#and then i'm like 'oh i can't' 😭

[jamescarstairs]

you know there's something wrong with me when i'm grateful work is getting me out of the house 😭

#lex waffles #pet death cw in the tags #being at home it's just so empty & quiet & there's just so many reminders of her #at least at work i'm distracted for a good few hours focusing on the task at hand #whereas when i'm at home i'll get distracted for some time and then my mind is like 'you haven't seen the dog in a while go see her' #and then i'm like 'oh i can't' 😭 #it's why going to the living room is just so much worse now because she should be there! #coming home from work for the first time since she's gone was literally nothing i could've prepared for #i didn't expect that to effect me so much #i though the 'how was your easter/holiday?' questions would've hit harder but no #idk if i would've prefered being at work last week #so i didn't have to sit at home for a whole week not leaving the house and just having to come to terms with the fact she's gone #or if it was better because then i didn't have to face anyone and pretend to be fine #(like i'm still not fine about it but i can put more of a brave face on now than i probably could've done last week) #i had to hide away one of her toys that i used to play with her a lot just in case my mum decided to rehome / throw away her toys #idk if she would but she was already ripping the bandaid off with other things way quicker than i would've liked... but yeah #i think it's hit me harder than i originally thought it would because it was unexpected and i really did have hope that she would come home #(from the vet) #and then i woke up the next morning.... #anyways....

[sugarpasteltmnt]

psst, hey, guess what, imma be one of the first in this history to make a Neon Void costume. Neeheehee! So I have the story, so basically I went to Venez in Italy with this plan on a costume design and then I saw a fox mask with red stripe designs. I got excited till I saw the price. So I instead went to another place with the same mask but plain that was made by an original mask painter and bought this baby, now I’m gonna paint it soon and make the costume with all the designs I planed out. The sketchs aren’t that good since I didn’t know what I wanted at first but Yk. Anywhooooooooooo-

Okay byeeeee

YO??????!??!?

oh my god. a cosplay???? from my silly little fanfic???? I'M!!! AHHHHHHHHHAKSDHAJSDHKSJD!!!

#TNV asks #TNV Final Chapters Spoilers #i can't believe this oh my gosh #crying big Ghibli tears rn ;w; #this is so sweet oh my gosh #i'm so flattered like omg #the sketches are amazing too just AHHHH😭😭😭🩵

[screwpinecaprice]

She's on a hospital bed, amnesiac after an accident and she's having a crush on this man who is apparently her husband.

@dragonuva's part on an art trade with them from last year! 🥰 It's based on the first chapter of Chiptune by Newlense.

Guys. This fanfic is my favorite FAVORITE connverse fic and I love it so much I don't care if the last update was in 2020 nor if it's never going to be continued. It's so tender and the angst whalloped my guts in the right places. 😭💕

#Yoo I can't believe I actually didn't post this. #There was a comment that described the fic as being like a dream and I agree. #connverse #Connie Maheswaran #Steven Quartz Universe #based on a fanfic #Pease ignore my own comment on the fic tho. I was so smitten by it it brought out the cheese in me. 😭😵 #There's something about the writing style that made me fall in love with it too. #Thank you for the art trade! #dragonuva #SU #Not my art #I will make my own fanart of this story. I swear. #Usually I don't mind that much if a fic is incomplete. I'm just glad I get to know and experience the story. #There IS one connverse fic that I actually did really hoped and was oh so curious to see what happened next. Last update on #that was on 2019 and it's marked ascomplete so I've just stopped hoping. ¯⁠\⁠_⁠༼⁠ ⁠•́⁠ ͜⁠ʖ⁠ ⁠•̀⁠ ⁠༽⁠_⁠/⁠¯ It do be like that. #I do have a guess about something in Chiptune. Because something about Connie's circumstance is a little odd.

[coquelicoq]

i support Yoo Joonghyuk Wrongs because i'd be so pissed if i was severely suicidal and some asshole convinced me to Give Life A Chance and gave me hope and then fucked off for three years letting me think he was dead??? leaving me to watch all of our friends do stupidly risky shit like the stuff i used to do before he made me Care about my and their lives?? NOT warning me and NOT telling me what he was doing like okay fuck that guy actually!!!!

#oh okay we're life and death companions?? CAN YOU ACTUALLY LIVE FOR A CHANGE THEN??????? #i'm living i chose to live because of YOU BY THE WAY so if we're supposed to be life or death companions you have to live too! #that's how it works! you fucking dingus jerkwad bastard asshole!!!!! #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #yjh #kdj #my posts #love kim dokja. also hate him on behalf of every single character. #the way he comes back and his biffles 1) lock him up 2) sedate him 3) try to get the right of life or death over him so as to forcibly #remove his ability to sacrifice himself all the goddamn time 4) get arrested with him so he won't be alone in the underworld 😂🤣😭 #just picturing all of them working out a chore list in the industrial complex but it's just shifts of #Sitting On Dokja-Ssi's Chest So He Can't Go Anywhere Or Do Anything #usually when there's a character who doesn't realize how adored they are i'm dragging my fingers down my face like #rapunzel the lanterns are for you!!! #but with this guy specifically i just want to hold him down and shriek directly into his earholes.

[huxianposts]

Be me, unsuspecting: :)

My dad, the most stereotypical emotionally-constipated and unapologetic Asian man, after watching EEAAO: I'm sorry.

Me, suddenly afflicted with all stages of grief simultaneously:

#eeaao #so what if i watched it 3x in theaters and decided to inflict it on my family #i knew mom would feel things from the movie but i never expected dad to out of no where APOLOGIZE BECAUSE HE NEVER DOES IT REGRET IS NOT #A CONCEPT FOR HIM #and somehow the movie gave them the same brain damage it did me and it changed them #mom was the chainsaw man meme of: Oh she just like me she just like me fr!!! 😭 #both of them are usually disdainful of the movies i show them but this time... silence... #the next day they admit to me separately that they can't stop thinking of the movie and I'm 👁👁 #we're healing intergenerational trauma with love and understanding babyyyyyy ❤️ #anyway watch eeaao #I'm shilling it so hard #everything everywhere all at once #huxiantalks

[vynnyal]

Btw I'm basically speedrunning now

#Rain world #game clips #I've gotten a lot better since I made this video but I still love it. This will be my tenth challenge and I've spent like 7 hours on it lol #I mean 7 hours of actual attempts before I realized I need to get better to stand a chance. #So I'm smacking my friends in the face with rocks while sliding or have to wait for everyone to catch up all the time #Because now I can't NOT use the cool movement tech I've learned. It's so fun and useful and ✨fast✨ #It's actually saved our lives so many times. Nothing funnier than yelling ''BEND OVER'' to my buddy and absolutely booking it #Also since we've delved into the world of modded regions it's been extremely nice for the bs parkour people include for no reason 😭 #If I'M struggling good god it must be tough for casual players #SPEAKING OF MODS! I've been hanging out and talking with modders and oh my god they're all crazy #One of my favs was the deserted wastelands dev who was just. So jaded. it was so funny #And we're playing thru Drought which is very interesting. It has like. Multiple endings and stuff #Finally know who that striped black cat is lmao #Gonna post some fanart in the future because I'm actually in love. Moon is such a mom in this campaign #It's also a horribly glitchy mess that destroys your game files but wwyd

[dylanconrique]

"i have nightmares" 🥺 (about picturing tim lying dead somewhere)

"i've spent the last 36 hours imagining you bleeding out at a variety of los angeles landmarks" 😭🤧💔

#*carly catalogs #the rookie #5x18 #6x05 #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #REMEMBER THE TRUE CRIME EP FROM LAST SEASON?????? #AND HOW ALEXI ASKED THEIR CHARACTRES IF IT HAD EFFECTED THEM SEEING TIM'S DOPPLEGANGER DEAD???????? #SHE ADMITTED ON CAMERA TO HAVING NIGHTMARES AT THE THOUGHT OF LOSING HIM #i can't emphasize enough just how much i cannot do this anymore i'm 😭😭😭😭😭 #and this just hit me like a ton of bricks #she lost an entire nights rest worrying about him!! like !!!!!!!!!! #how crazy is that????? #i can't believe i'm living this timeline rn oh my god #otp: you know me so well

[levil0vesyou]

When one of your posts starts going viral

#i can't go even half a minute without getting a note on the death of tumblr meme 😭 #like i'm glad about the free serotonin but y'know. over 2.5k in less than 2 days? i haven't done numbers like this in years #hope strange aeons doesn't reblog it or it's basically over for me /hj (she can if she wants lol but i'm just not used to it anymore y'know #wish people gave this attention to the edgy sonic fandub edit (pinned rn) since i spent way more time on that and am actually proud of it 😔 #oh well #mine

[feathertailedcentipede]

all my life's a panic trip

a rocket ship to planet schizoid

#I haven't made brc art in so long 囧 so here's an mspaint nightmare #brc #bomb rush cyberfunk #onewing #brc solace #brc felix #ok fine it's mostly not mspaint I just like pixel brushes #eyestrain. #blood. #decapitation. #suggestive. #? yanks your tourniquet like a leash lol #this disturbed me to draw & I'm sad it's my first onewing art #been playing so much brc it's not even funny. I can't even do graffiti without covering my eyes I just like fnuuy skateboard tricks #fondly thinking of when I ranted to my friend about the themes & symbolism in felix/solace scenes surrounding felix's murder #& they said ''MURDER? I THOUGHT THIS WAS A SKATING SIM 😭'' buddy I love you. don't worry about it #oh yeah. lyrics from ''um I mean it's kind of a lot'' by will wood

[sovonight]

why is so much of sewing just tracing and cutting and tracing again q_q i see why people get projectors and use adobe illustrator now

#drawing up a design that i can easily pattern from my sloper: 😊 #actually having to make the pattern by tracing and cutting ad infinitum: 😰 #piecing together printer paper to get a big enough sheet of paper and doing this ten million times: 🥲😭 #not to mention the IRONING.... prewashing the fabric and having to iron 8 yards of fabric???? excuse me???? #and then distorting it as i iron bc it has a slight stretch and i got so tired i stopped being careful 2 yards in #and the way that you're supposed to press every seam... excuse me... am i just supposed to have my iron heated and on standby at all times #AND THE STEAM??? i just got stay tape the other day and thought it'd be a neat alternative to stay stitching #BUT IT NEEDS STEAM TO ACTIVATE (which okay makes sense) BUT long story short i'm too afraid to use the steam function #on my iron because none of us are sure if water should go back into a tank that's been in disuse for 30+ years #so instead i get this water spray pen and delicately spray down the length of each piece of stay tape #before i cover it with a piece of gauze and iron it. and then i have to iron it extra so all the water actually evaporates #oh and the spray pen holds as much water as half a pen so i have to walk to the kitchen every 10 sprays to refill it #and i have to do this for every curved edge on my pattern pieces #i mean the alternative is just stay stitching but then i would have to calibrate my settings for a single layer of fabric instead of double #which means i have to switch my needle out more and i'm still new enough that sometimes i install a needles wrong despite going through #all the same exact motions that i usually would. i'm LITERALLY suffering out here. anyway can't wait to sew or whatever #oh and did i mention i went to a sewing meetup recently? yeah... #everyone there bought like $30-$100/yard fabric and i was there awkwardly knowing i only buy like $12/yard fabric #honestly though i have the opposite problem people usually joke about. i find it So hard to find fabric i actually like #it needs to be the right fiber + right color + right pattern/texture + right weight + i have to know exactly what i'm going to make with it

[leafy-m]

I got Witch Hat Atelier Kitchen volume 3 a little early and guys.... GUYS!! THIS is what Kitchen in English should be like! 💥💝💖

If you like Orufrey, you have got to get volume 3!

#I don't know if the homophobic supervisor or whoever got moved to another project or what... BUT THANK YOU! 💝💝💝 #FINALLY! SOME GOOD FOOD! #I mean I am still side-eyeing the end of chapter 30 because Olruggio's line Should be about how they're finally living under the same roof. #BUT OH MY GOD what a difference everything else makes #They mention alcohol! They admit the loop chalices are usually for wine!! #The word choices for how delicious the food is is so great! #I'm gonna have to look up wtf the bananas are named after but aside from that!!! #Qifrey and Olruggio can actually say each others names and they're so friggin adorable!!! 😤💝 Mr I can go all day!! #I'm so happy ya'll I can't believe it 😭💝 #I feel so hopeful for volume 4 now #Also I'm half-way wondering if maybe they could revisit the translations for volumes 1 and 2 and maybe release an updated version maybe? #because I would absolutely buy those again if it were less censored and had better word choices. Just putting it out there! ❤ #Like maybe after volume 5 do a box-set with a little bonus item maybe and secretly slide-in the more accurate and better translated version #I'd buy it! I'd be first in line!! #Just sayin! #Witch Hat Atelier Kitchen #Witch Hat Kitchen #Orufrey #Witch Hat Atelier #Also there's some REALLY cute moments with the girls #(I say; as a total afterthought; sorry I'm so transparent lmao) #Jade talks WHA

[raveartts]

@herdisturbedheart The Creecher

#raveartts #portals #melanie martinez #these probably would've looked better if I didn't try to do them entirely with fine liner 💀 #I'm just rambling now #but I can't believe I didn't download faerie soiree before??? #like I heard it. liked it. and didn't download it #and then I heard it at the concert again and remembered that oh fuck this one has vibes #anyways though I feel like I could probably do something better on my computer later at some point idk #I kinda hate all of these 😭 #but it's good practice

[archiephd]

some of y'all care way too much about your constant accessibility to entertainment goddamn

#j.txt #people in real life: oh i can't watch these guys anymore :( sad. anyway this grilled cheese is so good. i should rewatch wonka #like. i get being upset but some of y'all rly wanna fuck up their lives cause they fucked up your..... friday night #sorry but who cares 😭 #people are like read the room look at the state of the world!! and then say the most vile shit cause they can't watch a yt channel anymore #like i'm sorry but ??d??? don't you have more important things to scream online about. due to the state of the world #feeling very. out of touch out of time boomer style rn #like sorry but who cares!! coming from someone who cares a little and was kinda sad. Who Cares #ok i'm done. hopefully #was fully prepared yesterday to see the news and keep scrolling but goddamn #yeah this is about watcher entertainment lol

[hystericfae]

I counted all the dogs and cats and it's 9 dogs and 7 cats plus the new kitten 😩

#chloe shush #of course 2-3 of the cats are having issues and like 3 dogs are dog aggressive #on top of literally everything else I have to worry about like the bath leaking badly 😭 #I had to do the baths in the kennel because of it #and then the trash lock is jammed so like? guess i just ....fuck myself about it or something until my coworker comes in tomorrow #oh AND i checked the reservations. guess who's coming in AGAIN on monday?? #the screaming fucking frenchies. why? literally why #and I can't even escape them after monday because i ALSO FUCKING WORK TUESDAY 😭😭😭😭 #This is the first time I've ever worked 6 days in a row im basically at the clinic more than I'm at home 😩😔 #I was lucky enough to leave at 11 yesterday but then we came back at 4:30 and stayed till 6:30 and i had to come AGAIN #at around 7 pm because UGhhhhh

[spaciebabie]

something I love Abt Lucifer (the show) is that it will do these dramatic cuts away from where Lucifer is in perilous situations with the intention of it being, "IS HE LIVE OR DIE?? TUNE IN NEXT EPISODE 2 FIND OUT THE TRUTH 💯‼️" and then there's 4 seasons afterwards lol

#this show is so unknowingly funny 2 me #flashback TA when I was watching it with June and started #laughing my ass off when it was a ''sexy'' scene #I can't take sexy scenes seriously it looks so funny 2 me #oh and also the cheeseburger. line. #''what do you desire?'' ''cheese burger....'' #LMAOOOOOOOOO #NOT FUNNY IN THE WAY THEY MEANT IT TA BE ZODNDNDJDJDJDJNFJD #spacie spoinks #I was not expecting ta enjoy this show thank you June for sitting me down 2 watch it #I am a Lucifer fan fr fr #zomg i just realized I must be the most annoying person ta watch #things with b/c I'm such a giggly bitch #and I always gotta make jokes..... #aww man #I'm like a live YouTube commentator w/shows and stuff gawddamn 😭😭

[kkujo]

something i don't see people talking about is the way hyperfixations come in like stages and cycles like it's not just "i'm obsessed with this thing" it's like. euphoria from finding something new and it brings you so much joy and then as that initial dopamine rush wears off you start to get more and more down and feel isolated as you start to realise that no one else cares about it as much as you do and you feel silly for being so into it and the thoughts become repetitive and boring so you get more and more depressed and lonely and then you inevitably lose the hyperfix which leaves you drifting feeling miserable and hopeless until you start the cycle again. idk if i explained this well or if other people will understand but it brings genuine phases of euphoria and straight up depression and this is why i get annoyed when neurotypicals use words like hyperfixation to describe like, an interest. bc it's not. just an interest it becomes who you are and when you lose it it's like losing yourself and you spend so much energy thinking about it that it interrupts your daily life and it's so fucking draining 👍

#like if i see one more nt being like hyperfixation this hyperfixation that SHUT UP!! YOU HAVE AN INTEREST #talk to me when you stay up until 6am every night bc you can't fucking sleep bc ur thinking about it. #talk to me when you can't process emotions in a normal healthy way because you can only relate it back to your hyperfix #paired w madd especially it's IMPOSSIBLE to be normal about shit i swear 2 god because the second i'm upset or lonely it's straight back to #immersing myself in another world and being someone else and not facing my emotions instead letting 'someone else' deal with them #not just negative emotions yk it's anything it's fully immersive to the point i end up not knowing exactly who i am myself bc i'm rarely #myself in my head yk #and it's so isolating #and this is why i get mad when people use these terms lightly bc they don't fucking get it #oh you're hyperfixated? oh you're delusional? you're delulu? watch this #< guy who has delusions that all of his friends secretly hate him bc he's too insane abt xyz media and who feels alone bc no one else is as #into it even though it wouldn't be reasonable to expect them to be #like i'm constantly questioning whether all my friends are secretly against me & finding me annoying anytime i talk about it but it's fine #it's so fucking isolating #i'm not losing my hyperfix yet thank god but i am in the stage of like realisation where the initial euphoria has worn off and i'm like #fuck no one else gets it. no one else is thinking about it like i am. and it's so lonely #< like not to sound like 'i'm 14 and no one gets me' or i'm not like other girls or whatever 😭 #it's not me being dramatic i genuinely. know that no one else is spending every waking moment thinking about the things i am the way i do #and it's so incredibly depressing i can't even explain it in a way that will make sense #because i want to talk about it so fucking bad and i can't. even to my friends and gf who always listen i end up feeling annoying #and then i get genuinely delusional not like tiktok girl voice delulu like i genuinely start questioning my entire reality #just if i talk about something a little too much #bc i'm convinced i'm fucking annoying and no one gets it and they're thinking bad things about me #but i know they wouldn't. but it feels like they are #idk #anyways !