#all of it hurts like a motherfucker.

[winglesshopeful]

I don't want to see another phlebotomy needle anywhere near me for as long as i can get away with.

#one fucker misses a vein. bursts another perfectly good one. gets a second dr in. misses a vein. fucking sewing machines my damn arm looking #all of it hurts like a motherfucker. #tells me 'hurrb well get another appointment in 6 month. in the meantime come in again this fking week to get shanked when our REALLY good- #- phlebotomists are here!' proceeds to abruptly leave the room and forget about me there for 10 fucking minutes. #then the others take 10 more minutes to try to figure out wtf to do with me. schedules me for an appt i can't even make. #but let's rewind to that 'REAL good' comment: are you FUCKING joking? do these ppl save the mediocre phlebotomists for the end of the day?? #are yall letting maniacs who can't find a damn vein just fucking pincushion anyone who needs blood work or is that just for the trans ppl? #so yeah. i walked home in the freezing cold & dark fucking sobbing an hour and ten minutes after what was supposed to be like a 30 min thing #needle mention #medical mention

[dragon-spaghetti]

Chronic pain husk,, save me chronic pain husk,,,,

Days where he leans on the bar more than usual. Flying up/down the stairs being preferred over the pain in his knees, even though it feels as though even his feathers hurt after doing so. Sitting down hurts as much as standing so may as well just do his job to distract himself,,,

#drag rambles #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel husk #my leg hurts like a Bitch today can you tell #to be clear I am not diagnosed w shit #however I do know my right leg has been fucked for years #motherfucker hurts at all times I stg #and left is starting to get worse #so #I'm giving the cat my problems ✨

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

examining your relationship with your art can be fun

but watch out

#examine too hard and you'll have a crisis #or *another crisis if you're like me #sometimes yeah i think about it too hard and then i get the intense prey instinct #to chuck my tablet into a field and then take off sprinting in the other direction #though i know id just come creeping back like a cautious but curious deer. get a little closer. run away #closer. jump back. poke the tablet and run away. come back and poke it again. #its the 'what am i doing? am i doing what i want to do? am i enjoying this? is it hurting me?' #will admit i have these thoughts every other day #ill have like a good bit of fully enjoying art & what im scribbling #and then suddenly ill wake up the next day and its terrifying and Too Much and huh??? HUH??? #i want to draw but im so so scared <3 but im being sooooo brave about it <3 #anyway i think we should all destroy our electronics and run screaming into the woods #OH MY GOD SOON I CAN DO THAT. #not the electronics - i mean the running into the woods part #oh im so excited. when its all too much i can just walk in nature with no one around #that Will fix me! for sure! #when the Art Fear™️ comes back i can just... go away for a few hours and touch some motherfucking grass #AND MAYBE FORAGE SOME CHICKEN OF THE WOODS. I AM DYING TO HARVEST WILD CHICKEN OF THE WOODS. #LITERALLY HAS BEEN A LIFE GOAL FOR YEARS NOW #when the Art Fear™️ creeps in i can get some big chickeney mushrooms and cook em up. refresh my soul.... #absolutely unprompted #but yeah sometimes i wonder if im drawing for myself or others. like drawing for others is fine but... i think there's a fine line #am i balancing it? am i Indulging enough? am i doing what i want to do enough??? #are my people-pleaser tendencies consuming me again? am i feeling Pressure? hm. yeah its crisis time #am i living how i want. am i enjoying how i want. am i interacting with welcome home the way i want to. #i think im going to go do the dishes....

[greelin]

well they included bite marks AND blood on his mouth the morning after. please respect my privacy at this time

#bg3 #the option to be like You didn’t seem like you were all the way here. sick sick sick sickkkkkkk you can’t do this to me. not here. Not now. #not like this. #rattling him around like I CARE ABOUT YOU!!! FUCKING IDIOT #you don’t have to do all the flirting and performing and seduction i just want you safe and happy and loved. fool #killing cazador withh my mind. #i have a lot of thoughts and my heart hurts sososo bad. i need to get to act 3 so that motherfucker can DIE!!!!!

[dailykugisaki]

Day 123 | id in alt

Sorry Shoko, you gotta act professional around this one student because her technique is corrosive.

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #shoko ieiri #nanami kento #would yall still like me if i out fucking uh....big curls on shoko.... #I PUT A FUCKIN BIG CURL ON SHOKO YALL I SAID I WOULD #I SAID I WOOOULLLDDD #its kinda a fro? idk if you would call this one ive looked at ref pictures but all of them have smaller curls so im not sure #Shoko thinking she could bullshit breeze all the students? nah #Kugisaki cursed technique bombing the poor woman lmao #SHE WOULD. Kugisaki wouldn't be proud of it but she would honestly #i rarely see people draw shoko pissed its goofy #saw the leaks #that motherfucking villain is absolutely turning out to be one of those kindergarten “NUH UH” mfs and im shriveling #anyway back to Kugisaki #she dosent really mean to hurt shoko she never will but damn. that shit is REFLEX

[cat-mentality]

Love doomed Team Soulfire.

Because they all love so very deeply don't they? They love their children, they love their friends, they love their homes, they love the little peace they have found in the Island.

They love so deeply that they just want to go home.

But love can be a curse.

Love can lead to nothing but pain and disaster when that love blinds you.

The Entity says that their children's lives are at stake, that they must win if they ever want to see them again, that there is a cursed team and they cannot lose, that their lose is death to their children. And Team Blue cannot risk it, they cannot allow themselves to let their children be put at risk in case they are the cursed them.

For love, they would do anything.

And that was exactly what they did. When other's are getting their resources, when they are thinking about what to do, how to proceed, Team Soulfire already knew, they knew they would do anything for their children, they would kill and they would die.

Surely everyone else was on the same page wasn't them? Their deaths meant nothing as long as their children could be saved.

Love blinded Team Soulfire.

Love blinded them to the pain they inflicted on others. Made them unable to realize exactly what they are doing the moment they spilled first blood, because that? That was the moment Purgatory began.

Not when they landed on the desolate Island, not when they were separeted on teams, not when their children's lives were considered a prize in a twisted game.

That first death? That started Purgaroty. Because what Team Blue didn't realize was that not everyone else was blinded by love as much as they were, that for others killing wasn't their first goal, that for a brief moment people thought they could fight against the system, that they could try in other ways.

But after that? Oh no, there was no turning back from that.

They didn't realize that when you kill someone over and over and over and over again, without mercy, without pause, without thinking about the sort of pain you are inflicting on them, it doesn't matter why you are doing it. They wouldn't look at you and see a friend, they wouldn't see a person who just wants to go home, who just wants to end this hell.

They will see a murderer.

They will see someone who sees their suffering as a means of gaining points, they will see someone who doesn't care about anyone else.

They will only see betrayal.

They will only see a enemy.

You cannot burn your bridges and expect to find a way home. You cannot stab the people around you, even if you do it for love, even if you believe yourself to be doing it for good reasons, and expect them to open your arms to you when you need it.

Team Soulfire loves. They love so deeply, so intensely, so very much.

And their love doomed them to be hated. To be viewed as the ones willing to do anything, to kill and betray and destroy anything the others have. Their love blinded them to the suffering they inflicted upon the others.

And the most painful thing?

Team Soulfire does not realize others are not playing the game as they are. That when they try to even the scoreboard, when they try to make things "fair" they are just feeding an uncontrollable fire, they are just scattering the ashes even further, they are hugging the broken pieces of what once was and they don't realize that the blood coating their hands.

Oh my darlings, how they put so much faith in a verbal agreement about the safety of the egg statues. How they love the children so much that they could not imagine that others wouldn't see those stones the same way they did, that they wouldn't be petrified that there was the slight chance that hurting the statue could hurt their children, how they believed that people would feel the same, would respect it as much as they did.

But of course they didn't. Because Team Bolas Rojas has been stabbed in the back from all the sides multiple times, they could not phantom the idea of trusting the people who have hunted them for sport, who have killed them for points in their own home, who have done nothing but hurt and betray them, they don't look at Team Soulfire and see friends just trying to go home, trying to protect their loved ones, they just see the people who hurt them multiple times.

And Team Green Ninjas agreed to not kill the statues, they truly had never any intention of finishing the job, but at no point their ever promised they wouldn't try to win, because at the end of the day they too worry so fucking much they couldn't imagine the possibility of not trying to win to save their children.

So that leaves Team Soulfire isolated, burned by love, forever to be distrusted and hated and avoided because of the actions they took in day one, because they believed that anything done in Purgatory was done for love and would be forgiven because they all have the same goal, they all want the same thing, because they believed people would understand their motivations.

And they did! They do!

It just doesn't matter.

Because the hurt they caused is too deep to be soothed by that.

For love, they have caused what seems like irreparable amounts of pain.

For love, they doomed themselves to be the villains in the eyes of everyone they know.

#listen im not going to point fingers in the main post but like #im a firm believer that bbh is the reason team blue is fucked #like sorry if you have mister 'i will kill everyone for the sake of the eggs and be cruel about it i don't give a fuck' on your team #ofc people are going to want to deck your ass when they see you #because he is part of your team so the logical thinking is that you agree with him when he is just hurting you and your friends #and aint nobody just going to accept that #mf burned his bridges and his team's bridges all in one that is a special talent if i say so myself #i think i will do team green in a different post hang on #qsmp purgatory #qsmp analysis #team soulfire #qsmp #what hits me the most about team soulfire is that watching them is like seeing traumatized people trying their best #but for others povs? they are just a bunch of motherfuckers and i would deck them in the face without hesitation #because they don't mean to but they were so very cruel on the first day #and now no one is willing to offer them a hand when they need the most #doomed themselves trying to do the right thing #i hope things get worse for them #disproportional consequences and all that shit #you started something you could never predict and now it's destroying you and everything you ever loved vibes

[watzuu-lmk]

Has there been a shadowpeach fic where like, wukong decides to stay in ffm and lived out their forever but the doomed narrative keeps dooming anyway?

#Like like I want them to do domestic stuff thats just domestic and not overly fluffy yknow #But then it just gradually shifts like it's going down the drain but like subtly. I want that to be shown and not tell #And i dont want them to break off with them fighting and macaque getting a scar no no no sir #I want them to yell. I want them to howl. To just want them to wish to tear the other motherfucker apart but cant because by god do they- #Love each other and it fucking hurts #Again show not tell #Is this a happy ending wazz? Probably not!!! I want it to be bittersweet!!!!!! As Fuck!!!!!!!!! #I WANT THEM TO BREAK THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!! BUT I WANT THEM TO HURT EACH OTHER EMOTIONALLY NOT PHYSICALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!! #DO YOU SEE MY VISION!!!!!!!!?!?!!?!!? #SHAKES YOUSHAKESYOURATTLESMYCAGERRAAAUUUGHGHGG #Like like like its like a slow decent. Like like slow burn but with breaking up yknow #YKNOW?!?!?? #God if god gave me the ability to write it wouldve been OVER for you all #IM INSANEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[this-midnight-prayer]

…I was going to lose you.

#yellowjackets #jackie x shauna #shauna x jackie #jackie taylor #shauna shipman #this hurts like a motherfucker #i knew it all a long!!! #such an underrated moment

[duncanor]

If you think Knives was right, you are wrong.

There's literally nothing just or fair or useful in what he does. If you think his plan is truly to save the Plants you did not get him.

He hurts plants just as bad as humans. If anything, I think he's worst than them. Because humans needs them and don't understand them, that's why they do it.

Knives uses them for his own benefits, fuses with them, disregards their opinions. He understands them and doesn't need them but he still hurts them. He's literally the sole reason humans even have to treat them this way, to overwork them to the bone on NML.

It was never about saving the butterfly, it was always about killing the spider out of fear. Even if that means crushing the butterfly who gets in the way.

#trigun #trimax #Million Knives #Tristamp #Listen I love Knives but y'all need to stop saying this mass murderer who hurt both humans and his kind is right #Knives is not a Magneto y'all 😭 #That's like saying Legato isn't at fault of his actions because of Knives influence #Like he was his slave or something #Nah #That motherfucker knew what he was doing #Knives character isn't about vindication it isn't about revenge it isn't about justice nor fairness #It isn't about defending the oppressed #It's about protecting HIMSELF at all cost

[finncakes]

Do you feel like Ashton and Orym are avoiding speaking to each other? I've seen a few others mention it and it feels like they have plenty of opportunities to talk but don't

OH YEAH ABSOLUTELY.

i feel like ever since their talk in ep 40 there's been smth off between them versus before. extremely long rambling under the cut i am so sorry these two change my brain chemistry

personally i think on orym's side he doesn't like someone who's able to read him this well. i think it's esp interesting cause ashton in ep 40 said "i know you're not okay." rather than asking if orym was okay, feel like that makes orym uncomfortable. someone not evening giving him a chance to continuing putting on his strong exterior. probably last person able to read past his bullshit was well...will, derrig or his mother.

ashton i think seems afraid of how easily they open up to orym. just like ashton sees through orym's, orym sees through ashton's bullshit. they've almost started to say things to orym & just abruptly cut off (and it's killing me!!! ashton i am shaking you by the shoulders what were you gonna say!!!). they want to be ready to talk to him but they aren't cause once they start i don't think they'll be able to keep everything in. knowing how much this group is players who embody their character nearly 24/7 (i do it too agfgh), i was esp sad seeing ashton after the battle. look like they were holding back fuckin tears man (orym too).

both of them are feeling small and lost and i think once they do talk? it'll be big for them internally because they read eachother so well and are a lot more similar than they originally thought. ESP seeing even slivers of how orym copes with things this awful. seems like ash & him cope more similarly than i would've figured. also makes me worried for those 6 years orym was lost for....girl what happened...

in general i think their talk in ep 40 made all their similairties and abilities to just see straight through eachother more apparent to them both. and that's sorta scary for both of them, hence why they're just avoiding it. easier to ignore it than sit down and talk to someone who you know will see a very vulnerable version of you whether you like it or not.

#asks #anon #liam i am BEGGING you to see the motherfucker right infront of orym #you went insane for essek & his similarities to caleb pls do the same for my punk rock #also been losing my mind at the FACES ashton keeps making when orym talks they look so sad for him #i have an inkling ashton was gonna talk to orym before bor'dor ended up doing so #tal was doing that Thing he does before he wants to do rp where he like rapidly looks at matt and the person he wants to rp with #girl calm down it's ok #but YEAH they're driving me insane TALK TO EACHOTHER U COWARDS #WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? REALIZING YOU CAN BE VULNERABLE WITH EACHOTHER? MAYBE HAVING FEELINGS? #COWARDS !!! #also saw someone say ashton might be feeling a lil hurt seeing orym go talk to all these other people after they offered their shoulder #i can very much see that

[writingonthemoon]

blorbo spotted in the club looking like a kid that just started listening to simple plan after figuring out they might be gay

#charlie slimecicle #slimecicle #motherfucker looks like he came up to me at the concert 'cause I'm a “safe adult” and he's nervous #i've been laughing over the absurity of this all for 45 minutes i need to study for my engineering exam #fuck i can't breathe my chest hurts so bad why is this so funny

[musashi]

i'm going to be fucking sick please if you associate with tumblr user gaycey-sketchit at all please just fucking block me leave my life exit i am so fucking upset and terrified. i want nothing to do with anyone who is even remotely close with him

EDIT:

FUCKING BASTARD JACKASS THE FUCKING NERVE OF YOU DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT I HAVE STALKERS. DO YOU UNDERSTAND MY FAMILY HAS HAD TO GET PULLED OUT OF SCHOOL BEFORE. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT THERE WERE WHOLE BLOGS DOXXING ME. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT BY BEING MY FRIEND AT ALL YOU ARE NOW A SOURCE OF INFORMATION TO THESE PEOPLE. THERE ARE PEOPLE STALKING ME WHO ARE COMBING YOUR BLOG FOR INFORMATION TO HURT ME AND MY FRIENDS. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO DROP MY NAME! THE THINGS YOU ARE SAYING ARE SPECIFIC ENOUGH THAT THEY CAN BE CROSS REFERENCED WITH OTHER THINGS PEOPLE HAVE SAID AND USED TO HURT ME

LEAVE ME ALONE! YOUR "PERSONAL BLOG" IS PUBLIC! ANYONE CAN VIEW IT, AND MY STALKERS ARE! SEVERAL OF THEM SENT ME MESSAGES ABOUT THIS! THATS PART OF THE REASON I KNEW YOU WERE POSTING ABOUT ME!!!!!!! BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT BEING SUBTLE OR VAGUE ENOUGH!!!!! PEOPLE KNOW THAT YOU ARE FUCKING TALKING ABOUT ME!!!!!

YOU CANNOT SIT THERE AND PREACH TO ME ABOUT MOVING ON WHEN YOU WILL NOT SHUT UP ABOUT ME! EVERY DAY THE FRIENDS OF MINE WHO YOU ARE STILL IN THE NOTIFICATIONS OF TELL ME OF SOME NEW DUMB BULLSHIT YOU HAVE SAID ABOUT ME! I AM NOT OVER HERE SAYING BULLSHIT ABOUT YOU! AND IT IS A LITTLE HARD TO "MOVE ON" WHEN YOU ARE PUTTING MY FUCKINF FRIENDS' LIVES IN DANGER

ACT LIKE A FUCKING ADULT. YOU ARE FUCKING INSANE. IT IS INSANE THAT YOU HAVE CONVINCED YOURSELF THE WAY YOU ARE BEHAVING IS ACCEPTABLE JUST BECAUSE YOU TALK WITH A CALM VOICE AND REPEATEDLY POST PERFORMATIVE SHIT ABOUT HOW GREAT YOURE DOING. LEAVE ME ALONE. LEAVE MY FRIENDS ALONE. YOUR PERSONAL BLOG IS PUBLIC. MY STALKERS ARE ON IT AND THEY ARE USING YOU. AND YOU ARE GIVING THEM WHAT THEY WANT. OF COURSE I THINK YOU ARE TRYING TO HURT ME, YOU WILL NOT LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

YOUR BOYFRIEND HAS LITERALLY BEEN A MIDDLEMAN BEFORE YOU HAVE DONE THE EXACT SAME THING DESPITE ME NOT EVEN HAVING YOU BLOCKED?!?!?! THE FUCJ AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!?!?! JUST STAND BY WHILE YOU PUT MT FRIENDS' LIFE IN DANGER?!?!?? IF I AHD A WAY TO CKNTACT YOU DIRECTLY I WOULD YOU FUCKING FOOL

leave me alone just fucking leave me alone!!!!!! Practice what you preach and stop fucking talking about me!!!!

#wordy wendy #im so fucking furious #this motherfucker is mentally certifiably fucking unwell #he invented an insane fucking version of our relationship and punished me for not subscribing to it #and now he is PUTTING MY FRIENDS' LIVES IN FUCKING DANGER #I'M GOING TO FUCKING SCREAM AND CRY AND THROW UP #i hate this so fucking much i hate having public beef i fucking hate doing shit like this but it is NEXT LEVEL NOW #REAL PEOPLES FUCKING LIVES ARE IN DANGER #DO YOU HAVE ANY EMPATHY AT ALL? DO YOU HAVE ANY FUCKING COMPASSION? #THERAPY. PROFESSIONAL HELP #THERE IS SOMETHING SO FUCKING WRONG WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #GOD. FUCK. #THIS WILL NOT HURT ME. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT THIS WILL NOT HURT ME? #THE ONLY PERSON THIS WILL HURT IS AN INNOCENT WOMAN WHO DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG TO YOU #WHAT IS FUCKING WRONG WITH YOU

[moxley]

i need a very small amount of groceries but nobody can give me a lift and i'm not in a fit state to leave the house, so my goddamn sincere-ass apologies to the grocery delivery guy who is bringing like five things.

#tal.png #it's not uhh whatever instacart tho its just the delivery services... from like. the actual store #me: has a good reason for using instant delivery stuff #me‚ miserable with anxiety and other malaise: im just like that fucking lady who stalked her instacart guy to the store #i did add epsom salts to the order #i feel better this morning but im banged up all over. my back hurts like a motherfucker. #my leg hurts when i walk on it but its ok when im sitting #i have a huge fucking bruise on my other leg #my asscheek hurts #it goes on

[cncleric]

Interaction I just had with my roommate (we're very close and share a bathroom)

Me (in said bathroom): oh shit

RM: What?

Me: I just have a bruise coming in way darker than I thought it would

RM: Can I come in?

Me: I'm topless, but sure

*roommate enters to see the hickeys and said dark bruise, clearly from a bite*

RM (without missing a beat): oh, you'll want this!

They then grabbed a cutesy rose quartz roller thing and started breaking up the blood in their own hickeys. Turns out, that shit works. (Bruise is not gone but is already feeling better)

#i genuinely didn't mind the bruise other than it hurts like a motherfucker any time i am bumped or bump anything #other than that all the marks are hot as fuck #t4t #queer #lovers #requited love #queer nsft #t4t nsft #ftm nsft #trans nsft #marking kink #bite #biting kink

[unchained-hound]

I literally did this shit at school minus the fake being high part

#lycan.txt #helluva boss #it was ground up nerds (the candy) my snot came out blue for two days and it hurt like a motherfucker #all of it just for a stupid joke about my nationality too... i mean we did laugh so it was worth it

[pa-pa-plasma]

i keep forgetting to make this post but i wanted to remind everyone that Kitty Softpaws is literally disabled

#like. in case people only watched the second movie so didn't get her background story in the first one #puss in boots #kitty softpaws #& just in case you have no idea what i'm talking about: she was declawed by her human family randomly one day #which is why she ran away & became an outlaw #& why her paws are so soft in the first place. she doesn't have claws #i know people hate to view disabled characters as disabled if they aren't literally wheelchair-bound & crying about it #so like. this is a post for those people #a cat without claws is one billion percent disabled & suffering from chronic pain CON STANT LY #like remember that every time she lands on all four paws that fucking hurts like a motherfucker