#but if it is - this is literally my ONLY symptom so like.

[magnificentempress]

my possibly unpopular opinions on therapy/psychiatry

- Just like suffering is not inherent to womanhood, suffering is not inherent to humans. Just like it is not okay to just expect that women will be subjected to suffering, it is not okay to expect that it will happen to anyone and it's just the way things are.

- Therapy is not inherently wrong for trying to alleviate the suffering, but I fail to see the doctors acknowledging the fact that the suffering is a collectively shared experience, and suffering is caused by someone. Moreover it is the whole point of therapy to focus on just yourself, "take responsibility"(for the harm that was done to you?) and seeing what you can make do. Basically because again, doctors cant really tell their patients to go overthrow the gvt or divorce their shitty husbands. Thus endless copium instead of, yknow... something actually meaningful.

- Antidepressants arent inherently bad but they cant cure you. They are just psychoactive drugs. Caffeine, tobacco, cocaine, they all are psychoactive in one way or another, and your brain doesnt really care if the substance is legal, illegal or prescribed. It modifies the symptoms but it cannot actually cure you. Or something. If you struggle with depression/anxiety related issues, I would highly recommend that you try to look for a way to alleviate them that is not just you popping pills for 10 years in a row.

- Our society is purposefully built to fuck us up. Just like "dyslexia" is not a thing in societies that dont have a writing system, "ADHD" or "depression" or "anxiety" are non-syndromes, they show only in very specific circumstances. It is possible to reform the world so that it doesnt force suffering and disabilities onto people.

- Psychoactive drugs that actively alter people's neurochemistry and may lead to both psychological and physical dependency are catastrophically overprescribed and one day the big pharma will be held accountable for their crimes lol

- I repeat that I do not oppose psychiatric medicines as a concept. Psychiatric disorders fuck people up, I know it personally. BUT. Sorry but there is a difference between a socially-induced disorder like anxiety, and a disorder of a purely biological genesis like bipolar mania or schizophrenia. I dont think depression or anxiety are easy. But consider what, someone suffering from delusions in mania cannot CBT their delusions away, they basically have to be on meds. MAYBE think really hard of the pros and cons here. You are lucky to have a relatively healthy brain, dont wash it down the drain.

- Medicalization and profiting off of any suffering is highly concerning. The transgender pharma will also pay for their crime of persuading (otherwise healthy) people that they cannot exist and will literally kill themselves without unnecessary medications and surgeries.

- If you have agreed on me on the previous points but my opinion on transness triggered you, consider unbrainwashing yourself? Idk? Can't you put 2 and 2 together? These are literally the same kind of phenomena.

- I say it all as someone who has been on antidepressants for a long time, and also who knows many people who were on antidepressants for a long time. I've seen both huge benefits and huge debilitating side effects.

As a matter of fact I am also completely normal and can be trusted w

#radfems do touch #radblr #anti psychiatry #psychiatry #antidepressants #ssri withdrawal #zoloft #opinion

[crippleddetective]

who has ever said that in the history of ever. what is cruel about wanting our own fucking exclusive space without able-bodied people in it. for someone with blah blah i drink abled tears or whatever the fuck on your profile, you sure do a lot of abled bootlicking.

#cpunk #cripple punk #cripplepunk #this is fucking ridiculous #fuckin ‘anyway you fucking insane people’ are you serious #who has ever swid anything like that #ever #in this community #wanting an exclusive phys disabled only space isnt fucking ableist . go and make your own punk space if you care so much about this. #idc #just because mental illness/disability has physical symptoms does NOT make it a physical problem. #my boyfriend can be bedridden by his depression that doesn’t mean he’s literally physically incapable of moving #in those moments its a mental block not an actual physical block. its still mental #even if it affects him physically its still mental #ykwim #same goes for mental disabilities as a whole #which may i add i have A Multitude of so dont come cruing at me about being an exclusionist #i have Literal Brain Damage do not fucking try me #but. YKWIM #phoenixonwheels

[pochapal]

went outside and exercised normally for the first time since The Incident and i felt fine outside of the expected Hasn't Exercised in several months feelings. against doctor's orders btw but i would rather be dead than forced to spend all my time at home not doing a single thing that could exert me in any way <3

#:) #like it's so funny that they mandated i cannot drive leave the country vigorously exercise or eat snack food maybe ever again for no reason #fully my medical notes read like i'm in the managed decline phase of a terrible chronic illness even though i'm literally chilling #i feel no worse than how i normally do a couple weeks after a rough covid infection like babygirl i have no debilitating symptoms....... #PLUS my kidneys are slowly unfucking themselves anyway like. do i really need this much independence taken away for my own protection...... #longterm housebound for a short term Silly Incident??? please be serious for more than two seconds #cranky about this because it's been a month and there's still no diagnosis but they have the room to tell me what i can't do #my appointment a couple days ago was supposed to clear me to do certain things again but they denied it and i've been sulking for days #literally the only thing wrong with me is that my blood tests are saying bad things and some really annoying side effects of my meds #and i can guarantee that me resting and doing nothing is not the reason i'm not in pain or otherwise suffering in any measurable way #even when i was actively in a state of dying in hospital i wasn't in pain like get with it!!! #sometimes if i think about this too hard i end up feeling like a caged animal lmao

[ofliterarynature]

Well, I guess I got my wish for a break from work because I just tested positive for covid :(

#58 hour weeks are literally killing me but I didn’t want it to be like this #genuinely so many people at work are sick rn #one covid case but everyone else says they just have colds? #which I though I also had but uh #first (neg) test from paranoia second test to be safe and OOPS #mild symptoms only so far #maybe I’ll actually get my bedroom fully cleaned idk #and read system collapse! #bec talks

[cynical-things]

I wish I never went on the fucking implant ffffffjdjdjdjdnd it fucked my body up so bad and it’s still not better even tho I got that piece of shit taken out 10 months ago

#was bleeding non stop on the implant #gained a lot of weight and it just generally fucked up my hormones #came off of it and still fuckinf with hormones and making my pcos symptoms worse #worse acne and not losing weight despite fixing diet and limiting calories (healthily like) #and hair loss #now I go on a tablet to fix my hormones after waiting for a dermatologist to approve it #and now I am on my period after being on it 2 weeks ago bc this tablet can cause frequent periods #like be on every 2 weeks #literally fucking kill me #I’m so upset #hopefully it’s just a blip and my hormones are just messed up a bit bc I’ve only been taking these meds 2 weeks #well not messed up bc they are already messed up but maybe they’re trying to adjust idk #but I’m so disheartened fr #fuck hormone contraceptives fr

[tenspontaneite]

Bruh people aren't fucking lying about COVID fatigue goddamn

#covid #life of sponty #ive been sick since i got back home on 12th #infected probably 1 to 3 days before that #so im coming up on 2 weeks of covid #and right now the worst symptom remaining is the fatigue and exhaustion #i got up and showered and sat at my desk for 30mins and now I'm so exhausted i have to go back to bed #it's effort to stroke the cat #the other day i did a small physical exertion and afterwards was so intensely tired it tooo about 6 hours of recovery #just to be able to lift small objects without dropping them #shits fucked bruh #also I'm getting the classic taste fuckery and bitter and alkaline flavours are literally making me choke #it's wild #desperately hoping it doesn't last because i really dont want to lose onions forever #i love onions #i was scared for a second that I'd lost mango too but it turns out it's just the mango skin flavour. the flesh is fine #cough was only monstrous for like a day #rest of the time it's not been any worse than ive had from normal nasty coughs. pretty manageable #the fatigue is wack though #I've never been this weak before #it's kind of fascinating from an authorial perspective #this is going to be useful experience for the writing banks

[caramiaaddio]

I love shows that take you on like. A mental health journey while you watch them. Like

Me: oh man I’m having trouble finding people to date that sucks :/

*watches first two seasons of crazy ex-girlfriend*

Me: I will be alone forever nobody will ever love me or be attracted to me I am in desperate need of therapy

*watches last two seasons of crazy ex-girlfriend*

Me: I am absolutely capable of finding romantic love but I don’t need it cause I’m worth so much more than who I date and happiness comes internal peace and not external validation

#crazy ex girlfriend #cxg #I wish this was a joke but it’s not lol #like I’m not gonna say the show cured my mental illness but like #yea this was the right show to watch during a lonely time lol #it’s wild how much I relate to this show and Rebecca in general #cause like…I don’t have bpd but I AM autistic and I think a lot of those same feelings cross over #not symptom wise but just in the sense of having a disorder as opposed to an illness #that feeling of some part of you being fundamentally wrong until you get diagnosed #the difficulty of explaining to others why the label means so much to you because it means you’re not alone #I actually played the diagnosis song right before and after I got diagnosed autistic bc it resonated so much lol #but yeah literally two weeks ago I felt worthless bc my romantic history is uhhhh #only one person was every romantically interested in me and then I found out she was lying about being in love with me #and now I feel so zen cause it’s like hey! I’m autistic it’s alright if I’m a little behind on this stuff #and romantic love isn’t the end all be all if I find it that’s cool #but if I never do it’s okay because I have so much more in my life

[queerstudiesnatural]

um. i literally can't move rn like my whole body is immobilised i can only move my extremities

#my neck hurts but i can't move it #it's like my brain is only half working #everything in my body is so slow rn #edit ok i managed to move my neck. by applying pressure to my chin with my fingers bc that's the only thing i can move #i'm literally going through something lol like i don't think any of the Symptoms i've been experiencing lately are normal #rain.stuff

[spinoff-antithesis]

(muth being music theory!)

#FUCK IT MY OWN EDITION OF THE ODDLY SPECIFIC POLLS BC THESE ARE FUN #me when i've been obsessed with space/time stuff since i was a KID its more an interest than hyperfixation rn but man. #media with any of those?? i am OBSESSED (star wars rottmnt movie etc etc) like i hyperfixated on dr who for a year in middle school #the skateboard one is so funny. in high school my guard instructor saw me with a friend's pennyboard & immediately said no. #me when i was notoriously clumsy in middle + high school so everyone i knew was like. “this is a bad idea” when i did anything #my first semester of college i bought a longboard off someone then 5months later i turned around & ate SHIT it was so funny in retrospect #anyway fun sage lore i have only ever heavily injured the left side of my body. my knee + elbow and the SAME FUCKING TOOTH. TWICE. #also i have a high pain tolerance. like idk how or when but in middle school it just got Really Strong. me when i injure myself and just #live with it for a year before it becomes a concern and i get told to get an xray (i will live with a fractured knee the rest of my life) #also when i fell off my skateboard and ate shit my first concern was “ah fuck my glasses did i break my nose” and #“nah my elbow isnt broken! my arm is just rly sore from how i landed on it” (readers. it was in fact fractured.) #like i literally went “no im fine we dont need to tell my mom or go to the er” and my friends said “call your mom and go to the er” #me spitting out my tooth and blood bc i also busted my lip: that hurt. time to hobble back to my dorm. #anyway hiding this one in the tags bc i will never not just ignore my issues LMAO did it with my ptsd dx and i will continue to do it #another incredibly hyperspecific thing: oh this doesnt seem normal! im gonna ignore it and hope it goes away #these symptoms match up to something? nah i'm sure it's not that! (proceeds to get dx'd with ptsd five months later)

[jimmy-wilson]

You know. I'm really starting to understand why they guess lupus in every fucking episode bc every single time some weird medical thing pops up i look it up and the cause is always Always Fucking Lupus

#personal #teddy talks #seriously tho its ridiculous #i literally have Symptom Disease #the weirdest thing i figured out is actually fucking mental (which. psychosis is also a symptom bc why tf not?) #but ive had hearing problems since i was a kid. ive also worn glasses for a good decade or so. both of those are because of lupus #and its super commonly misdiagnosed just bc its so vast #it has nearly all the same symptoms as diabetes but no blood sugar problems #also the same symptoms as narcolepsy including seizure activity #and pcos #and schizophrenia #and fibromyalgia #and aids #literally name a big scary disease and ill bet $100 that lupus can present with the same symptoms #this time im mad bc sometimes i get this thing where the roof of my mouth hurts too much to eat. wanna guess why? #also as im typing this im getting the fucking shakes bc....you guessed it! lupus. #thats probably the most and least realistic part of the show #most bc its could literally cause any problem on the face of the fucking earth practically #least bc its never diagnosed like ever. i only have a half hand-wavy 'probably' bc my moms entire side of the family has it or similar #autoimmune stuff and i have the rashes on my face and hands #but like. i camt get treated bc i cant get diagnosed bc it can only be diagnosed by one particular test #thats fucking stupid expensive and comes bqck inconclusive over 70% of the time unless youre dying or over 45 #dont quote me on that stat thats just what my gp said years ago #which i barely remember bc lupus fucks w your memory #also! also. they say theres all these diseases that 'mimic' lupus right like sjorgens and hashimotos and rheumatoid arthritis but like #you know what also can appear as secondary disorders (might i say symptoms) with lupus?? sjorgens and hashimotos and rheumatoid arthritis #every single disease that 'mimics' lupus can also be ACTUAL SYMPTOMS OF LUPUS #theyre not even comorbid at this point theyre straight up symptoms #even other diseases that arent lupus ARE STILL LUPUS #edit: the stat is actually that it reports a whopping 30% chance of a false positive. but its also much more conclusive after 35 y/o

[orcelito]

Omfg I never actually posted about this but just like 2 days ago I realized that no it is Not normal to experience lightheadedness near daily when I've gone just a little too long without eating

I looked it up and apparently lightheadedness/dizziness CAN be a part of fibromyalgia (which I think I have for a number of different reasons), so like. It all makes sense.

Fuckin fibromyalgia. It's the source of like 95% of my physical problems, I swear. Every Damn Thing can be traced back to it. What a pain.

#speculation nation #'what a pain' haha get it bc chronic pain #frankly speaking the chronic pain part of it isn't the Worst. it's only a few times a month that i get my arm and leg aches #(though sometimes ill have bouts that last longer. like in january i think when i had arm aches for over a Week) #then again my rib cartilage inflammation is a permanent thing. my ribs Always are fucked up. #and i dont know 100% that it's bc of fibro but this condition has been linked to fibro and it didnt go away with anti-inflammatories So #in the end the pain isnt my biggest concern for treating my fibro. aside from the frequent headaches. i Would like to counter those. #what i really need is help with my chronic fatigue and weakness spells #i hate how fragile i feel so much of the time. bc im NOT weak. for my size im actually surprisingly strong. #but im quick to tire and if i push myself too hard then im practically bedridden #i will literally get symptoms of sickness if im too fatigued. including nausea and coughing and headaches #all fixed after ive gotten some rest. so im not Actually sick. #im tired and fed up with how finicky my body is and how i have to eat on time always or i'll be threatened with passing out. #havent passed out Yet but ive had some times where i end up Having to sit bc i get tunnel vision and my scalp is prickling #and it feels like my brain is squeezing and i know i Have to sit down Right Now #idk. there are many things like this. and i am sooooo tired of it. #i want a fibro diagnosis so i can actually get some help for the things that make life so hard to live. #im not depressed im just chronically fatigued. and so very tired. #give me some Energizing Meds or smth. help me please 😭😭😭 i hate living like this 😭😭😭😭😭 #i wanna be able to do things without being bedridden for the rest of the day 😭😭😭😭 please 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[twistedappletree]

wtf is even the point of western medicine fr

#been fighting this stupid ass flu SO hard #and all the crappy otc shit did nothing #until i was finally able to see my chinese medicine doctor #and literally everything he gave me kicked the majority of my symptoms in a few hours #lmAO #LIKE #CHEAPER THAN WESTERN MEDICINE TOO???? #is2g it’s all designed to make you spend more and more fucking money that’s all they care about #fever aches chills sore throat runny nose cough - all gone after 1 dose of herbs #and that’s only 1 of 4 for the day #anyway #go to your preferred trad doctor if you have a flu you’re gonna feel way better than whatever westerners give u #apple babble 🍎 #non fandom #also editing before anyone flips #i’m NOT against modern medicine #just the fucked up system that makes it so inaccessible #and the majority of western otc shit that literally does jack shit #gotta clarify bc there’s always that one person that’s like #‘AcUpUnCtUrE cAnT cUrE cAnCeR’ no shit sherlock #but some trad medicine legitimately works for low tier health conditions #and it’s more affordable in western countries #which some of us need bc we can’t fucking afford a $15000 doctor visit lmAO #exaggeration for dramatic effect so chill tf out thnx

[alexanderpearce]

they should actually invent a fucking pill that stops me from being autistic for like 4 hours because maybe i don't want to be ticcing so bad i genuinely look possessed because what my glasses sit too far down my nose

#been thinking about how i get like severe symptoms (aforementioned violent tics‚ going nonverbal‚ really debillitating meltdowns due to #sensory/anxiety issues. like what im going through as we speak. where im like clawing at my hair and the line between stimming and ticcing #is shaken into oblivion) but like it literally only happens when im alone or around my parents and so i feel like people who know me irl #dont like. understand how much the autism really affects me i guess lol. anyway #i had a shower and washed my hair and brushed my teeth really intensely and brushed and dried my hair and had dinner and i still feel compl #etely out of whack because of my glasses so i guess i wont be continuing writing like i had been planning on #shut up ulrike #autism tag

[the-most-pathetic-edge-marquis]

okay who's going to write a dissertation about self-harm through the frame of disability theory & how it's simultaneously stigmatized & infantilized, and how it's excluded from conversations abt BOTH disability/chronic pain and addiction for not being "real" versions of either of them despite meaningful overlap in the experiences and the WILD discrimination that results from it?

or am i going to have to go get a goddamn psychology degree and do it myself

#sorry i'm just. going THROUGH it at my workplace right now #(when am i not? why does this always fucking happen to me?) #(oh wait. it's because self-harm is simultaneously stigmatized and infatilized and--) #but like. seriously. the amount of WILD misconceptions and general stigma and blatant discrimination and just absolute bullshit #for something that is literally just a symptom of mental illness & a coping mechanism #& literally ONLY HARMS THE PERSON DOING IT #(as opposed to forms of self-harm like cigarettes. that are LITERALLY more likely to kill you AND harm other people) #(but are for some reason socially acceptable) #ugghhhhhh #i literally fucked up my body more trying to give myself gauges and doing it poorly #than i have in eight years of self-harm!!!! what the fuck!!!!! #i hate social norms so much.

[blackfright]

YOU HEADCANON CHARACTERS AS SYSTEMS BECAUSE OF THEIR "MULTIPLE PERSONALITIES" OR "ALTER EGOS".

I HEADCANON CHARACTERS AS SYSTEMS BECAUSE OF THEIR DISSOCIATIVE SPELLS AND MEMORY ISSUES

we are NOT the same

#literally fucking every character i have seen hced as having did its bc oughh thsyre multiple guys see look tjey changed their name omg #wow yhey experience emotions real intense thats GOTTA be an alter. or like wow this guy is multiple guys in one body thats all DID is. #KILLYOURSEL #SHUTUP look closely. really closely. it says DISSOCIATIVE. and if its a dissociative disorder!!@ then theres gonna be dissociation!!!! CUZ #THERES DISSOCIATION IN THW DISORDER❗️❗️❗️❗️❗️❗️❗️💥💥💥💥 #dude i need to stop having hyperfixations on main characters that have this happen to them. imgonna dieee #im actually crying dude how hard is it to . how hard is it. #did is only the symptoms i think are interesting so i can grossly misrepresent a real world issue for my own entertainment and jokes #hey. im in hell. #taking interest in a fictional multiple guys one body type scenario is fine btw but if you say theyhave the mental disorder its different #also im sure there are based did headcannoners out there but (besides my friend) ive yet to see one #lightposts

[danielnelsen]

always fun to remind myself of the side effects of my thyroid meds

#the first time i treated my thyroid my endo was like ‘i havent had a patient who had this happen for a while so im due for one’ THANKS MAN #personal #im just waiting for it to hurry up and work. my health has PLUMMETED in the last week or so #im so sick and i can’t DO ANYTHING. including SLEEP. even if i was getting enough good sleep i was be exhausted but i’m not so. #the energy’s doing Great #and i’m so hungry all the time but also nauseous so all food is unappealing #genuinely have no idea how i made it through years 7-10 undiagnosed. no wonder i ended up with such a severe phobia of going to bed???????? #i don’t have to worry about routine right now so it’s not as stressful (just horrible because i’m so tired) but i COULDNT SLEEP back then #im just relieved that this time it was found through a routine check rather than me getting a test because of symptoms #usually i test when my anxiety gets really bad in a specific way #but my anxiety isn’t bad this time. no panic attacks and also no migraines. those are all usually the worst to deal with #so comparatively this isn’t even a particularly bad episode?/relapse?/flare? #still more sick than i’ve been in……..years? #im not sure if covid was better or worse. but it was only really bad for a week #this’ll be worse overall because it’ll last a lot longer #hopefully only a month or two but that’s still a few months of my life that just vanish. cool!!!!!!!!!!! #and there wasn’t even a notable event to trigger it this time. first time was whooping cough and subsequent times have been things like— #starting uni and then the last 2 years of uni where i took 10 units in one year then overworked myself doing my thesis #im SLIGHTLY worried that maybe i’ve developed rheumatoid arthritis and that set it off because it’s also autoimmune #i should see my gp soon to get a general antibody test. my joint have been so bad it’s been hard to walk for quite a few months #idk man it all sucks. but for now at least i have my white blood cells (even if they’re literally the problem lmao)