#as theres no “ratio = argument won” shit

[natsmagi]

it has been absolutely crazy seeing that anon call the way u draw femstars mugi “unrealistic and sexualized” because (and I’m about to knock anons socks off here) I am someone who has that EXACT BODY TYPE IRL. I’m more “average” than skinny but it’s still practically the same, and this anon is here insisting that my body type being represented in art is unrealistic, sexualized, and bad? like. yikes. I can’t remember exactly where I was going with this ask tbh but saying someone is drawing bad sexualized art because a girl has big boobs is like… way worse than drawing big boobs (drawing big boobs is great actually)

anyways I LOVE UR FEMSTARS DESIGNS SO MUCH AND I GENUINELY LOOK AT THE WAY YOU DRAW MUGI TO HELP ME WHEN I NEED TO DRAW A CHARACTER OF THE SAME BODY TYPE!!! UR ART INSPIRES ME SO MUCH

NO RIGHT ITS SO UNBELIEVABLY INSULTING ?????????? AND TO THINK THIS IS A COMMON MINDSET PEOPLE HAVE IN THIS FANDOM TOO PISSES ME OFF TO NO END. ITS WHY I CANT REALLY KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT WHEN IT COMES TO THIS SUBJECT BC HOLY SHIT. news flash if u leave ur room and go outside for a change ur gonna see people of all body types! including slim thick ones! isnt that crazy! GIVE IT A TRY!

and it pisses me off so severely too because these people always act morally righteous and that theyre fighting for some "better cause" or whatever the fuck, like theyre protecting us from the horrors that is Women With Big Boobs and its like. Genuinely what the fuck are you people trying to accomplish. i fail to understand the psychology behind "oh this body is being sexualized by men? Lets bully this body type out of existence because it is clearly just a sex thing then" LIKE WHAT??????? COMPLETELY MISSING THE MARK??????????? AND MAKING THE SITUATION A DOZEN TIMES WORSE???????????????? and its SO RARELY women or lesbians making these arguments too. We do not need your ass to fight for us and to add salt to injury? i see them calling ~c cups "normal size" which. Jesus fucking christ guys. so often when i see ppl bitch abt mugis boobs theyre like "why cant they just give her NORMAL boobs!!!" and, i do not have a big bust, but i am very flat. so these words very much affect me aswell. Literally causing harm to the broader community by spouting this reactionary nonsense and not thinking before you speak

AND WAHHHHHHHHHH WHATTTTT!!!!!! WHAT AN HONOR!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 THAT MAKES ME SO HAPPY AUSHDUAJHSDFKJ 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 i am firm in my mugi headcanon and will not be swayed!!! so look forward to seeing more of her!!!! ❤️

#ever since i joined this fandom ive seen ppl bitch about tit sizes and womens bodies and just being So. Blatantly. and Painfully. Wrong. #about how they work #so i have alot of pent up frustrations within me on the topic #constantly seeing me n my peers get shittalked for drawing Tiddy and just. being objectively stupid in their arguments #but starting arguments with these people is meaningless. especially when its on twitter #its such a hivemind its borderline fucking scary. literally no thought is their own it feels #so all i can do is sit back and watch as these people lie and never get fact checked #exhausting really #its why i much prefer tumblr 👍 #because if people wanna be annoying to me here i can very easily be annoying back #as theres no “ratio = argument won” shit #Fight me with ur words not ur numbers #ask

[badbitchwhomeditates]

Who the fuck is this bitch?!

Read that again. 

The answer is complex, not simple, which is what complex means you dumb fuck ( beep language kiddo). Ok, lets try that again...

Bad Bitch Who Meditates, a 23 year old singer with dreams bigger than the world itself, which is both a good and a bad thing, we will get to the importance of duality later. Either way she´s been struck by lightning and pushed into a corner loads of times in an industry where you have to fight to be heard and seen through the smallest of cracks. And yes I might also speak about myself in third person a lot, simply because I'm practicing being the main character from all perspectives, telling my story but also making everyday feel like an adventurous movie ( therefore the narrator vibes help).

Complaining, complaning, victim mindset bla bla bla you might think, im not gonna bore you, you know that things can be quite shit and you’ve probably heard about the `struggling artist” and all of that before. 

 Lets spread some more negativity shall we ey? 

Maybe not that either, im just welcoming you in to my brain and my stream of consciousness on the journey of becoming or remaining? we shall see.

Im not gonna be here being all fairy lights and glitter in my eyes either, I am tho some days, but lately I’ve been bad, not a bitch cause I would never, slightly a bitch towards myself and I haven’t really done my meditation, its like the second I put down ” bad bitch who meditates, thats my slogan” in a song, I was like, cool its in a tune now so I’ve done the work I can relax. 

Nope, it doesn’t stop. 

Consistency in self care, healthy habits and your mental diet, the way you speak to yourself, it doesn’t stop. And its fkn annoying sometimes, especially when your chemical imbalance is so imbalanced that you don’t wanna get out of bed. Ive probably dealed with anxiety and depression since my debut on X-factor, oh yeah shit sorry, I have a name too, Im Awa and I won X-factor Sweden at 15 years old, completely changed my life like a marriage, for better or for worse. In that marriage I found myself, lost myself and now im kind of finding myself again...

Ok this is the part below where you get to knoooow me or something...

 I guess why I wanted to start blogging again is A) I need to hold myself accountable to remain consistent with my glow up, cause I can proudly say I’ve really done some amazing progress and inner work B) I need to continue doing that and find my healthy balance and not put too much pressure on myself, ya get me? C) maybe help take away the stigma regarding mental health, and I wanna focus on the solutions, thats my whole new life concept 10 % problems, 90 % solutions, like if we are discussing something thats the ratio. Cause how can we ever see a solution if we go slow dancing w the problem for ages? 

 I know it can feel fkn amazing and cozy, like when you’ve been in bed w someone thats clearly not good for your heartstrings but you stay there anyway because for right now it feels all warm and fuzzy. 

Oh silly girl, I mean forgiveness, forgiving other people and forgiving myself that is def something we are going to have to discuss as well, its one of the things I’ve tried to commit to this year. Ive come to the conclusion that its harder forgiving yourself after being too nice, theres only so much space on the scale for resentment, but you go to bed with you all the time and you beat yourself up on why you allowed that to happen? (Did that make any sense??) 

Again, another lesson, feedback that we can grow from. Mind management, one of my fav terms, mind over matter. Damn sure that can feel extremely provocative said in the wrong situation. Im gonna be honest on here, ill make an oath or whatever its called ( oh yeah im also Swedish so we will have communication problems here and there, but whatever, I call that acceptance) ill be honest, personal but not private cause I need to protect my energy. 

I would declare myself a self care queen but babe writing this, I just had a massive argument w my friend, that made me sad ( oh im a cry baby too, thats even the title of my EP lol), I hate conflict but im really trying so hard to stand up for myself and understand that my feelings are valid too and that uncomfortable situations are growing pains for our souls. I had my first panic attack in ages because this year is just shit and things that I’ve worked on for so long just crumbled down in front of me and I just felt like I was again taking two steps forward and one step back but at least we are moving. 

Im not all sad, I’ve rightfully so have had a few bad 72 hours I would say, I don’t like this time of the year that much.  But I know why, because I've been slacking w my routines, the ones we´ve carefully selected through trial and error inna real life and w my therapist ( she's real too but you get what im sayin) , it's ok not to be ok either but we have to put some kind of time limit on it so we don't sink into that deep hole again, i don't wanna go back there and I know what keeps me with my head above water and sometimes even frkn flying. We wanna stay consistent w the flying, that feels good, that's a goal now ok? Cause I used to fall into that trap of the deep hole until the pain of the known got far greater than the fear of the unknown. 

Im happy we are here today, because as I said 10/90, nothing last forever, good or bad, which is comforting. Things will get better and we hold so much more power in our minds and souls than we realize that ultimately will mirror how we experience life. So im going to be on here, at least once a week, my therapist tells me not to set up crazy goals that I know I might not do because then it will make me feel shit etc so once a week feels reasonable.

 Im open to suggestions about what we can chat about, ill share my 10/90, I want my clever friends to maybe drop a quote or blog here and there, Im good on camera, like vlogs or some shit. I probably wont bring you around all the time cause I don’t have the technological brain cells for that to be very honest with you. Maybe ill just come up with cute formats to the camera, thats a word you are going to hear a lot, ”format”, I have a concierge business w my friend Amy on the side of my music career called ” Pure Intuition”, basically we create events, formats and campaigns for brands and make them come true with the right profile etc and we create FORMATS, but if you missed it or if I was unclear Im a super cool singer signed to Columbia UK which was my childhood dream, so we are going to make Columbia our BITCH in 2021 hihi <3 <3. I studied economic entrepreneurship in college and im very business savvy, I love creating formats lol. Im slowly but surely building my fempire. What else, boys, I like boys, men, cute ” god spent some extra time on you”- looking boys, I mean men. I guess we will touch on that in the most anonymous manner, maybe ill just share some past flings cause you know, they’re in the past, passé. So yeah who the fuck is this bitch? you will find out alongside me, myself and I

get ready for the ride

love and light,

badbitchwhomeditates 

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