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#literally don’t know who else to tell 😭 like … it makes me so fucking sad tht the one person i’ve felt so spiritually so akin to is such a 🔨
dearsnow · 4 months
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WE’RE BORN AT NIGHT
- in which you hold johnny cade like water, or, christ, you hold him like a knife (you’re worried that your touch brings up unpleasant memories for your boyfriend, but he feels differently. johnny cade x gn!reader, angst -> fluff but still bittersweet bc there’s nothing you can really do but hold him, yes this is based off of who we are by hozier because i am a heathen for the irish man).
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a/n - my first johnny piece and the first piece that i’ve done in actual months 🥹 this is likely not my comeback though and i’m sorry for that 😭 i will always write and i will probably post most of it, but life has been rocky for me lately and my available free time reflects that. in any case, i hope you enjoy my short return (there will inevitably be more as i work things out), and plsss talk to me about the outsiders and literally anything else because i will most definitely love to hear it.
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It’s not often that Johnny Cade comes knocking at your door, despite the fact that he’s been your boyfriend for three months now. He never wants to put you out, he says, but when he shows up with a black eye and hand-shaped bruises on his arm, you usher him inside as quickly as you can.
“What happened?” You murmur, eyes scanning over his injuries.
“Just my old man again.” He hesitates. There’s a sharp edge to his words, like they cut his mouth just to say. “Look, I shouldn’t have come.”
You cut him off, tone brimming with concern. If he doesn’t feel safe with you, with staying at your house when his is dangerous, then you need to try harder to keep his quiet heart intact. “You can always come.”
“I know. I mean, the gang’s all out at a party ‘n I guess I just didn’t know where else to go.” He shifts his stance uncomfortably as you hand him two bags of frozen vegetables. “As much as you say you want me here, I know there are some places where I ain’t welcome.”
You would kill his parents if you could. Fuck, you would send them straight to Hell without a second thought. Anyone that truly knew what was going on in that house would. All you can do, though, is take care of him as well as you’re able to.
“I promise, you’re welcome. More than anyone or anything else. I need you here, when things are rough and when they aren’t. Tell me you’ll come when you can.” You speak.
He looks so beautiful in this light, despite everything. You love him so badly that your heart aches from just the movements of his sad brown eyes. “I will.”
“Good.” You smooth down the collar of his jacket, making careful, delicate movements. You fear that if you go a hair too close, he will shatter like the glass bottles thrown at him. “Let’s go to my room, okay? My parents won’t be home until later. We can get you some rest.”
There’s a small part of Johnny that detests himself for holding you back. You could be doing greater things than pressing a wet rag to his forehead, and yet, you stay. You always stay. No matter how horrible the situation, you stay with a pinky linked around his and a warmth so hopeful he thinks he might implode every time he feels it.
You pull your thick blankets over him, uncaring of his grease and the slightly grungy clothes rubbing against your bedsheets. If he needs you, and god, does he look it, you will always be there.
You’re facing him in bed, hands outstretched to card through his hair, but they don’t make contact. His eyes are lightly closed. You wish you could just touch him, hold his hands between your fingers and warm your feet against his calves. There’s some sort of unbreakable barrier between you when you feel that your every movement could send him spiraling into memories of an unkind fist. And yet, an unconscious twitch sends your leg just a centimeter forward to touch his. If you think real, real hard about it, you might have felt him jolt.
“I’m sorry if I make you uncomfortable, Johnny.” You whisper, shifting your legs so they’re no longer against him. “I’m real sorry. I know sometimes you don’t like that kind of stuff.”
“No.” He starts, opening his eyes. The rasp in his voice makes your heart sting like a bee’s last breath. “I like it, I mean, I think I do.” His gaze turns towards yours again, brimming with a kind of beautiful emotion, and his fingers move towards your sleeve. “It kinda… it tells me a bit that fingers ain’t always gonna ball up in fists and a palm against my cheek don’t have to hurt.” He breathes. You stare at him. He likes it? Lord, he likes it, and you like it, and you will die if you cannot swathe your entire body around him like you’re trying to keep him together. “‘S like you hold me like water, or, I dunno, a knife. Real gentle and secure n’ such.”
You travel the distance between you, tenderly wrapping your arms around his midsection. He pulls you closer, and suddenly, you feel complete.
If he was being honest, Johnny thinks you saved him. His whole life, he chased and chased the peace that evaded him every second of every day. Like a dog, kicked and dark-eyed, he put his nose to the ground and simply smelled the greater things on the horizon. They were out of reach to him, the silence just barely kissing the tip of his head before dancing so far away he couldn’t reach it if he sprinted. But you, God, you gave him everything he could ever want.
When merciful you came waltzing into his life, he thought nothing could ever be quite so horrible again. You have a forgiving hand and a quiet smile, laced with words that tickle his cheeks rather than grinding him into the earth. When he can reach out to you, gripping your warm arm like a lifeline, everything makes sense. He wouldn’t give that up for the world. He drinks in the affection you give him like sand in a bone-dry desert, and the thought that you could ever be worried about how much you love sets his heart ablaze.
“I’m glad.” You whisper. He can feel your breath against his shirt, and it makes him shiver in a pleasant way. “I love you.“
His breath hitches, heart picking up its pace, as he gently buries his warming face into the top of your head. “I love you too. And… and if you’re here, I want to be here forever.”
He squeezes you just a little bit, just enough to let you know that he never wants to let you go.
“Then I’m never leaving.” You smile. He smiles back, and for the first time that night, he thinks that he might be able to do more than just survive.
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nimmie-nugget · 7 months
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~Hantengu Clones x Disgust Clone Reader~
Reminder: drink water and eat a full meal! Turn on dark mode if it’s currently night where you live~ wouldn’t want ya eyes to hurt right?~ —go to your profile and press the icon that’s on the VERY right, then click “General Settings” and scroll down a bit till you see “Color Palette” and there should be a few options for ya there!—
Warnings: ooc, not proofread, your not gonna like Karaku’s part, you might shit your pants
Note: I’ve had this in my mind for quite a long time!!! Google better be right for the kanji’s I have next to the clone’s names or Istg- This doesn’t mean I won’t stop doing Tokito twins content tho! I’ve been posting some other things instead of Tokito content so i just wanted to reassure~ don’t worry Tokito enthusiastic’s! Your emotion is disgust and your color is a mix of Yellow and Green~ Platonic ofc or else self love has a new meaning💀 Enjoy <3
Masterlist+Introduction
Masterlist
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Sekido 怒
You CANNOT come to me and tell me this is not toxic. 💀🖕
Both of you argue the most out of the clones
There was a time your argument got WAY out of hand ‘n both of you started using your BDA like crazy!
Your always pointing out his lil flaws
Tho Sekido’s clothes are more tolerable.
You tease him but not as much as Karaku
Long story short both of you want each other to die 😣
“Why not you fix your hair before you start talking?”
“WE HAVE THE SAME HAIRSTYLE YOU BRAT!”
These two lines kinda giving sibling energy- 👆
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Karaku 愉
Your grossed out by the fact he doesn’t wear proper clothing.
Just one touch and you go
“AHHHH!!! THIS IS UTTERLY DISGUSTING!”
Teases you A LOT. You and Sekido most likely teamed up once just to get him to shut up 😬
I think he just considers you a whore at this point-
Considering you always look at his abs ‘n shit but your just trynna tell him to wear some clothes in the most judging way possible 😭
How did he even miss that gaze full of disgust!? HECK it’s your emotion-
“I know you like this Y/n~” he says as he licks his hand. Bro’s a cat fr💀
You gave him the most disgusted look ever that day.
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Urogi 幸
He’s too much for you to handle-
Your losing your sanity yeah tots like you didn’t lose it years ago😃
Let’s just say your BDA is to be able to mind control-
The moment he uses his BDA you instantly use your BDA on him if your near.
Tho despite you literally being disgusted of him in every single way, you still hold some respect for him.
“A,IS)EJWAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO” *Activated BDA*
You groan as you activate your BDA “I don’t have time for this! And keep ya mouth shut would ya?! Your voice is disgusting.”
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Aizetsu 愁
You must admit he is quite tolerable then the other clones but that’s what makes it more disgusting.
You two have a pretty decent relationship.
Tho his outfit…it’s disgusting.
You don’t really hold…much disgust towards him???
Tho it’s just probably because he doesn’t annoy you much as the other clones.
OH YOU WERE VERY WRONG 😨
Your the only clone who doesn’t tease him or act serious.
That’s the explanation to him latching to your arm 24/7 👆💀
“UGHHH!!! GET OFF ME! YOUR FUCKING HEAVY!” You yelled.
“…Y/n don’t yell…that makes me sad…” he said clutching onto his staff
“This disgusts me. You disgust me.”
Yep, ya had to use your BDA to get him off.
But why ya gotta be so mean!!? >:(
But hey! Aizetsu’s confirmed to be a cat 😼
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Zohakuten 憎
Let’s just say ALL of the clones are in a black void when Hantengu is in control 😶
Never though I’d say this but this relationship is WAY more toxic then yours with Sekido 😰
Your always commenting on how disgusting he is.
Roast him like a Roblox kid 😎
Tho you won’t be getting away just easily.
Considering he’s the STRONGEST of the clones you’ll def be beat to pieces 😭
“Ngh!…is that all you got? Your unreliable dragons can’t do shit to me! Utterly disgusting.” You say with a grin.
Hell you faced so many tortures that day- tho what scared ya the most was the fact that your regeneration slowed down 😰
Like- HOW!?!?
You swore to never go overboard with HIM ever again 🫡
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leejenowrld · 3 months
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a question to all the mfal characters who aren’t yn and jeno
have you ever witnessed them doing something cute and romantic and thought “damn they’re kinda adorable” ??
wait this question is so cute 🥹🥹
warning - BIG SMUT, threesome implication
donghyuck - once i walked into them and i was gonna leave but i can’t lie, i secretly stood the side and just watched, shit was so hot. i was so turned on
yn - [hits donghyuck] what the fuck?
donghyuck - it was so hot. you can’t blame me. it was like i was watching some irl sexy promo. jeno kept slamming his cock in and out of her, like every minute. i got hard cos i just saw the wetness leaving yn’s pussy and slicking up every time jeno pulled out, only for him to slam in again, and all of these juices and milky strings would attach to his juicy juicy cock and then he’d fuck it all into yn again. the sounds of yn’s wet pussy… jesus. he’d do it through their orgasms as well. i left after 5 minutes but i heard it for hours, these dirty cute animals were doing this all night long. i remember thinking “shit, they’re cute, i respect them.” yn kept screaming daddy and jeno kept slapping her ass and boobs, it was genuinely the best sight i’ve ever seen. i dream of it. yn kept begging jeno to cum in her and me and jeno were both a bit confused cus ??? what else has he been doing the entire night
yn - [shocked, jeno holding her back as she’s ready to throw hands and kill donghyuck] you just stood there and watched us?? fucking perv
jeno - [unfazed and turned on] i remember that hyuck, i fucked her so dumb she kept asking me to cum in her although that was what i had been doing for hours. once my girls hit her 4th orgasm of the session, she starts chatting shit
donghyuck - shits so hot
jeno - next time we do that you can join [winks at donghyuck and blows him a kiss, hisses when yn flicks her finger against his forehead with force.]
donghyuck - [facing yn, licking his lips and palming his bulge] u know me and jeno have kissed before, right?
yn - don’t pull this shit with me now, jeno’s kissed half the people on campus, i know. don’t fucking remind me.
jeno - baby, it’s more like 3/4 of campus
yn - that’s it, no sex for three weeks.
jeno - [smirks playfully] i’ll just fuck donghyuck
yn - [copies jeno’s smirk] i’ll just kill you
jaemin - yeah, i won’t ever tell them but they’re pretty cute and melt my heart
jeno - please, you tell me that all the time
jaemin - anyways, when yn and jeno graduated they both got a lot of opportunities to do internships abroad which means they have to be apart for a few weeks. they’re both so smart and care about their future so ofc they won’t pass up on the opportunities. it’s quite sad but equally heart warming when i see them say their goodbyes. they’ll hug each other at the airport for so long and it’s just sweet seeing jeno comfort her because yn gets really emotional but somehow jeno can help control it? i think it’s a superpower, i’ll hear or see yn crying her eyes out and then jeno comes up to her and hugs her and holds her and they share a few kisses, jeno whispers some sweet shit to her, he just is an overall comfort to her and it only takes a few mins for her to go back to normal.
heejin - once jeno brought me and yn tickets to some play we had been geeking out about. at first jeno wasn’t gonna come because he probably just wanted to give me and yn friendship time but yn didn’t really read the room and begged him to come 😭😭 i mean tbf i told him to come to because he’s also a fan of this play. he didn’t listen to me but yn gave him puppy dog eyes and smiled and worked her magic so he just had to say yes lmao. i’m used to third wheeling them lmao but they were pretty cute that night, they didn’t make me feel sick. it’s the little things they do, the eye contact, yn truly looks up at him and she’s the physical description of this emoji ‘🥹’ you can literally see their pupils dilate when they look at each other. you can feel the love in the atmosphere. it makes me believe that love actually is all around.
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cxhleel108 · 4 months
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S7 Thots for this week: I’ve had enough…
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• Here go this bitch🙄🙄🙄
• The new bed outfits were kinda meh but that purple and gold number was cuuuuuute.
• Lame ass sex scene on the daybeds yayyyy.
• Yes Willow we had a VERY nice evening. Did you have fun with the “him-shaped space” in your bed?😁
• Aw Bonnie and Vicky are sad that I made love with Bryson? That’s awful, I really don’t give a fuck tho.
• Snog, Marry, Pie day is here😍😍😍
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• Oh don’t worry bitch I got somebody in mind too!
• Daphne immediately going to snog Evan like she’s so real I’m sorry.
• The fact we get to dodge the pie getting thrown at us LMAOOOOO Willow you’re never gonna win bookie.
• The fact everyone wants to marry Tanya (my MC for clarification) oooohhh she’s mother!
• Bryson you really coulda just snogged me babe but Imma look past it cuz you still made sure to put a ring on it😁
• Willow I know YOU of all people are not tryna call ME predictable.
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•🫵🏽🤣
• Not Rafael coming to kiss us??? Sorry Daph🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️
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• Why I actually got upset cuz he ain’t choose us?
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• Oh ok nvm I’m good now🤭
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• 🫵🏽🤣
• Why did Vicky emphasize that she had to tell us stuff about our LI and the other boys and then we proceeded to pay 29 gems just for her to not tell us anything about our LI…Fusebox somebody is gon sue y’all niggas one day while y’all keep playing.
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• BYE WILLOW!
• Oh Bryson you are so shady for saying last to come should be the first to go, aka Vicky and Travis needa pack they mf bags. I’ve taught him so well🤩
• I don’t wanna go talk to these people about “where their heads are at” I DON'T CAREEE.
• Evan asking me who I think the most annoying couple is omg? Why are y’all so messssyyyyy??? (I love it)
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• Oh that's cool, we really don't give a fuck tho!
• Oop it's date time so you know what that means girlies...outfit reviews🤩🤩🤩
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• Don't get me wrong these are both cute but there are certain details on both of the tops that's fucking them up.
• The date was cute. Not much else to comment on.
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• OH-
• I'm crying how #Raphne get destroyed just after they was pledging to leave the villa for each other😭😭😭
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• Honestly real asf.
• Ok my whole thing is...Uma...If y'all just made up and had a wonderful lil freak session then why after a very small, I mean MINISCULE, disagreement about not talking so quickly about the future are you gonna just go out and try to make a move on another bitch's man? Niece I can only keep defending you for so long like...
• But at the same time Alex lowkey deserve it cuz he pissing me off with all this hypocritical whiny ass lil baby shit.
• Omg Bryson finna ask us to be his girlfriend soon oooo #Raphne watch out cuz #Tyson is gonna take your spot😘
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• LIKE WHAT IS SHE BABBLING ABOUT???????
• Uma you may be immature and a lil slow at times but you still a real ass bitch, I can't hate you💯
• Outfit time again🤩
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• Omg omg omg these both eat thank god I was so scared.
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• Don’t say what I think you're about to say...
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• Oh ok you did it anyway lol🙂
• Willow if you know what's good for you, you will keep your mouth SHUT!
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• So Willow gets to stay and now Evan's gone...ok.
• So what I'm gathering from this confession about Raf (I literally couldn't be any less shocked) is that every man that has met Tanya in here has wanted her...she's literally queen of the villa like all you hoes are peasants at this point🤣🤣🤣
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• GIRL DON'T CLOCK JAKE WILSON LIKE THAT-
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• Willow...don't get fucked up😄
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• Willow...don't. get. fucked. UP.
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• ...
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sunmisbf · 4 months
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hi bestiesssssss i saw woodz yesterday n i am a changed person this is the best artist in the world to Me. i apologize to him deeply for ever looking at another man it won’t happen again like i was blacking out hes so fine n pretty n his smile is so nice i forgot my glasses in my car so i couldn’t see him as clearly as i would have liked help but i was really close n i did cry i’m not going to lie. i was doing pretty good n then he sang journey n it was over for me i love this guy so much n always wish him the best in everything. he’s so genuine on stage like u can tell he’s just having so much fun performing n he took off his ear piece a lot so he could hear us singing along. he played the guitar too i was blacking out sorry i do love a fine ass man that can play guitar like that’s literally my boyfriend n omg he took his shirt off at the very end before he left the stage n i Screamed so loud it hurt my throat n my boyfriend was like 🧍 n i was like i didn’t see anything even though i almost teared my vocal chords up… sorry. what else was i supposed to do i saw the gun tattoo w my own eyes he’s so fineeee. he’s such a singer u guys like we all know this but i was so happy to experience his singing live. he didn’t dance at all like other kpop artists but honestly it wouldn’t have fit the vibe like that’s the lead singer of a band. i’m in love sorry he’s everything to me. watching him sing busted n chaser n noid n i hate you n multiply n trigger n. well u get the point was everything to me who else is making music like this NO ONE that’s who‼️ seungyoun u will always be famous forever n forever i hope he knows that… oh n unfortunately he did not sing hope to be like you for me 😞 or better and better or lullaby or thinkin bout you 😞 but it’s okay we move forward ! he also took the time to read posters n accept song requests n i was really close to him so if i would’ve taken a mexicans 4 woodz/mexico loves u sign he definitely would’ve read it i’m so sad i didn’t make one omg. but he sang short parts of pool n waikiki n better and better n lullaby n deep deep sleep (kind of bc he couldn’t remember the lyrics 😭) n god hijack just came on while i’m typing this it was so crazy seeing him perform this like literally i hit the road running all the fucking time‼️ also he went crazy w ready to fight like he put so much passion into the “shut the FUCK up” part like damn okay.. anything for u king. the whole concert was fun but especially at the end when he performed i hate you bump bump n ready to fight i was so tired but i kept screaming n jumping help. n he was so energetic n happy like i have feelings for this man u don’t understand wayv close ur eyes but this is The kpop man to me n also omg when he opened w busted like i knew he was opening w that song but i still felt like that joker gif where he’s flying backwards like this was soty to me originally until wayv came in w the steel chair but i don’t know u guys woodz might have taken the steel chair out of their hands n used it on them i’ll get back to u on that i’m on a woodz induced high rn so i can’t think clearly wayv i still love u. n omg i saw him sing chaser live. i was singing so loud i felt bad for the girl recording on her phone next to me bc my ass is definitely in her videos singing about breaking down bc what else can i do that’s the song of all time n omg dirt on my leather was so fun literally why u gonna be so sad? rub some fucking dirt on it‼️ seungyoun the rockstar that u are…. n trigger n drowning n i can say this about every song honestly every song was life changing to see live i love singers who sing n i love woodz. i really regret not getting vip i would’ve loved to meet him he was so endearing on stage when he was talking… it honestly feels like a fever dream now like i really saw that man i was there… 🚬 this is so fucking long i’m sorry in conclusion, i’m in love w him i’m obsessed w him i need him badly n he’s a pop rock legend to me forever n ever. te amo luizinho 💙😭
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things i did NOT like about shadow and bone (netflix):
the darkling looks Old. he's supposed to look the same age as all the other main protagonists. this highlights alina's future of staying the same & young where everyone around her dies. it also blurs the line between good and evil more bc 'oh he's the older bad guy' is just such an easy solve. also while ben barnes is a snack imo the darkling was supposed to have a more alluring, youthful magnetism.
making genya's scars barely a few scratches. she's supposed to objectively have lost her former self perfected beauty!!! this is a thing!!! she doesn't just have some deep scars, she's supposed to look hideous at first sight, where is show adaptation teams' courage to show characters that are supposed to be mutilated as just that???? i promise audiences can survive on literally everyone else on the cast being very stereotypically pretty/handsome 🙄🙄🙄🙄
changing wesper's storyline so that they had a one night stand before canon sets in??? what kind of bullshit is that??? fucking robbing me of the "just girls?" -"not just girls" gay ANgST will they won't they, does jesper like him too, will they ever - BAM. KISS. !!!!!!! succession??? making wylan cute and awkward does NOT compensate their book storyline At All what were those show writers thinking??? 😭😭
this one i will forgive but i still rly liked it in the books so im a tad sad they didn't manage to include it: that alina has a time where she thinks she is morozova's second daughter's descendant. in many respects she has learned she is Special, and the shame she feels when she realizes this isn't another one of these cases, this isn't a way to finally show her A Path, that in this respect she is ordinary and mal is tied to fate that way, that's just such a good touch.
malina going seperate ways. what happened to "they had an ordinary life full of ordinary things--if love can ever be called that."????? "choice is true north" my ASS 😤😤😤😤 malina have always been in love and will always be in love idc abt the firebird amplifier thing that was just sth they had to do they've always been people and they've always loved each other there is no way around it
things i DID like about shadow and bone (netflix)
david and genya. specifically the delivery of the lines "I … I don’t understand half of what goes on around me. I don’t get jokes or sunsets or poetry, but I know metal. Beauty was your armor. Fragile stuff, all show. But what’s inside you? That’s steel. It’s brave and unbreakable. And it doesn’t need fixing. You don't need fixing."
genya telling the queen how she poisoned the king, and genya spitting at nikolai how his apologies are of no use and that he needs to prove a better king. generally just genya. 💞
nikolai sending his mother away + what he says to her.
all the malina flashbacks to the meadow <33
malina last night together 😳😳 they love each other sm!!!!!
the scene at morozova's home. baghra sharing her past, all the reveals happening there, and of course the darkling weeping over his mother's body. "know that i loved you. know that it wasn't enough." like OkAY.
sankta neyar's speech. so deeply touching, and doesn't just apply to immortals but to all of us who have been hurt and suffered loss before.
the darkling begging alina to let him be her monster. A+ delivery.
"How will you have me? Fully clothed, gloves on, your head turned away so our lips can never touch? I will have you without armour, Kaz Brekker. Or I will not have you at all." generally the entirety of kanej in this show. inej's hallucination. the mirroring to the last scene. breathtaking showstopping flawless.
little rabbit.
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daughterofadeadman · 6 months
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The Bonds That Tie:
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Head cannons 18+ 18+ 18+ 18+ 18+ 18+
Bc there is literally no fucking content for this book series and I love the fucking characters so much. Some of the head cannons are horny some are just really sad. Spoilers for sure but if you don’t know what I’m talking about it might not spoil anything.
The Bonds That Tie by J Bree
Gabe
He loves the idea that everyone knows his bond wants him.
If he could get away with it he would 100% show everyone in town just how much his bond wants him iykyk
He LITERALLY asked if he could eat Oli out on the back of his motorcycle 😭😭 he doesn’t care if it’s in public
I also think he loves when Oli wants to fuck more than one of them at a time. It’s like a competition in his brain.
He wants to be the one to fuck her the best. He wants her to crave him just as he craves her.
I also think it hurt him the most when Oli disappeared. Everyone else already had some type of trauma before that but Gabe didn’t. He literally had a full on break down when he found out she was gone. Plus he was only 14 when it happened.
Gabe didn’t know what it was like NOT to be loved. Everyone loved him so why was it that his bond, the one person who would love him above all else didn’t want him? That broke him.
Atlas
It feels out of character for me that Atlas is covered in tattoos. He comes from a very wealthy family. And he is like indestructible. So I think they were a form of self harm for him.
Like he’s this self assured asshole rich kid that can do or say whatever he wants bc there will never be any consequences. Except he doesn’t think anyone really loves him.
It’s not until he understands what his mother did for him does he understand and she loved him in the only way she could.
When Oli disappeared I think it solidified in his mind that no one would ever really love him. And that’s when I think he found a way to start getting tattoos. And that shit would have to hurt like hell bc, like I said indestructible. So a little needle isn’t gonna do it.
Gryphon
Gryphon fucks. That’s not even a head cannon that’s just fucking cannon.
This man. This man I stg.
While I know Gryphon knows Oli doesn’t belong to him, I also know that when he is fucking her he wants her to forget that.
This is a man who asks her who her pussy belongs to and if she answers wrong he makes her regret it.
Also he is into her leaving marks. He wants the rest of the bond group to know just how much she likes fucking him. And he does know bc he can literally read her mind.
Plus I think when she was still living in the dorms, even though he trusted Gabe to walk her home and keep her safe, he sat out in the parking lot or hung out on the first floor with the security guard to keep her safe.
Okay not just to keep her safe he was also so fucking scared she would run away again and he couldn’t live with himself knowing she was out in the world and didn’t want him as much as he wanted her.
North
The reason North is so mean to her when she first got back is because she hurt Nox. Not because she left him. He can deal with people being mean to him, hating him, but his brother doesn’t deserve that no matter how big of an asshole he might be sometimes.
The reason he thinks she’s a gold digger is bc the only women who would look past the monster of his bond were women who wanted his money. Why would his bonded be any different?
The night they went to the dinner party together he let himself pretend that it wasn’t fake. That he could kiss her whenever he wanted to. That he could hold her hand and she wouldn’t pull away. That she wasn’t acting. That every night she could be his and love him like he couldn’t love himself. That they could be a normal bonded. But when she looked at him with hate in her eyes he was reminded that she wanted to run away again and wouldn’t tell him why. That is the reason when she asked for them to stop at a store he ignored her. If she couldn’t love him then he wouldn’t love her.
But it was so hard. He loved everything about her. He used all of his resources to find out her favorite drink and food. He had contacted every school she had ever went to, every friend she had ever made and asked countless questions in hopes of finding her when she left. If there was anything to know about Oleander Fallows, he knew it. But it didn’t help him get her back.
Nox
Nox didn’t want a bonded. After what had happened in his childhood he didn’t need one at all. He didn’t want one to mirror his parents either. Maybe if he didn’t have to share a bonded with North like his mother and her sister (North’s mother) had he could have given it a try.
But when they got the results back that his brother shared his bonded with him, his heart sunk. Would history repeat itself? Would they be doomed to the same cycle of torture?
Nox wanted to run. He wanted to get as far away from the news as he could. So when he heard that Oli had run the first thing he felt was relief. The second? Sadness. Regret. Longing. And then he settled in anger.
How dare she not want him? How dare she be bonded to him and not want him. Nox felt abandoned. He felt the terror and trauma from his childhood come creeping right back in. So he decided to hate her just like he hated his mother.
He replaced his hatred of one bonded for another.
After a few years of hating Oli and being glad she was gone, she came back. He watched as it destroyed his family once again and he decided that they would all be better if she was gone again. He wished she would just disappear. So instead of being sad that she didn’t love him, that she didn’t want him, that she didn’t care about him, he was angry. So angry he couldn’t sleep. Couldn’t eat. Couldn’t breath. That’s why he started drinking. To be drunk was to be numb. To be numb was to be safe. With her back he knew he would never be safe again.
Oleander
I think Oli’s first kiss was with Nox in the hallway after the tacteam scene and it makes me so mad for her. I hate that scene with Nox so much it made me hate him.
When Oli got away from Davies i think she made up scenarios about each of her bonds. She saw their pictures when she was in the hospital at 14 and their ages so she made up whole lives for all of them. At 16 she decided what Gifts she thought suited them best and what nicknames they might give her. She loved them so much without ever meeting them.
Oli was sure she would die without ever meeting her bonds and she was okay with that as long as it meant they would always be safe.
When she was 14 she was most excited about meeting Gabe and Atlas when she found out they were to be her bonded bc they were the same age as her. Then Nox and Gryphon because 19 isn’t that old but she wasn’t excited about meeting North because he was 24 years old. And that was just gross. What would they even have in common?
When the tacteam found her in the cafe she was excited to see her bonds for the first time but also so fucking scared she couldn’t breath. She never wanted to hurt them.
The first night in her dorm room she cried. She cried so hard she ended up passing out. She cried for all the time she wasted on the run bc what was it for if they were in danger again? She cried for her parents and she cried for herself because she could never have them. She could never love them the way she wanted to because she had to leave them again. She cried so hard and for so long she almost didn’t wake up for class. Her eyes were swollen and her nose was runny.
Oli had a diary where she wrote down all of their last names with hers just to test them out. Oleander Draven? Oleander Shore? Oleander Bassinger? Oleander Ardern? She decided that they would just have to take her last name because she was the central bond. Oleander Fallows sounded best after all.
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BESTIE IM SOOSOSOSOSOS HAPPY POYT IS OUT but idk i couldn’t shake the feeling that i was reading a different fic, everyone was super OOC like omega being more brazen and yelling, i always imagined omega as more of the silent type and homegirl was BOLD, steve was just soo different..he was kinda giving manchild and pathetic and just different and i mean poyt!steve is a MANCHILD but idk they just didnt hit the same. It was the ending i expected and was glad that omega got her happy ending but i just wanted angst honestly. I expected peter to take her away and steve just like find them somehow, idk it felt like i was reading a different story, were you perhaps influenced by other characters because they felt a bit off…Anyway it was long and really happy 5 is out! SO SAD TO SEE POYT COMING TO AN END😭 AAH I MISS IT ALREADY, i feel like poyt 3 was like my fav chapter of the whole series, it just slapped and you’re a fantastic writer and i hope this message didn’t offend you in anyway! I just wanted to tell you my opinion, I CHECKED UR ACC EVERY SINGLE DAY FOR A POYT UPDATE(not joking 100% serious)
Oof. So when I first read this comment about a week ago, I was pretty upset and hurt by it. Again, I feel like it is very tactless to say this to someone who spent so long writing something and was so nervous about it being posted.
But okay, let’s get into it then…
1) you felt like it was out of character that omega was being “bold” by being brazen and yelling bc you imagined her as more of the silent type. Okay. So you just wanted to read almost 40k words of her being shy and stuttering and having absolutely no growth while the worst things in life happened to her and everyone just walked all over her? You wanted absolutely no character growth? You wanted her to just remain quiet and docile and never be comfortable. You didn’t want her to stand up for herself when this madman Bucky is about to SA her? You wanted her to remain all bashful and shy and quiet and not show any emotion when she found out her mother left her? Okay then… Look, I’m a very quiet person but sometimes when I’m pushed so far, I WILL react. I think it’s extremely weird of you to think someone would just remain shy and docile forever when such terrible things are happening to her. It’s like… what exactly did you want to read??? You didn’t want her to react to anything?? All that being said, I feel like she still WAS shy in the moments that weren’t her mom leaving or the confrontation with Bucky. Like she literally still is shy, it’s only when she’s being pushed to the limit that she reacts like almost anyone else in her position would. Do you think shy people don’t yell? I’m really confused…. Because omega has lashed out in the other parts too. In POYT 4, and POYT 3 and even in POYT 2. So… idec what you mean by that being OOC.
2) Steve being a “manchild” Girl… idk WHAT fic you were reading before POYT 5 bc Steve has ALWAYS given manchild vibes. Like always. But I think I know what you mean. It seems like you didn’t like that big strong tough alpha Steve was acting “pathetic” and having panic attacks. Because God forbid someone make their characters react different to different things and God forbid someone make their characters multi-faceted, right? I’m sorry it “didn’t hit the same” for you, but I don’t know what you thought you’d achieve by telling me this. I’m proud of how i characterised Steve, and many have told me his progression was realistic and the panic attack made sense. Steve has always been all over the place with his emotions, ever since POYT 4.
3) i literally cannot believe how you’ve actually sent me this and I will not be gaslighted by anyone chiming in being like “omg that anon didn’t mean to be rude” bc idec. This WAS rude. You’re complaining because the fic “didn’t hit the same” and you didn’t get what you were expecting. Fair enough, feel that way all you want. But I wrote this fucking behemoth of a fic for free, and I don’t need to see comments like this. Idec if you sprinkled in a few compliments at the end bc this was the most backhanded thing I’ve ever read. To the point where it’s almost laughable bc either you meant to be rude and backhanded, or you’re just not self aware enough.
“I expected Peter to take her away” okay? Do you want me to apologise for not writing the plot the way YOU wanted it to go? Bffr. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not a fan of cliche stuff like that, I never intended for him to take her away. “I just wanted angst” There was angst. It was very angsty. If you want a more angsty fic, write one yourself.
“Poyt 3 was my fav, it just slapped” this is the most backhanded thing ever 😂😂😂😂 it’s like you didn’t want any progression, any resolution. WHICH AGAIN, that’s fine if that’s what you’re into! But write it yourself jfc.
I just want to ask you this. If you had written a 37k fic over the course of more than six months FOR FREE and then nervously posted it, only to get a backhanded message like this one… how would that feel? I mean it’s one thing if I was a paid author, then you can criticise me all you fucking want bc at least you’re paying me to read my shit.
But to read it and come back telling me the characters felt off, that you felt like you were reading a different story, etc etc. It is not nice. I remember reading this message a week ago and I literally burst into tears bc I was so sensitive. I wish you’d sent this not through anon so I could keep note of who you are and maybe block you or keep you away from my writing bc honestly? I don’t want you even reading it. But oh well.
And I know many of you will read this and say I’m overreacting but I don’t care. This is me being truthful. This wasn’t nice. Goodbye and please unfollow me.
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hey :)
I'm following lots of Tumblrs now but you're the reason this app's installed 🫶🏼
MH wasn't actually the first fanfiction I've ever read on wattpad but it was the last one😭 it's like now that I know about MH it feels like other fanfictions on that app will never be as good?
anyways, so after reading MH (all chapters) it's then that I decided to install Tumblr and follow you on here 'cause I've seen people saying that you're more active here, and tbh I wanted to know you better
after that I literally read ALL of your works🥹 they're SO GOOD and it's sad that they aren't getting the recognition they deserve 🥲 I can't explain how amazing your stories are and I truly can see your hard work
now that time had passed, I wanted to thank you, mainly for writing MH, because that's the reason I have this app were I made new friends and read incredible stories💜 I discovered amazing writers whom I can see are gonna turn out to be huge someday🥹 the talent is indescribable and I'm truly honoured to have known you🫶🏼
you're an expert at writing. you have many many well-written stories. you have the talent which I appreciate so much. you can make me feel every emotion through your words, and the way of you describing everything, your storylines, your plots, characters, angst, fluff, smut.. they're all perfect 💜🫶🏼
another thing I've been wanting to say.. you're doing this for FREE, you're not getting anything in return so PLEASE don't give away the things that are important to you.. your health☹️ I know. I won't be able to understand the pressure you're under right now, or you've BEEN under since MH started to blow up.. but now that I know you enough to care for you, can I ask you to not care? It's hard I know, these dumb people won't ever stop sending you messages asking for more updates. but if you think about it, who fucking cares? are these idiots more important than you? you have fans now, we all care for you💜 we all wish you nothing but the best🫶🏼 and we'll throw hands when needed💪🏼
you're one of a kind. you're sweet, kind, honest, talented, and a good friend who deserves to be happy. if these people who call themselves fans can spread negative energy just for an update, SCREW THEM. we can wait, we've waited before and it wasn't a big deal🤷🏻‍♀️ MH is AMAZING don't get me wrong but life goes on? updates will come and go just like everything else in this world. and it will someday have a last chapter what about that? what are they gonna do when reading the last one? will they ask you for another fanfiction? they won't stop🤷🏻‍♀️
think about yourself for one moment and tell me, are they worth your time? energy? health? are they worth the exhaustion you feel?
don't EVER feel guilty for any decision you make💜💜💜 you're your own person
I love you <3
Hello!! Wow, thank you! I’m glad I seem to be interesting enough that ppl want to get me better 🤭 I’m always amazed how many readers support me in so many different ways. I’m very thankful in this aspect, I’ll always cherish it!
Honestly, I don’t think I deserve this much love and support. I’ve said this many times but it’s true 😭 I don’t know what I did to deserve you guys! And just to be clear, y’all are not my fans (calling you that just seems ridiculous to me 😭 I’m sorry 🤧). You are my precious readers and I’m just an ordinary girl who’s apparently got a big imagination 🤭
You’re right! There are more important things in this world than updates 🪐 I hope I can continue to be a part of your life and free time no matter how much I update in a month or a year.
Thank you very much for all the lovely messages! I’m always pouting, ready to cry how sweet y’all are to me! It really touches my heart and I’ll be forever thankful! I’ll always remember this part of my life 💫
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literally your tags 1000% that’s just the fic dkdkfk ok so it starts in donna’s era & one night the doctor & jack are hanging out & playing poker & drinking in jacks suite on the tardis (still can’t believe that’s a real line that he had a room there but anyway fjfjf) & somehow they get on the subject & ten asks jack how he knew he was bi & basically they have a conversation about how the doctor is ~questioning~ things(yes ik he’s like 900 but so what i want jack to be his gay awakening) & then jack like offers to fuck him to see if he likes it but the doctor says no at first bc he knows jacks in love with him & it wouldn’t be fair to him since he can’t offer jack anything more. & basically he says just that but jacks like yeah ik you ik you don’t do relationships i’ve accepted that years ago but im still offering. & the doctors like hmmmm😳 and then they fuck on the couch by the fireplace. anyways so they make a rule about how it was a onetime thing & wont affect their friendship but afterwards ten’s shook as hell bc /woah/. & jacks all cool abt it and doesn’t think twice. then some time goes by & it’s about ten realizing he’s in love with jack except jacks still going around doing his thing, dating other people bc that’s what they agreed on right? so the doctors pining over him & jack doesn’t know it. then ten regenerates, says goodbye to jack (the bar scene where he tells jack that guys name which to jack just reaffirms the doctors not into him). anyway then more time passes except jack hasn’t met eleven yet so when he runs into him finally, he doesn’t recognize him & doesn’t know who he is. so there’s a scene like 12 & rivers scene where she talks abt the doctor not caring about her right in front of him (yes i’m stealing this ok). and the elevens like bro it’s me. and then they go off continuing fighting aliens or whatever except the whole time elevens mad & thinking about what jack said about him & he’s upset jack thinks of him like that. anyway they get into a fight about it and then in the middle of it jack dies (for a sec) & the doctor holds him while he dies & then comes back. & then we get a sad/angry love confession & they date the end
also glitch by taylor swift is 1000% the vibe of this fic & my friend made a tenjack video to the song😭
PERFECT I LOVE IT also I 10000% am so glad someone else reads the tenjack to elevenjack pipeline as "ten being too repressed about his feelings to say or do anything and eleven walking in like 'damn that guy was stupid! anyway I'm in love with u!'" like this is so similar to how @stheta and I's RP progressed. ur so big-brained u understand them
OUR ELEVEN AND JACK EVEN HAD A SIMILAR ARGUMENT LIKE DAMN yeah it is really them
if eleven and jack ever interacted in canon they genuinely would've had to fuck like no way around it
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graveyardescape · 7 months
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make the word tag 🖊️
thank u for the tag @kahvilahuhut !!!!!! :))
RULES: Using the 3 random words given to you, you have to write a scene either using all 3 words in one scene OR write three separate scenes using each word separately.
my words were chair, moon & beverage ; i tried to figure out what to write for beverage but i just COULD NOT omfg im so sorry. so there's only two 😭
i tag anyone who sees this with the words fun, gold and stars!
i. chair
“Sit down, please,” Xorna says. “Goodness, even the guards are scared of you.”
Jessica continues pacing through the main room of the castle, her boots stomping several loud thuds into the tile beneath. She’s biting her fingernails, making furious noises between each gnaw that really are starting to scare the guards, Xorna can sense. She’s ignoring Xorna, which is the bravest thing she’s ever seen any human do.
“I just don’t — I don’t get it,” Jessica hisses. She doesn’t stop moving, continues fluttering about the castle like a fragile Earth moth. “Soren’s not -- I mean, he’s always had a dark sense of humor, but he’d never threaten anyone else unless it was for a good reason.”
“Maybe he thinks you’re a good reason.”
“He should know I wouldn’t want him to hurt anyone.”
Xorna gives her a sad look. She approaches Jessica with caution -- as if approaching a terrified, cowering creature -- and places a hand on her shoulder with a surprising amount of tenderness, an amount she could never have imagined exerting for a human before today.
“If I let you sit in my chair, will you finally talk to me instead of at me?”
“What do you care? You’re a de—wait.” Her face twists. “Your chair… the throne? You’d let me sit in the throne of this place?”
“...Desperate times. What do you say?”
ii. moon
Zee buries his head in his hands. It’s cold out, dark. He can feel things like that now -- physical sensations like cold and pain, mental sensations like cold and pain. There aren’t a lot of stars in Knife’s Edge; the sky above is merely a flood of black with white specks scattered across it like scraps of street litter. There’s no point in looking up, and he’s too familiar with looking down, so yes, he buries his head in his hands, runs his fingers over his insectoid-rough skin, and tries to remember what a lack of sentience is like.
But he’s not even allowed peace. “Hey, bee boy. You lost?”
It’s Ivy’s voice. He groans, makes a point of his sigh. 
“That’s a loaded question,” Zee replies, through sharp teeth.
She takes a seat next to him on the bench. “I feel that.” Ivy laughs. “It’s kinda easy to get lost, isn’t it? Here at the mansion, and also, just, like, in general. It’s all so fucking complicated. We didn’t sign up for this.”
“I didn’t sign up for any of this. I don’t even want to be here.”
“Yeah, I don’t either, but life isn’t always fair, Zee. Sometimes you just gotta deal.” Ivy begins humming, an indiscernable tune. “Ugh, I can’t believe I’m fucking saying this. You have to look at the bright side. Sure, the person who created you is batshit insane and evil, and sure, now you have to kill the person who gave you life, but…. but you know what? I’m not helping.”
“You’re trying, so thanks. I just can’t see any bright side.”
“Then look at something bright?” Ivy suggests with a telling laugh. “C’mon, Zee. Look at something.”
Zee groans again, but his hands recoil to his sides. His eyes open, and he looks up on instinct.
“The moon’s bright,” he says.
“There you go. There’s always a bright side, even in total darkness. Sometimes it’s a literal bright side, and you’re just looking at the moon, but at least the moon is still there.”
“That’s too profound for someone like you.”
“Well, it’s mainly Winter’s brownies talking. Think of it this way: at least you don’t have to do this shit alone.”
Zee nods. “Yeah,” he says. “I guess.”
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(1/2) i just finished ocean and engines and 👁️👁️ i am typing this with snot running down my nose and tears in my eyes i think this is the most ive cried over a fic that was so heartbreaking and beautiful oh my god im in PAIN (just what i needed to ignore the actual pain in my real life) woman you are literally crazy fkdkfkfkfkkfkfj i don’t even know how you came up with that im still trying to process but the quotes ??? the inner dialogue ??? all so raw and beautiful just beautiful i fucking sobbed at max’s quote about grief 😭 AND NETEYAM MATING SOMEONE ELSE????? I CANT TAKE IT MY HEART ACTUALLY FELT SAD AT THE ENDING i was not expecting that AT ALL im gonna spend the rest of the night cryijg actually i love this so much but i don’t think i can read it again … just kidding I CAN read it again but not for a while this feels like fresh wound and i just got off my period so im more sensitive
OFKDKFKD 2 part of my ask is coming after i read the alternative version
BABY your asks/replies/messages mean so much to me I wish I had a better way of telling you just how much, but pls know you are a very big reason why I am still writing and still working so hard to improve myself and make something (hopefully) better each time :( you've been w me since the beginning and have always been so supportive and I LOVE YOU OMGG
i'm so happy you enjoyed it, and I'm sorry if it hurt you, it hurt me too, i literally bawled my eyes out for days writing this, i don't actually think i cried more even at the archer, there's just something so heartbreaking about two people who love each other and can't be together and i hope i captured that to some extent.
i hope it was an ending that looked up, though, my intention was to show that life does go on, and she did get a lot of what she wanted and can now finally be one of the people and feel "useful" and like she belongs.
also you have to blame the ending on the song, which i am obsessed with, bc initially it was going to be after happiness by taylor swift, and it was going to be still probably just as sad, but it would have had a different tone to it, for sure
tysm again and ily and i hope it didn't hurt too badly, and i understand if you don't want to read it again lol hahahah
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thevampirearchive · 1 year
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Commentary on Interview With The Vampire - Episode 4 (Spoilers)
Now why did I think that was a cotton tree. Does Cotten even grow on trees? Okay
Omfg diaries! CLAUDIA MA CHÈRIE!
Black Angel :) he is beautiful! Pls, I love this!
From a young person perspective, I’m with Lestat. Imagine being a child forever? I’d loose my mind. @ vampires pls don’t turn me till I’m a crisp 35 pls and thank you.
“I dont know” I know this pisssed Lestat off. Like why you bring her here WITHOUT ANY PLANS? But also? Same Louis, same.
And ofc begging will help because Lestat would literally do anything to make his man’s happy, king.
Louis trusting Lestat and not saying anything as he nearly drained her —- iktr
Pls not a street cat, I love her.
“If you want it to be” Louis where will she go if it’s not pls he’s so nice, giving options and not tryna scare her. Lestat would have said yes ofc, and if you need anything else, tell me because I’m very rich.
“That make him the dumb one” not me weezing, child pls. And all while Lestat in the dark.
I love this tho, them communicating like this and watch Lestat be jealous as he should.
“What’s he saying” he’s so irritated! This is the reality Edward Cullen thinks he wants but trust, he doenst. Nobody does.
Relying on Louis words alone would make me anxious cuz it’s not like they understand eachother most of the time. And now miss C has access ? Yeah hang in their Lestat.
Not him calling her his lil Milkweed — IM SCREAMING
“Family secrets” awwwww. And Lestat got so happy! I’m so exited.
Uncle Les and Daddy Lou are the cutest nicknames!
Aww her observing them! She’s so cute.
Pls not the vegetarian parents vs the carnivore parent feuding. EAT HIM EAT HIM EAT HIM! Love how she sounds a lil sad but not for long cuz she about to have the best time and Louis will scream cry throw up
Lmaoooo ‘it has movement’ no because speak! Lestat, pls, You’ve been dragged for your outfits twice while we watched, you’re not a fashion icon pls you’re just French.
Pls not her smelling someone better hhhhahahahaa glad the swans are safe.
Ew not the singing, she’s so creepy, it’s perfect!
‘Not a cop’ Claudia said ACAP purr, that’s my niece for sure.
Lmaooo not now Lestat, he’s really tryna ‘that’s my baby’ rn? We’re busy bro pls have your proud father moment at home (but yes that’s y’a girl! PEIROD)
Lestat smiling at Louis as he really he’s him what Lestat taught him :) and I’m sure he’s especially happy because Louis had that whole morality dilemma. And now, he’s not even springing it on Claudia! Good!
Lmao she’s so pouty , same. Start screaming and kicking. “From starvation” hahahahaha ON HER KNEES, pls they need to pay attention or she’ll eat the streets💀
LMAO she’s having too much fun! FROG LEGS? Y’all sure this isn’t Leatats daughter?
Not her smashing the macaron, I know Lestat screamed cry threw up at the sight. It’s his country’s national treasur!
Hahahah not Kill Juice!
I love how she plays in the light! She’s such a kid Argh same.
Yes Daddy Lou is cute but Lil waif? Lmao not him calling her a fucking abandoned neglected poor orphan to her face 😭names go hard tho tho — they should drop a track
‘The book is her friend’ not Louis translating to Lestat who still don’t get it. She talks to books cuz she her daddy’s daughter hello? What’s not clicking.
Pls not the pen scribbling, it’s so loud 😭
And they squished in the coffin like sardines! MAMA,WE TRAPPED INNA THIS BOMBOOOOOOOO! WE CANNOT ESCAPE WE CANNOT GET OUT! WE TRAPPED LOKE A PACK OF SARDINES
NOT Lestat tryna threaten her and she unbothered, PEIROD. Nobody cares if your tiers uncle Les, answer the question 🔫
Omg! Louis French is good :) lmao Lestat just yelling FUCJING he’ll. Iconic. Lestat is super young-acting tho so idk how that was thrown at him. He’s mad cuz he cannot sleep, he cannot rest, 🎶a single mom who works two jobs —🎶
Pls not her testing the coffin, same.
Hahahahahahah not his feet in her face, baby was traumatized!
Not catching them get it on, ‘you miss me’ 🤓 yes pookie, hahaha I loved that
Glad Claudia realizes the hypocrisy, but don’t question him too much 😭 glad Louis set her straight cuz he’s been yelled at now a lil too much.
Pls not him explaining queerness, purr. She’s so freaking cute! Perfect casting!
Pls Claudia looks disgusted THAT FISH LOOKS NASTY INDEED. He’s tryna convert her and she’s still frowning, lmaoo. I lowkey don’t like this cuz he’s confusing her because he’s so tightly connected to his humanity still vs her adjusting so well already.
Pls not the call for prayer, mashallah. i could go on a 7 day rant about vampires and Muslims, and how Christian’s should step aside cuz their religion does not have the full facilities to hold such supernatural creatures to begin with! PURR
Claudia was out here on some author shit. Wrote all down like her life depended on it.
Her room is so nice. Lmao not her throwing stuff at him I’m screaming!
I’m glad she explains how time flies, cuz some ppl think eternal immortality is = boredom. YOU FOOLS!
Aww she truly is a child! Gets between her dads when they fight? Many of us are having war flashbacks, I bet.
Pls not them watching Nosfaratu and laughing! Same. The mockery. Pls
Another funeral, haven’t people died enough? And She wore red to a funeral? Baby, I bet it was lestats idea.
Pls not his sister against same
Sex parents hahahahahahahahha enough.
Not the smugness of Louis, same💀 I bet he’s sad tho, but still resentful after all.
Pls not his sister thinking Lestat pays for it all.. he does but Louis pays him back :/ put some respect on his name. And the threat. Pls! Their like a lil family of killers.
NOT THE SMELL! She was stood up there like that picture of blue Ivy
Lestat pls be Fr! cuz he acts however he wants and doenst care, and that’s why her behavior was fine lmaoo
Uncle Les and you are Evil Twins lmao, iconic evil twins.
Not him having the most convekyrrd complicated sex talk 😭 even i was slime huh? So he’s teaching her how to drive and what love and sex is? Iconic.
If someone called me belladonna I’d scream, that’s my fav nickname for her — why is he comparing her to drugs like this? Sir? 😭
Pls not them hunting together how Louis said he hated. Louis did tell her she hated it for a reason and I see why, but I see why Lestat loves it. Creepy, weird, enticing snd perverse.
Lmao not her just jumping him, I love this scene. “She’s with me” purr.
She’s realizing! I love it! But realizing too hard cuz now you playing grown.
‘Jumped a girl’ LMAO period, Lestat is so proud of her and Louis is terrified 😭I’m both 🫶🏾 Except that outfit is giving elderly, she truly is lestat’s daughter.
Pls, not darkie, I’m triggered y’all. 💀 NOT DARKIE. Almost had her commit homicide.
Omg he kinda looks like Louis’ brother :) omg.
Oh my gosh, she’s like a fanfic writer her thoughts hve be giggling.
She reads so fast she doenst even look down, me when? All so she could go see her man’s do his rounds!
THE FLOWERS! PLS! Not the blocking! ‘This is your father speaking’ LOUIS GET OUT OF HER HEAD! Can a girl get some privecy in here ?
Omg she’s matured so much! WAIT! I need a timeline cuz she said 19, is she lying or has 2. Years passed? If so, it took her almost 2 years to complete one diary? That seems fake.
Pls not the horse 😭 she’s finally getting what she wanted. But now I’m scared. ‘Your an Angel’ leave that man’s neck alone baby girl, cuz it cannot end good! YOUR KILLING HIM! CLAU! CLAU! NOOOOO! The horse fighting for its life in the back cuz she killed him!
I love her and I’m so sorry baby girl but not taking him home knowing your uncle is Lestat…. He’s gonna hurt your feelings Fr
‘He’s dead’ thump — I AN SCREAMING.
Louis: Lestat :/ — translation: be empathetic pls
Lestat: :) what? :)? — Translation: I keep telling y’all we vampires but everybody in this fucking house wants to mess around and be entangled with humans so this why y’all get, bodies bodies bodies..
‘Clean up after yoursel’ AND IM SCREAMING AGAIN. Y’all don’t understand this is him when he’s angry. When he’s yelling and shit? That’s him hurt and frustrated. Smiling and smooth and snip? Yeah y’all have him pissed.
Talk about taking actions for your responsibility. Lestat would be a ‘let it cry itself to sleep’ type of parent. He has to teach her tho or she’s gonna be miserable. And I love how harsh he is with her cuz this is exactly how Louis would have had to face the music if Lestat wasn’t so in love and so afraid of loosing him that he forced gentleness and patience out. Lestat fed up tho, he cannot have a Louis 2.0 situation, Mans 159, he’s tired.
“I don’t want you” 🤨 Louis, quickly, who does this remind you of? Option 1. You? Option 2. toi?
Not Anne Frank and Stephen king, Daniel…. 😀
‘I had two and their—’ lmaooo Daniel finish the sentence 💀
They have a lot of dark eras of their lives, ngl.
‘Bandaid for a shitty marriage’ DANIEL😭 this man must be an earth sign cuz what’s this brutality. Taurus maybe ? Or a
Coffin scene smacked. Omg the flavors! Me at 3am having yet another mental breakdown nBUT WORST. She’s realizing everything and it’s rushing thru her, poor baby about to end it. Pls and the nock on wood, CLAUDIA
LESTAT! LOUIS! GET HER! Their truly parents to an emo child cuz she basically cutting and venting to paper and I cannot beleive that’s how it ends :/ GIVE ME MORE DAMN IT!
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frodolives · 2 years
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Had several female hysteria moments tonight!
I hardly ever go to the movies. If an interesting new movie comes out I usually just wait until it becomes available to pirate online. But for some reason I woke up today with a really passionate desire to go see the new Elvis movie on the big screen. None of my friends are available today so I decided I was going to try to kick social anxiety’s ass and just go and see the movie by myself. I’ve never been to the theatre alone before so I was really nervous walking in but as soon as I got there I realized it wasn’t really a big deal so that was a big win for my mental health!
Anyway, I really really liked the movie! Which kind of surprised me because usually when I watch music biopics I become pretentious and end up finding a lot of things to hate. And when the movie started I wasn’t liking it, it was just so incredibly busy and fast-paced and there was so much weird tiktok-esq music added into it for some reason. I started writing a snarky letterboxd review in my head ("oh hell naw 😭 they modernized Elvis") BUT THEN the first performance happened and ohhhh man.
I think this movie is required to watch in theatre. I know if I watched this on my cheap little laptop I’d probably find the film cheesy+cringe. But sitting in that theatre with the loud ass 360 speakers blaring some of my fav music and the giant image of the Elvis-actor writhing around and fucking the air (he did a crazy good acting job btw)…. I felt the female hysteria rattle through my whole being!!! A 10/10 experience. Sure, the film wasn’t THAT historically accurate, but i don’t care… there’s no way to make a film 100% accurate anyway so i think the main purpose of a biopic is to portray the energy of the individual as best as possible, so for Elvis, the movie had to be loud+sexy+grand and it was!! The ending of the film even moved me emotionally so there was that as well. I recommend.
But as if that wasn’t enough rock n roll history for the night, as the credits rolled and I walked out of the theatre and down the hall to the exit, something magical happened to me. Out of my peripheral vision I see none other than the beatles!! There were a lot of people in the hallway so I didn’t stop to take a proper pic, but I managed to take this as I walked by for proof… (blacked out some parts of the text because I don’t want to doxx myself so easily)
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So apparently the movie theatre used to be a real theatre and the fucking Beatles performed here?? I was sitting where THE BEATLES used to be?? The stage was where the ticket buying area now is so for a moment I was literally standing exactly where John and Paul did that gay little mic sharing thing… I didn’t even realize how emotionally attached to the Beatles I truly was until that moment. Just the knowledge that I stood where the Beatles stood was enough to make me weak at the knees. I know my british (and even american) mutuals will prob laugh at me but as a born and raised Saskatchewan girl I had accepted the sad reality that I’d never be close to anything historically cool, in fact it was one of the reasons I moved, so that was a first time experience.
But this all reminded me of some cool Saskatchewan lore I’ve never shared on here before. Perhaps the one cool historical thing. There’s a really small town in the middle of nowhere with a little rundown building called Danceland. It was by the beach. I would go there during the summers as a kid and I remember my friends and I playing around on and behind the stage in Danceland, since there was nobody else there except some old guys who would sit there together to drink and play cards. They kept telling us stories about how once upon a time the town was bustling with life and colour and Elvis would come and play in Danceland. I can’t find any proof of it online other than some people on Facebook reminiscing about it, apparently it happened around ‘53/’54. Very interesting stuff. So there’s my possible connection to Elvis Presley as well!
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So yeah. You could say I experienced some good old fashioned female hysteria TWICE tonight. A true girl moment. History and rock and roll are my favourite things in the world ❤️❤️❤️ amen
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heesulovebot · 2 years
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bl/gl tag game
i was tagged by the lovely @gunsatthaphan​ thank u!!!! even tho this was the hardest thing ever lol i loved it 💕
your all time favourite bl character and why.
i’m just going to ignore the lack of plurals in that question and go with my top 5 faves (i’m a libra i can’t choose just one sobs). in no particular order:
tine teepakorn - i have never related to a bisexual character more. also he is sO dumb it hurts how much i love him dsknfkjdnf
kurosawa yuichi - he is the softest man, the biggest dork, and those smile whiskers literally cured my depression. idk man i just think he’s neat :(💕
kang seojun - there’s something inherently sad about seojun but the fact that he smiles through everything.... *head in fucking hands*
cha siwon - queen dasuel really knows how to write sympathetic-pathetic charas so well lmfao like, the secondhand embarrassment i got from him and the fact that i still adored him through it all. iconic, truly. another insecure character i relate to on a deeply personal level 🤪🤙
aoki sota - insecure bisexual.... holy shit i’m sensing a pattern here. he is pure of heart, dumb of ass, and i would kill a man for him and hashimoto
what’s your one character from a bl you wanted to punt into the stratosphere (you only get one so choose wisely).
aj i love you but i wanted to punt non so bad in dbk lmfaoooo
the best music moment from a bl.
wait idk what music moment means so uhm if we’re talking theme songs i still bump to gen y’s ost to this day an absolute banger. if we’re talking music in a scene... hands down scrubbs!!! still remember how the fandom lost it @ the headphone sharing concert scene in ep. 4 and it was all JA TUM TOOK TOOK YAANG 🗣️ ever since 
what’s a popular heterosexual text that you would like to see adapted into a bl/gl?
i’ll take any 90s rom-com but make it ✨queer✨ also: any jane austen!!  
a scene from a bl that always makes you laugh.
the white lion gang— particularly any line boss had (which you just know was a gunsmile adlib) but also the scene in s2g when the cake goes on fire and boss, the freak that he is, is like “cool!” whilst everyone else is freaking out around him jsdnfjdksn also i nearly died laughing when we walk into one of the scenes and boss is telling phukong “i knew your brother when he was this big [motions fist] and now he’s this big [slides hand down fist]” idkidk it’s just gunsmile’s expressions kill me. also: all of adachi’s spastic outbursts (esp when he’s with tsuge outside his apartment and then kurosawa’s ‘eh?’... omg also tsuge and adachi’s telepathic conversation in front of kurosawa dskjfnjfdnndksdjn) and green’s “what?!?!?!” lives rent-free in my head 24/7 
biggest disappointment.
tonhon chonlatee..... i don’t wanna talk about how bad that show was 😭😭😭 (and how i even managed to finish it,,, she’s a masochist, ur honour). RIP podd’s bl career 🙏 poddearth whEN
what two random bl/gl characters would make hilarious exes?
YIHWA AND FAI!!!! we_could_of_had_it_all.mp3 sobs
who would be the funniest person to watch a bl in its entirety and which one would you make them watch.
re-watching twm with @patspran​ was a hilarious ride 10/10 would do it again. as for making someone watch a bl, if i had to make anyone watch a bl i would probs make them watch light on me because it’s pretty much a hi-teen web drama and i feel like that’d be an easy way to ease someone into bls,,, slowly make our way up to thai bls lmfao 
best wardrobe moment/or character wardrobe from a bl.
miss yihwa was killing the game back in 2017 ur faves could never 😌 also everything nunew wears in that cutie pie show he is adorable. oh, also jang jaeyoung’s all-red tracksuit. simply iconic
tagging!🌈💕✨: @patspran @billlkin @itoldsunset @tehohaews @taeminie @mrdumpling @tontawantu @rashfcrd @earthfluuke @aquynh (only if you want to!!!)
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happychappy · 6 months
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I hate that this is the first post but I’m really upset about it so I want to vent and leave it here :( I love my girl so fucking much. She’s everything to me. But right now, I’m so fucking mad and sad and overthinking everything. So she texted me saying that her and her friend saw her ex, WHO I THOUGHT WAS IN A DIFFERENT COUNTRY. But no. She was fucking HERE. Anyways, a whole 6 minutes after that, she wanted to say that her ex is ugly and I’m an upgrade. But did she really think that? Like truly, with all her heart? Why’d it take so long? What if she saw her and thought oh I miss her. Or damn she looks good. I DON’T FUCKING KNOW! And idk, we talked about it and she said she was just busy with course but the way she said it sounded so sus 🧍 like she kind of mumbled it? And that’s all she said. She didn’t say I promise you right now that I have no feelings whatsoever for her and she can fucking die. No. She just said she was busy. That’s what you hear from all the cheater or people who’s done something they shouldn’t have. I know she’s said it before but I think I need to hear it right now. And I don’t want to tell her that’s what I need because she’ll just say it bc I want her to. I want her to MEAN it. I want her to reassure me so bad rn. I cried myself to sleep last night because I was thinking about her leaving me or cheating on me. The only reason they broke up was because her ex moved away and she became distant. But she’s back 🧍 she’s here. What if she’s here for good and they talked yesterday or there was tension or something? What if they still love eachother? What is she still loves her? Should I end it and let them be happy together? 🙃 should I end it while I have the courage to? She makes me so happy and I really, really love her. I literally can’t imagine my life without her, but if she’d be happier with someone else then okay haha…I’m fucking kidding. Who the FUCK? If she’s not happy with me, then I’ll become a fucking comedian because huh? Her? With someone else? Fuck. No. I’ve claimed her and she’s fucking mine. Only I can make her happy :)
I say that, but I end up getting insecure again and thinking oh she’d be better off with someone else. My mind is so contradicting. I would rip whoever she gets with apart. Literally hospitalise them. I honestly don’t care. Anyways…I don’t want to get hurt. I know I love her more than she loves me. I can feel it, and I fucking hate it. I want to leave so I don’t have to deal with these emotions. I’ve never fucking been like this before. This is my first relationship and idk how to fucking handle it. Too much happening all the time. I like catering to her needs, but I do it to the point where it gets in the way of what I need or want. But that’s just how I love. I’ve always done that for people I love, but thinking about it in the long run…it’s gonna drain me. I don’t know what to do.
Alsoooo I want to be FUCKED. Like I actually do. I was thinking about it before and I kind of miss the feeling I’d get with men. The fantasies and the need to be dominated. But I feel so uncomfortable when she does any of that with me. It makes me feel disgusted and I think that’s because of my “alpha male” mentality. I’m the man in the relationship, so I fuck her and make her cum. The thought of her fucking me gives me the ick. Every time I’ve cum since I’ve been with her, it’s because I’d imagine me with a strap and she’d be riding me. Her fat ass is bouncing and she’s staring at me with that desperate slutty look on her face. “That feels so good, daddy.” Anyways 💀 every single time, it’s me fucking her. And OH MY GOD. When we’re fucking, I talk to her in my head 😭 when she says stuff, I’ll reply but in my fucking head and it’s so hot but I feel like my voice doesn’t suit it so I just shut the fuck up.
I’m getting off topic 🧍 no surprise there. It’s just my trust issues. I have no fucking idea how to make them disappear. Okay, so I always think she doesn’t actually like me. I just don’t see how such a beautiful and amazing woman could be with such an ugly and boring person like me 💀 It’s crazy because I’ve seen the way her eyes dilate and I know she loves me but at the same time…WHY?! WHY ME? And she liked ME first. It just doesn’t make sense 😭 I’m not fucking complaining, I just don’t understand. She’s so fucking beautiful and sexy and perfect. I’m a literal loser 💀 I think if she was a bit uglier, it’d be easy to trust her and believe in how she feels about me. But no. She has to be the most beautiful woman in the world 🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍 like bro even when she just wakes up and she’s in track pants and a jersey! HOW DO YOU PULL THAT OFF?! When she eats, she makes it look fucking sexy! It literally turns me on 😭 HOW?! WHY?! Her body is so fucking perfect and her face is symmetrical like COME ONNN. She literally has an hourglass body, she’s shorter than me, her hair is so nice and soft, her eyes are beautiful, her nose is fucking adorable, her lips and big and kissable like fuck me bro. And oh my god her ass. Her fucking ass. It’s HUGE 👺 I love gripping it and jiggling it, it’s so fucking hot. She has the perfect ass I swear to God. Fuck this, I’m getting horny and side tracked 🧍 AGAIN.
But she’s also there for me when I need her. I know I talk led about her body a lot but who she is so much fucking more than that. She’s always so prepared to listen and she’s so caring and giving like idk how someone can be so perfect. She’s funny and weird and comfortable and everything. She feels like home and I wish I could spend every second of my life with her. I just like that we can sit in silence as well. We don’t need to talk to be okay, we can just enjoy eachother’s presence. There aren’t many people I can do that with 😔 OH MY GOD and she’s SO SO SO talented! She moves so gracefully, it’s like she was born to dance. Ykw? I just thought about what else I love about her and I can only see her smile 😭 is that weird? I think that’s weird. But her smile is my most favourite thing about her, I swear to God. It just makes me so fucking happy and I’d embarrass myself over and over again if it means she’d smile. I carried her on my back and pretended to struggle so she’d laugh *sigh* I miss her so much. I wish she was here with me rn. Okay I think I’m fine now HAHAHA I really fucking needed that 😭😭😭 this helps a LOTTTT. Anyways, that’s my story 💅
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