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natyourgirl69 · 2 years
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Tasha needs friends
What the fuck is up with being an adult and making friends. Idk how to talk to people. I dropped out of uni because I ; A (hated starting school work), B( My anxiety about school and social situations ), C ( IDK what i wanted to do with my life).
I work in as a CNA and frequently get told that I must be a very friendly and out going person. WTF am I supposed to say "No I am not, I had a panic attack thinking about trying to make friend" Or " Yes I am friendly and out going but I am so scared of other people and my self that I can't build relationships unless i can control every situation so that there is no chance that I will fuck it all up".
Whats really funny is that my mother who really never took any of what I said seriously is suddenly pushing me to get a theripist . And for once I don't want a theripist I have 15 different things that I need to focus on and I am to sacred that I will drop the ball on all of them it i take the time to get help.
I will get help.
If anyone stumbles on this just know that I am only writing this till I actually make some friends or go get help.
NTMW
Tasha Needs Friends
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actualaster · 6 years
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also im almost able to get myself to do things and enjoy them again
its still pretty forced but im actually able to do that, which is nice
i cant focus on a lot of stuff so my drawing isnt doing shit becuase i cant focus long enough for anything
but hey at least i can like
actually bounce between a few things and do something other than laying in bed staring at a wall in a downward spiral of anxiety and depression all day?
baby steps
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A/B/O Verse Guide
Hey guys! I have a fairly particular version of A/B/O I use on my blogs that includes the use of some specific headcanons and ideas that may not be prevalent in other versions of A/B/O, so I figured I would compile everything into this handy little guide! Please feel free to message with any questions not answered here and I will update this verse accordingly. This is going to be a long one, so I’ll put the rest under the cut. 
NPP/ORA 
This is the one I’m asked about most frequently. We’ll start with the NPP. NPP stands for National Placement Party, and is the main political party in the country. They control the government and the media. Members of the NPP believe that all orientations have their place in society that must be fulfilled, and not doing so puts society at risk. Because the NPP runs the media, there is quite a lot of propaganda spread this way, and you can expect to see TV shows aimed at omegas such as well loved classics like Dora the Explorer... the omega-targeted show about a young omega learning skills to please her alpha, as she adventures to find a mate. 
Because this society is incredibly oppressive to omegas, it has led to many fringe groups, the only one that has taken off being the ORA - Omega Rights Activists. Omega Rights Activists have good ideals at heart, wanting equal rights for all orientations, but because of their tactics, they are seen as militant and often considered a threat to society. The ORA is known for handing out pamphlets, staging attacks on NPP properties and events, putting out inflammatory PSAs, and targeting stay at home omega parents, often door knocking and shoving their way inside once it has been answered to try and convince the omega inside that they are being abused. These tactics have essentially made the omega rights movement a joke in the eyes of “civilized society”. Because of these tactics, NPP events are closed to those without an NPP card. To become a card-carrying member, you must pass a test proving you understand the party’s values, and pay yearly dues. Anyone can become a card-carrying member.
O-Space
O-Space, also known as Omega Space, is similar to sub space. An omega can go into O-Space during foreplay or sex, and will become nearly unable to think, with hazy eyes, and a complete inability to disobey a direct order. Emotionally they become very vulnerable, and require a lot of aftercare when it ends, usually during knotting or shortly after. Behavior is similar to a heat, without any of the physical reactions such as becoming hot or sensitive to touch.
Societal Expectations and Laws
Orientation Presentation is very important in society, and can happen any time between birth and puberty, although it is very rare for it to occur before 5 years or after 15 years old. Often, but not always, you can guess what a child will present as based on their personality. When presentation occurs, the orientations are split up accordingly for their education, with alphas being given preferential treatment over betas, and omegas being given a different curriculum entirely. This curriculum does not teach subjects like reading or math, but instead teaches cooking and sewing. Omegas ARE allowed to go to college, but only for a degree in Omega Studies, where they learn additional skills to make them more attractive and useful for alphas. 
With the NPP in charge of lawmaking, there are quite a few discriminatory laws in place. Free Use is in effect at all times, meaning that any unmated omega is essentially “up for grabs” to any alpha that decides to take them. Omegas are expected to be homemakers and breeders, and to always be submissive. However, there are a few jobs that an omega can hold if they want or need to. Examples of these professions include servers, attendants, and seamstresses. It is illegal for an omega to have any position of power. Omegas are rarely found in offices as they distract workers, and one of the only trained jobs they are allowed is CNA.
Betas have much fewer restrictions, being that they are essentially regular human beings. Their career opportunities are much richer, but tend towards opportunities like executive assistants, reporters, and doctors. Surprisingly, there are not as many alpha doctors as one would expect, because they are more aggressive than betas and do not do well caring for others. 
Alphas, of course, run the world. There are few laws regulating their behavior, and they are often in positions of power, as CEOs, politicians, engineers, etc. They are taught since presentation that they are above other orientations, and most take this to heart. It is typical for them to be aggressive and possessive. Because of this, it is very common for alphas to expect their omega to stand behind them at all times, not to speak unless spoken to, and eat on the ground beside their alpha’s chair. It is HIGHLY frowned upon for an alpha to pursue another alpha’s mate.
Omegas found to be openly disobedient towards alphas, or in extreme cases betas, are sent to retraining schools or are fostered by alphas in order to reintegrate into society.
Thoroughbreds
A thoroughbred is made when two of the same orientation produce offspring. Thoroughbreds have extra of the traits of their orientation, and can only be the same orientation as their parents, while regular a/o, a/b, or b/o couples can produce any of the three orientations. 
Thoroughbred betas are common, but are still favored above regular betas.
Thoroughbred omegas are much more rare, but not exceptionally hard to find if you’re looking for them. They tend to be extra submissive, small, and have a powerful scent. They also produce extra slick and are much more fertile and less prone to health issues with large litters. These omegas are sought after by discerning alphas, and are often sold by their parents at birth to be trained and then sold by the slaver to a rich alpha.
Finally, thoroughbred alphas are the most rare, as alphas have a notoriously hard time carrying children to term and when they do, are only able to produce one at a time, unlike omegas. These alphas are raised from birth for great things, are more aggressive, stronger, faster, and their scent has a profound effect on omegas. They are considered to be the peak of evolution.
Hybrids
Generally I do not include any hybrids in A/B/O verse. All orientations are human based, with no additional powers. Exceptions can be made if discussed, the most common being wolf hybrid omegas, which I will do without prior discussion upon request. 
Mating Rituals and Heats/Ruts
Heats are triggered by the biological need to reproduce, and can happen as often as once a month for particularly under-used omegas, or never for omegas that are mated properly and often. Most commonly, omegas have heats once or twice a year. Heats last between two and five days.
When in heat, an omega loses the ability to focus on anything but their desire to be bred. They will become hot to the touch, their skin becomes overly sensitive, slick pours freely, and their scent becomes overly strong to attract alphas.
Ruts are triggered by heats. An alpha will not go into rut unless they are near an omega in heat. Alphas in rut become overly possessive and aggressive, and will fight anyone they perceive as entering their territory or getting too close to their omega. They have the ability to think outside of mating, but they are reduced to base instincts in order to protect the omega that has gone into heat. Omegas in heat are often used by any alpha that can get their hands on them, but are rarely injured.
As for mating, alphas can mate as many omegas as they desire, but will have to care for all of them. Omegas on the other hand, can only be mated once. If their alpha dies, they are unable to remate. This is because they have a bonding gland on their neck that can only be used to mate once.
When an alpha decides to mate an omega, they bite the bonding gland and lap up the sweet oil from the broken gland. Once this happens, a chemical connection forms that lasts for both the alpha and omega’s entire life. If the gland is broken but mating does not occur, the gland will heal. Once an omega has been mated, the broken gland becomes a scar and the omega’s scent changes to reflect their status.
Suppressants
Suppressants are often used to help omegas smell and come across as an alpha or beta. Occasionally it is prescribed by a doctor for a myriad of health issues, but usually it is to avoid the restrictions of life as an omega, whether for work, school, or simply to avoid harassment. Alphas do not like this practice, and have stopped further research on suppressants, causing them to only be safe to use for approximately five years before they begin to pose a major health risk to the omega, which could cause permanent damage if use is continued long term.
Regular alphas can almost never tell the presence of suppressants, but thoroughbred alphas will notice a strong chemical scent in the omega using them. 
Mated Pairs
Mated pairs have an unbreakable bond. They can sense each other’s emotions, as well as as ability to tell when the other is hurt or in grave danger, no matter how far apart they are. Omegas become almost incapable of disobeying their alpha, and doing so hurts them. An alpha’s protective nature increases tenfold for their mate, and they would do anything to protect their omega.
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kk095 · 4 years
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Crash Landing
This story is a little different, but I hope everyone enjoys it! There may be some typos, so I may have to correct them at some point. Anyway, I hope you guys like it!
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Matt and Suzie were a happy couple who tied the knot 2 years ago, and have been together for 5 years. Matt was a 30 year old white man with longish brown hair that was neat and well maintained. He stood at 5’10 with a slim build, had blue eyes that were behind a pair of glasses since he didn’t like contact lenses, but it gave him a nerdy look, which Suzie was into. Matt had a decent paying job, but it was the stereotypical bland, corporate type job that was totally unfulfilling. But outside of his monotonous work life, Matt was a pilot and even had his own small plane that he recently fixed up.
Suzie was a 28 year old white woman with wavy brown hair, brown eyes, and olive skinned since she was of Italian descent on her mom’s side of the family. Suzie stood at 5’7 with a slender build, had bright white teeth that always made her smile stand out, didn’t have any tattoos but had piercings in her ears and belly button, and looked a bit young for her age. Suzie worked as a CNA in a nursing home in the next town over and hoped to go back to school to be an RN someday. Suzie was a conventionally attractive woman who many thought was out of Matt's league, but she was surprisingly down to earth and a generally pleasant person to be around.
The couple’s 2nd wedding anniversary came up, and Matt decided to take Suzie out for a ride on the plane, and then go out to a nice dinner afterwards. Suzie always thought Matt’s passion for flying to be interesting, and genuinely enjoyed going on plane rides with him. It’s a great opportunity to have quality 1 on 1 time and see the world from a different angle. Suzie has even tried to convince Matt to apply to be a commercial airline pilot, but Matt was never interested. He always felt that he’d lose his passion for flying if he did it for a living.
It was around 3:45pm when they took off that day. It was a cool, overcast day with a slight breeze, but no rain or fog, which is detrimental to flying- especially in a small plane like Matt’s. It took about 15 to 20 minutes to reach the air traffic controller’s suggested cruising altitude. There were beautiful, unobstructed views from that height, and the only noise was from the small plane’s propellers and the occasional check in from air traffic control. Out the left window, you could see miles and miles of ocean and out the right and front windows, you could see the beach and the town below.
The couple had a nice time together, but things began to change just as Matt headed back towards the airport. “This is tower 1. Check your altimeter reading. Our radar is saying you’re well above your aircraft’s ceiling.” A male voice said over the radio. Matt looked at the altimeter- which was many of the confusing looking meters in the cockpit. This particular device measures the aircraft’s altitude and the angle it’s traveling at, and has to be reset before every takeoff to ensure it’s working properly; it’s arguably one of the most important instruments that a pilot needs. Matt takes a look at the device and says “everything looks good on my end.” There’s a slight pause before the air traffic controller says “could be a radar miscue, but keep us posted the rest of the way.” Matt agrees and continues flying back towards the airport.
About 5 minutes later, the nose of the plane began pointing down slightly. Matt pulls back on the wheel, trying to point the plane back up but instead, the exact opposite starts to happen. The plane continues heading downwards, dropping several hundred feet in a short period. “is everything ok babe? Just a little drop?” Suzie asks, sensing something isn’t quite right. “I dunno. It’s like the plane doesn’t have any lift, but that shouldn’t happen at this altitude.” Matt says, trying to figure out which correction procedure to start. Matt struggled over the ensuing minutes to stabilize the aircraft’s angle, and a nosedive began. “fuck… we’re stalling!” Matt shouts urgently, realizing the problem too late. Suzie buckles up her seatbelt and white knuckles her armrests. She begins breathing heavily as she watches her husband struggle to fix the problem. “Matt…are we gonna be ok?” she asks, scared. Matt says something inaudible under his breath as he continues to frantically ameliorate their nose dive.
When their altitude decreased a bit and lift wasn’t re-established, the aircraft began to spin while continuing its plummet to the earth. Suzie closed her eyes tightly, squeezing the arm rests with all her might. “please don’t crash. Please don’t crash…” she thought to herself. While the aircraft was spinning, Matt’s glasses flew off his head and were tossed elsewhere in the aircraft. Matt began navigating the aircraft towards a vacant lot off in the distance for an emergency landing. “ok hun, this is gonna be a rough landing, but I need you to keep your eyes shut and be strong for me.” Matt says, nervous himself. Suzie nods and tells Matt she loves him, but begins to feel queasy from the aircraft’s erratic spinning.
Matt began to make preparation for a crash landing. This is something he’s trained for, but never in a million years expected to have to perform. During the aircraft’s descent, Matt was able to point the nose of the aircraft up so the bottom side of the plane would make contact with the ground. While Matt achieved the correct angle for an emergency landing and opened landing gear, he had trouble reducing speed.
What felt like seconds later, the bottom of the plane made contact with the ground in the vacant lot mentioned earlier. The plane bounced violently several times while still going forward. Suzie screamed as she was bounced around a little. The plane bounced several times, eventually ending up in a rocky area of the lot. The already violent landing because even more turbulent. Matt was shaken around quite extensively, hitting his head and neck multiple times against his seat and other surfaces. A rock flew up through the front window after being kicked up by the propeller. The rock was hurled right at Matt’s forehead and a tremendous speed, killing him instantly.
Finally, the aircraft came to an abrupt stop about a quarter mile or so after touching down. Suzie awoke minutes later after being knocked out herself. Her eyes opened slowly, and was a but groggy at first, but quickly regained her mental faculties. Her brown eyes scanned the scene out her window. She could see smoldering pieces of metal and fragments of the plane scattered across the dirt and rock covered area. “matt?” she asks before looking over at him. His face was battered and bloody from glass, the rock, and also had bruises from being thrown around. He was hard to recognize at that point, which visibly upset Suzie. “matt? MATT?!” she said, shaking him, to which she received no response. “MATT!” she screamed, realizing he wasn’t breathing- or alive for that matter. “oh my god… oh no… this isn’t happening…” she said to herself out loud, beginning to cry.
Sirens could already be heard off in the distance, with multiple reports of a plane crash being called into 911. Suzie began sobbing, holding her newly deceased husband’s hand, waiting for emergency personnel to arrive. Suzie felt a pain in her lower abdomen from the seatbelt locking up and pressing her abdomen. She also had a slight headache and felt a little nauseous, but had enough adrenaline and endorphins pumping through her to make her injuries feel tolerable.
The police department were first to arrive on scene. A female officer scurries over to the plane. “we have 2 victims- 1 male 1 female. Male is deceased and female is awake and alert.” She’s heard saying into her radio. “HE’S NOT DEAD. HE CAN’T BE! YOU GOTTA HELP HIM!” Suzie cries to the female officer. The cop tries to change the subject and talk about her injuries. “can you tell me where it hurts miss? The ambulance is almost here.” The cop says. “Matt’s dead…” Suzie cries out, not answering the officer’s question.
The fire department and ambulance arrives to the crash site about 2 minutes later. The fire department hooks up their hose to a fire extinguisher nearby and put out the small handful of fires nearby. 2 medics head over towards the plane and manage to open up the side door. “hi ma’am, we’re with Bristol County EMS. Can you tell me your name?” a female medic asks softly. “um…suzie. Suzie Carter. My husband’s Matt. Is he ok?!”suzie replied. The Male medic went to the opposite side and checked on matt. He felt for a carotid pulse, checked for respirations, and checked his pupils with a pen light. Matt was pulseless, not breathing, and had fixed and dilated pupils. The male medic discreetly shook his head at the female one, indicating Matt was a goner. “Matt? Is he ok? Is he dead?!” suzie cried out, panicked. “he’s in rough shape, but we have to focus on you for now, ok?” the male medic said, trying to reason with Suzie. The female medic placed a c-collar on Suzie and snipped the seatbelt with scissors. The medic then cut off Susie’s top, only sparing her black bra. “that’s a nasty looking bruise on your belly. Does it hurt?” the female medic asked. “um… kinda" suzie replied. The medic began palpating Suzie’s abdomen. “AHH!” Suzie yelped, wincing in pain. “abdomen’s stiff and rigid with point tenderness.” The female medic relays to the other. “what does that mean?” suzie asks. “it means you hurt your belly and we need to get you checked out at the hospital, alright?” the male medic said calmly.
Suzie is removed from the destroyed aircraft and placed onto a backboard and stretcher. The medics set up a portable heart monitor, which read unstable vitals: BP 90/55, heart rate 131 BPM, and a pulse ox of 95%. 2 large bore IVs were set up, and fluid resuscitation began. A dose of pain meds and a dose of valium were pushed do calm Suzie down in the ambulance.
In the ambulance, further examination began. Suzie's right forearm was broken, and she had a bump on her head. The female medic shined a pen light into Suzie's eyes to see if there was a head injury, but her pupils were equal and reactive. Suzie’s jeans were snipped off and her shoes were taken off, leaving her barefoot and half naked on the backboard with her bra and matching underwear only being spared. “ok Suzie, can you wiggle your toes for me?” the medic asked. “uh huh.” Suzie responded. Suzie's slender toes which were painted with black nail polish, remained perfectly still. “ok Suzie, let’s do it again.” The medic said. Once again, her toes remained still. “ok, good job.” The medic said, realizing a spinal cord injury was within the realm of possibilities. The medic then placed and o2 mask onto Suzie's face and just monitored her vitals the rest of the way.
Upon arrival to the ER, Suzie was lifted onto the trauma room table under the big overhead light while the medics rattled off information to the trauma team. “Hi Suzie, can you tell me if you passed out during the accident?” a veteran nurse asked softly. “I don’t remember.” Suzie said. “I’ll take that as a yes.” The nurse replied. Trauma labs were drawn and blood transfusions began while the attending called out orders. Chest x-rays and a FAST scan were performed. The x-ray showed a complex fracture of the right ulna, requiring surgical intervention to repair, a vertebra fracture at the L3 level, and a partially collapsed right lung. The FAST scan came back clean for the chest and pelvis, but there was a serious non-specific bleeding in the abdomen. “page ortho and surgery. I want a head, chest, abdomen CT. And let’s do a right chest tube while we’re at it.” The attending barked to his subordinates.
Suzie screamed and yelped in pain during the chest tube insertion since she was wide awake, but her o2 stats went up markedly once the tube’s placement was confirmed. A blanket was placed over her torso and she was wheeled over to radiology for a CT scan. The scan showed a small brain bleed that was thought to dissipate on its own. The spinal cord injury was confirmed, and it didn’t seem very promising since there was damage to the spine itself. In all likelihood, Suzie would be paralyzed from the waist down. The abdominal bleeding source wasn’t able to be located on the CT scan, so it was decided that she would be taken to the operating room for an exploratory laparotomy.
After being whisked upstairs into the OR, Suzie was quickly prepped for surgery. She was sedated and intubated with a 7.5 ET tube, with the tube being secured with a blue tube holder. Her belly was sterilized with betadine, staining it a brownish orange color. A midline incision was made in the attractive brunette's belly. The skin separated with ease from the sharp scalpel blade. The underlying fat, connective tissue, and muscle was cut through to expose the abdomen. A rush of blood came out of the incision upon entrance to the abdominal cavity, but before retractors could be placed. Suction was applied to the area, but it didn’t help. The retractors were placed and the opening was created. The area had to be suctioned, but it became apparent that there was extensive bleeding. The liver, spleen, IVC, and aorta were all intact, so the originally suspected culprits were ruled out. The surgical team then began the tedious task of searching through the bowel loops and mesenchymal area for injuries.
During the tedious search, Suzie's blood pressure began dropping. More blood products were hung and vasopressors were pushed, but that was simply a band aid meant to buy some time. After 2 more minutes of unsuccessful probing and prodding, Suzie’s vitals began to plummet rapidly. Meds were pushed, but she became pulseless. The abdominal surgery was paused temporarily and chest compressions were started. Suzie’s chest caved in repeatedly as it was pounded away by one of the nurses. Her perky, B cup breasts bounced and jiggled in sync with each of the compressions. On the heart monitors, PEA was displayed. Epi and atropine were injected intravenously in an attempt to obtain a shockable rhythm.
After a few cycles of unsuccessful chest compressions, the lead surgeon decided to look for the bleed once again. Suction had to he applied once more, but the doctor found a bleed in one of the mesenteric veins. A vascular clamp was placed in the meantime until the vessel could be ligated. Blood still accumulated in the abdomen, so it appeared another vessel was severed in the vicinity. While going through more bowel loops, there was significant bruising and swelling in the jejunum. Another bleed was located in a deeper mesenteric vein, and that vessel was subsequently clamped off. No additional blood accumulated in the abdomen, so it appeared all bleeding sources have been located. In the meantime, the code ensued. A 2nd round of drugs were pushed and more blood products were hung from the rapid infuser.
Finally, the monitors showed v-fib. The defibrillator paddles were gelled and charged to 200j. The defibs were then pressed up against Suzie's bare chest as everyone stepped away from the table in anticipation of the shock. Suzie’s body jolted abruptly in response to the shock, but she remained in v-fib. Chest compressions were resumed while the paddles were being readied. A moment later, a 300j shock was delivered. Suzie’s lifeless body reacted more noticeably from the stronger shock. Her back arched slightly and thrust her chest upwards, jiggling her b cup breasts. Suzie wasn’t shocked out of v-fib, so life saving efforts resumed. A nurse took over chest compressions, pumping away at the 28 year old's chest while the defibs were being recharged to 360j. The next shock was delivered about 30 seconds later, causing Suzie’s feet to leap up above the table and slam back down a second later, showing off the thick, prominent handful of wrinkles in her size 8.5 soles. Luckily, this shock converted the attractive brunette to sinus bradycardia, and surgery could continue.
The rest of the surgery was touch and go, but the OR team managed to maintain a pulse. The 2 severed mesenteric veins were successfully ligated and proper blood drainage was restored to the intestines, but post operative monitoring for blood clots was important. Next, orthopedics began their end of the surgery. Suzie’s fractured ulna was surgically reduced with a small rod and pins that were inserted directly into the bone. Lumbar fusion surgery of the L3-L4 space was performed to reduce motion in the area and prevent additional damage to the spinal cord itself.
After the surgery, Suzie was transferred to the ICU for careful monitoring. She remained sedated and intubated, but switched over to a ventilator. A catheter and central line were placed, and antibiotics were added to her cocktail of medicines since her abdomen was open for almost 5 hours. Suzie's parents and older sister arrived at the hospital about an hour and a half earlier, and were waiting in a private waiting room together.
“How is she?!” Suzie’s mom asked the trauma surgeon, teary eyed as soon as he entered the room. “she’s in the ICU and in pretty rough shape. She sustained some major internal bleeding during surgery and her heart stopped beating for 6 minutes- we were lucky to get her back. She also sustained a spinal cord injury, and it’s very possible she’ll be paralyzed from the waist down. She has a moderate head injury we're monitoring, and she also suffered a badly broken arm in the crash. I’m very sorry ma’am” the trauma surgeon said. “paralyzed?!” her mom asked, beginning to cry again. The doctor paused, then sighed before continuing. “yes ma’am. The spinal cord injury she sustained is quite serious, so it’s very possible she’ll be paralyzed. Best case scenario, she’ll have major issues with mobility.” The family paused, taking all of the bad news in. “I wanna see her.” The mom demanded. “I can take you up to see her, but I warn you- she’s sedated and hooked up to a breathing ventilator. She’s gonna look pretty beat up, so please keep that in mind, ok?” The surgeon said.
The surgeon escorts the 3 family members up to the ICU. “oh god…my poor baby…” the mom cries out, almost falling to her knees after seeing Suzie hooked up to a ventilator and connected to other equipment. Suzie was covered in abrasions, her chest was bruised from CPR, there was a large bandage on her belly covering up the closed incision, the bump on her head appeared to have gotten a little bigger, her complexion was a ghastly pale, and she was cool to the touch. Suzie’s BP and heart rate were stabilizing, but her chest tube had to be fixed a bit after surgery since it was knocked loose from the resuscitation efforts.
She remained relatively stable for the next handful of hours, but there were some changes that occurred around 3am. Her blood pressure dropped again, and her medication dosage was upped. But at 3:30, Suzie began having a seizure. Her body twitched and thrashed involuntarily on the bed as her family watched in horror. “help! SOMEONE HELP!” Suzie’s sister shouted, attracting a nurse’s attention. A few nurses and the doctor entered the room. Lorazepam was pushed intravenously to control the seizure, but it was discovered that her right pupil was blown and the left pupil was constricted. 2 minutes later, the seizure was controlled and Suzie was taken back down to radiology for a repeat head CT.
The scan showed that her brain was swelling, and that raised a major red flag with the doctors. Since her head injury had a delayed reaction that required additional care, she was taken back up to the OR to have an intracranial pressure monitor placed.
A portion of her head was shaved and the small, hairless patch was sterilized with betadine. Once the area was cleaned, an electric drill was used to create a small opening in the skull. After the opening was made, a small pressure sensitive monitor was calibrated and fed into the hole, and constant intracranial pressure monitoring began. Initially, Suzie’s ICP reading was 12mm/Hg, which is abnormal, but still below the threshold for further intervention. Anything above 0 is abnormal, but 15-20 is considered dangerous, and anything above 20 is typically fatal since the brain herniates at that point. Suzie was taken back to the ICU after the procedure was completed.
Over the next few hours, Suzie’s ICP readings increased 16 mm/Hg. At that point, the ICU team decided to put Suzie into a medically induced coma in an attempt to prevent further brain swelling and give her body a chance to recover.
Throughout the day, Suzie only showed signs of getting worse despite the doctor’s best interventions. Her ICP monitor was displaying 17 mm/Hg, but her pupils were fixed and dilated. After a neurology consult and an eeg, it was determined that Suzie was brain dead. The attending physician delivered the bad news to Suzie’s family, and they decided to remove her from the ventilator. Suzie was surrounded by her family and was pronounced dead at 8:21am.
After the ICU team gave her family a chance to grieve and say goodbye, they went into the room and began removing equipment from her battered, lifeless body. The EKG electrodes were disconnected, the IVs were removed, all monitors were shut off, and her body was covered up, only leaving her feet exposed. A toe tag was filled out and placed. The tag dangled in front of Suzie’s wrinkly soles as she was taken to the hospital morgue.
Suzie’s cause of death was determined to be brain herniation from the head injury she sustained. The brain injury was moderate at first, but had a delayed onset and grew progressively worse. The cause of the plane crash was investigated over the following weeks, and the cause was determined to be calibrating the altimeter wrong, and ended up at a higher altitude than the plane was made to fly in, so the plane stalled. Overall, this was a preventable accident that led to the deaths of 2 young people.
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topositivity · 4 years
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Let's get this place busy again 🙂
The first story Im gonna share with you today is from lovely @aikycosette
It's a lovely story with many examples of how you can look at yourself from different angle to be able to love yourself more.
Thanks love @aikycosette 💗
"I’ve thinked often how grow in society where you must show yourself and are also expose to a certain beauty standard, and i’m not talking about those insta perfect blondie skinny girls, i’m talking about all those smart eccentric original girls and boys out there showing how beautiful and creative and unique they are, could make you feel not very special, not beautiful enought, i personally wasn’t able to take selfie of myself until 7 years ago, before i hated to pose for photos i usually try to hide myself, and worst of all is that memory i have of me trying to take some photo of me, and i just wished to be cool as them but i cannot, cause i focus too much on try to be like them instead of try to see myself. Even when i tryed to look feminine or sexy or strong or confident, or whatever attempt there was in  the post or picture i was taking it ends up showing i wasn’t cause i really wasn’t, only when i started to say ok maybe this part of myself is beautiful, maybe if i pose like that i can feel more confident then i started to be able to believe at my photos. The reality is that all bodies and shapes and size are beautiful is just convince yourself to love and appreciate you the difficult part (or at least this is my vision) I was an athlete as a child so I had a very masculine body until I stopped and the I gain a lot of weight of course so all my teen phase I hide myself under clothes, I use to wear pants under skirts cause I have a very noticeable back and I was ashamed of it, now is the part of me I'm most proud of, I have large shoulders which always made me feel too masculine now I think they express my strong character and show how I cna be a true leader and a person who you can trust, dress in the way which most express yourself and suit better your shape also helps a lot. Try new clothes even if at first they are out of your comfort zone, be yourself and you will discover you are more than how you expect. For fit bodyshape could be often a problem the idea of not be feminine enought, well remember your femininity is not about being skinny or small, is the way you what it is, could be the way you talk act move or anything else you decide that and people will perceive it. Last thing is about my nose another bigger insecurity of mine it is broken in two point so is very "S" shape, at first I hated that I felt so ugly like a bad character of a movie, but then I realize it was what makes me unique I have two different profiles from the two sides and I have a big important Egyptian kind of nose and is awesome, I've learned how to pose if I want to show one side or the other and love them both in same way, but it took years. Is all about the prospective and also work on yourself to archive the goals you want I dont' think is wrong to change yourself if you want to, is important tho to keep control and not use it as a copying mechanism. Your body will change so many time during your life, you have to respect it and love it, even if is the hardest thing, but small steps are the best way, a healty food habit, a little treat for yourself (bath, nails, makeup) a compliment at the mirror or in your head proof yourself you can be the best part of yourself."
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buckyscrystalqueen · 6 years
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Seriously, WTF is wrong wit u that u support that racist pig?!
WTF is wrong with me? You know, I was gunna just ignore this but the ignorance is just…. It’s just fucking mind blowing. So much so, that I can’t even focus on getting any writing done. So, I guess we’re doing this. It’s long (1.5k), so buckle up.
When I was a kid, I was either always angry or always sad. And yea, some people think that’s normal for some kids, but this was not the case for me. I would wake up for school every day and force myself to be sick or hold a heating pad to my forehead just so I didn’t have to go to school because I was so miserable with life. I was the girl that couldn’t take care of myself to the point where I literally showered MAYBE once a week and usually, my mother had to barge into the bathroom while I was in the shower to forcefully wash my hair because I refused. I sometimes wore the clothes (straight down to the underwear) for multiple days in a row, deodorant was not something I cared to remember to put on when I got to that age, and forget me putting on a bra until almost 8th grade no matter how madly I needed it.
And the anger. God, I was a monster! As a 28 year old woman, I can honestly say that yes, I was very abusive and I used to think it was because I was the only adopted sibling out of four kids. I broke the mirror on the back of my sisters door one time because she closed me out of her room when I was raging. I threw the door open so hard, it hit her in the face, and gave her a bloody nose. I felt zero remorse. I would swear at my father, tell him he was the biggest piece of shit in the world, and let him know nearly every day that I would be the one daughter he would never speak to again. I used to tell him, the man that raised me and loved me, that I wished he died and that he would never walk me down the isle. 
When I was twelve, my parents decided it was time to start seeking outside help other than the Catholic church I was raised in. (Because praying to God that I’d get better wasn’t helping the chemical imbalance in my head.) I was taken to a therapist who diagnosed me as simply ‘depressed with anger issues.’ The most generic diagnosis possible. And so began the medications. I was put on everything; Zoloft, Prozac, Wellbutrin, Paxil, Lexapro, Sinequain, even some homeopathic shit… they did nothing but make me more angry. 
I was so angry that when I was 17, I stole my fathers car (that I drove every day so it was, in my mind, my car), changed my license plate with a random truck’s, took off my bumper stickers, and drove to North Carolina. I turned off my cell phone, called a friend of mine that had moved to Raleigh via pay phones, and fully intended on emancipating myself from my family. I was obviously cut off because my parents called my phone company, got the last call I made from home before I ‘left for work’ and sent cops to my friend’s house before I made it out of the state of Florida. So I came home. A week later, after my parents tried to tighten the reigns to get control, I tried to run away again but this time, my brother jumped on the back of my car. I actually drove two blocks, blazing through stop signs at forty miles an hour with my brother hanging on to my car for dear life. I should have gone to jail for that… I was very lucky. And it is something I think about quite often even to this day because I could have killed him.
Now, at this point, I was 17 years old and I was sent to yet another new doctor. This man literally changed my life. After sitting with me for almost two hours, he diagnosed me with bi-polar 2 that manifested in severe depression and anger, and anxiety, both general and social. He put me on a medication called Lamictal which I like to call ‘the miracle med’. This drug changed my fucking life. I was able to start functioning as a normal human being, I started taking care of myself. I could handle going to school, finally and managed to get my CNA license because of it. I had friends for the first time in my life. It was the greatest thing in the entire world. At one point, I tried the generic equivalent of the name brand (twice!) and found that, for me, it did not work. So, we stuck with the name brand. Why fix what’s not broken, right?
I have been on that medication for eleven years, and was taking the working name brand of it until Obamacare happened. The day I signed up to have that health care, (which before hand I had been on my parents or had health care through work) the day I signed up was the day they stopped paying for name brand because “there was a generic equivalent that worked just as well”. For months, I fought to get that ruling over turned. I had my doctors call my insurance (Blue Cross Blue Shield of Florida which I had been using for my entire life) and say that it was medically necessary, I paid for and brought stacks upon stacks of paper work with my ENTIRE medical history showing everything I had been through with medications, I cried, I screamed, I did everything… but they didn’t care. Because they didn’t have to anymore thanks to Obamacare. So I was forced to take the generic (since name brand was costing me $654.31 a month with insurance) and I have been on that not good enough for me generic for three years. And I have been a half functioning, shell of a human being ever since.
When Donald Trump ran for president, he said that one of the first things he was going to try to do was over turn Obamacare. I devoured every single article I could find and realized that, by him doing that, I would be allowed to get my name brand medications again for the $70 I used to pay before Obamacare. I was so excited! This news meant that I didn’t have to wonder if I was still going to have bouts of anger even though I was on medication that was supposed to be just as good as what I was taking. That meant that I was no longer going to have thoughts of self hatred so bad that I can’t get out of bed even though I was on medication. That meant, I could be ‘normal’ again, a concept I knew long ago that had been so lost on me thanks to Obamacare. 
So, yes. I absolutely, 100%, no questions asked voted for Trump. I would do it a million times over. I’m not ashamed, I’m not embarrassed; I voted for Donald Trump. And every single morning, I wake up and hope and pray that today will be the day that the democrats let him over turn Obamacare. I pray every God in every religion to have my fucking life back because I can’t take being this shell another day. I BEG anyone and anything to be able to afford my medications again so I can go back to enjoying my life instead of spending all day, every day on my couch, staring at my laptop screen. 
In the past three years alone, I have put on over 80 pounds thanks to the depression the generic version of Lamictal doesn’t completely help. I have more days than not where the idea of killing myself floats through my consciousness, even if it’s just for a moment. Thankfully for me, it’s not something I would ever act on, but I’m lucky. A similar situation happened to my best friend, a man I considered my brother, and he died two years ago from side affects to the generic medications he was forced to take for Obamacare. 
I have lost countless amounts of jobs thanks to this medication fiasco, I have lost friends, and I called off an engagement. I got pregnant thanks to a one night stand (one of so many because sex was obviously going to help) and had to experience the pain of a miscarriage which isn’t a direct link to medication, but I believe being on the generic had a big part of my promiscuity. My life has been turned upside down… and Trump is the only person that could offer a smidgin of hope for me.
So there, dear dick head anon. That’s what’s wrong with me. That is the reason I am a Trump supporter. Is that a good enough reason for you?
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Starting of 18 May 21
Hello, feels like i have been sleeping my days away since 15 may LOL like time is really passing too quickly when i sleep and i sleep for like 12++ hours a day at least LOL, but one of the many good things for today will be going on is that i’ll be going for my second driving practical at 10am and i’ll start studying a 530am for my insurance exam and it is finally booked for 1June.  I think if I’ll probably always start my day will writing my journal from now on till 1June then I’ll start off reading 4 articles and 2 articles each for CNA and Biz insiders, honestly i still dk what to read into for business insiders but okay. Then i’ll workout for an hour and rest for 30 mins before i go to bathe. And I’ll avoid sleeping in the middle of the day and at the middle of the night too, Bed time will be latest at 130am, if any later I’ll not sleep anymore.
Honestly, one of the biggest things im afraid of while studying is my tots of the past but honestly if each time it keeps coming in i’ll have to keep telling myself that i still can control my future but not my past. And i need to focus on my present so i can build my future, i know i have been telling myself these and i would say i have drastically changed since March and i want to continue to change for my better like to be more knowledgeable, read more, know more things in the industry, enjoy my family time with my family, enjoy eating with my friends too.  Okay i know that now SG can’t dine in but ok LOOL. Then it’s totally fine by me too, then its a month of me working out 3 days a week and waiting for my university then. 
Well i think i will study, workout and work and also game at the same time for a day, and i think writing journal really helps me to think in like a structured way so i could fulfill my day properly too.
And yes i am continuously thankful for my friends, JJ, Marcus, Jovan,  Xy and my family + all my other friends, ohya and my valolo and audi friends.  Ohyes, i haven’t told you journal, i am way happier than i was compared to last year so i’ll continue to make myself happy each day as days pass by.
Well Jiayous jenny,  u need to know more doing and less talking and continue to grind on life !!!! 
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knightavery · 3 years
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enchantechante · 3 years
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Man, Tae... I'm bummed. I completed my CNA course,you helped me through it months ago.Now there's no testing dates for where I live unless I drive at least two hours out the way. It sucks bevause my car recently stopped working and I pay to take cabs to and from work daily. Shit really sucks. If I'm lucky,I'll be able to take it some time mid or late next year or have to wait until 2022. No telling what I'll be up to then. And to top it off,if and when I am able to take it... I won't be able to take both parts the same day most likely. I'll have to reschedule and take each during different months. Man... Covid19 has really fucked things up this year. Another set back because of it. Sometimes I think becoming a nurse isn't my calling like my parents are even though I love helping others etc. Might just start working on my degree. This shit is for the birds and fucking with my money. Smh. But I'll meditate and try not to trip much. I swear... I'm so close to staring to smoke weed and drink. Lol. Ridiculous.
Good morning, love! 
Now you know weed and alcohol not gon solve this! lol So lets face the problem head on. 
I’m not going to focus on the things we cannot control. But are there any favors you could call in? I’m not familiar with CNA certification but is there a supervisor or counselor you can email regarding student support for testing? I know many schools allow virtual testing. 
The worst your school could say is, “No.” 
I dont know you well enough to affirm your purpose. But I will tell you what my mother tells me - did you get what you came for? If you’re going to walk away from here - make sure you got what you came for. Do not let it be said of you that you allowed this to punk you into not getting what you came for. 
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firdaussyazwani · 4 years
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NoFollow Links: Are they worth obtaining?
Many link building strategies you see online tend to focus on followed (or dofollow) links. They teach you to find your competitors’ backlinks, filter away nofollowed links, and then ask you to outreach to those websites.
Are they wrong?
Of course not. Getting only dofollowed links gives you the best return on investments. You save time outreaching to them and remove the need to write guest posts just for a nofollow link.
But are nofollow links really not worth it?
  Here’s what I think about NoFollow links
Getting dofollow links is definitely great for your SEO. The link equity from the website gets passed on to you — this way, whatever time and money you spend will be maximised for direct improvements for your SEO.
In all honesty, if the website is relevant to my niche, why would I not want that link EVEN if it’s nofollowed?
Let me illustrate.
I’m in the SEO niche.
Neil Patel, Backlinko, Ahrefs, and Moz are some of the most prominent authorities in the industry. If I had the chance to get a link from their website, but it’s nofollowed, do you think I would pass up on it?
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Of course not. The link is highly authoritative AND highly relevant.
Now, what if the website isn’t relevant to my niche? Say maybe I could get a link from Wikipedia, or the biggest news network in Singapore (CNA/Straits Times).
Would I then not bother trying to get that link? Chances are, I’d go for it too!
It might or might not pass link equity, but there are other benefits to getting those links.
  Benefits of NoFollow links
Even though Google might ignore nofollowed links, there are other benefits to getting nofollow links.
You get featured in relevant authority websites in your industry. This brings you additional exposure, awareness, and recognition for your brand
You get featured in authority websites (Wikipedia, news networks, etc.). You introduce your brand to businesses and consumers who might be your potential customers
You can add badges to your “As featured on” section on your website. This social proof builds credibility and increases the chances for conversions
  I’m pretty sure there are other benefits to nofollow links, but I believe that the above are the most important.
  Natural backlink profile
On top of the above benefits, I’m going to dedicate a section here to talk about how nofollow links make your backlink profile look natural.
If you’re doing natural white hat link building, chances are nofollow links will come naturally. You don’t have to worry too much about this.
However, if you’re using PBNs as part of your strategy, this is something you’ll have to consider.
The job of a PBN is to pass link equity with a relevant anchor text you can control to boost your keyword rankings. Many SEOs forget the fact that always having the keyword in the anchor is not natural.
And even more SEOs forget that you won’t get 100% followed links for all your links.
Here comes the next question…
  How do I make my dofollow/nofollow ratios look natural?
I have yet to come into any case studies that have tested these variables. Until then, anything I say here is purely observational.
Unlike anchor text ratios, I believe that Google is less strict on this “ratio”. As previously mentioned, if you’re doing white hat link building or no linkbuilding at all, chances are these ratios will come naturally to you.
And if you were to use a tool like Ahrefs to observe the nofollow and dofollow ratios of many websites, you’ll notice that it’s crazy skewed.
Most ratios I observe are in the 80% – 95% range in favour of dofollow links.
Therefore, my personal belief is that you can keep your dofollow-nofollow ratio to be around 9:1. If you’re feeling kinda frisky, you can increase that number to 95%.
Chances are, it’ll still appear natural too!
Just keep in mind that there are a lot of other variables that will come into play in keeping your backlink profile looking natural, and you should consider all other factors as well.
  Conclusion
Even if you’re doing white hat SEO, you should regularly do a backlink audit of all your links. (Shameless plug, I offer this service)
Make sure that your anchor text AND dofollow-nofollow ratios are natural.
The good thing about the dofollow-nofollow ratio is that followed links are natural even in the high 90% range. You’ll just need to have a few nofollow links to balance it out!
So when planning out your backlink strategy, don’t filter out the nofollow links immediately. Check them for authority and relevancy.
You definitely don’t want to miss the chance of getting a feature on authoritative industry blogs!
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chi-andie-blog · 4 years
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today you asked me
today you asked me what my major/course of study was. i was nervous. i was scared. i was embarrassed. about what? about telling my own mother that i had changed my mind? exactly. from this reaction, one can tell that my mother is not a warm and open parent. it has always been this way. 
secrets. hiding. sneaking. closeted. just a few words to describe my past and current relationship with her. it is difficult to express any thoughts, feelings, and emotions that did not line up with hers. 
today i told you that i changed my course of study. i am not going to be the nurse that you hoped i’d be. i know deep down you wanted me to be one because you weren’t able to be one. additionally, being a nurse or a medical professional in the filipino culture is highly respected. i believe i have around 10+ medical professionals in my family. however, i am not going to fit some mold and pursue the nursing field for you to show me off. also, i am not going to be a nurse  to take care of you when you are older. no just NO!
maybe it’s because i did not want to become anything you wanted me to be or become anything like you. from the outside looking in, people see you as the kind-hearted CNA. you would tell people all the time that i was working my way to get admitted to nursing school. they say it would only make sense if i followed my mother’s footsteps in healthcare. 
you know, maybe i would’ve been a great nurse. i am empathetic and compassionate. sadly, you ruined it for me - whether i wanted to be one or not. you tore me down. i felt disposable. you made it known that i was difficult to love and was not deserving of any affection and attention. i can’t be a nurse even if i wanted to be one because of many reasons. i severely lack in confidence. i cannot communicate effectively without doubting myself. i am unable to get a grip of my emotions. i have trouble paying attention to detail because i cannot concentrate. in fact, these are essential skills one must have to be successful in any industry. 
the good news is that through years of intense therapy, i can work through the hurt. the bad news is that “out of sight” doesn’t necessarily mean “out of mind.” you’re on my mind every single waking moment of my life. it feels as if your words and actions have been ingrained into my brain. on repeat. over. and over. it’s torture. 
but now it’s your turn. it’s your turn to suffer. i am 2,017 miles away from you. you have no control over me. whether it’s my major, my hair, my face, my clothes, what fast food restaurant i’m going to, or just going to a friend’s house. from now on i have to slowly learn to love myself from the beginning. and once i am able to do that i will be able to accomplish many things. the accomplishments that are yet to come i’d have to thank myself, god, and my incredible boyfriend for. you will be deprived of anything monumental in my life. you won’t be attending my college graduation, see my dog, meet my partner or child and etc. 
going forward, my focus will be on me. just me. 
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ele watches aos - aos spoilers
-cannot believe you are doing this to me. Jemma and May are in shock. That says the level of fucked up.
-Jemma and May flying the spaceship is beautiful and I'm crying
-were they frozen in time for years? or did they find a monolith that moves you around time?
-I love that they are all counting on Jemma and Jemma is sassing them about it because wow they are in so much trouble.
-Are they going to save all the humans in there too? bring them back?
-I'm laughing. they have been compared to rats. also the new guy reminds me of Hunter, they are all 'oohh he's in this for money' so I bet it will turn out he's a nice guy too
-laughing, they have been left alone and the Krees are DEAD, it's so them. Also nobody knows Daisy has powers yet except the team.
-either all the humans in here will be dead at the end of the season or take control of this station
-Daisy's earlier seasons expressions are coming back and I love it
-oohhhhh they are going to take Jemma aren't they. 'call that a honor' she's going to be in some creepy situation isn't she
-they are leaving May and Jemma alone, keep your head down and do what others do. oh yeah, that can't possibly go wrong.
-it's so cute, the new girl asking questions about life on Earth. Is it Tess?
-'they system is no more dead Krees' lmao I love how they are done in different ways, Mack is done because used to it, the other one is just... reasonably done for his standards
-UH GUY FLIRTING WITH DAISY
-I love how Coulson's first instinct was 'I have to fix everything'
-how can Jemma and May blend in? they didn't even ask what they are *supposed* to do
-oh wow let's not go there, with 'Fitz has lived his life. or not'. This whole talk murders me. Though I can tell Jemma cna stay calm thinking that of course she'll find a way back to his time.
-oh my god their reaction to food. the girls aren't blending in, though! come on, pretend it's pie and throw yourselves at it!
-fuck did stabby do? What did he think was going to happen if not to die?
-SERIOUSLY JEMMA? BLENDING IN? ACTING AS A DOCTOR? WITH MAY?
-aaaand this is why they take her away. also appreciate the whole shaking head at May. Kree woman has an eye on her too, she helped Jemma too fast. COME ON. NOW THEY COME BACK TOGETHER AND JEMMA IS GONE. I can see why the native are exasperated. How am I supposed to call the guy Dick? Come on
-'Hello, Yoyo. Masterthief'. MORE YOYO. GIVE ME MORE YOYO.
-I want more scenes of every single character, honestly. which isn't possible. Unless they focus less on plots and have the characters going around more but that's just not the kind of tvshow either damn it
-lmao Jemma is the one who is okay sleeping on the floor and has been brought to the kree spa.
-'undress and clean yourself' in front of them? yeah aha. That's not feeling uper wrong. Also Jemma's shirt is different from her previous one of the finale? I hadn't realized she had changed on her way to the diner.
-CREEPY KREE GUY WILL GET INTERESTED IN JEMMA. YOU'LL SEE.
-wow his eyeliner looks like mine a couple of hours after I apply it
-Daisy at least get closer to the doors you open with your powers so people won't know you used powers??
-oohh is this a drugs room? the fuck?
-it makes people hallucinate earth or something?? or just dream? Daisy has had weird dreams before. No wait, framework what?
-a life spent a life earned... that's going to come back to haunt them isn't it
-WOW JEMMA, HER ACTING. SHE READ HIM RIGHT AND FOUND THE PERFECT ANSWER, I CANNOT BELIEVE.
-I KNEW IT. I knew he'd be creepy about Jemma. please do not go the way I wrote it before with my au Hive, that was only okay when it was fanon because I dealt with the aftermath and everything, also it didn't affect anyone negatively oh my god
-Mack and Yoyo flirting is beauty
-look at them already getting themselves in trouble with the locals. I can just see the way they'd have been if they had ended up in prison like they thought. They'd have had a gang within five minutes
-they kept the 'framework' and just yesterday i was like 'they could have also ended up in prison and it would have been like in Angel, people breaking each of them out of jail because 'Aida is back' because she had a backup of her last image there
-oh my god the red thing on their wrists is horrifyingbut I don't entirely get it? do they shoot other reds or other blues?
-okay so each red has to kill one until they turn blue? the hell?
-lmao them stuck to the wall just pointing at the other guy, fat lot of good it did him to get them stuck there
-May, her leg is sooo hurt, she and Jemma go to the same school of 'I'll kick you with my stabbed leg if I have to and show no pain because I'm that cool'?
-Jemma 'what are you doing on your feet?' you are not supposed to just take control of the situation and speaking over him. I'm surprised the Kree guy didn't kill her just for interrupting him
-Also oh Jemma still reacts so much to people dying which is... good? but she has so many scars for sure over her body, from torture, from Maveth?
-she's yelling back at him, how
-I KNEW HE'D BE THAT CREEPY MOTHERFUCKER, ooohhhhhhh it's a thing that makes her deaf??? or under his control?? I cannot believe. Deaf in a place like that, now.
-Daisy's fight with Dick oh my god
-QUAKE. DESTROYED THE PLANET. THIS IS SO AWESOME. obviously I expect them to change it but you know. wow.
-nice doom speech just at the end
-Jemmaaaaaaaaaa, I joke about people making May their queen, I didn't expect Jemma to be made into a... slave with makeup and clothes like that supposed to represent the Perfect Kree
-are they all deaf? Stop fidgeting, Jemma
-OH GOD SHE CAN ONLY HEAR HIM, ARE YOU KIDDING ME
-ARE YOU???
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Brass Tacks
Well, it has been a while since I have contributed to the blogosphere. It’s been a pretty crazy few months, and there are different reasons as to why I haven’t been able to post anything, and in typical form, I am going to elaborate far beyond the expected level of information! 
I bet you’ve missed that, haven’t you? 
Reason 1) I’m going to be a dad! You heard that right, this soon-to-be father is finally going to be able to tell horrendously dorky dad jokes without being judged as much. It’s a great time to be alive. And just a few months ago, we found out that it’s a boy! The ultrasound technician has to be careful not to be too definitive, because you don’t know for sure right up until you get to hold them in your arms… BUT… Our boy was far from shy from the pictures they took. So we are pretty confident with we have seen thus far.
2) I got my CNA certification, and have been going to college! It’s been a crazy spring and summer so far, but with no sign of letting up, I figured that if I don’t make time for this when it’s this busy, I won’t find any time for it ever. So essentially, I have been driven to exhaustion by the normal demands of adulthood… Where’s Neverland when you need it? 
3) I have had no shortage of ideas of what to talk about here… But to be completely honest, being wrapped up by politics has truly been the last nail in my coffin. What used to be fascinating to discuss and observe has become a never- ending tsunami of poop. I started this blog wanting to talk about whatever was on my mind, but that ended up evolving into just being unbelievably frustrated with everyone and the current political climate. I’ll always find it fascinating, but I need to take a break for a while. There is a lot more to marvel at and discuss than the infuriating machinations of our politicians. See, look at that… I lose focus trying to tell you I’m done getting caught up with politics by getting caught up with politics. I’m like a goldfish, with half the attention span. Anyways, long story short, I’m shifting my focus for the time being. I think it’ll do some good for my already-scrambled brain. 
Now onto what I wanted to talk about today! Brass Tacks. I have never really understood what the phrase means, but I have grown to appreciate what it does for discussion… Cut the crap, let’s get to what’s really important. Speaking as the most frivolous language user in history, I have learned to appreciate the people who know when it’s time to “Cut the crap”. As a watcher of people, I have noticed that there are a lot of topics that we all should consider and discuss, but never do. Whether that’s because we feel bad about casting dispersion on others, make ourselves feel bad about our own decisions, or that these topics merely make us feel uneasy or uncomfortable, we all are guilty of this. I see these neglected conversations divided in three different spheres: with close friends and family, with strangers and acquaintances, or with ourselves. For example, if I am at a restaurant that I go to frequently and my meal has something wrong with it, I am pretty slow to say something to the server or manager. So say I don’t say anything… A week later, I go to the same restaurant and have the same issue come up… Who do I blame? Why on earth would I have expected anything different? Another example: At your work, your boss likes to call you a turd(Weird choice of insults, I know… Not to mention, this already sounds like a terrible place to work… Please humor me). Aside from the normal expectation of not being called human excrement at work, if you don’t ask them to call you something different, can you blame them? Absolutely not. Now when you say something, be respectful and kind… But that’s a whole different tangent for a different day. I’m having a hard enough time staying on topic as it is. 
The main problem that I see with this is that you create two conflicting narratives: 1) Terrible and stupid things happen to you all the time, and it’s out of your control… And lastly, something I think we all would like to think about our own lives, 2) We are the masters of our own lives and destiny. Do you see the problem? We want it both ways, we want a reason to complain about things we don’t take responsibility for, while we want to be treated as arbiters of our choices and existence. We either have to admit that part of our misery comes from our inability to speak out against what we disagree with, or that we actually are completely helpless in acting independently or autonomously. 
I realize all too well that life can trample all over anyone regardless of their attempts at speaking out against it. I understand this reality all too well. But with recognizing the things that are out of our control that metaphorically kick us in the shins and gonads every chance that it gets, we can’t let those things make us forget the litany of other things we can control.  
Above are some examples of conversations that we avoid because we don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, and there are tons more of examples aside from what I mentioned. Moving forward though, I want to talk about what makes us feel uneasy or uncomfortable. 
If you would, either ask yourself or picture someone else asking you the following questions about yourself. 
Are you happy with your life?
Do you project a more polished version of yourself on social media because you don’t like yourself as you currently are?
Is there a chance that some of your unhappiness is partly or mostly your fault?
Do you make people uncomfortable with some of your unhealthy outlooks on life?
Why do you look down on people you don’t know or don’t understand?
Are there ideas or thoughts you’re not ever willing to entertain because they scare you or confuse you?
What are you afraid of? Why?
If you were to look at yourself from outside your purview, would you want to be friends with yourself?
How much of what you can’t control controls you and your reactions?
Are these questions and other similar visceral questions something you consider or ask yourself? Did they make you feel uncomfortable? I sure hope so. Because I felt pretty uneasy considering some of my reactions to these thoughts. I don’t think we spend enough of our time being uncomfortable or vulnerable. Whether we have these types of conversations with ourselves, or with people that we love, I think we could do better with having them more often. If you see a loved one acting selfishly, or engaging in a toxic relationship, couldn’t an act of love be pointing them towards redirecting some their unhealthy behavior? And if we love ourselves, shouldn’t we try and keep ourselves in check by asking ourselves some of these challenging questions? If you would, just try this out every once in a while. While honesty in itself won’t solve our problems, it’s the only foundation that we can build meaningful relationships, and truly understand who we are. And if Brass Tacks could do that for us, I think we shouldn’t be so afraid of them. Well, be happy, be safe, and remember who you are. 
Logan
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Hi! Could you tell me your thoughts on an Heir of Light? Also, I wanted to know if you think it's realistic for this classpect to wield Fire (a form of light) and to show people what they see/give them visions (as a way of sharing knowledge.)
It’s that magical time once again. A time where I feel good and want to write up a Classpect post! Let’s hope I still got it! 
The Heir passive manipulation Class. I like and use the definition that Heir’s inherit their Aspect in some way. That they may be surrounded by it. Unlike the Witch, I see the Heir as using their Aspect as it wishes. As in, the Heir just lets their Aspect be and do its own thing. The Heir’s Aspect is free to breathe and take form in how it wants, with the Heir then using that. It’s kind of like Witches are in control of their Aspect, where Heirs are guided and pushed along by theirs. They aren’t the leader, they are the follower of their Aspect. Another thing about the Heirs is, I think every Class has one unique thing about them they can do with their Aspect. I see Heirs as able to physically or metaphorically become their Aspect. We saw the physical part of it when John had his short confrontation with Bec Noir in the bubbles. I think John also became metaphorically Breath with his Retcon powers and being free to roam and go as he pleased. I think it ties in nicely with the Heir being surrounded by their Aspect. Like how the breeze swayed Bec Noir’s tracking of his scent every which way. That eventually they can use their Aspect around them to become it and such. To inherit their Aspect. I think just the Heir being around or interacting with others can have their Aspect impact the other person. The Heir may not be realize it, sort of like how a Sylph does their thing, they’d unintentionally having their Aspect rub off on the other. Such as an Heir of Breath possibly leaving the person to feel more uplifted or free to do what they want, or an Heir of Space to fill them with this creative potential to do or make something. Also, despite being a passive Class, I see the Heir as having this certain control with their Aspect. Like John upon ascension able to make that tornado thing pretty easily. They have about the same powers of the Witch, just where the Witch can mold their Aspect into creative and unique ways, the Heir uses their Aspect as it naturally would be. The Heir can also learn to handle and take care of themselves when their Aspect tries to manipulate them itself, but if they can’t handle it or it breaks them, their Aspect may choose to leave the Heir. That they are unfit to have or inherit their Aspect. But that’s only if the Heir completely fails as their Role.
Light is the Opposite Aspect of Void, a more up front and varied Aspect, comparatively. Light has quite a few facets that we see across our Light players in canon. Light is about bringing something to the forefront, shedding some Light on it, if you will. Light can deal with luck, information, the importance of something. If Void is to withheld, then Light is to expose. As we have seen heavily through Vriska, the facet of luck can be used as a dangerous component. Either being used for a fight or to better plan out the best course of action, or just cheat at the slots, it can turn the tables in your favor. Another word you may use for luck, and I think is better overall for what Light is, would be fortune. It means literally the same thing, and also ties nicely with all of are Light players neatly. Such as Vriska using the luck and wealth side of fortune, Rose using it to find the most fortunate path for them to take and follow, and Aranea healing with it by filling the Void or emptiness we know of her session and those in it, providing insight. Light may also deal with, well, literal light. Depending on how you want to view it this way, take for example our John and Rose Fraymotifs in Collide. (at least in how I view Fraymotifs) We see in the first John shooting little steams of wind, and along it, what appears to be beams of actual light. Not only could this be a literal attack of Light, but also as they trade off in their pattern hitting the ground, the Light could also be acting as a guide for where the breeze should follow. Light is not only to bring to attention, but also elaborate on them. To not leave a stone upturned.
The Heir of Light would be someone who invites the manipulation of Light, or manipulation through Light. I see this Heir as being rather attentive and perceptive of that around them. Perhaps this Heir is naturally surrounded by the importance of Light. Maybe they are some wel known persnality in some form or fashion, no matter how large or small the scale. They may also find luck just coming to them. I can see this Heir as the type of person to find stray coins on the ground most times to collect, for exmaples. Hell, they might even keep good luck charms around them, possibly in their room or close enough to them on their perosn or in their inventory, and can pull some luck from those. I can also see this Heir adorning their room or person possibly with things that have meaning or importance to them. With this Heir’s potential abilities, they could perhaps hold onto or keep track of improtant things about their session or actions needing to be done, such as getting a fellow player into the game. This Heir woudl conduct themselves very differently from their Void counterpart. This Heir is always in the forefront, at the front lines, as it were. The Heir has this importance aorund them, and that which they are and can become. I can see this Heir as potentially being a bit full of themselves this way. But back to the comparison, whereas a person like Equius feels better off watching form afar, or acting without much if any attention being drawn to them, this Heir would do the opposite. They act and do for the significance of what it is they do, and when they do something, atleast another party is gonna know or reconize it. This Heir would like to leanr more about things. Perhaps they are a bookworm, and have shelves upon shelves of books they have already read. Not in the same way the Understanding Classes do, but moreso because they find it interesting, and the clarity of Light eggs them on to want to know. Those around this Heir can also find the benefits of luck or the information they may have gathered. I believe this Heir cna also have a hand and helping someone’s luck for the better. Like they rub off some of their own luck onto others to then start seeing the benefits of themselves. You could also say they could use the literal Light or luminiescence around them as a sort of beacon. Like, an exmaple of this Heir beocming their Aspect could be one big literal Light for others to see, or expose a wide area for their or another’s use. Like a twinkle of light that is them floating in the vast expanse of Void that is the Furthest Ring. Also, this Heir coudl aid their team through showing them the guidance of what they need to do. Like my previous thing about keeping track of this important stuff, or maybe even being around the Heir long enough for the obvious path to come into focus for them. In battle, this Heir can use their powers to give them a slight edge with their luck factor, maybe able to strike a more percise and damaging blow, or allowing them to just barely scrape by an attack sent their way, and the same benefits for those sticking to the Heir. 
As for your extra questions, I don’t see why not! You’re free to do whatever you want with your Heir of Light, friendo! While I didn’t personally say you could do it, you can take them in any direction you want! 
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