#but im doing my best with what I've got

[ink-on-the-brink]

I've gotten a lot of asks about when the next story update is and why it's taking so long so I thought I'd just give all of you a very simple answer.

What if I said I was working on a TF2 visual novel?

#It's no where near done #and might take a really long time to finish #but I am working on it #let it be known that I have zero coding expirence and I'm using a visual novel maker app #but im doing my best with what I've got #if you guys are interested I'd be happy posting updates #tf2 #tf2 visual novel #tf2 x reader

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[gnomeantics]

just finished young royals and i'm truly regretting wearing my shitty non-waterproof mascara today because holy shit!!!!! oh my god!!!!!!!

#MAN #i couldn't watch the final season when it came out so i've only just finished it #and OH MY GOD. OMFG!!!!!! #i really wasn't sure they were going to make it i was already crying #when there were like 10 minutes left of the episode i was like omg are they going to save it in that time... will it be ok... #and like it got to the point where i was thinking i would have to learn to live with this #and the ending would be bittersweet and id have to deal with that #but OMG!!! THEY SAVED IT #i fully started to sob at ''what the hell do you think'' #like omg... truly im so fucking happy rn i was preparing for the worst and we got THE BEST!!!!!! #young royals #yr #<33 #yapping

[illusionsofdreaming]

To this day I hope you post again 🙏

it's always tough receiving messages like these, since as a reader myself, I know the feeling of patiently waiting for a writer to post - be it meals or crumbs.

yet to be honest, I have no idea what to post anymore. I feel completely rusted in writing - I have the feeling of wanting to post but I can't seem to stop hating everything I write.

It's also been so long since I've read TCF, I'm not sure anything I write now will be relevant. My only comfort is that TCF's community has grown so much since I first started writing, nowadays you'll find plenty of better content out there haha

I, too, hope I post again in the future. I love reading and though I often go through an intense cycle of hatred for my own works, I always come back to writing.

So I do hope I do write and I wonder what I should write nowadays? Do people still read reader inserts?

More TCF?

New series...?

Anyways, I hope everyone who's still haunting this blog, a very, very nice weekend~

#chatter #it's been so long I've forgotten my own tags #nonny whoever you are I've failed you #failed everyone following actually #oh gosh #it sounds quite depressing but im just reflecting #perhaps I should start posting again? something small? #it took me days to respond to this message because I don't know what to say except i'm a bad writer ;m; #I hope everyone's doing well though #if you've got some new stories to share I'm all ears #I'd love to know who are the best sellers in TCF writing nowadays haha #perhaps I can be inspired by them #or.. maybe i should focus on my wips first ouch

[quirkle2]

i wish i wouldn't do this to myself. why do i buy games on steam and then not play them for a while and then hate them and request a refund way outside of the refund time window

#qktalks #this is about sonic frontiers . imso fucking sorry #the game LOOKED awesome it looked fun. the beginning is terrible i feel pained to even say it #feels clunky. won't stop FUCKING bothering you with tutorials #killed the first boss and the game literally said ''hey it dropped something. that's important btw. pick it up. don't forget to pick it up' #i am playing a video game. what else am i going to do. #it definitely feels like breath of the wild if it constantly bothered u like every ten feet with reminders #imso sorry sonic frontiers. u had sm potential. u Have so much. i am simply a whiny bitch #also the game looks . surprisingly bad ? #i thought it would look a lot better. it doesn't look shitty by any means but it also doesn't .....look good #the voice acting at the beginning too leaves ...smth to be desired #i have a mutual (hi parker) who loves sonic parker if ur reading this im on my hands and knees begging for forgiveness /silly #this is my first sonic game so maybe it was just not the best first choice ? idk #still love u sonic ur a silly little guy #actually the refund window is 14 days and i've had the game for 16 days ......... so maybe i can still make it #maybe . idk #steam please . i got it on sale i got it half off please just give me my $30 back.im hungry steam #<- lives with her parents and does not buy the food

[velvetwyrme]

Hey! I just wanted to let you know that somebody has posted your comic sans comic on reddit in the Undertale subreddit as well as the general comic subreddit. They’ve credited you in the comments and everything, but I just wanted to give you a heads up in case they didn’t ask you first/if you’re not cool with it.

... Huh. Thank you for letting me know- I don't use Reddit, so I had no idea :')!!

They didn't ask, and I'm not a fan of reposting, but I do appreciate the credit (and the fact that they have been correcting people on That One Panel)

Honestly, I'm not sure how to feel about this!! On one hand I'm flattered that it was... "cool" enough to get shared to another site, but on the other hand I'm a little miffed that it was reposted in the first place?

I... is there even anything I can do here?? What is Reddit etiquette? I know reposting is pretty common there, and I'm not really inclined to report them or ask them to take it down if that's part of the post economy/ecosystem, you know?

Thank you again for letting me know, but I uh. have no idea what to do about this!

#they also linked my ao3 😭 i appreciate it but also. MY AO3...... #is there even anything i can do in this situation?? ik with other sites it's best to report them but idk what reddit etiquette is like #idk i have mixed feelings on this #im... egh. i dont want people. reposting my stuff in general #but it is kinda funny to see the reddit comments in a way that doesnt directly impact me i guess? #if anyone has any advice feel free to shoot?????? like. i dont know if i *should* care about this specific occurrence of reposting lol #the ideal situation is that Guardian_Eatos67 simply sends me every single reddit comment on either post #(JOKING) if you see this please don't do that #oh my god i jsut looked at the numbers on reddit thats so scary #can i just. drop in with my reddit account lol?? #like hi. im the original creator. thank u for comments I've finally made it as an artist im being reposted to other sites #'come read my creators commentary.' #'and commission me' #LOL #velwy.txt #inbox #anon #WAIT IS THIS WHY I GOT A RANDOM INFLUX OF FOLLOWERS OUT OF NOWHERE??

[shepherdenjoyer]

sometimes when i get stuck in my own head and doubts i wonder if a shepherd is the right choice but then i think about it, and there is nearly nothing, if anything at all that i, in theory, dislike about those dogs. i could make a whole list. hell you could make a list and i'd go through and be like, yeah, i'll take that.

#mine #i know it will be a wild ride and maybe one day i'll even be proven wrong about what i just said but for now. yeah. i'll stick to it #i want a dog that will take me out into the world and lead me to opportunities and experiences i would've never even thought of on my own #and like. i am expecting some struggles. i know things wont be perfect all the way through it would be silly to think they would be #but its a challenge im willing to take on and doing my best to prepare for #i will give my world for this future dog #and all the ones that will come after as well because i cant imagine my life without a dog by choice tbh #i know i sound dramatic but !!! i feel very strongly about this !!! #i've also had this nagging feeling that people all around me disapprove of this decision/goal/want #but i've got to live a little and stop being so preoccupied about what people that i dont even know think #i'll take feedback but not just from anyone #a lot of rambling this evening but god i just love dogs so much i love dutchies so much. i think calling it a passion would be appropriate

[atalana]

having one of those nights where i'm just. extremely frustrated about fatphobia's existence and the fact that whatever i do to try and change it will be a drop in the ocean and there'll always be people who think i'm just saying this because i'm lazy

#and by night i mean its 5am but shhhhh #what sucks is i was actually building my acting confidence back up quite a bit with my delirium stuff #and i still do wanna do more of that! #but i got reminded that regardless of how good an actor i am i don't meet the 'must be this skinny to have emotions' bar #so i could only ever play her over the internet where people can't see my body #which is especially dumb bc she has like 60% of a physical form at best and yet its always a skinny one #and like i love sandman but it has a fatphobia problem. and the show has not exactly rectified it #kinda wanna draw despair skinny and the other endless not to turn the whole depression = overweight thing on its head #bc hell depression also = underweight and frankly i'd rather have no fat characters at all than her be the only one #but i fear that would get misconstrued and i don't wanna bring down that kinda hate on my head #and like i know i can't change what i look like i've tried i gotta be happy with this eventually #but i see no difference between comic despair and myself in the mirror #and sometimes it makes me feel like im two minutes away from growing tusks #so whoooooo oversharing on the internet #just. i wanna punch something but the something is society so unfortunately that's not really possible #okay to rb if you want i give zero fucks about this being shared im just keeping it in the tags bc that's polite

[savage-rhi]

🫂😪

#hey I've been on a bit of a hiatus with writing and other projects #answering this cause ive had some anons asking for updates on drabble requests #leaving a toxic job that I endured for a year #getting a new job and new enviornment #finding out I had a whole ass other family I didn't know existed #and trying to keep up with the cost of living has taken a huge toll #on my mental health and wellbeing #to the point where I had to take time off my new job and go on a peer respite #i got back the other day and I'm doing better #but my mental health isn't 100% #and my chronic pain has been fluctuating a lot cause of stress #i know i don't owe anyone details about what i go through #but i like being transparent #and this makes it easier than answering 6-10 anons asking me for an update #i am not sure when im gonna fulfill drabble requests but they'll come when they come #and you can keep sending in stuff i dont mind it at all #just know i gotta take care of me right now #and I'll be slower answering stuff #take care of your mental health and bodies the best you can #im always rooting for ya #and to end on a good note #i got accepted into a masters program for clinical counseling and therapy #only 25 people could get in and somehow i got it #idk how im gonna get financial aid for it but im gonna try #im excited and nervous #i might have more vo stuff coming too idk yet but im trying not to do too much at once #if yall could do me a solid and drop something cool in the comments and let me know how your life is going id love that #especially if you got good news to share #i could use more of that right now #love you guys and here's a hug and a biscuit from me

[diwns]

hello friends, this is no longer a sims blog & im not returning to ts4 anytime soon 🫡

#got myself a ps5 :') now i can play more interesting games while not having to think about building a pc & budget & billion other things atm #and i prefer console over pc so it's just a personal preference #yeah it would be nice to have reshade/mod installed i want to take pretty pictures 😭 but we make do #anyway ive been wanting to play assassin's creed for soooo long but couldn't #(not financially just that the switch & ts4 alone cause me enough distraction from being a decent human with responsibility and a life) #first dipped my toes with black flag but it definitely wasn't made with potential consumer in mind #the game literally: ig you've played the other 3 so you know what to do. NO I DONT?? #not beginner friendly at all i was overwhelmed 😭 #so i restarted with origins since they literally reboot the series and #it was the best decision i've ever made!! reliving my childhood egypt fantasy with the badass medjay bayek of siwa 🫡 #also the game!! exploring ancient egypt tomb raiding assassinating rp as bayek a wholesome man at heart #so yeah! im enjoying every second of it!! be it ps5 or the game 😋 #dippi.txt

[izzy-b-hands]

I'm going to do dishes, and when they're done, I'll have a final idea for my zine draft that will be better than the-

*checks gdocs page*

Current five drafts, two of which are over word count so can't be used (but might survive as just. fics I publish on my own at some point if I can get my brain to not instantly feel overwhelmed by the ao3 publishing page lmao)

This will work. Surely.

#text post #im not worried abt not having anything bc ive written my best stuff for things that had deadlines #but i really wanted to have this like. as close to done as soon as possible instead of percolating on ideas for ages #i also haven't really had time to just. sit and focus on this alone. Or i've tried but then it hasn't worked out #and i think im pushing it too much and that's making it worse. going into it like NO THIS DRAFT IS IT #when what i really need to do is just. idk. probably get wizard high and put on music and maybe some vids for background noise #let myself ramble and rant abt the ideas as they hit then let myself dive into writing one if i get a hook in it #...sometimes writing is like fishing if writing involved hooks or fishing involved metaphors #sometimes fishing does do that tho so. what if i got a hook out fjdlkafjdslf #im putting off both the dishes and the brainstorming AWAY GO I TO THE SEA OF SOAP AND SPONGE #and when i return. i will try to be gentle w/myself on this. and get wizard high and see abt just. letting the ideas flow #...and I will stop worrying abt the bad faith readers in the fandom bc i think that also is once again making me over worry/think every ide

[ozlices]

realized it's my friend who disappeared a year ago's birthday,,, and just got. absolutely whiplashed with grief. i hate not knowing if she's even Alive, much less doing okay. i sincerely, with all my heart and soul, hope she's alive & well. happy birthday, m. not a day goes by that you don't cross my mind. i miss you.

#mine #m tag #idk. what to rly. do w myself now. #i just wanna cry honestly. #ive lost so many people over this past year #but she's one of the hardest ones bc i dont even know if she's Gone gone. #i just know she's unreachable from my position. #& it hurts. it hurts so fucking much. my heart hurts so much & it's so empty. #she's one of the best people i've ever had the absolute delight of knowing. #she always checked on me & was so loving & understanding & always knew exactly what to say to cheer me up. #& she's so fucking funny GOD i miss her humor. #she disappeared before i had full system discovery so my alters never even got to introduce themselves to her... #fuck. im gonna tear up i hope you're okay. please be okay. please come back someday. nothing is the same w/out you. #every time a new v/nc chapter comes out i just. think abt you. & i cant even look at them anymore bc it just hurts. #i love you so much. i hope you know that. wherever you are.

[pyrriax]

fic writing seems like so much fun. do you have any tips for getting into it and/or developing your writing skills in general?

honestly? i will just recommend starting. write anything that comes to mind, little interactions or even just transcribing canon stuff!

i started writing fic because i have a daydreaming Problem and wanted to share what i come up with with people, so the ideas were already there.

but! with really developing your skills it's writing consistently and reading a bunch that can help with that. i read so much and kind of take mental notes of the things i enjoy other writers doing, whether it's the way they structure things, or even just something like how they write a specific character's speech.

don't be afraid to write things that you think are bad, because starting is the hardest part.

also, if you have trouble finding an original idea, don't be afraid to write something derivative of somebody else's work! just ask if the person minds before posting it & credit appropriately. but, that's a good place to start if the setup for a concept gives you trouble. one of the things that really got me started was a project wholly inspired by somebody else's work.

(a personal recommendation: start with smaller things, oneshots & connected oneshots rather than a bit multichapter project, it can be a bit crushing to realize you can't execute something how you want to at the start. but, plan it anyways. write down the idea anyways, just know that it might not turn out right away. also: if you start posting stuff on ao3, i recommend hiding stuff like kudos, hits, and comment numbers, it helps make it a more positive and less number-driven experience <3 i can share the siteskin i use for it if you want!)

#ask a ghost #asker: anon #it might not be the best advice but it's what i've got! my experience is Not universal and my advice might not help #but above all else: keep your expectations low and let yourself be pleasantly surprised by what you're capable of. #that's just general writing advice but it holds true! #honestly this made me think about making a post for putting my random plot bunnies out there. gotta set those things loose #OH and also! find people to talk to about the writing process! i found a few communities that encouraged me while i was learning #it helped a lot to have the reassurance and getting the occasional bit of advice from people. #i know “just try it” isn't the best advice but it really is the way to go about it. i started with 500 word ficlets and did that for ages #hmm...... im trying to think of advice and realizing i am probably repeating myself! but that's okay. i do that a lot anyways #pyrr tries to give advice (it might be working it might not be)

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

I keep listening to different pieces of music that I love and then my brain comes in all helpful with 'this sounds like great music to die with doesn't it'

#tw suicide #im just. so tired #and i know that right now part of it is im sick (not covid tho) but still. #and it's like im grieving the lost friendship all over again and what might have been #i am the best version of myself when im with the boy. but now no wonder he is avoiding me. and i don't blame him! but for some reason it's #hitting rlly hard again atm and it's just. Im Sad. #i really don't know why that's so prevalent in my mind right now #and it's rlly not safe for me to drive long distances alone i think. i find driving v stressful #and any guesses what *that* leads to #tw sh #the answer was: a frightening amount. #and then there are things i don't understand #my brother begged me to destroy the suicide note i wrote yesterday #and i don't know why. because it's very unlikely to be something that i would stop to do tbh. so what there is would at least explain #*something* perhaps. i don't know #i have spent more than half of my waking hours in the last week seriously thinking of suicide. i don't know how to stop this #and given that i've read two books in full and gone to a play i enjoyed that says something about what hte rest of the time has been filled #with. i don't know how to get out of this. in some ways i feel like it's worse now than it was bc i expected it to get better when mum and #dad got back. if anything it's worse - more constant. #the lows are not quite as low but the baseline is definitely lower #i am just feeling very hopeless rn #yesterday i was driving and reciting psalm 23 and i was so overcome with emotion and i repeated it multiple times and that helped somewhat #but only in the moment ig. i don't know. i don't know how to fix this or even improve it #if im still feeling like this on monday i am so going to walk over the road and straight-up ask to borrow a kitten overnight. #and hope the kitten doesn't decide to go near all the cuts :( #a part of me is genuinely wondering if i should check myself into a psych ward. the other parts of me say either that this isn't bad enough #for that or thta i am simply too scared to. which is true. nasty stuff in psych wards for obvious reasons #anyway i need prayers thankyou

[bylertruther]

thinking about how lonnie only ever cared about will when he died and that was just to profit off of his death + will giving a girl he doesn't know his toy truck just because she's crying and he thinks she needs it more even if he knows joyce can't buy him another one + one of the very first things will did upon waking up in the hospital was ask if jonathan was okay + will telling them to close the gate in season two even though he's part of the hivemind and that would've killed him, too + will breaking his own heart by confessing his feelings and giving mike the painting he's spent so long on but saying that all of it came from el thus sacrificing his own wants and self to again help others + how that same selflessness and self-sacrificing nature of his is going to undoubtedly rear its head in season five again because he's at the center of it all and it all goes back to him and vecna is a creature that feeds off of n fans the flames of pain and guilt... feelin very scared n anxious in this chili's tonight over this actually 😳

#he is NOT going to die obviously clearly we know this they're not killing kids #BUT. #i'm just saying.... i don't think it would be crazy for him to feel guilty and like maybe this wouldn't have happened if... #well... u kno.. :( #he would never give up bc that's literally his whole thing that he's a fighter and a survivor #but. he does love his friends and his family. and he has been willing to die if it meant saving them before so like. yanno. #BUT IT WON'T HAPPEN I'M JUST SAYING THE ANGST IS LIKELY GOING TO BE THERE #AND THEN OFC EVERYONE IS GOING TO BE LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY WILLIAM SHUT UP SIT DOWN AND GO TO TIME OUT #and then we'll get some good n scrumptious hurt/comfort ok no one stone me i'm knocking on wood ok i Kno #just imagine will proposing that and everyone immediately says NO and mike especially gets pissed #because he's SICK and TIRED of fucking losing will every single time he thinks he's got him back #and god dammit he's already seen what life is like without will there he's not going to do it again he's NOT #don't go where i can't follow + crazy together + it was the best thing i've ever done + it's hawkins it's not the same without you #versus closegate + el commissioned it + she needs you and she always will #mike who is clutching onto will for dear life unwilling to let him go and will who is all too willing to #walk through the gates of hell if it means saving everyone he's ever loved and putting them out of their misery #but of course there's a better plan and letting will die is like killing a puppy it's like taking a sledgehammer to the foundation of #everything yanno. without heart we'd all fall apart n u can't beat the darkness without the light #anyway. can u tell i'm procrastinating editing my fic rn n thats why im writing epic poems in these tags <3 #mine

[mnkiss]

The Sims 2 Castaway on PS2

It was and is the best sims game ever. Why?

3rd person control (as well as the point and click if you wanted to use that but I never did)

3 + 1 islands worth of exploration

Beautiful scenery and lots of interactable elements in the world

Teleport system but it cost time

(Telling the time was done by using the sun's and the moon's position on the sky btw)

Swimming in the sea and collecting shells from underwater rocks

Recipes!

Hunting, gathering, fishing, gardening and even fire making were a must (you had to do them to not starve to death)

You could upgrade your tools, make clothes and dye, craft furniture, process materials or make pictures via a working bench

Clothes were able to get torn and you could either repair them or make a new one (and there were lots of options too! from accessories to whole sets, the sheer amount of craftable clothes...)

Hairgrowth

Bottle messages and the creepy garden gnome (+ the scuba diving set gave me nightmares)

Ruins (from the aztec [?] inspired llama tribe), ships ashore, ritual grounds, hot springs and a fucking VOLCANO

Monkey friends

The chicken coop <3

You literally had to build your house and rain could destroy it so you had to work on them again

No lag issue

UFOs and a pirate treasure

YOU COULD PLAY MUSIC TOGETHER WITH YOUR TRIBE. And they did it autonomusly too!!!

#im unsure what i've missed but like... there was som much to do #and it had a great ambient #jungle adventure was nothing compared to this #sims #you could literally do yoga on a mattress you still had on you from the boat lmao #and the amount of times my sims got food poisoning bc they ate an unknown fruit #btw i learnt lots of fruits and materials through the game #it. was. educational. #ts2 #ts4 #best game ever