anyways now that the danger has passed and it’s completely pointless for anyone to worry about me I’m ready to talk about the fact that the minor medical emergency I referred to a few times on here during the holidays was when I had an (apparently) spontaneous brain bleed and spent 5 days in the ICU with wires all over my body and an emergency brain surgery to drain the blood from inside my skull.
(I’m fine now)
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It's been roughly a month (or maybe a few months?) since I've been in a depressive mood and life has lost all shine. I can't decide if this is because of the August-end events, festive season, seasonal depression, increased workload, or a mix of all of these. I'm going to go touch grass for a while and try for some vacation time in December, so I'll not be here here for a while. Sorry if I left any conversations hanging I'll catch up later!
(The tags get weird. Fair warning)
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telling my mom that it was her job and responsibility to advocate for me as a child. and to be emotionally available. and to make sure i had a healthy childhood.
but she decides to make it about her and make me feel guilty for speaking up. playing the "i guess i was a bad mother" card.
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smiles warmly. had a conversation with my sister about my interpersonal instability that manifests as idealization/devaluation cycles and how my anger issues are severe and actively hurt the people around me because of how uncontrolled they are and how both these things have ruined very close relationships and likely will continue to. wow i wonder if there is a diagnosis that would possibly help me get treatment for this issue that i just happen to be roadblocked from getting diagnosed with
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