just gently putting it out there that 'anthony' 'james' 'i... i...' 'i know' and the holding hands of it all implies that there's a LOT that has gone on behind close doors. they've said each other's names like that before, even though in front of the other men it was always 'sir' 'lieutenant'. havers knows what cap was going to say. he's heard it before.
i am insane. i am but a rabid dog. i am clawing, scratching, biting at the walls. i am shedding tears. i am throwing up. i am hooping, hollering, screaming, wallowing in my own filth. i need a moment.