#because i can't be breaking down wnen i got people relying on me for emotional support during a time i could never have actual impact on

[youdontloveme-yet]

Just dropped my glasses and the anxiety spike was insane.

#like #it's not anything import #important* #but goddamn #anxiety levels have been off the charts in the past 6 months #some days are so incredibly bad #i can barely get out of bed #the smallest things are just so damn scary #and i have to continue convincing myself #that i need to keep up the brave face and be okay #because i can't be breaking down wnen i got people relying on me for emotional support during a time i could never have actual impact on #while i generally just want to fall apart and did #die* #sigh #im tired but i don't even want to start understanding what he's going through #id have probably ended myself by now if i were in his shoes #this is a weird rant #guess i needed to see it out of my system #ra rants #yeah this feels slightly better than just bottling ig