#but I’m really missing u rn

[shadyteacup]

where did you go :( i miss you :( are you okay :(

Hey I’m so sorry for worrying u 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

I’m completely fine! And actually have been awfully inactive due to college and stress… but my vacations have started now, so hopefully I’ll be able to come online more often!!

How have you been?? I’ve missed you so much.. all of ur asks in my inbox make me feel so happy… it makes me feel so lovely to know that u think of me as often as I of u🫂💋💕

#I see your asks in my inbox n I promise to go through them all but rn I’m just so tired #it’s like 2am here lmaoo #shadyteacup #shady☕ #uwu anon #if I’m getting a bit emotional #idk if it’s the lack of sleep or the serene sounds of the rain outside my window #but I’m really missing u rn #I wish I could actually meet you in person #I’d give you a million hugs #I need to sleep before I end up crying lolll #k bye #ly bestie #saranghae

[in-study-hell]

Brain’s been all over the place recently, here’s some of those places

#WIPs #yea it’s like a very random assortment of fandoms rn I’m really out here doing whatever I’m feeling like #Especially since I’m at a skill level where I feel that revisiting some of my older fandoms #Would be fun for me since I can draw the fanart I’ve wanted to draw for a very long time #That’s why I’ve been trying to make a good codeLyoko piece for instance #Also wanted to draw krpk again I miss himmmmmm #Still enjoying my newer interest tho I’m caught up on HC and stuff I just don’t currently feel like drawing much of that atm #Have a good day yall #luv u muah

[overtake]

content for a very small audience but i was experiencing major deja vu when daniel posted this

#i need my laptop back so badly i am going crazy without it #apple needs to get it back to me FAST #i could be gifing but instead i’m comparing ashton irwin and his brother to daniel and his nephew #something about the photos was just SO SIMILAR #but seriously i will die without my laptop #i use it for everything it is my best friend #i use it for tumblr and discord and twitter and reddit and obviously i am literally just always working on some kinda gifset or project #i have 80 million tabs open #i watch all my youtube and tv on my laptop #i miss her so much #i had to write a full essay on my ipad today #do u know how annoying it is to do mcgill guide footnotes on ipad microsoft word #my cat will suffer for what she did (be given endless love appreciation and kisses and experience zero consequeces) #i’m also very sick rn so i’m really just stream of consciousness-ing here #my grip on reality is quite loose #i need to eat some soup and go to bed

[selfindulgentfandomstuff]

Ok so I’m thinking abt all the other times I’ve gotten indications that I’m actually kinda more attractive than I think of myself as being..

And it’s really surreal tbh

Like. I think the most notable thing is my first gf and how she was consistently asking for me to send selfies to her and always commenting on how cute and pretty I was..(keep in mind I was known as a girl at this time) and it was the first time I’d ever gotten that kind of attention before and it was so foreign but god it felt nice to be liked like that!

Even tho she turned out to be lesbian (she id’ed as pansexual at the time) and I turned out to be a guy (possibly gay and not bisexual, still figuring that out tbh) it was very nice while it lasted and she was a really sweet person and she was also the first person to really make me feel wanted in that particular way so to Ardy, wherever you are, thank you and I hope you’re doing well <3

#idk man it wasn’t meant to last but it was really nice and fun while it did #I rlly hope she’s having a wonderful life rn #I do miss being in a relationship and can’t wait to be in a relationship with a man someday seeing as that’s who I’m primarily #attached to. rn anyways lol #I do kinda wanna be on T at least tho before I get a relationship with a guy so they hopefully see me as male more visually and obviously #obv trans men are men regardless of whether they’re on T or not #but u understand me. u understand. #but gaaaahh having a bf sounds sooo good rn #I just hope I can find someone who finds me attractive and likes me for me :)

[theloveinc]

hello everyone just want to say sorry for not writing lately ‼️ I am just a little low on ideas currently and am waiting on my computer charger to be shipped in ‼️‼️‼️

#I have my Kiri asks I wanna get to soon as I have my compooper again #also I’m trying to think of a long fic idea bc I’m really tired of only writing short stuff (sigh. my own fault) #but I’ve been reading … not trashy novels but … best sellers like Carrie Soto is back and I wanna write a short version of that !! #I’m kinda thinking abt how I can turn that one idea abt Bakugo and praise into something #but idk if I wanna do canon universe or an au #but it’s on the brain !!! #sadly my computer is out of commission rn boo #so behind on hw because of it too LOL thankfully it’s mostly poetry and some other stuff #anyway I just wanted to say how dearly I miss and love u all!! #caitie blabs

[stillcominback]

💖💖💖

#i know i’ve been quiet but *sees last post* life’s just been a lot lately! 🤪 #BUT i’m feeling a little better a day at a time #being in the office is rough but i’m hoping it’ll get a little easier as i kinda feel my feels and stuff #big thank you to all of you who’ve chatted with me or reached out or literally just been here at all #your support and kindness really means SO much to me #like always but especially right now when i’m probably the most overwhelmed i’ve ever been??? #🥺🥺🥺 #it’s still really hard but I’m starting to believe there’s a ‘future me’ who’s happier and more settled and onto better things #just THANK YOU to all of you for being amazing support and friends 🥺💖 #AND PLS i may not be at my best rn as far as reaching out but #plsssss feel free to hmu on IMs or discord because i’d love to still plot and chat!! i miss it! #I’m also happy to write on discord (or do little things on the ic wires I have!) #ANYWAY!! off to bed I gooooo 🛌💖 LOVE U ALL MWAH #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[wishmemel]

mooties i apologize for being inactive lately — i hope you’re all watching the sunrise and drinking strawberry lemonade at this very moment

#AHH i miss u all so so much n i see each n every one of your posts even if i have zero energy to reply #i’m working on a little drabble fic rn so that should feed you all for a little bit while i procrastinate on life !! #also i binged this new webtoon called whirlwind campus affair? or something like that instead of studying and it was just amazing my god #but the FL is sooo gorgeous and her outfits are so amazing i envy her sm and i love her lifestyle n everything #not really a romance rec since it’s more about life and uni life but it’s really really good #just beware that all the MLs are so totally useless #it reminds me of the kdrama my id is gangnam beauty #she reminds me of myself sm i just adore her #anyway yeah hopefully i’ll be more active soon but i’m keeping you all in my thoughts <33 #꒰ soon you'll get better. ꒱

[bunibelles]

Intrusive thoughts hour 😭🫶🏼

#I need to check messages more often #I think my friend who graduated visited campus #and then I message their story #and read up after thinking huh I wonder how they’re doing #ONLY TO REALIZE I WAS THE ONE WHO NEVER READ THE MESSAGES 😭😭 #so ngl it’s really my fault if smth doesn’t happen #cause it’ll be sad if I missed the one day they were here #like sometimes friends drift apart cause life gets busy #I know that #but also I miss them #and honestly it’s my fault a lot cause I’m like the worst at replying #I wish I had unlimited energy but that’s not it either #I know my mom said like if u really care u’d make time #and she’s right but also #a lot of times I don’t open messages cause I want to give people 110% when I respond back #but also that just kinda stops me from messaging people right?? #like a terrible cycle that’s only in my head #I know it’s not a big deal #like my friend would probably be like haha I am on campus #but the instrusive thoughts are hitting deep rn </3 #I miss u I wish I was better at reaching out I love u I hope ur doing well #small voice at the back of my head being like pls don’t forget about me #even tho girl it’s my own fault 😭 #also another intrusive thought being like u only say all of this to justify not responding so honestly u could do better #and I can!! #so I should probably change this #hopefully it’s complicated… i say this a lot but it always gets back to this point #I hope people spam message me out of nowhere or don’t mind if I spam message them back #also irl stuff is actually busy cause extracurriculars are every single day 😭🫶🏼 #Bella rambles

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Ok life update. I’m fully in college again! I like some of my classes (all stem classes) I kinda hate some other classes (theatre classes ironically). I am so deeply not moved in at all. Unpacking who? Could not be me. I do not have enough storage. I like my third roommate a lot and living with my ex is not as scary as I thought it would be. I finally get an adhd and depression test in two weeks and i start therapy in a week.

#me? going to therapy bc my last relationship hurt me that badly? it’s more likely than you think! #it wasn’t just that. but that in conjunction with my depression did not do good things #went from clingy to very anxious attachment style #also. i keep saying I’m completely over her. I’m not. I’m just hoping if I say it enough it’ll be true #so it just really really hurts that she’s so over me and already talking to people and looking for dates #and I’m over here like. please can it all just stop hurting for 5 seconds🫠🫠🫠🫠 #i really do not know what to do. hoping therapy fixes my very much still broken heart #i can’t even tell her like hey dude this is killing me bc then she’d think I’m trying to make it her problem #when in reality I just don’t want her to talk about the girls she’s talking to as much #also I’m pretty sure she’d end up being like fine I just won’t talk to you anymore. which completely missed the point as well #so. that’s cool #gaming club is starting to meet up again which is nice. unfortunately it’s on a day I have color guard every week #i think antidepressants would be very good for me bc I am struggling to find a single positive point in my life rn #the waitlist for therapy is miles long and u gotta submit why you want it. they called me in within a week. it’s not looking hot for me lol #I’d like to start streaming now that I’m single again. and by that I mean I have more free time #but my ex and I share a wall and she hates when she can hear me talking thru the wall. we have really really thin walls #y’all I am not winning. at all #idea: we’re doing a poll on things that should improve my life and y’all can decide #soup talks

[noburden]

was offline and missed your bday :( happy belated !!!!! i love you so !!!! update me on everything emewee RN⁉️

BETSY !!! hello i’ve missed you so much i literally checked ur account yesterday and i was like omg a month without betsy 😰 i was having withdrawals also THANK YOU !!! it’s okay i missed ur bday too and i agreed to sacrifice my first born child to make up for it ✊ love u more

#okay so remember how i work as a lifeguard now #well now im working mostly at this summer camp and i just found out apparently we’re required to do at least one shift a week there #because people are literally AVOIDING it like the plague ??? i’m guessing the kids are really crazy or something #guess who scheduled every day for three weeks in a row? #ME BETSY #ME 😟 #so now i’m scared #and my supervisor is literally ghosting me i had to email her about my uniform (which i still don’t have) and she didn’t respond …. awkward #so now i just gotta show up in a red shirt and hope for the best #that’s the most interesting thing going on rn for me #so moving on #we need to talk about this twilight drug ur on right now #i respect the grind actually #that’s exactly how pride month should be spent #also i missed you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 #pink hearts for u #ask #betsy boop

[fandom-fae]

there’s nothing more sad than growing apart.

going from texting daily, to every other day, to once a week, to once every few months, to once a year, and then to not at all.

#yeah there’s 3 ppl this applies to. so what? #keeping online friendships alive is hard #the only ones i’ve consistently able to keep are ones where the long silences sometimes didn’t change anything #moi #im feeling emotional rn #and i’m listening to ‘letzter song’ by cro so that’s not helping akxhxkhskgi #friends #kinda #not really anymore but yeah #and yeah logan if u see this i miss when we still talked #same goes for mara #miss y’all tbh #but idk reaching out doesn’t work. and i get it some things are just over #but they were amazing before they ended ^_^ #i’ll go back to listening to music now skdjkcjdkf #normally i wouldn’t mention anyone by name directly but i saw both of them in my notifications over the last few days several times and now #i’m being nostalgic again akxhxkjdkff #anyway whoever is reading this i hope you’re having a good day :)

[wormtiddies]

so I think what I’ve realized is when I’m not on tumblr a lot it’s either bc things are getting better or actually they’re bad again. guess which one it’s been this time

#it’s bad again LOL #I’m okay ! not really. but I’m trying to be better #it’s just. soul deep loneliness rn tbh #hiiii how is everyone I love u I miss u #freys babble

[planetdream]

i’m like… really high n my brain is moving at like 124mph n i’m writing like four asks at once this is crazy

#2 delete #i am having a GREAT time en #*rn FUCK #anyways not to be emotional… bc yeah but i missed u guys #i have been having #. a time and also going through massive writers block so i’ve just been … idk what i’m trying 2 say #N E WAYZ…. i love u guys and i really appreciate u for liking my writing/blog and me :) #there’s more i want 2 say but…. i don’t have the words #deleting this when i get embarrassed lmaoaoaos

[haunted-maids]

uhm hey people…..

#i’m so sorry for dipping again 😭 tumblr drains my battery and my battery is on life support rn #but i promise i’ll be on here more!! really miss u guys #c/m.txt

[sanchoyo]

while I’m hyperfixating on my own ocs I was hoping I’d have the mental energy to do 2 more mini comics like the one I posted the other day but 1. Abt the girls costumes 2. How chimera anima work in the tm2 lore (which might contradict canon, oops?? Can totally write it off as queen doing experiments on them so they work differently now I guess…) but my three week long hyper mood has exploded and fizzled out bc I woke up sick :( and now I have no energy and I’m mad abt it bc I have literally 4 wips aside from the concept of those comics which I haven’t even sketched yet and I barely have energy to do things I need to do, let alone draw ☹️

#so cool so glad I wasted all the money on tests when literally the diet thing the dr told me to do ISNT working!!!! love this #love waking up like oops I frew up and am so dizzy I can’t stand up 😭👍 thanks!!!! #sry I’m just actually mad over this bc they are fun concepts in my brain and they are TRAPPED #I wanted to add more sections to my webbedsite abt my ocs too aaaaaaaugh #I just kinda wanna ramble abt them in general #my poor insta meowmeows are missing so much lore bc insta isn’t good for rambling which is why I’d rather make them mini comics #rather than just long text posts here ….u know? #I wish all my buds from there had tumblrs :< #anyway . I might nap but I’m kinda scared I’ll further fuck my schedule up by doing that but I literally cannot get up rn #so it’s either nap or maybe read smth I think bc my body is too shaky and dizzy and weak to draw….I literally feel like a sad little #Victorian boy with an oversized lollipop on my deathbed……woe is me etc etc #(I’ll be fine I am just dramatic I have a Gatorade and took meds :p) #it’s just really frustrating that this will probably be forever and get worse and I still don’t know why ☹️ and may is coming too fast #and I am Scared all the Time #anyway! I love my ocs #sanchoyorambles #medical talk

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

People at work out here making me cry. Because I’ll miss them. Because they made me care about them. Gross

#i almost cried several times today bc I was thinking about how sad I’ll be when I leave. and then like the last 20 minutes I was there #someone said something and I burst into tears and cried the whole time #and it’s so annoying!!! god I hate caring about things!!! #and literally it wasn’t even my last day. like my last day is this Friday #also the lady I’m going to miss the most bc I know I won’t talk to her much was like hey u know I do still have you’re number right? #i hope you know I’m gonna text you so you can send me funny pictures of you in college #like man that’s gonna do me in rn I’m gonna cry typing that out I’m gonna miss her so much #and then my friend and I r driving home and we’re talking and I almost start crying again and let me just say #it’s a little hard to see when ur eyes start tearing up #I’m like girl if you don’t stop rn today is gonna be both r last night don’t blind me while I drive #I’m so so sad I’m leaving this job I’m so sad and everyone’s is making me even more sad #bc everyone keeps telling me how much they’re gonna miss me and how much they loved having me #and everyone’s being so nice!! and I don’t know how to deal with that!! I don’t know what to do when people r nice to me #and man. for the first time in forever I feel like there’s a group of people who mildly care about me #and they keep reminding me they do. and it’s like. I’ll already cry if u tell me you care about me so if ur gonna do that and I have to go?? #sobbing and screaming and crying and crying and crying and crying #no but my one friend telling me she wanted me to keep in touch and send her pictures #yes that’s making me cry but also I’m really happy about that bc I’m gonna miss her so much #god forbid I say that but man I’m gonna cry so hard #oh god im crying again this sucks #soup talks