#am i just talking in circles?

[chaoticstupiddm]

I was thinking about Tyler's scenes with his father (some of my favorite scenes honestly), and two things came to mind. And sorry, if it has been talked about way too much before.

First one is they talk similarly. Both have a sarcastic edge, but other than that, their voices are similarly low, flat, there is little intonation to it. I know some people make fun of the delivery, or call it the actor's "straight voice" (like really, just because it is a bit deeper??), but it aligns so well with Jamie McShane's tone. It makes them seem more like a family, so I would like to commend the actors for that.

The other thing was, most of their conversations revolve around Tyler wanting his dad to talk to him about his mom or getting him to therapy, so they could talk about his mom there. From Dr. Kinbott's records, we can hear, that Tyler becomes cold and detached, whenever they try to talk about his mother. He cannot properly open up to his therapist, but deep down, he hopes he would be able to connect with his dad and talk about her. And if that would've happened, maybe that would have been enough to free himself from his slave status.

If the cold and detached persona comes out whenever the therapist asks about the mom, why is that never present when he tries to get his dad talking? He is angry, not cold. That is 100% Tyler begging for help.

So, mini theories:

Tyler is forbidden by Laurel to talk about his mother. When he is pushed, Hyde takes over. This caused Dr. Kinbott's death. Tyler is somehow able to surpass this with his father, or at least would be, if the man would talk to him.

The Hyde inside Tyler's head is trying to protect him, whenever he is experiencing high amount of distress, but even with the neglect and abuse (being "slapped around"), he wouldn't go against his dad, making him possibly the only one Tyler would trust enough.

There is no Hyde persona. Tyler is simply not comfortable talking about this deeply emotional topic to the therapist. He just wants to talk to his dad.

#tyler galpin #sheriff galpin #donovan galpin #wednesday series #wyler #am i just talking in circles? #anyway #the voice thing is correct #right? #hunter doohan #jamie mcshane

[ruporas]

asking and receiving (bonus below readmore)

[ID: A black and white, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood. In the first panel is a close up of Wolfwood's mouth as he says, "Vash". Accompanying it is a close up shot of Vash's eye, widen and cheeks flushed. Wolfwood presses a knee against the open space between Vash's legs and says, "Tell me everything you want from me." Wolfwood's face is equally as flushed. He continues to say, "I'll give it to you. Everything." As he talks, a wide shot shows the both of them in white space. Vash is sitting, leaning a little back with both hands pressed against the surface he's sitting on. Wolfwood is in his white dress shirt, stripped of the blazer. He's still leaning in with one knee in between Vash's spread legs, his right hand touching Vash's lips and his left hand behind his back.

The shot closes in on Vash's mouth and Wolfwood's hand against it, pressing down on the lower lip as he says, "You have to ask though. Go on." His hand moves down to Vash's chin, gently holding it. With a shy and uncertain expression, Vash hesitantly asks, "Um... K... Kiss... Please?" Wolfwood, without wasting a second, leans in and kisses him and indulges by pressing deeper, eliciting a small noise of surprise from Vash.

Wolfwood moves away from Vash first and with a smile, asks, "What else?" Vash tugs on Wolfwood's left sleeve, wordlessly budging Wolfwood to give him his hand that was still behind his back. In the next panel, Vash utters, "Hold me..?" He's holding Wolfwood's left hand with his own while his right hand is reaching for his waist. Wolfwood complies, moving his left hand to Vash's shoulder and his right hand continues to touch Vash's cheek. Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"

More comfortable now, Vash leans in to kiss Wolfwood. Wolfwood catches him immediately, pressing his thumb against Vash's lips to stop him before demanding, "Hey. Ask." Vash looks back in surprise and Wolfwood meets his eye with a quiet, insistent look. They're quiet for a moment before Vash leans in again and curtly requests, "Kiss. Me." Wolfwood says "Good", smiling as he lifts his hand away, and meets Vash's lips. In the next shot, Wolfwood had adjusted his position, sitting on Vash's thigh. The hand that was once on Vash's cheek has moved its way to Vash's nape, pushing away the collar of his jacket with his pinky. His other hand continues to grip on Vash's shoulder. Still kissing, Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"

In the next shot, Vash is starting to turn, moving Wolfwood with him. Vash asks, "Let me on top of you?" Wolfwood says, "Mhm" before asking again, "What else?" The next panel shows a close look of Vash's face. He's looking down, flushed and shy just as he had been at the beginning, but now, more decisive. Vash asks, "Wolfwood... Let me have you..?" A panel of Wolfwood taking Vash's hand into his, pulling it towards his chest. The next panel shows Wolfwood lying down where Vash had laid him. Vash's hand is on Wolfwood's chest, covering the cross of his rosary while Wolfwood's hand lingers against his, loosely pressing Vash's hand in place. He looks up at Vash with a shy smile of his own, flushed cheeks. He says, "All yours."

A panel shows a close up of Vash's tender gaze before he leans down to be closer to Wolfwood. The final shot is a front view of their positions, Vash's face turned away from the viewer; Vash is leaning over Wolfwood who's lying down with his right leg draped over Vash's legs. Wolfwood's left hand holds onto Vash's left arm. With finality, Vash says, "...Mine." End ID]

[ID: A follow up bonus comic in a looser, sketchier style. They're laying comfortably in bed when Vash asks, "What was that earlier?" referecing to the start of the previous comic. Wolfwood glances away and says, "To get you used to it. Asking. And getting what you ask for. Since you're alwasy hesitant about it." Vash's eyes widen, tight lipped. Wolfwood continues, "Knowing you, it'll be a tough habit to break..." When he says this, Vash can't help but laugh, unable to deny it. Wolfwood slowly brings a hand to Vash's cheek and continues to say, "So I'll keep trying -- whatever ways I can... to get it through your thick skull." Vash takes Wolfwood's hand with his, kissing the the palm gently. Wolfwood's eyes soften and holding onto Vash's cheek, he leans in to try for a kiss. Vash says, "Hey..." before stopping Wolfwood's lips with the back of his hand, a smug look on his face, "Ask." Wolfwood's embarrassed and with little irritation, asks, "Really?" Vash smiles, saying, "You're in need of practice too." They pause for a moment, Wolfwood looking contemplatively, before he's leaning in again, asking, "May I please kiss you?" Vash looks him in the eyes and says, "Yes." The comic ends with a "chu", indicating an off-panel kiss. End ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #it took me so long to post this even after getting clarification about the maturity warning and stuff #bc i am so shy about it. SDGMKDSGMKSD I LIKE THIS COMIC BUT IM ALSO SO LIKE... AUGHHHH.... #when i posted this on twitter though it was like... a few days after ep 11? ive always had the thought circling about vash deserving of #asking for things... and getting what he wants bc he never gets both. doesn't get the opportunity to ask and hardly does he get what he want #maybe the results can go in his favor but at some point along the way he'll still lose something bc nothing can ever go perfectly for him... #and he's usually the one begging and pleading with people to not. do something. it's not even asking at that point it's just straight up #please believe me. please trust me. please don't shoot that person. please don't kill anyone. please don't do it. #and wolfwood.... it was not always this lovey dovey ok. he wouldv noticed this habit miles away and they got into a fight about it the first #time they talked about it bc wolfwood is being hypocritical too. as he always is!!!! but i think as they get more intimate #wolfwood finds ways to make vash understand. smth smth insatiable want and love and desire for wolfwood that makes it much easier to ask. #wolfwood can also just be so compliant. sometimes. which is also an issue in of itself that id love to explore at some point #but he also just enjoys giving into vash fully and completely. #bc he loves him a lot. but anyway #i hope the id is comprehendible.... please lmk if there's something wrong with how im doing it asfdgkdsmgs #ruporas art

[miutonium]

🏃‍♀️Hi hi I'm reopening my commission again since I am in the middle of my final year project and I needed funds to support my art project _(:'3」∠)_

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#//making a summoning circle in the middle of my room to summon tumblr server and personally hit it with a bat for fucking up my post #i guess this is pretty much an emergency commission too since I am so serious about looking for funds for my art project #why do i have to sacrifice my sanity and money just for a piece of paper that says i have a diploma??? #anyway im going to reblog this post a lot until all my slots are taken ;w; so sorry about that guys #also very sorry if you see an increase jn my price my render takes a lot of time and im actually dealing with wrist pain lately #and my arms are making sounds that i didnt know its possible for me to crack before thats crayzyyy i dont even know i have a joint there #okay tag spam oof #commission #commission open #commission art #commission info #selfship commission #selfship art #selfship headcanon #selfship talk #selfship #selfshipping #selfship community #selfshipping community #self insert oc #self insert art #self insert community #artist on tumblr #art commission #art #art community

[gruesome-beauty]

jb’s music has more in common with the emo/hardcore/post-hardcore music she’s influenced by than it has in common with her indie contemporaries despite the way she’s categorized and that’s why you get a lot of bg fans who say they can’t get into her music iN THIS ESSAY I WILL-

#saw a bracket poll on twitter that had bg and phoebe and lucy’s albums on it along with the usual suspect indie musicians but not julien #and i am not saying this to be critical of people who feel that way btw! #no one needs to listen to her music out of obligation! it’s for the people it’s for!!!! #i’m just saying that as an emo kid through and through there’s a reason that to me she’s the best musician who’s ever walked the earth #and i know a LOT of people who connect to her music who are more in those circles #that’s why her pre-bg fanbase skewed older (and often male) #anyway this is sort of a ‘water is wet’ post like it’s obvious but we don’t talk about it enough #txtposting into the void

[tinartss]

on moving out

#for context i drew this during the paradise of providence event👍 #repost of old art #kavetham #haikaveh #i still think abt kaveh moving out often #always a bit torn between it signifying him getting back on his feet + regaining confidence in himself #but like sometimes he's a bit of an unreliable narrator....remember when he was like #hm. the first thing i will do w the prize money is move out and then build another palace but ten times bigger! like oh...kaveh..... #plus he can sometimes be blind (purposefully or not) to what's actually good for him..bc we (and alhaitham LOL) know the significance of #him having a home that's not just a house and how full circle of a moment that is for him #its always interesting to consider that their living situation in itself is this in-between flux moment #though i think kaveh trying his best to escape this “chapter of his life” isn't necessarily the solution..... #i still don't know how tumblr works so if u have to go thru all my yapping in these tags to repost i am so sorry </3 #ok thats all thank u for coming to my ted talk

[serethereal]

i don’t want a job i want to be tipsy and kiss someone in a grassy field

#can u guys tell i’m applying to jobs bc i am i am applying to jobs and that’s why i keep talking about not wanting to work or having purpose #in life. i want a fun drink and snacks and to be treated really niceys and have fun forever #that being said i actually do like what i do i just hate paperwork so i feel like i am in the 9th circle of hell rn

[perenians]

oh merrill...

#I LOVE YOU MERRILL YOU MAKE ME INSANE #she did something mountainous and nobody cared. she reversed the effects of the blight with blood magic!!! #the lengths she went to to try and rediscover elven history...marethari how could you blame her when you were the one who taught her? #you told her how important elven history is #can you blame her for listening #i think isabela would understand. #merrill did something people didn't want her to do #and just like that people turned on her #her whole clan wanted her dead and the party slaughtered them..........augh #the banter between merrill and fenris after you kill the elves...fenris have you no heart #fenris! she LOVED THEM she did it ALL FOR THEM #you know what it's like to be betrayed by family #you know what it's like to kill the people you loved!! #yes i am talking about his sister #i believe he loved her #oh merrill. #merrill is so empathetic and powerful and perceptive. if you think she's stupid YOU are the stupid one #she might be the only one in da2 that knows what's going on #she is so? kind. even when people (anders and fenris) treat her like a child to be chastised #anyway. temporary companion amell who learns of what merrill's doing to fix the eluvian #and realizes that blood magic could hold a cure to the calling #my amell is like. neutral good. but it's been so ingrained in her that blood magic is dangerous and bad that she shies away from it #her holding a dagger to her hand squeezing her eyes shut and slashing her hand open #blood pours and circles around her like a hungry animal #dragon age you haunt me like a wronged spirit that craves to be heard #merrill #merrill art #dragon age #peren procreates #calm down per

[especdreamy]

Hey MCYT followers just coming in to share that Beau has just come forward with her own experience of SA

#dreamy talks #SA // #i feel like its incredibly important because of the circle she was in and the implications of what she went thru #please dont send asks about it i am not the best person to talk about this (just genuinely bad at words) but I wanted to share since #I felt its very important

[becauseplot]

anyway yeah fr i miss ordo theoritas. i miss the theory crafting i miss the hugeass meetings before/after Big Lore Event to brief/debrief everyone involved i miss the chaos and confusion and laughter and teamwork. i miss the cellbit, bad, and phil (key-keepers my beloveds) being the heads of the ordo working together to untangle the mysteries to the island. they were hardly ever on at the same time bc schedules and time zones (WAILS) but in my head they had so many late nights down in the evidence rooms like this

just. yeah. yeahh.

#qsmp #ordo theoritas #qsmp philza #qsmp cellbit #qsmp badboyhalo #i might have a fic idea but rn it’s just archivists bc they live in my head rent free #also im not too comfortable writing bad bc (1) i don’t watch him as much and (2) his lore is like?? so complicated?? #as an outside viewer its pretty intimidating lol #it’s the vibe of late night working w your friends on a project/lab/whatever slowly losing your minds tying to figure it out #it’s 2:30 am you’ve been talking in circles the theories are getting more out there but ya don’t rly care bc hey it’s Something #and then someone says smthn that’s just like Woah. wait Actually?? and it kicks you all back into gear to get you chugging along again #anyway i miss them i go sleepies now gnnnn #dont mind me im just rambling #god so much for me going to bed at a decent hour lmao

[transgenderfivepebbles]

nothing will ever drive me as mad as the relationship between giovanni and carmen i think

you were the first person i knew who was truly alive.

i saw you, standing amid the crowd of indistinct, aimless faces, speaking proudly about something i didn't quite understand - yet still, in that moment, all i saw was you. it was as if all the light in the world converged on you, lighting up your bright face, glimmering in your eyes, so that your words would reach me, who could not begin to know you, but knew that i had to try.

i saw you, alive, and it made me alive too. i would follow you wherever you went; even though you may not have returned that sentiment, i chose to stay at your side anyway, because i knew what it meant to live now, and i could never go back to the existence i once led.

and then, you were gone.

your life flickered out, and with it my light. i lived for you, because of you, and so suddenly you were torn away from me. again, i was purposeless and lost, only this time i had known how it felt to truly live, and i knew i could never have it back.

and there was nothing left for me than to die for you.

and when i woke up again, there was nothing at all for me.

except, i realized, except you, who had never truly left.

and in the depths of despair i saw you, heard you again at my side, granting me the courage to live another day.

and i knew, no matter what, that i could still love you.

and i loved you.

#ramblings #lobotomy corporation #netzach lobcorp #carmen lobcorp #auehfughuhufguhuheuhehueh. lies on the floor #world's only dedicated carmvani poster #im violently mentally ill about them #running in circles. why does no one else talk about them. why am i alone in this unforgiving world #this could be ship. could be not. idk not even i know what these two had going on #im just aggressively rambling. ignore if i made any lore mistakes i'm completely losing it rn

[jakeperalta]

hitting "not interested" on these posts isn't enough I need a gun

#i have to just try to stop the algorithm from showing me any gilmore girls content #because it's always a matter of time until it circles back to 'the teenage girl at the center of this coming of age story is actually evil' #like you can find her annoying and not enjoy her as a character or whatever. that's personal taste #but if you're a professional journalist writing about how she's the VILLAIN then i am revoking your qualifications #where is the reading comprehension?? the common sense??? #'___ is the true villain' takes are a plague on society #talking

[pastafossa]

Thanks to EVERYONE'S recommendations on my post about How Do I Get A Knitting Circle To Adopt Me - A Woodcarver - Into Their Group, I have discovered:

My local library has a knitting/crochet club that welcomes other crafts, too! I will be attending that tomorrow, so maybe they'll adopt me!

There's a local woodcarving group that has monthly meetups! Granted it meets at a senior center and membership is encouraged which I can't do obviously but I'm going to see if that's like, a hard line or not

There are a couple small, independent craft stores that might have leads on more groups, I'll be trying to hit those up in the next few weeks and see if they have any leads!

My witchy shop used to have crafting meetups, I saw it on old FB events! That will be starting back up again soon, so I can hit that up too!

And here's a tentative one - there were so many others like me who expressed the same sadness of not being able to find a little crafting group where we could all work on our respective crafts and just have fun with crafty friends and learn neat things. So I'm talking to a friend about how complicated it would be to set up a discord server for us, because gd it, I know we all live far apart but if there's a way for all of us to do a craft night together once a month or whatever and become crafty friends, we should be able to do it, along with showing off our interesting things we make in between! So put a pin in this one, since I've only ever used discord, not really run one, but if I can make it work, I'm going to try when I have some time.

#everyone had EXCELLENT tips and now i'm using them to find some crafters I can meet up with hopefully! #the library I'm SUPER optimistic about and I'm hoping it goes well tomorrow! #M CARVING APRON IS READY #and then if i can get into the little woodcarving group that would be neat too! but i'd be just as happy if the knitting circle adopts me #but i also really am going to look into the discord server because gd there are a bunch of us that just... #really want to have a nice little crafty friend circle now and then to sit and make things and chat with #it shouldn't matter that we're far or that we're all different crafters #and we can show off our things and if someone wants tips on theirs they might be able to find someone or just have others #to talk about whatever your craft is

[crispysnake]

anyways crown keepers feed my soul potent serotonin like no other I can't believe I forget how aabria gives the BEST rp opportunities and I am rolling around joyfully in a grassy field over them getting a main campaign episode MY BABIES THEY DESERVE IT ALL AND MORE

#crown keepers spin off campaign when i literally need no plot just shennagains #THEYRE SO SILLY AND EVERYTHINGS SO FUCKED UP!!! #i want to wrap them all in my arms and skip around in a circle #no one does it like u crown keepers everyone whining in the twitch chat just dont understand u like i do #critical role #mira talks cr #cr spoilers #cr3 #this is a joke #i am normal abt them i swear

[thebirdandhersong]

I think the problem. the problem is that I have always been afraid of not being invited into the inner circle. and am always wanting to be part of the inner circle. inner circle being the circle of love and companionship and communion. of course being a TCK and a bit of a sheltered homeschooled oddball child has nudged this further along over the years. but I didn't realise how STRONG that desire still burned. to actually be wanted.

#in other words today has been an oddly sad day! discovering that the friends you've made have their own group chats #that are separate from the general group chat (that no one ever talks on) that you aren't a part of is......... i don't know #i KNOW i'm liked by them and i KNOW they love me but do they WANT me around? #like. i know i'm not UNpleasant to have around. i am a good listener and a good conversationalist. #i work very hard at it because it doesn't come naturally to me. #but clearly that's not enough to be added to exclusive group chats! clearly that's not enough to be part of inner core circles #i don't know this just came out of nowhere and i feel as if i've been slapped in the face #sitting at a table where people are talking about the thing someone sent to the group chat #or the photo or quote or reel someone sent to someone else is....... bizarre. #i am trying not to be so hurt by it! i am trying not to take it so personally #it happens. i know it happens. i know it will keep happening. it is just that i thought this was a place where i wouldn't be lonely #and this is the dorm community i've invested so much of my time and energy and love into since last year. #so i think i'm justified in being a little upset! #i'm not crying about it but that's because i'm not about to cry with other people sitting here in the study lounge! #the math is probably really wrong here but i thought that if i poured love in for the sake of pouring love in #somehow somewhere along the line i would also receive love. that i would actually be a part of this community. #anyway that's not going to change how i live here! i committed myself to doing my best this last year #because i don't want anyone to feel left out or unwanted or lonely. i already made the decision #to do everything i can to love the people here. #i'm not trying to toot my horn this is just what i actually want to and have decided to do! #i have birthday cards planned! i have midterm snacks planned! #i've just worked out how i can print christmas and easter cards and stickers! #i'm GOING to love darn it all i'm GOING to pour love in #i think it hurts especially because there's the boy problem going on too #of not being wanted in an area that i DIDN'T expect to be wanted in #and then learning that there is a collective not being wanted in this whole community #it is a Lot and it is very hard and i don't know what to do with it! #i have had this lie (that i'm inherently unloveable and undesirable) in my head since childhood #and i've worked SO HARD to shut that voice up. and it is so so hard to not believe it right now

[cosmicterrorthe8th]

Another Grant headcanon:

I think he wrote love notes when in relationships, and he went all out with like making the paper scented and stuff. But like he had no good perfume so he ended up using his horrible body spray. So like the lucky boyfriend would like find a paper reeking of the body spray like every once in a while.

Also I think he was someone who fell deep into romance because having a crush and feeling butterflies in his stomach was better than numbness. So he would pursue every crush even if he knew it would not end well because of the thrill of it. I think this sucked but I think he atleast felt like this is a normal way for life to suck.

#honestly I was thinking he continued the note thing with marco in college maybe? #and now marco likes the smell of the body spray even if grant found better perfumes cuz nostalgia #i think i am in my own la dee da world after this episode #where I think if willy takes a break from torturing the parents they should form a circle and become bffs #they should form a circle #toast to rebecca #and then just talk shit idk #i think they would be very funny as a group after they are done grieving #like cassandra would be like how could I have dated such a loser #he literally kidnapped like four of my exs ex friends and put collars on them when we were dating #and they would be like no its not your fault he is that manipulative #and then one of them would talk about their ex to comfort her #and then somwhow it would come out that willy is like the age of their grandparents #and cassandra would be like why did this senior citizen get me so bad #he told me to make him a sandwich and I #a multimillionaire made him a sndwich #this will probably never happen in canon #dndads #grant wilson #dungeons and daddies #the tags are their own seperate post at this point #dndads s2 #looking back on this(tags) #all the spouses knew willy as a nice guy who saved them #rebecca was the only one who suspected him so thats why he killed her #they must be feeling so duped getting tortured except for marco who saw him kill a man #cassandra has been feeling duped since heaven #this is killing me all of them are having conversations in my head now the comedy and the pain is killing me mostly the comedy #marco li wilson #grant li wilson

[the-bitter-ocean]

I apologize to all of my followers who initially followed me for Aurora content (I still like the comic it’s very cool) I just have no desire to draw for it bc of recent stuff + ISAT is my main focus atm lol!

#the bitter ocean talks #the bitter ocean rants #mainly bc I just focused on my other interest #but also because parts of the Aurora fandom is racist! whoops! so I’d rather not. Aurora Server I do not miss you in the slightest. #Dw though I’ll still be happy to talk about with friends/ mutuals I just am :/ reluctant to show my art in a fan space rn in those circles #like with the combo of the stalking and then also letting users say the n word and they still get to be in the server #or just how majority of the mods are white and let shitty people hurt the people who areracial minorities is wild #womp womp