#ask atia

[foreverozziessongbird]

Pass-

14 Offering to buy them a drink.

#ask atia #helluva boss rp

[just-late-roman-republic-things]

Hello! Hope things are well in the jlrrt-sphere. More questions for you. How lawless was Rome, particularly in the late republic?

Okay, so I watched HBO Rome and they had an interesting interpretation of Atia and Servilia. But one of the most shocking turns is Atia kidnapping and torturing Servilia. And getting basically no consequences for it. I kinda get it can be explained in the show with the whole civil war going on and I think at that point Antony was in charge of the city. But realistically, could someone get away with treating a noblewoman like that?

And did people get "arrested" per se? Or were they trusting people not to run off while they awaited their trial?

Great questions. I'm honestly not sure about the exact answers, but I recall a few things:

Republican Rome had no police force. Neighborhoods in the city were normally expected to police themselves. The paterfamilias was expected to take responsibility for "family-level" disputes, and Rome's jury courts were expensive and often impractical for regular folks. I suspect that blood feuds, gang violence, and "protection rackets" occurred often, based on what's happened in other communities without accessible legal authorities, but that's just my best guess.

A lictor or magistrate could arrest people, and Rome did have a small jail for people awaiting sentencing. But long-term imprisonment was not an official punishment; forced labor/enslavement was preferred.

For safety, you would normally leave your home accompanied by slaves, friends, or bodyguards. Only the poorest Romans didn't have a slave, and Romans spent little of their daily lives alone.

It seems to have been rare for noblewomen to be personally targeted by political violence. In fact, there was a long tradition that when a man was exiled or out of favor, his female relatives would visit politicians' houses to beg for clemency or to negotiate on his behalf. Hortensia (daughter of the orator) even led an all-female protest against the second triumvirate without fear of violent retaliation. Sulla never proscribed a woman, and I don't think the second triumvirate did, either.

Even Fulvia, who personally led soldiers and was hated by Octavian's troops for doing so, was still allowed to return unharmed to Antony. If I overlooked any counter-examples, let me know!

On the other hand, I think many people underestimate the impact of slavery on public safety. Any time you left your home without a sufficient guard, there was a risk of being kidnapped and sold into slavery. Slavery meant constant fear of violence at all levels of society. It's hard to appreciate how dangerous and traumatic this was, and how it brought out the worst in people, without reading slave narratives.

I also haven't seen the episode in question, but I think it would be very dangerous to attack a noblewoman like Servilia. Not only would she probably never leave home without a bodyguard, she'd have blood and marriage connections to a lot of men you don't want to piss off - and perhaps her own client network she could mobilize, too. Hell, even Octavian would probably be furious because it'd make him look bad and damage his political capital.

That said, I haven't looked into Roman law much, so think of this as more of my best guess. Readers, please feel free to add more info or correct me if needed!

#i haven't watched much of hbo rome but i was confused what they did with atia #she was famously overprotective of her son in real life. but in ep 1 sends him to the gallic war like 'eh he'll probably live' lmao #roman law #jlrrt essays #just roman asks #xxmarvelouslifexx

[sugume]

r/ATIA for WHAT!? w/Jujutsu Kaisen  

More: Fem!Reader, dark & explicit content, dubcon, piss kink, necrophilia, manhandling, choking, coercion, teacher x student, power dynamics, blackmail, threesome, Cuck!Gojo, drinking. unedited

Featuring: Nanami Kento, Choso Kamo, Ryomen Sukuna, Gojo Satoru

PART 2

r/fuckingmystudent posted by u/Nanami_Kento 

Your eyes roll to the back of your head as you try to recall the events that lead you to get your brains fucked by your professor. He caught you filming a video for your Onlyfans in his class. So, he took your phone and asked you to meet him in his office after class. There, he forced you to unlock your phone and show him what exactly you were recording. It was utterly humiliating and watching him, watch you, finger yourself with a pen underneath the desk. After, he’d told you that he’d tell the dean you were getting off on his voice lecturing you unless you did something for him.  Which led you ass up on his desk, trying your hardest not to make a peep as his fat cock slammed in and out of you. “Now, what I'm going to do is take out my cell,” He grunts, rolling his hips deep into you. “And record you slamming your ass onto my cock so if you decide to open that sweet mouth of yours, I'll have no choice but to send this video to mommy and daddy back at home, understand?” You nod, tears forming in your eyes from the threat or incoming orgasm, probably both. “Say ‘Yes, Professor!’ and maybe I'll send you the video so you can post it and feed yourself this week.” 

r/peeinginher posted by u/choso_Kamo 

Ankles beside your head, Choso had you folded in half as he pounded into your swollen cunt. He’d been going for what felt like hours and you were about to reach another peak when he abruptly stopped. “Choso?” you rasp, voice raw from screaming. “What’s wrong, baby?” You ask, staring up at him as he stares down at your glistening cunt. He just tilts his head and continues to stare. You’re about to ask again when he blinks from whatever trance he is in and starts thrusting in and out, slower this time. “Nothin’ baby, jus’ gotta piss.” “T-then stop and go, hm–” you gasp when he pushes your legs down further. “Stop and go to the bathroom Cho.” you try to pull his hands off your calves. Choso tightens his hold and grins down at you. “C-Choso?” “Why would I get up when I have a perfectly capable toilet right here.” Is all you hear before you suddenly feel a foreign warmth in your cunt followed by wetness trickling out your pussy.  

r/askinghertoplaydead posted by u/Ryomen_Sukuna 

“You wan’ me to do what?” You ask, staring up at him from your position between his legs. “I asked you to stop suckin’ my cock and hang off the bed like a drugged-up bitch on her last life.” He stares at you with a look that tells you he isn’t truly asking. “B-but ‘Kuna—” He grabs your throat. “Don’t you wanna make me happy, hm?” You grab the hand around your neck. “Mhm.” “This ‘ll make me happy, little girl,” He plants a firm kiss on your lips. “Now do as I told you, actually I’ll do it, I know you aren’t the best at following orders.” He says before pushing you back like a ragdoll. “Yes, now lay there, don’t move, don’t speak.” Sukuna reiterates, finally satisfied with your position, naked on your stomach with your head hanging off the bed. He wastes no time shoving his big cock into your cunt. You groan from the sudden intrusion “Kuna!” “Shut up, dead bitches don’t fuckin’ make sounds.”  

r/forcinga3some posted by u/Gojo_Satoru 

“Sit on his cock love,” Gojo demands, grabbing you by the waist and throwing you onto Suguru’s lap. “S-Satoru!” “’ Toru!” You and Geto screech at the same time. “C’mon guys, it’s fine I don’t mind, Loosen up!” Gojo looks at you on his best friend's lap and his cock twitching underneath his pants. He palms it. Don’t worry, we’ll have our turn. “I know you two want to fuck, c'mon! Do I really have to pull it out and shove it up your tight cunt?” Goji grits out, increasingly frustrated when the two of you stare at him like a pair of deer in headlights. “Baby, I-it was just a truth or dare question!” Your head aches and you put both of your hands on Suguru’s broad shoulders to stable yourself, trying and failing to ignore his hard under your panty-covered pussy. “Was it? So, you aren’t wet right now? And you Suguru? You aren't rock fucking hard at the thought of fucking the same pussy I cum in every night?” Gojo raises his eyebrow holding eye contact with you until you look away, face flushed. Suguru sighs, throwing his head back with murmured ‘fuck this.’ before grabbing your waist. “Yes! That’s what I thought. Ha!” Gojo laughs, watching as Suguru starts grinding you down on his bulge.  

#𐙚 ࣪ ˖ sugume writes #𐙚 ࣪ ˖ smut journal #jjk #smut #x reader #gojo smut #gojo satoru #jjk gojo #gojo x reader #gojo x y/n #gojo x you #nanami kento #nanami smut #nanami x reader #nanami x you #kento nanami #jjk nanami #ryomen sukuna #sukuna x y/n #sukuna x reader #sukuna x you #sukuna scenarios #sukuna smut #choso kamo #choso smut #jjk choso #choso x reader #jujutsu kaisen choso #choso x you #choso x y/n

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

ATIA for masturbating next to my friend?

Sorry for TMI, but I don’t really feel comfortable talking to anyone about this IRL

I (F16) have been friends with Amy (F16) for a couple years ago. We have sleepovers every other week but it’s always been at my house because I get anxious when I have to spend the night away from home. I told Amy this and she said she understands, but she would keep extending the invite for me to spend the night at her house hoping one day I would be comfortable enough to accept. A few days ago she invited me again and I accepted.

We had fun watching movies and baking cookies and playing video games and then it was time to sleep. Amy has two couches in her living room (they make an L shape) and she slept on one and I slept on the other (I was on the | couch and she was on the __ couch, with our heads next to each other). We stayed awake for a couple hours talking but Amy seemed to fall asleep before me, because I asked “Hey? You awake?” a couple times and she didn’t answer.

I was nervous about sleeping in a new place and knew I wouldn’t be able to fall asleep any time soon, so I turned away from Amy and faced the couch and flicked the bean. It was not sexy, I was not aroused, I didn’t make any mess or noise. It was very mechanical and matter of fact, just to distract myself and hopefully make myself sleepy. It took a while because like I said I wasn’t turned on at all, or even thinking of anything in particular, just trying to get it over with and go to sleep. I finished and fell asleep afterward.

I didn’t wake up until noon the next day and I woke up to Amy calling my name and telling me my mom was there to pick me up. I asked her why she didn’t wake me up so we could hang out more that morning and she just shrugged. I got dressed and got my stuff together and went to hug Amy goodbye but she dodged my hug and said my mom was waiting for me.

I texted her that night asking if we were all good because she was acting weird, and she said it was fucking gross that I touched myself with her in the room. That she was going to burn the sheet I slept on and blankets I slept under and that I was probably a pervert that wanted her older brother to walk in and catch me doing that (which confused me because I don’t even really know her brother?? He’s usually away at college I’ve only seen him like twice and said maybe 5 words to him in total)

I tried to tell her I’m sorry, that I was just anxious and it’s what I usually do when it’s late and my mind is racing and I can’t sleep and I never would have done it if I knew she was awake and all this other stuff but I think she blocked me :( AITA?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[aeruthien]

I really love how Liam subtly guided Aimee during this episode without ruining her moments. It's something every DM could learn from.

Aimee, probably due to her still being new and do to her enthusiasm, has a tendency to jump to conclusions and act quickly. This has lead to some very great moments, but sometimes it isn't the right course of action.

Three moments stand out to me:

First, when she wanted to use the Frogs to get into the party, but Liam first narrated the Circle getting together, so the others could pitch in with their ideas as well. This helped dissipate some of the urgency of the matter, and led to a great scene with her doing the fake performance afterwards.

Second, when she wanted to reveal the symbol to Aloha, which would have outed them. I love his question about her intentions. As a DM, it is often good to know why players are attempting certain things, so you can react accordingly. And his insistence on clarifying the shared Mind Palace helps to get everyone on the same page. It might pull people out of the narrative, but I think it is a good fallback for DMs to have a check in moment to see if the implication of description or dialogue were correctly conveyed, especially if it is crucial to the plot.

And lastly, when she was possessed by Atia, Aimee was trying to convince Atia to do things by talking to her, and then Liam explicitly asked her 'what would you want her to do?' giving her full control. He also insisted multiple times that while she was possessed, she still had agency and could do things.

So Liam steered her not to tell her what to do, but to get the most out of her ideas. Which I think is great DMing.

#candela obscura #candela spoilers #I did crack up about them insisting they had to get through a door #them: we finally made it through thw door! #liam: alright so you walk up the open stairs... #critical role

[aita-blorbos]

ATIA for not wanting to all be alone again?

tw for possessive behavior, basically kidnapping, and unhealthy relationship

(full of a ton of fanon)

So i, (i dont think i have an age, f I guess) live on this planet. it is very lonely. it is uninhabited by people and i accidentally got rid of all the wild life where i live. watching things the only thing i can do to pass the time.

then this guy C (dont know, m) crashed on the planet. i watched him gather up the parts to his ship. i didnt expect him to survive but he got all the parts and left the planet. it made me very jealous. how come he gets to go home while im stuck here.

but then weirdly enough he came back. he brought another one of his species but that one doesnt matter. i didnt understand why he came back. he got alot of there various objects. and then he left again. i liked watching him get the stuff.

and then he came back a third time. he got more stuff too.

i started to think. maybe the reason he kept coming back was because he wanted to see me. it made sense.

eventually he approached where i live. he approached me and that made me very excited. that proved my theory that he was looking for me!

he fell asleep not to long after actually seeing me thought so I set up a nice place for him to rest. i made sure to stay close so he wouldnt worry about me. i cuddled with him. it felt nice.

when he woke up he kept cuddling with me. after i left for a bit he went to walk around where i live. I let him do this for a bit. when i went to bring him back he fell asleep again.

it continued like this for a while. it was wonderful. i wasnt lonely anymore! he meant everything to me! nothing mattered more than C! C made existing mean something to me again!

but because everything good that ever happens to me must get destroyed C got taken away from me. these three...things grabbed him and stole him away while he was sleeping. I fought desperately to keep them from taking him but in the end i failed and they took of with him.

it has been horrible ever since. i miss him more that almost anything. i can only imagine how C feels. he must miss me a lot too im sure of it.

am i in the wrong for not wanting to be alone again? is that too much for me to ask? am i... selfish?

#aita #am i the asshole #unreality #kidnapping

[historical-kitten]

Shoot anon, I deleted your ask trying to edit it.

I was asked why I didn't like HBO's Rome.

So many reasons. Mostly, I think, because despite being more accurate in some ways about the setting than some period pieces, it still felt the need to edit historical happenings/people.

It also did things with some of the historical characters I just didn't really like or feel the need for. Read on if you don't care about spoilers...

Cleopatra is a drug addict and not very clever? UGH. Ew. Solely portrayed as seductive and that's it, honestly. Caesarion is not the son of Caesar but a random soldier? The Antony/Cleopatra romance was...barely present? Actium was an afterthought? Barely anything about the battle of Alexandria where Antony almost won? Both weren't really on screen.

Both Octavias are blended into one and also have sex with Octavian. Why? Also why was Atia such a huge character? Why were she and Antony having an affair? Fulvia would have been a great addition to the show. Also where are Antony's children? Absolutely gone. Julia was also missing.

Agrippa and Octavian were not extremely close, there was no real hint of love there brotherly or otherwise, and Agrippa was in love with Octavia?

I mean there is enough drama in history without all of the changes, trust me.

So I think it is because of the potential it had, due to where it was accurate, that I became more frustrated when it wasn't. If that makes sense.

I wouldn't have finished it but it was something my mom wanted to do together to validate my interests, I think. Heh.

It did have some funny moments and some great scenes. I just overall did not care for it. Maybe you might like it, though?

#I am quite sure I was not fun to watch this with #I felt the need to point out the wrong bits #so we should all feel sympathy for my mom xD #HBOs rome #hbo rome #ancient rome #octavian #mark antony #marcus agrippa #octavia minor #cleopatra vii #caesarion

[newtonsheffield]

I’m ATIA how does Kate tell Anthony she’s pregnant with Neddy? Are they trying or is he a pleasant surprise? I imagine the whole hospital is extremely invested in their pregnancy!

I think I’ve written it before, but Kate told Anthony by getting him to review some blood work for a patient who she wanted to place on his service and when he asked for her name, she gave him hers.

I think they both agreed a few months after they got married that they weren’t trying for a baby, but they also weren’t doing anything to prevent it. Kate didn’t get her IUD replaced and they haven’t used condoms since they decided they were officially in a relationship. They’re just seeing what happens and they’re both okay with this being the next step in their relationship. And it doesn’t take long until little Neddy’s on the way.

The whole hospital cannot help being involved in the pregnancy given that Anthony follows Kate around everywhere trying to give her green juice to drink and refusing to buy her the cheeseburgers she desperately wants. Anthony also does an ultrasound of Kate every 10-15 days and posts the pictures everywhere. On every bulletin board, everyone’s seen their baby.

And when Anthony gets stressed Kate takes his hand and tugs him towards his exam room and does an ultrasound on herself so he can see their son. Listen to his heartbeat, and then she prints out a picture and tapes it up next to the last one, until the wall is nearly covered in pictures of their son. Right across from the wall that’s covered in pictures of all the babies he’s delivered.

And all his patients know how excited he is.

“I’m actually um-“ Anthony cleared his throat as he performed an ultrasound on another expectant mother. “I’m going to be a Dad soon too.”

“Is your wife going insane as well?”

Anthony chuckled, “My wife is an OB, so she thinks she knows everything.”

“Doesn’t she?”

“Yes.” Anthony sighed, “But she’ll be in in a minute and don’t let her know I said that.”

#all i am (all that i ever was) #kathony #anthony x kate #kate sharma #kate sheffield #anthony bridgerton #molly’s asks and answers

[ash-and-starlight]

Do you do commissions? It's totally fine if you don't I'm sure you're busy drawing and living life, but if you did, how much would they roughly cost and such?

hello! just wanted to ask if your comms are open and do you do comms of non-atia characters like ocs? thank you ^3^

answering to these together lol but my commissions are not open at the moment! i had a commission sheet you can find here but if i ever open them again i’ll raise the prices a bit.

also yes every oc is fine!

#ash replies

[5-cell]

going on the atia offical account and pressing INFO every time and asking if the asker has ever killed a man

[goldiipond]

amnt of times ive seen a ray ask on atia-blorbo blog: 2

#skye's ramblings #which isnt a lot but. its very funny that it happened twice. points at you with my hand very big. i know you #and btw nta 100% ray you have never done anything wrong ever in your life. this is true #though it is funny and in character to think abt ray asking 2 separate times. especially like. right-after-the-escape ray #its like UPDATE: my entire family has told me i deserve to be loved n they dont blame me for anything but im still having doubts. help??

[foreverozziessongbird]

SWOONED

Infatuated. Was that the right word for this... this obessession that she was currently feeling for this imp? This demon whom made her feel like she could take on the Overlords & actually win. She wouldn't act on it, oh no. No, Atia knew better than that. So for now, she'd push all those thoughts back into the deepest, darkest parts of her mind. For now, she'd swoon for this imp, this demon, that made her heart beat a little faster. Maybe not as fast as it beat for the first love in her teenaged years, but fast enough that it felt like an adrenaline rush coursing through her veins.

#ask atia #helluva boss rp #ic post #thesilent-o #rp headcanons

[just-late-roman-republic-things]

The second-most awkward dinner party ever

So I was looking up the Julio-Claudian Clusterfuck, as one does, and I noticed something odd.

Marcellus? That Marcellus?

It’s him! The fucker who shut down peace talks in the Senate in 50 BCE and tried to get Pompey to attack Caesar!

So Octavian’s mom was Caesar’s niece and his brother-in-law attempted to start a civil war against Caesar. Maybe his dad helped keep the peace between--wait, no, Octavian’s dad was long dead. And his stepdad was Lucius Marcius Philippus, who--

...Who apparently married his daughter to Cato??

Wait, wasn’t there a whole thing with Cato and Marcia where he divorced and remarried her? There was! So Octavian’s other brother-in-law was Cicero’s old frenemy Hortensius!

(Nobody asked Marcia’s opinion of all this, did they?)

So imagine: it’s 49 BCE. The republic is teetering on the edge of civil war. Philippus is hosting a dinner party, featuring:

Marcellus who tried to get Octavian’s great-uncle declared an enemy of the state

Cato who is flirting with his ex-wife Marcia, possibly while drunk

Marcia whose husband just died, Cato

Bibulus, Cato’s son-in-law and possibly the only person who hates Caesar more than Cato does

Atia, Octavian’s mom who is very carefully not mentioning she’s Caesar’s niece

17-year-old Octavia who keeps trying to change the subject to something non-political

And 14-year-old Octavian who was mostly raised by Caesar’s sister, and would rather be anywhere but here

#octavian grew up to be very good at getting along with stuffy old senators #and also very good at lying #i can't help but wonder if it started here #cato the younger #gaius claudius marcellus #lucius marcius philippus #the great roman clusterfuck #family trees #jlrrt speaks #octavian #jlrrt essays

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

ATIA for not peeling an egg for my younger sister?

I (F19) was cooking ramen for my younger sister (F12). It's a dry one, so it has like a liquid sauce pack that you're supposed to put in after draining the water. After I drained the noodles, she came out of her room and started to put the dried flavor pack into the noodles. I had the liquid one, so I started to open the pack to put it in.

Here comes the conflict. The little bag has arrows pointing to the side and place where you should start opening it. I don't particularly care which way I started from, as long as it's on the indicated side. My sister started berating me by saying how stupid I am for opening it incorrectly and trying to grab it for me to open it correctly. I told her it's ok, calm down, and that it doesn't matter which way you start opening it.

I got the sauce in the pot of noodles and started to mix it when she took the chopsticks from my hand to mix it herself. I decided to just start peeling the egg that was boiled with the noodles when she told me again how stupid I was for doing that and that opening it correctly wouldn't leave a mess. Guys... I just had a bit of sauce on my fingers and the packet wasn't opened straight across.

I couldn't stand being around her anymore, so I left the kitchen. She asked me to peel the egg, I said no. She told me to peel the eggs, I said it'll be good for her to know how to peel her own eggs. She said she doesn't know how to, and she'll just mess it up and waste an egg. I said to peel her eggs for once and proceed to ignore her from then on out.

To be honest, I wrote this like 10 minutes ago after the event. Calming down from it, I feel guilty for not doing it. I know she was annoying, but I shouldn't take it out on her by denying her her egg. I don't know if she actually peeled her own egg or just left it there. Older siblings are supposed to take care of their younger siblings, but I feel like coddling them isn't good for them.

For even more background, I do a lot of mundane things for her, like refilling her water bottle or turning the lights off. Sometimes I feel like a butler, but I don't mind doing it. I only get annoyed about it when she's closer or more available to do something. Like asking me to cook while I'm sitting down about to eat. Or when she was closer to the chromebook, she wanted me to charge it, but she asked me to do it instead of doing it herself.

I feel like the things I hear her asking for things are just her telling me to do it. Whenever I try to question her why she doesn't do it, she just says, "It's cause I asked you to."

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[therian-aita]

atia for grossly misunderstanding a post asking for advice on dealing with body image issues related to weight and responding to it about dealing with species dysmorphia

#alterhuman #otherkin #therian #nonhuman #therian aita

[margridarnauds]

If I may ask another, Romeo et Juliette?

A musical that I have a very, very complex relationship with.

It was one of my first French musicals -- not one of my favorites (I have ALWAYS been an Atia and Chouet girl), but one of my first. Good music, Aimer was one of my eternal, lovestruck romantic songs from my teen years, the OTP song to end all OTP songs; Verona was one of my favorite musical songs (once an Escalus fucker, always an Escalus fucker), I loved C'est le Jour (being used to historical lit and period dramas means I have....no reaction to first cousin marriages, so I shipped Tybalt/Juliet, sorry lads.)

There used to be a dedicated French musicals fandom on here, so I was talking with people who were more invested in it than I was, me and a friend once listened to the London cast together and memed it to death. And when that community imploded, I joined the RetJ fandom more specifically after a couple of years. And...I did enjoy it. I was mainly in my own little corner, but I was talking about it, I was creating content for it. I didn't agree with everything, especially the way that Japanese productions were routinely dismissed, and I thought that people could be very harsh on individual productions in a way that wasn't particularly fun, but...I did enjoy the experience. I did enjoy working with other people, especially since, as a Toho fan and ESPECIALLY as an Escalus fan (and as someone who really cares about the women more than Mercutio), I was very locked in my own little corner with a few other people.

I fell in love with the musical. And with Shakespeare's original. I still think that this is My Adaptation of Romeo and Juliet, because it is really wonderfully faithful while modernizing it without being grimdark or cynical (yes, even the Hungarian.)

And...I refuse to go into details, because I have no intention of dredging up old ghosts, but it ended. Badly. I evacuated myself from the communities I was part of, leaving them to someone who hated me because I didn't want to split the fandom. I wanted to leave quietly, discretely, while potentially keeping some bonds. They used it as an excuse to spread their smear campaign to my old circles, something that I only found out about over a year later. No one bothered to tell me. I noticed that people were pulling away, some people have even blocked me on here, or else quietly unfollowed me, but I didn't know why and I tried to convince myself it was paranoia. I reached out to someone and they assured me that nothing had been said about me. Something I later learned was untrue. I won't accuse that person of lying, because I don't have a timeline, and I understand wanting to keep the peace, but my reputation and my mental stability were NOT acceptable collateral damage. I was suicidal, dammit, and I'm not just mad at the people who started the smear campaign, but the people who didn't bother to listen to me when I needed them the most.

And...I would say I'm not bitter about it, but actually, I am. Of COURSE I'm bitter about it. Even if I wasn't the most active member, I was there for years. I deserved better. And it has profoundly impacted the way that I still carry myself in a fandom context, because some part of me is always looking behind my shoulder. (I. Have never been able to join the BG3 fandom in the way I'd have liked to for a number of reasons, including my ongoing fear caused by this incident.)

...but, by the same token, I did rebuild myself, bit by bit, with Takarazuka musicals, including the Zuka RetJ. I wrote RetJ fanfic for myself and, without having a fandom to worry about appeasing, I wrote what I wanted -- some of my longest fics of the last three years have been Benvolio/Escalus fics that I almost CERTAINLY wouldn't have published when I had the dead weight attached.

So -- gorgeous musical, the Toho production will eternally have a place in my heart. I'm very happy that I can look at it without shaking now.