#bc im serious abt this apparently

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

"unicron" being a serious term in transformers lore is bringing me back to my blue sky days. guy with a cigarette looking out the window. i havent heard that name in 84 years

#apple bagel unicron......... #my experiences are not universal. thid is such a niche intersection of things #can anyone hear me. any of my mutual read blue sky. that was a lifechanging piece of media for me . #was on the verge that year. was being very very very heavily bullied on the schoolbus that year #(<< was. physically assaulted multiple times) #nearly broke my fuckin nose cause some asshole would sit in the front seat and trip me every time i got on for like a solid week #hashtag kick a ginger day which lasted a week #anyway. would get 2 my seat and put my headphones on and listen to the portal2 ost and read blue sky #for like. the whole year. bc that fic is basically a full length novel #one thing i would do if i had unlimited money is pay someone 2 bookbind blue sky for me .... i want that so bad #anyway. was on the transformers wiki bc i was trying 2 figure out what. all the media is and where i should stsrt. #bc im serious abt this apparently #and unicron is like..... a Major Thing #and in my head every time i see it i just hear. apple bagel unicron. hdhfhsjdbdnds #anyway. long retrospective post to say i think transformers is silly and neat and #friendship ended with my childhood being raised as a girl not being allowed to enjoy certain things. bumblebee is my new best friend #blahblahblah #reaction time #<< be prepared to block my liveblog tag soon if i actually get into transformers because i have NO other outlet for this shit lmao

[uwooyoungs]

ok i just watched dff ep 11 and i. am going insane.

#i cannot piece together A Thought right now bc holy fuck SO MUCH happened in the last like 10-20 mins of that ep #my only thought is that it seems the finale is going to be v much based on each character's fears #as ig theyre all currently knocked out on hallucinogenics #im. I STILL NEED TO KNOW WTF FLUKE'S DEAL IS #and it looks like white rly is just sweet bby boy :((( #never thought id feel so fhckin sad for tee #everyone's theories about non were (maybe??? seemed pretty real) proved wrong #new/tan rly is unhinged as all fuck #phee truly stuck himself into a serious moral dilemma #mad kudos to barcode as usual #big fuckin kudos to all of them tbf #also im still a weeee bit confused abt perth lmao #there were all these big theories but like unless he shows up or does smth in the last ep... #idk i felt like he didnt add a lot to the story in this ep?? #wow i lied apparently i did have thoughts #dff #dff the series #dead friend forever

[quirkle2]

question!

i've been wanting to stray away from lu for a while now and do my own thing with wars n ledge and the rest of the links (mainly bc i feel restricted by jojo's rules/don't agree w her takes, and wanna pursuit my own stuff), but there's one big thing holding me back, and that's lack of views to put it bluntly

if i make my own au and don't tag its content as #lu, then it will most definitely get a fraction of the attention my lu content does. and i know it sounds self-centered of me to worry abt something like that, but i put months of work into the fics i post. i put days of work into each art piece i post. if i work on something for months and then 10 people on ao3 read it and an astounding 0 of them even leave a comment, that will be Devastating to my motivation And confidence

what im asking y'all is this: should i finally make my own au to separate myself from lu and risk the plunge in notes, or should i stay in the lu fandom and suffer?

#qktalks #i feel like my links are far enough apart from lu's canon to justify this #ESPECIALLY my wars #my wars is Nothing like lu wars; he's silly and goofy and not at all serious #not even accounting for the fact that he Looks completely different design-wise i think he's pretty far from canon lu now #my sky design is Nothing like lu sky's and i have my own characterizations of him despite not posting abt it much #to put it bluntly once again i wanna post stuff of them all cuddling and being a family without dipshit lu fans coming in and correcting me #so far it's only happened like Once but the fear and anxiety of being ridiculed is still very much apparent #im afraid to post stuff. i don't wanna be afraid to post stuff #i wanna have my own au where i have my Own rules #and i wanna be in a fandom that doesn't fuckin suck VGIEAYGV #but im terrified of switching over and out of the fandom bc then my stuff won't be viewed at all #and without reblogs of my art and comments on my fics i have a feeling i will simply stop producing anything altogether #i know the whole ''u should make art for yourself'' thing but . it's no fun if nobody else is gonna see it yaknow ? #i wanna show other people what makes me happy and maybe make them happy in the process #that's hard to do when u don't tag ur posts w a popular fandom tag that everybody searches through #idk . willing to hear anybody's takes on this

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#tfw u spend the day being catastrophically depressed then u remember how kush1na uzumak1 is treated by the plot of #narut0 and u get so fucking angry that u stop thinking abt how miserable u r for 2hrs as u furiously draw out an idea #it makes me so fucking mad. but like in a way that fun bc its like who cares its not that serious #and when i get depressed i just like. i dont give a fuck abt anything. there is a film between me and everything and nothing can touch me #except apparently my fucking insane feelings about narut0. like im genuinely so embarrassing when ppl irl make the mistake of talking abt #narut0 to me irl. like i get SO excited. i move my arms a lot and stamp my feet and just get real enthusiastic and my voice goes all weird #and i cant get my thoughts straight bc i have so so so much to say. which is like fine. its just embarrassing to me personally #bc i kno i tent to stay on the subjects im interested in for way longer than most ppl would probably enjoy #and after i watched star trek into darkness in hs i was like at my peak star trek phase and i was talking a mile a minute #and then my sister was like: y is your voice all weird? and it was like she slapped me in the face. slapped me thru time. u bitch 😭 #this is y im not allowed to enjoy things 😭 also bc im annoying abt it. ugh. anyway. point is i got so mad abt the misogyny of kishimoto #that i forgot how fucking awful i was feeling for a minute. so thank u for hating women so much u fucking bastard lol #when will i post the idea im planning? who tf knows. its gonna take. well idk how long itll take #unrelated

[crqstalite]

why are my ribs doing the opposite of gaming

#i think i got a case of costo #or maybe im dying idk lol #but my lung (right) is super clicky rn like if i stretch in the wrong direction n breathe in it kinda hurts lol #i doubt its collapsing #bc im not tall and thin #or a smoker #but my allergies are Bad #(as per usual) #and theres probably some inflammation going on w my ribs #or im pmsing idk lol #im just trying not to think abt the fact it could be serious #and more on the fact that im apparently getting old enough my hyperflexibility might finally be causing me problems #andre vents

[pocket-prosecutor]

"Wereshifter Miles AU but get this: he grows instead"

hhhh this AU isn't exactly planned out carefully, this is just a quick indulgence for some angst

this is idea kinda came forth from AgVeeHell's AU of Sizeshifter Miles but he Grows From Stress rather than shrinking (you can read their first chapter here!)

also uh more info + bonus panel kinda under the cut?

this was gonna be the 4th panel but it took way too long already so i rejected it lmao

so anyway. this AU is a bit too "inconvenient" to write out whilst filling most of the plot holes this would pose. but whatever it's fun to think about!!!

what if he grew instead of shrunk? how would you hide a condition like that from MvK??

this little scene takes place after 1-3, similar to the other thing i made for the "regular" AU. Edgeworth really needs Wright to get out since this time he may actually endanger him on top of discovering his secret.

stuff to think about!

#'a quick indulgence' as if making these doesnt take me multiple evenings #ah. i'll get better and faster with time /coughs #wereshifter miles au #giant/tiny #aa gt #aa g/t #g/t #gt #art tag #it's all abt panel 4 and 5 anyway i'm here for Phoenix being actually /afraid/ of Miles in this one #there's one more thing abt this AU that we came to after brainstorming in the server and i /might/ get to it but #i need to focus on some other things as well lmao #fun fact that last panel was just. traced from a dood on a post-it note #because that's what i do now at work apparently. using my post-it block to draw away the time jdshfsdjfh #me: oh this au isnt as serious haha #also me: anyway under the read more is my entire lifestory and why this au Matters #hgjhfjghjf listen i am kinda partial to shrinking bc that gives a character that sweet sweet vulnerability and moment of weakness but also #growing is like. im almost projecting on it like. taking up too much space. centre of attention and all that #weird fears to have #i think edgeworth would feel the same. the inescapability of it yk?

[nagitoedit]

still it was sooooooo funny and uncomfortable at the psych appointment because she saw ? somewhere in papers/files that my mom and dad divorced in.... 2015 i think and shes all like "so.... usually divorce causes problems in children... how was that for you was it hard on you...?" acting all nervous/gentle like lmaooooo thats not even the worst part i dont think i cared about the divorce In Comparison to Everything Else. hed been abusive to my mom and generally neglectful not great to us (me and sibling) and theyd been separated for 6 years before the divorce because he kept going to jail for drug related things which he would often steal money from us for it and generally made my moms life hell by like manipulating and emotionally abusing her and hed have violent tantrums where he broke things (there are still holes in the walls and other damage in the house from him) and also sorta ruined our lives a bit and then in 2019 he was accused of some crime and he ran away to escape getting arrested or whatever and i think legally he is classified as a missing person and we dont even know if hes alive or not.

so like the divorce was whatever to me i guess.

#i think abt this sometimes and its just weird to me #like not the psych appointment that was just like 4 days ago. like the dad situation #its uncomfortable to think he might be dead and its also uncomfortable to think about what the hell hes doing if hes Out There #before id actually searched him up on the internet a few times within the past few years wondering if something was found out and i wasnt #told or something. seeing if maybe there was a police report or something or even an obituary or something. but there wasnt #this got more serious than i meant it to be :/ but he was diagnoses with bipolar so the psych think i have that. not sure abt that #but like i kinda want to talk about this or like tell people i know about it mostly bc i just feel like idk i feel like this is something. #like. i think it says things about me i feel like maybe this information would give people a more complete view of me in a way #i guess lawl but also i know its uncomfortable probably and im scared of that. the widespread hate of 'trauma dumping' makes me #feel like i cant tell people things that might be uncomfortable #oh and i guess something else about this is while obviously this has psychological effects but the effects feel more. not mild #but. interwoven. they dont seem as apparent or like they dont stand out as much. like i get more upset about the topic of outdoor cats #than i get upset about this. like for me this was just something that happened i guess. mostly bc i know that basically everyone #has some kind of issues with their parents. or at least most people i know lawl. me befriending people like #OMG youre also fatherless !? so twinning right now #or like other things like crappy parents or divorce or this or that. #but i think thats most people but also maybe i just have a skewed perception lol

[guideaus]

we got dramatic tragedy plant baby

#personal #maybe if his name wasnt knives and didnt apparently have unlimited access to shit at 1 y/o #just kidding. but also idk what the factor was between those two scenes. im so serious someone throw me a bone #idk if its really the future talk too bc it'd still depend on him not being afraid #did rem's talk abt the future really quell vash's fears abt humans #...but also knives helped vash too but not for himself lol

[caruliaa]

deciding if i want my text post about my father for today becuase too many would be whiny to be about how i get very terrifed anytime he raises his voice and thats prob not normal (which i already knew but yk) or a snarky "how come my dads on discord i though that site just pushed and agenda and tricked people into thinking theyre gay? that why i wasnt allowed it right?"

#see i was writing this post from the perspective that the first one was very concering and the second one is funny. #but yk i j realized to people that arent me theyre both concerning. ok. #my immediate response to seeing my dad on discord btw was to leave the official acnh server j bc thats like the most official server im in #and i got Scared. which is dub bc my dad doesnt play acnh why wld he use that server. but i Got Scared. #also ill tell u like the story of this first one which is that like. basically my sibling connected their phone to the internet at school #to reasearch smth and when they did they got a message from our mother abt watching a movie which was prob from sunday bc #apparently my mum was watching die hard then nd they joined for a bit idk but the fact that they got it now meant they kept being like #'thats weird do you guys think my phone is haunted i tihnk it might be' not entirely seriously #i also very like casually kept being like @na its probalby just a glitch those happen' #nd at some point i was very lightly like 'yk i dont think getting into the who thing of if ghosts exist is worth it when u cld just ask abt #the text message later' and rthe thing is fucking !!! my dad was literally agreeing with me !! but like he also seem somewhat actually like #upset and mad over my sibling saying their phone was haunted or at lest he was raising his voice and like seem mad to me #(i think he thought they were bieng fully serious abt the phone being haunted. nd that tht Not True bc it doesnt align w our religous #beliefs. but also idk if he brought up religon at all) #but the thing is my sibling was literally fine but like. auugh i got scared and freaked out #at some point i just put on my headphones nd tried to ignore it until he had moved on yay. #this happended in the car btw u guys need that context bc cars are eveil places for this reason parents are always Saying Shit there . augh #its so dumb like. this is why even when my parents r being fine i cant like. be around them. because they have caused me actual fr trauma #like intense trauma that impacts me every day bc i see them every fucking day. and i cant get away from it. so fun. #anyway. sorry this became a vent. SAD ! #flappy rambles #vent

[lxghtbound]

scout really just has a thing for exos, specifically exo hunters

#ooc #SLIGHTLY SILLIER AMONGST ALL THE ANGST #but it's TRUE #tbh im surprised hes not interested in shiro tho #maybe shiro's too serious idk LMAO #then again banshee is too #he thinks shiro looks cute tho #BUT YEAH #this man is apparently #exoromantic/exosexual /j #MAYBE IT'S BC THEY UNDERSTAND SOME.OF HIS STRUGGLES BETTER #exos less likely to get on his case abt forgetting stuff #stuff like that #the hunter part is just vibes tho LMAO #tho he does lov big and/or stronk titans #and smart mysterious warlocks

[maverickflare]

hi sorry i just saw ur salazzle post and OH MY GOD yes please more variation in pokemon…region variants are a good step in the right direction however i think gamefreak can take it Farther. they wont tho bc theyre cowards n are afraid of innovation

like on one hand i recognize they (game freak pkmn designers) were doing a bit but on the other hand the bit is stupid and i want a gay ass lizard.

#me n park have been talkin abt this for a bit like . u just Know tht if the gardevoir line was designed today. #tht thing would absolutely be gender locked. #and APPARENTLY they went back n gave wally a gallade in the hoenn remake ?? and nobody told me . #anyways i think theres absolutely a way to strike a balance w the mechanical niches of these pkmn and the Bit tht each one is doing #w regards to some of them being gender locked on purpose to reflect a real life occurence in tha natural world #like im p sure salazzle is like whiptail lizards tht are an all female species but they have some serious genetic diversity tht was #like previously unthought of for species like them ! #but bc salazzle is the evolved form of salandit i would argue tht salandits should be able to evolve regardless or at the very least should #b able to evolve w the right conditions in captivity ? like it just might b more difficult to evolve a male one or smthn .

[guinevereslancelot]

i'm literally so dumb

#i ignored my leg pain while i still had insurance and then it got really bad and i kept ignoring it?? #like yeah i can totes treat this at home #even tho i didn't know what was causing it #anyway i figured out its nerve pain im pretty sure #the femoral cutaneous nerve #ginseng is helping a bit for rn which i lucked into when i thought it was muscle pain and i was looking for over the counter muscle relaxan #apparently it helps with nerve pain tho #its the only thing making it bearable #anyway #this is nowhere near as scary as my eye problems so its a good time to figure it out ig #and the eye treatment isn't as expensive as a feared at least short term #so hopefully i can deal with whatever is causing this #i never had an injury but apparently endo can cause it possibly or something else compressing the nerve #i think a pinched nerve could do it but im p sure that would have cleared up in the past four years lol #actually now that i think abt it i did throw out my back rlly bad several years ago? so maybe there was an injury idk #i never thought abt back injury as the source of leg pain but apparently it is #hopefully a chiropractor can fix me 👍 #and t #THEN i can finally chill #but tbh im not worried abt this bc im still relieved abt the other thing #the pain is wicked bad sometimes but i can still walk lol #and now that i figured out its serious i can get it dealt with #i suppose the pain level should have clued me in but i genuinely thought i was doing it to myself from stress #like hypertension or something lol

[toastsnaffler]

my brother is always SO vague abt his personal life w me I need to sit him down and grill him if I see him next month in person 😡

#my mum said he had a new gf and they must be serious bc he wanted to bring her to dinner to MEET my mum which hes never done before #and apparently hes planning on staying in his uni city after he graduates and working there so they can stay together #but he hasnt said a WORD of this to me except just now he randomly dmed asking me for pics of our dog dressed up in xmas gear #and was like '[girl] wanted pics of her shes basically adopted her :)' and i was like damn is that ur new gf u didnt tell me abt her??? #and he replied 'not quite but yeah' QUIT IT W THE CRYPTIC SHIT IM NOSY!!!!! #maybe theyre not actually dating dating ik my mum gets carried away w gossip sometimes #wish he would stop dodging my questions tho....... #altho tbf im equally bad i had a gf for almost 2 years and didnt tell him so LMAO #but im justified bc he has a big mouth and would immediately tell my mum. but im not actually 'out' out to my parents #not in a closeted way like they MUST know im gay bc my brothers def mentioned it around them before + idk. general vibe innit #my mum literally asked me for my pronouns last time i went home..... she mustve had some trans clients #and she 'just thought shed check :)' like okayyyy.... #but yeah more that i just dont see the point of doing a whole coming out song and dance i literally dont care enough for that #next time i date someone if im serious abt it ill probs tell them. and if they're surprised im gay thats on them #the main reason i didnt w my ex was bc their family was crazy homophobic so they didnt want them catching wind of it #+ also bc i was living w my family some of that time + i didnt rly wanna find out what my catholic stepdad thinks abt gay ppl lmao #anyway.. #.diaries

[janbaar]

tryna fuck casual as a queer person in ur 20s fucking sucks man. if u have ur life together u get deified/pedestalized/misinterpreted as havin it easy and then ppl r like "take care of me!!!" and its like. bitch no i won't lol. i have no obligations to ur feelings jst bc youve latched onto me as ur monster of the week lmao

#bitchin.txt #being transmasc and asian and emotionally unavailable is apparently like a fuckin crime to white ppl lookin to get hole filled #idk why nobody takes me serious when im like 'im here to Aimlessly Fuck Around' like.. im not trying to protect my feelings #im trying to protect me frm when u turn into a little bitch abt getting ur feelings hurt whn i put everything abt me on the tin. okayyyy #bt like. daaamn tfw everybdy else gets to have it all and jump in front of my fuckin car tryin to force me into their self-narratives #abt the ensured eventuality of love frm being gay and toleratin each other outside of bed like. sorry #i literally dont work like that. i gotta hard heart tht hates it whn ppl get affectionate after 5 mins of talking. simps and dogs #i make breakfast nd conversation bc im a fuckin human being tht likes learning abt the lives of others. fucking sue me

[glitchedgirly]

I just realized something kinda mindblowing abt q!etoiles' lore! There's actually a semi-canon explanation for his diabetes; it's just not surface level apparent.

I was chillin and watchin a video (this one) abt writing. In the middle (abt 3 mins in), Red goes off on a side tangent abt how the amount of sugars produced by a theoretically photosynthetic human would be abt 4x more sugar than the human body could provide, which is essentially the starting point for diabetes. (source? im diabetic)

It's been repeatedly stated in qsmp that Etoiles isn't human. Instead, he's a cucumber hybrid. What exactly this means (other than green skin) is left pretty vague… However, Etoiles being photosynthetic isn't exactly an uncommon headcanon. It logically and scientifically follows that the excess sugar created by the photosynthesis plus any carbs that etoiles eats plus any sugars that are naturally created in his body would be more than enough to cause serious medical issues and warrant the use of insulin and a diabetes diagnosis

obvi, I realize that the main explanation of why q!etoiles is diabetic is because cc!etoiles is diabetic, but I think that it's cool that there's a possible in-world explanation as well (aside from him just getting the short end of the stick) What are y'all's thoughts?

TLDR: q!etoiles is diabetic bc he's a cucumber hybrid and possibly photosynthetic which overloads his body with sugars

#qsmp #etoiles #q!etoiles #qsmp etoiles #qsmp headcanons #qsmp theory #diabetic #diabetes #idk im prbly overthinking

[carlyraejepsans]

i lowkey disagree w u on ur position on fictional ships and certain portrayals of topics such as incest and pedophilia, but oh my fucking god to have the fucking. AUDACITY to accuse someone of real life pedophila and incest because they MENTIONED being NEUTRAL on a certain topic?? like you didnt even say you think fictional incest is cool and rad or wtvr u afaik (which. even if u did that ask would Still be abhorrent) but ur explicitly Neutral and are VERY carful to tag shit and i just. 1/2

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i cannot fucking imagine accusing someone of such a horrid act with such conviction bc u SLightly DIsagree on a topic. jfc. i block tags and if ur conversations ever drive me over the edge id Unfollow. im so so sorry people are such fucking assholes man. i hope people gain some sense abt these topics im so sorry

yeah no i completely respect your opinion. and i do know where it's coming from. to tell you the truth (basic decency of tagging triggers aside), i DO find most of those fanon portrayals to be cheap and uncalled for a good majority of the time, at least from a literary standpoint. things like dating a minor or your own sibling have serious implications on a character's moral code and interpersonal dynamics where most characters would... not fucking do that! and the moment you don't engage with those implications, it becomes either incredibly ooc or altogether shallow. some people act like a topic being problematic makes it inherently complex and rich, when it can be as tropey and flat as any other "safe" topic. being problematic doesn't make you interesting etc. my point isn't arguing over literary value, it's more like... there's people behaving horribly and cruelly towards the AUTHORS, and making disgusting assumptions like the one that was made against me, all because of fiction you can always filter out at the end of the day (assuming basic tagging etiquette is respected ofc) and like. that's too far. nobody deserves to be treated like this.

not to mention, the "incest fiction recs"/"pro incest posts" those freaks mentioned were literally 1) me gushing about revolutionary girl utena, a deeply feminist and self-aware series that unpacks the misogyny behind anime incest tropes by treating that abuse REALISTICALLY as patriarchal manipulation from a male relative and showing how the female victim suffers and emancipates herself from it and 2) me being annoyed that hs showed one of its characters suffering from csa without acknowledging it AS abuse, even when it would've been not just the morally decent thing to do, but also a genuinely good addition to his character arc (apparently it does do that in the endstory, but i didn't know it at the time). those are both posts about realistic, condemning, and well-thought depictions of incestuous abuse in fiction—which is the only way i ever enjoy the topic btw—but that didn't stop these people from deciding i had an incest fetish and harassing me for weeks on end to the point of accusing me of sexually abusing my teenage brother. like you said, it would be a ghoulish way to treat someone even if their assumption had been right (and it wasn't), but it's like they saw the topic being mentioned and that fact alone was unforgivable, regardless of context. and this crap happens to people all the time! if that's not fucking stupid i don't know what is

#answered asks #csa mention #incest mention #biscia hater moment #BAH. all of that aside thank you for reaching out. that was extremely thoughtful of you and i appreciate it a lot