#and the rest depends on what im thinking about

[maezysworld]

Test subject x The ghoul pt. 2

pt. 1

Pairing: cooper howard x fem! cat mutant & sniper reader

hi friends once again I am dyslexic so this is probably not the best but I hope you all enjoy it anyways (I’m always open to feed back as long as your nice about it)

Warnings: slow burn, writer is dyslexic, might be slightly out of character, a whole lot of guns, use of y/n, blood mention, sad dog (not a dead dog a sad dog)

context: you are part cat due to being experimented on you have the cat ears and eyes along with all there senses (i do plan on making a full backstory)

You guys have been walking for awhile few words exchanged. your walking a head of him with the dog by your side, you’ve been following the sent of the vault dweller as the dog follows the doctors. “what her name” you ask the ghoul. “she ain’t mine.” he says in response dry and uninterested in your attempt to start a conversation. “why the hell do you have a random dog?” you ask confused but not really surprised. “The doctors, and just how do you know where we’re going.” he says not knowing if you’re following the dog or leading her. “I have my ways” you say before you stop walking and lift your mask just to show your nose, as you take a deep breath you notice that the doctors sent smells different smells bloodier. the dog runs ahead to a fallen huge piece of metal, it looked like it was apart of a building but your not to sure. you start to jog ahead following the dog, the ghoul not far behind. Once you catch up you see a headless body that belongs to the doctor, the dog lays her head on his lap and makes a short whimper noise.

you crouch down next to her petting her head “I guess we found our man.” you say looking up at the ghoul. “part of him.” he says looking around foot prints catching his eyes. “so what’s this information you have for me.” he sounds frustrated that you haven’t told him yet (and your surprised he hasn’t shot you for not telling him yet) “the value dweller has his head and is going to a woman named moldavor.” you say now standing looking at the ghoul, he doesn’t respond. You lift your mask just above your nose again taking another whiff of the air. “what in hell are you doin?” he says turning to look at you “do you ever take off that mask?” he says a moment later. “not around strangers I don’t” you say putting your mask back on now knowing what direction she’s heading.

“you must be fuckin hideous hiding your face in this world” he says lightly laughing. “something like that, here” you throw him a chem, you have met quite a few ghouls (well the non feral ones) are normally fairly nice, so you started carrying chems on you when ever you have space just in case. “I’m not to sure how many you have but I know you’ll need one soon.” you say as he catches it, he looks at you confused maybe a little Great-full too.

“well we know where she’s heading we can stop here for now” the ghoul says. about 20 minutes later you guys have a fire going and sitting down, no words spoken. “I’m y/n” you try to start a conversation to no response. “do you wanna tell me yours?”. “do you wanna take off that damn mask?” the ghoul snaps back. you sigh, “okay mr ghoul, no need to be so rude” you whisper as you wipe down your gun. the ghoul heard you but choses to ignore it “do you ever take off the mask” he says sounding a lot less defensive. “depends” you reply “on what?” he asks curiously. “if im alone yeah sure, with others it really depends on who im with” you say never looking up at him “so your hiding something.” his words sound like a question but his tone tells you it’s not, “I can keep watch if you want to rest” you say, the ghoul doesn’t move. you put your pistol in your holster while the ghoul watches your every move, you stand up and stretch a bit and walk around where your little camp is “are you not tired?” you ask the ghoul, once again he doesn’t respond he just puts his hat over his face ‘thanks for the response’ you think to yourself.

after a few minutes you sit back down with your back turned to the ghoul and you take off your mask. it’s hard to hear and see in that thing and if your going to be in the dark you’d prefer to have any advantage you can in a fight, and well having built in night vision it’s pretty handy. you pull your jacket hood up to cover your ears to the best of your ability. you put out the fire, after about 26 minutes you see figures running in your direction it’s a pack of ghouls you nudge the ghoul to wake him up “you should get up there’s a handful of ghouls coming our way” you say before putting back on your mask and standing up with your pistol out, the ghoul stands up trying to see what your looking at but it’s practically pitch black but he hears the footsteps and that’s all he really needs. the dog runs up and attacks one of the ghouls and with our fully thinking you follow, but the ghoul stays his distance. you shoot a few only killing 3 as your reloading you hear one coming from behind you, you turn and pistol whip them as they fall to the ground you feel another one grab your ankle. You take out your switch blade and stab it in the side of his neck before kicking him with your other foot grabbing the back out after your ankle was released and stabbing him in the head again, blood gets everywhere your eyes on your mask are practically covered in blood. you focused alittle to hard on whipping it off when you get tackled to the ground by another, you can’t even see what’s attacking you as you struggle to take off your gas mask while kicking this thing off if you. After you get it off is when you feel the ghouls dead weight on your body with a bullet threw his head you shove him off and you start to stand up “you were really about to let the last one take you?” the ghoul laughs, you wipe the blood off of your face and brush yourself off “yeah well I expected to get a-bit more help from you.” you say irritated “I wanted to see if you could hold your own. clearly you can’t” he says stepping closer “I didn’t think I had to dickhead, I assumed you had my back.” you say sounding more and more pissed off. “they got your mask off?” he asks knowing the answer considering he saw your face. you turn away making sure your ears are still covered from the man, “you ain’t ugly, so why wear it?” “I’ll answer that question the day you tell me your name.” you scoff. “fair enough little miss” he sounds more chear full, that makes your blood boil. ‘took almost losing my life to have him pleased, fuck off’ you think to yourself grabbing your mask and getting as much blood off of it as you can.

VERY SORRY IT TOOK ME THIS LONG I’m sorry it’s not the best my wifi has been supper weird and I had to do this all on my phone and I’ve been sick the past few days☹️ but hopefully it’s good enough!!

#cooper howard #cooper howard x reader #fallout #fallout series #fallout show #the ghoul x reader #the ghoul fallout #the ghoul #cooper howard x female reader #cooper howard x you #fallout x reader #fallout fanfic

[malamayafalls]

its saturday and im still thinking about lovely runner. i have been thinking about it since tuesday. wednesday, thursday and friday. i think about lovely runner 24/7. if sol and sunjae dont get their HEA next week i seriously dont know what im gonna do. my mood for the rest of my life depends on this show. somebody help me

#lovely runner

[nylilcosmos]

♱ 4. Bat Wings ♱ #vamptober

#50% of this challenge will be castlevania help me #astarion will cover the 30% #and the rest depends on what im thinking about #nylil art #its not a doodle but its also not finished hmmmm #a finoodle #vamptober #castlevania fanart #castlevania nocturne #drolta tzuentes #i loveeeeee her design so much

[a-gay-little-cat]

walking in to rephrase my thoughts from discord but i was just thinking about tiger getting checked up by his ripper n yknow one could consider tiger a 'borg in cyberpunks terms sure hes not super insane looking like smasher, he likes looking human and theres almost an art to having all these enhacements and reinforcements all neatly tucked away for no one to see yes you have the obvious visible cyberware on his face, his body, the tail but its nowhere near as extreme as you see elsewhere at times, hell, look at someone from maelstrom

all in all he looks.. tame, very stylized sure but you might not exactly expect this all going on in there

#theres definitely a humm to him when its real quiet and you rest your head on his chest #would usually hear the cyberware idling #n sure... something to be said about cyberpsychosis or what have you but i think the way its done in lore is kind of. lame #i like to imagine it with alittle more nuance #highly dependant on the person and how fast you install it all #i think after a certain point yes your body or mind cannot handle any more but theres more fun ways to show this #that arent just super murdering everyone #tiger is a big guy without all of that tech. hes built and healthy so i think that sets a higher baseline #more space to build on and more options to push further up #without him being in any danger #and all of this cyberware was installed gradually over years with his ripper's watchful eye #making sure it all works #doesnt conflict or affect tiger negatively #and yea i admit it. its overpowered perhaps. but im playing touys and if theres someone like smasher looking like that being perfectly fine #well. tiger is allowed #tiger #my ocs #i also think its just a fun aspect to have this mechanical noise alongside the organic heartbeat

[mxdotpng]

its actually something i think about often which is sad. nobody sees this vision more than i do. or at all actually

#.text #in the process of writing my second not first sorey mikleo fucked up will they wont they scenario #though this time im rewriting the scene where he tells mikleo hes going to sleep forever because i found it. lacking ? #it is very in character for sorey to know full well hes not coming back. and its also very in character for mikleo to know #hes not coming back. because this is sorey and mikleo we are talking about. but i wish they had talked about it more #it was really just sorey going this is my goodbye ! and mikleo is like well okay :( #i do like a lot how its completely unsaid by the rest of the party though -- they know. it is going to happen whether #they want it to or not. this is how it must be. #but ALSO. edna shouldve thrown a hissy fit. #lailah shouldve gotten sad and zaveid shouldve called him stupid and rose shouldve. well she wouldnt have done anything actuallt #sorey knows he can depend on her after hes gone. and she refuses to think about never seeing sorey again bc if she does itll break her #and she is not about that business #i love sorey and rose so much oh my god. they are literally so special #the best friends of all time and forever #what was i talking about again #idk. i have to go eat bye

[laurmaus]

Hellll nooooooo😭😭😭😭😭

#OK BUT i kind of went crazy like thats literally him i think #i b so bored in first period i was on gacha this morning like my life depended on it i had a Vision #i made garroth too but he looks so stupid he’s hidden away😭😭 #IMMA POST THE REST OF MU GACHAS THEY ARE ACTYALLY SO AWESOME #I never had a gacha phase as a pre teen and decided it’s never too late like last month before downlaoding #IDK WHY I EAS NEVER ON THIS IN FIFTH WHEN LIKE EVERYONE ELSE WAS THIS APP IS SO FUN #i literally go to the best high school ever and have the best friends ever literally no one cares what cringe ass thing people do #ive neverhad to feel ashamed abt my corny interests and imma b real i literally wouldn’t even have any corny interests if everyone wasn’t so #nice like😭😭😭😭It’s an encouraging environment u would NEVER see me doing this stuff in middle school i think it’s like the County school vibe #Sorry i got side tracked kind of I WISH I COULD TALK ABOUT HOW GENKUENLY GRATEFUL I AM ON TWT BUT I FEEL LIKE THATS SO SAPPY like no one #is thinking abt it that deeply but I AM im SO HAPPY to be in a place where i’m cherished and appreciated and where people will listen to my #mcd rant during lunch even fhough they have no idea wtf im talking about like GUYS☹️☹️☹️❤️ #ougghhhh shout out to class of 2025 and my School in general and mt Friends obviously i love fhem so much

[13eyond13]

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#here's some of the classics on that list i have beef with btw: #i have tried to read A Confederacy of Dunces several times and it's funny but it's also so cringe and Ignatius is so obnoxious #that i find it too difficult to finish like i just feel depressed and bad for everybody around him too much #i tried reading Infinite Jest like a decade ago and i got like 200 pages in and i remember thinking it felt like #such a slog the entire time because he's just so gd wordy and also i stopped liking DFW after i heard the abuse allegations against him #frankenstein i didnt read that long ago but i just remember finding it so boring for some reason?? i feel i might need to read it again #dracula ngl i feel like im cheating a bit saying ive completely read it because i loved the beginning and then HATED so much of the rest #the characters were just so boring and melodramatic hahaha i just liked the part where jonathan was doing a travel diary #and trapped in the castle tbh and after that i skimmed quite a bit #i almost flipped my shit when i saw ender's game on there because I ALWAYS mix it up with ready player one by ernest cline #which i bought the audiobook of a while back and hated every minute of it i dont think its good at all #but it wasnt that so phew my faith in this list is somewhat restored #i read most of the first game of thrones book and was disappointed tbh maybe because id seen the show already #so i was like 'this feels almost exactly the same except worse?' because i'd been expecting it to give me more depth and insight #into the characters but instead it felt exactly the same and i still didnt love any of the characters enough to feel attached to them #also i am fully aware me not personally liking or vibing with a book doesnt mean it doesnt deserve to be considered great btw #but i think if youre gonna be like me and force yourself to go through a bunch of lists like this very seriously then you also need to just #let yourself be like 'yeah not for me' without feeling too bad about it sometimes too #often times i dont particularly love the classics or 'important books' but at the same time #i still feel like im getting more out of reading them than just grabbing the newest hyped up books that also dont do anything for me #maybe not in a 'wow i loved reading this' way but in like a #'i now have first-hand knowledge of this thing that is so influential / so frequently referenced' #or 'this challenged me and i feel like i did a mental/emotional workout or gave me some new food for thought' #or 'made me more aware of what gaps in my knowledge and reading skills and what my tastes are too' #sort of way... #it really just depends on what you're reading for and why and what you're hoping to get out of it a lot of the time maybe #it's like the homework i give myself to go through these lists that i also intersperse with the stuff i read more just for fun #p

[ottiliere]

do you think dirks apartment would be bare or cluttered

This ask reminds me of the tags on this post specifically because... so true. not enough people are brave enough to make him as weird and gross as he is.

I mean, looking at his actual room is like...

it's not "that bad". right. this is a teenager's room. but it's noticably a little messy? and of course a lot of this can be attributed to the fact that he wasn't raised by anybody and is therefore very pragmatic about his environment (e.g., why would I make the bed if I'm just going to mess it back up later?) (IMO a lot of this could be said for Roxy as well, like... her room is equally as cluttered...these kids have no PARENTS to come in and tell them to clean up after themselves).

Overall I think he would be a clean person & very meticulous in, like, only certain respects... he's the type to have a very high tolerance to very certain types of messes. his "organized chaos" except it's even weirder than the generally understood concept of that. certain types of actual garbage do not phase him while others he needs to get rid of immediately and it doesn't make sense to anybody but him. I'd imagine it's largely a sensory experience for him, or at least that would be his basis for what bothers him and what doesn't.. it isn't like he's lazy or idle or anything liek that, he's just got a specific vision of what his environment does and doesn't benefit from.

I imagine he categorizes taking care of himself like this too but with the added concern of like...if for some reason he might be seen or otherwise encountered by someone meaningful to him, that would be a concern. i think any iteration of him has this feeling of pretending to be human in one way or another, somehow in my mind that is very linked to the physical practices of personal grooming and presentation.

#dirk strider #opining #ask #sighs. i wish we could've seen the rest of his canon apartment #i think the answer to this question is very much variable upon which dirk we're talking about #the latter self-presentation point is mildly discordant with my view of hospital dirk who i genuinely think is so averse to Society that #this concept implodes. he wears really shitty oversized clothes with many holes because hes POOR #while also spending inordinate amounts of money on ugly ass chains #because he thinks it's funny. i've mentioned this before in the dirk schedule post. he is swagless #i think a canon dirk or more ''normal'' nosburb dirk would be a bit more neurotic about his appearance #and how he presents himself to the public/others. even though im firmly of the belief that his fashion sense is quite poor #because. again..no formal irl influences he's teaching himself how to dress and nobody is checking him and telling him he looks terrible #hospital dirk #because tags #*public slash others. my god never use slashes in your tags i guess #obligatory disclaimer that these are just thoights. like i don't view this as THIS IS THE ONLY DIRK #i also enjoy dirks who are very clean about their surroundings in a neurotic way. i think they are awesome #''cluttered'' is just usually what my brain defaults to for him #like. genuinely i adore seeing dirk meticulously upkeep everything that is an extension of him. it just depends on the dirk #that's what's fun about character hcs I guess. usually I am not set in my ways like some people are just objectively WRONG about certain #things but for the most part I'll see other interpretations and be like aw yeah I can see that

[fizzlehead]

ok not to be delusional but what if this season has been bad on purpose. what if all of the dumb boring shit has been them saying “this is what riverdale could have been all along if we had cared about being normal and making a ‘faithful’ adaptation of the comics but instead we’re insane so the show has been what it is. but it COULDVE been this” and now after torturing us with that for a while they’re breaking down those expectations all over again, bringing us back to the riverdale we know and love and taking it even further than ever before by making beronica real and archie bi….like only after coming face to face with this horrible alternate vision of what riverdale could have been can we truly truly appreciate it for what it actually is and has been all along. and im not saying i necessarily LIKE that the whole season has sucked but if this is the case and they did that on purpose then maybe i get it.

#much to think about! and this theory still doesn’t forgive like the racism. that sucks no matter how you look at it. #and also this is probably not actually the case but i think im delusional enough to pretend it is for my own peace of mind #ALSO this is not me saying ‘i was wrong everyone else was right please forgive me’ because i still think i was right to hate it and that #everyone who thought it was actually good was wrong. but maybe it can be one of those things where in hindsight im able to understand and #appreciate what they were going for. but also all of this depends on what they do with the rest of the season as well like if it immediately #starts sucking again and continues to suck until the end then none of this matters. but as of rn im hopeful! #taylor xoxo

[sniflig]

number 1 rule of ratr is to never ask me what my target demographic is. idk man anyone who will read really

#i think 16+ is a good place to start #there are points where its more suitable for teens and points where probably 13 year olds will enjoy #but then there are parts and themes where its like waiiit a minute is this an adult comic whats going on #im just writing to write man you all just have to sit and see what happens #nothing really that intensely fucked up has happened yet but when it does rest assured there will be a content warning for the episode #and who knows maybe nothing fucked up at all will happen. depends how im feeling in the monwnt #everything is written out/planned but there are some parts that are ambiguously fucked up and maybe while actually drawing it ill find #that itd be better to make it actually clearer #who knows #just read the comic im bored of talking about themes now #talk

[m00ngbin]

Uh warning this whole thing is me complaining about my bones and pain and stuff so if you're sick of hearing about that you should probably ignore this

Whatever's wrong with my knee spread to my hip so I think that maybe I WILL be needing a cane or something soon and it's not just a joke I was making cause I had to keep sitting down in random places

Joke might be the wrong word because it wasn't really a joke and it wasn't funny, I was just trying to be lighthearted and it didn't seem like it was really happening or that it was probable

#sorry if we're ever in a public place and i suddenly make us stop so i can sit down for a few seconds #its not because im lazy or im trying to be annoying i swear #something ive been thinking about is disability #i don't think im disabled because i can still get around and do things but sometimes it is a little difficult and im worried that #in the future I'll have a really hard time walking without pain and ill have to depend on someone more than i already do #im already going to need to live with someone for the rest of my life anyway because of mental health stuff and i really dont want to have #to give up what freedom i have left #i read somewhere that disability forces you to rely on people and it takes away your independence and totally overhauls your life #and that disability really destroys your walls surrounding asking others for help/support #being independent and being self sufficient #i pride myself on my independence and self sufficiency and seeing that slowly start trickling away while theres nothing i can do about it #and nobody knows what to do to stop it is really painful #maybe it wont get so bad that ill be fully reliant but the possibility is there and not knowing is really scary #my choice and my autonomy are being ripped away and it not a person thats doing it its my own body #im not in control of my own body anymore #maybe im being dramatic but it really doesnt feel like it #because i am slowly watching my joints get worse and i am completely helpless. i cant do anything. im watching whatever this is spread and #not a single person can tell me what it is or why its happening

[came0dust]

trying to figure out how i want to draw him

#my art #... my tagging system is a mess and its only been like 5 posts. ANYWAYS #son goku #okay you know what thats it thats all im doing i gotta like standardize it ill do it later #im planning to do some studying as well as force myself to rest a bit bc i have been Drawing but kind of neglecting some fundamentals #ive been making a point to stretch periodically but if im getting shoulder cramps and turning into a pretzel posture-wise i think thats #a pretty decent sign that i need to step back #might round up some older art but one thing ive been wanting to do is make some image descriptions for some posts that didnt have them #as well as read up on best practice for them in the first place as im basically playing by ear #in any case expect some self rbs and maybe some older art depending on how i feel about them #(unlikely though as just with this from like 2 days ago ive already soured on it a little plus i want to do something else from here)

[eievuimultimuse]

how much we bettin that i, with my habit of getting attached to doomed by the narrative charas, will eventually add ( MM-based ) stockman /SILLY but also........half-joking

#WEREWOLF RAMBLES. / OOC. #( as always whenever i make posts contemplating muses: take this w/ a massive grain of salt lol #however i DO have a lot of thoughts abt him; esp AU thoughts. bc that also seems to be what happens when i grow attached to #doomed charas; i start essentially thinking about 'what could have been' bc!!!! theyre always very interesting 2 think about!! #esp for a chara as diverse as stockman who's historically been both 'mad scientist' & 'a wee bit tragic' depending on where u look #(FROM my limited understanding btw; the most of him ive seen outside of MM is 87 & ive only watched a lil of 2003 so far. #im working on it ok /SILLY /lighthearted) #ANYWAY HIIIII IM BACK my first day was a lil hectic & confusing but i came out ok!! #gonna be hanging out around here for the rest of the night now bc i am. So Tired; KJHGKJFG #also tumblr straight up crashing when i tried to post the 1st time. smfh let me SPEAK )

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

i Am sorta thinking about missys mysterious daughter through all this. i dont know what kinda parent the master is but the.... idk devotion? idk if thats the word. mrs coulter has does seem like.....not unlike the master

#im on 3x2 #the way she talks to will #the way shes like. so focused on this singular goal of keeping lyra alive and literally nthing else matters #lyras autonomy least of all #and we know the masters obsessive tendencies #this combination of complete devotion + what i want is law does seem like it might be part of how the master would be a parent #i dont know about.... All the other parts though #i mean like #a lot of the rest of what kinda parent theyd be would depend on circumstances i think #i thnk a child would probably take the doctors place in the masters obsessions #like just replace Completely #i think the master probably would enjoy uhh like shaping a person? #missy certainly seems to enjoy it with all the children she nannies #she likes teaching them #which is also a part of my missy/yaz dynamic #missy likes teaching yaz likes being taught #so i think the master would enjoy that. teaching someone. shaping them in their image #what happens when the child starts wanting things that dont align with what the master wants though #im not sure #there would also probably be a big part of 'i didnt like what they did to me on gallifrey so i wont be doing that' to the parenting #the question is What exactly the master would mean by 'what they did to me' #something might get lost in translation #wait i just remembered mrs coulter also tried that with lyra. making her like her #lyra didnt like that much

[sonknuxadow]

amy fang btw if you care

#they drew shadow rouge and knuckles with fangs too but . i pointed out amy specifically because she doenst usually have them #SIGHHH i miss when most if not all of the animal characters had fangs. now only shadow rouge knuckles and blaze have them #and with shadow and knuckles it highly depends on what media it is like i dont think shadow has them in the games aymore #so sad #archiesonicposting #Btw i just decided to read the rest of sonic universe all at once even if it doesnt necessarily match the read order guide im following #so i can just read the rest of the main series in one go and be done #there were only like 2 or 3 arcs in su left and i dont really care about spoilers for the main series that much #because im basically just rereading stuff ive already seen before at this point #so yeah

[meanderfall]

truly my family did such a piss poor job raising me that i literally credit music, tv shows, movies, and books, for actually teaching me anything

#also ngl i think it might've been for the better #im actually kind of glad i shut off the rest of my family as being Not Good and tried to find better things #on the other hand it also could've gone REALLY badly depending on what i watched and internalized lmfao #it's been buckwild lads ive listened to so many conversations of family members growing and healing and stuff #and im happy for them ofc #but im also sitting here like. yeah i knew this family was dysfunctional at best if not straight up toxic. #at the age of like. 5 #and been trying to Not Be a Part of It since i was in my teens #yes i am being kind of judgy about this and i blame the part of me that's still kinda bitter and resentful over my childhood on it #these thoughts brought to you by me listening to the songs that were my crutches as a kid