#and they're still valuable

[inkskinned]

you get used to it, but it's tiring, because they need you to understand your own life as a series of goalposts. what college are you going to, what's your major going to be, whatcha gonna do with that, oh where will you settle down, when can i expect grandkids.

for the longest time my goals have been so blurry that they track into each other, their undefined edges slipping quietly back into the soft night. today i want to be a writer; tomorrow i will want to be a doctor, later i will wish i took that law school free ride. how the fuck do people just know what they want to do with their life?

where do you want to be in five years? i want to be alive; which is a huge step for me. ten years ago i would have said i want to be asleep and meant i hope that i'm dead by then.

but i want a yellow kitchen and a stand mixer. i want a garden and a fruit tree (cherry, if i can make that happen) and a big yard for my dogs to play in. i want to come home and read poetry out loud to someone and have them close their eyes to listen. i want a summer watergun fight. i want to make snowmen. i want to be the house to go to for halloween. i want my life to settle around me in a softness, for it to lay down gently. if i am very, very, very lucky, i want to travel; finally go someplace overseas.

of course i don't know what i want to be doing professionally. what i actually want to be doing is curling up beside my dog, settling in to read. i want to be making myself a cup of good coffee.

i can't answer the other questions. whenever people asked me what do you want to be when you grow up, i used to say i hope i'm happy.

i hope i'm still kind, five years from now. i hope i never get jaded and mean. i hope i have stayed in therapy. what do you picture yourself doing? when will you actually be an adult about this? why are you so afraid of being ambitious?

am i not ambitious? the other day i rearranged my furniture which doesn't quite fit into my apartment. i watered my plants. i'm going to try to propagate a cherry seed. my five year goal is to spend more time laughing. to lie down in a patch of sunwarm moss. to relax for a minute. to close my eyes and think oh thank god. this is why i stayed. this is finally it.

#writeblr #warm up #something something something took a lot of words to say #um my goals are really specific quiet things #and they're still valuable #bc i used to literally only have the goal of <3 bad things <3 #i was like ''who needs to picture the future? imma head out before then" #good news!!!!!!!!!!! ur in the future!!!! and u stayed!!! and thank god u did bc u actually fucking made it kid!!

[martyrbat]

alexa play gary come home :((

#pens lb #i miss him.... #i know playing a goalie while hes hot is a thing. i know that. but whats the long-term plan here? you're going to have #ned still increasing his chances of injuries and fatigue AND a goalie who hasnt played in weeks #its unfair to ned and its setting jarry up to be a scrapgoat in important games #like im not a big fan of the bruins but theyve been doing the right thing in actually alternating their goalies every other game #so the other gets to rest while staying sharp and they're both well experienced. #jarry has 6!!!! shutouts!!!! and thats while being the goalie for the fucking pittsburgh penguins! #you KNOW he can play. you know hes good. why are you purposely setting him up to fail. #and ned has been wonderful! i was so nervous he was going to be traded after not being played for a good bit. i love my eyebrows boy and am #so happy and proud he's been having these opportunities to show how good and valuable he is to this team #but overworking him to such an extent is (once again) setting him up to fail just as much as its setting jarry up to be that scrapegoat #mike sullivan i am shaking you by the shoulders demanding to know what the fuck has been up with these lineups lately

[chr0n1c-ag0ny]

I think Bram and Lovecraft should find a (probably haunted) ship that just drifts out in an anomalous and liminal, to put it frankly, odd, bit of sea, forever a drift, surrounded by nothing but fog, no wind, no rain, no waves, no storms, just quiet. I think they should hole up there and sleep for a couple hundred years. yeah. I think that would be nice.

#bramcraft #I need them to be the new Bermuda Triangle #like #sailors are scared shitless when the waves disappear all of the sudden and a still fog rolls in and there's no wind #sightings of mysterious beings and retellings Eldritch cries and songs are all that return to land #no one ever sees the ship and survives #there's no wind. you're stuck in irons. once your stuck you don't get out. #I think that'd be cool for them #meanwhile they're just napping and Lovecraft is doing the bear minimum to keep them undisturbed and his husband fed #they're surrounded by gold and antiques and valuables but they just don't care #bram stoker #bram bsd #bsd bram #hp lovecraft #bsd lovecraft #lovecraft bsd #bsd #bungo stray dogs #they'd kiss messy and with tongue #those cries and songs is just them having old gay sex #they're living their best lives

[silvermoon424]

Cynical Reviews just dropped a video on an anti-choice propaganda film called "Unplanned" and I cannot believe the balls they had to blatantly lie like this. Actually, I can, because pro-lifers will eat up any anti-abortion propaganda you put in front of them.

I love how this movie deifies the protestors who stand outside of Planned Parenthood and scream "WHORE!!! MURDERER!!!" at teenage girls who are just there for a pap smear or whatever. All while making PP staff look like heartless monsters who laugh about dead babies and force abortions on unwilling girls. I honestly have nothing but disgust for propaganda like this.

#I know some dumbass conservatives are gonna reply and be like 'IT'S NOT PROPAGANDA IT'S THE TRUTH' #pro-life people are really easy to manipulate because they're entirely driven by faith and emotion #and normally I'll defend the merits of faith and emotion but their problem is that they think their beliefs should be forced on everyone #it is a really hard topic to discuss because they literally WILL NOT budge from 'this bean-sized fetus is just as valuable as a newborn' #I know because I used to be like this and it was only when I became more and more of a leftist did I question my beliefs #I also went to Catholic school so the anti-abortion propaganda was INTENSE and I'm not surprised most of my peers probably still believe it #abortion #pro choice #reproductive rights #reproductive justice #Youtube

[snekdood]

i hope all the terfs looking at my blog rn are able to grab me a beer and maybe make me a sandwich perhaps while they’re at it

#im sorry its so hard to not want to be misogynistic to them in a jokey way about it #i mean- if they're gonna keep pretending im a woman i gotta keep reminding them im not /jk #its just that so many of them are white cis women who have no real problems. its hard to not want to remind them that oppressing ppl like #me isnt about to change the fact that plenty of cis men still only see them as objects #like idk bitch maybe if you actually shut up with your transphobia and worked with other oppressed minorities we wouldnt have red pillers #out and about. but naw. your attachment to your womanhood is too important ig. #more important than stopping your actual oppressors. #yall would rather uphold white supremacy than do any meaningful change for women. #otherwise maybe you'd actually listen to us when we talk about shit that effects BOTH os us- trans people and women alike. #its almost like enforcing the binary is entirely counterintuitive to your actual fucking goals of equality #its almost like reinforcing the binary back to cis men and pretending its valuable only reinforces to them their misogyny and idea #that men and women are entirely different species #its almost like your insistence that theres a binary actually doesnt serve you at fucking all and actually only AIDS in your oppression. #whatever happened to 'gender equality'? or is that too trans friendly for you now #ig women cant do everything men can do #imagine calling yourself a feminist and genuinely believing this

[icewindandboringhorror]

There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.

#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz #ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and #then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc. #Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific #cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or #etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as #you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on #accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have #as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence #of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate #versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a #neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest #ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling #and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for #documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like #sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I #can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If #I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my #ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ?? #Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be #accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor #focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it #were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan #that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is #some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my #kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means #i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m #in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in #one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability #& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER

[aloeverawrites]

I would always rather be strange and kind, then acceptable and cruel.

#Is this about me seeing humans as equal to other animals? #mayhap. #like I might do more to help humanity then anyone else but I don't think we're inherently better then everyone else #It's like how you put your family before people you don't know #they're more valuable to you but you still have to treat others with respect/kindness #animal rights #vegan for the animals

[darkmagicmirror]

I was trying to figure out why Callum specifically holding onto the potion and waiting until Claudia saw it and asked for it back before he emptied it out reminded me of a typical Disney villain vibe actually and then it hit me

Like okay sure, you're fighting your enemy, but then he also waited until she saw him for sure, she said something about it, and then he opened it?? Why??? 😭

(If you don't know who the cat is: 1. You're missing out, and 2. It's Yzma, the main villain/antagonist in the Emperor's New Groove, and she has the potion the main character needs to go back to being a human)

Ironically it's a reverse situation not only because one is a protagonist and the other is an antagonist, but one has a potion that changes the other person's body to be less human-like, while the other has a potion that changes the other person's body back to being human.

Both potions help the person who would use them, though. For survival, or for going back to a normal life. (And Claudia's also trying to go "back to normal" in the sense that her goal is to keep her dad alive.)

Anyway this post wasn't supposed to be that serious, but it just baffles me

#tdp #the dragon prince #I'm not saying he's a villain because they're obv not making him be a villain #but the taunting someone with something valuable to them before destroying it in front of them is #hmm #usually not a good thing #I don't think Yzma destroyed it but she was going to drink it herself? or almost dropped it for sure #I haven't seen that movie in ages lmao #anyway regardless of tropes or comparisons I don't understand Callum's logic here #also yes Claudia taunts Rayla in a similar way in S4 but then she specifically does NOT destroy the item #she makes it look like she's destroying the decoy #then when Rayla finds out it was a trick she leaves #with the coins-- still not in the hands Rayla wants them in #but they're undamaged! #in this case Claudia is severely injured #and I have more theories on the potion thing contributing to that but #talking in the tags too much now lmao #this is all beside the point #also yes I'm reposting posts from Twitter onto here lmao #my posts

[arsonist-chicken]

my flatmates texted me in the morning to tell me to leave the balcony door open when I leave and put up the scent dispenser, and I texted back that I'm not leaving the balcony door open unattended for hours, in winter, while no one is at home, and also that they can take their dispenser out of my room but otherwise, I don't want them to go inside but that of course, the person looking at my room can go inside and look around, and the text I got back was "right and we should just wait outside while they're inside 😂🙄" like yeah?? that's how this works?? it's my room and my privacy and I decide who goes inside?? and it's one room, it's not like the people looking at it need a tour guide?? I mean I have pretty much nothing personal up anymore except my calendar and the books on my nightstand and my plushies but yeah?? it's still my room and I decide who goes inside and they have no reason to go inside anyway??

On a more positive note, I can move into the dorm tomorrow already so tonight is my last night here 🥳🥳🥳 I've packed the decorations and stuff and put it in a locker by the train station so that I can pick up my keys tomorrow while already bringing toiletries etc and bed linen etc and maybe a few clothes, put that in my room, and then go get the decorations and put them up tomorrow already because decorations/pictures of friends are the most essential part I think to make a room yours and make you feel comfortable there, and then I'll do some administrative stuff tomorrow afternoon and sleep in my new room and go back on friday to pack up more stuff and sleep in my new room again and get the rest of my stuff on saturday 🥳 and then hopefully I'll have a new renter soon so I can block their stupid numbers and have one final rant about how exhausting this has been and how much they suck etc and then I'll finally be able to focus on my studies again more because I won't constantly be anxious and on edge and have my head full with those two 🥳

#i'm very fucking protective of my privacy and private space and you can rip that out of my cold dead hands #and then I'll still claw my way back to it by my nails if I have to #how would THEY like it if I just went into their rooms and looked around huh?? #'are you scared we'll steal anything' no I know they're not that dumb and I took the most valuable stuff to a locker by the train station #already anyway. but it's still MY PRIVATE SPACE and I don't want people I can't stand inside it ffs #jess' flatmate rants

[dangerliesbeforeyou]

just saw an artist post something w/ the caption 'if u like this but don't reblog it ill block u' and im like ........... babe fucking WHat????

Look, I Get hating people only liking ur stuff but that's a sure-fire way of getting people to not interact w/ ur art at all, OR only do it out of obligation... idkidk this just rubbed me the wrong way lol

#personal #like ive definitely used these kinda guilt trippy tactics in the past and im NOT proud of it #but to be so blatant? and petty?? idk idk... #also sometimes people like cos they're reblogging it later or adding it to a queue or saving it to their favs or whatever #like i knowthe popular consensus on tumblr is 'likes are useless' but they rly arent lol #/just/ likes on a post /are/ useless in getting the post a decent number of notes #but theyre still valuable imo and i never want to begrudge anyone liking but not reblogging my stuff! #idk ... people are just fucking weird lol

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

currently oscillating between "how fucking DARE you score me 8/10 on grammar (meaning there were minor GRAMMAR AND SPELLING ERRORS, which there patently were NOT)" and "oh thank god you did, actually, because that gives me very definitive proof that you're full of shit and therefore i shouldn't value the rest of your feedback too highly"

anyway. did not make it to the finalist round of that first page contest, but At Least I Tried

#text #personal #writing #this was one of those microprojects from february btw #in btw #driscoll #rell #tide locked #i was Correct in that rell scored higher than driscoll did so that was validating!! #and the three lines of feedback i got on rell were encouraging and valuable lol #the driscoll lines were Not but. again. #if you think there were grammatical errors in that youre full of shit 🤣 #im still waiting to hear back from apex about the microfic #im 79 in the queue!! #i really thought i'd've heard about that by now #but they're still within their window so its fine #anyway i got boba and two books about it AND #i figured out that my weepiness and joint pain is probably withdrawal related from my steroid lmaoooo #love solving mysteries

[allyphase]

she wanders onward, never to arrive (or, why mark isn't in fe6)

Hello TOA,

I anticipate this getting long so I’m just going to put it on the dash instead of clogging the headcanons channel. This is the Red official headcanon for why Mark isn’t in FE6, besides the fact that avatars are an FE7 invention. Spoilers for FE7 follow. 

I’ll save the cliffhanger - I believe by the time FE6 begins, Mark is dead, or at the very least uncontactable. She’s not present in the story because she can’t be there, not because she doesn’t want to be. The how she gets there is the interesting part to me, not the end goal.

One of Mark’s few canon traits is that she’s a wanderer. She never settles in one place for long, and her time with Lyn, Eliwood, and Hector is the longest she’s ever devoted herself to anything when she had the choice to leave. She doesn’t run away, but she can’t stay idle. To her, there’s always more to learn, more to see, and in the back of her mind she’s afraid that Bern is still somehow looking for her. It’s said she goes to wander after Lyn’s adventure, and only crosses paths with Eliwood and Hector by chance. So, I think it makes sense after the events of FE7, she’d pack her things and leave Pherae. It’s said in the game that Eliwood ascends roughly a year after the final map ends, and I do think Mark would stay nearby while Eliwood prepares to take on this new role, but she leaves just after his ascension. I don’t think she ever stays in one place that long again. 

Mark’s path can best be described as a spiral - at first, she comes back to visit her friends every few months. She brings tales of far off adventure and research, endless new knowledge of tactics, wildlife, the very basics of anima magic. Then, the stretch of time is a year with no word. She says she was in Etruria, holed up in a library for far too long. She’s gone in the night, because she’s never gotten better at saying goodbye. Three years, with no word. She only stops to see Eliwood and Hector because she happened to be walking through their territories. Eventually, she just... stops showing up. It’s not out of resentment, or a want to isolate herself - it’s just that she cannot stay grounded, ever. Even when she spends a month with her friends, recovering after a particularly hard journey, her eyes are always on the horizon, her map is always wet with new ink.

And one day, word ends. Rumors of her appearance fade. Suddenly, it’s been longer than it’s ever been with no sign of her coming back. New rumors begin - bandits, magic gone wrong, another realm she fell into. Whatever happened, she’s not returning. By the time the epilogue scene happens 15 years after Eliwood’s ascension, Mark hasn’t been seen for years. By then, I think the rumors have resolved down to “Mark is gone.” 

It’s up to her castmates whether they searched for her at all, especially since she all but vanished after Eliwood’s ascension. Actually, please talk to me about how your muses felt about Mark’s disappearance. I’d love to talk about how she’s awful at this. 

I think something that complicates this is that Mark isn’t one to ride on her reputation. After leaving Pherae, she wants to lay low as a simple traveler, and that makes it a lot harder for anyone to track her down. It also, unfortunately, contributes to why she isn’t talked about at all in FE6. Her reputation after the war fell into legend, and when she stopped showing up, that’s all she was. A story, something to embellish the legends of Lyndis, Eliwood, and Hector. The shadow behind them, eyes turned skyward. Eventually, Mark’s name falls from the story, and her reputation gets even more stretched away from her. By the time the epilogue scene happens, Mark’s been all but dropped from the story, and if she’s spoken about at all, it’s either by people who knew her or as a separate legend of an unbeatable tactician. 

As for what specifically happened to her, I think she was ambushed by bandits and killed on the road. She never is a fighter herself, and I think she really has a bad time with anima magic. She’s able to learn basics by that time, but placing one low level mage with a fire tome in a ring of brigands is going to give you a reset. In TOAverse, she will eventually begin to learn reason magic, but I am not going to make it easy for her. For now, she’s on the authority grind! 

As always, I’d love to talk about this more with other Elibe muns. Also if there’s some amount of canon I missed, please ping me to yell at me and I’ll thank you forever. If you made it here, thanks for reading! 

Final wordcount - 828 words

#she wanders onward never to arrive #(meta) #within sadness (ooc) #YIPPEE #i feel so ill #mark appeals to me for so many reasons but one of them is that she does so so much for the rgb lords and somehow #she's still forgotten by history because she didn't really stick around #even her name gets lost and confused #and i think that just #augh #this wounds the red #please no one be a smartass and be like well actually mark isnt in fe7 because fe6 came first I KNOW THAT #im trying to take the meta and turn it into something in universe #because they didn't have to make mark #they really didnt #and she can be skipped entirely! #so she's not like. crucial #and thats so important to me #red muse types - people who believe they're only valuable for one thing #and people forgotten by history #sorry to write a novel in the tags im so normal #the fe6 post

[iniquity-fr]

i don't understand what counts as an old dragon or how that influences selling price at all and i wish i did bc i have a couple 5-8 year old things to get rid of and no idea if they should go up for kinda high or if i might as well just chuck them up onto the AH for normal price or what

#one of them is an 8 year old xxy unbred imp hatched on leap day. does that matter. is he valuable. i dont know #ive made posts about this before and not gotten any response so im throwing another post out into the void i guess #5 yr old unbred xmas hatch wcm too... not g1s obvs but still #they're all still 8digits. idk #i dont understand what does or doesn't add value to dragons besides g1 status and being unbred </3 #ive been wanting to get rid of a few dragons for literal months at this point but havent yet bc i dont know. how to price them. at all

[supercantaloupe]

HLL i am begging you to quit while you've still got some ahead. Also ripping out a theater seats isn't original or special

literally. you'll never be great comet. you'll never even be cabaret. give up girl! no one wants you! if people want to go to a nightclub they're not gonna pay broadway musical ass prices for a ticket.

#and who wants to pay that to watch someone else sing karaoke anyway? #i don't care if they're the most highly talented singers in the world. it goes against the essence of live music performance #and live musical theater #like. i am a pit musician. i'm not industry but still #it is a thankless job at the BEST of times. but it is an integral part of live musical theater and opera #you are fundamentally doing a different kind of performance without live musicians #and it strikes me as really fucking rude honestly to act like musicians are completely unnecessary and expendable like this #people already don't think it's a valuable job. we're already forgotten. but the show wouldn't fucking happen without us #and if hll does this and gets away with it (or gd forbid gets acclaim/praise for it.) #that will set a dangerous precedent i think #anyway. everyone say thank you band right now. i love you pit musicians. #sasha answers #gut-shabbos-sluts

[datastate]

i hate that mr. chidouin is an integral character to both kai & sara. . . girl you don't need him throw the whole man out. you too atsuko.

#jestersvaguely #they genuinely love him & he loves them. they're his family. #but when push comes to shove they're still pieces. valuable assets. but nonetheless pieces of a larger game. #i hope he dies.

[oatmealcrisp-freak]

so much respect for kusuke lovers who don’t declaw their scrunklemeow “yeah he’s destructive and a creep and an overall low quality decision maker who’d crush me personally and I won’t apologize for him but i’m electing to make a decision to love this walking talking atrocity” yall are so strong i’m shaking my fist at people who are loving my anti-blorbo by erasing his sins

#my light yagami enjoying self rooting for yall with tears in my eyes #i think thats one of the funnest ways to enjoy an anime person. make no excuses for behaviour you know is bad and still having the power to #enjoy it #don't need to make an OC out of a pre-existing blorbo because he doesn't meet the standards but the design is good or smthn #cus the temptation to do that is SO STRONG. i'd know i've done it myself. so RESPECT for the ones who REFUSE. #i won't say they're doing it WRONG cus to me theres very few ways to enjoy media wrong and this doesnt meet that standard but i am #giving permission if its needed for you to see the sins of thy blorbo and have affection for them anyway. nazis bigots and irl #murderer fandoms dni ;lkj;lkj #'he's a good brother' he's not. and he goes over the line of what i'm comfortable with so hes not my guy. but tbh if he wasnt fucked up he'd #be Much Less fascinating and i think it's a smart decision of asous to give kusuo's interpersonal anxieties a trauma based root. a lot of #comedies - hell even anime in general outside of grimdark - won't have the balls to go there #but its a valuable take away that power isnt necessary to effect others and drive change - positive AND/OR negative. that by itself is a #great power. how we use it is important. how we change our minds about it is too.