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ratsbypaulzindel · 1 month

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HI. BIG OVERVIEW OC POST THING. IT'S RAINFOREST FLOODS.

have you ever thought to yourself "hey wouldnt it be cool if there was an oc story made by two guys and it was about a haunted waterpark slash arcade in a fake town in a real state". you probably haven't. but if you have youre in luck! more under the cut ok.

rainforest floods is a terrible no good ocverse made by me and my good friend crawford @dykeseesgod. everyone in it sucks and is horrible except maybe one or two side characters. it's set in the podunk middle of nowhere town of timberline, new mexico, and more specifically a waterpark/arcade called rainforest floods (title drop).

also the waterpark SUUUCKS like its budget is nothing they are in debt. the managers havent paid taxes in 15 years. anyway these are the employees. theyre bad

and these are the co-managers. theyre even worse (and also toxic old man yaoi. these refs were drawn by the aforementioned crawford)

anyway yeah. they get up to wacky hijinks in what will ideally be a tv show coming out in one million years. they're also horrible and tragic. most of it is bruce's fault. some of its not though!

ok also here's some other side characters.

^ running gag that nobody knows her name except kelsey who has a huge crush on her.

^ unnamed girl's younger brother who is constantly faced with horrors and torment at the hands of the rainforest floods employees. dont get me wrong hes annoying as fuck but he didnt deserve to run on that hamster wheel. (ref also drawn by ford)

^ jeff's girlfriend. also the coolest person in timberline new mexico. worlds most unimportant minor character but she is wonderful and loved by the producers (me and cosmo)

FUNNY OUT OF CONTEXT THINGS THAT SHOULD MAKE YOU MORE INVESTED IN THIS OCVERSE

rainforest floods stupidity logic is a thing me and robbie came up with to explain why all the characters are idiots who dont find things out that are important to the plot too soon.

there's a chain gimmick restaurant that andy's whole family runs except him. its like italian food but its like also magicians. their tagline is "so good its practically magic". andy hates it.

kyle has a curse on him so that nobody remembers or recognizes him outside of like. his family. so the rff employees arent even targeting him for their shenanigans on purpose theyre all just weird freaks.

kelsey gives unnamed girl the company landline as her phone number because shes stupid and a ghost and doesnt have a phone.

the employees all get together on wednesdays in the breakroom and compare evidence on whether or not andy and bruce are together romantically. its the one thing that truly bonds them all together.

vincent: is a watchmojo fan, had his first kiss as beethoven in his 12th grade production of dog sees god confessions of a teenage blockhead (2004), gets really christian in some episode subplot, is not a swiftie but he is a gaylor, wishes he was jonathan sims sooooo bad, types like a toddler who was just given a keyboard.

vincent also ruined rainforest floods' lobby playlist

also there's a brand account that we run and post on whenever we feel like it. its more of a sounding board for ideas we may explore more in the future. its fun but it may be a bit difficult to get the full idea with the execution so :-( sorry you wont fully understand our wonderful and hilarious visions

annnd i think that's it. yay worlds silliest yet most tragic oc story. ok bye ^_^

#vel.txt #oc stuff #rainforest floods

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bonerey · 8 months

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i wanna hear abt your universe!!!!

in my universe they're on a planet similar to earth but not earth. all different continents. it is mostly set in euthosia. i wont name the other countries because their names are in the process of being reworked

so in 1978 euthosia was involved unwillingly in a war, it rages on for awhile and euthosia is abandoned and pretty much left to rot.

and it did rot. for awhile. there was a lot of infighting and everybody was desperate for power, there werent a lot of resources left. dante verner was one such of these people.

verner was elected in 1990. for awhile, he wasnt that bad of a president, he was able to drag the country out of financial ruin. after that, though, he got very corrupt very quickly. surveillance, mistrust, wrongful imprisonment, assassination, deep poverty still persisted, stuff like that.

he then got reelected through very lawful very democratic ways.

he was assassinated in 1998, an action which they are still feeling the aftershocks of. if it was bad after the war, this may have been worse with the corrupt systems already firmly in place. the first about seven months after his assassination may have actually been hell

nobody was elected for two years due to the severe legal mess verner left behind.

onto other details, dean pryor is the CEO of a mega-corporation called WYENN. he has his claws in a lot of industries, primarily electronics. hes literally SO evil its kind of funny. worst man ever <3

^ he went through indescribably horrific things in his childhood and STILL came out on top. let me emphasize that it is so fucking hard to climb your way out of poverty in this country, least of all when you're functionally a "nobody" with a disgraced family. AND the fact that he did not just get out of poverty, he became a billionaire. LIKE. its insane. the power of spite is INSANEEEE dude

^ oh yeah and the medias view on him is. Interesting. hes rlly charismatic so everyone simultaneously hates him and finds him absolutely hysterical. also he gets shipped with his business competitors and hes fully aware of it. also sometimes his business associates. also sometimes the current president of euthosia (because the current president is superrrr weak willed and basically makes none of his own decisions and its thought that he works with pryor which is... Not Wrong) toxic yaoi 🫶

#i will make a part 2 to this post i prommy #anyway im insane. im so insane about this #its so compelling to me you dont even KNOW #universe tag

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ollyou · 2 months

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It’s kind of funny because I’m always drawing olly either slightly annoyed or even straight up happy, but in actuality, I still think the guy’s a bit crazy!

Referring to my own interpretation of olly, i’ll be calling him colly… but yeah. Sometimes i think to myself about how funny the range of his emotions are because in the events of PMTOK (the “canon” part of the game), I interpret him to be EXTREMELY mentally unstable, only getting worse the further Mario and co. get on their way to him.

(Putting the rest under the cut because I ramble a LOT about colly)

Colly’s typically more reserved, albeit full of himself. He’s still a bit of an asshole and can even be cruel (enough to essentially try killing his own sister), but is more calm about it. It’s when he’s been especially ticked off that he becomes very violent. When he has outbursts, they’re extreme ones— full-on lashing out against whoever has upset him enough to invoke his wrath. He’d love to watch his enemies become torn to shreds, over and over again until they’re specks of dust on the ground.

It’s something I find really interesting. Colly’s VERY cold and lacks sympathy for anyone. All he cares about are his own ambitions. It’s like, imagine dating this guy! You shouldn’t. That would not be very pleasant. He’s sadistic and wishes for nothing but suffering upon his foes. He doesn’t treat people for who they are— he sees most of those he likes as objects, made for him to tinker with and form into his ideal image of them. Not for their benefit, but for himself. He’s analytical of others when not upset, and when he is properly upset, he pretty much blacks out and is consumed by his own rage. He crumples and tears and smothers those in his way until someone is either trapped or dead. It’s almost as if he’s another person, controlled by emotion and nothing more.

But that’s what I love about writing him. He invokes the most passionate and strong feelings when trying to portray him properly, and it’s interesting to try and get into the mind of someone so horribly screwed up. He’s someone you absolutely do not want to be, but someone who may embody the emotions you want to hide away, the emotions that distress and horrify you. A bit sociopathic, in some ways…?

He’s got some mental issues that need to be addressed, HAHA (and yes, ofc it’s okay if I say that— I’ve got mental issues too). My awful screwed up guy I hate but adore and love at the same time.

And I’ve already gone over it before, but… it’s like, “If he’s so awful and feels almost nothing for others, then why is Colly dating Solly?” aside from their relationship starting from a joke.

Well, I’ll answer it again: it’s because in a way, that IS Colly. It IS Olly. It’s someone only who, in the whole wide world, could understand Colly to the absolute maximum. Despite bickering at the beginning, they got close.

It’s a bit messed up too, when you think about it, huh…? Two mentally unstable older teens / young adults getting into a relationship because they feel they’re the only ones who understand each other in the whole universe. Is this what they call “toxic yaoi”…?

Well, they develop their relationship later on and become a lot more healthy. It’s because they’re both narcissists, only being capable of loving themselves, despite all the hatred they harbor towards what was done to their bodies by their creators, too… and when they finally awake from their evil deliriums, they’re able to fully enjoy themselves without any of the strange dependency they developed towards one another while fighting to fold those 1000 cranes.

Basically, I love Colly. I love awful, screwed up, crazy, mentally unstable characters. I love the psychological aspect of it. I love Olly.

#rambling #paper mario the origami king #pmtok #king olly #paper mario #pmtok au #pmtok olly #👑colly #💜OLLY^2!

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tr3xinfinite · 2 months

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Today i wanna talk about one of my hyperfixations i've got even before i knew what an hyperfixation is.

Megaman but not only Megaman, the Starforce Saga

I wasn't such a fan of the Blue Bomber i played some of the games yeah but they didn't catch my attention at all unlike others like Sonic, Mario or even Crash Bandicoot (i think?)

Until i got my first (and only) DS i got many games (and also thanks to it i started to play the Mario & Luigi saga games) and one of them was this

At first i thought it was something boring like idk what i expected but

Oh gosh how wrong i was, remember that one Max Steel reboot? Well mix it with Evangelion and you get this criminally underrated gem of a game (or should i say GAMES cause there's 3 parts there was about to be a fourth but it was sadly cancelled)

One of the things i liked as that i'm a sucker for interactive RPGs pixelart type of games and my fav part is that you can turn into Megaman whenever you want and not when it's necesary and ofc feel OP the more Battle Cards and experience you get and it has difficult bosses (seriously difficult FUCK YOU ANDROMEDA)

The plot is simple you get this boy Geo Stelar (Hoshikawa Subaru as they say in Nipon) who's father was working on a Space Station called Peace (i think that was the name?) The father and the station dissapeared out of nowhere and since then Geo became an edgy angsty kid who can't make friends cause he's scared of being hurt (Shinji Ikari is that u!?) However Geo meets an Alien called Omega-Xis (or War-Rock) who is like a Symbiont made out of an energy that makes him invisible to the human eye this being called EM wave (Electromagnetic Waves) the two join forces and became Megaman fighting evil guys and becoming strongee together their relationship is like if Eddie Brock and Venom got a more Little Brother/Older Brother type of relation instead of a toxic Yaoi one

You also get some funny characters like Luna (aka Asuka Langley Soryuh) Patrick (aka Mr Femboy) or Solo (aka Edgelord_Mu)

The games are fucking underrated and it pains me as hell so if you have the time to play them, do it.

Here are some doodles i made yesterday out of pure nostalgia

Aaaand here's the WIP of my new draw

Little Fun Fact when i was in my Megaman Starforce Hyperfixation era i made some redesigns for Geo

#digital art #illustration #megaman #hyperfixation #BTW NO MEGA IS NOT A FURRY IN ANY CASE

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basilships · 22 days

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AGH this is funny because Eric is my bitter beloathed and Faramir is my sweetest angel

under the cut, eric in this post + Faramir in the reblog

Eric is from True Blood, which is an adaptation of the southern vampire mystery or sookie stackhouse novels, both of which focus on Sookie's relationships with humanity and vampires (and more!) as a telepathic woman. who is blonde. the show is FAR better than the books, i know because i read the first two books, and that's a whole different issue that i won't touch right now, but they're okay. that's it. just okay. the show is VERY GOOD and i greatly enjoyed it despite it's issues. anyway

Eric Northman is a vampire who was turned as a viking a thousand years ago (and you're like what! you already have one thousand year old vampire f/o! yeah, i have a type, i don't know what to tell you) and he's... a lot. he's petty, he's sadistic, he's selfish, he's egotistical, he's an asshole, but he's very smart, and he's very clever, he's unbelievably strong and incredibly devoted to the things he is devoted to. in my defense, he was one of Sookie's love interests, so he's kind of made to be the mean bad boy type that's all about the darker side of vampirism, whereas her main love interest is the good side of it. it's a lot. anyway

he owns a vampire themed vampire bar in Louisiana, called Fangtasia. I love it and i hate it. he works with his bestie slash former lover slash progeny Pam, who fucking rules and serves cunt every day of the fuckin week. more about Pam later. he's the Sheriff of Area 5, which basically means he's in charge and all of the vampires in a certain area answer to him, and that's intimidating for a few seasons, and then you find out there's actually a fuck ton of people above him that make him a lot less intimidating, but he's like 6'4 and a THOUSAND years old and has plot armor so he's still really intimidating and sexy. he's kind of a boring white guy but you get to see his butt, so.

my self insert is named Matty and probably has a surname but i don't care right now. later on, you find out Sookie is a fairy (yeah, I don't... have a good explanation for that, it plays out pretty much how you expect, but yeah she's part fae) and that's where her telepathy comes from. so Matty is also part fae, meaning vampires are more attracted to his blood and he's got some magic in him, but he's not magical enough to read minds. i think i gave him vague intuition or something, he's still sort of magical and it gives me an excuse to make he and Sookie besties. he's an artist in Chicago working a string of shitty jobs even though, once he meets Eric, Eric keeps telling him he could pull string to get Matty into a better job. Matty hates that.

Matty kind of hates Eric until he loves him, and Eric kind of hates Matty until he loves him. they're toxic yaoi, i don't have excuse for it, they suck but they're endgame. like, both of you are assholes, don't ever get anyone else involved in whatever this is. they need each other. Matty is the one person who can stand up to Eric, and Eric is the one person who challenges Matty and can give him a sense of escape from his life. same thing Bill does for Sookie, but homoerotic and worse. they both push each other, they both help each other, they would die for each other but also not really, because they firmly believe they'd be able to prevent that. i don't have anything smart to say about them besides they're sexyyyy. i could post so much bullshit about them because i'm hilarious. not yet tho

#ask #do they have tags. i don't know. will edit later #tex-treasures #a little blood in my wine #that's the eric/matty tag

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the-acid-pear · 1 month

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also i was thinking about toxic yaoi and by toxic yaoi i mean i was thinking of how it pisses me off when ppl just call rape fetish djs "toxic yaoi" like call it for its fucking name man toxic yaoi should be used for nuanced topics not jsut your lame ass shit you're too shy to call with your whole chest because you know people wouldnt take it well anyway uh it got me thinking of my old fujo days and 1) im gonna try find the fetus yaoi rn bc i hate yall but 2) its curious how back in the day to find the most disgusting fetishistic thing was like, a sport, yknow, like it was simply something people did and then took pride like heh... yeah i read That One Manga the worst i read was probably one with a girl and a dog and you know its bad bc that's no longer yaoi. No comments regarding it btw it was as disgusting and explicit as you'd imagine def not something a kid should've read and probably not an adult either but here we are. I didnt read it as an adult for the record i mean the rest. Anyway speaking of this shit i just remembered the cursed yaoi was a trilogy it was the orc's bride (read it, in retrospective it wasn't so crazy, very graphic in an horrific way tho), feeding lamb (i actually liveblogged that one THAT is fucking Toxic Yaoi(tm) that shit goes hard i love it and the artstyle is very funny and the story is sad and compelling all my homies love feeding lamb) but there was a third one i cannot for the life of mine remember. I checked uh, my old chat logs. The third was Bait. I swear to god i dont remember that that's bizarre i remember the other two perfectly well. WAIT I JUST REMEMBERED THAT WAS JUST THE FURRY ONE yeah no shit man that was tame as fuck no wonder i forgot. anyway yeah uh, let me try to find those fetuses very quick

Edit: its not one google search away fuck it im not gonna do more research than that that fucking doujinshi doesnt deserve to exist in anyone's mind but mine im taking this one for the team its my cross to bear and etc

#luly talks

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ardenttheories · 4 years

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Homestuck's always been antagonistic and insensitive, but I don't recall seeing any of you try to dox Hussie? But please, continue to rationalise how cyberbullying lgbt people for not being nice enough and having opinions about a fictional character you disagree with puts you in the right. A story doesn't go the way you'd like and this is how you respond? You COULD have just not bothered reading it instead of CHOOSING to make your online life about something you hate like a toxic weirdo.

Hi, Kate. I’m so glad you could find my blog. (Edit: that was a joke. Apparently, some anons find it impossible to tell that I don’t actually think you’re Kate). It’s clear to me that you didn’t take the time to read through any of the content that’s actually on here, since you’re throwing around rather wild accusations, so let me take this down step by step.

Homestuck has only rarely been antagonistic and insensitive. Things like the Alpha Trolls - which were clear criticisms of fandom culture - were relatively few and far between, and when we complained about them, they actually stopped. Remind me, for instance, how relevant the Alpha Trolls were to the plot? How long they stayed as mockeries towards the fandom? Yeah, not long. I actually have talked about this before on the blog - alongside other things I thought were negative towards the fandom from the original comic - but the difference here is that... in the entirety of Homestuck, these things were outliers and inconsistencies. They stuck out because they were in stark contrast to the otherwise wonderfully handled content Homestuck went over.

For instance, Homesuck is critical of abuse - especially in terms of relationships. We see through a critical lense the shit normalisation of parental abuse can do to a child - with actual talk of triggers and of the mental and emotional scarring left behind, and the complexities of the child’s feelings towards the parent’s death through Dave - and we see how self destructive relationships can be, how harmful they are, and how hard it can be to leave them - such as Terezi’s very toxic blackrom with Gamzee, which was always portrayed as something negative and harmful especially with how worried Karkat was for her and how withdrawn she became during its run, and Dirk’s relationship with Jake, which goes very much over how communication can cause a deterioration in romantic relationships especially when the two participants have conflicting mental illnesses.

It also goes over how men, though they can be mired in toxic masculinity, can choose to be good. How sometimes we’re not born as good people, but we can become good people through the love we have for the people around us, through frequent attempts to check what we’re doing, through the sheer willpower to be good. Dirk’s entire arc, knowing that he could very easily become Bro but deciding he doesn’t want to be, that it’s something he wants to work on, is so important and incredibly powerful. Mental illness in men is often just given as an excuse to make them violent with no attempts at betterment - so Dirk actually existed as proof that you don’t have to be that stereotype.

In contrast, Homestuck^2 completely uncritically gave Jade, who was cis, a dog dick, made her, a bisexual woman, a sex maniac and the yaoi “woman who gets in the way of the gays” trope, made her a cheater and someone who forced her partner into the relationship to begin with, and made her a neglectful mother after having cheated with her best lesbian friend in something that has incredible recall to just about every futanari video ever - and they tried to claim that this was good representation of trans women, actually, and that the only reason we didn’t like it is that Jade is “a woman” who “has sex”.

Likewise completely uncritically, they made Gamzee, an anti-black stereotype, enter a relationship with Jane, a fascist, and then made the entire thing into a cuck joke wherein Jake being frequently drunk and sexually assaulted was funny because he wasn’t “man enough”. They then forced him to go back to his abuser after he left her in a scene that read very much like, “ridiculous man thinks woman is abusing him, go back and do your manly job”.

This, of course, doesn’t even go into the travesty that is any form of trans representation in the comic. Roxy, a trans man, is barely even focused on as trans; they make no attempt to enforce in the fandom that he’s a trans man the way they do that June is a trans woman, and even then, they seem to think that just saying someone is a trans woman is actually good representation. Not, like, bringing it into the comic - just saying that it’s a thing. And of course, that’s not even going into the completely uncritical lense they have of Vriska, wherein her being a trans woman completely frees her of any and all blame for the past abuses she has comitted, and once again she becomes an amazing character to save the day without a single flaw - which in turn inherently associates trans women with abuse apologism, abusers, and the ideology that just because we’re trans we can get away with anything scott free.

I honestly cannot think of one instance of good and genuine representation in Homesuck^2, nor can I think of any scene where negative content was actually treated as the negative thing it actually is. There’s no critical lense at all, not like we have in Homestuck; there’s just no fucking comparison. And this isn’t a one-off situation, either. Whereas Homestuck does do fuck ups - isn’t perfect - in between the otherwise brilliant content, Homestuck^2 is just founded upon these horrific takes. There’s almost no good content in between, and what is left is a slog to get through when surrounded by the thick slurry of shit that compromises futa Jade, abuse apologism Vriska, and victim blaming Jake.

Of course, we didn’t “doxx” Hussie. Hussie actually listened to our complaints, for the most part, and worked with us to create something that worked well. The way Homestuck^2 was touted to work. You know, since it was meant to be written with the fandom in mind, influenced by the things we suggest and react to. We went into Homestuck^2 with the explicit idea that we were going to be listened to and taken into consideration when it was being written - the way we were with old Homestuck. I’m very sorry to say that, when you make these expectations, people are going to be a titchy bit upset when you then commandeer the entire thing and exclude the fandom from any of the process that you said they were going to be part of.

Additionally, it’s rather funny, isn’t it, that what you call doxxing is actually just people upset with how triggering content is being handled, and going to the people who actually wrote the content in order to voice their complaints? It’s almost as if social media exists to allow this communication between reader and author, which is a fundamental thing you’ll learn in any creative writing course, such as the one I’m on currently, wherein you’re actually taught how to respond to social media and to build up your image with your fans.

Homestuck^2 is an ongoing piece of media. We’re well aware that we have a potential to change these uncritical takes and the horrific way they’re being handled if the writers will just listen to genuine criticism. This is, frankly, no different to the people who go to J. K. Rowling’s Twitter to tell her how harmful her transphobic comments are; because if she believes these things, they will work their way into her texts and will perpetuate harmful ideologies.

The literal same thing is happening in Homestuck^2 - again, such as futa Jade, which normalises the point of view that bisexuals are cheaters and completely trivialises what it means to be trans, or Gamzee, which perpetuates just about every anti-black stereotype possible. Media does have a very powerful impact on what people see in the real world. This is why, for instance, positive black characters are so important in media; if they’re always portrayed as villains, then people will see real world black people as villains as the ideology is perpetuated to the point of fact. This is especially true if the people already believe in the ideology.

Fiction is one of the best ways that we can counteract this cycle. If you make a character that they like, and they happen to be positive representation, and then they watch more media that is likewise positive representation, it’s more likely to stick that these positive representations are the actual experiences of minority groups. Also? It’s important TO those minority groups. A black person, especially right now, doesn’t want to see an anti-black stereotype fuck a fascist, engage in sexual assult, and then enact pedophilia - only to die at the hands of a hero and be laughed at for the death. Surprisingly, shit like this is why we need to tell the writers that what they’re doing is harmful, that they’re perpetuating phobic ideologies, and that we need better representation - especially in a comic that is this widely read, and also has a very large minor fanbase.

I shouldn’t need to explain why exposing minors to anti-black stereotypes, transphobic, homophobic, biphobic, abuse apologism, victim blaming, and the trivialisation of rape and sexual assault (especially towards men), might be a federal fucking issue.

So, no, we’re not actually cyberbullying LGBT+ people. We’re trying to hold shitty writers accountable for the incredibly toxic and harmful ideologies they’re forcing into a text that has always been written with critical thought in mind.

I should also point out how funny it is that you’re focusing on how some of the writers are LGBT+ - as if we’re not? I’m trans, I’m gay, and I’m ace. Yes, I can actually be these things and absolutely furious that a trans women is writing some of the most transphobic shit I’ve seen in a while into characters she then claims to be completely free of blame. We can be furious that people within our own community are enforcing negative stereotypes.

Being LGBT+ does not make them free from blame. We cannot give them a free pass to be racist, to be transphobic, to be homophobic, biphobic, to be abuse apologists, just because they’re LGBT+. Not only because that’s just a terrible fucking idea to begin with, but because it also reflects so, so badly on the community as a whole. As if being part of the community instantly means that you can do no wrong? As if there can be no toxicity within our own community, despite the fact that there very much is and it is still an issue to this day?

That is such an issue, one of the biggest issues even shown just in Vriska and the way Kate handles her as a whole - and, once again, is WHY we need to get them looking at this shit more critically. This view that LGBT+ people can do no wrong and cannot be criticised is shoved into Homestuck^2 and, once again, perpetuates the ideology. This isn’t something to be proud of. This isn’t something that’s actually okay.

Also, your point that the writers aren’t nice enough and that we disagree on fictional characters - well, I’ve already been over the second part. But for the first part, I would like to remind you that they aren’t just random LGBT+ people on the internet that we’re going to because we think their takes are a little shitty. They’re actual writers working on a piece of media. They are official content creators.

Again, one of the first things you learn on any creative writing course is that when you become a writer, you gain a significant amount of responsibility for your interactions with the fandom. This is something that you genuinely have to expect, and if you don’t, then, unfortunately you just don’t know what it means to write something that thousands of people have a potential to read. As a writer, it is your responsibility to portray your image online; it is your responsibility to engage with the fans in a meaningful way; it is your responsibility to not cause drama and to listen when criticism is brought up, to have genuine discussion and not to perpetuate hatred - especially towards your own fanbase.

Consider, for instance, the way I’m talking to you right now. This is the sort of tone that someone should take when talking to a fan about genuine criticism. When things are brought up, you go over them step by step, you listen, you write back - you don’t go on a flurry of “fuck yous” to a minor who asked you why your team didn’t post anything about the BLM movement on the official Twitter, and you definitely don’t respond to every comment with genuine criticism with the word “pigshit”. You almost definitely don’t tell your trans masculine and masculine-aligned nonbinary fans that their opinions don’t matter.

As a writer, Kate and the rest of the team have a responsibility with their interactions with their fans. They aren’t just normal fandom voices anymore; they’re official fandom voices, voices that have more weight behind them than anyone else. They’re who people are going to turn to when it comes to anything regarding Homestuck^2. Their words now reflect literally everything about Homestuck^2, the future of Homestuck as an expanded universe, and the opinions of the group as a whole. They have to be careful with what they say. They have to be held to the same standards as industry voices because that’s essentially what they are - especially now that Homestuck is something you pay for.

Also, this isn’t a point of the story not going the way I want. This is a point of many of people in the fandom being upset with how content is being handled, upset that their voices are being shut down, upset that triggering content is being laughed at or used flippantly and without care or respect. This is people being upset that trigger warnings were removed specifically to make the comic unsafe for them as a punishment for daring to say that something was wrong. This is people being upset that a piece of media that used to be so fucking good at portraying sensitive content in a critical light, that used to be so good at normalising LGBT+ identities and healthy representations of those identities, has suddenly turned to this.

The story can go whatever way it wants - and frankly, that’s fine be my. What isn’t fine is that content is being used specifically to hurt and to incite.

And, of course, that final piece; nothing will improve if we don’t say that it’s wrong to begin with. Someone needs to voice the complaints of the fanbase, othrewise these toxic ideologies are going to go unchecked. One of the biggest things I’ve come to understand while making these posts is that a significant portion of the fandom feels isolated in their hurt; they don’t think other people feel the same way they do, and several people have mentioned feeling like they were going crazy because they were upset with things that the text and writers are normalising. It’s so important to make sure that these people know they’re not alone. It’s so important to make sure that our voices are heard. It’s so important to try and create critical discussion and debate over something that so many people still fucking love.

The thing is, I don’t hate Homestuck^2. I actually really, desperately wish I could enjoy it. I wish I could read through it and theorise, could go in depth about how amazing the characters are, could write long and extensive posts on how creative and engaging it is - could even just go on about how interesting the Meat-Candy divide is, and all the points they’re trying to make about canonicity. But I genuinely fucking can’t. There is just so, so much wrong in the text that is completely unrelated to plot and to the overarching Point that makes it impossible for me to read, to want to read, to try to encourage other people to read. They’re things that literally don’t need to be in there, either; stereotypes and toxic ideologies and uncritical or badly handled sensitive topics that could be rectified so, so easily.

Homestuck^2 could be amazing for a lot of the fandom. It could be something that we all rally around the same way we did for the original comic. For for a lot of people, it has ruined their fandom experience, has ruined their desire to want to read anything more to do with Homestuck, and has caused a significant portion of the fandom to just drop out entirely. That in and of itself should be a sign that this isn’t just a little fandom drama. That this is something much bigger and much more serious that, just maybe, needs to be looked into, talked about, understood - and, potentially, changed.

#homestuck^2 #homestuck^2 critical #long post//#ardenttheories #Apologies for how long this is. I wasn't going to finish it until I got every point across #And that ended up being... uh. Several thousand words I suspect #Anonymous

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androgynousblackbox · 4 years

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And people call fujoshi disgusting deviantart(.)com/comments/1/780338781/4687595947

I legit burst out laughing reading this person, like what the fuck. To give people a brief summary: “You wanna know WHY I'm Uncomfortable with malexmale? Because of the Fetishizing, ya know, like how people like me make girl x girl a fetish, yeah...GuyxGuy Fans do that on a MUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCH higher level.” This. Do I fetishize FemalexFemale pairings? Yes. And this are from the exact same person. So do you have a problem with fetishizing or not? Funny how your fetishization of female characters is fine because you are “normal” about it, but fujoshi are inherently nasty and bad and ugly and don’t deserve to have their own ships because none of them is ever responsible with them, unlike you. Also this “ what's even more disturbing is that a lot of these ships involve characters...WHO AREN'T EVEN GAY!!! They take, Brother/Brother type friendships and twist and turn them into these sick, twisted, disturbing love stories that make Twilight look like the best romance novel of all time” is classical FUJOSHI ARE RUINING MALE PLATONIC FRIENDSHIPS toxic masculinity + homophobic convo we all love so much here. I keep thinking how rich of these jackasses keep blaming fujoshi for being shitty fans onto their hatred for m|m ships. All of them. Just not m|m ships ever. Because shitty fans. Totally. No other reason behind why seeing straight assumed characters being turned into queer fills them with hate. Not at all. This one is on another level because when the other person tells them they have done the exact same things they hate fujoshi over for (change the canon sexuality of character, have a tantrum because a character got canonically announced as gay because it ruined their m|f ship), they responded: Every Yaoi/yuri fan does the same thing to Straight characters. I'm merely doing the same thing. If THEY have all the rights in the world to do that, then I don't see a problem with me doing the same. Other than I'll be Offensive. So basically all of that Is Bad when doing it for the queers. When it’s for the m|f ships (and they better be het!!! Bis don’t exist!!! for some reason!!!), then it’s bad.

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lianhuawu · 5 years

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I am not for this sort of behaviour.

It was funny at first. It was the most hilarious thing I'd seen all day. Kudos op I could have laughed hard enough to get thrown out of my lecture thanks you made my afternoon. First of all, its 2019. You have a problem with someone elses blog content? Unfollow button is right there, pal. So is the block button, but I don't know if you know how to use that one since I can still?? See your blog?? I mean, if you're making a block list, how come the people on it arent, idk, blocked??? Might want to get on that.

Also, lets not kid ourselves here. Literally zero people were asking for this block list. "due 2 popular request'? Lets be real here : You got this idea and decided to drag a few names through the mud for a couple of notes. Cool, cool, thats fine. I respect your right to do whatever you want on your blog. Except, lets not live under the false pretense that everyone in the fandom was clamouring at your doorstep begging you for this block list, yeah?

You have every right to your opinion. Block whoever you like. But there is a difference between being critical and straight up being insulting.You dislike the things I reblog, thats fine. Thats being critical. But calling someone a freak? Thats personal. At that point your opinion stops becoming critical, and just dissolves into “im mad because these people post things i dont like on their own blog!!’

Its very clear you didn’t actually bother to check blogs. I’ll admit some of us have a few nsfw posts on our blogs, but people like aria (mobeis) dont reblog nsfw. I rarely do but thats besides the point. The point is I think what you’ve done is seen whos interacting with who and made us all guilty by association. That kind of ‘if you like them you’re cancelled’ mentality is honestly? Childish.

Also like, I get that you want to protect minors. I agree with you. But in the case of reallygrossmdzsthoughts,,,, the blog name,,,, its,,, reallygrossmdzsthoughts,,the content is in the blog name,,,, what else do you expect to be on there?? Listen, even I dont interact with rgmdzs but you know what? Thats a matter of personal taste. I’m not about to make a callout post just because someone posts something I dont like. Curate your own content. Or like,,,, just learn how to read blog urls,,,

“im a gay trans person and i get to tell you when ur doing shit wrong because you’re not immune’ Yes. You’re right. You do get to do that, but not like this. You’re not immune to basic social decency just because you’re gay and trans. What you could have done is have a civilised adult conversation with notti about what exactly about her content bothers you, instead of posting this 14 year old on a forum in 2003-esque “block list”. Thats what dms are for. And in the end, the person you’re talking to isn’t obliged to change their blog content to cater to you. Thats what unfollow and block buttons are for.

“engaging in media under yaoi and liking one bl tagged novel are two differrent things if you’re not mlm” Listen, I get that fandoms like this tend to have a few fujos in there, but seriously? Are you seriously trying to justify your argument like this? It just,, doesn’t hold water. Only gay men can engage with content like this? Pal, as far as we know, mxtx is straight. I understand that certain content isn’t meant for hets but this? You want us to what, not read books about gay people because we’re not gay?

The point here is, if you’re going to do something, be civil about it. Act like an adult. Have polite discussions instead of posting things that invite drama then captioning it with “i dont want drama!” To all the people hailing this person as a saviour for pointing out ‘toxic’ and ‘freaky’ blogs, I suggest you work on curating your own content before letting a stranger on the internet tell you what to do and who to follow. Also, @feralwangji tag people if you’re going to do things like this. Don’t be chickenshit after a callout.

To all my followers, yall are more than welcome to unfollow at anytime. I love yall but I’m a big believer in curating your own content. If you feel like what I post isnt for you, go ahead and click that unfollow button. Be responsible for your own media consumption. And if you’re going to criticise someone elses content, a least do it with decency. Love yall! <3

#you know if you're looking for a reason to get mad you could always scroll trumps twitter instead #just a suggestion #since you seem to have so much time on your hands to put stuff like this on the internet #freak gang #discourse

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animentality · 5 years

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I've never sent death threats, Anon hate, or insulted someone on the basis of their personal life.

That's why my Tumblr experience, although plagued with toxicity, hasn't driven me completely mad yet.

Because no matter how angry people get at me, they never have enough ammo to shoot me into "cancelled" yet.

They can't write a list of all the "bad things I've told my followers to do" or "the people I've encouraged to harass others" or all the homophobic/racist/sexist/ableist things I've said becausee that and they have no proof of that.

I mean think about it, there are real pieces of shit on Tumblr who actively bully others and spend all of their time sending Anon hate, receiving it, using problematic language, throwing tantrums, stalking blogs they hate.

They open themselves up to hate and to toxicity and arguments.

They leave trails and evidence of all the bitching they've done, and advocating for this or that.

Some people end up saying something racist or doing something incredibly stupid like trying to call out someone for being homophobic when they're gay, or some shit.

If you only ever argue with someone over the basis of their argument, and don't make implicit assumptions about who they are as people, then the worst thing people can do is make assumptions about you.

That are wildly off base.

For example.

The worst thing people have ever had on me?

I told people who were shitting on someone for headcanoning Yuri Katsuki from Yuri on Ice as ace to shut the fuck up and stop harassing her.

That got me called transphobic and homophobic for weeks.

And you know what, none of that personally bothered me much because I know I'm not.

And I know that asexuality is not fucking heterosexuality, nor is headcanoning someone as asexual homophobic.

She explicitly said that she headcanoned Yuri as biromantic, yet people were accusing her and asexuals of being dirty straight cishets...which is funny, given that a lot of them were just straight girls hopping on a yaoi bandwagon that they'd leap off of in a month.

Anyway.

Best way to avoid being completely run off Tumblr?

Eh.

Be like me and be fine with people wildly making shit up about you.

It's the internet, anyone can call you homophobic for nothing. They can call you "scum of the earth" even when nazis exist on Tumblr, lol.

The trick is never giving them the evidence they need to make those cute little call-out compilation posts.

And if they have any evidence at all from your younger days, they'll be so super specific and context based that most people will just shrug and say well I don't know what that means.

So yeah.

That's what I've learned on this toxic waste dump.

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chronikkally · 6 years

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THE KH FANDOM IS TOXIC THAT'S WHY...

This is to an artist I wrote an article talking about. Basically a little something about me and pedophilia. She’s 19 or 20 and I don’t like her. I don’t like her or the girl that accused me of being a pedophile over art. But this was so confusing and I didn’t want to argue with someone that young. I’m 21. I should know better but this was another case of Not knowing all the facts.

I will start it off. Like this, this was last year mind you. I have an imvu account. I’m always off and on imvu. Creating an account. Deleting. I actually enjoy that site because of the avatars.

And I started my first time on imvu, when I was in elementry. I think, maybe middle school.

Imvu is a chat website with 3D avatars in a virtual reality. The site is between good and bad. It’s a 50/50 win or lose type of thing. But last year, back when I had my laptop working. I had an account and got back on it. I was bored and I decided to play with this new upgrade to the chat.

It worked like tinder! I wasn’t planning to date anyone because at the time I was in a so called relationship. Previously I was on a dating website, badoo. Bad choice, don’t do it.

This artist on tumblr. Draws Xaldin from Kingdom Hearts with Lexaeus. She’s lesibian. Not important but to me it was and she had the stupidest reason behind this thing I shall explain.

She accused me of fetishizing, an Iranian. So, I’m swiping on these avatars on imvu. And I come across this guy who doesn’t have an avatar, it’s his face and I’m like he’s kinda ugly but his nose is cute. The thing I notice about guys is their nose. Now, I will admit this. Which is accurate.

If there was anything I truly was fetishizing. It was white men! And I still feel bad and no longer like white guys, in a sexual nature, they have weird dicks. Another reminder I am black. POC. Brown. African american. Whatever. I’m a nigga.

At the time when I swiped right on this boy who was 24 on his profile. He’s 25 now. Moments later he sent me a message and I didn’t think anyone would swipe on my card so this was surprising.

I didn’t get on imvu to date because I thought a boy named Tony Holt was my boyfriend. He said he cuffed me and I believed it. I was wrong. He said he liked black girls but in that way, you know actually fetishizing.

He messages me and says, my interest are funny. And I like making people laugh it gives me good vibes. So I say, I try my best. Eventually he invited me into a private chat and I accepted.

I was nervous as hell because like I said imvu is 50/50 you have some really messed up guys on there. And the last time, some really weird and ugly white dude started kissing all over my avatar like no tomorrow asking if I loved him. So this nice man and I’m saying man because he was one. The first thing he said, would you date a Chinese man?

I was so confused and I moved avatar as far from him to simulate this weird behavior. I wasn’t trying to date him. I ask, are you Chinese? He goes, I’m Iranian. Me: Then why did you ask? Him: I was trying to be funny And goddammit if he wasn’t.

I didn’t know he was Iranian. Nor did I care. It wouldn’t have made a difference if he was or not!

What really made me swipe right. Was because in his card he said he wanted an intellectual conversation with someone. Me, I like to talk, that’s all I wanted.

I ended up moving my avatar to the couch in the private chat but there was still space between our avatars.

He introduces himself. I give him my name. He was confused to why I thought, the first thing he wanted to do was date. Because I was away from his avatar. I remembered being a bit mean. He asked, why are you way over there and I snapped and said this is the not too fucking fast position because the last time somebody put me in a private chat THEY ASKED ME RIGHT OFF THE BACK DO I LOVE THEM AFTER KISSING MY AVATAR.

I remember words like, I don’t bite. And not going to lie. I was smiling because it was cute and I was nervous like.

But when I moved my avatar we talked and it was the best shit ever. Realizing I was having a conversation with somebody that knew shit and wasn’t a dumb ass. I was high.

He asked me about the president and his policies and I said something like fuck him. And he’s surprised. He goes, you don’t like your president? I said fuck no!

The conversation is going. I find out he has an illness. I have an illness I asked how he felt in Canada and asked if he faced any decrimination and I really don’t understand why there is a hatred towards middle eastern people. And the last middle eastern that spoke to me was on tinder. I think he said he was Iraqi. And I feel bad for that. I dogde the shit out of Arab men. Out of respect! I would hate to have an Arab boyfriend and both our families are like why you bring an A-RAB home (my dad) and his family is like what the fuck did you bring home?

Because not everyone is open minded to their children dating outside their race. I hold middle eastern men to a high regard. Like respect the shit out of them. By not talking to them in fear I sound like a racist uneducated ghetto mess! It’s like, you’re a smart man please leave a poor black woman to her slave duties, sir. But the one on tinder was confusing like are you here for sex or a date? And I wasn’t into the whole sex thing. So I ducked and dodged. On imvu, I love Capricorns! I don’t know why. He was a Capricorn. And I was all FUCK YEAH. And I had made him laugh talking about dick because dudes send me ugly dick pictures and I lie to them. I said something about black guy’s dicks changing color and he shared a story how a chick he was dating was real conceited.

My favorite thing. We talked. Laughed and joked. Eventually this huge feeling comes over me. And I wanted to really know him. I was interested as fuck. And last time I spoke with him, it was real short. I messaged him on imvu and he was willing but… Ugh I can’t get that back. Even if he changed his relationship status to in a relationship and I was confused as to why. Because I’m a grandma. If you don’t ask me. Nigga I guess you not interested and I don’t play games so…

Tony Holt came back from working on a rig and all hell broke lose. I think I hurt him. He unfriended me and that hurt me. I still like him. But at the same time. I’m confused, I don’t know if it’s pity or that rich Arab hospitality. One of those, Imma be nice but I don’t like you…ANYMORE BECAUSE HE FUCKING CALLED ME DEAR THE SECOND TIME WE CHATTED. And I’m not going to force him to be with me. Never. But my actions hurt. And I don’t want to slip into another relationship now.

If this is about wanting to date outside my race however. That is the stupidest thing. Rihanna is courting a Saudi! Brittany Spears is courted by an IRANI. AND A DAMN KARDASHIAN IS WITH A MIDDLE EASTERN. So two white heterosexual women and one black Caribbean can do it. But my black ass can’t?

I tried to date outside my race multiple times. What I fetishized were white men! And If I was really fetishizing, I would like a fucking middle eastern to message me and curse me the fuck out then some ass kissing self entiled brat. I don’t like her. She’s 19 and full of shit. Talking about, I draw Arabs and write about them.

NIGGA.

I HAVE A SYRAIN MALE CHARACTER WHO HAS SEVERAL BROTHERS. AND A SISTER AND THEN THERE WAS THE TIME I HAD A CHARACTER FROM YEMEN. FICTIONAL CHARACTERS ARE NOT REAL.

THEY DO NOT HOLD THE SAME VALUES AS A TANGIBLE MOTHERFUCKER. I said a Desi/Arabic woman was super fucking beautiful and thick and I don’t know if it was lesbianism or I was jealous as fuck. I had a stroke and she came into my room while I was in recovery and I just lost my damn voice. Plus. Why are you so concerned with what I reblog? I reblogged Arabic men one time. Some of them were shirtless. They looked good. Maybe the reason I did it was inappropriate but they were good looking men! And some were gay asf.

Oh look at this happy gay Arabic couple. They look so comfortable. You see gay men just hug and suddenly get happy? I don’t know why but seeing guys have this. I’m envious. Because I want a dick and hate my vagina. I’m a transexual? I do not care for my lady parts.

Like what ever the argument is… It’s stupid. Your art doesn’t carry the same shit as an actual middle eastern who comes to America or Canada. They out here getting called all sorts of shit.

You draw a hajabi girl and she gets her hajabi ripped off in your fictional world. You don’t go to an actual breathing tangible hajabi girl and try to relate your fictional shit to her actual pain.

A scenario: Hajabi: Some guy snatched my hajab off An artist: Well, my character Shahira Mohammed got her hajab ripped off her head too.

Scenerio two: Black people: I got called a nigger, I’m biracial An artist: I have a character that’s a slave, so I totally understand.

Scenerio three: Jewish people: I was just breathing when somebody threw money at me and called me a Jew face An artist: I totally understand. Yousef was called a Jesus killer in Chapter eight. It hurt so much to write that.

I still like Ahmad. Him being Iranian doesn’t mean shit to me. But I’ll punch a nigga for him. Middle easterners and Jewish people get the dumbest hate. ‘Oh well, middle easterners uh, 9/11’

One person. Not a whole nation.

‘Jews love money’

First off. Don’t be mad at somebody Jewish for getting off their ass and going to work because you sat down and scratched your ass all day. But please tell me I’m fetishizing.

How the fuck is it okay for some goddamn lesibian of 19 fucking years old. Find it remotely acceptable to draw gay fictional characters in yaoi scenerio if yaoi is also the art of hypersexualized homosexuality.

Because if that doesn’t mean the same damn thing then I might have a second goddamn stroke and I don’t want to die. That’s hypocrisy. Lesibians get the fetishizing thing, too when two homosexual girls are caught in public and a heterosexual man comes and sees they wanna instantly have a three way.

But clearly you don’t understand this. And instead you want to focus on POC, like middle easterners can’t speak the fuck up. If I was doing wrong, why the hell didn’t somebody that was Arabic not come and tell me after all the shit I reblogged. Can you please not reblog my shit? Because if they did I would have gotten the fuck rid of it.

But please explain to my black ass once more how I’m wrong. You fucking brat. You wanna act like an adult be prepared to get talk to like one. No one ever comes out when black women get fetishized. But I guess, in the harshes reality.

1) You once upon a time had a crush on some Arab who rejected you and now your gay.

2) You’re low key fucking racist. You looked through my blog on my now deleted account and ignored that I was a POC who went through this bullshit. And everyone can come after me like. Dude chill she’s 19. Fuck off. She’s reaching a new age of 20 no one is holding your fucking hand through life because you can’t face these things. Grow up. You hurt yourself. Which led to this. I’m not going to let some 19 wannabe important child explain to me what fetishizing is!

I told Ahmad about this. He laughed, said it was amusing. Found out he’s short. He has two brothers. Is the middle child. Is a weed smoker. BECAUSE MEDICAL MARIJUANA.

SHUT THE FUCK

#kingdom hearts #accusing #‎thegaleandlance #hypocrisy #fetishism #bullshit

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ridleytheknight · 7 years

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Parker Luck Part 1

This is going to be a little different from what I usually do… but dammit if I haven’t fallen in love with Peter Parker Angst and Tony Stark being an overprotective Iron Dad. I love it. I love it too much. Don’t worry thought starlings! Langst will still come! I will only add to it! (Maybe some Ereri one shots too. If it’s yaoi, or angst, it will be full game on this account!) I hope you enjoy!

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Honestly, where ever Peter did something, it was all in, or nothing. It was either done so seamlessly and so well, you could mistake it as mastery or art. Or he failed so bad it was like a bard rolling a one on a stealth check. A complete failure.

He would stop a robbery, either coming out unscathed and looking amazing while doing it, or he barely managed to stop the robbery, limping awkwardly away with multiple bruises and sometimes if he got lucky enough, broken bones. Those were the nights he had to play doctor and set his own bones without telling Aunt May- there were only so many times you could claim you got mugged before people start wondering if everything’s alright at home- and then it would be rinse and repeat for the next crime he stopped.

School, he either was perfect. Grades all hundreds, nothing phasing him at all, gym going pretty well, and he was able to sneak under Flash’s radar and come out fine. Melting into the scenery and lockers like a ninja and making it out with not a hair out of place. Other times. He scraped by with nineties, gym kicking his ass, and Flash making him a public spectacle of humiliation. Multiple times per day.

And the most unpredictable and inconvenient give and take. Secrets. Either, his secrets stayed in the dark for many years. Never to see the light of day even to Aunt May. Or they stayed under loose wraps, slowly unraveling and choking Peter in a tight hold. The lies wrapping and shoving their toxic words down his throats and trying to expose as much of themselves as possible to the truth and light. Slowly gaining attention from the ones he cared about until he could get it under control again. Shove it into the dark. Nothing’s gotten away from him yet. But honestly. Things never stayed away forever. And that terrified Peter.

But through it all, Peter always had one. Consistent. Constant. Little thing.

Rotten luck.

That’s probably what true to god ended him up in this situation in the first place. Sitting in a hammock made of web on top of his apartment building and going through his head on how long he could make twenty dollars last on a New York City street.

Honestly, he didn’t blame Aunt May. Not at all. Not one single piece of him did. Her nephew was staying out at night, coming home rarely and at all hours. Usually acting suspicious and weird-from his hidden injuries-. Acting skittish and jumpy, as if something were coming to get him constantly, never explaining anything to her, and always waking up in the middle of the night clammy, shaky and pale. Mouth wide in a silent scream that never leaves his lips. It wasn’t a surprise to him that she’d think up theories to her beloved nephew’s behavior.

It was a surprise however when she accused him of being on drugs and kicking him out of the house until he proved her could “get clean” or explain himself to her; why he was going and doing this to her, their family. And Peter honest to god did want to tell her. More than anything. The secret itched and bubbled underneath his skin. Begging to be told. But guilt and worry kept it down. Now, Peter was sure that if he tried to explain himself it wouldn’t make things much better. After all, what Aunt/Mother figure would believe something that would go a little like this?

‘Hey Aunt May, the reason I’ve been lying to you for almost a year now is because I’m sneaking out to fight crime in the dead of night with inhuman abilities given to me by a spider bite on a school field trip and web slingers I made in chemistry class. I also have a multi-million-dollar suit from Tony Stark as part of the internship I got for doing this. Do you know Spider man?’

Yeah, that would go over well. It would more likely end him up locked away in some rehab recovery center or a mental health care facility than get him home. Which was not good his school work or the ‘internship’.

Though, it might be a little bit warmer in the rehab center right now. His body shuddered, curling his limbs closer to his chest and huddling into his little homemade hammock on the roof and him and May’s apartment building. At least it was only spring, May wouldn’t be mad forever, she would take him back in soon. She always did. When things got bad like this she only disappeared for a day or two. This time it was his turn to stay away he guessed. But she’d let him come home soon after she cooled off.

If she didn’t cool off soon though… Peter wasn’t going to think about that. May wouldn’t leave him out forever. She wouldn’t let him go hungry and cold on the streets. May was good to him, she’d let him come back in a day or two and everything would get sorted out. Right now, Peter just had to survive temperature sensitivity -along with his other enhanced senses-, a heightened metabolism, and twenty dollars.

Rotten luck.

Luck wasn’t a lady; she was the old lady that smacked you with her hand bag.

At least he had twenty dollars though. He’d gotten lucky to find it just blowing in the wind as he went on patrol. Otherwise he would have had to just pray May let him come home, beg if he had to. Though, begging might make it worse. Peter knew when he could press his boundaries. Now, he knew it was like the times before May and Ben. Stay at arm’s length and cross his fingers.

The anxiety and worry was melting away as the seconds ticked by though, sluggishly crawling into acceptance and drowsiness as the night sky and familiar sounds of traffic sunk into his body. Pulling his eyelids to droop, trying to make them shut tight on him. Urging his tired and overworked body and mind to take a breather, make a plan to sort things out in the morning. And it honestly sounded like a great idea. Peter giving into it and just praying for one night with a dreamless sleep. He was tired enough to not dream anyway.

He should have realized he couldn’t be that lucky.

Loudly blaring and vibrating against his chest, Peter felt like he’d been electrocuted as his body jolted him awake and alert at the stimuli. Slapping him awake with a shot of adrenaline, wiring him so any sleepiness danced away from even his farthest-reaching fingertips. Peter contemplated ignoring and rejecting the call. It was tempting.

But what if it was May calling him back?

It wasn’t very likely, but that didn’t mean Peter’s hands didn’t struggle getting his hands on the old flip phone to hit the answer button, desperately pulling it to his ear. Almost hearing her voice, the moment, he answered and his voice spilled out a few words before he could even stop them.

“Aunt May?” A deeper and rougher tone than her soft voice exited the phone speaker right after the words had been said. Making Peter internally curse at himself as the realization hit him that May wouldn’t call after only two hours. It was stupid of him to assume that.

“Nope. You disappointed kid? Either way, you’re supposed to be home by now, don’t you have a curfew? A curfew I’ve painstakingly made for you?” There was an amused tilt to his voice that made Peter’s lips quirk up and his chest to fill up with some warmth. A soft chuckle bubbling up in his chest. Tony Stark.

Oh shit. Tony Stark.

His nerves lit up like a firecracker in his body. Exploding and causing tingling worry all the way to his slightly numb toes. Perfect or a failure. Either he was going to be about as see through as a window, or he will be the door that blocks everything. Well, time to make up an excuse on the fly. Luckily, he had a little practice with that, maybe he had a chance with not looking like a stupid whiny kid on the phone with Mr. Stark.

“Am I hearing the silence right? Is Mr. Peter ‘Golden Boy’ Parker breaking the rules,” A sarcastic gasp. “I never thought the day could exist.” Peter snarked back.

“Haha, Mr. Stark, but I am home.” On the roof of May’s apartment building. So not a lie yet? Technically? The hammock would be his home for a small while anyway too. And the tracker couldn’t tell heights. It didn’t have an altitude check yet. Peter would have to make sure to get Ned to help him disable that if that ever became a thing. He was sure Ned would help him out without questioning it. Much. “I’m just waiting for May to get back, why? Do you need me?”

The excitement in his voice was fake to his own ears, but he forced it through his throat anyway. Forced himself to try and do his nervous word ramble, but a sentence was all that would come out. A bad try was better than nothing at all. Anything was better than nothing honestly at this point. But he was hoping that it really wasn’t anything. He was tired, confused, and definitely not stable enough or in the right mind set to be the wild, quipping, friendly neighborhood everyone knows and loves.

Spiderman was just not going to come out though. Not naturally at least. Peter just crossed his fingers that he wouldn’t have to force that out too. Forced wit was never as funny natural jibes. Not to mention Tony could read him like a book when he was Spiderman.

“Hold your enthusiasm, but yes, I may only slightly need your help in tuning up with suits with a few concept designs. So, are you free this Friday? Happy can come to pick you up, the subways are way too slow. And seriously? Does it really take two hours to get here from Midtown?” Peter nodded with a small laugh.

“Yeah it kinda does. But yeah! Friday will work, that work great!” He should be back with Aunt May by then. She never stayed angry or left him alone for longer than two days. And it was only Tuesday today. Yeah, he’d be fine. Nothing would happen to him in such a short amount of time.

“Good, see you then kid. Don’t die or do anything I would do until then.” And Tony hung up the phone after Peter bid his own farewell and Peter couldn’t put the phone down. His chest constricting and his breath hitching as the old anxiety crept back in. Surprising Peter when he realized just how much better even the short conversation had made him feel. And how easily the loneliness clawed back into his skin as the silence settled in. Peter shook the thoughts out of his head and just squirmed deeper into his hammock, phone pressed around his chest as his arms curled around it protectively.

He’d be fine. He could hold out for a day or two. May always left and she was always fine when she came back. And he was what? Fifteen? He could take care of himself for a couple days, it wouldn’t be that bad. Peter swallowed down the pit that sank into his stomach, it burned uncomfortably from his torso to his throat and chest. A stark contrast to his cold skin. His heart thrumming and threatening to leap out of his chest. It was almost painful. Peter took a deep breath. He’d be fine.

Probably.

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