#anyway sad vibing today

[nguyenfinity]

Every time I draw Mamagi it does AoE damage (I am also in the area of effect)

Lighthearted bonus:

#enstars #hiiro amagi #rinne amagi #i don't know if this is a bad time to be amagi-posting given that hiiro's fs2 just dropped but. oh well #also this might be the last thing i draw for a bit because i am in the final stretch of this semester #if you sent in a request. i will get to it and thank you for your patience #anyways i know i'm kinda being like 'haha rinne mama's boy' which like. yeah but also sometimes-- #--sometimes you're an adult in their 20s and like. yeah sure you're technically an adult or whatever but you still feel like a kid yeah? #and sometimes you just maybe want your mom to help you when you're lost or confused or when you need someone to tell you it'll be okay #but you won't get that for whatever reason #sincerely: an adult in their 20s #....can you tell why rinne is like. a vibe to me now #anyways i'm not saying mamagi dying was a necessary evil but if hiiro and rinne had an adult who actually loved them at home they probably- #-wouldn't have left and we wouldn't have the main story #if she was alive today tho she'd be going to their lives sorry i don't make the rules (yes i do) #if she ends up being exactly like the rest of their village in some future lore i'm gonna be so sad. #she'd throw hands with niki's parents #imagine leaving your sons behind because you straight up died (couldn't really do anything about that) #meanwhile your son's boyfriend's parents just. up and left him because they could #also posts with her will be tagged mamagi #if you read all that <3 #mamagi #she'd adopt all the bees and alkaloid too #imagine if they got their singing skills from her #also mamagi 1 rinniki shipper (also does not care it's not legal) #rinniki

[falderaletcetera]

come to think of it another reason I'm biased towards nine might be because we never reach such beautiful casual queer vibes as the doctor + rose + jack situation again, at least not as far as I've watched. like I'm honestly not that much of a shipper but that kiss scene DOES things to me. and part of that is how loosely defined the relationship seems to be, at least maybe from jack's perspective. I can't rightly say it was wholly romantic in canon, but it sure was something - yes, rose flirted with jack way more than the doctor did when they first met, but the doctor even just being chill about jack kissing him feels significant - and I do love a quasi-romantic loosely-defined Something.

#doctor who #falderal speaks #I have stills from the jack+rose and jack+doctor kisses because I'm. normal about it #and I think we avoid seeing the doctor's face during or right after because they didn't want to shock the viewers too much? #if we don't see the doctor's face or reaction it can be waved off as just a Jack Being Jack thing #and it leaves us this sort of... almost plausible denability almost ambiguity #and again that may just be the vibe jack brings to it #it honestly makes me a little sad that he feels so different in torchwood #because I almost wanna say that pre-torchwood jack is maybe just LIKE this with his close friendships #maybe he comfortably straddles/ignores the line between friendship and romance when that's safe and welcome #(or else just falls into that with rose and the doctor specifically) #and maybe he's just lived through so much by torchwood (or lived so long in such a restrictive culture) #that he just. doesn't do that anymore. can't. #those are my feelings on it at least! #I haven't strayed into the fandom at ALL I just grew up with the show so nobody read this as reacting to any trends in the fandom pls #anyway apparently I'm mostly feral about the relationships I can think about and ship in a queerplatonic way #which will be a surprise to absolutely no-one who knows me from fandom stuff #but I hadn't thought to think about these three that way before. and it's a treat. #drafted last night just posted today #(like this was probably the first queer character and queer kiss I saw on screen and it was a nationally beloved family-friendly show) #(I'm basically obligated not to be normal about it)

[icewindandboringhorror]

........creachure

#cats #his eyes are always so big and weird he no longer looks like a cat anymore sometimes.. in a way... #it's hard to understand.. complicated vibes on this boy #his summer sprawl (laying flopped out on the floor weird because of the heat) #I AM still trying to get some costumes done and also post another poll advtnure so I can finally finish it lol #the weather this month has just been soooo.... There was the heat wave and then after like 2 days of coolenss where I was like 'ah! finally #I can be productiv!' but just as soon as I had recovered from the heat.. it got hot again ghhhh #currently sweating inside. I actually had to leave my doctors appointment early today because I was just so so warm from #sitting in the car and the fac tthat half the buildings still do not have their air up very high and etc. and I felt so nausous #and flushed and started to get back and stomach pains for some reason.. Which I guess is good in a way to further confirm to doctors that #I Have Something Wrong With Me lol (most normal people should not be this heat sensitive I think) but is also still a little stinky #because I still payed a copay for the fulla appointment time but cit it short by leaving 15minues early.. grrr #ANYWAY. It seems like recently it's just hot all the time but it will ocasionally tempt you with a cool day of reprieve BUT don't let your #guard down! because as soon as you start to think 'hey things are getting better! :0' the sun will be like NO actualy. scalding temperature #be upon ye.. #Which of COURSE. I would rather have hot weather with little breaks in between than just constant hot weather. 100% definitely. #but it just always makes me sad because I get my hopes up lol.. JUST as I've recovered from the past heat and am So Ready To Start #On All My Things now That I'm Not As Sick And Hey Maybe It's Even Cool Enough To Do A Costume! .. my hopes are dashed #.. woe and so on and so forth. . Which I am stil managing to get a few things done but just.. not the things I really WANT to do (costumes. #sculptures. edit videos. etc. ). #anyway.. look at son.. If nothing else I still have lots of cat photos.. my sole productivity offerings to the internet online world

[helennorvilles]

so like, i think my nana has definitely forgotten me now. like, mum said she couldn't remember us grandkids on a phonecall once, but also she's said that nana had later asked about us and her memory has been really inconsistent the whole year, but even knowing all that it was just weird sitting next to her at lunch today when she was so distant and just, different with me

#like i think she was pretending that she Hadn't forgotten me? that's the vibe i got #and its not her fault obviously. whatever is happening in her brain is what's happening. #but its just. not good. #and i feel weird about it bc im not very close to her really bc they moved 2 hours away when i was so young #so nowadays its one to two times a year max we make the journey #but i still have nice memories of when i was little with her?? #from their old place and then when i was still young but we visited more often?? #and god. she didn't look good today. she was so skinny and.... old??? it's fucking weird. #so yeah. i feel. sad. it is what it is but im just. bit sad about it all really. #probs a sign i should sleep bc earlier me was handling this info a lot more chill than sleepy me is handling it #anyway. that's my sad rant for the day. stay tuned for tomorrow when it turns into a stressed christmas rant. #ive not updated the runsheet for the new things that have emerged so. it'll be an experience. #my post tag

[beelzzzebub]

having my mom call me kiddo over text when i'm sad is the closest i can get to a virtual hug i think

#boink #she also told me that if i can't fall asleep i should at least be productive and get work done lol #but anyway we're vibing #i am quite sad today tbh #actually more than quite sad lol #i am like the most sad #i am so lonely i feel like my chest has been hollowed out and filled with frigid lake water #lollllllllll

[rotisseries]

i think my zelink playlist is my only good one like this shit is devastating genuinely

#the one exception on there being I would do anything for love by meatloaf #which is a classic case of “I like this song so much that I'm gonna black out and insist it goes here anyway even if it maybe doesn't” #lyrically that song is fine its just that the rest of the playlist is sad indie shit so it fucks with the vibes a bit #anyway this post is kind of a lie my el and max ones are also good and also probably better than the zelink one #it's just that 99 percent of the time if I make a character/ship/feeling playlist I get like 4 songs in it #go “hmm I'll work on this more another time” and never touch it again. so. most of them suck #and that's part of the reason my entire spotify profile is private #but the zelink one. well it's technically also not done to me hence why I made it in may and then never sent it to gloomy #hi gloomy sorry gloomy #but it's like 2 hours long which in retrospect is I think a normal length for playlists but not to me not if it's you #2 hours is normal if you curate that shit I don't curate my ideal playlist is an 8 hour monstrosity with every song #that even briefly induces character feelings #so um. georgia by phoebe bridgers though #anyway I was actually listening to the zelink playlist today bc I was thinking about ANOTHER couple. um😐 #and it was genuinely getting rancid awful radioactive in my brain so I was like “FUCK THIS!! I NEED TO THINK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE” #and forcibly induced a zelink breakdown #prescribed 500 ml of zelinkism to combat The Diseases

[a-very-fond-farewell]

went to the flower fare 😔 saw a bunch of pretty women 😔 this was a mistake 👯‍♀️

#sneaky niki #lamb loose liveblogging #5am sads monday vibes folks #they be hitting #I don’t even want to date I’m too tired for that #I’m just sensitive to women in general leave me alone #also. missing my grandparents more and more these days #I could try to watch ‘the farewell’ to let my sadness out. but who’s gonna sleep on a stuffy nose then?? #anyway. topic of the day: #I’m fed up with ch16 #I think I’m only 4k in and idk how to move on #I should probably take a few days break #maybe find time to read or watch a movie #I still have 3body open on my tablet #but like. I’m never alone at home and that series is gorgeous it deserves a bigger screen #but mother watches gossip channels all day and father is still hooked on n/cis and.. I’m tired y’all #also I want to write about HDS and SDY watching old movies at home ;-; #it just hit me. how nice that would be?? #no mind games. no competitive streak. no knifing each other. #just.. watching movies in silence #maybe bickering at dinner about them #idk. maybe later in the fic. I think it would be neat #have a safe day today! and drink water too :)

[marcmorrigan]

the B in Beyond Birthday stands for baby boy. and also beautiful. and also blood. and also... Beyond Birthday

#beyond birthday #death note #another note #death note another note #my art #sketch #blood cw #i mean it could be jam. you dont know. #also. He Is Looking At L. #this is FRESH hot new art btw. i drew this Today #im still figuring out my Face for him and i could not for the life of ne decide if i wanted him to have eyebrows or not... my L does #so it doesnt really make sense for beyond to NOT have them prior to the. end. of DNAN. he does have no eyebrows after... well you know #the first concept i drew for him was of him in recovery and it was so scary that i had to stop working on it #and i turned that sketch layer on again when i finished this one and jumpscared myself SO bad... evil fucking drawing apparently #anyway. pretty happy with him! he looks like Himself... i dont like the idea that he and L are indistinguishable when hes Doing His Bit #hes supposed to look different even in his makeup but still very similar and i THINK i achieved that... i want them to have very #different faces but similar Vibes. yknow? #like i want the faces to be different but the energies to match #i see a lot of people make beyond Not Japanese which is kind of confusing to me like... is he not canonically japanese? the way he talks #to naomi seems to at least imply he is #regardless of canon! my beyond is lol. my L has japanese heritage as well but hes mixed and wasnt born in japan #my beyond was born in japan and was brought to wammys after L... he latched onto him right away lol. or at least tried to #he was in LOOOVE in love with L as soon as he saw him #they r very 'sandbox love never dies' to me... omg actually beyond/L jennifers body au would be so cute and funny #beyond birthday voice I Was The Snowflake Queen #BEYOND BIRTHDAY VOICE MY TIT... #anyway. anyway. i love him so so so much. hes really scary to me but also really sad and compelling #his dynamic with L is like. so. much. just. much to think about #MUCH to think about. when it comes to beyond birthday. and trust... i Will Think About Him.

[todayisafridaynight]

grabbing the ichi plush by the neck and death gripping it like 'good things are to come its all going to be ok good things are to come' like its a lucky amulet

#snap chats #i didnt even pre order the ichi plush but spiritually i did. good luck charm. #anyway rant time look away from here. Im At My Limit <- i say this every week #I DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS WRONG <- lying. my moms home #i just feel terrible again. i feel so awful i gave myself a headache from being upset #do you know how upset you have to be to give yourself a headache just sitting and thinking #that happened when i was taking a spanish test once but i think i was just so stupid my brain actually started to hurt trying to think #i also remember being sad as hell that day tho so....... maybe it was both #everyday it feels like im sad thats so fucked up and theres nothing i can do about it #ALSO IT'S RAINING AGAIN rain never promises anything good unless you're a plant #im working but i should have this done in. idk a few hours #and then its the weekend right.... there's no limitations for sadness though brother doesn't run on a schedule #unless we're talking about seasonal depression but we know what i mean #ew im supposed to go to that con tomorrow i dont even know if i want to go anymore #i just don't want to do anything anymore ig is the vibe #idk i have a journal to whine bout all this in ╮(╯-╰)╭ squeezing ichi plush is a mood tho so im still posting #maybe if i play a lil y7 ill remember theres good things to wake up for.. #also i gave myself another headache OWOWOWOW STOP when will it end #wait let me be sad again because my dad said we'd hang out today or tomorrow #but i just know that's not happening and now im even more sad WEHHH no one loves me etc etc die #sometimes you just need a melodramatic teenager moment i think we're all due that right like once a month #ok i have to stop my head really hurts ☠️☠️☠️

[theragamuffininitiative]

Me: ya know, I do have some recent interests that none of my mutuals share/are blogging about currently. I should go dig up some good posts for them!

Me: performs one (1) search for one (1) children's/family media

Tumblr: immediately returns one text post, then three fan arts, followed by a string of explicit porn ads.

Me:

Me:

Me:

Me: and this is why we can't have nice things.

#ragamusings #tumblr things #i'm stuck in the content on my dash alone which is great bc i follow awesome peeps but rip sharing new interests #anyways i'm almost finished watching hilda on netflix #i've been listening to so much new music lately too: #the collection and the brevet and the gray havens and christa wells are top faves rn #not that tumblr has ever showed any particular amount of interest in any musicians who are not #ts or mcr tbh #all the other shows i have loved recently have been oldies #combat! and adam 12 and mash primarily #maybe should really look into emergency next #also want to finish x files and band of brothers and fringe one dau #*day - but all of those have been too intense for me to binge lately #(don't ask how i binged through combat idk man it just hit right somehow) #and i'm not super into cartoon shows hilda is special bc yeah it gets weird but it overall is extremely chill and calming vibes #and very very few other cartoons are #like i tried gravity falls and no and i tried over the garden wall and may finish it but still no mostly #am just online to ramble today apparently #but that brief tumblr search was scarring and i am sad

[flyingspicerack]

psa to anyone reading this

#i am afraid of you #yes you #all of you im scared of everyone #all of you are big normal sized humans and i am a mere wet eyed kitten you dont see and will step on #goodbye i am gone #spice.txt #anyway i need to smoke a bowl before i fuck up todays vibes with my sad wehh wehhh attitude

[six-of-ravens]

as usual after a bad week my brain is like "you need to reinvent yourself!" so it keeps throwing ideas at me like "you should change your wardrobe, you'll be more human if you dress better!" and "also have you considered one of these 500 new hobbies" and "maybe you should dye your hair!"

anyway if I post something insanely stupid that I shouldn't have spent money on, the fake self-care demons got to me.

#i really wanted this dress i saw on ig but its. $445. #which like. its all hand-dyed and handmade and also the price was converted to CAD so like that's reasonable. but. #now im sad i can't impulse buy an elf dress #and I didn't like the ig post or follow the account so it's lost forever lol #anyway. was also thinking of getting back into jewelry making...the problem is i don't wear a whole lot of jewelry #and what i make is made with Michaels quality supplies so like. I can't exactly sell it #oh well i can make a dragon hoard of shiny shinies i guess #might actually dye my hair tho. it's been natural for mostly 2 years now so i think it's recovered enough that i can dye it again #and have the dye actually stick and not immediately wash out/all but the roots wash out so i have a weird red skunk-stripe #also need to trim my split ends which I've been meaning to do for a month now #anyway the Self Care But Only Badly And Aesthetically vibe is strong today

[camptw1nk]

feeling very 🧍‍♂️ may not be around for a bit

#its nothing tumblr related really its more just irl #a mix of being tired and having deadlines and not being able to make myself work #and the. kinda harsh switch in vibe in the house from last nights everyone hanging out having fun #to todays me alone cleaning up after everyone and knowing that the others are content doing their own thing and don't wanna hang w me #which like!! is fine im not expecting to be the center of their world its just. #idk we used to hang out every night watching a movie or some tv and laughing #and ever since i got back from my trip we just. we spend time together maybe once every 3 or 4 weeks and it takes me asking if they wanna #hang out like 3000 times before it ever happens and when it does there's just. theres a disconnect #and I think they just realized during the two months i was away that theyre. maybe a bit happier without me #or at least they find it easier to not hang out #like theyve got jobs now so obviously they dont have time the way they used to but its not just that theres been a Shift #i think they also might. kinda resent me for the trip and having that opportunity #which sucks bc i cant. do anything ab that i had no say in the trip i didnt want to go #and even saying that makes me very. like that feels like such a selfish arrogant thing to say to want to turn down a trip across the world #but everyone who was here during that trip knows that i spent the entire time dissociating and getting yelled at and suicidal so uh #i dont think its selfish to not have wanted to go when i Knew it'd end like that but i think they might think it was #ANYWAY this got depressing and sad i dont mean to bring shit here its just i literally only have 3 friends and 2 of them r these ones #and the other is so emotionally unavailable and doesnt really take mental health seriously so #ooc. #negative cw

[arcadiandeath]

crazy how it all never goes away

#miss her #best friend and my biggest crush for over half my life #wish we still talked like we did!! #saw this today in an old bday card and got very sad #obvs blacked out her face #ppl always used to ask me if i was in love w her or if i was a lesbian #sometimes nice and curious other times with disgust or that kind of... pointed making fun of you vibe #and it shocked me every time bc like....... how wld they know.... cld they smell it on me??? #anyways to all the girls in my life who struck my heart and made me feel loved !!! you are with me forever

[kanene-yaaay]

Thinking about,,,, them,,,,,

Kel and Sunny,,,,

#not even romantically or platonically I am just... thinking about their vibes together #it's about keep knocking on your childhood friend's door even when you haven't seen him for 4 years bc he will move away #it's just get so excited surprise and happy that he actually openend that you're happy to drag him around the city to walk around #and do mundane things that are so much more interesting than when he is alone #it's to keep hanging out with him on the next day and the next #it's about the comfortable quietness when you're no afraid to speak your mind #and taking the knife away from his hands because you shouldn't fight w it DFGHJKJHGF #it's just..... aaaahhhhh idk I have *feelings* for those two #Kel helped Hero when he was at his lowest and he didn't even hesitated to be right there for Sunny as soon as he openned the door #does he see a bit of Hero in Sunny's sluggishness? on the tiredness in his eyes? does he sees his own sadness being reflected- #-right back at him? #does he think about the old days or he rather focus on the happiness of being together on the *present*? #Is it nostalgic? good? bittersweet? to realize he can still talk and have fun with Sunny without being too awkward as #as if they haven't grown apart? #Kel-show-us-more-than-just-your-good-feelings-challenge #For some reason I am extremely tired today and I have like a bunch of fics on the drafts to finish but now I can't stop rambling about them #anyway #kanene being kanene #I wonder if after knowing the truth sometimes Hero look at Sunny and wonder 'what if it was me and Kel?' #bc sometimes I THINK about it and ...... my heart.... ouch.... #i need more fluff

[bloodstainedgown]

#lol i dont even want to poke anyone #and ruin their vibe #with my sadness #like whats the use yk #i hate this hehe #today was a bad sad yet a few good moment kind of day #but i wish i had a home #anyways #life #ig #fuck #Spotify