#and it’s a hard skill to hone!!

[ganonfan1995]

Burnt out

#initially this was meant to be something else entirely #but i wasn't really liking how it was going so I scrapped the idea and opted out for something a bit more personal #ive been really suffering from burn out for the last few years and just barely keeping my head above water #there are times where i seriously feel like ive failed in every aspect of my career #like if i were good enough i wouldn't have burnt out #i love my job and i love my trade i love every skill ive gain up until this point #but its been hard not to take it personally when all the effort you've put into honing those skills #are abused or exploited #life is difficult enough already and and time is fleeting #taking time for yourself is above all the most important thing you can do to help your work flourish #taking a break isn't failure #its health #we aren't machines despite our industries treating us as such #just waiting and hoping that itll pay off #ive certainly learned my lesson #and im looking forward to brighter horizons #and healthier more respectful ones #ill be okay ive learned how to love my art in my personal time again #but i certainly need to let my mind rest and my body to recover #these tags are lengthy anyways #unionize and dont work for nothing from large companies #be gay do drugs love your friends make art for yourself too #my art #scuttles out of here #i hope these long ass images actually show up in full resolution #i did draw them fucking TOLL as hell

[hamartia-grander]

Tbh I have no patience for ppl who don't put any effort into creating content for female characters like they do for male characters. Please recognise misogyny's conditioning over you and work to undo it, or be gone

#Artists... Writers... Editors... Whatever. You spend how many hours creating content and honing your skills for men #But with women it's too hard? Too scary? Too other negative adjective? Sorry. Try harder. #Fandom #Fanart #fanfiction #fanfic #feminism #How is this still a convo I'm having to have like are we fr

[possamble]

Question to a fanfic writer: do you think that, in Marcille’s research ways *And* her love for romance novels… would result in her writing some in-universe fanfics of her own? Like, maybe she hypes herself up on something and get disappointed, or maybe she finds some character decision isn’t as ideal as she thinks it could be? Or it’s as simple as she wants to play around with the characters and see what happens?

I can’t help but imagine a scenario where she’s struggling with some romantic trouble irl and she’s struggling with deciding on what to do, but then the answer slaps itself upside her head when she rediscovers her fanfics and how she LITERALLY made a character or two do the exact romantic decision she needs to do? It would so silly but yet I can’t help but find it so charming. Hell, just the imagery of her writing romance fanfics of her own At All is just… delightful to me hehehe.

you know I've been rotating this in my head since I saw it this morning and. I went through a wild journey of opinions before I realized... Marcille wouldn't think about fanfiction like we think about it. In the modern age, yeah, she'd be a complete tumblrina -- but we're talking about a 17th century-ish fantasy setting.

Writing before the digital age was a physical commitment to investing ink and paper into your thoughts -- and this is even before mass production can make pens and notebooks kind of whatever to buy and use on a regular basis. I'm sure the situation wasn't dire, but I really can't see Marcille, perfect honor student, using her allotted supply of stationery at the academy on super frivolous things.

Fanfiction has been normalized incredibly fast in the past few decades. Think about now normal and popular D&D is nowadays compared to how much people looked down on it 20-30 years ago. Fanfiction was a freakass nerd thing to do until relatively recent history, something that was even considered offensive to the original creators.

Remember, we've already seen Marcille react to adaptations with disgust. She's kind of a hater and an elitist fan. She also considers herself a Reputable Academic. In a setting where a digitized culture hasn't reframed fanfiction as an act of appreciation and creativity, she would absoluuuuuuuutely think that fanfiction was complete loser shit.

If she did write anything about her favourite books... She'd. She'd be one of those assholes who writes huge scathing reviews of Dal Clan translations into Common. She'd be the fantasy equivalent of those Weebs/Japanese elitists on twitter tearing through every single localization choice in anime and JRPGs and being so so annoying about it.

If we're being charitable, we could say she'd be able to appreciate non-faithful translation choices that still do a good job of carrying over the original spirit of what was said. But I think we also have to acknowledge the possibility that, at her worst, she'd really really be like those guys who were malding about the Unicorn Overlord localizations so hard the (correction: Final Fantasy Tactics Creator, not the Unicorn Overlord devs) had to step forward and ratio them. (The silver lining is that she'd never get published in the arts review newspapers/journals that she submits her essays to. those poor editors just have to deal with her being persistent.)

#asks #marcille donato #dungeon meshi #im so sorry anon your idea was very cute and i know i wasn't supposed to take this so seriously but #god. the revelation hit me and i just cried laughing #she's so horrendous. i love her so fucking much. #i really do think the only setting she'd be able to write fanfiction is in modern aus #bc then she can just delete stuff she doesn't like and lose nothing but the time it took to write it #the problem is that she has the kind of perfectionism that stops her from doing things unless she can do them competently the first time #(gifted child syndrome) #but writing fiction is a skill. one that she would have to hone from zero. while not necessarily having natural talent for it. #her reading standards would be so much higher than her writing ability and she'd haaaaate that #... that said #i can see her absentmindedly dabbling in short form poetry in the margins of her journal #i think that's small enough of a scale that she'd accidentally do it a lot without thinking about it too hard #until she was actually half-decent at it one day #like... starting some years into the post-canon. this is crucial. she needs to chill a bit before this could happen

[lee-sanghyeok]

Some of my favourite Tweets for Jaehyun's birthday

Despite Jaehyun entering KOZ and becoming part of BND later than the other boys, he stepped up as leader, shown tremendous love and care for all of them, and that is being reciprocated to an unbelievable degree. They're truly brothers.

Happy birthday, Myung Jaehyun. You deserve the world 🥺

#also just thinking about how he'd been easily training for ten years - give or take #not just at yg but also honing his skills in other ways - at dance academies and stuff - #and finally being able to debut after all that hard work - after the longest training period out of everyone - and getting the creative #freedom to explore music within his group??? #im crying #boynextdoor #jaehyun #for someone that's barely 20 it shows maturity confidence resilience effort and a lot of hope

[tunapesto]

picking a course makes me want to cry and throw up so bad

#this will set up the rest of my life im afraid #there are 2 viable courses. the others are too complex and will not benefit me in the long run #the two viable choices. one I have experience in bec its somewhat art related #and it has real jobs. but its real rare and kind of underappreciated here where i live #might be hard to apply for #and the other one. i have vague interest in #not much experience however it has great jobs and opportunities everywhere #overall i will learn More and gain more from it probably. its not the most annoying subject in the world #sorry i dont have any figures that i can ask in my life about it hahaha all they say is 'which one would you enjoy more' #ive been in a self aware depressive state for years now i have no real passion for anything #i just do the things i know i can do #i would enjoy either the same normal amount #one where i can hone and expand on an existing skill #and one where i can take up new opportunities and expand my brain . my tool belt if u will #and i would really like either #i will gnaw wood #sorry for oversharing on main this is an actual cry for help heehoo maybe someone out there is going thru the same thing or whatever #it's just a lot of irreversible wasted time and effort and money

[layalu]

Hate how i got into the habit of (objectively!) criticising/pointing out flaws with my work to compensate being overpraised as The Gifted Kid TM & how it makes me sound like i'm being self deprecating

#its such a hard habit to get rid of #tbf its true im not the best at taking compliments but mostly im just. allergic to praise i dont deserve and/or that singles me out #and it comes up every now and then w irl ppl how i am supposedly constantly talking myself down #even though among my artist friends i am doing that the least amount! #like. guys. there is a difference between not giving myself credit and acknowledging flaws #bc belive it or not i can do that without feeling shit about myself! #and half the time im not even talking abt myself im talking abt others? #cus i hate when people talk themselves down and i will often chime in to say what i think theyre good at #and bc *they* start comparing themselves to me i will then counter with what they are better at than me #or that yeah maybe xy about mine is better but ive also got a lot more practice #and idk i genuinely dont belive that is being self deprecating??? #if anything you acting like im a prodigy or sth is devaluing the time and effort i put in to hone a skill #which btw being able to feel ok about my skillset including the goods and bads is also a skill i had to learn! #idk. #lay rambles #sorry for the rant this is just sth i get frustrated about way too often #this doesnt just apply to art but thats where it comes up the most #actually im not done sorry #this specifically was in the context that we got a project graded and the teacher graded us by comparing projects #(which is questionable in itself but i digress) #& then when it came to me i argued that the person he compared me to deserved a better grade and then listed a bunch of reasons #bc she visibly put in more effort and had included things i hadnt and i thought the grade was unfair #and i never once said i thought mine was bad or didnt deserve the grade! but i know i did not put much effort into it and that this showed #and yes it still turned out visually nice; i got pretty good at getting the most out of the least effort possible #and i acknowledge that this is also a skill! #but also pointing out the very visible differences in quality and effort is not? self deprecating?? or am i missing something??? #and then had 4 ppl calling me out later for talking down my own project smh #like guys at this point youre just projecting #ik im grumbling abt this way more than warranted lol but a lil venting never hurts

[hexedrosel-arts]

This year was fun, I got to join a community of such kind people. I wish you all the best this new year!!!

#Rose-laced art #I hope you all have a good year #It's nice to see everyone's hard work #I hope this year you all can hone your skills #No matter what they may be #Sorry but no @s and main tag

[skiitter]

There’s something to be said for mediocrity and the disdain it inspires. I’d rather absolutely suck or absolutely succeed. This middling mentality is awful. It’s most certainly my own neurosis but that doesn’t make it any less real.

#it’s like I’ve plateaued #it feels like I’ll only ever be a Good writer #never great nor terrible #just mid #which is worse because I’m a perfectionist and also unbearably hard on myself #I’m rarely pleased with the way something I create comes together and I hate that I can’t quantify it #is it too weak? too much? #more than anything I wish I had bothered to actually study creative writing in college #just so I could hone a skill I nearly possess #ough

[bmpmp3]

SOME yumemis + a couple junker doodles

#planetarian #hoshino yumemi #junker #art #fanart #traditional art #watercolour #pencil crayon #weirdly hard to draw yumemi. every time i draw fanart for my favourite blobby anime girls i become acutely aware #about how difficult it is to draw a moe blob (affectionate). this is a skill i need to hone. a craft i need to learn #also i do love the junkers design in the anime. he looks like he's never slept in his entire life #exhausted little man in a raincoat. i guess it makes sense because of the whole constant peril in a post apocalyptic world thing

[girlsonic]

ohhh writing this down before i forget again but sonic oc where they r just the most pathetic and uncool and incompetent sonic copy

#i have been playing generations and city escape 2d is kicking my ass so hard i feel like a cardboard box #and it’s just liek . gawdd . this is so not sonic core he wouldn’t be getting his ass beat like this #BOOM . oc #i’m thinking like one of the mecha prototypes or some sort of failed clone #kindof a throwaway idea idk how i would actually go about it to make it more fun and interesting and It’s Own Thing but itis 1 am #also i knoww this has been done at least 3 times with the shadow androids . sorry 💔 but it has gottta be sonic and the mecha line is #RIGHT THERE and pretty unexplored imo #was thinking they still have ungodly speed they’re just . completely and comically out of control like it is not a skill they can hone it is #Inherent #if they’re allowed to make a mecha sonic that literally just turns into a rocket . hello number 29(?) . i am allowed to make bad metal sonic

[everiistence]

it's being depressed over a disconnect from culture time again besties

#my dad was talking about fish sauce at the dinner table and it was really cool but it kinda hit me how everyone before him was a fisherman #and now i'll break the chain as the generation away from home #and they want me to achieve better things then their nước mắm production and their beach country fishing lifestyle #but isn't it so sad? that after generations and generations of developing a skill and honing a craft #that i will be the first eldest child unable to taste the sweet history of production in my fish sauce? #that i will be the first child unable to taste the difference between an industry-made bottle and a homemade concoction? #i barely remember how to make nước chấm with the bottles of red boat we buy in bulk. and it shouldn't be so hard because my mother's side #already cast off to be business people and industrialized a few generations before i was born #but i could have been interwoven with the motherland's commerce and culture and the fact remains that i am simply not.

[eddis-not-eeddis]

Controversial topic: Least favorite LEVERAGE episodes?

#the two-horse job (tries too hard to give elliot a tragic backstory too early) #the scherezade job (no. just no. anything that involves someone suddenly out of nowhere getting a skill that takes YEARS to hone. hard pass #the grave danger job (I HAVE TRIED AND I CANNOT WATCH IT THROUGH IT HORRIFIES ME TO NO END!)

[themoneystore]

Honestly that tummy kiss post getting so much attention is just making me sad now...

#I've worked really hard and spent super long honing my skills in various ways #it's almost at 900 notes #I think I would cry if a drawing of mine reached that #idk man

[trebhum]

Do I want to have interesting art or do I want to just have fun. Both? God doesn't will it

#do i want to technically improve and hone my skills or do i want to throw the actual study to the wayside bc im just having fun and this is #a hobby #do i always want it to be a hobby? maybe. do i aspire to be recognized as a talented artist? for the most part. #what do i want from art? do i want to say anything important with the art that im creating? #hard questions to answer but i feel old and they should be answered

[what-even-is-sleep]

How to not get too excited about the most perfect job possible that I fit all the qualifications for, that mixes art and research, that’s applicable to everything I want to do, that I stumbled upon on chance and may be filled already and I’m already so attached to the possibility of being able to do this job omfg

#mypost #I JUSt #I #THIS #this is so hard becuase Im trying so hard not to get excited about it #because then I'll just put wayyy too much effort into it and the application and it'll turn out to already be taken or something #its just #PERFECT #its part-time!!! #its working with volunteers and humans and people!!! #its working at an industrial arts studio with GLASSBLOWING!!!!!!!!!!!! #it involves research and excel skills both of which i have been honing for the past 4 months and apply to my major!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I just!!!!!! #if i got this job i think i would cry in happiness #its scary how attatched i am to it right now oh my god

[lovevalley45]

getting a reblog on a fic i wrote four (!) years ago really makes me remember how fuckin long i've been at this game for like... goddamn i'm not old but i was so young then

#alli says shit #me: oh hey i wrote this in 2018- #*remembering i was in junior year then* oh no #like i don't think it's a bad fic i just think the whiplash hit me hard #tbf i was writing abt teen characters so like. i wasn't feeling challenged #truly my PEAK was that jlaire fic in walmart. peak shenanigans #ppl say bcc is chaotic like i didn't have a year to hone my skills with tylt