regarding the symbolism of V's glasses:
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** addendum: when she gets posessed in the middle/end of episode 5, and she's on the ceiling, her glasses fall off, because...gravity, duh.... but it symbolizes the loss of her true self in that moment, as well as telling the audience it's V that got posessed without having a character say it. the loss of the glasses also represents a loss of innocence, as she's actively being traumatized there, since she's still conscious, but unable to control her body as Solver uses her.
after N gives her back her glasses, she comes back to her senses, therefore returning back to her true self.
oh, the glasses she had during the sentinel fight were the same ones she had during her worker drone days by the way, if you look closely at the frames, the damage is the same! she had them this entire time....
pic 1:
discord message:
idk why but the glasses still on her mutilated fucking body hurts me so bad
like almost a representation of her innocence, or her true self
.....
brain blast
bc every time she has the glasses on or they're shown, she's her true self, or is coming to or revealing her true self
in EP 5 when N puts them on and she slowly comes to, and in EP 6 where she drops her defenses and is genuine to Uzi
(animated emoji of guy slamming the ground)
and the fact she's been carrying them this entire time, her true self never left her
her true self is still there, behind all the layers of hurt and fear, and all her defenses that she puts up
that kind and sweet and shy girl is still there...
the one who loves puppies and blowing bubbles and waving around dumb flags 😭
pic 2:
(replying to previous message i sent saying "ahhh...now that she's lost [her glasses].....")
brain blast..... before she always had them, but she was hiding them on her body, much like she hid her true self in order to protect herself, because she's so scared of everything. But now that she pulled them out and couldn't get them to hide them again, her full self is now always going to be shown, mostly anyway
but the shattering of her glasses means two things:
1) her protective walls coming down, being vulnerable and honest with her friends and teammates
2) her hope and innocence being completely lost. She's in despair. She really, really doesn't think there's any light at the end of the tunnel for her. She's given up. She's given up, and she knows she's either going to be abandoned or die, and that right at that moment, that place of death was the most peaceful option for her solemn scared mind. She would be free from her endless cycle of pain, and her body would be torn apart to never be able to be used agsin. And her teammates no longer care for her, so she's not hurting them by dying in this way, surely. Her and her body are no longer going to be a burden on everyone either. She can finally find peace, her expression at the end is solemn, but in a strange way, hopeful and at peace. Her only hope at that point was to be released from her pain, however.
10.3 hours !!!! 🎉🎉🎉
(referring to the total hours spent literally just ranting about V at that point LOL...it's like at 12 1/2 now)
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Just got a jumpscare from seeing an Emmie post on my dash lololol. I think it was from her larrie days but like. When i joined this fandom she was at voldemort levels of being hated-- a pariah!! So many posts would indirect her with asterisks only that i had to ask multiple times who tf people were talking about!
And now? She's not even a whisper on the wind!! What newbie would know or care who this person is?? It appears she hasn't even made a post since 2020!
So this is to say that i love this weird fucking fandom that has stayed alive and changed and remained the same in all sorts of funny ways. And I'm glad that we're past the "so-and-so reblogged e****, so they might as well unlarrie already, what a fake" era
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Thanks for the tags @bleumanouche & @sparrowsingsstories! No pressure tags: @advictoriams @ihateclaws @wishing4nuclearwinter @bluepriestess @kharonion @khazrablood @ragedaisy @fuzzydreamin @new-eyes-extra-colors
Name: Cyril Reed
Nickname/Alias: Reed, Cy(limited to Mercy only), Whisper(RR call name)
Gender: Trans man
Star sign: Scorpio(November 13, 2049)
Height: 5'9"/175cm
Orientation: Bi + poly
Nationality: American
Favorite fruit: Apple
Favorite season: Autumn
Favorite flower: Wildflowers
Favorite scent: Petrichor
Coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: coffee
Average hours of sleep: 4-6 on a good day
Dog or cat person: He'd actually really enjoy having a cat, but he's definitely a dog person first and foremost
Dream trip: He’d love to go back to his hometown in upstate New York at some point just to see how much things have changed, but more than likely wouldn’t go back without another reason- he’d just figure the area was hit hard and would either be hard to get to or heavily irradiated like the Glowing Sea
Number of blankets they'd choose to sleep with: At least 2-3 heavy blankets, he’d commit so many crimes for a good weighted blanket
Random fact: Margot’s actually his first pet- he didn’t have any pets growing up or while he was in the army prior to being assigned to her.
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BYE U LITERALLY JUST SAVED ME WITH THAT FIC CAUSE WHAT I WAS LIKE A DRIED UP DEHYDRATED HUSK🧟🧟🧟 THEN YOU POURED WATER ON ME😭🙏🙏🙏 UR SOURRR GOOOODDDD🙇🙇🏃🏃🏃🏃
HEHEEGEHDHWH now this is my kind of praise i love thatdhhfbcjdj 😭😭💕 AND YES THE PUPYUJ NATION HAS RECEIVED IT’S MONTHLY RATIONS WE CHEERED.. NOW LET’S MAKE IT A REGULAR THING‼️‼️
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finally snuck myself an adderall (10 mg) and at first i was worried that i was feeling manic or jittery (which would mean everyone was right and i'm just bad at everything and it's my fault) but then i realized... my body isn't used to the ability to think about doing something and then immediately getting up to do it so it was a little overwhelming to gain that ability all of a sudden. my whole life (except for rare, unpredictable, and uncontrollable hours of productivity) whenever i've thought to myself "i want/need to get up and do [thing]" i would just keep sitting there and feel increasingly guilty for not doing it.
my parents would plead with me to brush my teeth before bed as a kid, asking why i couldn't just get up for 5 minutes and do it, and i'd cry and say i don't know, i'm sorry, i promise i want to brush my teeth. my teachers would keep me after class in high school and ask me why i hadn't done a project they knew i could do, they knew i did fine on everything else, but how could i tell them that i just couldn't bring myself to sit down and do the research or start writing, and i'd choke back tears as i told them i didn't know why, i'm sorry, i promise i want to do your project.
today i've done about 20 chores and projects that i've been meaning to get to for days, weeks, months. i cleaned the toaster oven, put up some more coat hooks to get the coats off the floor, washed 2 rounds of dishes and a put in a load of laundry, put away all the clean clothes and picked up the floor so it's walkable again, rounded up all the hair dye supplies and gave them their own spot, put away some things that had been out of place for a long time, and i still have energy to bag up the garbage in the bedroom, fix the patch on my jeans, and finish the laundry once it's done. probably even more after that. things that would usually drain me for hours individually, or would take hours because i'd give up or get distracted halfway through.
i never drank coffee because whenever i did it made me jittery and fucked up my heartbeat but this prescription shit.. this is good. getting my own prescription would be lovely but would take forever and be very difficult, so for now im more than happy to settle for predictable & controllable bursts of productivity rather than my usual unpredictable, uncontrollable ones.
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