#and i want to cry

[sandeewithtwoe]

Wanted to draw my human dust again

Dust belongs to ask-dusttale

#art #utmv #dust sans #dusttale #tw smoking #bad idea cause now I’ve realized that #he looks like aizawa from mha #and I want to cry

[awilddaydreamer]

The fact that the Syndicate is confirmed to all be safe. They’re all safe. They can all live in the End, and probably go back to the overworld once The Incident has subsided.

Michael gets to grow up with Ranboo Niki and Philza. They can be a family. He’ll bake with Niki, he’ll cause chaos with Philza, he’ll be loved by Ranboo. Niki gets to be around people that support her and care about her, who she can relax with. She doesn’t have to fight anymore. She can just Be. Ranboo gets to be with people who have forgiven him for his mistakes, who will reassure him and help him heal. Phil gets to be around people he cares about and knows it will last, because there’s no more fighting. There’s no more fighting. They’re safe. And as they live, Techno’s memory continues to live on with them.

Out of all the character endings we’ve had so far, this is by far my favorite.

#I love happy endings I love open-ended endings where characters are ok #and you know they’ll continue to be ok and they’ll heal and they’ll be safe #and I want to cry #dsmp lore spoilers

[thesassywitchofthenortheast]

You know what I noticed, almost every single time Tim has hugged Lucy, he’s cradled the back of her head.

And that makes me want to die a little bit

#also how his arm just wraps around her whole waist #it’s like he’s still protecting her #and I want to cry #chenford #the rookie

[verkomy]

I hate heat so much

#I’m very irritated #and my head hurts #and I want to cry #I don’t really like summer that much #I only like summer rainstorms #can’t wait for fall #text

[isa-belle1367]

Imagine desmond making plans for when all of this is over when deep down he knows that's he's not getting out of this alive.

#assassin's creed #desmond miles #i was replaying #assassins creed 3 #and i want to cry #i cant do this #he sounds so sad #while making plans #he knew #desmond

[3-aem]

oh always nice to wake up think youre in the process of being twitter suspended for getting a little too hrny with ur last gojo post and like fk u i didn’t wanna do this anyway ;-; (a lie)

#my tweets are loading #its funny how i went: we should go back to bed #but my chronically online brain was like no lets just do a quick glance #and now i am physically and mentally ill #and i want to cry #and it’s chronically online behavior yes #but getting suspended for hrny gojos is genuinely my greatest fear #bc of the sheer levels of irony #where he would simultaneously be the reason for my success and downfall like

[aprilthebiqueen]

You would think I’d learned by now that just because I feel okay in the moment doesn’t mean I should keep going because I always pay for it later. Damn.

#my pain is so severe I can’t get up #and I want to cry #it didn’t hurt in the moment so I tried to take advantage and get as much done as possible #chronic pain

[meilas]

current mood: reverse seasonal affective disorder can fuck off

#seasonal affective disorder #i’m angry at everything #and I want to cry

[rykno-j]

imagining:

g/eto staying up with g/ojo at night. its late, and he's really sleepy. maybe they're watching a movie together or playing a game

g/eto feels the urge to yawn, so he raises a hand to his face and closes his eyes softly. afterwards, his eyes get naturally teary and he sniffles a little

then, he notices g/ojo looking at him

"...what?"

"damn s/uguru, that's the quietest one yet"

g/eto gets confused for a second, before:

"..s/atoru, not everything is a sneze, you know?"

"eH? that wasn't?"

▪︎•▪︎

#j/jk #mythoughts #js thinking how easy it'd be to mistake the smallest inhale/exhale from g/eto as a snez #g/ojo definitely made that mistake before #surely. especially if he purposely listens very closely to every detail (kink g/ojo?) #on that note: the new ep is gna have so much tired g/eto #until he breaks #im excited but scared and worried #and imaging the pain. #and i want to cry #and sob #and curl up on my bed

[not-poignant]

Hi Pia, I hope this doesn't come across rude in any way, but I was wondering if it will go back to two Underline updates a month for the Patreon at any point?

Possibly! But possibly not.

In the past, I actually only used to put one early access chapter a month up on Patreon (which was The Nascent Diplomat for a while), and it was like that for years.

Then it was two chapters - one Nascent Diplomat, and one Underline - for quite a few months.

And then it was three - one ND, and two Underline

And then it became four - one ND, two Underline, one Constellations.

And then that just became really unsustainable. And I've had to cut back to keep writing at all. So I've cut one of the early access Underline chapters. It's still more than I used to offer for years, but if anyone feels like they're missing out, or like that's the only thing that's acceptable via Patreon, they also aren't obligated to stay! I have to do what works for me as a human being, but other people have to do what works for them too, and that's definitely understandable.

For the time being - at least for January and February - it can only be one Underline update. Right now I'm writing at such a slow pace that I can't justify a faster schedule, I can't actually keep up with what I'm currently writing. And that's like... my journey as I figure out what works and that will change over time. But yeah if the only reason you're hanging around is for those two updates, you don't have to.

You can always check the schedule at the beginning of a month to see when it happens again. I hope it will in the future, right now everything's scaled back to deal with burnout, so folks are still getting 3 early access chapters a month (or 2 if they're not on the Gary+Efnisien tier), but sadly not 2 Underlines.

#asks and answers #sorry anon #pia on patreon #pia on ream #i'm looking at how much i've written this year already #and i want to cry #i was meant to have about 15000 words written by now #and i've written 3000 #which is not good #last year was an anomaly and not the norm #i normally only am working on 3 stories at the same time anon #and not like 9 #so yeah things will probably be scaled back somehow over time #to be more realistic #most authors do not write like i do and i do not want to write like i do either #but yeah if you joined patreon in the last few months #during like peak release stuff #and don't like how things have slowed down #please don't make yourself stay!!! #patreon is meant to work for you <333

[actualalligator]

My roommate didn't pay January rent. But she told me over and over that it wouldn't happen again. Things happened, a camera broke, a client ghosted her, but it wouldn't happen again. She texted me Sunday to say "I'm sending over all the money tomorrow" but guess what, it's fucking Wednesday, and I haven't even heard from her. I've already paid rent because I autopay on the 28th (which she knows). I told her two weeks ago that I could pay the full rent for January because there were 3 paychecks in December. I could not do that for February rent. At this point, I'm being fucked over again, and I'm so fucking tired. And the landlord needs to evict her. I can't, but the landlord is some fucking dude who is who knows where and runs everything through the most inefficient fucking realty company.

I can afford rent through June by myself, but it means I save absolutely nothing. And I am once again not telling my mom about my shitty roommate situation because she just dropped 30k on house improvements and cannot afford to help, and I know she'd fucking try.

#im livid #and i want to cry #why does this shit keep happening to me??? #I'd really love for things to be fucking okay for like 2 min

[noraqrosa]

EDIT: AHHH @monnawesv FOUND IT IT WAS ACTUALLY ON WORDPRESS:

https://howtogeton.wordpress.com/social-security-disability/

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trying to find a very specific Tumblr post, it was a step-by-step guide on how to get approved for government disability benefits in the U.S.

it's got infographics, but it also has the info in text form (i.e. not just in the images)

@izukuleeyoung sent this to me a while ago and i thought i saved it, but i can't find it, not even in our messages

#lost post #ssdi #ssi #disability benefits #disability aid #i fuckin need this because i genuinely am too disabled to work a traditional job #but i need to until i can get approved #and i want to cry #because i need this ASAP but it's so fuckin difficult to actually get disability in the United States #ableism #i tried and was rejected #according to the government i'm not disabled despite the fact that i literally am incapable of walking correctly/without pain #and despite the fact that i have paralyzingly bad depression and anxiety #and despite the fact that i genuinely experience schizoaffective delusions paranoia and hallucinations #🙃

[halfd3af]

I keep having off and on panic attacks about getting COVID… there’s so many horrible effects of it that would hurt me, like kidney damage when I only have one kidney to start with, or damaging my hearing when I only have one functioning ear, that I just don’t know how to feel safe from a disease that could shorten my lifespan or further disable me when no one around me masks

#I just #I don’t want to die when I chose to live this summer #I don’t want my body to become further disabled after being recently diagnosed with a herniated disc #I just want to enjoy life #I don’t want to be terrified for my health so much #it’s mortifying #and I want to cry #halfd3afbrainvomit

[staygaybaby]

I just want to tell you how perfect you are and how you make me smile and giggle like a fuxking idiot and how I want take you on cute cringy fucking Picnic dates and tell you how I wanted to make you laugh since the first time I fucking saw u

like you don’t know how ducking beautiful you are and it makes me like honestly upset

AND I DONT WANT TO FUCKING HAVE SEX YOU FOR YOU TO FUCKING UNDERSTAND HOW AMAZING U ARE LIKE WHY IS THAT ALL PEOPLE FUXKING CARE ABOUT I WANT U TO SWOON BITCH

if you were even sad I would jump off a roof 🤭🤭🤭

anyways, this was in my notes app and I wanted to share because I would never say any of this to them irl so heh

#crush #im in looooove #he is so beautiful #and amazing #and smart #and i want to cry #so bad #i can never have him😭😭😭

[bunn-iiii]

I'm so tired and in pain and overstimulated.

#my dad is playing his really horrible music really loudly so i have to play my music in my headphones even louder #but i can still hear his music throigh my headphones #so it's making everything so much worse #and i want to cry

[person4924]

group chats make me want to die violently.

#they make me so scared #cus people are bullying eachother #and i can’t tell if it’s a joke anymore #and i asked a question #and someone replied saying smth mean #but i don’t know if their talking to someone else or me #and i want to cry