#but i didn't ask to be fucking born

[the-dance-of-italy]

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#I've been wanting to leave all year #but i can't because im broke and i can't get a job #i feel like im not allowed to leave her just because she's my mother and shes given me so much #yes she's done so much for me #and i AM thankful #but i didn't ask to be fucking born #she definitely didn't want to become a mother #why am i forced to stay and just keep going in a vicious cycle that's eating both of us #man i don't know what to do or where to even go #i could go to the capital or figure out how to take the big leap and go to Canada #but i can't be here tomorrow #i have to go

[carefulfears]

omg rm9 was kinda fun To Me. i enjoyed mulder and scully going on a sushi date, scully being SOOOOO embarrassingly down bad for a man she’s known over 20 years, and of course the restaurant attacking them because mulder is a bad tipper. it’s also just nice to see them living life, you know??

i had a blast with rm9 tbh, a classic s11 well! have no idea what happened there! but i enjoyed myself! episode. just talked about it a bit but yes!! just seeing them living life!! literally the majority of s11 isn't even them going on cases they're just like. existing. and falling into Situations. in rm9 all they wanted to do was go to this sushi place. scully is of course always embarrassing as hell but what i loved loved loved loved about her in rm9 (and consequently throughout s11) is that last moment at the diner when they're both on their phones, and she puts hers away and just kinda leans over to his shoulder and takes his hand, and he puts his phone down.

i was so floored to see her do that, to ask for his attention like that. so much of the original series is scully...almost quietly suffocating, sometimes? being on the edge of his myopia and focus? wanting him to see her so bad, and then lashing out (READ: fucking serial killers) to either rebel, or get him to notice? but it's been a long time and he has been many more things to her since and now she just grabs his hand and makes him turn to her. in forehead sweat when she whines that he needs to feed her or she's leaving!! and then she does leave!!! in plus one when they aren't even "back together" yet, and she sneaks into his motel room and asks him to hold her.

scully in the revival has left him. she has struck out on her own, had her own career, lived on her own, been a doctor. and she's back and they're back because there's work to be done, and because, as james wong says: "She’s in love with him that way. She had a different career as a doctor, but she came back, because this is so important to him—she’s coming back to be there for him."

she's back, and they're back, because they're always choosing each other, and they've proven it, and they've done the work. she complains about his stakeouts. she cracks jokes about being sure he's on his meds!! she knows that their son is "guiding" them both, somehow. she doesn't question it.

she's embarrassingly down bad even after 25 years because she's never anything but adored him, but there's so much more availability now. she can openly check him out and invite him back into her room and giggle at him and sleep on his jacket in bars. she used to cry, every single time that he was present with her. she used to be so overwhelmed that she couldn't speak, when he was focused on her. this is the inverse reaction of the stability and peace that mulder has found, there's a steady foundation for scully to grow on.

#i know i have an ask from one of you somewhere to do a post on revival scully. thinking it over i promise #but this is like The Main Thing to me by far #kisses #asks #rm9sbg93zxjz #tbh there's this shift in them after the baby was born that kind of gutpunches me...something is very different and solid #'what are you thinking about?' 'about my son. about his mother.' #she will forever be his son's mother. he will forever be her son's father. #and it's not that this binds them because they've always been bound to each other but it shifts them into a new familiarity and dynamic #something very dependent and primal and solid #but for so fucking long that new dynamic was so drowned in grief and loss that they didn't get to have each other any other way #what do you do when someone is your child's mother but you only got 3 days #when someone is your child's father but you spent your one and ONLY year of parenthood alone #hmph! many epiphanies. #anyway the point is that by the revival they're eating jello and watching twilight zone (or whatever it was) in the same house where #for a decade they could barely speak to each other. they were just haunted. #they're healing and it's bringing them closer to each other in orbits and it's lovely!

[quietwingsinthesky]

Hiiiii! So, a few days ago you were talking about the whole thing with Amy, Rory, and River. And when I saw those posts a thought arose in my head and I wish to share it with you.

Since River grew up with Amy and Rory as Mels. And Mels was Amy's best friend do you think that they ever talked about children? Since I know that it can come up when talking with friends, and like... do you think that Amy might've ever expressed whether or not she wanted children?

And if she didn't, that Mels would've had to listen to her mother say that she doesn't want children? The idea is so heartbreaking and sooo interesting.

What do you think about it?

no, no, see, you're so right and this drives me wild.

because, the way i see it, i don't think amy wanted children. she's somewhere on the 'hasn't thought about it' to 'vaguely negative feelings about it happening' range to me, which falls sharply into 'Not Happening Ever Again' post-s6. (specifically, in terms of having a kid herself, even if she could, i really don't think she would. i do love that she and rory end up adopting a kid later, because that does make sense, for amy pond who grew up alone in one universe with her family swallowed by cracks in time before the doctor helped her set it right again, for her to want to make sure another child won't be alone in the world like she was. getting off-track here.)

and that's so. because the first real memory river/mels has of amy is of amy shooting at her. and depending on how well the silence fucked up the rest of her memory, it might be one of the very first memories she has at all. that's how she met her mother, crying for help and getting a bullet instead. her mother tried to kill her, so of course, you have to think. she must have needed to hear that she was wanted, right? even if she was taken away, even if amy shot her, at some point, melody must have been wanted?

river is good at getting people to do what she wants, but she is very, very bad at subtlety. and mels is younger, has less practice, so when she wants to know this, she's just going to ask. blunt and quick, easy enough because amy's used to the way mels will open her mouth and you just have to be ready to roll with what comes out if you want to keep up. it's why they're such good friends (like mother, like daughter.)

they're nine, and mels asks if amy wants kids, and amy wrinkles up her nose and says she won't have time for children, obviously, once her raggedy doctor finally comes back. they're fifteen, and amy and rory dance will they-won't they in a way that makes mels twitchy to watch, and taunting amy about wanting to have rory's babies is a good way to get on her nerves. but amy calls her gross, tells her she's got more life planned than children would leave room for, and besides, imagine her, a mom? it'd be a disaster.

mels does. a lot. she looks at her mother and just sees her best friend instead. she's not even sure what she wishes was there, but. maybe amy's right. and besides. imagine her, a daughter, instead of the ticking time bomb she really is? it'd be a disaster.

they're sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, and on. mels stands on the outside of a love story that births a universe. and her. how do you compete with that? not that she would know, not yet, she hasn't been there. but it doesn't make her feel any less alienated when amy and rory talk in whispers about a half-remembered world that's bled through to this life, about roman soldiers and boxes and the big bang of belief.

all these memories, they never mention children. on amy's wedding day, she's different, not like someone remembering a dream but someone who lived it. rory stands straighter, won't leave her side, and they're both so much older than they were yesterday. maybe now, right? a wedding's as good a time as any to decide you want kids.

mels not being at amy & rory's wedding is such an obvious lazy way of them trying to explain why they totally didn't just throw this plot twist together at the last minute that i'm not even going to acknowledge it. of course she was at their wedding. she's their best friend. there's too many people around the doctor, and she wasn't ready today of all days, so despite this horrible burning need under her skin to strike, she stays her hand. doesn't let him dance with her because she might just tear his throat out if he gets too close. stays with amy and rory as the maid of honor should. she must have been there for the awkward questions that always gets asked, 'so, any plans for a baby?' 'when am i getting grandkids?' 'oh, you two are going to have gorgeous children together.' standing a few feet from amy in her wedding dress and watching her mother tense and grit her teeth and brush off the questions. watching her look nervously at rory but never ask if he means it when his mom asks him if he'd prefer a son or a daughter, and rory answers 'either one, some day, not anytime soon.'

god i'm just going on and on, aren't i. but really, what's it like to know that amy never changed her mind. the next time she sees them, she's already been born and stolen. i don't like let's kill hitler for. so many reasons. but there is something compelling about how recklessly river lashes out at the world, at the doctor. even her sacrifice at the end is almost suicidal, throwing all her regenerations into this man without knowing if that will even work or if it might kill her to do it. but it makes more sense in the context of someone who has reached the end of a long, long wait for some kind of indication, any kind, that her mother wanted to have her. and finally been told, no. she didn't choose melody.

#like. to be clear also: i don't think the fact that amy didn't want kids and really didn't have a choice in giving birth to river #means that she wouldn't love river. i think it would make their relationship Complicated but i do think amy loves her. so much. #that's her daughter but it's also her best friend. #but like. god. to spend your whole childhood hoping you'll hear about some little glimmer of yourself. #a dream. a passing mention. a debate on baby names. anything. and to hear nothing. #and river is. like. she is really really bad at relationships right? we know this. #the person she's closest to is the doctor and she spends most of her life believing *he doesn't even love her*. #we're talking about someone whose base assumption about everyone is that they will try to hurt her at some point so she should always keep #one hand armed. #and her mother. didn't choose to have her. didn't have that choice. that has to fuck her up a little. #(and also serve as proof that river is. so so bad at knowing when she is loved. because maybe amy didn't choose to have her but she named #melody pond after mels her best friend. she has been choosing river every day for the past however many years since mels decided to come #here and be near her mom and dad even if only as kids. but river still can't see it. #and. given the nature of how the ponds disappear from her life. and we never get any closure about them and river. #you have to wonder if she ever did. river song do you know your mother loves you? #having the melody-as-river reveal be so close to the end of the season and then getting rid of amy & rory before they can actually do #anything with the three of them as a messed up little family unit is the show's biggest crime. because i don't know! i don't know if river #knew her parents loved her! i don't know if she *ever* came to terms with how she was born and how they didn't need to choose her then to #choose her now! i don't know if river ever really felt comfortable thinking of them as her parents rather than her friends? #according to the transcripts. river calls amy 'mother' twice. (and 'mummy' once jokingly.) she calls rory 'father' once. and 'dad' in angel #in manhattan. and it just. it drives insane right? it's almost weirdly formal. like the words aren't right but she knows she should say the #and. and. i don't think i'm ever going to get over river song. #i think that's the takeaway here. #ask #doctor who #river song #amy pond #rory williams

[fearandhatred]

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#just watched a jack edwards video where he read yellowface and let me just give my 2 cents that no one asked for #so i'm asian. surprise. if y'all didn't know already #and i really feel like rf kuang's books are just not that good. in fact i would say they are very catered to white people #who are learning about colonialism or even asian people for the first time #it's like barbie being feminism 101 lol #most of the people i've seen say that babel or yellowface are the most groundbreaking books on earth are guess what. white people! #i've read babel. it was good and she obviously knows what she's talking about because there was so much information in it #but it was not the best book I've ever read. characters were bland. I've read the poppy war. good but not that great towards the end #my friend (singaporean but born in china) read yellowface and she absolutely fucking hates it #she gave me her copy to read but idk if i want to because none of rf kuang's books have stood out to me so far #that's not to say you can't love her books. and if you learn from them then that's great! #but don't treat her as objectively the best writer of our time when it is your own lack of knowledge that leads you to think that #also while we're on the topic #i fucking hate the bell jar #it's so WHITE #and the racism towards chinese people that 90% of y'all don't seem to get from reading the book is quite insane

[apollos-olives]

i'm tired of being treated like my existence is a debate

#my history mentor pulls me out into the hall every once in a while and asks me how i'm doing #and every time i just have more and more bad news to tell him while trying not to burst into tears #and today i told him exactly these words above ^^^ and he agreed #but anyway he's white and neutral so i genuinely don't give a fuck about his opinion bc he's uneducated as fuck #and he addresses this topic like it's a fucking debate too #like #i didn't fucking ask to be born this way. no one asks to be born the way they are #god we're literally defining what racism is because apparently some people don't even know the definition atp #i hate it here. i genuinely don't know how i'm able to keep going every day #and i have it 1000x better than most people. isn't that fucking ridiculous

[knowlesian]

ofmd basically spends the whole show screaming “proximity to traditional power structures is a trap! that shit damages us all! there is no real safety to be found there, only a way to damage yourself in another guise by kicking someone else below you on the ladder in the face, we have to find a way to fuck it all up together” and on may first that is giving me some extra feelings

#LIKE. THIS IS WHAT GETS ME. #especially about stede. #he was born where he was born; he looks how he looks. he didn't ask for that shit but he has it. #s1 as stede realizing his people are NOT the people who look like him and learning to turn away from that #and TOWARDS the people who could be his real allies #like. i fucking love stede. i love him SO MUCH.

[samiferboy]

i am not immune to the idea of s1-2 samifer

#avery.txt #young sam being so desperate and confused and distraught bc he thought he could escape this life but no. he couldn't #and here's this easy calm confident man who tells him it'll be alright bc he's strong and capable #sam keeps having nightmares but sometimes this man shows up and pushes them away and makes him feel at peace #not to be all freudian abt it but he never had this support from his father & now there's this handsome man encouraging and accepting him #so he feels Something. and it's fine because it's just this recurring dream right? #but then he finally is able to ask this dream man what/who he is and. he says he's an angel. who's been watching over sam since he was born #(this is a scenario where lucifer gets out of the cage 4 seasons early ig) #and sam finally feels SEEN. he finally feels like his faith has been worth it. #he throws caution to the wind. grabs his angel and kisses him. tells him he wants him even tho he knows its wrong. #and his angel is kinda taken aback. this was NOT where he saw this going/where he was trying to steer it. he didn't think sam would do THAT. #but he gives sam what he wants and oh. it's GOOD. sam dreams that he shows his angel all the love his angel has given him. #idk where this goes/what the endgame would be here but. i love young sam still grieving jess and searching for his dad or grieving for him #*being swept up by someone who gives him what he needs and cares about him unconditionally #and doesnt care that he ran away. that he doesnt obey. that he doesnt fit the mold. someone who loves these things about him. #i love them so much in every possible way <3 con or noncon <3 varying lvls of fucked up <3 love all of it

[scarletcomet]

there's really no help for feeling suicidal when you're not in immediate danger

#like i guess im just supposed to wait until i am in immediate danger?? #and even those resources are just to keep you safe. not make you not want to die #what the fuck am i supposed to do #being suicidal but not being in immediate danger really sucks #at least if i was like going to hurt myself in a life threatening way i could potentially die #but no im stuck here all because i dont want my parents to be sad #doesn't seem fair. i didn't ask to be born #i don't know what to do #how long can i feel this way and imagine all these scenarios until i do something about it? #i got really close a few nights while i was still at school #but every method has its downsides #i wish i could just not care about the effects my suicide would have on other people #i really just need to go for it #it's extremely selfish of me to say this but once i'm dead i won't care #i wish i could kill myself tonight #i wake up every morning and have to do another day. sometimes it's not so bad but i still just want to be dead #even while im laughing or snuggling with my bunny or with friends i still want to be dead #i want to kill myself #i think if i had a plan even if i was never going to go through with it i would feel better #like something to fall back onto. or just knowing it was possible #guess it's time to keep working on the pros and cons list of different suicide methods🤡 #someone please help me #people who deserve to live and want to live die all the time but i have to keep living. doesn't seem fair. #the world is a really fucked up place #sorry for not adding trigger warnings. went past 20 tags and im on mobile so i cant move them around #i dont think anyone reads these anyways.

[apollo-zero-one]

Man I can't believe I had the chance to go to a performing arts school up through middle school and I fuckin quit after 6 months just because I got bullied. BRO YOUR HOMEWORK WAS POETRY!! YOU HAD TO PRACTICE DANCING TO COTTON EYE JOE AS YOUR BIG UNIT TEST. GYM CLASS HAD A CIRCUS UNIT!! YOU HAD A WHOLE DAILY CLASS ON IMPROV!!! YOU FOOL!! YOU ABSOLUTE IMBICILE!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A YOUTUBER!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE TWEENAGERS GETTING LOADED BY MAKING SHITTY YOUTUBE SHORTS IN 2008-14!! But noooOoooOOOoo little miss Noellie (who WANTED TO GO!! who worked SO HARD and sent in an application essay and did an INTERVIEW to get in!!) couldn't handle disruptive classmates or little scuffles and petty grudges and general Attitude of the other students and cried to mommy to put her back in public school. I am EATING MY HAIR over what Could Have Been. I COULD BE SOMEONE'S ANNOYING YOUTUBER!! I could be a DISGRACED DISNEY CHANNEL STAR!! I could be an America's Got Talent winner! A mild to moderately successful comedian! I could be making short films!! But no no no precious thin skinned baby me heard a few new cus words and watched a teacher get heckled and begged to give up The Dream in favor of?? Quiet math tests?? I am such a fucking quitter I quit everything the second it gets too hard I always take the out as soon as it's offered what's my fucking damage.....

#I had SO MUCH POTENTIAL and I SQUANDERED IT!! weak ass third grade PUSSY! Your life could have been SO SICK!! #or you could at least be addicted to cocain or something interesting like that!! Boring ass goody two shoes always just staying home doing #NOTHING bitch make a REAL FRIEND go to a God Damn PARTY live a little instead of just hiding in the closet eating saltine crackers for years #waiting for it to be quiet outside before you ever even toed the line #mentally ill self-isolating motherfucker #you could have shrugged it off you could have GROWN A PAIR and FOUGHT BACK but you just ran and cried for mommy #victim complex little bitch baby always whining and exaggerating and making shit up fucking LIAR I am you and I KNOW what you did and I know #you knew it wasn't the truth and you regretted it the moment it came out of uour mouth but once you'd said it you just swallowed it back and #doubled down incriminating or discrediting others with your lies. For why? Because you didn't like them? You could have ruined someone's #life you wouldn't have hesitated mayhe you did and don't even remember because you cant keep your mouth shut with your pants ablaze #manipulative little shit and to WHAT END? Pity? Sympathy? Attention? Entertainment?? What was even going on in your stupid ugly head? #This is a callout post for my third grade self that possessed demon ass evil nine year old. That kid drowned anthills in olive oil and #poisoned a wild animal once. That kid cut plants just to see if they oozed. That kid modified her whole ass personality on a dime for a boy #she had a crush on. INSTANTLY dropped a LIFELONG CULTURAL ALLEGIANCE (thats what football teams were like back then in our town) because he #said he had the opposite allegiance??? What the fuck? girl had NO integrity none zip zilch. #No empthy either that kid looked at everyone else on earth like they were friggin space aliens and she was the only one with Real feelings. #bitch literally thought like 'I have Feelings they just have Reactions' bitch what the fuckkkkk #that nine year old was fucked the hell up!!! #and for literally NO REASON!! No cause!! Just born fucking evil and weird. jesus fuck. #Evil ass bitch caused her autistic brother months of nightmares and then laughed about it and wrote poetry about how evil he was because he? #was a kid??? Normal sibling rivalry taken way way way too far defamatory ass statements #and this girl had NO CONSEQUENCES because she could lie and manipulate her way out of ANYTHING she had the baby eyes and the helpless charm #and played dumb soooo well . read people like some calculative evil AI scanning their faces for microexpressions and overanalyzing each word #choice like holy shit. its not That Deep. pretentious shit trying to play 5D chess on a checkers board. #Manipulating shit just to see what happens?? zero awareness?? no asking just skipping straight to testing for yourself?? #'What happens if I step on this' it fucking breaks 'what does that taste like?' it's not fucking yours to mess with 'if I hit this person #how will they respond?' they'll be upset use your goddamn judgement you are NINE not TWO do you even care a little about any other person?? #Are you just living in some other reality??? #callout post for the fucking demon child inside of me #im so goddamn problematic I'm so so so deeply mentally disturbed and broken for no reason

[twpsyn-who]

Soulmate AU in which you see the way you die when you touch your soulmate for the first time.

And yeah we have the classic "bottle to the neck" scene which is kiss chief 👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼 BUT I present to you "Steve touched Eddie by mistake during high school" with a little bit of "Steve is an idiot and didn't notice" and "Eddie is suffering".

The fall of 1883. Steve has yet to make a move on Nancy, let alone touch her. Meanwhile Eddie is living his best life as of yet : his father finally got put in prison, new freshman has joinend his club and they finally found a drummer for their band. Yes, Will Byers got missing and Eddie felt a little bad for Jonathan, but that was life. Nothing could change Eddie's good vibes.

Until The King of Hawkins runs by him while trying to get to one Nancy Wheeler. The touch was barely there, a hand brushing by Eddie's leather jacket, but it was enough to trigger their apparent soulmate bound. That's when Eddie saw himself in front of his trailer (which looked more like a military base or a fortress with how heavily guarded it was), holding into a made up spear and a shield made with a bin's lid with nails pushed into it. There were huge bats (?) (Eddie wasn't sure what to name the things in the sky yet) getting out of the trailer and him from the vision began running towards one of the bikes outside, getting on one of them and pedalling away from the trailer.

He was yelling for them to follow him. It probably made sense, if uncle Wayne was in the trailer, for him to try get those monsters away. That didn't stop Eddie from being surprised at seeing himself trying to be the hero.

He was no hero. Eddie has always run away from conflicts, from fights and situations that put him in a bad spot. From help too, until his father finally lost it to the alcohol and Eddie has to accept uncle Wayne's offer to move with him if he wanted to stay alive. He was known for running away.

Yet he was trying to get the monsters away from the trailer, distract their attention. And he made a good job too, until his bike got stuck into a vine and made him hit the ground. Eddie felt sick while watching his vision self try fight the monsters only to get pinned down by them and eaten alive. He from the vision was yelling from pain and it took agonizingly long for the huge bats (looking closer they had no resemblance of bats, yet it felt right to call them as such for some reasons) to drop on the ground. By then it was more blood outside of Eddie than inside and he could see his vision's self organs from one of the bites.

There was more, Eddie knew there was more to watch, more to see before he was going to take his last breath, but the vision was too much and it took all of his willpower to get out of it. By then he was alone in the hallway, the classes going while he was watching his own death happen. He went straight for the bathroom and pushed his way into the first stall before getting on his knees and vomiting all he got to eat the other day.

He was crying. Eddie could tell that it was going to happen soon, with how young he looked in the vision. At that point it didn't even mattered anymore that his soulmate was the biggest jerk alive, not when the future was so dark and he wouldn't survive it.

Somehow Eddie spent the rest of the school classes in the bathroom, switching between vomiting and mourning over something that he was never going to have.

#before you go at me : this was supposed to be a Kas Eddie kind of thing aka he doesn't actually dies there lol #or he does and in his place Kas gets born idk man. The idea is that we do have a vampire Eddie on the loose #thooo I love angst man and the idea of Eddie's grades going to shit cuz he knew he would die soon anyway??? of Eddie fucking around and #being a menace to society cuz he was going to die??? only for that to be his downfall altogether?!?!? #The vision didn't stop. Only Eddie stopped looking at it. That means he heard what happened in the background while he was vomiting #he knew of Dustin. And yet the second he saw the three frenchman having a hard time he COULDN'T not take them under his wing #imagine Eddie trying so hard to not get attached/close to Dustin only for him to somehow get closer #Eddie asked the guys once if they meet their soulmates and Dustin said yes and he was going to die in his 40s in a car accident (totally a #lie but Eddie was so RELIEVED when he heard that) #anyway I had a follow up fpr this. if anyway wanna me ramble more about it #meanwhile get this little angsty little thing. as a treat #gosh this is in my drafts since nov 7 agdhdjskks #stranger things #stranger things eddie #eddie munson #stranger things steddie #steddie

[feydfuckernation]

on the subject of elvis presley i genuinely think the funniest crossover event that never happened was when i learned he was apparently a huge fan of the godfather and REALLY wanted to be in the film can u even IMAGINE

#elvis and serpico in the same film. peak kino. #lion.txt #i think he was vying for tom hagen initially but rly wanted to play THE godfather #i don't think it would have worked as well but at the same time we never rly got the full picture on what elvis could have rly been capable #of as an actor because his image and the colonel were constantly holding him back #altho if u ask me elvis as johnny fontaine could have been so iconic #even tho he's supposed to be a frank sinatra stand in #elvis presley #the godfather #two tags that are absolutely insane when u put them side by side #tbh i still think it's a travesty elvis didn't get to be in a star is born opposite barbra streisand #there are so many reasons to actively hate colonel tom parker and for me that is absolutely on the list #and it's getting longer every day #literally fuck that guy lmao #he truly is my villain origin story(tm)

[17yearcicada]

athanasius will write a text that solidifies our current understand of jesus's nature as god incarnate and in it he will make the most wild theological assertions you have ever heard

#they're not that weird actually they're just strange... #like i don't know if i agree that jesus didn't get sick because illness is born of sin and jesus never knew sin or whatever #like jesus undeniably experienced some other things that are products of sin. such as i don't know. Dying On A Fucking Cross #i asked my prof about this and he said that it might not hold up now but he enjoys the more 'mystical' element of early christian theology #like that's cool. it's a fun idea. it also Doesn't Make Sense. why does he just Say That. #.txt

[sanstropfremir]

in an alternate universe where they didn't split, what subunits do you think sm would've given tvxq? i wonder if homin / jyj units would've still happened or if they'd do something like suju kry with the main vocals. or maybe they just go "damn here" and give yunjae a duet

sm doesn't seem to like giving actual 'subunits' to their <five member groups, so i don't think jyj would have happened, but we'd probably still have gotten solo careers (eventually) from the four that have them, and probably i think a couple of duets, but they wouldn't have extensive promo periods/albums attached to them. probably yunjae and maybe changmin jaejoong? they might have also done a yunho junsu dance type one as well. but to be honest i do actually think the split was for the best, bc had they all had continued under sm we would not have gotten all that excellent angry music out of 2011-2014, AND we probably would not have gotten any of junsu's iconic songs either.

#junsu SHOULD have been sm's first dance soloist if no split #but i think they would have neutered his solo career if it had happened #personally i do not believe sm would have gone through with tarantellegra in 2012 #yea yea taemin sherlock hair was in 2012 BUT he was in a group at the time and when they took him solo they went polar opposite #and they were likely not willing to take the risk on junsu's gender nonconforming nonsense (affectionate) #BUT in western pop born this way had dropped a year before and i would bet that a label would be more open to it #(just to be clear i'm not ascribing anything to junsu but his image from 2011-2015 was very specific #and seeing tarantellegra in 2012 hit like a fucking BOMB. at least to me it did) #(like i think i had just come out like less than a year before?? yea i think the mv dropped in my last semester of gr 11) #yes i've been out for a decade and lemme tell you shit was so different in 2012 #n e ways. sm is just bad at managing subunits + soloists across the board so it was a better outcome all around imo #tvxq w #a friend and i were LITERALLY just joking that we have to get yunjae back together again #so they can have another torrid breakup and mitigate whatever midlife crisis jaejoong is having rn sdlkfjsdlkjflsdkjsd #like cmon buddy we didn't ask for whatever nobody like you was we want just another girl 2!!!!!!!! #(i actually think the song is fine but the video is like a horrible fever dream that i never thought i'd have) #y'all ever thought we'd see a butterfly hair clip on kim jaejoong in the big year of 2022? yea me fuckin neither!!! #dig your fucking eyeliner out of the closet jaejoong we don't need this wannabe 4th gen nonsense #text #answers

[kairiscorner]

can someone please explain to my stupid ass how functions work in math

help i'm supposed to be reviewing for a math quiz, preparing for a sci reporting, and doing an eng essay yet all i wanna do rn is continue my "miggy and his feelings for you pt 2" and "i'm stuck with you pt 2" fics

#🤓 dumbass kairi is dumbassing hard #why couldn't i have been born the math smarts asian kid #i love sci #but what the fuck math #“math is the language of science” this is the only language i hate learning #I SHOULDN'T EVEN HAVE MATH MAN #I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS #HAND IT TO THE STEM PEOPLE NOT ME