#but mostly it’s him seeing videos of landscapes. creatures. humans reinventing themselves

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#idk #my mom says I’m like an oracle sometimes #that I see things and they become #and really idk about the truth of all that. I fear rather I am delusional and somehow good at guessing ? idk #but sometimes it truley does feel the lord spends time in my head #he doesn’t whisper to me so much as thoughts come about things and it’s like he says them #I suppose I shouldn’t say he. but it’s close to there so I’ll continue #he told me though dreams when I was little about the house problem #he’s told me of when bad winters will come #he’s told me of wildfires before they start and where they’ll go #sometimes it feel like he watched the phone through my eyes #observes the world with me #and he tells me the things he does not like #but mostly it’s him seeing videos of landscapes. creatures. humans reinventing themselves #and he tells me that he made this . he made these #he’s proud of them #but idk #I sound kinda delusional #but that’s ok I think because I’m not making descisipns or actions off of it or doing anything that hurts anyone or myself #so it’s ok #I don’t think I’d call myself an oracle #I don’t think I’d call myself a prophet either #both of those words are too. much for what this is #I do not hear enough for it to be either of those words #I need a lesser word than these #I just get dreams that tell me about things beofre they happen #I still dream about that fire and the houses in 2033 #I don’t know what that’s going to be #I still don’t quite understand those dreams #but it’s going to happen