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coyotevallie · 1 year

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if i had a nickel for every time i asked you for headcanons about an autistic penumbra podcast character i’d have two nickels, which isn’t a lot, but it’s weird that it happened twice (ie: please talk about cecil being autistic thanks)

YES YES YES . THANK YOU FOR ENABLING ME REENTERING MY CECIL KANAGAWA ERA U WILL DEFINITELY NOT REGRET THIS (lies)

okay so right . before i get into my Personal hcs i feel like i should explain why he is literally so fucking autistic to the point that despite being a oneoff chara he to this day is one of my strongest supported autistic hcs . because i could go into like Depth and pick apart a bunch of tiny little details but literally if i just in very broad strokes describe him as "a guy with an extremely narrow interest that he zeroes in on and impulsively buys tons of things out of excitement for it and who is infantilized by his mother despite being a grown adult and whose 'best friend' in fact seems to deeply resent him a fact he is entirely clueless of because of his inability to read the very obvious social cues" and ull be MORE than convinced so why would i bother

speaking of which he has a special interest on ancient torture devices which is like two steps away from canon anyway <3 his show is one massive excuse to infodump on the subject . pov youre about to get your head chopped off and you just want to get it over with but unfortunately your would-be murderer is giddily explaining the history of the guillotine

i think hes like . he has this weird masking thing that he cant stop doing where he basically CONSTANTLY even when hes not on camera acts like hes acting like hes constantly flourishing and performing for a camera and an audience and shit . its part of why people tend to find him kind of obnoxious because hes CONSTANTLY doing his stage persona bc thats just how he masks and gets thru social interaction while still seeming charismatic and he doesnt really know how to switch it off totally

VERY VERY VERY stimmy he cant hold still hes CONSTANTLY moving especially when hes talking . usually this shows as him just pacing back and forth and flourishing in the air while he talks but when ehs VERY excited he flaps his hands a lot and claps his hands and giggles . he kicks his legs when hes sitting down a lot hes basically always swinging his legs bc he cant hold still but when he gets hyped up its VERY AGGRESSIVE . which is bad bc hes always wearing very thick boots

he like . he masks a lot to hide Social Awkwardness which hes pretty good at but hes very very bad at masking his emotions if hes uspet hes UPSET . especially with sensory issues if you ruffle his hair when hes not expecting it he gets VERY FLAILY and makes a lot of dismayed noises he cant really regulate his reactions to stuff at all . im crazy about cecil and junos weird half-friendship so i think he Knows cecils ways of reacting to stuff and like just out of habit he immediately course corrects whenever cecil makes one of his little agh argh rhghrhg noises that means hes overwhelmed and trying Very Badly to mask it . dont let anyone kno tho they cant know juno (ugh) Doesnt Want Cecil To Be Upset or whatever

he likes lots of pressur!!!!!! im weak for the idea of the cameramen just being silly little dogs when theyre not doing their work and shit so he likes just lying down and letting one of these MASSIVE fucking genetically engineered monster creatures just fwop on him so he has pressure . tbh

ok im going on forever i can talk about how autismcore he is for hours . but last hc i swear i swear . hes very much a sensory seeking autistic he cant handle Surprise sensations but he LOVES sensory input when hes the person thats Causing It To Occur. he always has SUPER BRGIH SPOTLIGHTS on even when ehs not filming because he likes the bright light he likes clothes that he can swish around for the sound and feel and look of it hes VERY VERY VERY physically clingy for the stim of physical affection juno steel cannot enter the kanagawa household without cecil hanging off his arm

hes my skrunkly skringlo my blorbo boytoy etc etc etc

#I LOOOOVE HIM #hes so autismcore #i went a little overboard . im insane abt him #anyway #cecil kanagawa #the penumbra podcast

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crystalwillow · 4 years

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The Birth

Pairing: Ethan Ramsey x Casey Valentine (F!MC)

Tagging: @kiteplayschoices @brycelahelalover @obsessedheehee @eleanorbloom @fuseboxmusebox @vibrantlyjaz @kaavyaethanramsey @queencarb @schnitzelbutterfingers @ramseysno1rookie @caseyvalentineramsey @ethanramseyswhore @whippedforethanfreakingramsey

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Casey was being ran to the maternity ward. "Where's Ethan?" she asked, "Someone's gone to find him" A nurse told her. "I need him here. I need him!" she cried out as she was helped on to the bed "Please. I need my husband!" she pleaded with the nurse who reassured her they were doing everything they could to get him there as quickly as possible. About an hour had passed and Casey was now a little more comfortable in a hospital gown as she laid on the bed, breathing in gas and air as she cried from the sudden bursts of pain "OOOOOOOOWWWWWW" she cried as the door flew open and someone rushed in "Casey! Sweetheart!" Ethan exclaimed as he ran towards her bed, dropping the hospital bag on the floor. "I'm sorry I took so long. I was stuck with a patient and then I had to rush home to get the bag and-" He rambled as he panted heavily from running "You're here n- agh!" Casey grimaced as she got another contraction. "It huuuurrrrrtttssss" she whined before breathing in the gas and air again.

Ethan sat in the chair and tried to help his wife through it. 2 hours later and Casey was still in labor, panting harder and harder as the minutes ticked by. "why don't you come up onto the bed darling? Kneeling on the floor can't be comfortable" Ethan said softly. "Because the bed isn't comfortable either and I'm stuck, you moron!" Casey yelled at him. "Should I get you a nurse?" he asked. "should I get you a nurse? YES GET ME A FUCKING NURSE YOU BASTARD! THESE CHILDREN ARE COMING OUT NOW AND I'M STUCK DOWN HERE!" She yelled further whilst mocking the way he asked his question. "Very well." He said and stepped outside the room "NURSE! THE CHILDREN ARE COMING!!!!" He yelled in a pitch that nobody had heard before. It even snapped Casey out of the fact she was giving birth on a hospital floor. He stepped back in the room and smiled. "They're here" he stated as he made his way over to her and started helping her up. The nurses ran into the room, immediately helping Ethan get Casey up and onto the bed. "This is all your fault Ethan. I told you to stop being so beautiful and good looking. I wanted to walk away. THIS IS YOUR FAULT DAMN IT!" she yells as she laid back on the bed just as another contraction came. Ethan chuckled as he took her hand "I can't help that I got my fathers good looking genes" he remarked sassily with a smirk. Casey looked at him and managed a brief laugh, "you're too cocky for your own goOOOOOOD. FUCKING HEELLLLLLLLLA!" she shouted as she gripped Ethan's hand with a death grip, turning his knuckles white. "ow. Casey, ow. You're hurting my hand. Ow ow ow" Ethan complained "SHUT IT. IM IN MORE PAIN RIGHT NOW!" Casey continued shouting at him.

After a further agonizing 3 hours 57 minutes, Casey was about to give her final push to deliver baby number 3. Ethan had stepped up and was doing his best to guide his wife professionally through the final stretch, as he wanted to be the one to deliver the last child. "That's it sweetie. On the next contraction I'm going to need you to give one final push with everything you have in you okay?" he said as he stroked her knee. The contraction came and Casey pushed as hard as she could, and with that the baby came out. Ethan cut the cord and a nurse took care of the rest. Casey relaxed back and cried into her arm as the final baby started to cry whilst it was being weighed and cleaned up. Ethan hugged her tight. Kissing her temple, eyes glossing over as a proud feeling spread through his chest. "You done amazing sweetie. Absolutely amazing. You delivered us a gift, you should get some sleep" he whispered soothingly. She hugged him back "I want to hold them first. Please?" she asked as she sniffled, calming down from the crying. 3 nurses brough them over, "Congratulations Casey. You've given birth to 3 healthy babies. 2 boys and a girl" one of them smiled as they carefully passed over 2 babies laying them on her chest and passed baby number 3 to Ethan "Congratulations to you as well Ethan" the nurse smiled "thank you" Ethan smiled back as he sat in the chair next to Casey's bed and the nurses left the room to give them privacy. "I love you little one. I'm going to do everything I can to be the best father I can be. If anyone ever breaks your heart, I'll make sure they're sorry. Nothing or nobody will hurt you" Ethan mumbled to the small newborn in his arms as he gently cradled it. Casey looked at him and smiled "You're already an amazing father babe" she whispered. Ethan looked at her and smiled back "Thank you." is all he could managed to get out before tears streamed down his face as he smiled at his wife and 2 other perfect children laying on her chest. The feeling he had been searching for his whole life was finally being felt. As he sat in the chair and sighed contently he whispered to himself "I finally feel complete."

Casey smiled at him and started crying too. The Ethan she met all those years ago, was no longer the Ethan next to her today. Of course she knew that part of him still existed and he used it when necessary but the man that sat next to her today, was forthcoming with his kindness and approachable. He was smiling and crying tears of joy and not pain. Ethan rose to his feet and placed the baby in it's cot, then done the same with the other two before sitting on the bed next to Casey, taking her hand. He sniffled and dabbed his eyes with his white coat, then laid his head into her chest and hugging her tight, lost for words. But Casey could feel the rawness in his emotion and communicated back to him through her own. They stayed like that for a while. "I love you" Casey finally spoke as she played with Ethan's hair but got no response. She moved his hair back to look at his face and saw he was fast asleep. "such an angel" she whispers as she kissed his temple, closing her own eyes and falling asleep, holding his hand.

About an hour later a nurse entered the room quietly and stumbled upon the scene of Ethan asleep on Casey's chest. She poked her head out back into the corridor "pssst. Sarah. Come look at this" she whispered to a nearby nurse who walked round and poked her head into the door. "awwwww. They really are perfect for each other." She whispered with a smile before returning to work. The nurse entered and placed a gentle hand on his arm "Dr. Ramsey" she spoke quietly. "shhhh" he mumbled, and the nurse smiled to herself "Dr. Ramsey" she repeated in the same tone and both Ethan and Casey stirred, opening their eyes and looking at the nurse "Hmmm?" Casey hummed as Ethan snuggled to her chest falling back to sleep. She smiled at Casey, "could you let him know that some results he was waiting on have come back. They're urgent." Casey smiled and nodded at the nurse, who thanked her and left the room. "Ethan honey." She spoke quietly "whaaaat?" he grumbled like an annoyed teenager. "Urgent results you were waiting on have come back. They're looking for you" She continued stroking his hair as she told him. "nnnnngh. I don't wanna leave you" he further groaned as he sat up stretching, rubbing the sleep from his eyes and giving a yawn. He looked over at his 3 newborns "did we decide names?" he asked. Clearly trying to avoid having to go and get the results "Ethan." Casey warned, "Fineeeee. We'll name them when I come back. I'm going!" he exclaimed defeatedly. Casey gave him a kiss then once he was gone snuggle back down in the bed going back to sleep. Late that afternoon when Ethan had a break he came back to see Casey and brought flowers and a card, along with a bottle of her favourite water and a sandwich. He smiled as he entered and looked at his wife, as she was feeding one of the babies. "Hey" she smiled as he sat next to her in the chair, getting comfortable. "I've been thinking of a name for our little girl" he said. Casey looked at him giving him a looked that told him to continue. "Lillian Rose Ramsey" he said, and Casey choked up as she looked into his eyes "Rose?" she smiles through tears. He nods "She should carry your grandma's name in hers" he says softly, kissing a tear off her cheek. "What about the boys?" she asked. "Jacob and-" he ponders "Ethan Jr" Casey said confidently. Ethan breath seemed to leave his body as he looked at Casey with wide eyes, "I'm serious" she said. "Okay. Lillian, Jacob and Ethan Jr" he confirmed with a smile.

Casey and the triplets spent the night at the hospital and the next morning Tia and Sienna helped Casey to the atrium to meet Ethan. When they got there, the rest of their friends were there with presents and a cake. Jackie stepped forward and gave Casey a hug, which was happily returned. "You look less tired than I expected" Jackie joked as they sat down. Casey chuckled, "I feel pretty disgusting." The group talked for a while whilst they waited for Ethan, they were getting ready to call him when he walked over in his uniform, bags under his eyes that are darkest than the circles round a pandas eyes. "Holy crap you look scary" Bryce blurted without thinking before the words left his mouth, earning a slap round the head and scowl from Tia. "thank you. Lahela. I know" he said, low spirited. "Have you been at work all night?" Casey said as she stepped forward. He smiled shyly and rubbed the back of his neck. "ETHAN JONAH RAMSEY!" she exclaimed "I'm absent for one night and you work yourself to this state. Why?" she placed a hand one his shoulder. "we should get you to the on-call room Dr. Ramsey" Sienna said, face full of worry. "I need to get Cas-" he started "No! you cannot drive like this! Bryce, Jackie & Elijah make sure he gets to the on-call room and take turns keeping an eye on him. I'll go and wait for him in the nearest park" she said. "I'll help you!" Tia chirped and together they made their way to the nearest park, with Casey settling on a bench next to a food and drink van before Tia bided her farewell and headed back to the hospital. Soon it was getting dark and colder so Casey called Jackie. It took a couple of rings but soonshe picked up

"hey Casey"

"Hey J. Is he up yet?"

"No. He's still out cold. Snoring rather loudly too"

"Snoring? Jackie, he never snores. I'm the noisy sleeper"

"really?"

"yes. Are his airways okay? He's not in an awkward position is he?"

"no. no.. he's okay as far as that stuff goes."

"okay. Well keep an eye on him for me."

"will do. And we've sent Bryce to come and take you home"

"Cool. Thank you. See you later"

"laters!"

Casey sighed and hung up, muttering under her breath as she waited for Bryce to arrive and take her home. About 45 minutes later, she was home and waving goodbye to Bryce as he pulled out of her driveway, settling in for her first night as a mother at home. The next morning there was a knock at the door and Casey walked to it "this is absurd. I have my key" Ethan complained as the door opened "Someone order a well-rested husband" Sienna beamed at Casey who hugged her tightly. "Thank you. So much." She sighed happily, "No problem. I can't stay though. Duty calls!" Sienna chirped happily as she ran back to her car. And with a quick wave she was gone, Casey and Ethan going back inside. Casey got back to cleaning whilst Ethan went upstairs and grabbed a shower. Later the two adjusted to parenthood together and by the end of the night they collapsed on the couch and fell asleep cuddled up, exhausted but knowing they wouldn't change this for anything in the world.

#choices stories you play #playchoices #pixelberry studios #oph f!mc #casey valentine #ethan ramsey #ethan ramsey fanfiction #open heart fanfiction #choices fanfiction #dr casey valentine #dr ethan ramsey #dr ramsey x dr valentine #ethan x casey

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moon-yeongjun · 3 years

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The Girlfriend Test || Moon Princess

Summary: Haru thinks Eomma is testing her and forces Jun to answer questions about himself. Forced bonding ensues. (We did this like middle of February so then i guess, after the awkward family lunch (tm) )

@princess-haru-chan

Haru

do you know what your eomma said to me today

Mr. Jun Moon

do i want to

Haru

she said "oh yeong-jun takes a little while to open up about things, doesn't he? He's always been that way." Do you know why she said that?

Mr. Jun Moon

no idea

im sure she didnt blame my abeoji's own emotional withdrawal did she?

joke

Haru

she said that because I don't know anything about you because I think she was testing me secretly!

Mr. Jun Moon

pfft she was not

besides we just started to date

this is when you get to know me or whatever

Haru

she kept asking me questions that I thought were harmless but then she looked at me like she pitied me because I didn't know any of the answers

I think she would be a very good spy

Mr. Jun Moon

she is not testing you!

Haru

I didn't suspect her at all and then she judged me SHE IS

Mr. Jun Moon

also stop talking to my eomma when im not around this wouldnt happen if you just avoided her at all costs

when did this even happen??

Haru

she snuck into the market!

I have to talk to her when I'm at work jun

I can't be ride

rude

this is stressing me out you have to tell me all the things a girlfriend would know

Mr. Jun Moon

a girlfriend wouldnt know anything yet!

there isnt anything to know-- besides you DO know things you know more than anyone else! i have no idea what she would even ask you pah

Haru

what is your favorite meal she said she could teach me to make it for you if I knew what it was BUT I DIDNT I looked stupid

Mr. Jun Moon

agh well that's silly you don't need to learn to make me food

you barely know how to work a stovetop

Haru

she's gonna find out

what's your favorite color what do you like to eat what music do you like

Mr. Jun Moon

YEESH

these are stupid questions!

if she asks about food fine fine naengmyeon

i don't have a favourite colour im not FIVE

the strokes are my favourite band

there?

Haru

I've never listened to them. Should i?

Mr. Jun Moon

if you want?

Haru

what songs

Mr. Jun Moon

you dont have to

Haru

well I want to I feel like a girlfriend would listen to music you like like when she's with you right

Mr. Jun Moon

tiffany didnt do that i dont know

Haru

hmm

give me three songs and I'll listen to them

Mr. Jun Moon

fine

Someday

hard to explain

agh its too hard to pick just one other

just listen to Is This It, it's their best album

Haru

okay I will

and I need to try that food you mentioned

Mr. Jun Moon

i'll make it for you

though i think you've already had it before, you must have

at some lunch

it is the cold noodles? with the beef broth, usually has vegetables

Haru

oh that! Yeah that's delicious. You should still make it for me though so I can say how good yours is

Mr. Jun Moon

cant you just say that anyway

Haru

that would be a good touch

I could but it would be more convincing if I could say WHY

Mr. Jun Moon

fine fine fine

do you...listen to music

Haru

I do

Tae has shown me some of his its sort of angry I like the happier stuff

I like pop

Mr. Jun Moon

ha you will not like the strokes

eomma doesnt like them either you can bond over that

Haru

hey I might

Mr. Jun Moon

i dont think so

Haru

I also like pianos

Mr. Jun Moon

tae inherited half his music from me you know

he always stole my cds the little punk

Haru

aww he looks up to you

Mr. Jun Moon

no he was just trying to be annoying

Haru

I dont think so

Mr. Jun Moon

he did not like me when he was younger

well he did not like me between the ages of 9 and 16

Haru

I also like my 90s station on my phone I forgot to say that

thats all it says it says 90s

Mr. Jun Moon

there is a lot of music in the 90s

Haru

also he probably did like you you might have pushed him away if i could guess im just saying

Mr. Jun Moon

/i/ did not push him away

that was not my fault!

i wasnt even AROUND he just hated me without any real reason

has he talked to you...

does he talk to you about his friends

Haru

sometimes. He talks about nemo a lot

he also says you're bad at feelings but you care about people I said I was bad at feelings too

Mr. Jun Moon

yah dont talk to him about me

Haru

why not :)

Mr. Jun Moon

because now i'm your boyfriend and thats breaking some kind of rule

Haru

is it really?

ugh why are there so many rules

Mr. Jun Moon

no idea! it is one of humanity's downfalls

im sure you have your own rules though eh

Haru

yeah you marry stupid people your parents tell you to marry even if you don't want to get married at all

Mr. Jun Moon

ah well that's basically the same for the most part

maybe not as literal

parents love their children to get married though thats just being a part

*parent

Haru

well it's stupid

Mr. Jun Moon

yes it is but ah well what can you do

Haru

run away forever? Lol

Mr. Jun Moon

maybe if you're a cat princess

Haru

maybe if I go home you can come too and run away for a bit. Do you think you'd make a good cat lol

Mr. Jun Moon

ha no

and besides i am not a cat princess so i cannot run away

i will be staying right here

Haru

well if you change your mind I'll try to take you along for a little vacation one day maybe lol if I can even figure out how to go back

or if I want to

Mr. Jun Moon

i will be much too busy with the store

but thank you, i suppose

Haru

what's your ideal vacation spot if you could vacation?

I dont know a lot about the world here but I could look it uo

Mr. Jun Moon

i would go back home to boseong-gun

Haru

is it nice there

Mr. Jun Moon

it is quiet and boring actually

but very beautiful

Haru

my favorite place back home was the rose garden

it was very big and no one ever really went there so I would sit on a stone and just watch the wind play with the flowers. It was peaceful. I think that's the one thing I actually miss

Mr. Jun Moon

well that does sound nice

there are beautiful places in enchantra like that. maybe that would help

Haru

you think so?

Mr. Jun Moon

no idea but there is a glen there with flowers

who knows

just an idea

Haru

I might do that

maybe you should take walks

Mr. Jun Moon

i have no time for walks

besides i am not homesick

Haru

you seem like a guy who would like walks

Mr. Jun Moon

i live at home lol

no i would not

Haru

okay but you're stressed out

Mr. Jun Moon

and what would a walk do? i have my methods of relaxing

Haru

like what

Mr. Jun Moon

i play games

Haru

oh like Mario kart tae showed me that

it looks hard

Mr. Jun Moon

maybe at first but then you practice and it is very straight forward

an easy game really

Haru

can you teach me to play?

Mr. Jun Moon

ehh...

its not that ... i think you should have tae or the girls teach you

Haru

why?

Mr. Jun Moon

eomma wouldnt like me teaching you

she doesnt like me playing them that much anyway but if you do it with tae or the girls then thats fine

like family bonding or something

Haru

okay

maybe ill get really good and then beat you

Mr. Jun Moon

very unlikely

Haru

a cat can dream!

Mr. Jun Moon

hah well she certainly can

Haru

im gonna start reading game techniques now while I listen to those songs! Goodnight jun!

Mr. Jun Moon

alright then. good night haru

#moon princess #text

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notconsolation · 7 years

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alright here we go, the moment i've been waiting for all my life: holding onto you, addict with a pen, isle of flightless birds, taxi cab, kitchen sink, lane boy aaaandddd doubt

The buildup has been a long time coming but I think this is the true pinnacle of both of our existences. So. Heads up I think this turned into a mini rant about my feelings on each song. It turns out I don’t half ass things when it comes to music. Be warned. This is really freaking long.

Holding on to youGoddamn this song is so genius, especially in its relative simplicity (relative to their other songs - it has fewer layers, fewer different synths, the repetitive keyboard track that forms the basis keeps a beat in such a way that the drums are free to be more of a tool for emphasis and emotion than timekeeping agh oh god I could go on for a long time) and the entire second verse is Tyler at the peak of his talent for taking these painful pictures and notions of suicide and pain and internal darkness and focusing them in a way that makes me want to belt it out full of emotion, and also the “it ain’t the speakers that bump hearts, it’s our hearts that make the beat” !!!!!!!! The motto by which my heart keeps pounding against my ribcage. But I think it’s got to be: “and now that I write and think about it and the story unfolds, you should take my life, you should take my soul” because to me it’s about how expressing things through writing and creating just allows you to rethink everything and whenever I create anything I want to give it my entire lifeblood and pour my soul into it, so the “you should take my life, you should take my soul” is both about these intense feelings of depression and the willingness to give oneself over to ones art entirely

Addict with a penThis one takes my lungs and wrings them out like a wet rag. “I know I haven’t been the best of sons”. I think it has to be that. But the water imagery. I know I’ve talked somewhere on here about my penchant for water imagery and the semantic field of religious imagery and saving and drowning and good lord does this one play into that. I remember falling asleep once while singing this to myself and just crying and it was beautiful and cathartic.

Isle of flightless birdsSo this song I love mainly for the catchy and fast drum beat that introduces the song along with the keyboard with a synth distortion that for whatever reason makes me think of renaissance fairs. Also because Tyler doesn’t use B major very often so it feels kind of special because (you guys I don’t know how many of you I’m losing to this music jargon but it gets me so excited) it’s got this warm and vaguely nasal sound to it that I just,,, okay I realize I’m way off track. Not terribly profound but I really like: “and time will fly by and the sky will cry as light is fading” because it’s a goddamn beautiful image. And the idea that the sky doesn’t want to let go of light is beautiful too.

Taxi cabI cannot think of this song without also thinking of this old tweet I think Tyler once posted with a picture of him rolling his eyes with the caption: when they won’t play the old stuff. Because they never play this one.for me this is their version of a ballad in the sense that it really is a story. It always sort of felt like a part two of a car, a torch, a death to me and I don’t quite know why. But. The syncopated rhythm and repeated basic chords which I can’t actually quite remember but I think is mostly a variation on an A chord? Anyway. What I love so very very very very much about this song is that it’s a story (and such a beautiful one at that goddamn I want to read short stories written by angsty teen ty) but it feels like a cop out to use that as a reason to say my favourite lyrics are the whole song. So: “we’re driving towards the morning sun where all your blood is washed away and all you did will be undone”. I have goosebumps even just thinking it to myself. I just. I’m actually shivering. It makes me think of blood oranges and salt and suits without ties and I just. Hmspje.

Kitchen sinkHooo boy so on the one hand I think this song is slightly overhyped. The hipster in me rebels. At the same time I fucking get the hype because the haunting way Tyler sings the chorus, zack’s rap, the idea and thought behind the concept of a kitchen sink being something to stay alive for because only you know its meaning….. !!!¡¡! But honestly I think I’m gonna go with the super simple and profoundly visceral “leave me alone” when it’s immediately juxtaposed by “don’t leave me alone”. The way he fucking howls it, the simple expression of how messy the feeling is, both in sounds and words, the way that the chords in the main instrumental melody line up in emphasis with the drums….! I have feelings. Many of them.

Lane boyI love how bubbly this one sounds? Somehow? And it’s got a sort of reggae vibe? Which DUDE I am so into. Not the song I relate to most obviously because it’s about success and pressure to keep it up so um duh not thaaat relatable but still Such. A. Tune. Favourite lyrics: “if it was our way we’d have a tempo change every other time change” cause yeeesss same you guys.

Aaaaaand DoubtChrist okay so. I’ll be honest this was the last song on bf that I got into. I was at a nondescript crossing in the middle of nowhere in Denmark thinking about why hell is cold for some and hot for others and also thinking of ancestral memories. Anyway. I was super tired and pulled out my iPod and put it on and it hit me properly for the first time. And it did fuckingg hit me. The sort of high strung punchy synths and heavy heavy basslines and the almost autotuned sound of Tyler’s voice somehow rounds it out because it’s about Doubt and the word Doubt itself is broken apart in the chorus but it all sounds so smooth and round, especially in combination with the synths!!! You can see I think about this possibly too much. Anyway, favourite lyrics. For one thing, the anaphers at the beginning of the lines and the way they hold it all together and give it a phonetic coherence that belies the way he’s talking about uncertainty by being punchy and certain. But specifically: “temperature is dropping, temperature is dropping, I’m not sure if I can see this ever stopping, shaking hands with the dark parts of my thoughts, no, you are all that I’ve got,no” because Tyler, you continue to be #relatable

Jesus im sorry what a fucking novel

#ask #song analysis

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2djdanger · 7 years

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RAMBLINGS OF AN ANIMATION STUDENT ON THE BOSS BABY AND THE INDUSTRY ITSELF AND WHY I LOVE THE BOSS BABY WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL:

Words cannot describe the love I have for The Boss Baby. I saw an advanced screening of it a few weeks back with the director there & it blew my mind it’s like 3D animation meets 2D along with gorgeous art & so many opposites attract motifs like the baby acting like an adult & the graphic bold bright comic book feel type scenes that also meet this almost soft pastel 1950s/1960s vibe going on. AND THE EMOTION IN EVERYONES FACES AGH IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY AS AN ANIMATOR!!! It’s such a fast paced movie & everything happening at once & throughout all this everyone’s showing a variety of different emotions in a few seconds & the writing is amazing like not many animated films these days go back to the roots of traditional animation & just making it for a wide variety of an audience from all walks of life instead of making the same movie over & over again with great animation but a story line that seems rushed & choppy & not thought out but they keep making sequels anyways whether we wanted them or not just because m o n e y. I’m looking at u Disney with almost everything & Illumination with Despicable Me. It’s not to say that I don’t like sequels bc those companies have made some I enjoyed but it makes me disappointed when they could be putting their talents towards something fresh & new & original. This movie was o r i g i n a l in every sense of the word. Go take your kids to see it, yourself, your parents (I took mine & im a fully grown adult as are they & we loved it), your grandparents, your grandparent’s grandparents!!! It’s so great!!! It’s literally what the 3D animation community needed. I’m a traditional/2D animator myself & it seems more of the 2D movies out there recently have been trying to keep it original and don’t even get me started on the amount of work the animators do in not only 2D but 3D as well. But like recently 3D animation seems obsessed with the technology realizing they can make anything look more & more realistic nowadays then say when Pixar created Toy Story & their shorts in the 80s. These big companies keep churning out these movies not putting much thought into it & spending everything to make it look as real as possible. But that’s not the point of animation at all! They’re losing touch with why we animate in the first place!!! As my old storyboarding teacher once told our class on why we animate, we animate because it shouldn’t be possible in the real world. When you make anything animated you should stop & think: why am I making this story animated? Does it really need to be animated? Can I do this in live action? If you can make a story in live action then why are you animating it at all in the first place? It doesn’t need to be animated! Literally animation is just beautiful. You can do anything with it. And more & more especially with the technology in 3D films they’re slipping away from those values & ideas & making things that can be replicated in live action. So to see The Boss Baby really utilize the original concept of animation to tell that beautiful crazy impossible story & to top it off tell it through the bright eyes of an over imaginative child make it all the more better because it gives way to these big brilliant imagination sequences with these bold graphic designs that I’d die for. The editing and the animation in this movie is literally perfection it’s one thing flows into another into another into another & it works ANNND THERES EVEN GOOD COMEDIC TIMING!!! Sometimes movies live action & animated just can’t capture that kind of fast paced back to back tension followed by good comedic timing so to the writing team on The Boss Baby I say bravo to you & to the animators as well because God knows how difficult it is to draw out a normal sequence of actions but to follow the writing & get that vision out there in the open & follow it & draw it out so every detail works that’s just insane. This movie just inspires me so much & it’s relatable. My childhood was like Tim’s where everything was perfect & I was happy until my baby sister came along & we went at it for years. Another thing back to the genius writing in the film is this style where it forces you into Tim’s shoes because when they first introduce Boss Baby & for the first half of the film you’re made to hate him & he acts as the villain of the film until about halfway through Boss Baby really comes out of his 1 dimensional evil villain shell & just sees Tim in distress & reveals why it’s not only bad for Tim the current situation but why it’s bad for him too & then proceeds to give Boss Baby this insane narrative & beautifully tragic multidimensional backstory. Tim as the first main character has already been developed as a multidimensional character with different feelings & emotional expressions because he doesn’t know much about the world except for his imagination since he is a kid but by showing this then completely flipping everything on it’s head & giving Boss Baby real flaws & strengths that balance out Tim’s strengths & weaknesses it makes them seem a lot more like real relatable people & more so like siblings who depend on each other. As an older sister I can say some of my weaknesses end up being my sisters strengths & vice versa. Then by the end of the film,Boss Baby is this character you can't help but love & root for hoping he wins & can get out of the bad situations like when his formula was stolen so he kept going baby again it's like you feel panicked because you don't want Boss Baby to be normal you want him to be his crazy quirky self. Also this whole tragic narrative really hit me like it just stuck with me because I’m a sucker for these kinds of dark/sad stories layered in a brighter happier story & they coexist in harmony like that’s when you know a film’s really working. So SPOILERS AHEAD even though if you got this far there have already been some light spoilers I couldn’t avoid talking about but these get right into the grit of it. So the idea that Boss Baby was never really born fascinates me. In this world in the movie it makes sense. It’s also really sad as Tim points out as we’re finding out more about Boss Baby that he never had a childhood & how Boss Baby even says himself he was “born” or more so created (in both the universe of the movie & if he was self aware ((which he isn’t but for the sake of explaining this just humor the thought if he was)) that he was created as a character to work in this movie world realm plane of existence whatever you want to call it) all grown up as an adult in a baby’s body. Just think about that for a minute. What if you were born an adult & never went through childhood, never had a family, no one ever loved you or played with you or anything, all you knew was co-workers & business stuff. You never had fun or imagined things. That’s a really sad life if you ask me personally. He never had a chance to be creative or find himself all he knew was what the cold adult business school taught him from day 1. Most adults these days forgot what it was like to be a child & have fun & I think that’s what they were trying to get at with this backstory especially when Tim’s on the plane to Vegas with Boss Baby & just trying to teach him in small little ways how to use his imagination & just be a kid & not be so serious & black & white all the time. Also, I feel like that’s the issue sometimes with my own parents. As an animator I see animated movies as just another way of telling a story whereas people like my parents who don’t understand much from my line of work see it as a children’s media with no substance & pretty pictures. I want to break that barrier because the first animated pieces were NOT made for kids they were for other adults. I feel like it shouldn’t matter anyways if the movie’s marketed for kids because it could always be a good movie regardless of that & people like my parents forget what it’s like to have fun & see a good kids movie. They were kids once, we all were. As with many animated films before it, The Boss Baby brings subtle tasteful adult humor to the film as well as some just downright outrageous adult humor like Boss Baby running around butt naked with a censor bar over his nether regions. When you can marry adult & child humor together in a movie & make it work nicely it’s always a sign of a good movie. So tonight’s the opening night of The Boss Baby in cinemas everywhere & because I have so much love for this movie after seeing the advanced screening & listening to the director, producer, & designer from the movie speak about it & their own experiences they put into this film, like I stated before I dragged my parents out of the house on a Friday night when they would normally be in bed sleeping really early & shared the joy & beauty of the animated feature film with them. Normally my dad’s the one who will give almost any film a try & watch it & really like it. My mom however is extremely picky & if it doesn’t please her in the first 10 minutes or less she will zone out & fall asleep taking a nap through over half the movie. Both of my parents were on the edge of their seats tonight paying the utmost attention to the movie. It was a really beautiful moment to see my parents actually giving this animated movie a shot & they both ended up loving it as much I did on my second go seeing it. I’m not gonna lie I saw the trailers for this movie late last year & it caught my interest but I had this nagging thought that it wasn’t going to be a fresh new story it would just be typical & only made to make some money & keep Dreamworks in the game another year. I was happily proven wrong & this movie just takes everything about these money making no story movies & flips it on its head entirely. I even bought the art book for The Boss Baby because the artwork alone is enough to inspire me while working on my own projects. And that my friends is why you need to see The Boss Baby

TL;DR: The Boss Baby is an A+ gorgeously animated film with a breath of fresh air new story told in a way that’s really interesting & new & takes you back to the old days of 2D animation classics despite being a 3D film so disregard Rotten Tomato’s obviously wrong ratings & go see it for yourself because as an animator this movie makes me happy & I want to live in it forever ❤️❤️❤️

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