#also inspired by my depression :')

[neine]

Awful cropping but thats my bad

[insert lyrics from bitches broken hearts here]

#ofmd #my art #our flag means death #misa misa! is a banger #also the waves tattoos are inspired by jinx #edward teach #theres also one with a black bark... background #yeah bark bark raawr #depression robe? more like #penis idk

[autisticsonic]

feral little dude!!!!

also a style practise! if u look at my past art you shall notice the abysmal lack of forehead space! also tried smth more angular

#sonic #sth #sonic the hedgehog #sonic au #my art #agartha au #ok so actually at the begging of The Plot his fur is actually all solid #but turns out the scientists left some inactive genes in him and some of the other kids #a sort of overdrive #they nabbed him and activated the genes making his fur go darker and tail longer #while the surge of chaos energy made his fur and quills grow as a side effecr #hes very unhappy about the sudden changes even more so thanks to the source #he's inspired by mistygaron and a little bit tsaikonautz #i just wanted a scruffy feral sonic for so long #he's also re-depressed and re-traumatized

[todayisafridaynight]

matrophobia

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #masumi arakawa #masato arakawa #snap sketches #oh my god im going to pass out but my tag ramble is necessary. like especially this time #i was just gonna draw his Actual mom but then i wanted to get saucy with it. also i miss drawing wolves but theres a purpose i promise #ive loved wolves since i was a kid since theyre like. family-oriented and shit. of course a lonely loser ass kid gonna think thats cool #when i think of wolves i think of family- which is what you should think of with your mom right #but a lot of people know wolves are monsters so. ysee where im goin with this one #the flowers and thorns arent Just Random i Double Promise: i snagged inspo from her flower shirt #i originally had the roses be purple to highlight that buuut i didnt want any more color aside from red #did i have anymore notes..... i dont think so. thats all i had to explain :) this is mid ik i just needed it done tho im TIRED #OH HER MULTIPLE EYES its supposed to be inspired by her necklace :) the third eye has a purpose im too tired to explain rn tho #the jo alternative was more depressing since i wanted to put emphasis on his feelings of inadequacy in that #BUT i figured hey. let me have a /lil/ happiness today right. i can do that at least let me draw that at least #ignore the fact i got more bad news while drawing this and almost abandoned it as a result but we push through :) #in any case. im subjecting arakawa to more horrors tomorrow i guess sorry king youve had it good too long. i GUESS #to round this off. Obligatory Vent Portion because myyyyy GOD. i have nightmares about my mom every night #its been that way since like. february- ive always had nightmares bout her but theyve ramped up since The Event #and for the most part i just wake up tired and despondent but sometimes the nightmares just make me wake up gasping for air #like i was TRULY just fighting for my life then and itd been a while since i had a nightmare like that #and just. coupled with how trash my months been. and now that im comm free.(dm me;) ) i figured id express the soul a bit #alright NOW im done. im pretty sure. goodnight everyone come back for part ii of. whatever this was #IM ALL OUT OF TAGS NOW LMAO THATS EPIC ok bye fr

[lemongogo]

can i ask.how u guys practice ur creativity <3 how u practice ur imagination or like.. how u experiment with ur art, how u come to ideas and how u develop them.<3 pretty please <3

#smthing i have always struggled w.is feeling like i can only draw things that r handed 2 me. #as in.an idea or concept that already exists #chara or conflict that already exists.Scene that alr exists. #and i think it can be soo limiting bc when i have that sort of creative desire but nothing 2 reflect off of it #i feel like im unable to do anything/get anywhere bc im unable to do that mental legwork myself ykwim #like comic artists r SOOO JAW DROP INSPIRING TO MEE bc not only are u envisioning ur own sequences/situations #but u are able to imagine even the most MUNDANE interactions within those scenarios u know #like the transitory panels and the quiet moments and the every day stillness #and i feel like.its not even a poor attempt on my behalf its like.i cant Even attempt it.like my brain is soo empty #and soo static and noiseless that i am like gauhh...... #i can practice lines all day long and practice colors and practice anatomy or Whatever bc its something concrete #and its in front of me and i can pry apart the physical technicalities until i understand it better #but my MIND???ABSTRACTION>? THOUGHTS .ough its so hard #and i really want to push past that but i dont know how and its so .. demoralizing to think that ill get there One Day but i feel #one million and two days away.and not making active process towards it. #i know the first step is to build ur visual library and i feel liek. idk i FEEL LIKEEE theres more 2 it that im missing #but also im depressed as hell n my job is killing my creative drive and the seasonal stuff isnt helping #so maybe i just need 2 give it time (true) but i also like.man i dont know. i want 2 do something w my hands #but everything ive been doing so far has felt soo .hard and fruitless and i definitely dont want 2 turn art into such a stressful thing #fruitless as in like.i dont get any personal satisfaction w it.idgaf abt monetization or algorithms or any of tht #but smtimes thats just what happens and i have 2 weather through and know ill be more equipped 4 this some other time #SAWRYYY IM ALWAYS GOING ON AND ONNN im nromal im normal<3 i just rly like art and it sucks balls whn it feels out of reach #sigh cry fart scroll.(:salute:)

[robindaydream]

Alright, I've been meaning to do this for a long time, but I'm finally starting a patreon.

I've spent the last ten years doing shitty retail and food service jobs and honestly it got pretty bad for me for a few years, and it was hard to do anything besides work and eat and sleep.

But I've been doing better this year! And I want to make things. My own things. I'm feeling inspired and like I actually love drawing for the first time in a long time. And I want to hold onto that and keep going. I want to do things I actually care about and believe in and even if this doesn't fully replace having a job I can spend more time doing art and less time making coffee for strangers.

There's not going to be a bunch of big fancy tiers to the patreon just yet. I mostly plan on using it for posing design and concept work for projects I want to work on. If that's something that sounds interesting to you, or if you've ever appreciated the various gay horses and lesbian animals I've drawn over the years, please consider throwing a few bucks a month my way.

Thanks for everything!

#I've also been trying to be less of a fucking hermit all the time #maybe say things and talk to people every now and then #cause it's something I really miss #I used to share my thoughts about media all the time and I almost never do anymore #which is wild cause thinking about media is one of the main things I do #anyway thanks to games like slarpg and roadwarden for making me go 'oh right I wanted to do this too' #and giving me the energy and inspiration to start un-depressing myself #I want to stop being scared of not finishing things and just start them #thank you to everyone who has ever shared and commented on my stuff in the past you have no idea how much it keeps me going #I read every single tag on everything

[ournextdoorneighbor]

the weight of eternity ☕️

#marwan kenzari #yusuf al kaysani #the old guard #the old guard fanart #can a depressed person do this!!!!!!!! #outfit courtesy of big bud press. saw it lost my mind. drew the blorbo #model joe au/photographer nico also as an inspiration #one of those weird art photoshoot magazines #the poet yusuf al kaysani interviewed by [insert hotshot magazine name] #where he talks abt falling in love w a certain someone 👀 wonder who #ournextdoorneighbor art

[shad0w-elemental]

My favorite Warframe moment: Finally waking up and being reunited with the old friend who has been by my side since the very beginning.

Experiencing The Second Dream for the first time was such a pivotal turning point in my Warframe journey. The quests leading up to it implied something big was coming and I wanted to figure out what it was, even though I wasn't 100% invested. But when I finally got there, I knew I was in for the long haul. The world. The story. The characters. I was immediately in love and I decided that I wanted to experience everything this game had to offer. 

Congrats on 10 years, Warframe. Here's to 10 more.

#warframe spoilers #warframe #warframe fanart #warframe operator #this piece was also inspired by a headcanon I have regarding Warframe's becoming cognizant and aware again during Transference #though that headcanon is far more depressing than this piece would suggest #but I wasn't going to draw something sad for the 10 year anniversary #my art

[robbie-verse]

my thoughts about steddie are soooo normal in both content and quantity btw c:

#going insane #like i love them too much #i need to let this out #they are my safe space #and also !!! #they inspire me #to branch out !!!! #they broke me out of my art depression drought #and idc if ppl leave im staying here #bc it's fun ! #as long as im having fun with it #and i can have fun with ppl #im staying #i adore them #!!!!!! #robbie talks #steddie

[urimaginarygirlfriend]

coco moon by owl city is genuinely the most positive, uplifting, and inspiring album that i have ever listened to

#no negativity or depression #simply just vibes and music about being inspired or awed #also every song has a happy ending so you can just chill out and feel happy #i need more people to listen to this album #i’m genuinely obsessed with it #when i win my oscar i’m gonna thank adam young for making this album and encouraging me to continue making art #sorry i’m bullshitting #i just have a lot of feelings #online diary #tumblr diary #diary #digital diary #girlblogger #girlblogging #personal diary #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #pinterest girl #owl city #coco moon #adam young #silly litttle thoughts

[rfaromance]

Bright.

Blindingly bright.

Saeyoung squinted as he stepped out from his workroom, blinking vigorously as his eyes tried to adjust to the light.

When he was in his "office," as he called it with a tongue-in-cheek chuckle, he entrenched himself in almost total darkness. Only the faint glow of screens illuminated the din.

But when he walked out into the living space of his bunker, where a warm smile greeted him from the kitchen....

Dizzyingly, dazzlingly bright.

"Saeyoung!" Her voice was music to his ears as she called out to him cheerfully. "Are you finally done working? Come over and eat!"

He plopped down in a stool on the other side of the kitchen counter, then craned his neck to try to see what she had prepared for him. "I didn't hear the fire alarm," he commented, unable to suppress his amusement as he did so.

She quickly wiped the smirk off his face by smacking him with a hand towel. "Today's meal was incident-free!" she huffed. "If only because... I've been banned from using the oven until we get new oven mitts."

Saeyoung could feel the heat radiating off her face in waves. "And I promised you can pick them out. Whatever mitts make you happy." He knew she didn't mean to burn a hole straight through the fabric of the old mitt. "Come on, now. Show me what you made!" Eager to change the topic, he adjusted his glasses and tried to sneak another peek at her creation.

"Yes!" Her eyes lit up in excitement as she turned to grab the dish she had prepared. "Today I made... ahem." She paused and cast him a quick glance.

At her cue, Saeyoung began to drum his hands against the counter, preparing for a grand entrance.

"A PhD Parfait!" With a dramatic flourish, she slid a bowl in front of Saeyoung's face, close enough that he almost ended up with yogurt atop his freckled nose.

No longer suppress his giggles, Saeyoung echoed gleefully, "PhD Parfait!" Propping his elbows up and leaning forward, he purred, "Well, I must know, what layers of study went into this parfait's degree?"

"This parfait has its base studies in vanilla yogurt and granola," she began. "It then proceeded to get a master's in honey drizzle, with extra classes in blueberry and strawberry, then naturally a thesis on chopped cherry!" He could almost hear her chest thumping as she tucked her head down shyly. "I wanted to turn your favorite flavors into something healthy... I hope you don't mind the sliced almonds that I added for protein. Plus... you're quite nutty, so they fit."

With an indignant snort, Saeyoung folded his arms over his chest. He quickly stuck his tongue out and winked at her to let her know he was just joking, though. Eagerly he picked up his spoon and began to dig into the parfait.

By playing around, he could hide the tears in his eyes and the blush on his cheeks at how touched he was that she was this thoughtful and sweet.

"What do you want to do this afternoon?" he asked in between bites. "Now that I'm finished working for today."

"Hmm..." She slung her apron over the hook on the side of the refrigerator, before coming back to sit beside him. "Can we stay in? It's supposed to be really cold today."

Saeyoung nodded slowly. "Right. You don't handle the cold well." He knew her joints became stiff when the temperature dropped too low, and overall she would function more slowly. "We can stay inside. Is it a video game day, a binge-watch day, or continue working on the moving basketball hoop day?"

"I still don't understand why you want to make it move!" she groaned. "I'm bad enough at basketball when the hoop stays still! Why can't we make a robot that retrieves tennis balls? Since we're both awful at tennis."

Saeyoung shook his head. "I get my tennis workout by running after all the balls we miss!" he explained. "Unless you have any other ideas?" His voice grew soft as he added, "We'll do whatever makes you happy."

He could almost see the gears turning in her head as she fumbled around for an answer. "Oh!" Like a light bulb had gone off inside her, she asked, "Do we still have those model rockets? The wooden ones? Let's put them together and then paint them!"

"Mm, yeah." He nodded, finishing his bite full of berries before continuing. "Check where we keep the board games."

Hastily she sprang up, clearly excited to get started, but almost immediately she fell back into her seat.

At once, Saeyoung jumped to his feet, turning towards her with concern. "Honey! Are you okay?"

"Of course, of course." She waved him off dismissively. "I just stood up too fast. I'm fine!" As if to prove herself, she jumped up again, only to teeter and collapse back into her seat again.

Saeyoung's brow furrowed and he reached over to place his arms around her for support. "Come here. Let me take you to the couch. When's the last time I checked your vitals?"

She shook her head uncertainly. "I... can't access my calendar. That's strange. Is it updating right now?"

Fighting hard to keep a calm smile on his face, Saeyoung led her to the couch. Once he was sure she was seated firmly, he reached underneath the couch and pulled out a metal box. "Let me check you over real quick, get you something to fuel up, and then we paint. Would that make you happy?"

She nodded. "Sounds like a plan, dear!"

Dizzyingly bright.

He parted her dark hair to the side and lifted her shirt, exposing her delicate back. He slid his goggles on and pulled out his flashlight and screwdriver, as he carefully removed her back panel to reveal the motherboard underneath. "No wonder she's feeling off," he mumbled as he put his screwdriver down and began searching in his toolbox for his soldering iron. "These wires are frayed. I'll need to make replacements tonight."

Excitement. Joy. Curiosity. Embarrassment. Mischief. Love.

He had done his best to recreate every aspect of her, from the color of the bulbs in her eyes to the shade of fiber for her hair, from the spray paint he used for her skin to the synthesizer he selected for her voice. He wanted to capture her broad range of emotions and the intensity with which she felt them. He hadn't been sure such a feat would be possible, but after trial and error, he had finally created almost an exact likeness of the woman he loved.

Almost exact, for two reasons:

First, because God Seven was no god at all but a mere human, and he could not ever hope to recreate his departed angel perfectly.

Second, because he had chosen not to program her with sadness.

Sadness. Sorrow. Despair. Agony. Misery. Emptiness.

She would only know bliss. She would be happy for the rest of their lives.

Saeyoung would never, ever need to see tears fall from his beloved's face ever again.

He wouldn't lose her to misfortune and misery a second time.

"Are you happy?" he whispered, barely audible as he fused the frayed wires back together.

"I'm always happy when I'm with you!" she chirped back, sitting patiently as Saeyoung worked his repairs.

I hope it's bright and happy where you are.

(loosely inspired by this art by @itsmeohmyo )

#mystic messenger #mysmes #mysme #luciel choi #saeyoung choi #707 #707 x mc #she/her mc #inspired by that one fanart that i'm looking for RIGHT NOW #also inspired by my depression :') #ask to tag #tw death mention #tw implied death

[shima-draws]

Big shoutout to One Piece for awakening my motivation and inspiration to draw when it was dormant for *checks calendar* over a year

#It’s been a LONG ass time since I’ve drawn this much. And this often #Like I want to say since 2022 probably #I think depression was a big part of why I just. Did no art last year #(And also the fact that I was physically unable to for 6 months haha thanks back problems!) #But yeah. YEAH. I haven’t been this motivated and hyperfixated since I was churning out Tododeku AUs #I missed this I really did 😭 It’s soooo nice to want to draw and have ideas and be willing to actually sit down and do it #Thank you OP for my LIFE. #Shima speaks #Again I’m just sitting here and letting the inspiration lead me #Another reason why I’ve been drawing so much is bc I KNOW I’ll hit a wall at some point #So I want to churn out as much art as possible before then…LMAO #Me to me: Draw draw draw DRAW DRAW BEFORE YOU STOP WANTING TO #Me: Yes boss okay boss on it boss!

[stillcominback]

🎀 🎀 🎀

#hi friends! #local cryptid laurel making a quick little dash appearance just to check in tbh 💗💗💗 #miss you all and writing loads but life continues to be a lot lol 😮‍💨 #still job hunting which has been really rough in general but also mentally #then raising my daughter aka puppy who I love but takes a lot of my time and energy 🐶 #BUUUUUUT a couple things! #1 - i’m better at checking into discord these days so if you would like to plot/write there and/or make servers to do so I would LOVE THAT #2 - RE: depressing job search - I’m working on opening up my own small shop!! #I’ll be starting with a collection inspired by The Traitors aka one of my fave shows atm #but will be doing all kinds of designs going forward! #I’ll drop more info here once we officially ✨launch✨ #but I would love to get more followers on our IG page and just get some hype/interest going! #so if anyone wants to check us out to see what’s to come (soon)! the IG is sonichedesigns #(and the website is thatsoniche but it’s not fully opened yet!) #I’m nervous but excited because I’ve always wanted to do something like this but never really had the time or creative/mental energy #so maybe the stars are aligning who knows! #LOVE YOU ALL and hope to catch you on discord at least! #(again not abandoning tumblr or rp at all! just don’t have much time for it so my blogs are basically for aesthetic things and w/e I have #time for haha 🤪💗 but discord I would love to do more writing and stuff so hmu or ask for my handle! MWAH!) #💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

[usermoon]

character/story/oc inspiration tag

rules: write up a blurb or make a visual collage of the people or characters (from books, TV shows, movies, etc.) that inspired your story and/or OC, either visually, personality wise, or just a general vibe

i just had to do it again for my girl terri

#terri yamamoto #as far as i can remember terri is less based on tv shows or movies but more based on vibes lol #well idk she was based a lot on chiaki kuriyama and idol culture in japan #not that chiaki is an idol but it is very common for idols in japan to do inappropriate photos (for minors at least) #i also based her on the idea of child modelling in japan and how it was very common in the '90s for whole ass children to pose nude #to this day you do not have to look that hard for these types of photos of certain japanese celebrities #not all of them are super inappropriate but we should not be letting child models pose nude in any context #ive also seen a lot of movies from the 2000s and 2010s that just show like mundane japanese life that i based some of her life off of #but ultimately i was intrigued by the ideas of a child celebrity who grows up and just wants to escape it all at any cost but it still #finds her #and the incredible void and self-destructive behaviors that depression can cause #AND a tiny bit of inspiration of mima from perfect blue #none of the psychological horror themes of the film but just the idea of her being famous and how it started to destroy her #anyway this is long and most of her story is only in my head or just not shared here yet so this is probably confusing #tag game #nonsims

[lvsifer]

Anne Rice on transgender people

Writer, actor and activist Phaylen Fairchild wrote a Medium post calling Rice her friend and “first LGBTQ ally,” recalling when she reached out to Rice in the early 2000s via the email address listed on the author’s website. Not only did Rice respond, she encouraged Fairchild’s newfound writing aspirations. 

“At the time I was a navigating difficult territory of gender and sexuality, and she was the first person I came out to as gay,” Fairchild said in the piece. 

“Anne, although I never heard her voice, felt like a safe place. … She gave me confidence to live authentically, telling me ‘Your life is a story, every day is a new page. Live a story worthy of telling again and again.’”

In 2009, Fairchild came out to Rice again, this time as transgender.   

“In typical Anne fashion, she thought it was fabulous,” Fairchild remembered. 

“She told me at the time that she believed transgender people were sacred, that we possessed a unique gift of life experience that few ever would, which would allow us to see the world from ‘a view from the greatest height.’ She shared with me stories of trans figures in history that she had learned about in her own extensive studies. ‘The most fascinating figures in mythology were always transgender or genderless’ she once told me. ‘And in so many cultures reaching back thousands of years, transgender and intersex people were deified, perceived as wise and powerful.’”

“Anne Rice was the first person who made me feel that it was OK to be comfortable in my skin, and that my journey as a transgender woman was special — not because I was by any means odd, weird or different — but that I was worthy of celebrating because my very existence was ‘a remark on the magic of the complex human condition,’” she continued.

from this article.

#reading this as a trans person myself honestly just made me cry #listen this woman had her demons as we all do etc but i will love her all my life for what she has given me with her books #ofc there are things one can (and should!) criticise abt her/her writing but #next to this will always be the overwhelming love I feel for her work #and what is a writer's work if not the purest expression of their soul #also can we contrast this with fn JKR #I grew up with her books and I am currently re-reading them and I love them just as much as back then #but esp as a young queer teen in a mostly pre-internet/social media age these books expressed something so profound and beautiful #not just on a queer level but on a human level. they will forever be a part of me #i love her. #and finding this bit after her death honestly just hit me really hard #i'm really struggling w mortality and depression currently and continuously but...there is also such insane beauty in the fact that #that we may live on in others via our art #she is honestly still one of my big idols/inspirations in life #personal #trans stuff #transgender #lgbtq issues #anne rice #iwtv #amc's interview with the vampire

[heavencasteel420]

I’m not so single-minded about shipping Jancy that I don’t enjoy writing about them with other people, but I do feel compelled to make it make sense why they aren’t together. I don’t know who remembers How I Met Your Mother, but it’s similar to how Marshall has to include an elaborate backstory about Lily dying some time ago in any sexual fantasy about another woman.

#I have it figured out for my Stonathan college story #(no UD and Nancy and Jonathan were never single at the same time) #and the gap between S1 and S2 is great for any hookups and doomed relationships for Jonathan #and I can do them breaking up during/after s4 #(although I can’t vibe with anything that’s like ‘oh it wasn’t real or meaningful and they’re not sad about it’) #(first because come the fuck on) #(second because that’s such a depressing view of love) #(that you can only have one ‘real’ romantic relationship in your life) #(and everything else was fake or a mistake) #anyway it’s the sweet but weird chrissy/Jonathan one that’s giving me trouble #also the very new chrissy/Nancy one #inspired by the fact that I wrote a fic where chrissy dreams about Nancy in a leather bustier lol #not in a gay way but you know that’s Something #I am aware that there are no rules but for my personal satisfaction it is a rule

[akkivee]

nobody asked but these are probably my favourite live looks hayama-san gave us lol

#vee queued to fill the void #FOLLOWED VERY VERY V E R Y CLOSELY BY HIS 7TH LIVE DAY ONE LOOK (MAX CUTE AND I WISH HIS SUKAJAN SHIRT WAS ON SALE TO THIS DAY) #AND HIS 8TH LIVE DAY 2 LOOK (BIASED BUT ALSO HE LOOKS GOOD IN GOLD AND HE WAS IN A SKIRT THAT HAD THIS RLY CUTE BELT BUCKLE ON HIS HIP) #are they in order?????? idk lol but maybe #my hayama brainrot has been on 💯 lately as we get closer to the next hangout stream and his return to it lol #it’s!!!!!!!!!!!!! been too long since i’ve seen his face in content i haven’t been looping for ages lmao #(what????? i got three new videos with him in it in the past two weeks and a very entertaining radio ft sakakihara-san???? idkwym lol 😌😌😌) #abema removed their bonus 6th live content effectively making it lost media i think and i’ve really depressed about it #it was so charming to listen to hayama-san’s voice just perpetually stuck on his kuukou baritone #since that was the first time he’d performed as kuukou for as long as he did and as intensely too (bat’s first kaigen 🥹🥹🥹) #like even takeuchi-san’s voice was going out towards the end of their interviews that’s how hard they went on that live #and sakakihara-san’s post live excitement for kaigen the way he happy clapped getting to talk about kaigen ABEMA I RLY DO HATE THIS #so i’m trying to make myself feel better by tag rambling about them lol #anyway that haircut for the 6th live was so inspired i miss his long hair era everyday and 💜💜💜 to the first time he wowed the entire world #(if you feel there’s some type of energy going into the 5th live shot i posted instead a more uniform shot with the others eh heh⭐️)