#but im just so frustrated and burned out

[ilynpilled]

why must everything that the text clearly states atp be misconstrued like i really dont get it he has plenty of flaws in that relationship but we, and cersei, know that he was ready to kill robert for just the disrespect of the cheating if cersei said the word. he doesnt concern himself with the personal consequences, he is reckless, detached from a lot of things, and can close his eyes at the future if he doesn’t want to acknowledge it. also the concern over the “shame” and ned type judgement feels so overestimated to me atp. he never regrets aerys, he is mad at how he is perceived (but again, notably doesnt try to rectify it by telling the truth for a lot of complex reasons), but he would never take it back. if he believes its the right thing to do, and is not overdosing on copium trying to juggle vows he cares about, he will do it, reputation be damned. though he has selfish concerns regarding being viewed as good, the internal matters so much more than the external: see weirwood dream: who actually shows up? what makes the fire go out? “it was not him. it was never him”, see the trebuchet fiasco, see the choice in adwd. why shouldnt we take cersei at face value when she implies that if jaime knew about the physical abuse he would have killed him? he loves and cares about cersei to an insane degree, even if he can be selfish toxic and unhealthy too. i really find it very very difficult to imagine that he wouldnt have killed him based on almost every single part of his characterization.

#ik its better to reply than to do this but i dont use my twitter for fandom and i keep seeing this general sentiment over and over again #like it makes him so inconsistent and nonsensical #i don’t understand this whole jaime was never there for cersei prehandloss he was at her disposal for almost everything he would have maimed #a child just bc she asked like what??? #u think that wouldnt have shamed him?? #he gave up almost everything for her at 15 #and im gonna be real if u r frustrated by jaime burning the letter being framed as this grand triumphant redemptive choice #by people #which i get i dont think its framed like that either #its just as unfair to treat it as the opposite #it is the end of a certain delusion #which is why the joanna dream is the focal point #and #he can divorce himself he has no obligation to die to try save her atp #and remain her sword #i dont see him as the literal devil for that sorry #i feel like some of u feel the need to misconstrue his character to make some of these choices out to be as bad as possible

[damn-it-a-hogwarts-legacy-blog]

Ominis Gaunt's eyes are proof that we truly don't deserve this angel of a boy

#LOOK AT HOW PRETTY HE ISSSS #im gonna cry he's so perfect #i came home so exhausted and frustrated and burned out so i turned on the game #Ominis has cured all my woes #you do NOT wanna see my screenshots folders #they're literally just this over and over and over #hogwarts legacy #deek thinks you should be proud of all the screenshots you've taken

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i called my dad and he's gonna fly out tomorrow #i feel so bad dragging him out here just bc im having some sort of breakdown #he's already been thru so much in the last 2 months. i hate that ive added to his stress #i dont kno how im gonna get things done this week. or how im gonna get thru the rest of the semester. or what im gonna do this summer #my life just feels like an absolute disaster. it's all been leading up to this: a catastrophic meltdown #but im stuck not being able to meet with my counselor until may 6th. not that it was very helpful last time. nor was my emergency session on #Thursday. i just dont kno what to do. so that makes it hard for ppl to help. i just feel like im a child throwing a tantrum #i just want to burn it all down. im so tired. i dont kno y i picked a career that makes me feel so stupid #maybe i should just stop. defer a semester or stop altogether and do something else #i dont have the self discipline to do something so far above my head. i dont care enough. i dont care about anything #ugh. but my dad is coming tomorrow so i should clean my room and try to get my assignments done before he gets here #ugh. this just sucks. its so stupid and frustrating #unrelated

[eggwishing]

little peek at somethjing i am cooking up ...

#this is rlly rough but rn im just blocking everything out #i have like 6.5 pages sketched so far this is already going faster than last time i think..^_^ #im having a blast also #im tryna rewire my brain . every time i think Blehhh i hate drawing i just want to see it done i gotta stop n correct myself #like Hey wait you actually love drawing why are you telling yourself this The process is frustrating sometimes but that comes with art #i had to redraw this one page like 4 separate times and i still didn't feel like giving up #like yeah i was feeling pressed but at the same time i was being patient with myself #like this is part of improving Stop laying on the floor and wondering why you're even doin this you've always loved it #only drawing when u know it's gonna turn out good defeats the whole purpose of learning #also i added cal last minute to this comic and im gladi did he's so creeepy #im very excited to get this done Not impatient like i was before #im impatient for people to see it yeah lol but not w myself #and im not gonna be all like “yeah we'll see how long this lasts lol” bc i think that's already setting myself up for burning out #i have hope that i can keep enjoying art like this I just need to change the way i think #and accept the messy n ugly. the perfect is the enemy of the good #aaron blaise really inspires me. he sincerely loves what he does and i want to be like that #this is also gonna be more comic-like Panelwise i think #scott pilgrim n my bro inspired me #also the way cal's face cuts off on the right makes sense in context he's peekin from behind a chair

[bugsoda]

im so serious it is fucking exhausting being angry at society

#im bad at words so i hope this doesnt seem like im discouraging anger because im not. anger is what gets things done. #but it also takes such a fucking toll on everyones mental health to be in a constant state of anger and frustration because that anger #isnt being translated into change as fast as we’d like and it sucks. #this is just a reminder i guess to find something simple to enjoy. the sound of rain. a hobby. whatever #you can find enjoyment in aspects of life and you are not less of a person for that #if everyones anger burns out then change will be slower #but we need to be angry when it counts

[bangcakes]

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#guess who's goin nutso crazy over the same guy again. ya its me JDJJDDJJDJDNDNDNX #things have been Progressing. n like this is slow burn territory so its like a . ... he messaged me first outta the blue. ABOUT SCHOOL. #BABY STEPS. ... #god i cant believe i may have met a guy who's as slow as me JDJDJDDJDJDDJDJDJD #im frustrated but im also like enjoying it. #and like maybe him messaging me doesnt seem like a big deal but OH IT IS. IT ISSS. #like woth him.... this is an Accomplishment #he also like... waits for me after class so we can walk together #he used to JET out the room like a rocket #but god... GOD. he waited all last week for me. oh i like him sooooo muchhhhh #n i hope its mutual #n e way HDJDJJDJDJDJDJDJD #this isnt even far but to me its like.... the farthest ive ever got with a guy ive liked this much #which isnt really saying anything JDJDJDJDJJDJD but only bc ive never liked someone so much b4. hes just so cute. like just everything about #him !!!!@@@ like even when hes grumpy n complaining im like oh ur so cute... (in my head of course JDJDJDJDJDJ) #personal

[annabylers]

Not to be sappy on main but Alexa what are you supposed to do when the boy you've been deeply madly crazily in love with for 3+ years starts giving hints(or maybe im just looking too much into it) that he maybe probably likes you too??????

#listen im so madly in love with this idiot in my class who was also my best friend for like almost 2 years before covid hit #we somehow completely lost touch during the lockdown and I have neverissed someone more in my entire life #the almost 2 years at home also made me realise how much I love with him #after the lock down finally ended I found out that he's moved to another fucking CITY #the universe seems to like me because we started texting again a few months ago #and now he keeps doing some thing that make me think that he has feelings for me and I dont know what to do about it #I legit feel like im living like a 100 chapter slow burn fic (possibly one-sided??) #and its fucking frustrating #I know this is all a little too personal but I have been keeping it in for way too long and need to get it off my chest a little #byler #not byler related at all but I just love you guys way too much #vent #there are way too many typos in the tags but im way too tired to fix them

[aroacettorney]

perhaps the reason why aup ended like *that* is because it was not supposed to have a happy ending in the first place, but sayren didnt have the guts to deal with readers' backlash for when they finally kill off the main character so a half baked happy ending is what we get 😔

#for a happy ending of a story to be narratively satisfying the characters gotta actively work hard for it #this happy ending feels empty because quite frankly speaking ludger did nothing to deserve it #he has zero character developments from the beginning to the end and has always been the same #well except for his emotional state getting worse over time #bc instead of making any attempt at all to healthily address it like a mentally mature 40yo adult he let it swallow him whole #(not that im necessarily blaming him but its quite frustrating to see him remain unchanged if aup is meant to be a redemption story) #his OPness is inherent #his genius is inherent #(this is not to say he isnt hardworking / only relying on his inborn talents but the author repeatively failed the 'show dont tell' checks) #(bc it was only implied in the past and we've never truly seen it in the canon present timeline either) #his kindness is inherent #ngl dad!ludger content doesnt appeal to me as much as dad!edgeworth cuz the latter is the fruit of the character's growth and hard labor #while the former is well... its just who he is #usually i love found family content but in aup it bores my mind out bc his interactions w the students + owens are so static & predictable #it was heartwarming at the moment of adoption but later on i find it as tedious as reading generic established romantic relationships #was it because of the lack of tensions and conflicts i wonder #they all became his yes men and no one ever actively challenged his unhealthy mindset or behaviors #anyway id have been more interested if he recognized his biases/favoritism/prejudices towards some certain characters & worked to change it #but welp. that would require character growth which is too much to expect from him ig #he has learnt quite nothing from his journey and tbh aup would ironically feel more meaningful if it ended on a tragic note #ofco i got noblesse'd again 😔 #would i kill for aup to have a happy ending? yes #would i rather have a sad ending over the half baked and empty good ending we get? also yes #if it must burn then let the whole world burn. cuz at least it would be more much memorable and impactful that way #and i wouldnt have to feel this disappointed and lose all of my interests in one of my only two beloved aroace MCs in aup </2 #rant

[atinyladybug-daydreams]

Advice from experience: Be VERY careful on spending money on games, especially if what you're spending money on is like, limited events and shit.

Once you're in, you're IN and it's very, very hard to get out of mostly because of guilt and not wanting to put down stuff you've spent hours grinding for.

#alt rambles #rants in tags #recently started putting down and breaking off of a game that i've been grinding on for two years #and realised how much more time i have on my hands #and how much less draining my daily life is #and that i have more energy and time to do stuff instead of spending 2-3 hours every day to grind on the game #yea i spent 2-3 sometimes 4 hours per day just playing this game on a daily basis for the last 2 years #because i spent money and a shit load of time and effort in it #so putting it down genuinely makes me feel a lot of guilt #cause i feel like its such a waste #but like idk #i got really frustrated the other day and so burned out i gave myself a few days break and hoenstly im doing so much better than before #and i actually have time to do other stuff and do more art that now im starting to like #not want to go back to playing the game anymore #lmao yea if you know me you know what game im talking about #i mean i still love the game but damn was it fucking predatory and its only gotten worse thanks to new updates imo #it was fun before and now its just endless grinding #anyways #its another reason why i dont wanna pick up playing genshit even though i really want to #cause i finally got scara (thanks friend who logs in sometimes) #cause like i know genshit will also do that to me smh #anyways idk its just been on my mind lately about how i have unhealthy relationships with a lot of video games #i think im just going to stick to games like sdv and sr that don't have event after event #so thta i can go for breaks without feeling bad or like im missing out

[matchandelure]

for two weeks every four months i become math’s biggest hater, and for the rest of the time im just an average hater (very sad and frustrated)

#officially done half of my finals...just the other half left #and included in that half is...the dreaded calculus ii final exam god im so scared #my eyes are burning my wrist hurts my back aches from sitting in a chair for hours staring at three different screens doing practice #probelms that stopped making sense about. 2 hours ago #i hate differential equations so much why do we need to know these things. like. when will i ever need to know how to integrate by parts #when in life will i ever need to know whether a series converges absolutely conditionally or diverges #when am i ever going to need to understand volumes of revolutions w the stupid washers and shells and GRAAH #im going to be petty tongiht bc i know that this math cant even be considered hard bc its literally just fundamental courses #but im going to let myself be sad bc once i get out the sad and frustrated and mad i can go back to deriving power series of things #and everyone learns and processes things at different rates and its ok if i need to take twice as long to understand a theorem and proof #then a classmate who can understand it just by reading the course notes once. yeah #i actually feel pathetic rn. cant believe a first year math course has me this worked up. just need to get my shit together next study term #and stop complaining over every little thing #actually last little thing i love the ratio test it has done nothing wrong ever i love it so much (i hate the integral test) #limit comparison you are on thin fucking ice. ast you are just behind the ratio test #willows rambling branch

[weenie-kun]

how do u figure out what u like to do. i know its gotta be hands on but u have to weigh pros and cons and its breaking my brain scales. actually. tell me what to do instead. i am tired of thinking

#im not even excited for school its just #end goal is money and i know that can cause u to burn out #i guess ill be motivated by fear of going back to a worse job i hated?? that can work?? i guess #its so frustrating like UGH FINE i GUESS ill try not to suffer or whatever #ive never had a will of my own it sucks having a brain like this. free me #txt #UUUUUGHHB

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Itachi, babe, I'm sorry for all the mean things I said abt u... but also I was right when I said them. Fuck u.

#this is how i feel abt itachi #i want to pick him up and shake him until his brain falls out of his head #then i could wash the konoha propaganda from his mind and turn him into a cat boy housewife type #he just wants to take care of his bby brother. y r u making him murder ppl? #god the fucking uchiha. fucking konoha. its all fucked #burn it all down. there is no recovering #itachi is a good man. but also he distoryed sasukes brain and i cannot forgive him for that #its so sad and frustrating bc he feels like this was inevitable when it really really wasn't #unrelated #naruto ramblings #the kakashi anbu arc is so good. i lov #lmao im so outta focus i gotta get up at 4am to go to the airport

[todayisafridaynight]

SORRY im a bitch but masumi mever actually apologizes to Ichi. i went through the trouble of finding the raw jp sub just to confirm a suspicion LMAO but it's more like "i troubled you with masato" and ichi immediately goes on defensive saying it's no trouble

NONETHELESS he does not apologize and yet i think your post is still valid........... Anyway sorry i just dislike some of the adaptations made from jp-eng it mischaracterizes some of the characters in a couple of scenes

i cant be mad about a correction LMAO THANK YOU (mfers who should be apologizing are the hooligans outside of my window rn shut up it's 10PM ☠️☠️)

#snap chats #im just a dumb american who only bothers to have access to the localization translations of the japanese and english dubs #so im always grateful for the extra step people take to double check #tho it does make me realize /i/ should probably start to care more too.. it makes me look foolish #though you say the post is valid i feel like deleting it now- i wont tho just so this ask doesnt look bizarre out of context #thats the frustrating part of translation isnt it: its a delicate craft and doing it one way can really botch things #'i troubled you' and 'burdening' someone are in the same vein but the injection of 'sorry' really does change the tone of the statement #i guess it can be implied that he's sorry but that's very different from outright saying it #in any case my ears are burning and i dont like that SO im going to chug this seltzer #no im not i have a tummy ache :( #euuugh i dont want to write about reagonomics.. #ill do it in a minute just gimme a sec..

[pigeonenjoyer]

FAT PIGEON HAS RETURNED I MISSED HIM SO MUCH 🥺

#fat pigeon tag #wood pigeon #columba palumbus #for weeks he was just fighting that other pigeon constantly and rarely did anything else #so he never visited and i got increasingly worried abt him #feathers were flying everywhere and even here you can see he's missing a lot of feathers and is much skinnier #i wish males weren't so territorial :( #ik it's the circle of life and natural selection and shit but i was worried fat pigeon was gonna be bullied out of his home #and it's not safe out there there are so many cattis that are excellent hunters and my dogs scare them away from here so it's safer #but he's back now and im so glad bc first of all im lov him and second of all i needed this #i've been in kind of a slump lately bc im just really burned out #existence itself is tiring for me and owl city wasn't lying when he said ''im far too tired to fall asleep'' #bc my insomnia ironically gets worse when im burned out and need more sleep and i get endlessly frustrated with it #and i've just been so. not knowing what to do with myself?? bc like i have adhd so i can't do nothing that's torture #but everything else just compounded my fatigue and when you mix that with depression you get everything that usually chers you up just #not being fun anymore. and being just another Thing that tires you out even more #it's so hard to get out of those slumps bc it's not just mental it's physical. i've been physically exhausted #and anything i could have done to get myself out of it required energy i didn't have #but then i saw fat pigeon and just. my mood did a complete 180 #i have been so happy and energetic today and obviously all my problems aren't magically solved but that's what it feels like #like i feel like im top of the world rn?? there is a reason this blog is titled ''antidepressants with wings'' bc that's what pigeons are #to me at least. i love them sm 🥹 #i wish there was a way i could tell fat pigeon that i would literally die for him and he's changed my life #ok so i MAY have bipolar disorder. but idc im gonna ride this high as long as i can

[saintslips]

neg -

#negative cw #ooc. #so im luckier than most that my mom understands things r difficult in the world rn #but at the same time she keeps saying that my mindset is the issue n thats why im not financially stable at 24 and not like having a better #job thats not retail #like a Grown Up Job #and i just wanna be like #ALL OF THESE CIRCUMSTANCES R OUT OF MY CONTROL #I KNOW WHAT U WANT IM TRYING BUT THERE IS ONLY SO MUCH I CAN DO!!!!!!!! #like do u not see the world burning outside ur window and u wanna say its my MINDSET holding me back ??? #or bc i dont push myself hard enough??? #im so frustrated work is cutting our hours in the middle of fucking summer #and my apartment is fairly cheap but still expensive bc living u know #but like its My Fault for having the mindset i do like HUH #idk im so mad and upset and tired rn