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cool-person-yey · 17 hours

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ok but what are the puter voices trying to say????

or: my theory on what the fuck Chester&Norris have going on

so first of all, the voices are trying to communicate with the OIAR through reading the incidents, that's something that basically everyone has noticed, now here's the thing: what are they trying to say?

we only got one Augustus case ( at the moment I'm writing this) so I'm gonna leave him out of this.

anyways, now to the good part, first off let's start with our favorite whiny little toad:

Norris

Norris speaks in episodes 1, 3, 8 and 12

my theory is that Norris is trying to warn them of the consequences their actions (and choices because this is the "at the end of the day, you just need to make a choice" podcast) could have.

in episode 1, this one's a bit obvious, but it shows the consequences ( only " some parts" of their loved one coming back) of them trying to get the person they loved back.

in episode 3, it shows the consequences ( the guy turning into a fucking tree) of the ' statement giver' ( can't think of a better name sorry) killing his ex.

in episode 8, this one I'm not 100% sure tbh, like yeah the consequence is the guy getting a part of their body eaten, but the cause I'm not so sure. maybe the fact they accepted to go in the building ( even if they didn't understand why they did it. something something even if the choices are shitty you still made a choice), or maybe something relating to the ex-wife they mentioned earlier in the incident? that'd be a bit of a far reach, but I'm not discarding anything. It could also be just the fact that they applied and got hired for the job.

in episode 12, the consequences ( whatever the fuck that was. I'm still not over that) of Gwen giving Mr Bonzo that envelope. do i even need to say anything else?

now, to our beloved Archivist Spooky Computer Voice!

Chester

Chester speaks in episodes 1, 5, 7, 9 and 11

my theory is that Chester is trying to warn them to not fucking mess with that type of stuff, and if you're going to, fucking be ready

in episode 1, this one's a bit obvious, RedCanary choosing to explore the magnus Institute, and that resulting in... well, we still don't know yet it but it sure as hell didn't go well. that was a very clear " do not go to the fucking magnus institute manchester" and what did they do? go to the fucking magnus institute manchester

in episode 5 a warning about being desensitized to horror, the characters ( especially Alice) have mentioned dozens of times how they just don't get scared that much anymore, that episode was showing that that isn't always a good thing. also the more obvious don't trust spooky shit but eh

episode 7 it's a bit tricky, I'd say it's a warning to either a) hiring new people (aka Celia? maybe Chester doesn't trust her? idk) or b) trusting people, just like, in general?

episode 9, a warning about making choices, and how ppl are gonna make shitty choices bc they're in shitty situations— but hey, at the end of the day, you still made a choice. or simply about Spooky Artefacts™

episode 11 this one seemed to be very much targeted at Alice, and it seems to be warning her about the paranoia that a paranormal experience can give you. And considering Alice's earlier comment about being followed, I'd say the tattoo being the boat bring hunted by something is definitely something to consider.

but well, this is just a theory, a magnus protocol theory.

seriously tho, i love this initial point of every series cuz i can just make up a lot of connections that in the future prob won't make sense but like, we don't have shit so might as well make up our own lmao.

that being said, maybe i got a few things right! only time will tell. my goal is to say as much random theories as i can until i get atleast one (1) thing right.

thanks for reading all of this, and if you have any addition that you'd like to make feel free!

#tmagp #tmagp spoilers #the magnus protocol #tmagp theory #tmagp speculation #tmagp norris #tmagp chester

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irkimatsu · 1 day

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Idk if you ever thought about this but how would Husk react if his S/O was super self-conscious about their body? Whether thinking they’re way too skinny or way too fat. I feel like you, as the Husk professional, would know how to answer this because I am the exact opposite of a Husk professional. Much better with Angel Dust tbh.

Oh, trust me, as a certified fatass I have thought about this constantly. How would Husk feel about body types that aren't traditionally attractive?

Thankfully for me, my immediate instinct is that he doesn't care so much - sure, he has some physical preferences, but personality wins over everything else. It's part of why he's not swayed by Angel's initial flirting, I feel. He acknowledges that Angel is physically attractive, but the tryhard flirting was way too much of a turnoff. Conversely, even if he's not immediately drawn to someone's physical appearance, getting to know someone on a deeply personal level will attract him far harder than initial appearance ever could.

Not to say he doesn't see anything attractive in those non-traditional body types, of course. I do headcanon him as liking some squish on a partner for my own personal enjoyment, after all. Especially in the ass department. Husk hates to see you go but he loves watching you leave.

As for self-consciousness... trust me, he knows self-consciousness. I can go with him either being too skinny or overweight; either body type is the result of his awful self-care, especially ever since he lost the bet with Alastor. He drinks too much alcohol, he doesn't eat enough, and what he does eat has no nutritional value whatsoever. Any physical stamina he still has is bolstered by his innate demon powers; his muscles have all atrophied by now. But at the same time, we already know how Husk feels about wallowing alone in self-pity.

"You're not the only one down here who hates their body. Look at what I've done with mine! I got a second body after I destroyed my living one, and now I've gone and fucked this one up too. Maybe your choices led to how you look now, or maybe you just got saddled with a shitty form down here... but either way, hating yourself for it isn't going to get you anywhere. Who even benefits from your self-pity, anyway? Predatory jackasses who wanna sell you shit with the promise that it'll change you?

...I hope you don't feel like you need to change your body just for me. I like ya just the way you are. Love at first sight ain't my style anymore, but after I got to know you... just knowing who you are makes you the most beautiful person I've ever seen, both up there and down here. And besides, I've shown you exactly how I feel about my favorite parts of you plenty of times, haven't I, baby? Maybe I should remind you some more later tonight...?

If you wanna change, I'll support you. I know change is hard - fuck I know it's hard - but I'll be here for you through all of it. You just need to promise me that you're not doing it because you think you're not good enough for me already. And you also have to promise me that you're not going to go buying some shady instant cure potions from the first scumbag you see on TV! You can't trust any of 'em!"

(Thanks for considering me a Husk professional, by the way! I try my best! <3 In turn, thank you for your service with Angel Dust! I try my best by him but I'm always terrified I'll fuck it up... he deserves the best writing I can give him, but I know there's aspects of his life I'll never fully understand and I should be fucking grateful that I don't...)

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel husk #hazbin husk #hazbin hotel x reader #hazbin hotel husk x reader #hazbin husk x reader #irk got asked a thing #irk blubbers about nothing #irk huskposts #irk talks to strangers

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iceeericeee · 5 months

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I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30?#idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do.#i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count?#I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post.#why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags*#it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows.#where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one.#this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can.#which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone.#thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really...#...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

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problemswithbooks · 1 year

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So, the Todoroki side plot got thrown in the garbage this chapter...

The less problematic stuff, aka, Geten being a Himura--pointless and just an excuse to explain the ass pull Hori pulls with the actually relevant characters. I think it's a neat that it turns out the Himuras were just as, if not more into Eugenics type shit than Enji. But besides getting a bit more background on Rei's family Geten being a Himura isn't important at all and really didn't need to be included.

As for the rest--it's trash and ultimately could end up with the Todoroki subplot's theme endorsing abuse.

I've seen people defend Touya getting ice as a power up as it proving Enji wrong--proving that Touya was always good enough. Maybe that could have worked if his ice came out only once he was accepted by Enji and at peace, but instead it's the opposite. We are told a Quirk break through happen when people are put in life or death situations. Touya is getting his ice after burning himself into a black skeleton.

Touya getting ice does the following:

Makes Enji right about the Quirk marriage. He and Rei produced a perfect combo first try and later got a second.

Enji was wrong to stop training Touya when he started to burn himself, and instead he should have just dialed up the training and tortured him worse than Shoto because that's what would unlock his ability.

The narrative is essentially saying child abuse is good actually. Again, because Quirks only awaken like this if the person is under extreme duress, if Enji had kept training Touya, but in a way where he didn't burn himself that wouldn't have unlocked his ice. Touya would still be stuck with his handicap and unable to reach his full potential. He wouldn't have become the perfect combo. Enji being non-abusive wouldn't have solved this problem.

The only thing that would have made Touya what Enji wanted is if he'd abused him more physically. If he'd kept training Touya and forced him to burn himself to the bone. Essentially his abuse would be rewarded.

The story is saying that if Enji had just stuck with it, and ignored Touya's physical pain than he would have gotten exactly what he wanted. Yet, instead he stopped the training Touya because it was dangerous for him. He should have spent time in other ways, developed a relationship outside fighting, but that's not the message Hori sends with turn of events.

It also just ruins any growth Touya could have had. He no longer has to see beyond his Quirk. It robs him of realizing that his father should have loved him regardless of his Quirk and more about Enji not seeing him for the perfect boy he always could have been if his father had just set him on fire at four years old. Touya's no longer wrong about anything--his dad should have kept training him, he should have been beat the way Shoto was. If his dad really loved him he would have let Touya burn his skin off.

To me the way Hori has included this power up for Touya ruins the subplot. Whether Hori intended it of not, it's now possible to read it as supporting abuse and self harm. Your kid can't do a thing because they're disabled--keep making them, eventually, once you beat the shit out of them enough they'll be the perfect kid you always wanted. Can't do a thing because you're disabled and it hurts you--keep doing it, even to the point of full body break down because in the end you'll achieve your goal.

It's become "See dad, you should have loved me because I was perfect the entire time!" instead of "it doesn't matter what your kids can do, you should love them anyway".

#bnha 387 #bnha critical #bnha spoilers #bnha #mha #idk this really rubs me the wrong way #and I feel bad because it feels like an over reaction #but it really does seem like it sends a bad message at this point #because Touya's power wouldn't have been unlocked by Enji being a good father #it only would have come out f he'd been abused the same way shoto was #and it makes Touya 100% right about keeping up his self harm #heck it's been pointed out by his fans that his aim is to kill himself right now #and he is going to be rewarded with the thing he always wanted by trying to commit suicide #that's not sending a good message #idk I'm just so disappointed #I wanted Hori to show Enji and Touya for weeks #but now I really hope we focus anywhere else because even if the rest of the fights are boring #they aren't saying child abuse and self harm are good solutions actually #and it's just sad because I know that's not what he wants the take away to be #but he accidentally did it anyway

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maddy-ferguson · 1 year

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i feel like the fact that barely anyone who watches the show thinks of will as the main character might be indicative of the fact that he isn't

#and like i say: brf slt #just realized i said the fact twice. this was worded differently at first #i'm very sorry #(not about the the fact thing about the will mc thing)#if you ask anyone who the main character is after seasons 3 and 4 they'll say el #it's not the el show and will is just as if not more important to the supernatural plotline like obviously nothing would've happened if he #hadn't gone missing and he has a connection to vecna no one else has and #everyone's love for him is basically what makes all of s1 happen #but he's literally not there. i've seen people watch the show for the first time recently and guess who was the main character to them #while they were watching the first two seasons? mike! literally elliott in E.T and the YA protagonist in the middle of a love triangle why #does everyone take his main boy status away from him...we first meet the characters at HIS house in HIS basement we see HIS family first #it's HIM we follow all throughout season 1 in the kids part of the show basically like idk #yes he's not el and he's not will in terms of connection to the supernatural but like #in seasons 3 and especially in season 4 you don't really think of him as the main character anymore but literally no one but bylers think #of will as the main character like i'm just saying. i don't think trying to pick a definite main character makes sense anyway because #there's kind of a shift around season 3 where it becomes...the el show. even if it doesn't not really. but it's not like people are crazy #and Media Illiterate for thinking that the biggest character on the posters whose actress is the biggest star and who gets paid the most is #the main character. don't people complain 24/7 about how little screentime will got in seasons 3 and 4 like obviously that would lead to #people...not seeing him as the main character #anyway. to me in seasons 1 and 2 it's between mike and el honestly and if you add seasons 3 and 4 then el #even though will is just as important like i said. it's just very different #but honestly in season 1 it's totally mike to me it's only in season 2 that i would start to hesitate #there's also joyce but i don't think anyone's saying joyce is the main character but yk i don't know if you know this but it's an ensemble #show...#it's definitely the willel show in a sense but...#mike is the protagonistest protagonist in season 1 how do people forget that #having to fight for your life to convince people that will is the main character kind of proves that he isn't😭#and i still think he's the most important which doesn't make sense i know but idk it makes sense to me

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sibelin · 1 year

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i am so close to give up on tumblr entirely 😅

#the anons being shitheads already made me think i should've gone long ago #but i'm not really having fun anymore idk #i keep venting more and more because i have nowhere else to vent but i also see how it impacts my image here yk #and i'm trying to be positive and to reach out to people and just...be there for everyone #then realize i am a total stranger and probably very annoying to most of you #and i feel bad for it even though it's genuine #i'm not going to delete or anything but it all feels very empty #(and i'm not fishing for compliments/replies. i'm just saying what's on my heart!)#anyway good night <3

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holydivers · 8 months

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saw someone in a youtube comment complaining about 'astarion's "Nice Guy™" behavior' and like. there are many complaints one can make about him but where on earth are you getting that

#also it's not a secret that he doesn't especially care about tav as a person at the start. or...anyone else #he doesn't even try particularly hard to be likeable. if you say he's lying when he throws out the 'ilu' early on he's like 'lmao yep'#and then someone else 'oh in his questline in act 3 you see what a pos he is' ok i'm still in act one but uhhh. buddy #this isn't like. news? he keeps nagging me bc rescuing innocent civilians is cringe or whatever #not a Subtle Manipulator revealing that he was evil all along #anyway all the other comments were people gleefully talking about staking him. ok i guess idk why you're so worked up about this #amazingly different reactions on tumblr vs youtube #gale is also exploiting you while still obsessed with his ex but apparently no one's mad about that #bg3 #luke plays bg3

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townofcrosshollow · 1 year

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Idk man if you're constantly talking about your crushing loneliness and feelings of being ostracised and left out when you ostensibly have a bunch of friends around you then maybe the feelings of loneliness aren't the problem there

#i would always feel really empty and distant and 'act out' after our hangouts #and i always framed it as like 'i get the high when i'm around people and then i crash afterwards'#and didn't really consider that maybe sitting in a vc for 4 hours feeling left out while other people have fun is just soul sucking #it was always framed as my behaviour that was the problem. 'you did this and you did that.' so i just kinda internalized that #if i felt like shit it must be my fault. everybody knows i'm the one who causes problems so i'm just causing more problems #if i say that something made me uncomfortable and the response is 'i wont make accomodations and how dare you even ask' it must be my fault #idk. we filled out consent forms in the game i'm really not excited to play and i was reminded that nobody ever asked my consebt #and when i tried to advocate for myself and voice that i wasn't consenting it was treated like i was causing problems by trying to say that #and i saw that as a reasonable reaction at the time cause i had been so deeply convinced that i was broken and horrible #that if i was trying to revoke my consent or even just negotiate it then i was ruining everything for everybody else #that if i was uncomfortable with what was going on i needed to just shut up and live with it #i wish i had realized that and dropped out months ago. maybe that could have preserved some semblance of my relationships with those people #far too late for that now. i'm trying to accept that #and all that effort was wasted anyway #i tried to say once that i was putting in a massive amount of effort and i felt like nobody was recognizing that fact #and i still kind of feel that way #i put hours of mental energy into trying to be enough for people who kept demanding more from me and kept giving me less in return #did that do me any good or did it just cause me 3 months of grief and an empty bank account from therapy?#the problem is that i still wish things had turned out better even though i know i had no control over that #if i had kept advocating for myself it just would have been over far faster. i guess that might have spared me a bit of money #if i tried to talk about the problems it would have just been dismissed with some quick quippy therapy phrase amounting to 'not my fault'#we're already living in the universe where i put all my effort into changing in the ways i was told to change and look how well that went #idk. the attitude was never 'let's fix the problems.' it was always 'you need to fix it.' and then when i did it was #'now there's a new problem. fix that one too. and this one. and that one.'#and to do all that work for somebody and then be told they thought you never even cared about them. man it just stings #idk. it's in the past now. but i can't build new relationships. i'm trying and it's impossible #i try meeting new people and they all suck. i try strengthening relationships with old people and they all get too busy or leave.#the only reason i post these things on tumblr is cause i don't have anybody else to talk to about it #the only person i could talk to has their own shit going on. there really just isn't anybody else #personal

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retiredcultistredux · 9 months

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((when you can't draw circles but literally every character you ever draw has at least one circle in their design so you end up with circles with the most wobbly fuckin lines ever. also read the tags pls))

#hOPEFULLY YOU GUYS DON'T MIND IT...#idk if you even notice #there's no editing the line tool for binary tool cause it's not like. sai lineart layer #that would take even longer to do. so i just do binary tool #which is done by hand aka by dragging my mouse around #so that's why it's wobbly #i zoom in to draw the lines and try to make em smooth but. yeah lol. i got the hand shakies #anyway this is me saying i'm working on it. we get this plot point then not much else before chap 2 #hell i. might take tomorrow (friday) off for a little more wiggle room and slight planning time #would that be ok??? i'm indecisive #cause this is like the last thing i wanna do before chap 2. i know how i want the chapter to start #wHATEVER i'll. decide by tomorrow. then saturday is the kickoff of chapter 2 #or like the start #you know what i mean

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caricature-of-a-witch · 10 months

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I'm supposed to be on semester summer break but I am still suffering from academia and failing to write essays can I please just stoppp

#Ash's ramblings #I am so tired of this #I am. so bad at essays. I'm bad at focussing I'm bad at research I'm bad of connecting the research into a coherent argument #this thing is due on the 10th and I've still not even been able to decide what I even want to focus on I can't make sense of anything #I shouldn't be on tumblr I should be working on this but every time I try it just results in staring blankly at the wall after 5 minutes #and trying not to cry bc clearly. Clearly I Am Just Too Stupid For Academia Why Am I Even Trying I should Just Give Up #'oh you said that with all the past essays as well so far and you always got good grades!' yeah but this isn't all the past essays #this is a new essay with a completely new and different task and I do not know what to do #in fact. I barely know what I was doing in past essays either. couldn't explain my last syntax essay to you for the life of me #did I get a good grade? yes! Did I actually understand what I was saying? barely! do I want to just give up? yes!!#but then what else to do with my life I have no skills no talents nothing #...#time to stop spiralling on tumblr and get back to the source of that huh #ignore me I know I'm doing this a lot lately just. ignore me idk how to help me either I'm still stuck in the late teens/early 20s panic #and unlikely to ever escape it lol bc I think by now I'm supposed to have found sth I'm good at but here we are lol #anyway! anyway.#tbd

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gentlethorns · 11 months

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fuck dude i have got to find a job where i can be self-employed and creative. i cannot be in fucking retail hell anymore

#she bork #tbd #like now i don't deal w customers which is cool but now that i work at like a big retail store and not a little mall outlet the pressure is #insane. and i have bosses who never say good job or thank you and who have set me up to fail by throwing a department on me that i was not #hired to run or trained for and frankly don't have time to run properly either. so every week just starts w me in our weekly meeting being a #fucking piñata like 'why didn't you get this done 🤨 you need to manage your time better 🤨 you're losing sales 🤨' and i'm like i'm trying!!!!#what more can i do!!!!!! and then the side of it i actually kind of enjoy (which is what i was originally hired to do) is very very hard on #my body bc it's a very physical job (i run the team that unloads the trucks every day and like i'm usually helping unload bc i'm not just #gonna stand there and watch while my team busts their asses lol) and now i'm finding out that it's actually not normal to wake up every day #w your joints screaming and stiff and that i might have a chronic condition (doctor is thinking some sort of chronic inflammatory arthritis #but i won't know if my imaging and blood tests showed anything until like mid-june) and i'm like. so even the part of my job that i don't #mind as much is not good bc it's like actively destroying my body. okay sick 🤠 and i don't wanna quit bc i've only been there for like #eight months and this job would be really valuable on a resume but i don't want it to look like i'm a job hopper or like i'm fickle or #unreliable. so i'm stuck here for a while i think. but the pressure is destroying me mentally and i know i need to find a position somewhere #else that is 1. not fucking goddamn retail bc retail will always be hell and 2. not management bc i don't see myself ever really getting #into upper management but lower/middle management gets shit on the most so if i go somewhere else and end up in middle management i'll be #right back to wanting to kill myself in a matter of months. basically i'm tired of expectations and pressure and stress and i'm tired of #waking up at fucking 2:30 every morning just to go in and get shit on and destroy my body all over something that in the end i do not fuckin #care about. i need to make art and be held accountable by only myself. idk i've been toying w the idea of learning how to tattoo and trying #to start establishing some artistic skill so maybe eventually i can do that? not now bc the economy sucks and that's scary lol and anyway i #have to give myself some time to actually learn the skill and perfect a style. but it makes decent money (at least before the expense of #supplies and taxes) and allows you to travel and still work and also it would be fun. and i could tattoo myself so it would cut some #expenses for me since i cannot stay away from the damn needle. idk lol i need to save some money before i buy a tattoo gun or anything but #i'm considering it bc i am going fucking crazy rn and ik this feeling will leave me eventually but i also know it will come back bc it #always does. and i'm tired of just surviving and just making it through every day and every week like i want to be happy and this is just #not doing it for me anymore #ugh fuck why couldn't i have been born w a brain that likes numbers and code and technology. i love being an artist but it makes finding a #sustainable career really difficult bc i feel so restless and miserable when i'm stuck in a passionless job but my passions are not #particularly profitable. hate it here why wasn't i born a capybara no job no responsibility just squint and squeak and sun

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elytrafemme · 1 year

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ive been wavering back and forth recently on whether or not i like dudes still (which now is probably the worst time for me to debate that because there are a lot of uh confounding factors to say the least with my life situation rn). but ultimately it’s like. okay if i do and ?

i’m a lesbian and i love women so fucking much. i also share a consciousness with a queer man who loves men and we share romantic experiences in a sense so sometimes i like men in a guy way too. my gender identity is really fucking complex entirely on its own. sometimes i maybe like guys but lesbian still feels like a better term for me because i connect with the community and also loving women has felt like an integral part of my life while liking men is a special bonus. obviously nonbinary people fit in here where they fit in. and! yeah :D

#nightmare.personal #it's just. it's nice because as i've slowly started talking about. more and more but am trying to be careful about mentioning #attraction has become really complicated for a lot of reasons. nowadays a lot of it has to do with certain coping mechanisms #where i find myself flirting with a guy without being attracted to him just attracted to what role he could have in my life #but all's that to say that even with that shit it's good to have something solid here #i love women and i'm a lesbian and everything else will come as it comes.#and also loving nonbinary people kind of depends on the nonbinary person bc #gender presentation and all that differs and also i'm pretty selective with my actual attraction anyway #albeit all the people i have seriously felt attracted to recently were they/she/hes like me :]#idk if this makes sense my brain. gets scattered w this stuff

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astrxealis · 1 year

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anyways. in any case. fuuta's song is FIRE.