#anywayssss i know i’m in my own head butttt

[gregmarriage]

lot of feelings about being disabled and bedridden and housebound etc, and the disappointment and sadness, etc that comes with it. especially, bc a girl asked me out for coffee and i don’t know how to let her down and say, ‘yeah, don’t hold your breath’

#i’m being very upfront and clear about things and she says she doesn’t care but like #i’m not like other girls #in the sense that i can’t go out with you super easily and we can go on dates #and hang out like non disabled girls #like sorry x #i dunno if a rando girl who doesn’t know me who i’ve been talking to for five minutes is gonna wanna be all that patient imao #idk feelin shit #i keep missing out on stuff and feel like life is passing me by and i keep trying to catch up and i keep getting kicked down #trying to have fun with a girl and immediately getting reminded why i can’t have this #i mean i CAN it’s just awkward and harder #just genuinely feel like it’s not gonna happen no matter how hard i try #oh you don’t feel like a relationship rn? well great bc you’re probably not gonna have one! #ughhhhh! #anywayssss i know i’m in my own head butttt #literally a massive fuckin buzzkill #like wow super cool of you to bring down the mood gwen! #whatever!! #need to vent #might delete this later