#and like yday whilst we were talking she said tht ‘ur brain takes shit to an obsessive lvl’ and even tho now i realise tht she meant THE

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#i’m literally having such an awful day … like so awful #like i forgot to take my hayfever meds so i woke up too early even tho today is LITERALLY a sunday and i was supposed to have a lie in #and whilst i was praying namaaz i got rly emotional bc i started having intrusive thoughts abt all the times ppl i love have hurt me #and like i’m just so sad #and like i’m lovestruck over this dense boy who doesn’t even deserve me and i keep annoying my best friend by talking abt him but like i #literally don’t know who else to tell 😭 like … it makes me so fucking sad tht the one person i’ve felt so spiritually so akin to is such a 🔨 #like it hurts so bad #and like yday whilst we were talking she said tht ‘ur brain takes shit to an obsessive lvl’ and even tho now i realise tht she meant THE #brain and not mine in particular … it still rly fucking hurt my feelings bc like i’m just pining and it hurt .. bc like i’ve been so scared #abt annoying her by talking abt it too much and she said tht it just affirmed what was festering inside me anyway and i was like 🙂 #and like JUST now i made myself ramen to have and i brought it up to my room AND SPILLED IT EVERYWHERE 😭😭😭 #it got all over my desk and i had to clean it up and the smell is everywhere #and UGHHHHHH #i’m just so fucking sad #i just want to escape .. i can’t do this anymore #my mental state has been rly shit recently and i just want to disappear #beebs.txt