#arabella morbesque

[livngdeadgrrrl]

“ as long as someone gives me the attention i so desperately craved as a little girl, i will be hopelessly and shamelessly smitten over them even if they're violent to me. i know it's wrong, the abuse they inflict on me—it stresses me out, makes me feel like shit, transports me back to when i was a child sexualised by my father, but i’m a masochist since i was born; i feel like i deserve the toxicity. they slap me during sex, i get more aroused; they take away my rights as a human, oh, they just care for me; they gaslight me and make me feel dumb, they know what's best for me. i know it's wrong! I crave more pain when I get a taste of it, and that is my toxic trait. finally being in a healthy relationship with someone who's just as obsessed with me as i am with him, i feel so fucking undeserving of his love. whenever he gives me love, i lean away and ask him, “what the fuck is wrong with you?” because i don’t deserve love. i will only ruin your life, i will only poison your happiness, i will only tear your heart. ”

— arabella morbesque, cultist (the unreleased book of mine from which this quote is taken)

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[livngdeadgrrrl]

i have 5 alex turner wips, choose which i should finish next::

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[livngdeadgrrrl]

y'all- okay, so, I've 3 chapters of an Alex Turner fanfic fully completed in my Google docs, should i release? let's do a poll <3

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[livngdeadgrrrl]

because I'm an impulsive and stupid little fuck, I deleted the first part of my Alex Turner fic called "as arabella". if you're one of the people who placed that like on it, i luvs ya and I'm sorry for deleting it if you actually liked that piece of bullshit.

so, I'm going to do a legit release for it, okay? Like, i want it to be hyped (I'm sorry, I'm just a stupid youngster who simps for someone more than twice her age)

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[livngdeadgrrrl]

but he was so much fun and he had such weird friends

#arabella morbesque after breakup1 heheeeee