#and NOBODY IS PAYING ANY ATTENTION. IM EXHAUSTED AND STRESSED AND I HATE TRAVELLING AND EVERYONE KNOWS THIS

[danielnelsen]

family is out having a nice dinner and trying to convince me to come but i have way too much to do before i have to get up at the crack of dawn to get on a plane tomorrow, so dad's like "the food will be so nice, you're really missing out" then gives the phone to my sister who's like "the food will be so nice, you're really missing out," like........what part of "i have too much to do" says i can be convinced as if im just lazily deciding to stay home? all you've done is made me feel bad on top of being stressed about everything i have to do and how im not gonna get to have nice food today. cool thanks

#personal #if you know me i am CONSTANTLY complaining about how we never have any food at home #so i was gonna make some toast or something #but oh im so glad you're gonna be enjoying your nice restaurant food #do you think with everything ive said over the last few days that any of them realise that im having a TERRIBLE TIME RIGHT NOW??? #it's like when we were out on sunday and i started saying i was exhausted and wanted to go home after we'd been out for HOURS-- #--and everyone just shrugged and told me to deal with it for MORE HOURS while i was VERY VISIBLY HAVING A BAD TIME #and very obviously been recovering from that since then #AND BEING STRESSED OUT OF MY MIND ABOUT OUR PETS WHILE WE'RE GONNA BE AWAY #that's another thing. like late last week i said thing were really stressful #that was because my sister volunteered to look after my cat at her house while we're away like DO YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT CATS #terrible idea. and she suggested a trial run and i was so stressed for that but thought maybe it'd be fine and reassure me... #no. cat was at my sister's house for about 24 hrs and didnt eat AT ALL. just hid under the bed the WHOLE TIME #and like. my cat doesnt drink water at all; she only gets it through her food. so she DIDNT DRINK that whole time too #and i was so stressed beforehand and then so much more stressed when nobody seemed pressed about getting her back home with any haste????? #someone's gonna look after her at home while we're away now which will be fine but there's still a bit of background stress there #like i have been stressed out of my mind the last two weeks and ive been explaining why im stressed to people all through it #and NOBODY IS PAYING ANY ATTENTION. IM EXHAUSTED AND STRESSED AND I HATE TRAVELLING AND EVERYONE KNOWS THIS #i was looking forward to having a few days by myself because im coming home before everyone else (thank god) #but the person looking after the cat needs somewhere to stay for a bit so they'll be here for a few days after i get back #i'll still get a few days by myself after they've left but like. i need a break. we havent even left and i need a break. im gonna go cry no #but only briefly because I HAVE TOO MUCH TO DO #sorry this has just been building for weeks and so much of it has just been worse than i expected and im still just so fucking tired #this food thing isnt too big of a deal. im just gonna order something. but just on top of everything else................ #im just upset that everyone around me is just completely oblivious to me TELLING THEM THAT IM FEELING TERRIBLE #like i said on the phone just now 'why are you making me feel bad when ive said i cant go' and dad didnt really have an answer #AND THEN HE JUST GAVE ME A LIST OF OTHER THINGS HE WANTS ME TO DO BEFORE THEY GET BACK TONIGHT. HELLO??????? #sorry that part only just occurred to me. he literally just gave me more to do after i said i cant go out because i have too much to do. ok