#and then you can backstab me when plot needs it and deny my credit in ideas after you got what you wanted!

[katyspersonal]

Hiya!

Do ya read BB fan fiction? Would you ever consider writing any? Do you have any favorites? What do you wish to see in Bloodborne fan fic writing if anything? I’m curious!

Hahaha that's a funny question. I actually haven't read Bloodborne fanfics yet because I just usually don't read fanfics...? I am always too bouncy with my free time! 'Oh I need to work on my drawing oh I need to hang out with that friend oh I need to play a game oh I need to take a long walk while weather is still great oh I need to write that theory oh I need to figure that out' etc...

Just no way to organize my spare time. I create so many thoughts that I can't just stop, relax and consume thoughts instead. XD It is the curse of ADHD and overly rich imagination, man. But, I need to at least write my own fanfics. I have so many BB stories in my head that it'd be a shame if they never got told. Though learning how to draw/plot mangas so I can tell them visually seems like a way more efficient option for me! I don't like to describe places, but I like having solid "excuse" to draw this or that character.

However I'd be really interested in reading fanfics that have to do with Byrgenwerth or School of Mensis! And also... please, if you know genuinely high quality (and elaborate?) fanfics about Edgar x Micolash - share. Please this is my favorite ship but since I care about it so much I demand for it to be handled with GREAT care and GREAT psychology/context. Tbh the first fanfic I do want to write has to do with how they became a thing because I have one cool story based off my theory!

#ask replies #what is the name of the phobia of running into fanfic that treats your fav ship horribly? #because i have it and it demotivates me from seeking ahaha #i dont demand micolash to be a nice person god no the man is insane and twisted #just... great care and thought. thats what i want. #bold words since edgar doesnt even have canon personality lol but thats 90% of BB cast so fair #fandomry rambles #thanks for the ask! #yes i know with my amount of ideas i feel like someone writing fanfics #but overly active imagination IMMOBILIZES a motherfucker trust me. blessing and curse. #i am better off joining forces with a write-holic without ideas #so i do the planning and they do the writing gfhugjhjkjh #which one of you mfs writes fanfics very fast and good but doesnt have ideas? we could work together- #and then you can backstab me when plot needs it and deny my credit in ideas after you got what you wanted! #that will be GREEEEEAT *dreamy sigh* #xD

[najilas]

did  you  just  see  NAJILA TAMIMI  pull  up  on  campus  for  the  new  semester  ?  they're  the  TWENTY-ONE  year  old  in DELTA ZETA ALPHA  right  ?  i  heard  they're  a  PRESIDENT  .  it  makes  perfect  sense  because  they’re  DECEITFUL  ,  but  at  the  same  time  DEBONAIR .  i  wonder  when  the  black  sheep  is  going  to  drop  the  big  secret  that  they  RECENTLY HAD AN ABORTION AND DIDN’T TELL THE FATHER  .  anyway  ,  i  constantly  hear  them  blasting  GLORY AND GORE  -  LORDE ,  tell  them  to  keep  it  down  ,  it's  quiet  hours  .

hi babes!! my name is mari, i’m 21 & my timezone is brt !! najila is a new character of mine so i’m still figuring her out a bit but ?? i am so excited to play her here akndjaskdn here’s a bit abt her !!

tall, blonde, and beautiful. born with a silver spoon doesn’t even begin to describe najila tamimi, daughter of sillicon valley billionaire hassan tamimi and former super model saskia van hall. life for najila was easier than most, but the combination of brains and beauty left by her parents meant the pressure to be perfect was high.

mostly, she succeeded. she managed being volleyball team captain, science olympiad champion, and student body president all while maintaining a 4.0 gpa and a fairly stable social life. the overachieving was something she got from her father. from her mother, however, she got the impeccable looks, perfect hair, and beautiful smile which made everyone either hate her or be her best friend. and really, those are generally the extremes you get with someone like najila.

on the outside, she is a selfless, extremely loyal, ride or die friend who will hold your hair while you puke and not even mention it the next day. she will make sure everybody loves you, get you in on the biggest parties, introduce you to anyone who’s anyone in the area you wanna work with, buy you ultra expensive gifts just because they reminded her of you. but she does have a hint of backstabbing bitch which means she will likely tell others about the things you did in a semi judgemental tone if you do anything that steps outside her lines of “perfect, elegant, and classy”. and if she hates you, be prepared to suffer, because she knows just how to play the victim whilst spreading vicious rumours about you.

so, is najila tamimi a good person? it’s hard to tell. but if you try to claim the contrary you will first have to scroll through her instagram page which is just as filled with her doing volunteer work and attending the mosque on fridays as it is of her at fancy parties with beautiful people. 

the truth is she’s a mess of contradictions and it’s as easy to love her as it is to hate her. she appears to be the most humble person in the world despite all her beauty and wealth, but deep down is incredibly proud of all she’s accomplished and incredibly afraid that one day she’ll be dethroned.

despite having been offered modeling jobs a thousand times over, najila mostly declines them because she is too busy and has no need for the money. she’s also too ambitious and has big plans to make her mark. she’s majoring in physiological science, with a literature minor. her plan is to go to medical school and then work with an organization such as doctors without boarders, and work in research later in life. the literature minor is more of a hobby, really, as she loves it but not enough to pursue it and knows she won’t have enough time to study it later in life.

being as focused as she is on achieving her goals and exuding an image of perfection, seeing the two lines on a home pregnancy test turned her world entirely upside down. once it was confirmed, she knew she didn’t have long to make a decision. in discussions about abortion, najila had always had a clear stance, “it should be the woman’s choice, but i don’t think i could ever do it” and yet it seemed like the only thing that would not jeopardize the perfect future she had planned for herself.

she felt incredibly guilty during the entire process and those who are close to her may notice –– as much as she will deny it –– that something has changed. she barely eats or sleeps lately and is throwing herself into her studies and president duties more than ever. but the beautiful smile is still ever present on her face as she attempts to move on as if nothing had happened. what’s important is that no one ever finds out what she did, and this stays behind as the only imperfect stain in her otherwise perfect life.

wanted connections !!

best friend (f/nb): honestly i feel like this would be a very blair/serena type thing where they can be bitchy and fight a lot but at the end of the day they’re ALWAYS there for one another and it’s that sort of thing where ‘no one talks shit about my best friend except for me!!!’ i’d imagine najila told them about the abortion but nowadays tries to pretend like she’s fine and nothing ever happened.

would-be baby daddy (m/nb): could be a fwb, one night stand, ex boyfriend, wHATEVER the point is najila didn’t say anything about the pregnancy and feels incredibly guilty just looking at them and there’s bound to be lotsa drama when it gets out.

frenemies (m/f/nb): because with this combination of nice and bitchy there’s bound to be a lot of those!!!

party friends (m/f/nb): najila is a great party buddy cause she’ll stay up until 6 am, pay for ur drinks, and knows just the right amount of drugs you can take in order to get fucked up but not die!

sibling like relationship (f/nb): tbh i’d love this to be a younger delta zeta girl who najila just full on adopted and is probably grooming to become sorority president in the future. acts like their mother and would ruin anyone who tried to hurt them. 

rival (f/m/nb): please i NEED a spicy rivalry !! probably someone who sees right through najila’s bullshit and thinks she’s a two faced bitch who doesn’t deserve all the credit she gets. she will definitely throw a lot of shade and spread nasty rumours so beware !!!!!

exes (f/m/nb): there’s so much we can explore here !!! naj is bisexual but is closeted af (type of girl who says kissing other girls at parties doesn’t count!!!!) so tbh i’d love a girl who she truly loved but wouldn’t assume her so it was a dramatic breakup through and through. but tbh she’s the type of girl who seems to always be dating so ??? exes who are still friends, exes who still hookup, exes who can’t even look at each other, i want them all

and honestly anything else we can come up with bc some of the best connections come from brainstorming anyway !! that is all !!! ily pls plot with me goodbye 

#rushqs:intro

[confideinmylions]

task no. 1-A :ｔｈｅ ｆｏｕｒｔｈ ｗａｌｌ 

an interview with tara “terra” markov

part one: no memories

[RIGHT BEFORE THEY WATCHED] take a look at the cover art and title. what do you think you’re about to watch? do you think you’re going to like it?

teen titans? oh! oh oh oh! this is based on a comic, right? i’ve only started to see some of their stuff recently. their, uh... dc? i don’t know, i’m a marvel girl myself. but i’m sure i’ll like it! i like superheroes and every thing. plus, this team looks like it has some sick ladies. though i hope, since like... they’re teens there isn’t some teen drama bullshit going. balancing superhero and civilian life is all fine and dandy, but i want some action!!

did you enjoy watching it? would you watch it, if more content came out?

i did! i really liked it! they really balanced like... comedy and drama? kinda? i don’t know. i weirdly liked how they have no civilian identities. they’re just... always the teen titans. even when they go out for pizza. ( she laughs. ) i don’t know if they could make more? it had like... a definitve ending? like, i don’t really get why they brought terra back for the finale, but like... i do kinda get it? like with the show ending, its sad but you gotta move on? kinda? i don’t know. i feel kinda bad that the terra chick got like... a season arc... but starfire didn’t. like we see these glimpses of her past life! and like! we could’ve had more of that!! so much more!! but whatever. it’s a good show. i’d rewatch it.

who is your favorite character? how about least favorite? who do you think is overrated and under-appreciated? who deserved better?

beast boy is the obvious fave. he’s funny. you get glimpses of, like, his duality. but he’s funny. and his friendship with cyborg, is just like... the best. i also loved starfire. her innocence and just like... genuine kindness made me really happy. but beast boy is still top.

uh... there’s like a lot of characters that come and go... recurring is slade. obviously. he’s like a typical villian. not really all that interesting. i liked the hive and even mad mod a lot more as villians. slade’s too damn serious. fuck him. if i have to choose a least favorite main titan, i don’t know. probably robin. he’s also too serious, but at least he has his moments.

overrated? uh... maybe robin... a part of me wants to say raven, but she probably had one of the best season arcs, so she get’s like major props for that. like she would’ve been my least favorite character. so! moody! smile for once! but like her season makes me... get her a lot more. like i get it. and robin is just a typical leader. he’s nothing special. also he does some shitty stuff and people seem not to care.

underrated would either be starfire or... maybe cyborg. starfire is kinda shown off as like this ditzy alien sometimes who robin kinda has a crush on, but like fuck that. her innocence and kindness isn’t a weakness and she can clearly kick anyone’s ass. and she didn’t even get her own season... cyborg is just never recognized for his sheer genius. whatever, he’s the literal cyborg thus he’s the tech genuis but like... if i were made part robot, i wouldn’t know any of that shit. give that boy some credit.

uh... starfire definitely deserves better, in terms of her use in the show. in terms of like... what happens to them... terra? maybe? she’s gets like a seaon arc but the titans go from like really pissed at her betrayal, which like, rightfully so. really rightfully so, but then try to pull the “we’re still your friends! you don’t have to be this way!” like fuck ooooofffffffffffff. everyone’s in the wrong here. if slade didn’t take control of her body slash powers, i would be surprised if she would still have sacrificed herself. also, how the hell did that turn her into a statue? like what’s up with that?

as a viewer, did the ending satisfy you? why or why not?

like i said, i don’t get the whole episode being like... beast boy stalking the terra-lookalike. that was weird. i get the message of like moving on and things changing, but... i don’t know how else you would have ended it. they didn’t like... have to use the girl beast boy had a crush on to portray the message. i’m sure there’s other ways to get the same thing across, but it kinda works, i guess. i’m a little sad it had to end in the first place.

do you have any unpopular opinions about any characters, story arcs, etc?

um... i really liked starfire. like, yeah, they could’ve given her more depth but i think that just comes from her lack of a season-long arc. like we only see glimpse of her tamaranian life, and they’re kinda far and few between. 

who are your favorite couple(s) to watch? how about least favorite?

i don’t really... like actively ship characters. i like the depth of relationships and i love love love friendships, especially complex ones but... romantic stuff can just get in the way. that being said, i’m happy like there’s not too many romantic subplot. 

my favorite is... i really liked watching the innocent relationship between beast boy and terra. do i think beast boy should have stayed, like, obsessed with her? no. of course not. but i liked their dynamic. it’s like a first real crush kind of thing. terra isn’t used to like... people actually sticking by her. like being her friend at all. and beast boy is funny! people rather thing he’s so funny! so it’s no wonder he had a little crush on her back! it’s cute, i guess.

robin and starfire! ugh! like, whatever, i get it. there has to be like one couple on the team i guess, but snoozefest. she kisses him for like knowledge. get over yourself, birdboy. and in that... movie thing... uh, whatever, i don’t care about your romance! give me action and friendship. that’s what i’m here for. thanks.

what do you think of TERRA? be honest.

i can... see myself in her a bit. she’s cool, but so so so so so so so dumb. she jumps to conclusions, doesn’t really listen to anyone. she’s super distrustful. i don’t think she like... knows... how to have any sort of relationship. it’s not super explained. it’s just like... hinted she doesn’t have a home and is like a wanderer. i don’t know. she’s cool, albeit i don’t know if they needed to keep using her for beast boy development. 

if you could give TERRA any piece of advice, what would it be?

girl needs to be more patient. like it’s so damn obvious that you don’t have control of your powers. it’s not that fucking hard for the team to see that shit. beast boy didn’t rat you out. nobody ratted you out. don’t just fucking run away, god.

part two: memories and realization

how does it feel knowing you’re a piece of entertainment for millions of people?

... shitty. i don’t need people seeing my dirty laundry.

do you still feel like your canon actions, thoughts, and feelings are your own?

i mean, yeah. i remember why i did what i did. i... didn’t think i could trust anyone. i wouldn’t even say i trusted slade. i mean, okay, yeah. i did. i’m the idiot that trusted the main villian. i’m dumb, i never denied that, but... i did what i did. i probably would’ve done that even if i wasn’t uh... a cartoon character.

if you could say anything to your fans and / or creator, what would it be?

i know i’m dumb! i get it! let it go! i didn’t want to be used to torture beast boy either! he deserved better! he didn’t deserve my bullshit! i agree! but c’mon!!! be a little nicer...

how do you feel about being a main or minor character? in your opinion, is your portrayal accurate, or were you painted to be a certain way?

i was like a main character for a season. i’d argue. i was with em for a while. a long while, but they obviously existed a long time before and after me, so that’s accurate. i’m just glad i got like... a sympathetic edit. like it showed my redemption, and i definitely didn’t deserve it. i deserved the game show backstabbing bitch edit, for sure.

what was the hardest memory of yours to watch unfold on screen?

the whole... ( she’s struggling to find the words. ) the like... date with beast boy. that whole... thing. the deed was kinda already done when bb gave me the ( she lightly chuckles ) the mirror box thing he made and asked me out. i, obviously, said yes. eventually. i just wanted to get him out of titan tower. i didn’t want him to get hurt. in hindsight, i really didn’t want anyone to get hurt. but i really didn’t want bb to get hurt. and it was a really fun night too. i was about to own up to everything i did! really! i was! but then slade just had to show up and... i wasn’t proud of what i did! but then beast boy said... “slade was right... you don’t have any friends...” and... and i didn’t really have a choice anymore? did i?

what are some things you didn’t know about yourself / your loved ones before watching this? ( like something that happened that you didn’t know about )

i, uh... i didn’t know uh... the whole little memorial the titans had for me. or like bb’s little speech. ( she can’t help but smile. ) maybe if i knew that i wouldn’t have like... straight up disappeared.

what moments do you wish were never shown to the world?

they didn’t show a lot. i probably would’ve preferred if my, uh, “date” with beast boy. like they needed to show my, like... whatever. it helped with the plot but i really wish that whole night was more private.

looking back, do you have any regrets? or decisions you really wish you hadn’t made?

uh, yeah, no shit i have regrets. beast boy didn’t tell the titans anything. i just jump to conclusions. all of my bullshit could’ve been avoided if i didn’t leave in the first place!! i’m an idiot! i own up to that. i only went down hill from there. i realized my mistake too late. i shouldn’t have listened to slade and i should have trusted the titans lot more. 

what do you think of how the other characters, your peers, saw you as a person?

they were always kind to me. i mean, until i betrayed them, but then they like kinda showed me some mercy and then after i died they were really nice about remembering me, but yeah. they definitely didn’t have to like... honor my sacrifice. i deserved to have perished after what i did to them. they needed need the whole... “a teen titan. a true friend.” thing. 

you have one chance to defend or justify any of your actions. go ahead.

i’m not defending anything i did. what i did was wrong. i eventually knew that. that’s why when i, er, woke up, i refused to face the titans again.

[IF YOUR MUSE DIED IN CANON] what was it like to watch your death unfold?

i mean... i sacrificed myself... it was literally my own doing... i knew what was going to happen. okay, maybe i didn’t i didn’t expect to turn into a statue. i also didn’t expect to like... get turned back to normal... so did i really die?

remember the advice you gave yourself in part one. are you going to follow it?

anxiety and self-doubt are two very powerful drugs. i think i’m a little more patient now... but yeah. also i still find it hard to trust people. so who knows if i’ve actually grown. whoops?

#❝ i want to be a teen titan! ❞ ↪ TARA #truman:task #task no. 1-A #// i forgot to make a task tag for people whoops #// i'm lazy rn #death tw #anxiety tw

[hopelessly-ever-after]

*MY ID IS GANGNAM BEAUTY REVIEW*

*SPOILERS - DON’T SAY I DIDN’T WARN YOU!*

As we all know, the beginning of this drama was quite hard for me to go through. Partly, because Kang Mi Rae was so insecure about herself, and because I wasn’t able to get on the same level of understanding as her. BUT I didn’t give up and muscled through it (I’m so proud of myself).

After a few days of pondering through this drama after I finished watching it initially, I’ve come to realized that the beginning was so hard for me to get through because it was so real. All of the incidents that were portrayed, they’re straight out of reality. When Kang Mi Rae followed Chan Woo into the room alone, my insides were screaming GET OUT YOU IDIOT! RUN AWAY! But I know that situations like that come too often, and most times no one comes to save them. The bullying, the backstabbing, the sexism, EVERYTHING, is so real. And it happens on a daily basis as well.

Kang Mi Rae.....where do I even begin with her. At first she wanted to make me pull my hair out, jump into the screen, grab her by the shoulders, and tell her to get over it! And at other times, I began to empathize with her and wanted to giver her a hug and tell her everything will be alright. Lim Soo-Hyang was wonderful to watch, and she perfected every single emotion to a T. Whether it was sadness, shocked, happiness, pain, confusion, she did a really great job of capturing you through the screen. I was invested in her, I wanted her to become stronger and confident and just happy. I wanted so much for her.

Cha Eun Woo’s portrayal of Do Kyeong Seok was absolutely amazing. For those who know Cha Eun Woo outside of this role, his personality is a complete 180. Cha Eun Woo is bubbly, smiles a lot, basically a ray of sunshine. Do Kyeong Seok, on the other hand, was stoic, quiet, and collected (majority of the time, haha). It was amazing to see him bring out this different side of him and slowly break Do Kyeong Seok out of his shell. Those eye smiles at the last few episodes were giving me life! My criticisms are at a bare minimal here, considering this to be Cha Eun Woo’s first lead role; he did a really great job.

Ahhh - the girl I loved to hate. I called it from the beginning that she was a going to be a snake, and I was right (of course). Her character met up to my expectations, she played just the right amount of “bitchiness” and “annoying-ness” along with “pain” and “pity”. While I did hate her for about 95% of the drama, I felt like it was supposed to be that way. I was glad they humanized her at the end, and showed as to why she is the way she is. I was also glad that they got her the help she needed and that she was able to overcome her issues. Jo Woo-Ri did a really great job with this character. I loveeeeeeeeed to hate her, and that was her role. Kudos to her!

YOU CANNOT DENY THEIR CHEMISTRY! They played off one another so well and they knew how to grab your attention and reel you in like a helpless fish. I enjoyed that he was so genuine towards her and stepped outside of his comfort zone for her time and time again. Each character brought out the best side in each other, and they complimented each other really well.

When Mi Rae finally mustered up the courage to tell him she liked him, I was screaming for the heavens. It was like FINALLLYYYYYYYY!!! It made me super giddy and happy and just relieved. It seemed like when she was able to confess, all this weight was removed from my shoulders (and I’m sure hers too). It was a huge breath of fresh air.

I enjoyed how awkward there relationship was. It was a cute awkward towards almost too awkward. It was played off really well though since both of them never dated before. There whole conversation of “Now we are dating. What? We are? Well aren’t we? Yes, you’re right.” Hahaha - I enjoyed that so much. I was also glad to see their relationship grow as well (especially with the short amount of time we had left of this drama). As their relationship grew, Mi Rae and Kyeong Seok both grew as individuals as well. Mi Rae became more confident and less worried about others, and Kyeong Seok became more sociable towards others. And he began smiling more.

My heart was literally dying when Kyeong Seok wanted to grant Mi Rae’s middle school wish of going on dates and etc. It was the most adorable thing ever and these little things seemed to have helped Mi Rae in a huge way, whether she realized it or not.

The scene where they had to sleep at Mi Rae’s parent’s house because they got stranded, was the turning point in Mi Rae’s character, in my opinion. This is where she truly realized that a person’s physical attribute isn’t everything and it doesn’t give you everything you want in life. 

“How can you still like me when you know what I used to look like? What do you like about me?” “YOU’RE JUST YOU.”

Who knew that those three words can hit my heart so hard.

When speaking of relationships, we can’t forget about the bromance in this drama. I love their love-hate relationship with one another. Whether they want to admit it or not, they both enjoyed each other’s company. Woo Young was such a team player in this drama. He wanted what he wanted, but when he realized Mi Rae’s true feelings, he wished her luck and happiness instead. That shows a true and grown side of Woo Young that is super appealing to me.

Woo Young’s feelings for Mi Rae definitely helped Kyeong Seok come into realization of his own feelings for Mi Rae. If there was no Woo Young, there’s a possibility that Mi Rae and Kyeong Seok would not have opened up about how they feel for one another.

Before I sum up my review I wanted to give a quick shout out to the moms in this drama! Y’ALL ARE SERIOUSLY THE BEST EVER!

Final Thoughts:

I will definitely re-watch this drama again. The plot was refreshing, the characters and actors/actresses worked with one another really well, and it was all tied up perfectly at the ending. For me, the ending is the make it or break it, and this ending definitely did justice for this drama. As you get to see that confident Mi Rae and that happy Kyeong Seok that you’ve been yearning for this entire drama.

Next on my list, their kissing scene. It still has me doing flashbacks on it because it was so adorable. At first I was a little disappointed, but then it evolved into this meaningful and sensual kiss which I began to appreciate. It was this cute and romantic sort of kiss, nothing to heavy and sexual, which was perfect for this drama and that scene.  

I was really happy to see Mi Rae blossom into herself again, that girl that she knew was inside of her but wasn’t able to show the world. I had literal tears in my eyes when I saw her smiling and confident in who she is and who she loved. This was one of the best things that this drama could have given us! *Spoiler* When she preached to Soo Ah about how tired she is of everyone’s judgments on a person’s appearance and how these judgments can affect a person, made me want to stand up and clap for her. She hit the nail right on the head. Girls are being told to lose weight when they’re perfect the way they are, how girls are being told to get their faces fixed to become prettier; being beautiful does not determine happiness, which Mi Rae knew all too well. It was the perfect slap of reality to Soo Ah, Mi Rae, and everyone watching the drama. 

Your appearance does not determine your happiness. 

Alright, no more rambling. Ask me questions and/or leave comments on your thoughts on this drama! I want to know :)

Thanks for reading. <3 defineParis

*Credit pictures from DramaFever* *I do not own any of the images posted on this*

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