#akito is constrictive and dark and despair

[aparticularbandit]

So I started the dub of Fruits Basket again.

Forgetting, of course, that the primary theme is about life changing and having to be okay with letting go of the past even though the future is uncertain.

More importantly, forgetting that one of the main threads of this throughout the series is Tohru's grief (and guilt) over her mother's death.

....

Well, you know what, my therapist told me to engage with grief as homework the past couple of weeks, so between this and starting Anohana again I THINK IT COUNTS.

#musings #bandit liveblogs #bandit liveblogs furuba #i know i could have just skipped to when my murderous akii shows up but #fruits basket is one of my defining pieces of media #the manga more than the anime although the new anime does a FANTASTIC job of adapting it #(they cut a bunch out of the third season which feels weird after everything to that point is pretty much #an exact chapter by chapter adaptation of the manga #BUT #the part i was most upset about being cut got turned into the movie so) #but like #fruits basket as a story influenced so much of how i write and conceive of people and etc. #the manga is very much about everybody has reasons for why they do what they do #everyone is broken #even if they don't show it #even if it shows up in different ways #and i remember when it first started coming out how there was a group of us reading it who had our own characters #i was hiro (although i wanted to be kisa i think) #we didn't get far enough in before i moved #i know now that akito is me #in danganronpa terms - tohru is ryoko to akito's junko #akito is nothing like junko i need you to understand #but in terms of foils to each other and what they represent and how they interact with the zodiac #tohru is light and warmth and hope #akito is constrictive and dark and despair #i just #ugh i love furuba #i love furuba so much #noir is my favorite anime but fruits basket is my manga and left the biggest impact