focus for you to portray what you needed, and it requires you to be sharp and quick with your mind. Yet, overusing it alters the reality you wanted. Your mind playing a sick game to your overall being, stuck in the darkest part of your mind, leading you the same night that started it all.

But he still wouldn't save you.

Bakugo had his vermilion eyes on the road, as the others discussed on the upcoming mission. He didn't even bother to pay interest on where they were going, more focused on fighting with the villain and finishing the job.

Maybe it was the hundredth time today where he thought about you.

He looks at the beautiful scenery in front of him, and his mind leads him to remember your smile and your features he loved to gaze his eyes on. Now, villains and explosions were the only things that clouded his vision or sometimes the sight of his companions, which didn't really help him.

Then the vehicle comes to a stop, his eyes landing on a store. Seen through the glass was a beautiful dress, painted in her favorite color, with the perfect length and dainty design. He smiles to himself, visualizing how stunning she'd look wearing it, especially seeing her skin looking so bright and healthy under the winter atmosphere.

She'd love that. He says to himself, feeling bittersweet that he wanted to buy it, but who would even wear it? He can't just give it to her without having a conversation. Even if it's been nearly a year, how can he prepare for something he avoided?

He steps out of the vehicle, feeling exhausted thinking about her. He hears his companions talk about splitting up so each hero wouldn't be suspected, he agrees with them, not even bothering to give them a snarky comment. He was too occupied with the thought of you in that splendid dress.

He wonders around the city, hands to his pockets. Especially in his hero costume, he received so many stares from the people. He'd either glare back at them or ignore them completely, but this time he just let them stare for as long as they liked. The only pair of eyes he wanted to land on him was yours, your ever stunning ones.

He remembers the moments where the sun beamed perfectly on your eyes, depicting the color with such grace and beauty. He remembers every memory where your eyes were gateways to your emotions, filled with such genuine and love. It even helped him at times where words weren't needed to express the way he felt. He loved how you managed to read him so easily, like a book she's memorized every page of. Even the slightest change in his tone, you were able to pick it up and soon interrogate him if he was okay.

He watches a couple who had boxes in their hands with smiles evident in their eyes and lips. He watches as the man gestures to help the girl but she declines walking ahead of him, he follows behind the girl making sure the boxes wouldn't fall.

"Katsuki stop!" She shouts with a giggle, he ignores her completely, pushing her slightly to make the boxes fall. She completely looses balance as the boxs fall on the floor. She gasps as she runs to punish the blonde as he quickly puts down the boxes as he runs away from her. You can hear her screaming profanities at the man as the couple runs around outside their house.

Bakugo hides from her, eyeing her from his secret spot. He takes the opportunity when he sees her completely confused he was gone, so he takes you by surprise by slinging you over his shoulders, chuckling at how she threw mild punches at his back.

"Babe! How are we gonna finish moving in our stuff!" She says with a laugh, still trying to beg for him to put her down. He spins around making her laugh even more as he sets her on the ground. The sun beams down on them, her eyes glowing so beautifully under the golden light. His hand reaches her cheeks, squishing it lightly as he smiles at her expression.

"Who said we even needed to finish it today? C'mon. We have the house all to ourselves." Katsuki says, as you sighed giving into him. He smirks to himself as he lifted you off the ground once again, swinging you over his shoulders too easily.

"Baby!"

His eyes wander elsewhere, feeling his chest tightening once again at the memories that resurface upon him.

After a long fight with a villain who kept scarring you with their weapon, your mind was completely going to collapse at any minute. You've been creating bullets and barriers for so long you didn't notice how other objects that you didn't need were suddenly made, dropping behind you. You can feel the throbbing pain of your head as you limped to the town. Random objects still were popping up every minute and it annoyed you how your quirk was out of your grasp.

(TW! Hallucination/Panic attack)

You simply wanted water and some first aid kit to make sure you make it to your agency but when you imagined the bottle of water, you immediately acted like it was created but it wasn't. All the things that you thought you made weren't there and you felt your eyes feel droopy as you let your hand hold onto the wall for support. It was starting to alter your reality, making it worse for you to think straight while your thoughts were all tied in loops from overusing it. Your vision blurring at the sight of people who were walking by.

Your mind was growing more and more explosive as you felt pain surround your head. You let out a scream as you felt every part of your head ache as unnecessary objects were still appearing beside you. This scream alerts the people but they chose not to gather around you, unsure what was happening. They were all muttering questions but this only added to the problem as you started panting, harshly closing your eyes trying to avoid any eye contact from them. You heard a loud shout before your mind completely goes blank, feeling like you were shot. It happened all too fast as you fall to your knees, mind empty and damaged, your system completely failing to support you as a person was seen pushing through the sea of people.

Then, their eyes met.

#bakugou katsuki #katsuki bakugo x reader #katsuki x you #katsuki bakugou #bakugou x you #bnha bakugou #mha bakugou #bakugou x y/n #kirishima fluff #kirishima x reader #kirishima imagine #bnha denki #bnha kaminari #my hero academia kaminari #my hero imagines #my hero academia #mha kaminari

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katedrakeohd · 4 years

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Twas the Day before Christmas

(Catch up on the first three Parts Here)

Part Four of A Very Valtorian Christmas

The kitchen at the manor in Valtoria was a bustling hive of activity. Cakes and pies were being made for the meal on Christmas day, and the warm scents of cinnamon, nutmeg, ginger and vanilla filled the air. Standing at the long marble island, Hana and Kate are rolling out sugar cookie dough and cutting out shapes to bake.

Hana picks up a star-shaped cutter, "I love stars, they're my favorite shape of Christmas cookie."

"I'm partial to snowflakes myself." Kate says, laying the cut shapes carefully on the baking tray.

Kate feels the baby move and lays a hand on her belly. "What about you little one? Will you be a snowflake lover like Mommy or a star lover like your Daddy and Auntie Hana?"

"Speaking of Daddy, I wonder how Drake and Maxwell are getting along with their mission to spread Christmas cheer." Hana says as she hands off the tray of cookies to one of the cooks.

Kate giggles as she rolls out more cookie dough, "I'm sure they're fine. I know that Maxwell can be unpredictable at times, but Drake assured me that he would let him help in whatever way Maxwell as an elf can. I'm proud of Drake for taking on the responsibility of playing Santa this year. I can imagine all of the smiling faces of the little children."

"I'm still trying to get over seeing Drake in a Santa suit. Shockingly he wears it well. Who knew Mr.Grumpy would make such a good jolly old elf."

Kate swipes a bowl of gum drops as the bakers shoo her and Hana out of the kitchen. There was still much to be prepared, and having the Duchess and her Lady friend in the way was slowing them down.

The two women giggle like school girls as they make their way back to the Great Room. "Well I guess that officially takes us off baking duties. Now what?"

Hana links her arm through Kate's, grabbing a red gumdrop out of the bowl, "Any gift wrapping left to do?"

Kate shakes her head, "No, all done."

Hana takes in the lavish decorations around the Great Room as they sit down on one of the sofas to relax. "Thanks so much for inviting me to your home for Christmas Kate, it really is a nice place to spend a holiday. And you and Drake have really captured the spirit of the season in your beautiful decorations."

Kate smiles and reaches out to squeeze Hana's hand. "You're always welcome here sweety, and Drake and I wouldn't dream of letting a friend spend Christmas alone. I'm so glad to have you, Maxwell and Nicholas here. You're part of the family."

Hana wipes away a tear, "You're the best, Kate."

Pulling her friend into a hug, Hana giggles as the baby belly ends up in the way. "And our family is growing too. I can't wait to meet your sweet little baby."

Kate looks down and smoothes her hands across her belly in a gentle hug of her own, "Can you believe my child is going to be King or Queen someday?"

"You and Drake must be over the moon excited about being parents. This little royal heir is going to be born into such a world of love. Between all the attention from Mommy and Daddy, plus their Aunts and Uncles. I truly believe they're blessed."

"We're both excited and a little nervous, as any first time parents would be. But we also know we've no shortage of help if we need it."

"Have you picked out names yet?"

"We've talked about it, but haven't narrowed down a list."

Hana frowns, "I suppose it's a little complicated to pick out baby names when there's going to be so much importance attached to it."

Kate's eyebrows shoot up, "Exactly! Knowing that the title of King or Queen is going to be forever associated with their first name is a heavy burden on my mind."

"Have you thought about picking a name from ancient Cordonian history and giving it new life?"

Kate smiles, "Ooh that sounds like a great idea. It would give our son or daughter a connection to history and we can tell them stories about who they've been named after. Plus where I'm not from here it's a way to show the people that I'm embracing their Country as my own."

Hana glances around the Great Room, "Does the manor have a library? Surely there's a Cordonian History book around here."

"We don't have a library, but there are plenty of books in the study."

Hana helps Kate up off of the sofa. "Cool, what do you say we score a plate of cookies and some hot chocolate and head down to the study and research some cool baby names?"

Kate tucks her arm through Hana's and gives it a squeeze. "I'm so glad you're here Hana. Do you have to go back to the Palace tomorrow? Because I'd love it if you could stay longer."

Hana grins at her best friend, "Wouldn't I get in the way of you and Drake having time alone?"

Kate laughs, "As sweet and comforting as Drake can be, he can be a bit too helpful sometimes and I have to shoo him away to do something else. I know he means well, but I can tell he gets bored just sitting around while I sit and read or take a nap. And there's only so many romantic comedies on Netflix he can suffer through before he just pretends to take a nap or finds a game to play on his phone."

Hana scoffs, "Well that won't do. You need another girl around to binge watch stuff with you and to gush over cute baby things online."

"Exactly! Drake doesn't have a clue about all the adorable baby clothes, toys and other gear there is out there. I want my nursery to be fully stocked."

"Do you think Drake will change diapers? Or if he knows how?"

"He said he was willing to learn how to do all of that stuff, but I guess we'll have to wait and see."

"Hasn't he helped Savannah with Bartie before?"

"He has, but beyond holding his nephew and chasing him away from things he shouldn't touch I don't know what else he's helped her with."

After stealing a plate of cookies from the kitchen along with two glasses of milk. Hana and Kate head for the study.

As they pass by Kate's office, they can here Nicholas on the other side of the door, his voice is raised and he's talking to someone.

Hana frowns, "What's going on in there? I was wondering where Nicholas was hiding."

"Oh you know Nicholas, you can take the King out of the Palace but he can't leave the Crown and everything that goes along with it behind. He asked me if he could use my office as a base of operations while he's here in Valtoria. I'm hoping he takes a break at some point from running the country and enjoy the Holidays."

The main Study is in the room next to Kate's office, and as the women enter Kate turns on the lights. Hana sets the tray of cookies and milk down on the large oak desk.

"So as the Duchess, you have an office. Does Drake have an office too?" Hana asks, picking up a cookie.

Kate smiles as she leans her hip against the desk and folds her arms. "Well, it's not quite an Office for business anymore. The room next to this one used to be the Duke's office, but Drake had it converted into his own personal man cave."

Hana giggles. "Let me guess, it's upholstered in leather, dark wood and smells of whiskey?"

"Pretty much. He's basicly turned it into his own pub. With a bar and a pool table. Although he still calls it his Office."

Hana looks at the array of bookshelves lining the walls of the Study. "Hmm, where do we start. Do you think Drake would be upset if we start researching names without him?"

Kate shrugs, dunking a cookie into her glass of milk. "I think he would just be happy to have a list to pick from."

Hana runs her fingers along the spines of the books, "So how far back into history should we go? There are books here going back to the 17th century."

"Is there one that chronicles the nobility from way back then til now?"

Hana picks two books, "Yes, two actually."

Kate clears a spot on the desk for the two books. "Cool, let's take a look."

Hana and Kate settle into the desk chairs and each grab a book. Kate pulls a couple of notepads from the drawer and hands one to Hana, along with a pen.

"Ok Hana my love, you pick me out some nice girl names and I'll look at names for boys. And we'll take note of any interesting facts about these people as we go."

Nicholas opens the door to the adjoining office, "I thought I heard voices in here. What are you Ladies up to?"

Kate waves him over, "Welcome your Majesty! Just the royal brain we need to help us out."

Nicholas grabs a cookie from the plate and leans over to see the open books on the table. "Doing research?"

"Well kinda, we're looking up baby names." Hana says from behind her glass of milk.

"I don't want to impose my opinions on Kate or influence her in any way. She made it clear this is her and Drake's child first, and heir to the throne second. If it got back to Drake that any of my suggestions made the list I don't think he'd be very happy."

Hana and Kate exchange a worried look, "Well I'm sure Drake wouldn't protest that much would he? You know Cordonian history better than we do. I'd hate to pick someone bad out of history to name my child after."

Nicholas nods, "Well I can help steer you away from repeating that kind of history for sure."

"Ok good, pull up a chair."

Hana looks through ancient family trees from the 17th century, "So are you partial to any letter of the Alphabet for name starters?"

Kate blushes slightly, "Well I do have a soft spot for names starting with K. Or containing the letter K. Since Drake and I both have that in common. I figured it could be our new Walker family tradition."

Hana smiles, "That would be nice, plus it would help narrow things down."

.........

Drake and Maxwell opened up the back doors of the SUV and climbed in. Pulling off his Santa hat, Drake settled back against the seat wearily.

“Take us home, Preston.”

In the front seat Preston nods and makes eye contact with Drake in the rearview mirror, “Very well, Your Grace.”

Beside Drake in the backseat, Maxwell's tank of exuberant Christmas energy is still half full. If it weren’t for the requirement to wear a seat belt for safe travelling, he'd be bouncing all over the car like a rubber ball. Between Drake and Maxwell there's a large bag of candy on the seat. They're leftovers from the parade, and Maxwell has already had more than his share. Drake pulls it over closer and throws his hat over top to discourage Maxwell from eating anymore of it. Who needs little children to worry about when you have a Maxwell?

Maxwell looks like he might explode if he doesn't talk about his day, so Drake reluctantly engages him to let him let off steam. “Ok Maxwell, out with it. Did you have fun today?”

Maxwell beams, “Yes! This was the best Christmas adventure ever. Bertrand never lets me do this sort of thing. Now that he has Savannah, Bartie and now dear old Dad to keep him busy he has even less time for doing fun stuff.”

The warmth inside of the SUV is starting to get to Drake and he struggles his way out of his Santa coat, Max grabs a sleeve to help him get free of it. “Best adventure ever, huh? So what was your favorite part of today?”

“Seeing all the kids happy faces when I handed them candy canes and presents. They were so excited. What was your favorite part?”

Drake looked at Maxwell and thought about his answer. He didn't want to admit to Maxwell that the happy children were his favorite part too. Every smiling, rosy cheeked, grateful child reminded him that he was going to be a father himself soon. That warm, emotional feeling he felt every time one of the kids said: “thank you Santa..” had nearly brought him to tears.

Oh my God what's happening to me? I’ve gotta maintain my tough, grumpy guy persona in front of Maxwell or he’ll tease me like the schmuck that he is.

“Uh, sure the kids were great, but driving that sleigh was definitely the highlight of my day. Three horse power doesn’t mean shit as far as motors go, but with three actual horses? Damn that sleigh flew.”

Maxwell frowns, “But the drive to town was terrifying. I fell off, remember?”

Drake gives Maxwell a reassuring pat on the shoulder, “Well that part sucked, sure, but after you got back on the sleigh and sat up front with me; you had fun right?”

“Yeah, I guess so.” The corner of Maxwell’s mouth turns up in a smirk as he shrugs his shoulders.

“The children really did seem to enjoy the sleigh’s jingling bells, and the fancy horses.”

Drake gives Maxwell a gentle punch to the shoulder, “See? That’s why the sleigh was my favorite part. Besides, I couldn’t have handed out all of those candy canes by myself. You did good today, Max. Heck, if we do this thing again next year maybe you can play Santa, and I’ll …”

Maxwell’s face lights up, “O..M..G, could I really play Santa?”

Drake nods, scratching at the itchy white beard on his cheek. “Well sure you could. But just let somebody else drive the sleigh for you OK?”

Maxwell grins at Drake, “And would Daddy Drake be my elf helper?”

“Nope, not a chance.”

°•~⭐❄🎅🍭🎄🎁🏰~•°

Continued in ^♡^ Part Five ^♡^

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spider-moon-princess · 6 years

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Vampire Souji Dream!

Here’s the rest of that vampire Souji dream! SO, a small point I have to make, Dream me KNOWS subconsciously about the stuff Souji’s suffered through/I have a huge soft spot for him which is why Dream me got 1000000% instant attached to Souji. It was kinda hard to put that into words though, so I thought I’d explain it beforehand. It’s just a written out dream, so don’t look too much into it. Basically, it’s what happened. I use “Etsu” as my in game name in all my games, so that’s what I referred to myself as. ^v^;

T for suggestive themes? Everything’s pretty much implied lol

Her eyes blinked a few times, trying to get used to the different shades of blue shining in her eyes as people danced, grinded, and moved against the obnoxious beat of the music. She stared out at the dance floor where several of her friends waved at her for her to join them.

She gave them an apologetic smile and shook her head. She wasn’t a dancer in public. Maybe in the comfort of her home, but usually nothing more than a head bob to the beat or tapping with her foot.

She took a small sip of her Mimosa. It had been a while since she’d been out with friends, and had an alcoholic drink. One every now and then wouldn’t kill her.

A shiver ran up her spine. She certainly wasn’t cold, especially not with all these people inside the club.

As she took a small, but long sip, she was trying to figure out who was watching her. She could feel a pair of eyes burning into her, but she was trying not to show that whoever was staring at her was affecting her.

A drink was placed next to her.

She almost spit out her own. Even with the blue hues illuminating the club, she could tell his eyes were a vivid green. Her breath hitched as she traced his features with her eyes.

She was gaping at him, but she couldn’t stop. Her eyes finally landed on his curved, sly smile. “Hasn’t anyone ever told you it’s rude to stare?”

“S-s-sorry!” She immediately apologized, her heart leaping out of her chest the moment she heard his voice. Her eyes quickly went to her drink, her face red with embarrassment. She was never any good at hiding her emotions.

Cool fingers guided her chin to look over at him again. She couldn't peel them away this time. "You seem a bit out of place." His other hand gestured to her navy blue dress that went past her knees. She looked more like she was going to Sunday church mass rather than the club.

"Um, I, well, I'm…I-I…" She took a breath, trying to steady her shaking voice, which made his sly smile turn into a smirk. How refreshing that he should have to go up to a girl, rather than her crawling into his lap like so many do every night. "I was dragged along…I don't really…" Her voice got quieter as she realized she was rambling. "…Come to places like this."

"I never would have guessed." He traced her lower lip with his thumb. Her breath hitched again at the small action, which made him want to continue poking and prodding her to see her reactions. She reminded him of someone from a very long time ago. He brushed the thought aside. She was his new toy, his new meal. That's all they were to him now, he'd decided a long time ago. "Would you like to try something new today?"

His whisper tickled her ear, trying to will herself into saying no, but her body was betraying her as she leaned into him. "I-I don't even know your name, how can you easily say something like that?" She finally blurted, pulling herself from him.

"Okita Souji. You may need to know it beforehand." An impish smirk this time.

Even his name, just the sound of his name was pleasant to her ears. She was fascinated by him, entranced, hypnotized. "You can call me Etsu. It was nice meeting you, Okita-san." Her feet were too eager to take her away from the bar and to the bathroom or even outside.

His grip on her wrist was gentle, but firm, not leaving any room for escape. "Now, now, we've just met and you want to leave so soon?" His throat was dry, and she smelled too sweet to just let go. He'd convince her. No one had resisted him. He could feel her skin warm up at the contact, which made him raise an eyebrow as he heard her pulse quicken.

Oh, how she wanted to escape. She was an adult, for God's sake. If she wanted to sleep with a handsome man, she should be able to without feeling guilty!

There was a part of her that was telling her to run away, to say no, and forget all of it. She didn't know him or what he was capable of. She'd been told many times that she was too trusting of others.

Yet, there was a small voice that told her to go for it, just grab his hand and let him lead her where he might. To just give in and…

She stopped her thoughts there as she looked back at him, into those captivating green eyes. Determination trickled into her eyes as she grabbed his hand before she could even think about what she was doing. Swallowing a lump in her throat, and her face flushing a bright red, she nodded. "What did you have in mind then?" -- Her eyes fluttered open and quickly glanced up, finding the source of her hands being restricted. They were still in the handcuffs. Her memory was both blurry but clear. A blush spread across her cheeks as she realized the position she was still in.

In his living room, a rather simply decorated room with rusty red walls and swords hung as decorations, Souji sat there, polishing a sword. "Has it been over a hundred years already, Hajime-kun?" He murmured to himself, cleaning it with much care as he thought of those days he spent sparring with him.

His ears picked up the sound of a pulse racing. His meal must've awoken. Carefully, he slid it back into the scabbard and hung back on the wall in its rightful place with the others. He took his time approaching the door, and leaned against it, crossing his arms as he watched her struggle a bit before giving up. "Trying to leave so soon?" Ah, there it was again, the nice pink on her cheeks, despite having spent the night getting familiarized with each other in the dark, she was still so shy.

"O-Okita-san…" The sheet slid lower, the more she tried to pull it back up with her feet.

He snorted. "Back to 'Okita-san' already? Last night-"

"Yes, I am aware, thank you! Please let me out!"

Souji walked over slowly, staring at her with the eyes of a predator. He hadn't been able to get his fill, since he'd gotten distracted. He unlocked one of the handcuffs, bringing her wrist up to his lips, his fangs grazing it lightly before he finally sunk them in, earning him a little gasp of pleasure. He didn't drink much, just a bit to soothe his small thirst. He skillfully ran his tongue over his puncture marks and looked over at her. "As uptight as you seemed, you're into a lot of surprising things, aren't you? It's always the quiet ones." He snickered as he released her other wrist.

Her hands immediately grabbed ahold of the sheets and wrapped them around her. "I-I…" She honestly had no idea what to say. As much as she tried, she honestly couldn't regret the night she spent with him, if anything, she craved it again, but was more curious about him as a person. She didn't know much about him before getting into bed with him other than his name. "So…" She cleared her throat, trying to fix her very messed up hair. After a few moments of him staring at her, she finally let go of the breath she'd been holding. "That was a first for me, and I bet you could tell…I-I'm not like this, but you…" Her eyes finally met his.

"Don't get this wrong, Etsu-chan." Souji grabbed one of her wrists and pulled her swiftly so she was lying on her back. He placed his hands at her throat. "You know what I am. You probably have an idea of what I'm capable of, and while it was fun, I could kill you here and now," He squeezed lightly to cut off her airways for a moment. "For fun." He could see the fear in her light brown eyes. That's right, he was a monster that was supposed to be feared. She, and the rest of the humans, are just his food source and playthings.

Coughing, she stared into his cold, jade eyes. They weren't just cold…she could see something else in them…pain? Loneliness? He was trying to push her away. "But…" She took a slight breath. "You won't."

Souji glared down at her. "I'm very much capable of it." He bared his fangs. "I could suck you dry here and now."

She swallowed a lump in her throat. He was trying to push her away. It was too late, she was drawn to him. She becomes attached to easily, a flaw of hers. She barely knew him, but here she was, trying to barge her way into his life. She wanted to know everything about him. What made him tick? What has hurt him? How can she help him? The fear in her eyes was replaced by sadness. Tears started to well in her eyes as she looked at him. "Will you really?"

Had he gone too far? No, not enough if she was still here. "Yes." He disappeared into the living room to let her get dressed. -- She couldn't stop thinking about the way his eyes looked. "You're so stupid. You don't even know him, why do you already care?" She mumbled to herself. It was just a fling, a one night stand. She shouldn't have let her emotions get the better of her. "Idiot." She lightly hit her forehead as she finished combing her hair through with her small comb she kept in her purse.

When her eyes were upon him again, her body moved on its own, arms wrapping themselves around him, face burying into his back. He was shocked at the action. "What are you doing?" Even though his question was dripped with annoyance, he made no move to break out of her embrace.

"Don't push me away because I won't leave."

"I'll call you a cab."

"Okita-san, I don't know why, but…" She reached over to grab his wrist in an attempt to stop him from making the call. "You've endured a lot alone. Everyone you cared about has left you. You're alone. I want to change that."

"I'll kill you if you come around. Just leave and don't come back. You were just a meal." He grabbed her wrist and pulled her away so he could make the call. "A meal and entertainment. I don't think anything else of you."

His words did sting, but she knew better. She was going to come back. --- No matter what he tried, even after he harshly sent her home after her confession, she came right back to him the next day, and the day after that, and everyday. Even if he brought over women, she still kept coming back. It was frustrating. It had been a mistake to have approached her in the first place. Souji thought she would've been an interesting meal, thinking it would've stayed that way, but it had turned into something more.

Right as he was polishing Kondo-san's sword, the doorbell rang like it usually did at around six pm. Reluctantly, he carefully set it down and went to let her in. She always greeted him with a smile and a little wave. "Souji-kun~."

"Here to bother me again?" Souji shuffled back to the living room with her at his heels.

"Bother? Well, I guess so, if you see it that way." She shrugged. He wasn't the first person to say harsh things to her. "What are you doing?"

He silently went back to polishing the sword.

"Shinsengumi's First Division Captain Okita Souji."

Souji froze. He hadn't heard that title in a very, very long time. His head turned, curiosity ignited at her mischievous smile.

"I got it right, didn't I?" She kneeled next to him. "I remembered hearing your name somewhere in a history class."

"I used to be. I'm not the same person I was then."

"I wouldn’t think you were. You've lived through many events now, you're older. Hmmmm, I'd say you're over 170 years old? Although I don't trust my math." She chuckled, rubbing the back of her neck.

"175, actually." Souji chuckled, sheathing the sword. "Well, what do the history books say about the Shinsengumi?"

"They didn't mention how good-looking you were." Giggling, she took out a folder from her bag. "I know you probably know-"

"I actually don't. I'd rather rely on my own memories and knowledge." Souji took the folder to look at it. It contained brief biographies of each of the Shinsengumi officers, their death dates, how they'd passed, things he had an idea of. The more he read on, the more he remembered, the good and the bad. He'd been too late. Everything had slipped through his fingers while he had been in bed.

Souji looked over at her. Her hand was gently squeezing his shoulder. "I know to everyone, even to me, these people are just names and events on paper. They happened, they're interesting like a novel, but to you…these are people you knew, lived with and cherished, weren't they?"

Souji sighed; she was never going to leave him alone, was she? "Yeah…We all came from a poor dojo in Ezo. I had no purpose after they were gone, after Kondo-san was gone, but someone has to remember them the way they were."

"But remembering is painful, isn't it?"

Before she could continue, his lips were already on hers. "So, make me forget then." He'd been expecting her to blush and excuse herself, but this time she pulled him back in.

"Let's forget about everything then." She murmured.

"Such a bold thing for you to say, Etsu-chan."

Rather than giving him an answer, she offered him her neck. "It's been a while since you've fed, hasn't it?"

Chuckling, he kissed her neck. "You keep track of my feeding habits too? What are you a stalker, or do you have a vampire fetish?" He felt her skin grow hotter. Ah, there it is, her cute blush.

"I-I do not! I just care for you, Souji…"

"Last time, I discovered some of your fetishes, let's see if I can find some more~."

"Sou-" She bit her tongue to bite back a moan as he sunk his fangs in.

"Let's see how long you can keep quiet." He smirked against her skin.

Of course, he won that bet.

#personal

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survivorbehemoth · 4 years

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Episode #9: “i hope that i'm out of the pickle and eating the... pickle” - Daisy

how i feel about merge: https://66.media.tumblr.com/68a1cf13a1ea5ca8ec0c6c8a044f92ad/fdb9160ed3342b6d-08/s500x750/a71a511c4f332aba10424d15b5e074bc9bbe5e0d.gifv

Click HERE to watch Szymon’s Video!

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Click HERE to listen to Szymon’s Vocaroo!

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Click HERE to watch Rob’s Video! Click HERE to watch another of Rob’s Videos!

So here is my i guess merge confessional! LOOK WHAT I DID! I MADE THE MERGE HEHEHEHEHEHEHE. Voting cindi out last round was very sad but very needed, i think she was looking to have fun and cause chaos but i need some stability in my life rn, crackhead seamus has not came out yet and he can’t yet LMAO. so what happened is as soon as we merged Szymon approached me and wanted to call, and pretty much went on a rant about how annoying Rob is and how everyones so far up his ass, and that HE HAS THE IDOL!!!! And that Szymon wants me daisy and jules to start working together which i was like OH I LIKE THIS. Going into merge i wanted to reconnect with rob, and then keep my alliances with daisy and gage and try and just use them as shields to get into deep merge and then start causing shit.

In terms of my thoughts on everyone…. Gage i am very torn about. Because he is the person i am closest to on a personal level but i think game wise he just is rlly desperate to not lose. I offered him a f2 on our last tribe which i do intend on keeping my word on, but then as soon as we merge i just felt kinda off about him? And he formed a new alliance with Szymon Rob and Conor and didnt say nothing to me or tried to include me. Szymon leaked it tho and so im like oh ok i see i see. I think he is trying to have his hand in everyones cookie jar, but knowing he wants everything is off putting from an ally stance. But also last night he opened up a bit with me and i think he genuinely does wanna work with me, just perhaps not with Daisy. so i am trying to figure out like what is the right move with Gage, is he someone who can actually commit? and will he defend me if people like rob or conor suggest voting me? idk, but i hope he would.

Daisy: my relationship with Daisy is really strong. I think we have a lot in common personally and game wise we mesh really well. Coming in from embb10 i wasnt sure how we would work together but so far so good. everyday she makes me laugh and i want to keep working with her. Supposedly people are painting us two as a duo but i also think if people targeted us they would choose Daisy over me at this point which means i can embrace and keep working with her however openly i wish. Daisy i think also wants to more so work with Szymon and Jules which is fine by me. I think us 3/4 can work really well, it’s just about finding the right time to possibly take a shot at someone.

Szymon: i wasnt sure how i felt about Szymon at the beginning. Sometimes i thought he was annoying, other times i just thought he was being himself which i sometimes just dont vibe with. But him being really honest about his opinions with people shows that he actually is someone i can work with. i am a blunt person and when others are willing to throw mud too, it means we can work well together. I think he is very eager to vote out Rob and also doesnt want to work with Gage which i’m not 100% sure what my plan is yet regarding both.

Rob: rob is a big threat but only because he is so blatantly talking to everyone. dont get me wrong Rob is a great guy, but he isn’t a great ally just because he talks to me. I also know that he has the idol and clearly I aint the top of his ally list since he didnt include me in the one with gage szymon and conor and he also didnt tell me about his idol. Also every inactive person talking to him is not good bc i dont want his farmer ass to let his sheep target me. I think Rob may go home very early and he wont even see it coming.

chips/brandan: we arent working together. that’s about it.

Conor: we became a bit closer during the swap but i certainly wouldnt say he is an ally. more like a neutral friend. i think conor plans on working with gage/rob/szymon. which doesnt include me. But i dont think he has many other connections such as with dylan or daisy or jules. so im not sure how much he’ll be doing anytime soon.

Lovelis: he seems pretty inactive. itll be interesting to see if i can use our pre-established friendship to kinda pull him in and work with him but i also dont know who he plans on working with or doing. very nice and everyone agrees when he is on he is fun to talk to, its just about activity levels and trying to see if he actually is here to play or not.

Dylan: I LIKE DYLAN. BUT HE ALSO LEFT ME ON READ FOR LIKE 16 HOURS NOW LMAO. He was super fun to talk to on our tribe game night, and then in pms but then he kinda ghosted me but continued to talk in the tribe chat. granted i got rlly sloppy drunk last night so when he was free to talk more i wasnt ;/ So ill be interested to see if we can keep vibing, im defnitely open to working with him bc he seems like he would be fun to strategize and work with, but we aren’t necessarily at that point yet.

Jules: juuuules!!!!! amazing, fantastic, the best. but also not the most active. im interested in working with her and i think she appreciates me being crazy and i appreciate her being crazy too. also she is the main reason i won this challenge SOOOOOO. I think me szymon and daisy have a great opportunity to work with her and form a tight 4 if thats the path we choose to go down. Jules is here for fun and to socialize with people and i think some people are off putted by that but i thinks its fine, i just hope we have fun doing crazy stuff together and not against one another :D

THATS IT! MY MERGE CAST ASSESSMENT.

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SO I WON IMMUNITY! HEHEHEHEHEHEHE WHICH IS KINDA EMBARRASING SINCE I ONLY ASKED 2 PEOPLE FOR THEIR WORDS, AND THEN DAISY/JULES/SZYMON GAVE ME THE REST. Honk honk i love sharing, this is what communism is all about! But being immune first is kinda a great thing because it really puts you in a firm spot and allows/forces people to strategize with you. since i am unsure if i can attend tribal/live night it also provides some much needed security early on. i am hoping chips goes home at this first tribal which seemingly everyone is on board with. And then id prefer brandan or lovelis to go in live night. But i think Szymon and Daisy will want to vote for Rob. I am not sure if i want to take that shot yet because it might hurt my chances of working with Gage, but also leaves several more inactive people in. if i was confident people like lovelis and brandan would follow rob out the door that would be one thing, but i think it would make people like conor/gage possibly start targeting szymon/daisy/myself and that isnt a good thing. especially if we can wait to f9, and have 5 directly on rob and he goes home and then theres less potential for us getting outvoted

Click HERE to watch Daisy’s Video!

Click HERE to watch Dylan G’s Video!

I know I have been sending only really text confessionals right now and I am REALLY sorry about that, since pretty much a lot of my life has FINALLY FUCKING CLEARED UP I can actually start doing them, butttt since I'm a procrastinator on all sense of the word I'm just gonna type something here and be done with it okay?

Anyways, MERRRRGGGEE! I am fucking SHOCKED that I have made it this far. Keep in mind I really don't think that I would have had any issues getting to the merge keep in mind. Other than the shit I was going through early game and then with some other stuff I feel relatively blessed to be here. I made some connections on my swapped tribe which helped me stay around, and then afterwards I pretty much like... I'm here! I wanted to try and win as many challenges as I could just to help me get by, but then again I'm not the most TALKATIVE person in the world so whatever, I'm planning on fixing that now.

ANYWAYS going into live night I am worried. I was playing three games at once including this WHILE working and BEFORE I got COVID so that was.... okay that wasn't really that fun but still WHATEVER I TRIED GURL OKAY? And from the looks of it the first round should be easy with a relative chips boot which I am fine with. The second round though? That's where the primary issue lies. The only name I heard relative to that is potentially lovealis which I am down with. I got Jules who is a Brandan STAN, my Coco loco alliance with daisy/szymon, and other connections I have made with people like rob. Since after Chips leaves we're in the Final 10 during live night that's easier for my mental sanity. and with me/daisy/szymon/rob/jules, that is already HALF the votes. So I feel... good.

I did not succeed at the social queen immunity.

A social queen i am not.

I was told the vote would be me... so I packed my bags.

Then... a LONG time later they want to blindside Rob. I say okay, I'm down knowing I trust no one so trying to hold on to my smallest sliver of hope that this isn't an elaborate lie.

Then we get live round! If I make it that far I'm ready to party!

Click HERE to watch Gage’s Video!

Click HERE to watch Rob’s Final Words

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Rob is voted out 6-3-1. He becomes the first member of our jury. We then have LIVE NIGHT! At live night, Lovelis goes home 9-1 and becomes the second member of our jury.

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Maybe I'm wrong (I'm willing to admit this could be denial) but I still think that SciTwi's thing with Timber is a phase. Why would they still have Sunset obviously still into SciTwi (blushing at SciTwi when she's not looking) if they are trying to tell us there's no hope? I mean, maybe they're just going to have Sunset's feeling go unrequited. But their relationship is at the centre of the story. I want to think the staff will eventually make their relationship as canon as they possibly can.

I really, really, REALLY want them to go that route. Like, a whole lot. SO, UNBELIEVABLY MUCH. THEY’RE MY FAVOURITE SHIP, I WOULD DIE HAPPY IF THEY MADE THEM A THING CANONICALLY. PLEASE.

… I just feel like the worst case scenario is more likely.

It’s one of those ‘hoping for the best, but prepared for the worst’ situations, because like you said, at this point you and I could just be in denial.

See, I feel like the worst case is Timber sticks around, and not only do Flash and Sunset start over as friends, they discover chemistry. Sunset never really liked him the first time, but if they had to, they’d probably explain it away by saying she wasn’t focused on him at the time or some bullshit.

That’s the darkest timeline, if you will.

Note: From here, I dive into fanfic territory and I couldn’t stop myself. You’ve been warned

Although, you’re kinda right about that blush.

See, Twilight blushing in this situation makes sense, she’s the one being teased. But, look, if they wanted Sunset to be the type who’s blushing when the subject of love is brought up, they were inconsistent about it.

Earlier in the movie, Sunset teases her about Timber without batting a damn eye. So, the easy explanation for that blush is out.

I really do feel like I’m fishing here (because like I said in another ask, my favourite ships becoming canon is like the one thing I’m pessimistic about), but if you want some optimism: Sunset spends the whole movie protecting Twilight, and at the end of it she blushes when Twilight does. If it’s intentional, I call that good character development. Subtle, too, she doesn’t go from ‘I like her as a friend’ to ‘OOOH MY GORSH I’M IN LURVE WITH HER’ in one summer (this doesn’t even seem to be the full summer, more like a week or two, maybe three).

I would applaud and throw money at them if they started to go down that route. Seriously. So much applause and money.

Like, from here, they’d probably go the Unrequited Love route for a while. It kinda fits with the whole using high school movie troupes but with a magical twist thing the EQG movies like to do, and you could do it in one of the shorts, actually.

Like, to continue from the blush, have Sunset start to develop a legit crush on her. We know for a damn fact Sunset wouldn’t say or do anything to sabotage Twilight’s relationship, so using the unrequited love troupe would actually work for these characters.

Have Twi being happy with Timber, and Sunset realize she’s not as happy supporting them as she thought she’d be. Sure, it’s a cliche, but execution is where it counts because they’ve already established that Sunset likes Timber as a person, thinks he ‘seems like a pretty cool guy,’ so we already have the setup in place for her to realize it’s not Timber she doesn’t like about this whole situation.

If one of the shorts is about summer love (because they all seem to take place in summer time, following camp Everfree), then Twi would get to have her mall date with Timber, yet we focus on Sunset and all these weird feelings she suddenly has to hide, and the plot writes itself.

After the 3 shorts, we go to EQG 5, which I guess is next year sometime (for those who haven’t heard, another movie was confirmed a few days ago), and this is where we are with the plot:

It’s the start of their last year together

Sunset just kinda realized Crap, I might have feelings for her, but has decided to let them be happy

The portal is breaking open, releasing CRAZY magic into this world (potentially crazy creatures, as well, who knows)

Twilight and Timber have had time to see what a relationship together would actually be like (for better or worse)

Twilight and Sunset have fun together organizing their team/friends to fix the first wave of haywire magic

And since I’m basically brainstorming a fanficy version of what’s going to happen, might as well keep going (I HAVE ZERO SELF-RESTRAINT).

The girls would confidently try to deal with the magic and keep it contained to just the school. On the second wave/threat (Could be more specific than that), they fail, or can tell that even if they got some of it, more is on the loose.

Meanwhile: Timber really likes Twilight, but after nearly losing his sister to magic like this, dealing with more of it is kinda really hard for him. Even PTSD hard, if you want to go that far with it again. To the point that even though he really admires her for embracing the responsibility, he would be really scared to have to deal with it himself again and again and/or really worried for Twi. He puts on a brave face for the moment, but Twi can tell something is wrong. He was fine when it was her magic (from the pendant), but he’s kinda freaking out here.

This compliments what’s going on with Sunset, whose feeling kinda shitty, because like she said in Friendship Games, magic started coming through to this world mostly because of her. Crazy magical adventures are her thing, but she doesn’t want to endanger her friends if she doesn’t have to.

Anyway, point is, these plots both come to a head.

Timber breaks up with Twilight because he knows she’s always going to be a hero against evil magic, and she should be because she’s awesome at it, but it’s too much for his trauma. Twilight’s a bit broken up about, but accepts it. Note: this happens before the prom, so Timber apologizes extra for that, but Twilight says she’ll have fun with the girls, anyway.

Some time before this: Sunset realizes a solution to all this is to shut down the portal, permanently. No more magic.

This is where we kinda see the resurgence of that deleted plot-line from Friendship Games. Sunset realizes how much she loves crazy magical adventures, and that in this world, she has her friends, but ultimately… no purpose. Seems harsh, but she knows her cutie mark has to do with magic, so if that’s not here, what’s she going to do with the rest of her life (by the way, early on in the movie the girls have a light-hearted conversation about what they’re going to do after graduation, and Sunset’s answer was that she’d go wherever the magic was and study it; that’s why she’s really thinking about the future).

What makes matters worse is that she kinda hates herself a little for not being able to be happy for Twilight and Timber. If they have a future together in this world, she’s worried that’s going to be hard for her to watch, and hates that she can’t just support them genuinely anymore.

So, Sunset’s solution to the broken portal can come in a few variations at this point (I CAN’T BELIEVE I HAVEN’T STOPPED WRITING THIS ASK).

The Saddest/Most Angsty One is that before she closes the portal (probably on prom night, because OF COURSE THE CLIMAX WOULD BE ON PROM NIGHT IT’S EQUESTRIA GIRLS, and the romance plotline is super important to this hypothetical movie), she says goodbye.

Because, of course, the only way she knows how to close down the portal is by being on the other side and having magic. She could write to Princess Twilight and have her do it, but that would trap her in the human world.

(Princess Twilight might’ve always been writing to her throughout this whole thing, trying to figure out what’s going wrong, since she’s on the other side and might be seeing this stuff go down. They might come to this conclusion together)

So that gives Sunset a choice. If she stays in the human world forever, she’d have her friends, and for the majority of the movie she really thought that’d be enough, but with the Mane 5 going off to do their own things, separating but ultimately coming to the happy conclusion that they’re still going to be super close, they just have to live their own lives—she eventually comes to the conclusion that her friendships taught her a lot, and she’ll never forget them, but she needs to leave them behind if she wants to be happy and have purpose. She needs to live her own life, too. She can make new friends in Equestria…

So, Sunset’s saying goodbye.

How much time the others have to respond is debatable. Like, she could tell them to their faces, or over her shoulder to them as the portal is breaking further and further open in front of them, or to the school, while they’re inside having fun at prom (and on the lookout inside the prom for more magical forces).

I mean, no matter what, they’re devastated, especially Twilight, who actually just spent the prom with Sunset guarding against magic and was going to tell her what happened with Timber (it might be too convenient to say she was interrupted by the portal breaking down, but whatever, this is literally a fanfiction version of a movie that hasn’t come out yet, sue me).

And they’re crying when Twilight puts her hand on where the portal used to be and they realize it’s gone for good.

The magic’s gone from their world. Everyone’s safe. Sunset’s gone for good.

If they were mean, they’d leave EQG 5 there.

… But since you know they’re not:

Sunset gets to Equestria, home for the first time in years. Probably reunites with Celestia (FINALLY) and Celestia says she’s sorry, that she’s knows what it’s like to let someone you care about live worlds away for their own good. And Sunset admits that it’s not just for their good. It’s for hers.

She feels selfish leaving them behind like that, but had to to be happy.

Celestia notices that she’s certainly not happy right now. Sunset argues the whole thing about her life’s purpose, her cutie mark, and that even if she and Princess Twilight could get the portal stable again, magic would still occasionally come through, so that world without magic being better off without her.

Celestia argues that her friends would not be better off without Sunset. That what’s best for that world is to have that group of true friends there to contain the magic and defend them from it with a magic of their own. A more powerful magic than any that could ever threaten that world from Equestria. And what’s best for Sunset is to give her friends the choice to stand with her in that fight, and search for knowledge, just like they’ve chosen to time and again.

Also, Momlestia Celestia encourages her to get the girl if that relationship with Timber ends.

So, then we cut back to the girls heartbroken on the steps of Canterlot High, and Twilight kinda lets it slip that she’d maybe even started to like like Sunset since senior year started, but that it’s too late now.

Enter Sunset. Because wow, this is literal fanfcition at this point.

And with Sunset, all the magic. The portal goes right back to its broken, probably enlarged state because they haven’t figured out how to fix it yet, but it doesn’t even FUCKING matter—can you even imagine how relieved they’d all be?

The magic is still escaping behind Sunset, with her she’s literally brought all kinds of dangerous magic, but she’s basically tackled by the six of them and they tell her how much they love and need her, before she and Twilight get to speak, and the girls (after a comedic moment where they just don’t move, like ready to watch them have this talk) run off to try to get a headstart on all this rogue magic.

Essentially, Sunset says she’s sorry she brought all this into Twilight’s life. All this—gesturing to the broken portal and magic and whatnot—is her. It’s just her thing.

And Twilight says that given the choice between a normal life without magic with Timber, and Sunset and… well, all this, she’d choose her.

And for the first time in the whole EQG series, Twilight goes for a kiss and it doesn’t get interrupted.

And, basically, they work together to get the magic under wraps and find a way to stabilize the portal so it’s not leaking anything too dangerous. The girls get to graduate, probably sing a song because of course, and after graduation (where everybody from the previous movies is in the audience), Timber comes up to them. He said he’s sorry things turned out the way they did, but he’s really, really happy for them. Sunset asks if he’s happy enough to try being friends, and Timber totally accepts. Twi and Timber are bros now. It’s great.

Oh, and punchline to the Flash storyline would be: he sees that Sunset is super gay for Twilight and he’s like, damn. Think I’m gonna take a break from dating for a while, and the character who was solely made to be a love interest is happy to be single, everybody.

So, now the girls are off to college and whatnot, but somehow they figure they’ll get to see each other pretty frequently.

You can enter the College years of EQG at that point if you want, I’m just saying Twilight and Sunset are happy together and I can’t believe I wrote this entire fucking thing.

I don’t think that’s what’s going to happen, but until proven otherwise, that’s what I’m gonna think.

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