#and people being horrible towards him

[nowritingonthewall]

I’m just begging you: Don’t make us go there again.

#oscar isaac #moon knight #marc spector #moonknightedit #chrissie gifs #tw: trauma #tw: child abuse #It still blows my mind how the people involved in this show seemed to have a better understanding of trauma #than most professional therapists do #It's so heartbreaking to see how you can literally see Marc being stuck in his freeze reaction #While Steven moves around and explores #Marc's feet are rooted to the spot #He doesn't get a word out and he is clearly struggling to breathe #He can't even move his body towards the threat (i.e. his mother banging against the door) so he mostly just moves his eyes #Until the door bursts open and Marc's flight mode is activated #There is so much evidence that talking about your trauma again and again does nothing to integrate it and heal from it #And Harrow is such a text book example of so called health care professionals that force their patients to be re-traumatized again and again #Marc literally shows Steven how he suffered the most horrible and painful injuries to his soul #And it neither helps him to integrate his trauma nor to balance the scales #The healing process only starts when he allows himself to start learning to be accepted and taken care of by Steven #I am sorry I just love him so much 🥺

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

#ramblez #little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao #this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it #hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD #hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you #batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions #it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting #But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent #dw Im not going anywhere <3 #also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently #old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD #also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns #he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs #and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get #and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they #dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves #to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent #mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did #so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!

[stuffedsand]

for the violence ask game: 8 common fandom opinion everyone is wrong about. for milgram. i know exactly what you're going to say i just want to see you go off again

Hiii bestie. You do know what I'm about to talk about. Yippee

Disclaimer that this whole essay is like. For fun and how I say things is ramped up to be funny. I don't mind if you disagree w me cuz like that's the nature of things! We disagree but we can get along.

Anyways short answer for people who don't wanna see the essay: organ harvesting theory. This is about shidou.

Idk how prevalent it is rn since not many people even talk about shidou but it was prevalent enough in June when I got into milgram that I believed it for a bit anyways the rest in under the cut cuz I'm insane sorrg

SO the main reason I think the theory is WRONG (hyperbole‼️) is because I just think it's unrealistic. Man works in a hospital in Japan. How would he pull it off. Scuff an operation bad enough to cause braindeath/death and I'm p sure they suspend your medical licence, if he participated in an organ harvesting operation pre-family-accident his case would then be black and white cuz he was doing it in complete sound mind with no regard for human life. Also it wouldn't justify the extreme reaction he's had to realizing, specifically, "what I've been robbing people of" (t1 voice trailer), and he wouldn't have as heavy a focus on the relatives' feelings and reactions. At least story writing wise it'd make less sense since it doesn't allude to anything if that's the end goal? Imo at least. Idk maybe this is because I really like tragedies in media. Also because it'd be a really disproportionately severe crime compared to every other direct murderer???? Like. We have strangled someone, stabbed someone, bludgeoning, bludgeoning, kicked someone to death. Organ harvesting looks cartoony in this context. It's also not a very prevelant issue in Japan iirc.

Also to prove my point further. If we use this theories the murders would be

Strangling, abortion??????, cyber bullying, stabbing, organ harvesting, toxic r/s, telling the truth (lmao), bludgeoning, bludgeoning, bludgeoning (minus weapon). Organ harvesting is goofy cuz it seems so.... Extreme,,,,,,,

ALSSOOOOO funny point. If he's not directly involved in his murder (as in, unintentional and indirect) that makes 5 direct and 5 indirect. Silly.

Also also his murder seems somewhat tied to how he feels about his job itself ("I wanted to contribute to society (about his career choice)/I had thought my work was a contribution to society", use of past tense) and to me it reads like hes disillusioned w his job esp since his reason for getting a highly sought after, high paying and high social ranking job is "I wanted to contribute to society". Doctors with that empathy can be affected by the death around them more severely and I think that's a fun topic to look at

I count this under "common fandom opinion" cuz it was common enough around June (whenyours truesly got into milgram) that I believed it. I mean I introduced shidou to my friend (hello clown) as "maybe Dr malpractice. Organ harvesting dude" and said friend (hello again clown) is also the one who's heard me bash the organ harvesting theory like 6 times at least now so. Yippee.

Take none of this seriously I just got off a plane and am so very eepy. If you like the organ harvesting theory good for you!!!!!!!💥💥💥💥💥 you do you bestie !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I literally do not think less of anyone who believes that theory I just personally dont lmao

#sand speaks #hiiiii bestie my silly mutual. youve heard this rant before now for it poorly formatted in text #i mean its better formatted than when i actually talk abt it cuz if i wrote it the way i originally did the points would not be organised #like at all. itd be so bad #anyways all of this is lighthearted i dont think less of anyone with different opinions i just. dont believe the theory at all #i like the tragedy thag comes woth it technhcally not being his fault but also kinda being his fault. #like maybe he had really bad manners towards relatives. or horribls bedside manner (youre in my way just die already“ like ok mr kirisaki. #dont say that to a comatose patient my dude. but yeah it can be argued that morally hed be in the wdong #or if he persuaded relatives to dknate patients organs. which is rude and also malpractice (coercion and taking advantage of ppl in vulnerab #and with his themes of lying (covers) i fhink it could wither be lying to relatives of patients OR. him seeing hsi work and the promise of #saving people from illness or death as a lie and a hoax becasye so many people died anyways despite those promises #anhwyas im insane about this man. characters with extreme worldviews entirely of their own making my beloved #like nothing told him to believe this. he just does and thats whats interesting to me #anywasy suuper sorry about the big essay and the many tags. i love this fandom #i have so much to say but so little phone battery. and mental battery its Zzzzzzzzz time #tell me if abything in here sounds mean or anything btw im too used to being mean as a jokiing thing so im worried ill offend someone

[lobpoints]

Angela in LC, consistently telling the manager that she felt trapped and helpless and considerably miserable working in LC because she is denied of her individuality and personal choice and personhood and is also denied of any meaningful interactions whether with the sephirot or her own creator, lc hokma saying that what they have done and are still doing toward Angela was inherently cruel, even A at some point knee down to apologize to Angela because he also recognized what he was doing to her is inherently cruel in one of the loop (day 40), Angela in the epilogue straight up saying that she felt abandoned since her birth to the end for nothing hence she wanted to live her own life now, the lines in the dark in between day 47-50 are literally her begging to be noticed one last time:

LC essayist: but we literally can't know Angela's personal motivation until ruina she has never once showed her motivation and she was supposed to be hated by the narrative always and forever in LC

#i think this is less the case of narrative trickery but more case of the fandom being blatantly misogynistic hope this help #also people dont know how to read #absurd with people saying that LC trying to tell us A is good because LC only worked because A is a horrible person #even in his narration he portrayed himself as some sort of monster #and every characters in LC have beef with him pre and even AFTER their personal suppressions #the only difference is that LC made clear that LC cycle is supppsed to be a symbolic cycle of A tried to escape being a harmful person #and kept fall back into pattern because of his uncertaincy and fear and many other things #people who are aware of the loop (Hokma Angela Binah) literally made this very obvious analog toward the players #and literally guys in his head that he must overcome all tell him that kept perpetuating the loop or destroy everything #would be the most comfortable and easy choice for him to make because changing is suffering changing is dying for them #and the reason why day 50 is GOOD is because it is when A decided to move pass those mindset and break the pattern once and for all #when lor binah said that ''the cycle was broken once'' and in the end lor Angela repeated day 50 to break her own cycle of misery #what do yall think it was suppposed to mean #i hate lc essayist i hate lc essayist

[floralovebot]

listen,, i am Not defending all of sky's actions or his personality but he's genuinely just not as bad as the fandom makes him out to be.

a lot of y'all forget that sky is a prince with extremely overbearing and downright abusive parents that refuse to listen to him or treat him with any ounce of respect. and that the whole diaspro vs bloom situation was started directly because his parents forced an arranged marriage between diaspro and sky, constantly telling her parents that it would work out and never listening to sky the hundreds of times he tried to stop it. like again, he's not great, he's my least favorite specialist. but that situation was never in his favor. he was a 16 year old that dealt with strict, emotionally abusive parents his entire life and got forced into an arranged marriage with someone he never loved and was constantly told that it Needed to happen for the kingdom. trying to play it out like he's a serial cheater with some nefarious master plan is like,, really weird. again! not a great person he does a lot of shitty things. but blaming that specific situation on him, a teen with absolutely no say in his life who just met someone he genuinely likes and could love, instead of his parents is incredibly weird to me.

#i just think that entire situation was extremely unfair for everyone involved #and its really weird when people try to make it out like sky was some serial cheater mastermind #like dude no he's a child with horrible parents and no control over his personal life #and yeah absolutely he shouldnt have lied or led bloom on. but also remember that Technically he was in disguise because #Apparently assassins are constantly after him (ignoring that winx does a piss poor job at showing that) #like idk this little boy who never had a say in his life suddenly meeting this little firecracker of a girl that has A Lot To Say #and isn't afraid of running her mouth or expressing herself. And even encouraging him to do the same? #like? yeah id fall in love with bloom too tf #and i feel like people forget that sky told both his parents And diaspro that he didnt love her like. multiple times. #anyway. i still hate sky. #but i hate him for like. actual reasons instead of He Fell In Love With Bloom Despite Being In A Forced Engagement Oh No #like we could criticize him for not trusting bloom or for projecting all of his own faults onto other characters #but trying to say he was at blame for just being like. a teen in love is Extremely weird to me #like i dont think it would be fair to say that he should just. never fall in love with anyone and should just be happy marrying someone he- #-never loved or had any romantic feelings toward #like you guys Can understand aisha hating her arranged marriage and falling in love with 'ophir' despite it #but you Can't understand sky hating his arranged marriage and falling in love with bloom despite it #its so much easier to say you dont like sky please just say that

[laniidae-passerine]

I think some of you guys hate Izzy more than you ever liked Ed and no amount of “he’s my special babygirllll 💞 she’s just a sparkle princess you can’t hold her accountable for anything 🥰✨” posts are gonna be able to hide that

#like yeah nice try using the brown dude as a shield for your hate campaign or whatever but it isn’t working lol #I’m sure they kinda like Ed. but they sure don’t like Ed as much as they like hating on Izzy #who Ed loves btw. let’s just circle back there sometime they love each other. eat dirt maybe #I adore Ed and I love how nuanced and messy his breakdown was #how his actions aren’t motivated by being Evil but at the same time his actions are his own #and they’re undeniably fucked up to the nth degree and he has to own them #because it’s kinda relatable tbh!! I’ve never been that horrid but I’m a person and I’ve fucked up before #and even if I was struggling deeply at the time because of other’s behaviours towards me it was me who did those things #and I had to own them. and grow from it #and my queerness and brownness and trauma didn’t make me exempt from growing and being responsible #which also meant I’m not exempt from personhood and growing and bettering myself and loving myself and all the good that comes with humanity #Ed did fucked up horrible things to the crew and Izzy. and if you can’t acknowledge them for what they are and how awful they are #then you can’t really acknowledge Ed as a character and person beyond the limited ideal you made of him in your head. what he did was wrong #and that’s not alright. but it’s okay. because we know he’s gonna have to grow. that’s the bit people who really care are looking forward to #I’m tagging this #the izcourse #because I kinda feel like it’s overlapping with really shitty Ed takes and meta

[genshin-projection]

i don't think i can be normal about Sunday guys

#hsr #hsr spoilers #i haven't even FINISHED it yet but his ideology is so warped. i cheered when i thought Gallagher had killed him for real #im not upset he's alive though i do think it's a bit of a cop-out . but. ouhghhhh something is so wrong with his mind (/positive.) #it's successfully looped back around to loving his character though. when there's a fucked up guy in a story i either #1) get very hostile towards them because i feel like they aren't being portrayed enough like the villain i see them as #or 2) become Obsessed with them forever because they are just so fucking . Wrong. like . #ayato genshin impact falls into both of these categories simultaneously like a fucking electron. #but sunday. he has wholeheartedly landed himself in the second category. i need to dissect him and maybe like. idk. give him a cake (?)?? #Come Experience The Joys. Idiot. and also maybe listen to your sister. #honestly i REALLY like robin i think she's super super great and has good ideas #i really really love the like. the. #the contrast between his like. his horrible pessimistic nihilistic ideology. and robins optimistic harmonious one. #like robin seems to kind of... not be able to understand that sometimes nihilism is the only way to survive and that it's a balance #survival is good but hard to break out of... you need to survive enough to be ABLE to live. she seems to idealize living in opposition to it #whereas sunday is like. there are people who can ONLY survive. sometimes living isn't an option because the world is cruel and we don't all #get that choice. sometimes surviving is all you can do. why not embrace that? why not build a place where people can postpone death? #if fulfillment isn't possible... then why not accept placation even if it is a poison to the soul? surely joyful prison is better than death #if all that awaits in the world is suffering then why not let the bird live the rest of its days in its cage... even if it is unfulfilling? #HE'S SO . RHGHHGHGHFHGHHVGJF #he feels like he's on the brink of a misanthropic suicidal breakdown to me. someone fucking help him (but not really) #(i don't think anyone should be subjected to his brain. but i would like to see him get better. actually i think robin is trying for sure) #anyway. very curious how this quest is going to end. i want to rip him limb from limb and then stitch him back together again after #my posts

[lesbianchemicalplant]

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#something I'm thinking in response to pangs of ''what about the times when he's not being horrible / his positive qualities'' is: #if he weren't my father and instead just some guy. an older friend who behaved the way he has toward me (or my sister or mom) even once #there wouldn't be any question. I would just cut him off entirely the first time he talked to us that way and not even think about it again #even if I grant that he's not a Monster and 'just' habitually cruel and horrible to people around him #so what? that's more than enough to say ''shame that guy turned out to be an asshole. sad! well there's other people'' #so no. I don't foresee unfiltering his email address or unblocking his number or otherwise talking with him again #I would simply Prefer Not To. he doesn't bring me joy. I actually can just discard him like an acquaintance who turned out to be a jerk #there's literally other people lmao #my posts

[bylerserotonin]

Max mourning the loss of Billy DOES NOT GIVE PEOPLE THE EXCUSE TO STAN HIM. *screams into pillow*

“Oh, but she forgave him.” No she fucking did not. Billy was a bigoted, misogynistic asshole who abused his little sister. Sure, he sacrificed himself to the Mindflayer, but that doesn’t erase being horrible to every woman he encountered, being racist towards a thirteen year old Lucas, nearly running over Mike, Lucas and Dustin…Mourning someone is very, very complicated. It’s more so when that person was abusive. Max has every right to be sad over Billy, but that doesn’t mean she forgave him for anything.

#anti billy stans #anti billy hargrove #I don’t get people #I know some people romanticize horrible people if they’re considered attractive but who tf is looking at Billy’s horrible mullet #and being like ‘oh THATS someone who’s hot’ #also people are sympathetic towards him because of his dad and rough childhood #I get that he didn’t have a good life and his dad shaped who he became #but at the end of the day that was BILLYS choice and his only #you don’t see Jonathan or Will acting like him #even though their father was just as abusive #Byler #I’m adding that cuz I know y’all agree

[reel-fear]

Some non canon leaked S4 concepts: BA might've been part of why Blitzwing is a triple changer via surgery/experiments he likely consented to knowing the risks. The fandom: omg shes such a horrible bitch, I cant believe that shes such an abuser

The actual show: here's Blitzwing and BA interacting, nothing happens except Blitzwing says "ew ur gross and techno-organic/disabled such a bitch" and BA replies it "stick it up ur ass" The fandom: Blitzwing is such a bean did nothing wrong <3<3 he simply didn't mean it when he said BA's scars are gross <3<3<3 such a smol bean boy BA is such a horrible bitch

PURE sexism and horrible bigoted bias.

#ramblez #tfa #transformers animated #tfa blitzwing #tfa blackarachnia #killing all people who think like this with my mind rn #YES IM MAD IT MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE #Im gonna elaborate on this in an answer to a wonderful ask I got but its such bullshit that Blitzwings onscreen ableism n bigotry towards #BA and her condition goes ignored #but in NON CANON CONCEPTS FOR S4 BA gets to be painted as a horrible abuser bc some stuff vaguely says she mightve done #a weird surgery on BW #makes no fucking sense #one of these things isnt even really canon and one of them happens in EPISODE ONE #Blitzwing goes eww ur scars are gross and the fandom fucking loves him #but some writers in the non canon almanac some of the main creators of TFA didnt even fucking like says BA has a history with BW #that resulted in him being a triple changer and shes a bitch we all hate her wanna hurt her fuck this what the fuck #yes Im heated and if u tell me this is just fandom discourse and not blatent sexism at play I will simply explode u with my brain

[courier420]

please don’t answer this if it’s too personal or it makes you uncomfortable but I saw your ‘meet the artist’ drawing and I’m so curious

Are you a he/him lesbian?

Because like there’s so much discourse around he/him lesbians and their relation to trans men and like I’m not asking you to discuss it with me

I just

I’m surprised and excited to find someone who identifies that way, if you do. Because of my mixed up feelings about my own gender and sexual identity.

Anyway this was a long winded way of saying you seem cool AF, how ever you identify

i am a he/him lesbian! :-)

#i hesitated being open about it on this blog for a while which is why i don't have pronouns up #cuz people suck! #but i'm at the point where i don't care too much about others' reactions anymore (and am bolstered by the increased support for #people who use pronouns that are evidently ''wrong'' for their gender over the last few years) #anyway <3 <3 i'm so sorry you have had to see all the horrible discourse that surrounds something completely value-neutral and totally awes #ome #being a he/him lesbian rocks and anyone who tells u you're stepping on anyone else's toes by being yourself is an asshole #i wish you well <3 #ask #anonymous #p.s. want to clarify that i do not think people generally suck (and optimism and extending grace towards others matter a lot to me which is #why i'm clarifying something seemingly minor) but boy do a lot of people suck about he/him lesbians

[bonni]

blacklisting kanye west. because I just can't fuckimg take it anymore

#chatter #people really think him being an objectively horrible person is an excuse to be antiblack #newsflash: he acts this way because he is rich and famous and thinks that being a reactionary can allow him to ''escape'' his blackness #he wants to be white and he is actively antiblack towards other black people as well. #so people coming out of the woodwork to say ''oh well this proves that black people can be nazis too'' can get fucked #he *wants* to be a nazi because that's who he surrounds himself with but nazism will never be accessible to black people #anyone who understands hitler's ideology would know that #another thing: people acting like black people who ''predicted'' kanye's antisemitism did it by chance are fucking idiots #most black people have been aware of his attitude for years and have actively condemned it bc guess what! #he makes it incredibly obvious that he hates other black people #and he has always been antisemitic as a way to ''fit in'' with white supremacists. but it's a losing game #and anyone in their right mind would know that. he is not in his right mind btw #less because he's mentally ill (which is never an excuse) and more because he's rich and powerful and it's given him delusions of grandeur #ask to tag -

[masquenoire]

@riddlethat​ asked: what would he be like as a father? like, to his own child??

(Continued under the cut!)

Distant for the most part. Roman has very few, if any, good memories of his own parents while growing up and has no desire to perpetuate his experiences onto a small child. Mr. and Mrs. Sionis were domineering and self-centered people, utterly obsessed with their self-image and how others perceived them. Roman’s no different but the thing is he doesn’t pretend he’s a good man. His parents did and in public they portrayed themselves as a loving family, plastering fake smiles plastered on their faces as readily as the lies they spouted. Behind closed doors, life was a very different story where they openly reviled their son, if they weren’t pretending he didn’t exist or otherwise dismissing him as a nuisance in their lives. As a result, Roman would find it difficult to connect with a child. He’s cruel, vulgar and foul in every imaginable way, his idea of a good time being brutally torturing some hapless fool and making their death a slow and excruciating one. There’s no room for innocence in the life of a mob boss but upon becoming a father, Roman would at the very least try. What are they interested in? Are there certain things they like? All these and more he’d try to find out about his charge, gradually spending more time with them before asking upfront the more comfortable he gets. He’s not taking them to the ball game anytime soon but he will fund their interests and activities, treating them to the best of his abilities as a way to make up for the lack of presence in their life. It’s for the best, or so Roman believes. He’s a deeply troubled man who is prone to explosive violence and unspeakable acts of cruelty, plus with so many enemies who’d just love to use his children as a way to target him, keeping his distance is the best way to avoid them getting hurt. He’ll kill for them, and gladly do it too, but his own upbringing makes him too afraid to get more involved, out for fear of being just like his own parents once were.

#riddlethat #Thank you for asking this! #It was very fun to write about as I think Roman has some very deep and genuine fears #He doesn't fear much but in this situation he WOULD #His childhood and upbringing were so traumatic for him #His parents were very cruel and dimissive people #Not only that but they invalidated so much so it's no wonder Roman's got a lot of internal anger #Especially as they were the ones responsible for why he got so badly hurt as a baby #Their neglect and even abuse turned him something fierce #So another child around? Yeah he's going to stay away as best he can #He'll do very horrible things for them but because he's so horrible he's afraid of being horrible TO them #Ironically he'd be a better father towards another child than his nown biological one #What with dysphoria and all #I mentioned it once or twice before but Mrs. Sionis had severe post partum depression that was never treated #So she abused Roman because of that #He may be at risk of it too which is why he's so adverse about the whole thing if he's the biological parent #Not so much of an issue when you're not the birth parent asdfghjkl #Sorry to subject you all to my brainworms tonight I WILL get some responses done #I just ramble and go on a tangent when upset :')

[soullessjack]

every day I remember that this fandom simply does not care about autistic people and, much like every other fucking thing I experience as an autistic person, the concept of it being a collective found family becomes increasingly alien to me. love this place.

#we really just can’t win I fucking hate it here #like this is my special interest. this is my community. I’ve met so many people through it that ended up becoming lifelong friends #I’ve been here for almost ten years and it’s meant everything to me for ten years. it’s kept me going through so much shit. #it’s more than just a show and more than just a fandom and it’s one of the best things I’ve ever been apart of #and like I didn’t realize I was autistic until like late 2021. I didn’t even realize SPN was my special interest until then either #I didn’t realize JACK was my special interest. but knowing that he is autistic means so much to me #and its meant so much to other autistic ppl in the fandom. somebody at MomentoCon even mentioned it to Alex last weekend for fucks sake . #it’s real and it’s special and it’s important to us but #but no we can’t have that. make him a fucking baby. toss every interesting thing about his character into a fucking volcano #and relegate him to being a fucking prop for everybody else. #I don’t know how else to tell you this but you are literally infantilizing an autistic person. you are being ableist. intentionally or not. #and the way you all seem to just. idk. double down on your own ableism? or excuse it? #or literally ignore autistic ppl who try to point out how ableist and weird your behavior towards an autistic character is? #it’s a lot of things. it’s so many terrible things and terrible feelings. but above all it’s disheartening. #it hurts to know that even in this space where everyone is family and everyone belongs. I’m still on the outside looking in. #I’m still not /really/ a part of everything else. it’s a horrible feeling and I don’t wish anyone to ever go through with it #but maybe you fucking should. maybe then you’d realize what you’re doing. or maybe you won’t. maybe I’m screaming into the void again. #which I literally always am w this topic anyways. nothing but screaming into a vast empty void that’s supposed to be my big special family #but whatever I guess. #spn #supernatural #spn fandom #spn family #spn famdom #jack kline #autistic jack kline #tfw2.0 #destiel #sam and dean #castiel

[brakingpoint]

oh also i guess my final point on that matter is that just because slander is “part of being a sports fan” i think some people just use that as an excuse to be outright unpleasant without remorse

#i guess this especially gets to me re: latifi bc for all intents and purposes he seems like a very pleasant guy #whose only real crime is just not being very good #and i get having some genuine resentment towards him if he’s actively taking up a seat that could go to a potentially better driver #but he’s literally confirmed to be leaving now #so i don’t think it’s necessary to dance on his grave the way some people on twitter and insta in particular are doing #including pretty prominent figures on f1twt #idk i just don’t think that sits very well to me especially when he famously famously got cyberbullied so horribly last year #that he had to get security to take his girlfriend to winter wonderland

[thebleedingeffect]

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#warning you know this is a bit of a vent so do not ye go any further if you dont wanna see bad vibes lmao #anyway. my father is an absolute bastard of a man. emotionally neglected my mother. was an absent father. and very nearly- #killed us both towards the very end lmao. just a horrible guy who hides behind his charisma and has never processed an emotion once #instead likes to emotionally neglect and gaslit people instead of idk... going to therapy instead of retreating to church lmao #anyway its been around three years since I've seen him irl and im very happy about that. i never want to hear from him again #but he snagged some foreign young woman whos nearly my age and yeah. its disgusting but not surprising #theyre having a kid apparently and the only reason i know is cause my mom told me. but i really need to have a talk with her and its going- #to suck #i need to talk to her about never bringing him or her up around me ever again and this boundary is a hard one im gonna have to establish #cause shes still so scared of him and cant help following his every move. but im gonna have to pin her down and play therapist and ARRGGHH #I GOTTA PLAY THERAPISTTTT WHY WAS I CURSED TO BE AN ONLY DAUGHTER. WHOS ONLY FAMILY IS THEIR MOTHER #THEREFORE IM THE ONLY ONE CLOSEST AND KNOWS OF THE SHIT SHES GOING THROUGH AKA I GOTTA FUCKIN BEAT IT INTO HER #im gonna-- HELP GIRL #strange lore to drop but god imagine almost being killed by your dad and surviving by pure luck. cringe moment #i cannot imagine if i left this life and my blog wouldve been stuck in 2017... imagine dying as a marvel blog SKSKSKSKS #anyway. this life man.