#asher yapfest

[aasherstarr]

Robot Rampage is one of my favorite Backyardigans episodes because the songs go hard, the plot’s awesome, and STEAMPUNK PABLO

RIGHTT??? and im a sucker for austin spotlight, he deserves it. and pablo as a villain is always great, he's so funny when he's the villain 😭🫶🏼

(picture from @/anotherbackyardigansblog i believe)

#backyardigans #the backyardigans #asher yapfest

[aasherstarr]

i am a pretty blood liker ..... probably wont post ab it very much, will probably stick to ocs, backyardigans, pvz..... but ron and eluca are my favorites 😯

#pretty blood #asher yapfest

[aasherstarr]

yall think i should make a blog for my book

#asher yapfest

[aasherstarr]

getting serious on here bc i dont know where else

my experience as a trans boy: i forget the last time i felt secure in my body because of my way of self-expression

the way i express myself is through my clothing. simple stuff! but no, i dress in decora kei fashion, a style usually worn by girls. it doesn't help a single bit— in fact— it makes it worse— that i wear skirts because they look nice. no teacher has ever, ever, ever naturally called me a boy. i've always been referred to with "she" until i correct them if AT ALL!!! sometimes i correct someone and they will still call me a girl because i FUCKING LOOK LIKE ONE!!! I ALWAYS HAVE!!! ive been told by a few people "oh i thought you were a cisgender guy when i first saw you!" and im going to tell you that is a fucking lie. anyone who has ever said that, im convinced was lying through their teeth, through their screen, to make me feel like im not a complete failure of a boy. my face is feminine, my voice sounds like a girl's, my chest is apparent even with binders, and, of course, i dress girly. i tried to dress like what people think of when they think of a boy once: a plain old outfit. and guess what??? i didnt feel comfortable! people at school, some i didnt even know, asked me what was wrong because i didnt look like a walking lisa frank artwork. one of my friends even got mad, got appalled, and told me to "put the color back on." and i really wanted to! and I DID bc i wanted to!!! i can't fucking win. i try to give myself the slightest chance of being seen as a boy by the majority, and im not happy with how im dressing. i express myself through my clothes and love what i wear, but im constantly reminded that i will never be a real boy and anyone who's told me otherwise is lying to my face to make me feel better. trying to "be myself" isn't working. everything ive tried hasnt worked. i do not feel good in my body. being trans isnt cute, it's not something to WANT. i know others are proud of being trans, and that's amazing! i admire people who feel good about themselves, genuinely. im not saying that in a sarcastic way, i dont like being sarcastic. but for me, being transgender is fucking hell and that's why i never tell anyone unless they ask. i just want to be seen like a normal boy

#asher yapfest #transgender #vent post #kinda #trans struggles #serious post

[aasherstarr]

if someone put the entire bible on ao3 nobody would bat an eye

#asher yapfest #random thoughts

[aasherstarr]

👾🍭 new pinned 🌈💫

hi im asher/austin/rex, im 15 and im an author + artist !

im working on a book called early-bird malice: rex's (not me the character) infamy (more info at @ebmri-official-blog,) i would appreciate it if you would check it out!

i lovelovelove rainbows and decora fashion (although you probably wont see me post outfits here)

i speak english y español 🇸🇻🇵🇷 i plan to learn german, asl, and italian

art tag is just #art, random stuff is #asher yapfest, i tag all my diff fandoms

my main fandoms/interests

ocs (spinterest), pvz (almost all games), danganronpa (almost all games + dra/sdra2), pretty blood, kick the prince, backyardigans, fnf, welcome home

b4 you follow ! important i think

i am a copinglinker, i mostly identify as the characters who r my c'link characters (list is here) and therefore im kinda uncomfy with people who selfship/similar with said characters .... NOTHING AGAINST YALL /gen, i just partially see the characters as me

im autistic, pls b patient if i dont catch a hint right away

dni

basic dni (racist, ableist, homophobic, etc), proship/comship, that's kind of it

other places 2 find me

twitter

insta

that's it i think :o)

here are some of my favorite emojis 🌈👽🤓😜😆🍭👾🔥🙌🏼😯😭☹️🙏🏼🫶🏼😈💀

#intro post #pinned post #asher yapfest #kinda important

[aasherstarr]

ive been thinking about rewriting flower power if it was a two-part episode. i have other projects tho so i may put this on the back burner for now. just putting it out there that this is a plan

#asher yapfest

[aasherstarr]

also i still dont know where i stand with backyardigans shipping but i think austin and tyrone r cute. austin just seems to admire tyrone a lot, i can especially point that out in best clowns in town

but i also have seen that pablo and austin is a ship and it's cute as well methinks. im just still not sure what my stance is

#backyardigans #asher yapfest

[aasherstarr]

i need these mfs to talk me through my issues. the acorns know what's up

#backyardigans #hold my hand almost brings me to tears #idk i think they could help a lot #asher yapfest

[aasherstarr]

my copinglink character list ! just to let ppl who follow me know that if i get a little touchy with said characters, get a little insistent, etc, it's because i partially identify as the character

☆ eluca (pb)

☆ nagisa shingetsu (danganronpa)

☆ frank frankly (welcome home)

☆ hot date (pvz2)

☆ austin (backyardigans)

☆ POSSIBLY ron (pb), idk yet

#asher yapfest #kinda important #??? idk #but if me identifying strongly with any of these characters is an issue then feel free to unfollow #except for frank and austin i tend to get really on edge when people are like “im the ceo of such and such” #so yk #if you think this will be an issue you can unfollow me and i wont take it to heart #copinglinker #copinglink

[aasherstarr]

i dont tell many people this but im a copinglinker of multiple characters........ there's a few of them

if that's an issue, you can feel free to unfollow (i dont mean this in a mean tone, genuinely if you dont want to interact w me or my content bc im a copinglinker, that's okay)

i might be more open about it,, being a copinglinker i mean..... might make a list ?

#copinglink #copinglinker #asher yapfest

[aasherstarr]

also im making a kinda "random talking" tag called asher yapfest

that's all

#asher yapfest

[aasherstarr]

what if i learned how to mimic the 2d backyardigans artstyle just because i wanna see the gloom meister in that style

#asher yapfest