#bc my motivation is shit

[mblue-art]

once again i was fueled with coffee (did not sleep the whole night) but this time i doodled college au to cope bc ofc i did (also did not feel like sleeping wooo)

#self insert #cross!sans #epic!sans #mblue art #cm #m rambles #(that tag is needed bc hoo boy u can tell i did not get sleep and is fueled by caffeine) #(do not be like me!!!!!!!!! do not deprive urself of sleep 💀💀💀) #(get a good 6-7hrs a day if u can. if 4-5hr works better for u then im not forcing u to sleep more 😤😤😤 as long as u rest well 😁👍) #(AND HYDRATE... if ur reading this try to take a sip rn 🥤) #campus au #(college au scenarios will be tagged that heehoo) #not colored just lines bby 😎😎😎 #idiots to lovers type shit where they both confide in epic n he's just chillin #waiting for the time when these dummies will finally confess to eachother themselves #(look i think it's rlly funny seeing cross be all cool calm collected in public but when he talks to epic abt his crush) #(he goes insane with a million different flustered/blushing emojis) #( 'they told me good luck on my test and gave me the nicest smile ever how was i gonna live after that' goofy ass. idiot /aff) #( 'DUDE THEY GAVE ME A MOTIVATIONAL NOTE. IN /PINK/ PAPER. ON CHOCOLATE. DOES THIS...... 😳' guys i love silly dorky cross to bits so much) #(man fucking explodes w his simping n epic just goes LMAO but he's v supportive for his bruh 💪😤) #(on the other hand my sona thinks he's sooo cool and awesome and smart and honestly fucking charming HHELLO THE TIMES WHEN HE LAUGHS AND) #(AND SMILES HELLOOO MR HANDSOME I MEAN WHATT) #( 'stars if he likes me back i wouldn't know what to do with myself. fucking EXPLODE? YIPPEE CONFETTI??' lots of flushge ) #(going ueueue at big bro epic bc they got a super massive crush on his bestie but) #(but the head is entertaining 'what-if's BUT i think kuya epic knows how to steer the thoughts away from those and smack em w teasing 😎✨) #(ultimately distracting and successfully reassuring them 😎😎😎) #(tsundere mblue no way not in here im down bad astronomically full on simping my guys) #(he might be a dumbass sometimes but he's my dumbass) (ok i'll shut up now fr) #anywayz campus au is the my highschool au but we're all adults and more tired yippeee

[weebsinstash]

Alright bestie I’m on that shit again

So yandere Superman, right? Like obviously your fucked. The only other yandere in existence that might just be able to keep you from him is Batman, but even then he’d probably sooner work together just to ensure your safety- but that’s a prompt for another day.

Back to yan Superman, imagine you’re his darling and he is “keeping you safe”. But one day, you get snatched up by some organization that wants to use you as leverage or some shit, but you are just sobbing in relief at maybe being free- only to have Superman show up and do some not so super things to everyone who “stole” you

There are just so many casually horrifying things about Superman that people don't realize until you start like digging into his lore. "Oh he's super strong and a super fast flyer" actually he can do basically anything at those super speeds to the point he can literally even PROCESS THOUGHTS at near light-speed which means he has Absolutely Terrifying reaction times and can make plans and schemes on a dime, which, you know, can be even better utilized by him being intelligent. He has natural invulnerability so if you throw a punch at him too hard you could literally shatter the bones in your hand and he can't even control that, like you could literally hurt yourself with him on accident! He can see across INSANE DISTANCES and his x-ray vision doesn't have like a set range so he could do anything from, peep inside buildings to spy on you, to looking under your clothing for any bruises or injuries or even self harm marks, to peeking behind your hero disguise to learn your true identity, to seeing if there's anything inside your stomach and seeing if you're eating properly. Like jesus christ he literally found out Lois was pregnant from waking up one morning and suddenly hearing the heartbeat of the FETUS, there's literally nothing from him pulling that stereotypical "I know you're nervous or lying or afraid because I can literally hear your heartbeat increase" scary bullshit

And let's talk about Lois for a sec because my god her death was literally what kicked off the Injustice timeline? And there are other forms of Superman media where she just straight up dies naturally of cancer! Sure we could take the easy way and say "in this au Lois never existed or was just Clark's friend and he loved YOU" (which is my preferred default tbh bc, no competition for Reader lol) but I mean if you're going for that angst, that real whump, a yandere Clark Kent that just lost his wife/unborn child to either the Injustice incident or cancer, now overcome with grief? And in those cancer timelines they usually already have a son, Jonathan, and sometimes Jordan, and here's Clark thinking, well, his boy needs a mother, and he's got these weird feelings for you, and lil Jonny clearly has affection for you, maybe bring a bit of a platonic yan himself who sees you as either a big sister or even a secondary mom, so... be his wife maybe?

Like my god if Reader somehow helped him through the grief of losing Lois and managed to avoid "fully activating" Superman's anime villain arc, like he's going full fascist in the Injustice 2 Bad Ending, then some shit DEFINITELY goes down when Reader gets taken away. It just reactivates all his trauma. No! He can't lose anyone else! Jonathan can't lose anyone else! You're not just someone he loves, you're his FRIEND!

You're just huddled in whatever cell you've been kept in with your black eyes and bruises and knuckles bloodied from trying to fight back when you hear Clark's voice and you look up with excitement that just falls immediately off your face because holy shit did he just unlock that thumbprint scanner with a severed arm, and suddenly you're realizing there are other shades of red on his costume and dripping from his fingers

I can only imagine like, ngl I considered a sequel to my fic Doubt where Reader escapes the manor and runs into Supernan as the only other person who can protect you, so here we would have the inverse: you're the only one who knows about Clark's increasing instability and, while you still have your own freedom and autonomy, try to speak to Bruce about it, and now you have Batman Vs Superman: Competing For Your Heart Edition. I can only imagine what sort of unhinged reactions there would be if you think you've got Batman alone and you're beginning to cry all "Bruce I'm really worried about Clark, he isn't acting like himself, there's something wrong with him" and. Clark is like literally using his x-ray vision to read lips through the walls if he can't use his super hearing to outright eavesdrop.

Of course as you suggested, I'm always a slut for ideas with"oh shit I ran to this guy to help me and he's ALSO crazy, now they're teaming up and I'm in some weird shared/poly situation with TWO nutjobs". Lmao you go to Bruce concerned about Kal and Bruce goes to confront him and Clark just drops "did you know Y/N has been hiding self harm cuts under their hero suit also wow they smoke HELLA weed and im worried about their lungs and all the stuff they do when they're alone that no one else knows about 🥺" and suddenly here's Bruce " thanks i hate this actually :)" and there's a scheme concted to spy on you or move you elsewhere.

I've even thought of "Reader oh nooOoooOo, that, giant monster or villain attack or whatever also coincidentally destroyed your shitty little apartment complex? You mean Clark 'accidently' got sent flying into your building or smacked some giant creature into it and now you don't have a place to live? And you're broke too? Oh no 🥺 Well, BATMAN has this nice big house with lots of room in for you to stay toooootally 'temporarily', we PROMISE uwu"

Batman is the one who can put a tracking chip injected into your skin or even disguised as a filling in one of your teeth, and Superman is the one who can zoom off to rescue you/retrieve you "faster than a speeding bullet". I think one of the only people who could bring them down together at that point would be like. Fucking DARKSEID and, Jesus no, you definitely don't want HIM treating you as a pet 😭 the evil Batman that was brainwashed by him in the Apokolips War movie was scary enough (and scary HOT, lmao, let him keep me as some sort of prize and the only luxury Darkseid will allow him as a reward for his obedience. Lord Batman goes from having a meeting talking about like enslaving people to returning to his quarters and railing tf outta you because he's still holding onto some slim vestiges of humanity where he cares about you but also using you as his personal anti stress fuck toy)

#yandere superman #yandere batman #yandere dc #i got a draft whee damian and jon like you and introduce you to their fathers #and suddenly stalking you becomes a family affair #the boys walk you home and jon lies about having to pee so damian can plant bugs while youre distracted #the boys going back to their fathers and telling them all of your personal business #'yeah dad when she was at work i used my xray vision and saw her creepy manager grope her in the walk in' #suddenly your small little privately owned cafe was just bought out by wayne enterprises and your boss is fired or goes missing #maybe Bruce gets you a job st Wayne tech bc hes been following you as batman and he doesnt like you working third ahift #lmao heres hoping i actually finish it wven though im not quite sure where to go w it yet #but like its literally over 8 pages at least so. obviously some sort of creative juices are flowing #yandere stuff #sinprompts #at this point i cant promise shit bc my emotions and motivation are waaaaaacky

[dr3amofagame]

I don’t really understand /why/ c!george split of from c!Dream. Sorry this isn’t really a hot take more like my own failure to understand sources. Was c!George just being silly?? Did he want c!Dream to prioritize him before c!Dream’s own goals?? What was that even about??

im just gonna go ahead and @cgogs ... c!dream was a veryveryvery paranoid person and they were having a conversation in front of an audience and it was kind of bound to blow up i fear ...

#my asks !! #c!dream making decisions for c!george and failing to explain shit wasnt going to go over well . #and c!dream wasn't exactly prioritizing the fixing things part of things bc c!george's being around him was actively a threat to him #and alsolook he was a very very very paranoid person and c!george immediately ends up involved in two (2) attempts #to kill him and strip him of power #like the feelings there are complicated and needed time and honest communication to resolve #and c!dream was Nawt in the right emotional headspace and did not have the motivation to go and do that #when the whole point was c!george's being around him was going to get him killed ... ? and yeah

[madame-mongoose]

I am once again Chai posting

#I'm actually pretty proud of these #he has given me art motivation again #everyone say thank you chai #hi fi rush #hi-fi rush #chai hi fi rush #chai #hfr #chai hfr #my art #oh yeah btw i give him a tooth gap and a scar bc of that scene where he gets punched through multiple walls #like theres no way his face stayed unmarked after that shit

[cosmogenous]

woops, you're pathologizing a normal human behaviour again

[thewuzard]

fuck it *posts*

#girl help it feels so wrong to make my own post lmao #anyway before anyone says this looks like shit #I'd like to offer the excuse that this was done with my FINGER in my NOTES APP. #I'm just lowkey obsessed with myself for finally being able to figure out colours #dazai osamu #bungou stray dogs #bsd #my art #<- bc I might end up drawing more idk we'll see if I ever get the confidence and motivation

[b4kuch1n]

hi! birthday. which means it's finally time t

yo what the itch store is fixed up now

damn what? I don't know where this came from. look all the comics I put on g*mr**d a year ago are back here again with all the formatting and typesetting by @fireflysummers as well as the exclusive bonus art wtf who did this. my werewolf comic on here too what the hells!! that one also got re-toned for printing if u want to AND an exclusive cover spread !!! what the fuck!!!!! come see for urself I can't make this shit up

#bakuspecial #comic #itch.io #bakugoods #<- made up a tag for when I sell things that aren't commissions just now #for folks who still remember me talking abt a physical run of these comics: I'm so sorry this year and the last have been brutal #and I live in a well and suffer a curse of international mails never going well. so the logistics became Very complicated #I still think abt it tho! I've prepped up all the assets just bc I thought abt it so much... we picked out a gift print for the orders #And a bonus print for the pack #but I couldn't gather my brain enough to make it happen. yet #it takes a bit of overhead so I gotta build that up. which is. right now talk for after the shit that just happened to me got smoothed out #but I do want it to happen. I've been sitting on this exclusive custom print for like two years now #I really love that drawing its so cute. I still hold that project close to my heart #anyways uhh itch store! happy birthday to me! #last year this time was so rough I didn't even Want to think about my birthday lol #strangely enough with this small little fragmentation grenade we just got I became more motivated to fuck around on my bday lmao #probably out of spite. hammer philosophy #my parents love making a whole thing out of me and the brother's bdays lol so dinner's gonna be something #but for now I can still chill. and prep up stuff. and do my thang #if u look thru the itch store and get something from there thank u so much! I hope the comics treat u well #and now. I make hot drink. have a good day lads! do a little jig for us let's go

[fujii-draws]

(Wants to post a REALLY fucked up drawing regarding Ribbons and Dusknoir i did a month back) (But it requires a context drawing which is ALSO finished and is meant to add a lot more context to make the former drawing hit harder) (but even THAT REQUIRES CONTEXT BUT THE 10 POST LIMIT-)

#I HAVE. SO MANY THOUGHTS #CURSE BEING A MOBILE USER #I JUST NEED TO GET UP MY ASS AND DRAW THE REST OF THE CONTEXT SO I CAN GET TO BECOMING AN OMINOUS JACKASS #no I’m so serious when I say I’ve actually done some foul shit with those two regarding a certain Nightmare Pokémon #ONCE I FIND THE MOTIVATION IT SO ACTUALLY SO OVER FOR ALL OF YOU. #though it may have to wait bc (LOOKING AT HERO/PARTNER WEEK) #BUT YEAH.

[chrollohearttags]

prev rb so real, but I’m not giving grace to ppl that post porn links all day. sorry not sorry. those of us who write well fleshed out stories get too much shit, including our fics stolen by AI or completely misconstrued. I’ve said it so many times but I’m so serious when I say I don’t expect a single author, esp the black ones to be left here by year.

#cherry chats 🍒 #I’ve never been one to put a focus on notes #but my god y’all act like it would kill u bitches to reblog a story #which is so funny considering that y’all can run to tiktok and bump ur nasty ass gums #my drafts are full but I literally have zero motivation to post #this app is declining more and more #I feel incredibly unmotivated to be on here at all sadly #every other post is somebody requesting some type of fic #‘where’s the x fics for this person’ #sweetie ur fav authors are leaving bc y’all treat us like shit and don’t support us #stop asking stupid questions #it def doesn’t outweigh the kind comments we receive but damn #it’s getting easier and easier not to be here #y’all have made it abundantly clear to everybody on this app #that if ur post isn’t JJK centric and white coded #you could give a fuck less #don’t be mad when we’re all jumping ship

[sollucets]

wrote a whole long post that didn't make sense because i'm a fic writer not a meta writer and the point comes down to this: sand and ray are both Such Bad Liars

they have honest faces. nobody, in-universe or in the audience, is ever really fooled when they pretend things are other than they are.

when sand is hurt you can tell, it's in every line of his body. ray is expressive and straightforward but hides his hurt a little better, not because he's better at lying but because the hurt hardly ever goes away.

ray can see sand freezing up and looking upset when he's called a friend or not prioritized, he can see the lie, but it doesn't matter compared to what sand's actually saying and what it'll mean if it's (not) true. he's gotten a lesson recently about pushing. and sand, i think, can see ray caring but he can't imagine it could be enough, that he could matter the most or be a priority. when ray calls sand a whore it's the only lie he told that night and sand knows it

when they hurt each other sand lies and pulls away and ray can tell, and similarly ray lies and pulls away and sand can tell, and theyre stuck in limbo because of it. awful. hate it. 10000 more just like it please

#again as always there are other layers #ray pulls back out of self-loathing (less of me will always be better for the other person) and a sort of clumsy kindness and fear #sand lies out of wounded pride and longing for something he can only get through pretending and out of self-preservation and out of fear #sand is sometimes so honest it hurts (and when he is you can see ray falling in real time) #and ray lies too now and again to try to keep people from seeing just how bad it's got #also to be clear this applies to sand's girlboss gaslight manipulation moment too #like he's better at it than regular lying because he's had time to prepare but ray still sees straight through it #just bc ray ends up telling mew anyway doesn't mean he can't see sand's ulterior motives from a mile off #this is very melodramatic of me i know but like. this is how i have to get my shit out they are rotating in my brain 24/7 #i am actually also writing fic in another tab as we speak im literally overflowing constantly thinking about them #rowan chatter #re: only friends

[kulvefaggoth]

Nidhogg did go a little overboard with his vengeance we agree on that... but damn i think it kinda sucks that Vritra didn't try to kill Golbez even a little bit after what he did to Azdaja.

I know he's basically a pacifist and tries not to incite violence and it's not fully IC but i kinda wish he took an arm off Golbez or something. That dude got off scot free for all the shit he pulled.

#ffxiv #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #final fantasy 14 #endwalker spoilers #6.x spoilers #patch 6.5 spoilers #6.5 spoilers #like idk it's probably bc Golbez FFIV got out for free in the end #but FF4 Golbie had the very valid excuse of being mind controlled by an evil alien #Durante just did all that shit #'oh he's motivated by grief' so was nidhogg and also the ascians #didn't stop us from killing them #i know we spared Durante bc he backed down and went 'oops my bad' #but idk man i think we deserved at least an arm off him #something #azdaja died after being tortured for millennia and vritra lost an eye to resurrect her #they better give this guy some amazing writing for the sequel

[dennisboobs]

plain and simple i am not going to be able to remain in this fandom long-term if i have to keep putting disclaimers on every single one of my posts that say i don't condone dennis' bad, bad actions and that i am in fact aware he's got a history of sexual assault and dubious/nonconsent. the entire gang has done heinous shit. why is dennis the only one who needs to be treated like this? if some rando wants to post about how dennis is pookie pie that doesn't automatically mean they're blind to his crimes. every single member of the gang is a piece of shit. that's kind of the point.

draw dennis with cat ears who give a shit

#ada speaks #i'm not vagueing this is a constant thing ive experienced #i still have angry anons sitting in my askbox mad that i didn't explicitly condemn him last time i got into this #i'm really not a fan of the tension in the fandom the last few days #and like. i know its a hot button issue rn. everyone's going back and forth abt mac and dennis' SA #but this fandom genuinely does have an issue SPECIFICALLY MENTIONING things mac does to dennis and uwu-ifying them #when they are explicitly classified as SA in canon (which is an actual present issue i think needs to be addressed) #rather than like. just the mere MENTION of dennis outside of his SA is somehow condoning his actions #im sorry but i really do not feel the need to constantly talk about him assaulting women #everyone knows. everyone sees it. just bc i am dissecting other parts of his character does not mean i forgot he's a horrible person #it just means im trying to understand where he's coming from (which obviously does not change the facts.) #viewing dennis as a person with unresolved trauma stemming from elsewhere doesn't negate the damage he is doing to other people #he's not a real person where humanizing him does tangible damage #so i am going to continue to look into shit. when i talk about the CSA he went through it's not a justification. #but it does explain his actions in a character motivation type way which is what i am interested in #seeing what makes him tick #i think most people who follow me understand this by now. but i also don't think shit we see him do constantly in canon needs bringing up. #it's the subtle stuff that ties everything together and i want to put it all together to solve a puzzle

[minthy]

I never posted these here, but yeah,

Imma make more content outta my shifting experiences especially my Undertale/KNY DRs, because, HAHAHA, shifting..

anyway, (the main cast?) yeah, my people there.

#Finna shift again and make Alphys watch season 2/3 of kny now #I wish I had more motivation to draw bc daym #shit is wild there #undertale #Shifting realities #toriel #sans #papyrus #alphys #undyne #It's fun #yall need to try it #and I can share all my shifting tips/tricks/methods with yall if yall want to #I post them a lot in tiktok tho #if anyone wants I would

[ganondoodle]

got visually spoiled on the literally last thing i was still actively missing and working towards in totk but i dont think im gonna like it anyway ...

if it is what i think it is, and what it looks like to be, its just yet another nail in the coffin (or however you say that) as to why the lore sucks in this game even tho it had such good setup and so much potential

#ganondoodles talks #totk spoilers #tagging it as such bc im gonna say my current thoguhts about it here #again its just visually and i havent seen the text to it yet #so please dont say anythign about it #but #im 100% certain its the reward for all shrines which i dont have yet #and first of all it looks dumb as shit #and second of all its supposed to be the ancient hero in the tapestry isnt it #the zonau got their grimy hands on that too dont they #the thing that was such a cool mystery all this time got solved just like that isnt it #nintendo saw us theorizing about gan being the ancient hero and thought oh gods now we cant give him nuance quickly invent some zonau excus #however that makes sense since they were supposedly long gone by the time the first calamity happened #which still happened even with the time fuckery going on since the tapestry still exists and the last guardian remains #tho it doesnt look quite like a zonau but more like some creepy ass unholy mix of a lizard and gerudo #im gonna wait with my final judgement since i havent read the text yet #but it for sure isnt motivating me more to get all the last 50 or so shrines #i regret finishing the underground first so much man #all you get is a you did it sticker #literally #should have done the shrines first so at least i couldnt get spoiled on that still #im guessing its funney reference or whatever #some mysteries are better left unsolved #didnt want to rush and get all shrines in a hurry and isntead explore it on my own since the exploring part and world is what i love #aside from the music #but i guess i gotta do that now #actual shrine hutning stream incoming i guess #:/

[koishua]

how do y'all grocery shop???

#tp #i live away from home but all of my meals are provided by the place i work at so?? it's closed for the week so i gotta make myself #food this week 😭😭 just went grocery shopping and yeah what to do #the thing is i know how to cook well im an eldest asian daughter but ability doesn't equal liking it and actually being motivated to do it #and my dad keeps calling me now knowing that i won't budge a finger and is threatening to come and get me ahahahhahahah #bought a cucumber a sweet potato a paprika green onions red onions and fish pray for me y'all #have pesto and dried pasta and turkish dumplings (??) and rice and also bought a pack of buldak noodles im good to go kkkkk #also a shit ton of snacks bc ramadan is ending and i will have to much on stuff all day it's the law #and now i feel veryvery blessed

[zellkabellk]

Nowadays trying really fucking hard to teach to my brain that it's okay and better to "just do 10 min of this task" even if it means leaving it unfinished (but further along than before!) rather than not doing it "because when I do it I should do it all" Because jfc I can't keep leaving my house in states where I need to do 30+ minutes of dishes instead of just... doing a little everyday and at least it remains a manageable amount in the sink even if it's not always emptied...

#it's hard but i'm doing my best #im using housekeep chores as an example bc it's an easy one but really this is for everything in my life rn #better draw 10 minutes than none at all #better practise for my driving license 10 minutes than none at all #because I VERY rarely actually get the cross of energy AND motivation to do “a whole task” #rn my brain hates not doing a whole task but i'm sure with practise it'll become easier to feel rewarded for doing just a bit #at least future me thanks me every fucking time so yknow #i just have to practise enough so it doesn't feel like i'm forcing myself everytime #bc starting is always the hardest part #and even if i stop AT LEAST I DID 10 MINUTES OF THE THING SO IT'S NOT STAGNATING HOLY SHIT #i wish i was a functioning human :) #or at least a functioning artist that enjoyed drawing for 4 hours straight after work lmao #beary talk #beary ramble #beary life